BRACKENCHERRY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BRACKENCHERRY BRACKENCHERRY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Week #14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5274592 These weeks are starting to blend together. I suppose that is bound to happen when what started out as a “program” turns into a way of life. I forget sometimes that this is a daily battle, documented weekly. Today, I lost another 2 pounds. Seems somewhat insignificant, however, that broaches the 50 pound mark. 90 days, 50 pounds. My coach says this is something to be applauded. I see it, however, as just a step in the right direction. I won’t say I am not happy about it. I am. The l... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 16:16:02 EST Week # 13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263676 When I started this process in November, my primary focus was getting healthier. I wasn’t motivated by losing pounds. I just wanted to get healthy. Everyone knows that a healthy weight guarantees better health. If that were the case, then why are we struggling as a RACE to get to that healthy weight? The focus was on a number on the scale, measured by a BMI (body mass index) that lumps people into a category based on their height alone. That in itself is skewed and, to me, does not take... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 16:48:23 EST Week #12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5250628 This last week was hard. Somewhere between week #10 and my week #12 weigh-in, I had encountered a lot of stress. An ex-wife will do that. The funny thing is I shouldn’t let her get to me the way she does. It is one of the reasons I moved to a different state. Her desire to control everything, including me, was suffocating. The relationship between our daughter and me is tarnished. I am trying to reconnect, and there she is….interfering. I am not allowed to email her or text during sch... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 16:29:19 EST Week #...I forget http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240529 I watch the Biggest Loser, just about every season. For the longest time, probably since its inception, I always used to say “I could win that show.” Of course, I didn’t see myself as a morbidly obese individual. I saw myself the way I wanted to see myself. Most times, it was I could do anything. That was in my head. In reality, I couldn’t win that show back then. Now, knowing what I do and as motivated and passionate as I am about my own health, the other competitors wouldn’t stand a ... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 17:12:42 EST Week #10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233446 During this whole process, I have learned volumes about myself. I have gone back and read through what I was thinking in the beginning two months ago. It’s amazing how fast and how strong the physiological reaction that one’s body undergoes when the right things are going in. It really does go to show how our bodies are designed to eat a certain way. Healthy nutrition is right for everyone. I have yet to hear an argument in the medical community against good nutrition. I will not hold m... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 15:40:18 EST Something Extra http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5211562 As a nurse, I think of healing holistically, from the inside out. It is more to treat the person and not the symptom. This comment is more about the way IP has healed me. I had a problem from the neck up that caused physiological problems from the neck down. There are hundreds of medications for treating the disease, but not a lot to treat the person. IP has treated my head, directly, which caused some extremely positive physiological changes. When I started IP, I was hoping for more of... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 13:01:47 EST Week #9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207001 “It ain’t about how hard you get it, it depends on how hard you can hit and keep moving forward.” Weight kicked my ass; I’m not going to lie. There was the actual weight, the physical weight, the weight that kept me from getting moving to get it off. There was the psychological weight, the depression, the sadness that came from not having things to wear. There was the emotional weight of divorce, of losing out on a relationship with my daughter from that marriage. I lacked the confidence... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 15:56:30 EST Week # 8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197334 I have been doing more research in the matters of diseases associated with obesity than I care to share. Let’s just say it has become an obsession. For the most part, people who are obese don’t want the potential harm they are doing to themselves. Knowing that information will most likely causes stress and depression, both of which may be their triggers to eating…or overeating. The sad part is, it is all fixable. There is a genetic component to obesity but there is also a way to avoid obe... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 17:15:36 EST Week #7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189810 A few months ago, I woke up with a bad back. I was walking over to the side and with some steps; I would lose my breath as nerve pain shot up and down my legs. I figured it was sciatica. Not much you can do with sciatica other than get muscle relaxers, a massage and rest. I would have to go to the ER to get medicine and I wasn’t about ready to go to the ER. I didn’t know any massage therapists and I sure as hell wasn’t going to be the guy that got on a massage table with my shirt off…and... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 10:28:39 EST Week #6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179091 I survived Las Vegas. In fact, I lost 3 pounds while in Las Vegas. I suppose a lot of walking and Ideal Protein will do that to you. What I realized while I was there was just how much of a nation of convenience we are. This is not just in Las Vegas but it is everywhere. If you dine outside of the strip, food is in abundance. Buffet after buffet, laden with crap and things that will kill you. It is similar to the design of a super market. The majority of the store lies in the “guts” o... