BOOSMOM03's SparkPeople Blog BOOSMOM03's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community What a crappy year it's been 2013 has most definitely NOT been my year. It started with the miscarriage from hell, then in late April, I broke my ankle (and I'm still having issues with it), and then ANOTHER miscarriage in June. These major stresses (plus the minor ones of day-to-day) have left me depressed, lethargic, and for many months, until recently, unable to exercise. I'm slowly working my way back, but I'm the heaviest I've been in years, and miserable. August 1st is my "new year" - it heralds the beginning o... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 10:36:56 EST Ugh... this week! This week is just not very fun. First, on Monday we had a massive wind / rain storm that kicked up all of the pollen and dust and other crap in Phoenix this time of year, and I'm just miserable and bleah. I didn't work out on Monday because I was so worn down, but have forced myself on the bike the last two nights. I know I need to get on the treadmill, but I just worry that I won't pay attention to what I'm doing like I need to and I'll end up falling or something. I prefer to hit the tr... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 23:12:27 EST Good week! The first week of April has been pretty good for me, health and fitness wise anyway. Work is always another story, haha. <BR> <BR> I have worked out every day so far and will get in a workout today before the boy and I go out tonight to celebrate his most recent promotion and raise. AND, going out always includes dancing (along with cocktails, of course), so that will help burn a few more calories. :) I have added in strength training every day, which is HUGE for me since I hate it. S... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 12:18:55 EST Keep on keepin' on Here we are in April already. I can't believe it's already April!! <BR> <BR> March was... ok. No actual weight loss to speak of. I lost a few pounds, but since I wasn't tracking, I didn't keep them off, which is frustrating. I started tracking again last week, and was pretty good most of the week, except that I had an amazing 3-day weekend with my boy and pretty much blew that all to hell. But I have absolutely zero regrets! It was so worth it. :) <BR> <BR> I'm so ready for the end o... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 21:24:30 EST UGH. One step forward, three steps back (Some TMI - be warned) So, I'm down today. And yesterday. Not down as in on the scale, of course. Down emotionally. Three weeks ago, I took the HPT that finally (after TWO MONTHS of miscarriage-related hell) showed negative. The SAME DAY, I started bleeding super super light. That went on for a week, then got slightly heavier. Another week of that, then this week, much more like a normal period. Seriously?? Like I didn't JUST get done bleeding for 6 freaking weeks? <BR> <BR> The doc's office doesn't see... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 13:27:28 EST Getting back on track If nothing else, my Spring Break has been great for me getting back into exercise. I have not missed a day the entire time I've been off - I've gotten some sort of activity every single day, either the treadmill or the bike. Even today, after being so tired from back-to-back girl scout cookie booths, after a nap, I got on the bike before we go out tonight. Hooray! Now to make sure I keep that up this week at school with three long nights ahead of me. :( I can say, though, that I've only... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 20:41:24 EST Fitness challenge So, one of the teachers at school has organized a fitness challenge for our staff. We're in teams of 3, and we're each responsible for tracking our own fitness each week and turning sheets in to her to compile. Everyone is "buying in" to the challenge for $5 and the winning team will get the pot to split. I joined in, even though I'm pretty sure the team I'm with (fun people) won't have a chance of winning against a few of the other teams. There are some "power teams" that all joined up, ... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 19:47:36 EST March Goals I decided that my goal for March really is to get back into regular exercise. So, I figured that exercising for 80% of the month put me at around 25 days - there ya go. Yesterday I did 30 minutes on the treadmill and today I did 30 minutes on my recumbent bike. Tonight the hubby and I are going out for the first time since New Year's Eve and I'll be dancing a lot. Of course, I'll also be drinking a lot, but that's beside the point. :) <BR> <BR> I am also refocusing on my eating, althoug... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 18:34:20 EST Just when I think I'm OK So, I've been handling the loss of another pregnancy OK. Even when I see the other teacher at school who announced before break - and her adorable baby belly - or the pictures of the OTHER teacher at school who just had her baby, I'm ok. I don't cry, and even though my heart twinges a bit, I'm ok. <BR> <BR> Then, today, my next door neighbor and friend, who has been trying to get pregnant for a long time, and hasn't been able to because her periods are so irregular and she has no idea when... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 22:50:35 EST What a week So, despite my good intentions, last week fell all to hell and I didn't accomplish much. I knew that Tuesday I would not be able to get a workout in, as it was my late night at school. Wednesday, we ended up having to have my husband's dog (and best friend, and baby) put down, and he has been absolutely devastated. This added to his work stress has really thrown him for a loop, and he's had a really hard time. I've been more focused on him and taking care of him, which needed to be the ca... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 19:13:22 EST Healthy restart, Day 1 So after a "last meal," so to speak, it's time to restart. Last night, hubby and I went to a burger place around the corner - someplace new to try - and had some pretty good burger and fries. I don't even want to think about how many calories they were, lol. I came home, graded some more, and then hopped on the treadmill. Then I planted my butt on the couch and read for a while... and then the bad habits kicked into gear. I munched and snacked and drank some wine. I don't feel bad about... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 10:02:30 EST Week 6, still not done So, I'm in week 6 of this miscarriage. The good news is that my last blood test results were really low - hormone level was down to 246 (after being at 1700 two weeks or so prior). The bad news is that I'm STILL bleeding. Very lightly, but it's still going on. SO freaking frustrating. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling better, though. Not quite as drained and the dizzy spells seem to have gone away. My weight is depressing, though. Between pregnancy and depression from losing the pregnancy, I'm up... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 22:13:54 EST My miscarriage experience - lots of TMI, be warned! WARNING! This post is about my experience with miscarrying my child this time, and it will include some TMI. Don't read if you don't wanna know! I just need to get this all out and the only blog I keep with any remote regularity is this one. And it will probably be really long. <BR> <BR> This has been the never-ending miscarriage. I'm so tired of it all. I really just want it to be over. <BR> <BR> After finding out on January 2nd that my pregnancy was not viable, I opted to use C... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 13:40:54 EST Time to heal, time to refocus my energy So, I haven't been around for a while. End of November - sheesh. It's been a roller coaster two months. <BR> <BR> The first week of December, I found out I was pregnant again. We were cautiously excited. It had taken a year - we have not been actively trying, but not preventing, either - and after last year, we were understandably nervous. I was SO sick this time. I remember having some nausea last year, but NOTHING like this. It was pretty severe. We didn't want to announce to the ... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 12:34:37 EST Early morning exercise When I first lost a lot of weight - 5 years ago, maybe? - I worked my way into getting up early to do cardio (I almost never did strength training that time) and would work out for 45-50 minutes every single morning before work. How in the HELL did I do that?!?! This week, I decided that I would stop being lame and start not only forcing myself to do the hated strength training, but also stop being lame and do the freaking cardio when I get home. It's only 30 minutes, for Pete's sake - I c... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 07:25:18 EST Refocus, week 1 I did well last week with getting exercise in. I managed 5 days out of the 7, so I'm happy with that. Eating... not so great. I do well during the day at school, but just fall apart at home at night. I guess that's just one of those things I need to retrain my brain on. And it'll come - I just need to focus on the positive things I do. <BR> <BR> I did get a workout in today (30 minutes on the bike) and mopped the floors. I will go to great lengths to avoid grading! Unfortunately, ig... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 18:52:04 EST It's been a long year and it's only November Wow. All of my best laid plans to NOT let school get overwhelming - POOF! Like smoke in the wind. This year has just surpassed all of my preconceived notions of how busy and stressful it would be. <BR> <BR> Basically, I just can't get my head above water. I'm never caught up, I'm never even where I feel like I have a handle on things - I always feel like I'm treading water, trying to catch a breath. <BR> <BR> What's with me and all of the drowning imagery? Oh, yeah. I am drowning!! <B... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 19:42:56 EST Back in the saddle again I'm baaaaack! (said with my best Steven Tyler scream, of course). <BR> <BR> Holy Moses this has been a rough couple of months. After September's school drama, October started with me getting so so so sick. Like worse than I've been in a while, other than last year's bout with strep throat. It was a good two weeks of not feeling well, and right on the heels of me doing my first workout in a month! But I seem to finally be on the mend and today I got back on the bike. 30 minutes at a dec... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 19:43:46 EST Stress makes me crazy, and falling away from health So, in the last four weeks, it seems like my "easy" yet busy school year just went to hell. I posted about much of the stress last weekend, and about three hours after that blog, we took my baby kitty (OK, he was 17, but he was my baby) to be put down. God I hate that. He purred the entire time while I pet him and told him how much I loved him, and cried like my heart was breaking (it was). Then he was at peace. So freaking hard. <BR> <BR> Last week was my week to get my brain back in p... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 00:19:46 EST Stressful few weeks = not doing so well The last two weeks have seriously been the most stressful I can remember in a while. And, like so many people, it's been a huge reason for my falling away from my goals. I'm hoping for some balance and rest this weekend to help me refocus. <BR> <BR> Two weeks ago, on the Tuesday after Labor Day, I had a parent of a child I had LAST YEAR show up at school. Longish story short, her kid was with me for two years, didn't really care about his academic success, ended up failing the fourth quar... Sat, 15 Sep 2012 10:31:17 EST August was not such a great month So the first month or so of school is always a huge adjustment. I know this by now, yet it's still such a shock to my system every month. This year was no different. I tried so hard to be consistent and get my workouts in, but consistency just was not there. The good? I officially started September at 171. The not-so-good? I lost no inches (nearly no strength training last month), and had such a fabulous Labor Day weekend that I have some recovery to do, haha. <BR> <BR> Today I inte... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 08:25:21 EST I'm alive!! Well, sorta. It's been a hell of a week and I'm exhausted and semi-sick. But I am pretty sure that I'm alive. <BR> <BR> Holy cats it's been a crazy week. Monday - 3 hour meeting after school, and after a day where we had a testing schedule and kids were nuts and our day was all jacked up and my student teacher was out dying. I mean sick. <BR> <BR> Tuesday - Still no student teacher (poor guy was legitimately really sick), plus another after school meeting. <BR> <BR> Wedensday - stude... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 21:47:10 EST Quick check in Ohmygosh I'm tired today. Like, seriously dragging and could happily just crawl right back in bed. Sadly, I have a 7 am meeting, meaning I have to be out the door NO LATER than 6:15. <BR> <BR> School is going really well. I'm enjoying my classes still, my student teacher rocks my socks, and everything just seems to be clicking. That being said, I'm already overwhelmed and stretched too thin, and wondering how I'll stay on top of everything that I need to do. I'm hoping that I settle i... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 08:24:57 EST Weekend of debauchery and lots of fun OK, so I went into this weekend with good intentions. We were supposed to spend the day yesterday each doing work and taking a nap, then going out to hang out with friends. Except that some of said friends decided to head to the lake for the day and invited us, so off we went! An entire day of unhealthy eating and drinking way too much commenced, and while we had an absolutely wonderful day with friends, I have definitely paid for it today! I've been sluggish and bleah all day, and even t... Sun, 19 Aug 2012 23:31:58 EST Monday morning headaches Woke up today to 173.2 on the scale (woo hoo!) and a raging hormone-caused headache (Booooo!). Not the best combination! I'm praying my cup of coffee and two aspirin knock it out soon - I have a long day ahead of me. <BR> <BR> I'm still floating on the high of being able to get into some of my old clothes. I can't wait to be able to get into ALL of them - I have some great, slim-cut skirts waiting for me! I will definitely say that adding in the toning and strength work has definitely ma... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 08:29:59 EST Lazy Sunday I've given myself one more day to rest, although I have actually been quite productive today. By resting I mean not overdoing it and not pushing myself to exercise. Since I have dealt with chronic fatigue for years (or something that resembles it - no one really knows what's wrong with me), I know how to take care of my body and not push it too much. Today I'm not as run down (even my mom commented at dinner last night that I was drawn and pale), but I'm still tired enough that I don't wan... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 20:09:57 EST Day off to recover So, after posting this morning, I ended up going back to bed for a while because I was so tired and I couldn't keep my eyes open. That's a good sign that I'm just beat down tired. I dozed off and on for about an hour and a half, then got up, made lunch, and took the kidlet out to find something to wear for her first day of school. It's so hard to shop for her - she's only 9, but already pretty overweight (I'm working on her just like I work on me, but she's harder to push into exercise rig... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 00:54:28 EST First week (OK, 3 days) down and I am TIRED! Oh gosh. So tired this morning. It's par for the course for the first week or so back, but I always forget just how bad it is. I did come home and work out on Wednesday, our first day, which was a miracle in itself. Thursday I ended up not getting home until about 7:30, and once I sat for a few minutes, I didn't want to move, so I didn't. Ha. Then last night we went out for dinner (totally not a healthy one for me) and by the time we got home I couldn't even keep my eyes open! I fell a... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 10:45:54 EST Day one ... and DONE! Oh my gosh, I think I just had the BEST first day of school that I've had in a very, very long time. It was so awesome! My kids were totally having fun with the activities I planned (with three days of special schedules, I'm not even trying content until next week!), they were involved, and with the social contact activity, they came up with some GREAT words to describe how they wanted our classes to be. They were well behaved, they were attentive (my 8th graders were chatty, of course, bu... Thu, 9 Aug 2012 00:35:33 EST First day back Our first day back was grueling. You wouldn't' think so, but seriously, sitting in meetings for 4 hours? Torture. By the time we got out to lunch, we were all starving and I didn't choose quite so wisely. I followed that up with a not-the-best dinner, and yesterday definitely did not rank up there among my healthiest days! I did get in 45 minutes on the bike and a core workout (first strength workout since the day I left for San Diego!) so there's that. But still. I didn't take any of... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 08:54:41 EST Hi ho, hi ho, it's back to school I go... Today is our first official day back, district wide. Eek! I guess summer's really and truly over, isn't it? The good news - I woke up today to a lovely 173.8 on the scale, despite no tracking anything since last Monday. Woot!! I have, however been pretty good about exercising, and watching what I eat, so that's a plus. That was enough to make me do a happy dance! <BR> <BR> I'm planning to take a healthy lunch today, but may be going out to lunch with some teacher friends, so... we'll... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 09:03:38 EST So darn tired I never imagined how tired the drive to and from SD would make me! Holy moley. I fell asleep on the couch for about 3 hours today, woke up and went to the store, and could seriously fall asleep again. I had every intent of running today, but that's just NOT gonna happen. I may or may not do a short stint on the bike later - we'll see how I'm feeling. My legs are sore from all the walking we did this week (and probably the plethora of calf raises I did when I was just hanging around!) and... Sat, 4 Aug 2012 20:29:07 EST Home home home! Ha, everytime I saw that, I think of the movie "Beetlejuice." LOVE that movie! <BR> <BR> So, I'm home, hooray! I only gained one pound while I was gone, which I'm pretty happy about, since we had to eat out every day. I made good choices overall (lots of salads, veggies, leaner meat choices) and only really had one super cheat meal (Thursday night's cheeseburger and 4 glasses of wine), and did lots of walking. Instead of using the shuttles to get from one hotel to another, my friend and ... Sat, 4 Aug 2012 11:30:29 EST Conference week Today is the last day of my conference in San Diego. It's been amazing, as always, but I'm so ready to be back home and in my routine! It's so so hard to be in a place where you can't really control what's in your food, or do your regular workouts. I feel like I've done pretty well overall - lots of salads and lighter foods, although I did have a big ol' hamburger last night. I'm paying for that today - I feel so heavy and bloated! It was good, but UGH. I also have gotten in a workout e... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 09:07:17 EST August 1st check in (a day early) Just for a reminder, here's July 1st: <BR> weight: 181.2 <BR> waist: 32 inches <BR> hips: 41 inches <BR> thigh: 26 inches (will that EVER go down?!) <BR> calf: 18 inches <BR> <BR> Today, July 31st, after a solid month of good workouts and strength / toning, I have: <BR> weight: 175.4 <BR> waist: 31 <BR> hips: 39 <BR> thigh: 24 (YES!!) <BR> calf: 17.5 <BR> <BR> Yes, I did myself a little happy dance today! In one month, I lost 6 pounds and 6.5 inches overall. I'd have loved to see... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 08:59:15 EST No-Gain weekend fail Well, I'm not at all surprised, given our weekend fun, that I'm up 2 pounds today. Oops. I'm disappointed in myself, but not surprised. <BR> <BR> The good: <BR> Even when we ate out (which was too often), I made overall good choices. We'll just ignore last night's french fries. :) <BR> I got lots of exercise (regular workouts + dancing on Saturday, even worked out on Sunday) <BR> I drank lots of water each day <BR> <BR> The not-so-good: <BR> I drank lots of vodka-related beverages on ... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 08:50:58 EST Weekend shenanigans and back to school tomorrow It's been a good weekend so far. Yesterday was pretty much a big ball of nothing. We got up, I ran, we went for haircuts, we napped (gosh we're lazy!) and then we went out to dinner and hung out with some friends. I think I ate pretty well, and I know I drank waaaaay too much, but we had fun. Today's been recovery day, lol. It's a good reminder of why I don't drink a lot anymore - I'm too old for that stuff! But we had a blast and enjoyed our time out, even if we're both hurting today. ... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 18:07:01 EST Friday! And scale frustrations It's Friday and Jump Start is OVER! I drove home absolutely BLASTING my current favorite song over and over and singing at the top of my lungs. I feel like a kid when I do that! So much fun. We survived Jump Start and I got the last boxes in my room unpacked. I have ONE small thing to do to have my room ready for kids. That doesn't include things like redoing my syllabus, planning curriculum, etc., but hey - my room will look good! It's the important things, ya know? :) <BR> <BR> Wen... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 20:06:40 EST One more day I have one more day of Jump Start, a weekend to get through with no gaining, then a work day on Monday and off to San Diego on Tuesday. Back home Friday late night, a no-gain weekend, and then... it's ok. We have kids on the 8th, and two days of meetings and work time (meetings = too much sitting!! I have to make sure I do NOT munch on crap! <BR> <BR> I ran today for the first time since I hurt my foot last week. Pretty good run. The intervals I'm doing are just enough to challenge me a... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 00:19:49 EST Still so tired! Exhaustion, go AWAY! Oh gosh I need to get back onto a regular sleep cycle! I did better last night, but was still up way too late. I'll get there. :) I dozed on the couch a bit this afternoon - it's so hard to not fall asleep - but didn't really have a deep nap like the last few days, so hopefully I'll sleep well tonight. I really want to run, but I just don't have it in me right now, so I'll either bike or do an interval walk on the treadmill, and be proud of myself for doing that. :) <BR> <BR> Interes... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 19:26:21 EST Exhaustion begins Every year when school starts, I am truly amazed at how exhausted I am for the first week or so. Even just teaching for 4 1/2 hours the last two days, I'm ready to drop! In fact, I HAVE dropped when I get home. Yesterday I slept for 2 hours, today I only got about 45 minutes, and would have slept longer if I hadn't gotten a phone call. The sad thing is that I'll get used to this week, have next week "off" (no kids, at least), then start all over with the exhaustion the following week. UG... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 00:30:53 EST No-Gain Weekend = success! So, I have to get my tail moving and get ready to go teach today (TOO SOON!!), but I wanted to post that this weekend's no-gain challenge was successful! This morning's weigh-in was 174.8, down .2 from 175. HOORAY!! I made it through a weekend, had fun and some cocktails, AND didn't end up 2-3 pounds heavier that it'll take me the entire week to recover from. SO FREAKING HAPPY! <BR> <BR> Now, off to get ready to face kids! Mon, 23 Jul 2012 09:00:45 EST Sunday recovery I love date nights with the boy, I really do. But sheesh - Sundays are always such a day of recovery! Tired, headache, feeling sluggish. But worth it. :) <BR> <BR> Today's been pretty blah. Had lunch with a friend, went with the boy to swap out my stepdad's computer (he earned brownie points with that one!), then have managed to get most of the laundry done, vacuum, and run the dishwasher. That may be the sum total of my productivity today. I have to make nametags for the kids for Jum... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 20:27:15 EST Ow ow ow ow ow So last night when hubby and I were out looking for the cat, I was wearing flip flops (my typical summer footwear) and thought nothing of it. We were walking in a desert-y area, and all was going fine, until a HUGE thorny thing pierced THROUGH the bottom of my shoe (and these weren't cheap $2 flip flops - they have a sole and everything!) and into the arch of my foot. OUCH. I didn't think it was too bad - I got it out and it bled a bit, but nothing substantial. Finished our searching, wen... Sat, 21 Jul 2012 12:48:28 EST Hello weekend Got into school and was able to spend some time moving furniture back into place and got my desks set up. I have a whole new desk set up that creates groups - we'll see how I like it. Change is always fun. I also moved all of the furniture in the pod (open area in the center of the three classrooms in my building) into place. I think moving furniture by myself counts as some cardio! <BR> <BR> Got home, took dog to vet, ran dog home and went to get his meds. Then I ate. I was STARVING. ... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 23:12:27 EST Weekend's almost here So tired today. Seriously, I need to get back to a normal routine or the official start of school is going to KILL me. Today's going to be super busy and at this point, I have no idea how I'll have the energy to run. <BR> <BR> On the plus side... the scale gave me a nice present this morning. 175.8. Hooray! Officially in wedding weight numbers! I'm not changing it in SP yet, though, because after all - it's Friday, and weekends aren't historically so good for my weight. I am bound ... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 09:58:30 EST No school today :( So, the carpets and cleaning that were supposed to be done YESTERDAY were not completed. They were doing carpets today, which meant I could not move my furniture and set up the room today. Even better, they'd moved the furniture that I had already put in place against the walls out, too, so half of the moving I've already done I get to do again. Yaaay. Oh well - extra cardio, right? :p <BR> <BR> I did manage to get some things printed and copied for next week, and talked to a parent (al... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 01:27:18 EST School today Today I'm heading back to school to try to get a few more things accomplished. They should be done cleaning so I can set up my room. I hope. I need that to be done so I can stop stressing about it! I also need to plan teambuilders for the Jump Start kids next week, provided we actually HAVE any kids - our numbers are not looking good. My principal text me last night from Vancouver, asking to talk about Jump Start sometime this evening when she's back in town - that should be interesting.... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 10:19:50 EST So lazy today Since I couldn't go into school (they were cleaning carpets and finishing cleaning classrooms), I decided that it was a great day to just lay around and be a complete bum. This will probably be my last day to do this, really, so I took FULL advantage of it! :) <BR> <BR> I did my 40 minutes on the Bike of Doom (its new nickname) and my lower body workout. Go me! <BR> <BR> Other than that, not much to report. ;) It's a quiet night in these here parts, just how I like it. Thu, 19 Jul 2012 00:01:44 EST Commitment to strength training OK, so in an effort to NEVER have an excuse to skip strength training, I just sat and went through SP's exercise demos for core, upper, and lower body, and copied out a TON of each type. I have 11 pages of core exercises, 17 of upper body, and 16 pages of lower body exercises. They're all (with the exception of three core exercises) from the beginner sections, so I have lots of room to grow, and I have a good variety so I don't get bored. <BR> <BR> Six days a week, 10 minutes per day. T... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 23:11:00 EST