BREEVES3's SparkPeople Blog BREEVES3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community maybe some roughness is necessary It's the middle of summer, and in the evenings to unwind it's fun to watch some TV. Since it's reruns on almost every channel (and our satellite provider is having a much-publicized dispute that prevents Comedy Central from playing), I have some favorite shows on USA that I watch. <BR> <BR> One of them is Necessary Roughness, about a therapist who works with (among others) pro athletes for a football team. It's a fun show, and I don't cringe quite so much about the divorce storyline as I us... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 13:33:02 EST I'm still moving, and still here Time flies, yes it does :) <BR> <BR> I'm on SP daily, or very nearly daily, logging exercise and food and clicking around to earn some points and trying to read what y'all are up to. <BR> <BR> My world is in flux, as ever, and this doesn't seem like the time to share too much, but in the very good news department I have moved back home with my family. My focus these last couple months (and the foreseeable future) is to stop causing harm, to try and heal some of the wounds left by my stupi... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 11:17:22 EST Ownership Sometimes, I weigh myself, and if I've gained a pound or so I don't log it here, because I think "Oh, I'll just lose it next week." Sometimes it happens, more often lately it's just wishful thinking. <BR> <BR> But I finally realized that hey, no, I'm sorta stuck at my current weight (which is more than where I want to be) so I might as well plug it into spark people so at least I can be honest with myself. <BR> <BR> 218 today. Even, not 218-point-something. Not a big deal, but more than... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 12:06:05 EST Ready for spring I'm not going to deny, this has been a really crappy time for me. The past year or so. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. <BR> <BR> However, it's life, it happens, things keep going. <BR> <BR> I went for a run this morning and thought I'd take a picture after. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Wed, 29 Feb 2012 09:25:32 EST I missed a goal And yeah, I'm thinking of the recent Glee episode (I didn't watch but saw enough commercials) called I Kissed a Girl as I write the title. The actual working title for this post for the last couple weeks, in my mind, was "Failures, Big and Small." I changed it because focusing on failure, especially in the title, seemed to go against the whole spirit of Spark People. <BR> <BR> For a long time, over a year and a half, my goal has been to weigh 200 pounds by today. I didn't make it. That i... Thu, 1 Dec 2011 19:58:29 EST a year and a half I've been on Spark People for eighteen months now (maybe not precisely that, but really close). <BR> <BR> I have been wanting to write something to celebrate, or at least recognize, this milestone. I keep coming up short. <BR> <BR> Some fabulous things have happened: <BR> <BR> I'm eating much much better than ever before. <BR> I'm exercising regularly, both cardio and strength training. <BR> I've lost almost 80 pounds. <BR> My clothes - I went from wearing 46 inch jeans to 38s. Although ... Tue, 11 Oct 2011 13:38:27 EST I would walk 500 more 500 miles on foot! I did it. <BR> <BR> OK, it has taken a year and a half, but that's partially because I do things the hard way - barefoot. <BR> <BR> I hope I can finish the next 500 miles more quickly. Sun, 25 Sep 2011 08:47:07 EST I'm still here I realize I haven't posted a blog entry in a while, but I'm still on SP daily and I'm still tracking my fitness and nutrition goals. <BR> <BR> I admit I am not quite as careful with my eating right now, which is probably why I'm on a plateau weight-wise, but that's ok, it's just temporary while I sort some things out in the real world. I have a lot of healthy habits to sustain me. Sat, 24 Sep 2011 17:56:26 EST believing in myself Well, today has been a turd from pretty early on. <BR> <BR> It started out FANTASTIC, I mean definitely in the running for Best Monday Evar, and then things started rolling downhill by lunchtime and pretty much hit rock bottom by 6 PM. <BR> <BR> No, the details aren't important, because this is just a dip on the roller coaster that I ride. Here's a cool thing though: I haven't deviated far from the plan. <BR> <BR> I ran this morning (before things turned to crap), I had a healthy breakfas... Mon, 29 Aug 2011 22:43:46 EST keepin on (and a picture) It's nearly the end of August. This hasn't been the most awesome week, nutrition-wise, but in the grand scheme of things (for instance I'm not staring down a hurricane, as millions are) it isn't so bad. <BR> <BR> My car spent two weeks in the shop (long story, you don't really wanna know), so that disrupted my eating routine a bit. I can take a bus to work, but not to lunch, there isn't time. I