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 18:37:49 EST Day 29-30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5171042 Day 29-30 <BR> 30 days ago, I felt incredibly helpless with weight loss. I felt like there wasn’t any hope for getting healthy again. 30 days ago, I felt like dying wanting desperately to start over somehow. I often dreamt of waking up and this obesity was a dream. 30 days ago, I had some neuropathy in my left foot that I was incredibly cavalier about. 30 days ago, I was miserable. I felt like a burden to everyone. I hated crowds, being in a group of people; I walked without confidence... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 11:41:04 EST Day 26-27-28 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169369 We all should stand for something. I firmly believe that we owe that to each other. When I got into studying nursing, part of my motivation was to change the world, one patient at a time. I saw gaps in quality care given when I was a patient and figured that I could improve it somehow. Starting IP was another thing that motivated me to stand for something. I just had my 4th weigh-in, with a loss. The most motivating factor is my blood pressure and resting heart rate were normal. I know... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 18:07:44 EST Day 25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5166602 Someone commented to me yesterday that I drink too much water. I drink a gallon a day, 4 liters. That is over about a 10-hour period. I do this for a number of reasons, but primarily it is to provide simplicity to digestion and to help flush the system. My response to this statement was “how much do you drink?” They replied on top of coffee and some diet soda, 20 ounces of water. In order to maintain civility in the workplace, I had to temper my response carefully. Knowing what I know ... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 15:30:00 EST Day 24 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5165706 We had a dessert exchange at work today. I had baked about 2 dozen snickerdoodles at home a couple of nights ago and brought a dozen in. My wife is taking the remainder of them to a gift exchange at her work this weekend. I didn’t taste the dough to determine how it tastes. I had my wife do it. I wasn’t tempted in the slightest. I kept telling myself that food is a drug to me and one I am addicted to. So being around all of these yummy treats that normally I would have partaken in to t... Thu, 13 Dec 2012 17:42:07 EST Day 23 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5164386 I am an admitted sap. I see some movies (Rudy, Hoosiers, Rocky movies, etc.) that have a hard-working character realizing a dream and I get all teary-eyed. “The Pursuit of Happyness” is another movie that was an emotional one for me. I can put myself in the character’s shoes and think what it would feel like to realize a lifelong dream. I have had dreams like that. When I was 17-years old, I was approached by a Seattle Mariners scout after a baseball tournament. We discussed what my pla... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 12:58:25 EST Day 22 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163441 It is said that everything in moderation is acceptable. That’s fine and dandy for most. It’s like the clothes that say “one size fits all.” Anyone who has been huge knows the one size does not fit all. It fits MOST if lucky. Even then, obese folks don’t even fit into the ‘most’ category. It’s sad that those with little understanding of obesity have the greatest advice; all of which I completely ignore. Ignorance serves no one and when comments are made about heavy people and the choice... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 16:26:51 EST Day 21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163236 Week #3 weigh in had me down 4 pounds and another 1.5 inches around the belly. For me it never has been about the numbers. This is a mathematical equation, really. It is literally a road map to health where all the guess work is taken out of it. There is no thinking involved. I needed a system just like this to help me maintain diligence. I knew I couldn’t do it on my own. As much as it isn’t about the numbers, it is nice to see a downward trend. I would much rather see that than a yo... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 12:32:47 EST Day 18-19-20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5162321 This has been an interesting weekend. Went to my wife’s Christmas party and I believe I avoided food poisoning but NOT eating the protein options. I suppose if I was a big fan of prime rib, I would have eaten that, but I passed up on my regular staples without hesitance. My coach tells me that I have a disturbingly strong will power. She is supposed to tell me that, to supply me with encouragement, but it isn’t necessary. I am not sure if it is just because I don’t want it, can’t have it... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 15:40:47 EST Day 17 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5159194 Before IP came along, I had tried HCG and Atkins. Both of these diet plans I started before starting and finishing nursing school. People are amazed that they lose so much weight on HCG. Of course they do. It’s mostly muscle. I think I did it for a month and lost almost 30 pounds. I felt like garbage, ALL THE TIME! With Atkins, I saw results there but got bored, real fast. I could only have so much summer sausage, cheese and pork grinds before I start losing my will to live. I am ki... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 10:47:36 EST Day 14-15-16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5158316 Week two weigh-in were not as eventful as week one. Of course, any time you can lose 10.5 pounds of weight in 7 days, you have to understand that the majority of that weight is water. It is also common to lose a lower amount week #2 and get discouraged. I wasn’t discouraged at all. I knew that going into this, it was going to be a long process. This protocol is a journey, not a race. Everything that happens until I reach my goal weight is a lesson on survival for me. <BR> <BR> I also... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 14:16:27 EST Day 12/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5156995 I love my parents very much. I think we all do as kids. I love them more as an adult however. It isn’t so much the lessons they taught me growing up as it is the consistency they have shown through all these years. I try to put myself in their shoes in regards to my weight. I wasn’t always this way. I wrestled at 158 pounds as a senior, one win away from qualifying for the State tournament, which was my goal for the season. I was an All-Conference football player and an All-State baseb... Wed, 5 Dec 2012 11:00:01 EST Day 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5151535 I was a closet eater. In groups I would eat healthy and give the appearance that I was far from gluttony as a marathon runner. On the inside though, I was actually waiting until everyone went to bed, or left the house so I could heat up 20 or so chicken nuggets in the microwave and eat them in one sitting. Some days I would make 2 or 3 baked potatoes and cover them in a tablespoon or so of Country Crock. I called it light eating. At least in my mind. 100% carbohydrates. Did I not remem... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 10:42:20 EST Day 10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5150835 I used to never, ever test my blood sugar in the morning. I didn’t really want to know. I knew it was high. Of course, I had to make due on short supplies. I hadn’t had medical insurance for 3 years. I made due with what I had on hand. That meant either taking 33% of my metformin dose, of holding off on my Lantus (long-acting Insulin) except for a day or two a week. I ran out of Novolog a long time ago (fast acting Insulin). It was expensive without insurance. My parents offered to pa... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 17:37:00 EST Day 9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5150769 I spoke to my chiropractor about establishing Ideal Protein in his practice. It seems like it is an added value, especially for those patients who are overweight and are suffering with joint, back and other chiropractic issues. I feel like it truly is a value that people would appreciate having access to. I know that I would not have picked this physician I am currently seeing had he not had Ideal Protein in his office. That is what I wanted….the protocol. I know I needed to see the doct... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 15:48:27 EST Day 8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5149692 There is a small part of me that is doing this program to prove a point. The company I work for is big on Health and Wellness. So much so that there is a significant health insurance deposit in a Health Savings Account or a decrease in the deductible for the standard PPO plan. That is a nice incentive, I suppose. I took advantage of that by participating in the program. The big problem for me is that I would then have to show improvement in the 5 target categories. Those are Body Mass I... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 16:10:36 EST Day 7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5148663 Another day in paradise. This is becoming more of a routine and easier to handle. A shipment of Walden Farms products arrived at my house last night. I will tell you that when your taste buds have not had a real food item, something like a 0 cal-0 sugar-0 fat marshmallow dip tastes pretty good, even if it is a fingertip’s worth. Of course my kids didn’t really like it. Why would they? Their mouths are used to processed foods. I am not sure how I will incorporate these items into my dai... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 18:12:11 EST Days 3-4-5-6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5147488 I forget how much food people consume on Thanksgiving. I went to two Thanksgivings over the last couple of days, both of which I flew through without any issues. I didn’t feel inclined to cheat one bit. I suppose it’s easy to stop from indulging in a food you are not allowed to eat when you think of the ramifications of doing so. That same thought process keeps me out of prison. I ate meat and vegetables, all of which were allowed. I skipped the gravy, the stuffing, potatoes and pie. I... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 18:50:37 EST Day TWO http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5147481 My Ideal Protein coach said that this first week was going to be brutal. She has gone through the protocol. I suppose weighing my true feelings on day one was somewhat of a misguided attempt at confidence. This morning is terrible. It might have been the fact that I measured my blood sugar and it was 286. I did not take my third dose of metformin in fears that my blood sugar would get too low. I also need to remember that this is a transition that begins between days two and four. I am... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 18:44:54 EST Day ONE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5147480 The obesity epidemic in the U.S. has caused fad diets to sprout up overnight. People who are overweight throw billions of dollars towards the next best thing, the magic pill, and the fastest solution to drop unwanted pounds. However, simply losing the weight does not attack the root of why the weight was gained in the first place. There is a large psychological component to weight gain that these companies do not address. This causes a yo-yo effect where clients on a “weight loss plan A” ... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 18:39:54 EST Day ZERO http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5147479 In the beginning, everyone is equal. We all have the same starting line. Sure, there is that DNA thing that can dictate the ease or struggle of the journey, but we all have access to the same choices. Choices are made; a conscious decision to take one path or the other. Forget income brackets and tools. You didn’t hear Adam and Eve bitching about only having fingers and toes did you? I didn’t read that anywhere. In all reality, we have all been at zero at some point in our lives, usual... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 18:38:31 EST