BRAVENEWGRL's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BRAVENEWGRL BRAVENEWGRL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Hello out there! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5440955 <BR> Wow it’s been a long time since I’ve blogged!!! <BR> <BR> I now know why they rank moving as high on the stress charts as they do! What a crazy last three months of my life!!!! <BR> <BR> Let’s start at the beginning, shall we? <BR> <BR> In May, one of the guys that was going to rent my house had some personal issues and needed a place to stay. Being that I am a nice, helpful person, I was more than happy to let him stay in my guest bedroom. This was a guy I worked with so I thou... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 11:17:15 EST Where does the time go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5358311 <BR> <BR> Seriously! We are now down to the very end of the school year and I’m scrambling to get everything done that I need to as well as pack up my room to move to Cheyenne. I will feel a lot better as soon as the contract arrives and I am good to go to teach in Wyoming. <BR> <BR> So yes, I got a job in Cheyenne – I’m pretty excited but overwhelmed! Currently I am the ONLY special education teacher in a K-12 school with 800 kids. It’s a little daunting. It keeps me on my toes. I f... Thu, 16 May 2013 08:52:07 EST A Mega Update! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5303095 <BR> Wow, where have I been???? <BR> <BR> Hi. My name is Rachel. And I swear, I’m still alive! <BR> <BR> I haven’t posted since January! What the heck? <BR> <BR> First the weight. Then all the other stuff. <BR> <BR> Going back in time, I realize that I have a pattern. Right around the holidays to right around now I hit an epic slump. A slump where I barely remember anything I’ve ever learned. An abyss. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that my room has no windows and I g... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 10:48:31 EST Getting My Poop in a Group http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221282 <BR> Wow. January is almost over and I’m still right where I started! Amazing considering that I haven’t done a whole lot to change things, nor have I done a whole lot to start moving again. And in case you missed it I signed up to run a half marathon in May. I’d like to run that sucker in less than three hours! But if I’m not running, this is not going to happen! <BR> <BR> January did not bring me the mojo I had hoped for. Ha! Well that’s entirely my fault, now isn’t it? <BR> <BR... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 08:55:38 EST Bleepity, bleep, bleep. (Advice for half-marathon running and yoga teaching needed!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5200115 Yeah, bleepity bleep bleep, I gained a pound this week! Who does that right after the New Year? Apparently me! I am now 12 pounds heavier than my lowest weight in September and I am not happy about it. Grrr. <BR> <BR> The good: I’m back on the workout wagon. Yoga twice this week already, a spin class, a couple of walks and more planned. I’m well on my way to getting my 500 minutes this week! It certainly feels good to be back in action. <BR> <BR> The bad: I need to get the food under ... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 09:01:02 EST A Brand Spanking New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5183670 I'm jumping on the New Year band wagon! <BR> <BR> What is it about this time of year? How is it that this Tuesday is soooooooooooooo different from Monday? It’s amazing how our minds can shift so in the span of 24 hours! I’m sitting here with a mimosa, contemplating how blessed I am and how this year is truly going to sparkle. <BR> <BR> Even though it is kind of a fluke that this one day seems to change so much, I will take it! Particularly because the last three months has been a hug... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 11:29:05 EST Tis the Season for Reflection (Make Sure You Read the End Bit!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178796 <BR> Well, I’d love to say I maintained or lost over the holidays, but I did not. In fact, since October, I have gained about 10 pounds (exact number will have to wait until Monday!) What can I say – the boyfriend and the holidays derailed me. I kept up with my good habits as much as possible, with the exception of “no, I’m not hungry, I don’t really need a third serving of that” and “I guess I will work this off tomorrow”. For the first time in a really long time, I had that “I-ate-so-m... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 12:46:17 EST Can you help???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5166484 Ok, silly request. I come from a very small town in Vermont where our football rivalry is the biggest thing of the year. USA today is having a contest to identify the best rivalry in the US and we somehow made it to the final round. But we need help!!!!! <BR> <BR> Can you spare a few minutes and help my little town? The money would really help the athletic programs at both schools. <BR> <BR> Vote STJA vs. LI (Letter C)!!!! <BR> <BR> <link>contest.usatodayhss.com/vote/final </link> ... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 12:46:51 EST A Big Fat Honest Blog (Advice needed!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163009 <BR> I thought I would take a moment to blog. An honest blog. I’ve been lurking a lot on Spark and reading people’s blogs and it seems that I’m not the only one struggling with this holiday season. <BR> <BR> For good reason! <BR> <BR> IT’S HARD! <BR> <BR> It’s hard to stay motivated and moving during this time of year! And I feel like a big fat stagnant Pillsbury Dough Girl! <BR> <BR> With the time change and less light, not to mention it’s cold out there, it’s become VERY hard to mot... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 08:55:24 EST December Already? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5153506 Man how time flies! Just the other day school was starting and I still had a yoga practice… <BR> To say I have been living in limbo is an understatement. Having a boyfriend has made my weight loss journey stop dead in its tracks. Not that he is intentionally sabotaging it, just that I can’t seem to keep myself on the right path when he’s here or I’m there! Grr… <BR> <BR> All of those habits I worked so hard to build have flown out the window. <BR> <BR> How does that happen so quickly? <... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 12:00:07 EST Have you been here? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5121230 I am in a funk! I am cranky and crabby and I can’t seem to stick to my guns. I know it’s worth it – but I can’t seem to stop myself or motivate myself. I want change, but I don’t want to commit to the hard work! I know I want to keep losing, but I’m having a very hard time trying to get myself back to my good habits. I’m doing everything half-a$$ed. Not putting my heart into anything. And then I’m frustrated that nothing is changing! <BR> <BR> I’m stagnant and having a pity party. <B... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 09:05:16 EST Wyoming and Advice Please! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5114705 Sigh. <BR> <BR> What a weekend! <BR> <BR> Who knew I would go elk hunting or wear pink camo? <BR> <BR> So I’m still in Wyoming, and the boy is asleep after our little hunting trip this morning. He’s so sweet… I got chocolates and pink camo upon my arrival the other day. He holds my hand, he opens doors, he’s kind and thoughtful. And I’m sneaking a pic of him up on this blog &#61514; Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh don’t tell! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l548607434.jpg">... Sat, 27 Oct 2012 13:30:46 EST WTF! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5107028 Alright. I don’t even know if I want to scream, kick my own butt or cry. Grrrrrrr! <BR> <BR> Ok I’m being dramatic. <BR> <BR> I just know if I don’t get myself back on track (with my body and my money!), things are going to go south reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal quick. <BR> <BR> So what’s going on? <BR> <BR> Well, in a word: life! Stress and laziness have been my two biggest foes lately. I have to say the month of October has pretty much been ridiculous! That being said, I have k... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 12:18:18 EST The Boy Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5102238 <BR> So I’m starting this blog with a picture. It’s the label of the skirt I wore yesterday. Sure it was stretchy – but I’ve never seen this number on my clothing in my life. Let alone wore said clothing in public and not felt like the Stay Puf Marshmallow woman. It fit just fine. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1410405794.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I’m still stuck where I am – now fluctuating between 175-177. But I’m going to keep plugging away slowly but surely. It’s m... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 08:44:57 EST One legged Trespassers and Dating Craziness! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5091899 Where to start???? <BR> <BR> Man what a weekend! <BR> <BR> It was full of crazy dating and a one legged man fiasco. <BR> <BR> So last week, I hung out with fireman again. I thought things went well. He, however, spazzed out saying I made him feel guilty. For the record I have absolutely no IDEA what the heck he was talking about. And for the first time in my life I am 1000% sure it had nothing to do with me and everything to do with his messed up life. So no more fireman. <BR> <BR>... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 21:21:23 EST I'm alive! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5086263 Wow, What a Month! And is it really October already???? <BR> <BR> <BR> Work has seriously put a damper on my Spark time! I’m lucky if I get to read anything! Let alone do much more than track. So I would first like to apologize to all you amazing Spark friends that I have been neglecting out there! Chaos is too mild of a word to describe the crazy that has been going on in my world. <BR> <BR> So what’s been going on? <BR> <BR> September was a free for all. <BR> <BR> Let’s just say the... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 08:46:09 EST Happiness is... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5061694 <BR> You’d think that weight loss and happiness would go hand to hand. In some ways, it does. I feel amazing. I have so much more energy. I love fitting into to smaller sizes. <BR> <BR> But it certainly doesn’t fix everything. Like accepting yourself for who you are for one and realizing that, even after you lose the weight, you still have to work hard for a fabulous body for another. You don’t just drop a ton of weight and arrive at perfection. It’s a journey. And all journey’s c... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 14:35:32 EST Recalibrating (with revelations and pictures) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5050978 Motivation, you fickle friend! I’m having coffee with you this morning and we are going to discuss how the next six months of my life are going to go. I hope you are prepared for a serious commitment now because I plan on having your name tattooed on my booty… <BR> <BR> The last three weeks have felt like a blur. The start of school is always insane (and I always seem to forget that!), and deciding to travel at the beginning of the school year might not have been the best idea. I survive... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 12:24:26 EST And the Craziness Returns http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5048191 I’ve been trying to get this blog up for a few days now but stinking work is really messing with my Spark time!!!! Not to mention my energy! <BR> <BR> The school year has started again and I feel like a chicken with my head cut off at the moment. In a moment of brilliance/craziness, I decided to take a little trip to NY to get my eyes checked (long story but the short version is I get free glasses in NY, have to pay here so it was worth the plane ticket). Of course, the airlines these day... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 08:28:29 EST ps. Read this. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5031556 I love this article because it's so true! <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nutriti<BR>on_articles.asp?id=1681 </link> Sun, 26 Aug 2012 11:02:34 EST Back to School and a Little Bit About Phentermine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5031530 Oh how the summer dulls my memory of how flipping chaotic the start of school is! I can already feel my stress levels increasing! It's all good though - because now I actually recognize it for what it is and deal with it accordingly. <BR> <BR> There is a lot going on in my little corner of the world right now and I am so glad I’m in a routine of doing yoga to keep myself busy and off the couch at night! (Although I have to admit I skipped yoga Wednesday in favor of the couch. I got home at... Sun, 26 Aug 2012 10:44:23 EST Phantom fat and Self-Image: How do you change what you see in the mirror? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5010890 So lately, as the numbers on the scale have dropped to the lowest they have been in my adult life, I have been struggling with my self-image. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I look in the mirror and can't believe I'm looking at my own body. Other times I look in the mirror and feel and look the same I did 68 pounds ago. I can be in size 8 jeans and still feel like I"m wearing size 18. <BR> <BR> How do I fix my head? <BR> <BR> They weren't kidding when they said weight loss BATTLE. <BR> <BR> As i... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 12:20:18 EST Crazy Things Can Happen When You Change Your Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5007313 I know I've been a blogging machine lately - last little bit of summer before school starts again! And I really wanted to share this. <BR> <BR> I just came back from yoga class and at the beginning of class, before everyone had arrived, I was doing what one of my yoga teachers encouraged me to do - practicing handstand. As I was practicing, this fit woman who was much smaller than me (ok, I am not a really good judge of scale right now - my brain is all messed up!) put her mat down next to... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 21:19:54 EST Can You Lose Weight Doing Yoga???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5004770 Recently I’ve gotten a lot of questions about yoga and weight loss. So I thought I would answer those questions and try to provide some clarity about yoga! This is what I have learned from research and my own yoga practice – and from my yoga teachers. I’m sure that many people have other opinions &#61514; <BR> <BR> Most people (including my very on primary care physician!) do not think that you can lose weight doing yoga. Two years ago I probably would have agreed with them! In my mind... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 10:04:22 EST When in doubt, blog it Out! I just binged. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5000210 Ok. <BR> <BR> My belly hurts. <BR> <BR> A lot. <BR> <BR> Could be because I just ate a ridiculous amount of food. <BR> <BR> In fact I am about 1000% certain that is the reason. My belly is used to 1200 calories. I just ate 2200. And now my poor tummy is paying the price for my binge. <BR> <BR> I just realized that it's been a long time since I've done this. <BR> <BR> Emotional eating? Hells yeah. And I'm still trying to figure out why. I'm still processing. I'm sure the Facebook ... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 23:35:49 EST Knowledge IS Power! Yes, yes it is… Emotional Eating and July/August Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4996332 First of all I need to start out with a HUGE HUGE HUGE thank you to the Spark community for voting me a motivator and for all of the kind words and comments. Wow! I knew there was a reason I loved this place so much! It’s been quite a journey for me and I’m thankful for all of the times when Spark peeps have been there for me. Thank you thank you thank you! <BR> <BR> Before I get into my goals, I wanted to talk a little bit about emotional eating – my Achilles heel! <BR> <BR> I’ve never ... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 12:16:27 EST What That "Detox" Really Does to Your Body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4993394 Hi All - quick blog to share this article about what happens to your body when you do a 'detox'. <BR> <BR> <link>shine.yahoo.com/healthy-living/body-<BR>detox-180500641.html </link> <BR> <BR> Longer blog, with heaps of thanks, coming later! Mon, 30 Jul 2012 15:28:46 EST Olympic Excuses? I think not! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4989746 Ok, I already have goosebumps. The Olympics does that to me. Of course I'm excited to see the US do well. I'm even more excited to see people from teeny tiny countries around the world (who's entire Olympic program is them and their coach) win medals against teams with a hundred times their resources. Their hard work and determination never ceases to amaze and inspire me. <BR> <BR> And then there's this guy. <BR> <link>www.washingtonpost.com/sports/double<BR>-amputee-oscar-pistorius-a... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 20:01:28 EST Cowboys, Bikinis and Brazil Butt Lift http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4987237 First let me say THANK YOU for your overwhelming response to my last blog! I wasn’t expecting that at all. Nor was I expecting anyone to really read it! I’m glad it helped because it sure helped me feel inspired. Thank you thank you a million times thank you! <BR> <BR> So July has been incredibly slow as far as weight loss is concerned – not going to lie the heat is making it very hard to get or stay motivated to work out! The heat is also messing with my eating. I don’t feel like cooki... Thu, 26 Jul 2012 00:54:55 EST Realizations and Observations from a Sparker (it’s a VERY long, honest one) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4971301 After just over two years on Sparkpeople, I have read a lot of blogs, lost and gained a bunch of weight, started and restarted a million times and exercised like a crazy woman. Lately I’ve started making some pretty big observations too. I’m going to share them with you all because they are important – please keep in mind they aren’t directed at anyone but are more just observations I have made in attempt to break this terrible, awful hate-hate relationship I have had with my body since abo... Sun, 15 Jul 2012 13:26:23 EST Breakthrough!?!?!? Yes, yes I think so.... And a NSV! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4968329 So I blogged about getting a Body Media Fit - which I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE. For those of you who don't know what it is - it's like a BodyBugg but with some different features. <BR> <BR> Anyhoo, my weight loss has definitely slowed down a bit. At least for the last two weeks it's been pretty abysmal - ok not that bad, but not that great either. This week I lost 1.4 pounds - which is great - but after a gain last week and upping my workouts, I was honestly hoping for more. I'll take my 1... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 08:52:00 EST P90X vs. Power Vinyasa Yoga Smackdown!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4965438 <BR> This is not a rant as much as it is a reflection… <BR> <BR> So I posted that I was going to do P90X last week – I psyched myself out and dragged my heels and only just started it yesterday! For some reason I thought it was going to be absolutely brutal but I was actually surprised that it was not that bad. (Now, ask me that again after plyometrics today!!!!) <BR> <BR> Recently, I have found myself second guessing my yoga practice as sufficient enough to get in shape. I honestly did... Wed, 11 Jul 2012 12:00:48 EST Interesting Article http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4960519 Check this out. I've been looking into the research about lasting weight loss and found this article. <BR> <BR> <link>www.elle.com/beauty/health-fitness/t<BR>he-healthy-guide-to-lasting-weight-los<BR>s-643229 </link> Sun, 8 Jul 2012 12:37:51 EST BMI Insanity and Happy Body Weight Questions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4960486 Ok, so I’m a numbers girl. It takes a lot for me NOT to plan out exactly what weight I want to be at each weigh-in. (As an aside: I’m sure that is partially what contributed to my failure in the past. Weeks and weeks of not hitting those predetermined goals kind of sucks you dry motivationally speaking!). Lately I’ve been playing around with the BMI numbers because I know I’m getting close to a big milestone: moving from OBESE to just plain overweight. It’s only 6 pounds away. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 8 Jul 2012 12:22:50 EST Being Accountable and My Arch-nemesis Sodium http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4956353 <BR> <BR> Summer is my tough time – yes the break is awesome, but the lack of routine kills me! And all of these unplanned meals out! Seriously it kills me. I was talking to another friend the other day and she was like you might just have to pull yourself out of your social scene for a while and just work on you. I think she might be right. I can't eat out four times a week! Or go to the movies twice! I'm torn because I hate the idea of missing out with my friends but I'm working so ... Thu, 5 Jul 2012 11:19:03 EST Derailed? Maybe not so much….June/July Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4951831 Wow what a last four days! I feel like I’ve been gone for a month! I had a little detour from my normal routine (ha, what normal routine?) and I didn’t do all that badly. But I did let the train slip off the tracks a bit… <BR> <BR> Where to start??? <BR> <BR> Wednesday was my weigh-in with my weight loss doctor. 28.2 pounds since I started in April. She was extremely pleased with my progress. I however am still seeing myself as just as heavy (if not heavier) as I was three months ago. ... Mon, 2 Jul 2012 11:38:45 EST Pity Party (and it's not a pretty one either!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4940083 Ok, I need to get this out of my system. It’s been lurking there for the last six months and it’s time to let it go. So I’m actually going to say it out loud and send it off in to the universe. <BR> <BR> I’m 35. I’m single. And I just let go of Mr. Montana so there are no prospects on the horizon. I don’t meet guys nor do I know how to meet them. Internet dating sucks for me – I think I look better in my pictures than I do in person because men seem disappointed when they meet me. And... Sun, 24 Jun 2012 12:04:30 EST Breaking a Plateau, Body Image and a First (with pic) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4937585 <BR> Well, I am officially in the 180’s. Last time I was there I think I was 17 – it’s been so long that I honestly don’t remember. I am now down 25 pounds since I started this journey in April and 52 pounds from my highest ever weight. 50 pounds. Wow. So the dreaded 192 plateau is in my rear view mirror. I’m in whole new territory now. <BR> <BR> As an aside, I just have to say I look at myself and feel heavier now than I did 50 pounds ago. How messed up is that? I am beginning to r... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 11:37:15 EST What do you do when your friends are your biggest obstacle? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4930027 Ugh. <BR> <BR> Summer is here and my routine has gone out the door! I need to fight a little harder to make change. I’m certainly NOT as active during the day when I’m not at work! Red flag, red flag, red flag! I’ve been hovering around the same weight for the last few weeks and this is where in the past I have gotten stuck. <BR> <BR> And I love my friends but going out to eat three times in one week? Financially and health-wise I just can’t do it! (FYI, Toby Keith’s I love this bar ... Sun, 17 Jun 2012 12:02:43 EST Summer Vacation is HERE!!!!!!!!!! (long blog!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4914667 And what better thing to do but blog. <BR> <BR> Summer vacation is FINALLY here! I can’t tell you how happy I am to finally be done with school and have a mental break. It never hits me how stressful it really is the last few weeks of school is until it’s over and I sleep for 20 hours! <BR> <BR> It’s been crazy hot in Denver these last few days – took the dog for a walk at like 11 the other day and remembered just why I need to get my butt out of bed and walk earlier in the day! HOLY HO... Wed, 6 Jun 2012 11:49:22 EST May Wrap Up and June Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4908089 <BR> So May wasn’t that bad – especially with a 3 pound loss at the last weigh in of the month. Of course being sick took its toll. <BR> <BR> After losing 9 pounds in April, May was a little slower with a 6 pound loss. But I’ll take it! May is always a struggle with the stress of the end of the school year. It’s always chaos and I always get completely thrown off my routine. <BR> <BR> To say I’m craving a routine right now is an understatement! I don’t usually create detailed plans f... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 22:05:49 EST THREE MORE DAYS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4901901 What a Week! <BR> <BR> Where to start? I suppose I need to talk a little bit about my gain this past week the reason for which was made ridiculously evident today when TOM showed up. And I was 2.2 pounds lighter this morning. Go figure. It really doesn’t matter. It’s just a number. <BR> <BR> Summer vacation is upon me! Three more days with kids, a day of training and then one more day at work and I am done! Already I have been thinking about my past summers and just how derailed I g... Mon, 28 May 2012 22:34:25 EST Milestones. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4886842 When I weighed in last week, I started thinking about the last time. <BR> <BR> You know, the last time I weighed in the 190’s. <BR> <BR> The last time I was 196. <BR> <BR> The lowest that I remember being in the last 12 years is 190. I think I got a little lighter when I traveled in back in 2003, but I didn’t have a scale so I can’t verify that – I just know the clothes I went with were much looser when I got home. <BR> <BR> 192 is where I got stuck last time. It’s where I got to with ... Fri, 18 May 2012 08:14:46 EST What a Weekend! Sephora, My Shrinking Butt and Time Saving Tips http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4881333 I have been fighting this stupid cold/flu/creeping crud for almost two weeks now and it sucks. Last weekend I slept all weekend and this weekend, well, aside from a birthday party (wow – it was a doozie!), I did the same. I don’t normally sleep for 10 hours and that’s what I did both Friday and Saturday. So I know I am legitimately sick. <BR> <BR> I’m going to start with my crazy weekend! In the past, my tired/sickness most likely would have been caused by what doctor’s like to call a... Mon, 14 May 2012 17:33:57 EST Who Knew? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4868141 So in my sickedy, sick sickness today, I have solved all of the world's problems while laying on my couch. <BR> <BR> Ok, not all of the world's problems. <BR> <BR> Ok, mostly my own problems. <BR> <BR> Along with this weight loss journey, I've been really working on getting rid of my debt. Like so many other people, I have racked up the credit card bills and a whopper of a student loan. Of course I'm not complaining about it - I got myself into this mess and I will sure as heck get mys... Sat, 5 May 2012 20:52:37 EST Cheeseburgers Do Not Equal Happiness: a food pusher blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4862601 <BR> It’s funny when you are learning new things how the old things you used to think and believe and feel seem so discordant. Lately I’ve been very annoyed with the Arby’s commercial claiming that it’s “good mood food”. What kind of message is that? I should stuff my face because I’m in a good mood? <BR> <BR> So I’ve been listening more carefully to the messages going on all around me. Lately I’ve been to a lot of parties and there’s been a lot going on at work involving food so I have... Wed, 2 May 2012 08:30:17 EST Oh Onederland, You Tease Me!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4857340 200.6 this morning. Really body? I’m sure if I had gone pee before I hopped on the scale it would have been below 200! Oh well, it’s not my official weigh in day and I know it is not going to be long until I am there. It’s nice to be back in spitting distance of that magic line!!! <BR> <BR> I was just thinking about how long it’s been since I have been significantly below it. Must have been spring 2007 that I last weighed in the 190’s for any amount of time. 192 for a while and then my ... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 10:05:41 EST Roller Coaster...........of looooooooooooooooove! Ha! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4846683 What a crazy emotional roller coaster of a week. What ups and downs. I’m glad that the end of the school year is right around the corner! I loooooooooooooooooooooove my summers! <BR> <BR> So what is going on? <BR> <BR> Well, I know you are going to be shocked, but Montana is involved. Then there’s my phentermine journey. Not to mention an interesting conversation with my nutritionist. And work drama! <BR> <BR> I’m going to start with the lessons that I have learned this week. <BR... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 14:29:41 EST Le sigh… revelations and lots of questions! Warning, it’s a long one… http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4835801 Some days, I feel like my life is being held together with duct tape. Last night I deleted a year’s worth of voicemails from Montana. I didn’t listen to them. It’s time to let go. I’ve been thinking about it more and more and I realize that no matter how much I love him it’s time to choose me. This doesn’t have to mean that he and I are done for good or that this is it for us, though it may very well be, it does mean that I’m choosing me right now. I’m choosing to keep moving forward, t... Sun, 15 Apr 2012 10:14:35 EST Dreaded Week 2? Bodymedia, Coloposcopy Round 2 and other stuff. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4832085 Wow - what a week! Lots to talk about, lots to think about. <BR> <BR> I'll start with the phentermine. Man this pill is nuts! In my first week on it, I've lost 9.2 pounds! This week, however, the scale is not moving. I am not hungry but still manage to eat about 1200 calories a day, all clean, high protein. I'm still trying to drop the fat content down - it's hard! My doc wants it down below 40, I'm consistently over it by a little. I'm working out, though admittedly I'm not back at 100... Thu, 12 Apr 2012 14:51:05 EST