get my car back and two days later it blows a heater hose (did I mention it's hot here? Thre... Fri, 26 Aug 2011 20:41:48 EST Eating better The office I work in has few options for eating lunch - you can bring something from home, or you can visit a vending machine and have chips or crackers. Most of us either bring something or just go out to eat. <BR> <BR> I spent the morning running errands, and was not hungry when I finally made it to work around 11, so I didn't grab anything while I was out. I planned to just skip lunch and have a good dinner. <BR> <BR> 90 minutes later I was STARVING, so I called my favorite takeout pla... Wed, 24 Aug 2011 15:35:26 EST easy answers It seems that my weight loss has finally reached the point where co-workers feel like they need to comment about it. The past month or so I have received many compliments. <BR> <BR> I am so NOT complaining! <BR> <BR> Everyone is so nice, and some are hesitant to say anything - "are you trying to lose weight?" said cautiously, in case maybe I am sick and it wasn't intentional. I started this particular part of my journey well over a year ago, and the weight came off rather slowly at first ... Thu, 18 Aug 2011 15:47:21 EST not easy being cheesy I don't really have anything to write about; it has been an interesting week, but I took a picture and thought I would share it with y'all. Nothing special... <BR> <BR> 219 pounds this morning, it's been kinda flat for a couple weeks, I don't know if I'm eating too much or not enough. I'm certainly exercising (running, swimming, weights) and avoiding for the most part fast food, but I haven't been super diligent about logging everything so it is possible I'm under nourished a little. Bonu... Wed, 10 Aug 2011 20:52:15 EST another week down Another Saturday! <BR> <BR> I've had a pretty good week, over 15 miles running this week, eating pretty well, etc. The scale says I've lost a half pound, so maybe I should eat a little better, right? <BR> <BR> I'm sick of the bathroom mirror, so here's just a face picture. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Have a great weekend everyone. Sat, 6 Aug 2011 09:31:57 EST a milestone for me As of this morning, according to the handy calculator that SP has someplace, I am no longer obese. <BR> <BR> That's right, I have lost enough weight that I am (just barely) now in the 'overweight' category. When I started I was off the chart, beyond morbidly obese. <BR> <BR> I'm going to have a lowfat yogurt to celebrate. Sun, 31 Jul 2011 10:46:46 EST the one where he talks about yogurt I have in the last couple of weeks finally realized how delicious Greek yogurt really is. <BR> <BR> In the past, I just bought whatever was on sale, or was "light" or had a cool flavor. Now I should say that yogurt is hardly exciting for me, but I do see that it can be nutritious and a good addition to my diet. So one day I was looking at the cooler and happened to spot some Dannon Greek yogurt (it was waaaay down at the bottom and on sale) so I bought a couple. <BR> <BR> It's not as sw... Sun, 24 Jul 2011 09:04:47 EST endorphins FTW I've had a truly rotten couple of days, mood-wise. I'm going through the motions - work, eat, exercise, chores - but just couldn't drag my ass back up to where I need to be. <BR> <BR> To put it bluntly, divorce sucks. <BR> <BR> Anyway. <BR> <BR> Last night I barely slept. When I did I had very strange dreams. I would wake and look at the clock and realize only five or six minutes had passed since the last time I awoke from a strange dream and looked at the clock. I was having a little ... Wed, 20 Jul 2011 09:25:52 EST another keeper I just saw a woman at work whom I haven't seen in a year or more (she works at a different office now). <BR> <BR> She exclaimed "Hi - wow, you look great!" <BR> <BR> Ah, I think I'm gonna relish this one for a while. Tue, 19 Jul 2011 13:18:14 EST bumpity bump I'm getting by. I'm still adjusting to single life. <BR> <BR> I'm getting my routine down, most mornings I go for a run, three days a week I lift weights in the afternoon as well. I'm eating more simply, mostly because I can't be bothered to cook a full meal most nights. However, my kids (my daughter especially) insist I make pasta when they are here. It's as if in their eyes there is only one thing I know how to cook any more :) <BR> <BR> Here's a Good Thing, I guess: I was buying g... Sun, 17 Jul 2011 10:16:58 EST caught! This morning I was running my usual route and passed some guy out for a walk. <BR> <BR> If you don't know me, you may not know that I run barefoot. This means that when I run it is practically silent, unless I'm breathing really hard. You cannot hear my feet on the ground. So when I overtake someone, especially when it is dark or just barely light, I move over to one side so I don't startle them. The last thing I need is to get punched or something silly like that :) <BR> <BR> Anyway,... Fri, 8 Jul 2011 15:11:50 EST I think it was the