BRANDIM_81's SparkPeople Blog BRANDIM_81's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Where hope is you Spark People I am so happy I came back to SparkPeople! <BR> <BR> Over the Last 5 years my weight has went up and down. I started when my husband and I were going through some rough times and I actually lost 50 pounds! I made it! I always thought that losing weight was the hardest thing a person could do. I would see so many people losing hundred of pounds and just knew that I could never do something so huge, so wonderful...but then I did with the help of SparkPeople and all the encouragement and hope I... Thu, 28 Sep 2017 11:23:31 EST I am beautiful... How many times have I looked in the mirror and hated what I saw reflected? <BR> <BR> Too many. <BR> <BR> How many times have I cursed the image in the mirror with words of failure and disappointment? <BR> Fattie <BR> Ugly <BR> Old <BR> Pale <BR> Zit face <BR> Rollie Pollie <BR> Jiggly Puff <BR> <BR> Too many. <BR> <BR> But no longer! Not today. Not ever again!!! <BR> <BR> I am beautiful. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. My God knit me in the womb lovingly and intricately. He made me ... Thu, 12 May 2016 17:33:02 EST We can do it! Everyday I see stories of people struggling. I see stories of people who are not motivated and who feel like they are failing. I see stories where people are tired and ready to quit.....DON'T! We can do it! <BR> <BR> Take it slowly...small changes stick better than big life changes. and small changes add up...stop drinking soda and you can lose up to 35 pounds in one year. Something so simple as not drinking a pepsi and some of us could lose all the weight we needed to lose in just 1 year. N... Wed, 1 May 2013 10:03:26 EST Climbing Mountains Yes, I like to climb mountains...literal mountains. But you know figuratively I like to climb mountains as well. Figuratively, you say scratching your head...I mean challenges. <BR> <BR> Before my weight loss journey began I wondered if I ever got out of the "fear" box and into the "living my life box", ever.... I was always defeated and a failure before I even tried...especially with weight loss. I was afraid to fail and so I just didn't start. But now I know that climbing mountains doesn'... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 13:17:18 EST Zeal? Do any of you have a "Zeal" story? I am about to start taking it and would like to hear some true stories from real people. Please comment if you have a story. Thanks! <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> Fri, 19 Apr 2013 09:51:21 EST 10,000 Squats So I have taken on a personal challenge in order to improve my figure and my abilities. I have challeneged myself to see how long it will take me to do 10,000 squats. I started 4-8-13. I haven't done the best at it yet but I get in 30-50 a day. I just do a set or two everytime I think about it...wherever I am...I am hoping this will help get me jump started back into working out regularly...I haven't been doing so well since our move to Colorado. Still, I have maintained the same weight for t... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 13:06:14 EST And prayers are answered I have chronicled my weight loss journey here on SP. I have spoken about my husband and how our marriage was on the brink when I decided I needed to change my life. Well now it is time for an update and a massive praise report. <BR> <BR> My husband and I have reconciled. I moved out of our home for about 3 weeks. In that three weeks God, Lord of Lords, answered prayers. My husband asked me to move back in and for us to work on starting over. <BR> <BR> Since then, he and I are completely di... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 11:16:47 EST We do it for each other Yesterday, I received a spark goodie that changed my perspective about my weight loss journey. Thank you LauraJS2! <BR> <BR> As my motivation was waning and my body was telling me no. I have been stuck at 167-170 for two months. I have been frustrated. I have been sad. I have been discouraged....but goodie came. <BR> <BR> I realized from such a kind, sweet gesture that I wasn't working out just for me....I wasn't losing weight just for me....I realized that here on spark people ... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 10:14:32 EST Can I do it? Can I do it? <BR> Can I keep going? <BR> Can I lose the weight? <BR> Can I carry a smile? <BR> <BR> I will win this fight! <BR> I will win this battle! <BR> I will win this war! <BR> I will win this revolution! <BR> <BR> I will earn this body. <BR> I will earn this smile. <BR> I will earn that dress. <BR> I will earn that life. <BR> <BR> Can I be happy? <BR> Can I be okay? <BR> Can I keep going? <BR> Can I push ahead? <BR> <BR> I can be what I want to be. <BR> I will stop cheating me. <B... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 17:33:01 EST What is love? Love is light and wind and happiness within <BR> Love is play and laughter a smile, a grin <BR> Love is joy and singing and a child's kiss <BR> Love is everything when lost you miss <BR> Love is giving without receiving <BR> Love is faith, not seeing but believing <BR> Love is gracious, patient, and kind <BR> Love is not there but on your mind <BR> Love is warmth when the day is cold <BR> Love is a hand wrinkled, worn, and old <BR> Love is a blessing to carry you on <BR> Love is remembering e... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 11:58:40 EST Do you ever want to disappear? Sometimes I want to disappear, <BR> sometimes I wish I wasn't here. <BR> There are days where I am left, <BR> no light or happiness, I am bereft. <BR> Do you ever feel the world upon your chest? <BR> Do you ever feel the world asks more than your best? <BR> The disappointment gets me down. <BR> The failure leaves only the frown. <BR> Do you ever feel that you are too much to too many? <BR> When you need support there isn't any? <BR> I push ahead when it seems fruitless. <BR> I continue to str... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 17:20:22 EST Hurting and irritated by it For the last month my knee and lower back have been in intense pain. I can't do my normal runs. I can't do my normal workout routines especially my favorite squats! I wake up in intense pain every morning and I am getting frustrated. I have went to the doctor. I have went to the chiropractor. I am making another doctors appointment this week. I have to have some relief. In the last month and a half I have only dropped 3 or 4 pounds because I just can't do it anymore. Please say a prayer for m... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 17:18:33 EST Getting to know me...and you....stolen from mommacassey...thanks! "Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. Get an easy three SparkPoints, and help your SparkFriends get to know you.” <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Where is my cell phone? <BR> on my desk <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> at home ... <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> currently colored and fading, shoulder length and needing some attention <BR> <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> on a truck headed to Florida <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> with my mother <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing? <BR> i... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 11:46:25 EST The second, first step Today, December 19th, I started over. I realize that in the last month I haven't done myself workouts, not logging my food, eating out, over eating, not drinking enough water. Well today I took my second first step. <BR> <BR> I resolved that 31 pounds is NOT enough and that I have NO time to lollygag. <BR> <BR> I put down the extra calories. I logged my food. I put down the Monster energy drinks to cut out caffeine. I filled up my water bottle. <BR> <BR> It is my second first... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 16:06:38 EST Today, I am defeated....but tomorrow.... Today, I am defeated. <BR> Today, I am lost. <BR> Today, I am terrified. <BR> Today, I am sad. <BR> <BR> Today, I realized that the path I started almost 4 months ago, a journey that has helped me to lose 31 pounds, is a path I have stopped walking. I have failed myself and I am defeated, today. <BR> <BR> Today I am accountable for my sins. I have drank Monsters. I have drank chocolate milk. I have ate out. I have over ate. I have stopped exercising. I have stopped trying. Today I am accoun... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 17:06:38 EST What Can I Do Today? When I started my weight loss journey I had about 70 pounds to lose. I was overwhelmed. <BR> <BR> Yet shortly after beginning I was struck by something I read in my Bible, "...sufficient unto the day is the grace thereof...." and that is when I knew...I didn't have 70 pounds to lose....I only had to work today. <BR> <BR> I have seen people with 100 pounds to lose all the way to people with just 20 pounds to lose struggling to stay on course. I have seen them succeed and I have seen them g... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 09:27:27 EST Anyone can do it! So now I am down 31 pounds in exactly 3 months. <BR> <BR> People now look at me like I used to look at others. They look at me with awe and I see the defeat in their eyes. They think what I thought, that could never be me. Ionce thought losing weight would be the hardest thing in the world and that I couldn't possibly do it...especially as much as I needed to lose. Then I found Spark People. <BR> <BR> The first motivational story I viewed was a working mother of four who lost 130 pounds i... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 13:04:09 EST I climbed a mountain This weekend was an awesome weekend. I climbed a mountain...not with ropes and stuff...but up about 200 steps and a road and all the way to the top to the look out. A lookout that gave a beautiful view of the valley and of the waterfall below. It was an accomplishment. I thought I was going to die! But after a few brief rests, I made it! Praise God! <BR> <BR> Then I did something the stuffy, old, excuse filled, never live life me would have never done...I got in a river and sat under a water... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 16:53:05 EST My Motivation So many times you hit a funk where you just dont seem to want to do anything. This happens at home, at work, at church....anywhere and everywhere. There are websites, books, seminars, movies, and coaches to help get you motivated. For years I struggled with the excuse, "I am just not motivated." What was I really saying to myself, "I don't feel like it. I don't really want it. I don't care about me. I am not as special as those other women who can lose all that weight." <BR> <BR> I have alre... Fri, 19 Oct 2012 14:46:27 EST The journey... So I started my journey to weight loss and a healthier happier me on August 29th, 2012, when my husband said he was leaving me. It took that kind of punch in the gut to realize how unhappy I had been for so long all because of my weight. Now he isn't leaving me only because of my weight but my weight has been a big issue for many years. <BR> <BR> I kept saying I would be 130 by the time I was 30, but I didn't really mean it. I promised myself I would lose weight and get fit, but I didn't re... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 14:03:52 EST