BRENNAGIRL's SparkPeople Blog BRENNAGIRL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I May Fall, But I Can Get Up! Lordy, did I hate that commercial. I mean I may have chuckled the first 1000 times I heard it. "Ive Fallen and I Can't Get Up." Remember it? The parodies. The jokes. They were everywhere. Not quite as bad as that Titanic song, but awful close. <BR> <BR> The week before last was a particularly bad week for me. A lot of stress at home and at work. My hormones were going crazy - I am turning fifty in less than two weeks and that's part of the fun. <BR> <BR> I had a wild look in my eye, like a ... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 02:23:37 EST I've never been perfect - and I'm still not. Late in the evening I screwed up. I got into the peanut butter. My nemesis. I felt awful as soon as I was done. In the middle of the night I woke up and realized that I was stressed about life at home and what I was going to do. I was hurting a bit and made myself hurt more. <BR> <BR> I'll be damned if that old habit is coming back. Me. The couch. A jar of peanut butter and a spoon. I realized where it came from. Said 'enough' again and moved on. I refuse to beat myself up for stuff like thi... Wed, 30 May 2012 12:51:33 EST This is the day ... This morning I had the angel/devil on my shoulders. I have a real battle on my hands. I have lost weight and am starting to look more normal. As soon as I get to this point I want to start hurting my progress. <BR> <BR> This is the day that I tell those thoughts to BACK OFF! This is the day that I eat under control. This is the day that I log into Spark and get stick to my routine. This is the day that I break through the wall and keep moving forward. This is the day that I go for my walk e... Mon, 21 May 2012 13:08:23 EST I'm not Indian - I don't even have dark hair, and still OK, so again with the writing blogs for homework as part of the 100 Days of Summer challenges. Here it is 11:37 pm PST and I'm writing a blog about Butter Chicken because I have to in order to get extra points in the challenge. Can anyone say Com-pet-i-tive? <BR> <BR> Like I said in the title, I'm not Indian. Heck my hair is blonde ... at least it is right at the moment. You never know it could change next week. I'm weird that way. And I am turning 50 so I could get into this whole mid-life... Tue, 15 May 2012 03:08:19 EST Attitude means everything - good or bad (100 Days of Summer Week 1) First off. How obvious is it that a journalist came up with the challenges this week? I've had to write two blogs as my homework. I hope I get an "A". <BR> <BR> Today's blog is to be about what I've learned, or the progress I've made this particular week. <BR> <BR> Well let's see - I did learn that I was more fit than I thought I was - see last blog post on that number. Actually today I noticed it again as well. I was hoofin' it up a hill to get to the store, and when I've walked up it befo... Thu, 10 May 2012 21:54:43 EST A Huff and A Puff and I did it! This week I started the "100 Days of Summer" challenge. Part of today's challenge was to walk or run harder (incline or faster) than you normally do. Pfffft I thought. I thought Sunday was to be a day of rest. <BR> <BR> So - it was sunny out. This is great, because it has been raining daily for years ... or so it seems. I guess the vitamin D kicked in and I grabbed the dogs and decided to head up the hill. <BR> <BR> The plan was to only walk to the entrance of the trail that is by my place... Mon, 7 May 2012 01:30:23 EST That's the way the lemon cookie crumbles I guess Last night I was invited to my skinny girlfriends home for dinner. Her husband was away for the evening and she invited skinny girlfriend #2 over as well for a girl's night. Awesome! I haven't had a night with the girls in a long time so I was really looking forward to it. <BR> <BR> My plan was simple. Enjoy a glass of wine as a treat. These are my wine friends after all. Eat a moderate portion of the main course and grain. Load up on veggies. Try to politely talk myself out of dessert and i... Sat, 21 Apr 2012 14:08:16 EST What they say about consistency is true! I joined Spark March 18, 2012. I've been at this for four weeks now. I'm still not a pro, but here's what I've learned so far. <BR> <BR> Things don't have to be fancy to work. Consistency works. I've lost 9lbs in those four weeks and I haven't dieted one day. Seriously, one month in and my family has no idea anything has changed. <BR> <BR> What have I done? I've logged my food intake faithfully every day. I've tried to move my body in some way every day. I've tried to drink my 8 glasses of ... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 19:28:13 EST Week Two done and I'm still happy to be here! I'm a few days into week three on Spark. Here's what's happened so far. <BR> <BR> I've logged in every day. <BR> I've logged my food every day. <BR> I've drank copious amounts of water every day. <BR> I've moved my body in some way every day. <BR> <BR> I've said it before, but it is worth repeating because it is such a big deal to me. I am not dieting. If someone asked me if I was on a diet I'd say 'heck no!' Diets = deprivation to me. I don't feel that at all. Diets = hunger. I don't feel ... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 13:23:51 EST Au I love thee This is a blog post I wrote last November in my personal blog - before joining Spark. And yet this week, it feels so fitting. It's been a hormonal week for me. I think I'm going to have some chocolate today - just not a whole bar. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> From the blog - "Cayla Rambling, Naturally" <BR> <BR> 11/05/2011 <BR> <BR> Oh Chocolate - I long for you. We have been lovers for so long now and yet you still make my heart go pitter patter whenever I see you. My mout... Fri, 30 Mar 2012 10:28:15 EST One week in Well, it's been one week at Spark and it's been a good week! I've learned something about myself. I'm easily fooled. <BR> <BR> Let me explain myself. When I first stated that I was going to log my food intake, which is my initial reason for joining Spark, I dreaded it. It's time consuming, a pain in the butt, blah blah blah. But I said my goal was to log my food for one week. And that I have done. <BR> <BR> Now on to how I am so easily fooled. My calorie range right now is 1200-1550. I ente... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 10:56:35 EST My Ode to turning 50 This is what happens when I take the day off and play. I found an online writing course and was asked to write 20 words about something that was important to me, or an idea. So I did. Then I was asked to put those words into a poem. I wanted to start with "There once was a girl from Nantucket", but restrained myself. This is what came out. <BR> <BR> <BR> My Journey To Fifty <BR> <BR> We each have a road and walk it alone. <BR> A journey only death can sojourn. <BR> Man’s perception is sim... Fri, 23 Mar 2012 09:31:48 EST My Initial Spark Moment - and I was Irish for the Day when it happened Yesterday was St. Patrick's Day. Top 'o the marrnin' to ya and all that. Now be it known, I'm not Irish. Not a drop of Irish blood runs through these veins. Scottish yes. Irish no. But St. Patrick's day involves Irish Whiskey, and beer and general frivolity, whilst Robbie Burns day involves Haggis. Game over. <BR> <BR> So in our house, in our own way we celebrate St. Patrick's Day. I make something traditional for dinner. Buy some Guinness and my husband and I watch a movie in the evening wi... Fri, 23 Mar 2012 09:26:52 EST