fourth of July If you are like me, you haven't been able to get Chicago singing "Saturday In the Park" out of your head today. <BR> <BR> OK, chances are, not many of you are like me... <BR> <BR> Anyway. It's not Sunday but I took a picture anyway. Last week, for the first time in a couple months, I gained weight. Not a lot of weight, about three pounds. I'd like to say it's because I did strength training three times last week (instead of two as I have been doing), but c'mon, it's because I had ice cream... Mon, 4 Jul 2011 12:41:03 EST It has been a long time Last weekend I went to Target and bought a new pair of shorts. Since I've been eating better and exercising more, my old shorts were getting a bit baggy. Without a belt they would just fall off. <BR> <BR> I picked a couple pair from the rack, 42" waist and 40". I was wearing a 44" with my belt, but you know how sizes can be, you have to try them on and see. It turns out the 40" fit just fine, and at $12.97 it was an easy choice. <BR> <BR> And all week long I've enjoyed wearing these s... Sat, 2 Jul 2011 16:05:27 EST Gibby, Gibby, Gibby! I've had what can be described as a very interesting couple of weeks. There is much that I don't plan to share on SP (not publicly at least, message me if you really want to know more), but as you'll see, my pictures are coming from a different mirror now. I have moved into a place by myself as my wife and I are separating. <BR> <BR> SP has always been a very supportive and positive place, and I want to do my part to keep it that way, by not bringing folks down. So no, I won't be talking ... Sun, 26 Jun 2011 20:14:55 EST it ain't pretty I'm not really sure why, but I felt like sharing what I looked like this morning after my run. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Sun, 19 Jun 2011 11:50:34 EST Losing focus I've been very "good" about following all the guidelines for quite some time, months I guess; getting extra cardio, doing my strength training 3X a week, eating right. <BR> <BR> The last week or two I haven't done so well. I haven't done BADLY, just not as committed as I was, or that's what it looks like on paper. Since it has gotten hot (really hot) I find excuses to not lift weights, since I do it in the garage. Last week I walked a bunch - two miles almost every day - and this week I w... Thu, 9 Jun 2011 14:16:14 EST I need to write more Writing, for me, is therapeutic. <BR> <BR> So why don't I write more often? Good question. <BR> <BR> I'm busy (we all are). I'm tired when I get a few minutes. I have other priorities, really. But maybe, like so many other habits, I can get back into writing. <BR> <BR> Things in my life are incredibly stressful right now. And I am very thankful that all the habits I've managed to build using Spark People are holding, at least right now. I'm not over-eating. I'm still exercising (b... Thu, 26 May 2011 21:23:14 EST Never ceases to amaze me I have been on SparkPeople for over a year, and some time ago it became a daily habit of mine to check in and read articles and blog posts. <BR> <BR> All this time, of course, I'm eating better and exercising. But still? I'm amazed when I actually make progress. And it's so cool to think that I can talk about it here. Out in the real world, I hate calling attention to myself. I don't go up to friends or family and say "Hey, I lost a pound last week!" If someone asks if I've lost weight... Thu, 12 May 2011 11:21:06 EST "I hate you." This is my favorite compliment this week. <BR> <BR> It was said by a friend and co-worker when I came up the stairs to our department, she went on to say she was just teasing, but was jealous that I was flying up the stairs and not out of breath. <BR> <BR> Win. Tue, 19 Apr 2011 16:08:26 EST looking at the numbers OK, I've been here a year. <BR> <BR> I joined after visiting the doctor because I had really bad heartburn. One day I was eating an apple (healthy, right?) and part of it came back up because my stomach couldn't handle it. So yeah, not very healthy. I was about 289 at that point. <BR> <BR> So I signed up, and I was really excited all summer with earning points and doing things. I started walking barefoot. I lost some weight! <BR> <BR> Things were kinda stagnant for the fall, because... Thu, 14 Apr 2011 15:24:32 EST It's been a year already A year has passed since I joined SP. I won't say it has flown by - it hasn't - but it did pass more quickly than I imagined. <BR> <BR> I took some pictures tonight, here I am. I don't think I have a 'good side' but here you go: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> and <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> That's all I have time for right now, maybe tomorrow I'll try and get philosophica... Wed, 13 Apr 2011 18:48:36 EST Weekend update It's Friday, and wow I haven't written in a while. <BR> <BR> First off, since I know you've been on the edge of your seats since my LAST entry, my routine blood tests came back all normal. So now you know there's at least one normal thing about me. <BR> <BR> Also, I'm closing in on my one year at Sparkpeople, which is next weeks. Since I suck at taking pictures, I'm going to use that very special occasion to go ahead and take one so you can see my progress (or lack of) in the last year. ... Fri, 8 Apr 2011 13:44:51 EST had a physical today It had been a while, so I went to the doctor for a checkup today. I have some blood work yet to be done (she said "it's been 8 or 9 years, I think it's time") but overall: <BR> <BR> Weight: down <BR> Blood pressure: 125 over 75. I'll take it (used to be much higher) <BR> <BR> But there's no pleasing my doctor, I told her I was walking/running five times a week. "You need to sign up for a half marathon, that'll motivate you to do even more!" <BR> <BR> Tue, 29 Mar 2011 20:52:08 EST Wowzers OK, I was as surprised as anyone when I stepped on the scale this morning and it showed I lost 6 pounds this week. <BR> <BR> Dang. <BR> <BR> I know I'm trying to do things right (diet, exercise, rest) but I also know it was an extremely stressful week and that whatever I'm doing may not be sustainable. I know I tend to lose water weight quickly and Saturday I was outside for several hours doing different things with the kids - not really exercising (more than just walking that is) but baki... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 13:15:02 EST Weekends are nice I need the down time, I think. I'm eating right, but yesterday skipped my strength training because I had been in the car all afternoon (appointment out of town) and just couldn't focus enough. Poor excuse, really, I was just being lazy and knew that I could find time today (Saturday) to lift weights. <BR> <BR> We're in limbo, soccer game starts soon. Not soon enough to leave yet but too soon to do anything else in the meantime. So we wait. And I drink coffee. <BR> <BR> Today should be... Sat, 26 Mar 2011 10:20:10 EST Breezy night I ate sensibly all day. <BR> <BR> I just took the dogs for a 20 minute brisk walk. On a rest day. <BR> <BR> I did push-ups between loads of laundry after work. <BR> <BR> <BR> Who IS this person? Tue, 22 Mar 2011 23:04:58 EST That sorta explains a few things So I know I've lost a few pounds recently. I've been trying to track everything I eat on the nutrition tracker, in addition to just eating better. It's no secret that ice cream isn't healthy, for example, and if I look back I will see plenty of Ben and Jerry's on my nutrition trackers. <BR> <BR> Gave up ice cream for Lent, I did. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I was playing around with my profile and such and went into my goals settings and thought I would see what would happen if I let it calculate h... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 13:49:59 EST Weekend update (with pictures) Haha, yeah, I took a picture today. <BR> <BR> On my front page is a 'before' picture, at 280something pounds. <BR> <BR> Here I was a month ago, on February 17, 2011: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And this is March 13: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Now honestly, is there a difference? I feel better, I'm lighter a little, but I'm not seeing it. Or is it because I see myself eve... Sun, 13 Mar 2011 18:52:53 EST * Hi, there. I realize I'm rather sporadic with these blog entries. That's because I'm rather sporadic. That's why I need a place like SparkPeople to help me keep track of doing things, eating things, working out, etc. It really does help! <BR> <BR> This week I've already walked 4 miles (Sunday and Tuesday, 2 miles each) and lifted weights on Monday and will do that again today. I may walk a mile or so tonight, too. I'm eating right and avoiding junk food. And will not mention the scale that will n... Wed, 9 Mar 2011 13:58:15 EST Still looking for that silver lining I have mixed feelings about my progress lately. No, that's not quite the right term for it. <BR> <BR> Every day I seem to have a little more energy and my clothes seem to fit ever so slightly better. I don't feel run down as much. I'm watching what I eat, making salads and fruit a much bigger part of my diet and skipping cokes, most potato chips, fried stuff. <BR> <BR> I'm exercising regularly - walking, running a little (as my feet adapt), weights. <BR> <BR> And yet - there it is a... Sun, 6 Mar 2011 20:37:01 EST Logging good stuff instead of whining Monday was a busy day, and it's also the day I have scheduled for weights and a walk/run. My Monday became even busier with an after-work activity I hadn't counted on, which put me home finally at 7:45. <BR> <BR> I thought about skipping the workout, and going T/Th/Sa this week instead of M/W/F. And then I figured - it's not THAT late, just get it done. So I did. <BR> <BR> It was a great feeling to go to bed knowing I had completed both the weights and a 2 mile walk/run (and along the ... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 15:01:04 EST Focus on the good stuff, right? Well, my clothes feel like they fit a little better, and I thought I felt a muscle in my shoulder this morning. That's something good, right? <BR> <BR> (In other words, the scale moved the wrong way. Again) <BR> <BR> Trying to keep positive. Mon, 28 Feb 2011 10:46:42 EST Blah blah blah Sunday blah blah blah I think it may be the dreary gray weather we've had for days (not cold, just not "pretty" either), but when I weighed in today and the scale had not gone down and instead went up 0.2 pounds, it ruined my mood. <BR> <BR> Now I know (and you know) this is exactly the wrong way to take it, it's just a data point, the scale is variable, if I were to get right back on there now two hours later it may be different by a pound or more. All of these logical things are great, but what strikes me is j... Sun, 27 Feb 2011 12:18:17 EST Is it just me? I bought a salad for lunch. A nice salad from Newk's, so it's like $9 and with dressing 700 calories. That's part of the plan, I still have up to 900 calories for the rest of the day, I'm ok with having a 700 calorie salad since it is full of fiber and veggies and all that. <BR> <BR> However, I'm looking at the container (I bought it to go so I didn't sit there and see all their yummy food go by), and the lettuce is gone but there's still "stuff" left; croutons and some nuts and a little c... Thu, 24 Feb 2011 13:52:43 EST It's the little things, right? I was so excited over the weekend to see that I had lost a couple pounds (again, they keep finding me, ya know?). I felt like I was walking taller and women were looking at me with lust in their eyes and birds were chirping just for me. Okay, that's a bit of hyperbole but it felt pretty good. <BR> <BR> So this morning I'm heading to work, after a semi-stressful long weekend, and for a moment I thought of stopping at my favorite coffee shop, that also happens to sell delicious yummy donuts.... Tue, 22 Feb 2011 11:11:26 EST Good thing I'm happy with 'progress' and not 'perfection' It's Sunday morning and I was able to sleep in past 7 AM (thanks, kids!) so I'm a happy camper. <BR> <BR> The other day I measured myself with the basic stuff for the first time since last summer. I know, it says "monthly" right there on the page, what can I say. Anyway, it appears I've lost 5 inches on both my waist and hips, and two inches from my thighs. I'm down 20 pounds over the same time (but was supposed to lose 40 pounds to meet my goal at the end of this year, bleh). So there... Sun, 20 Feb 2011 10:41:55 EST Saturday update What a week! I made it to Saturday. Well, I guess you did, too, or you wouldn't be reading this. Anyway. <BR> <BR> I've been eating fairly well, exercising consistently, sleeping better. All good, right? Yeah, I need reinforcement, I'm like that sometimes. Todays plan: Lift weights, walk 2+ miles, and maybe go to Newks for a big 'ol salad for lunch as a treat. The kids really want to go see Gnomeo, so we may do that, too ;) <BR> <BR> Have a great weekend, anyone who reads this! Sat, 19 Feb 2011 10:20:03 EST As good a time as any It occurred to me last night that I've been using Spark People for 10 months. I've lost right at 20 pounds, which is disappointing as I thought I'd be down about 50 pounds by now. Part of that is my fault for not watching what I eat and following my exercise plan (there are huge gaps in my "paying attention" portion) <BR> <BR> But I do have over 5,700 logged exercise minutes, and I've been lifting weights since the first of the year and walking regularly and eating right and it feels good,... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 14:49:25 EST Positively positive I think I've said before, I try to keep things light here. Positive. There is enough negativity in the world, nobody wants to read more from me <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> So all I'll say is this: I have some heavy stuff going on, over in the real world. <BR> <BR> Guess what? I've found that exercise helps my mood! Today after work I lifted weights and then took the dogs for a walk/run of 2 miles. I felt great after this. It really does help. I thought y'all were just trying to trick m... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 22:10:09 EST Is this what progress feels like? So the weather has cleared / warmed / whatever and this morning I took the dogs for a walk. I actually went a little longer than the two miles I had planned (very little) and I also ran part of the way. The dogs seemed to like the quicker pace, too :) <BR> <BR> Sat, 12 Feb 2011 12:36:40 EST Well, oops. I dunno if it's a fluke, the beer I had yesterday (two, maybe three?) or the chips I ate watching the game, but I seem to have gained four pounds overnight. <BR> <BR> Not upset, I think it's kinda funny, but wow. I shouldn't have stepped on the scale this morning (ignorance is bliss, at least in my case) <BR> Mon, 7 Feb 2011 14:11:43 EST