BONOLICIOUS2's SparkPeople Blog BONOLICIOUS2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Waving hello Not a super pumped up post here, if you're looking for one of those kindly move along. I'm here to wave hello and let you know I'm alive. But I'm not a star pupil! <BR> <BR> My body hasn't been cooperating in weeks. First I had that week of endometriosis/migraine hell. I took it easy the week after that because I was scared. I know I shouldn't be, but when my body shuts down like that I get really worried about going too hard and hurting again. Then my whole office came down with the plague.... Mon, 16 May 2016 15:21:09 EST May the 4th... Yes I'm going there Hello! <BR> <BR> I was kind of hanging my head in shame here for a minute. I have made some horrific decisions in the past week - my exercise has been non existent, my food choices have been borderline awful. <BR> <BR> I should have realized something was up. Earlier last week I started feeling my endometriosis kicking in and I tried to fight it. Then by Friday morning it escalated and I woke up feeling awful and barely made it through work all day, at one point I had literally curled myse... Wed, 4 May 2016 12:04:45 EST I'm still trying Last week was one of the most stressful weeks that I have had in a very long time. It would take too long to explain on here, and would be blasting way too much of my employer's business, but something happened in front of me that was extremely unprofessional and revealed some deep issues here. I think the fact that I witnessed it and the subsequent falling out has given me a pass for peace for a few days. Having to live through it was pretty stressful and drained me. They also announced they... Tue, 19 Apr 2016 16:40:46 EST Crazy Walking Lady Hello! <BR> <BR> Today has been pretty cool for once, my boss brought his adorable french bulldog to work and puppies always make things better. <BR> <BR> No loss or gain from last week. I really wasn't trying my best for steps or eating. It wasn't horrible, but it wasn't great either. A little misunderstanding with my pharmacy caused me to miss a few days of thyroid meds and I think it made me struggle a bit more than usual. <BR> <BR> I have been struggling with my mental wellness a bit r... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 16:38:33 EST The scale did not fool me? No April Fools here... the scale did magically show a loss this week. I weighed myself because I wanted to shame myself by a gain. What a surprise when it was a loss! <BR> <BR> And I think since then I have just lost my dang mind. <BR> <BR> This week was full of temptations. I had a surprise/forced work pizza lunch earlier this week. I ate one slice of veggie and picked some cheese off, while I watched everyone else scarf multiple slices. I watched one coworker eat ice cream. Another one bu... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 09:59:07 EST A little detour to success and saggy pants Things went a little off course for me this weekend. <BR> <BR> My fiancee and I found out on Thursday that we'd both be off (sorta) on Friday, so we decided last minute to go visit his family in Pittsburgh. His grandparents aren't doing well and we thought we'd surprise them for Easter. I'm glad we did. You can tell it meant alot. <BR> <BR> My eating went completely off the rails. Easter dinner, his aunt fried fish Friday night (say that ten times fast!), SO many carbs. We came home last ni... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 10:54:21 EST I challenge thee to KINDNESS Checking in! <BR> <BR> I'm patting myself on the back for pushing through last week. I had a few endo days that were no fun, and a few days at work that were also no fun, and I still made it through. The nice weather didn't hurt too much. <BR> <BR> Sadly, speaking of hurting, my right ankle still isn't okay. It made a popping sound when I fell a few weeks back and I think I likely sprained it and I haven't rested - at all. I went on a long walk with Bea last night after work, but this morni... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 13:59:46 EST Little rays of something Hi. Me again. A little more sunshine in my shoes this time. <BR> <BR> First things first, I went to the dermatologist for the first time today! I had this weird red bump appear on my lower eyelid a few months ago and needed to wait for my insurance to kick in to get it looked at. Good news - not cancer. Bad news, I chickened out of having it removed because they would have had to put a needle into my eyelid. Yup. They swear a good makeup artist can cover it for the wedding and I'll just be s... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 15:52:43 EST Frustrated. <img src=""> Here I am again. No loss. Didn't gain anymore which I suppose is a good thing, but no freaking loss. Now my little line on my chart for projected loss is going down lower than where I'm at, so I'm falling behind. Ugh. According to Apple Watch, I burned like 3,000 calories and walked 26 miles last week. I know I made specific efforts to walk whenever I could. I tracked my food and stayed in line most ... Mon, 14 Mar 2016 07:44:45 EST 25 Miles and... Sitting here trying not to be upset with a gain this week. <BR> <BR> My apple watch says I walked 25 miles last week. I know I did workouts too. I know I asked my fiancee to go to the mall early on Sunday so that I could get a lap or two in before the stores opened. <BR> <BR> I had a burger with no bun on Friday night with two beers, and I had one beer on Sunday too. I did get a fancy latte on Friday and I ate a few of the cooler ranch doritos my fiancee brought home on Saturday. But I swe... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 11:51:19 EST My dog is lucky I love her... <img src=""> I must admit I had a fantastic night of sleep last night. I think I finally reached a point of exhaustion where my body gave up? Anyways, woke up and did a great Jessica Smith High Intensity Cardio video, was feeling great. Went to leave for work and out of nowhere Beatrice bolted between my legs and out the front door. I think it's because my neighbors outdoor cat has been tormenting her but still, cr... Thu, 3 Mar 2016 10:44:05 EST Hush Brain, No Snacks No gain, no loss this week. I'm considering this a victory after a week of travel, stress, and more illness. <BR> <BR> Yes, I have pushed through my THIRD cold since January. I feel like a crazy person because I take vitamins, drink a vitamin water every day, and compulsively use sanitizer. Last week I started feeling nasty again and by Sunday I was hurting. I didn't eat dinner Sunday night because I was so bah. I sneezed so much Sunday into Monday that my abs STILL hurt on Wednesday! Even s... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 11:39:59 EST Reflecting on this week Hallo! <BR> <BR> This has been quite a week. <BR> <BR> First of all, I had a major meltdown last weekend. Although I was on my feet and walking a good bit, I ate junk. Plain and simple. And had two gigantic beers. It was the nicest weather on a Saturday that we've had in a while and that is what I'm blaming it on. Felt a little loose! <BR> <BR> Sunday night my throat was sore again, like it was when I got that nasty cold a few weeks back. I've had a slight cough this week, not really sure ... Fri, 26 Feb 2016 11:49:43 EST Doing what you can A little rant on healthcare for a moment... <BR> <BR> I may have mentioned a few times on here that I am hypothyroid. I went to the doc a few months back, found out I was low again, adjusted my meds. I was doing pretty well there for a while. Then my insurance company at the time (Cigna AKA THE. WORST.) refilled my synthroid with a different manufacturer. In case you don't know, not all people manufacture meds the same. Switching like this means the pills are different and my body will proce... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 09:37:42 EST I wanna be a LOSER I decided to assert my “Grown Up Woman-ness” today and take a snow work from home day. Originally they said come in and they would assess around lunchtime. I was like actually, I don’t feel safe, nope. Looks like I made the right choice because my road is now completely covered and it is still falling. Go self, you’re smart and strong! <BR> <BR> I sneaked in a teensy loss last week. Yes, I still weighed myself this morning even though I said I would wait until Tuesday. I think part of it wa... Mon, 15 Feb 2016 10:19:10 EST Taking down the green monster Three blogs in a row?! ON FIRE. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I started to feel a little worse again. I took a nip of NyQuil last night and that seemed to help a bit but this is the craziest hanging on cold ever! I can't go two minutes without a cough and I'm starting to really annoy myself lol. <BR> <BR> Okay I have another "spark stuff related rant"... <BR> <BR> I have a good friend that has struggled with her weight as long as I have known her. She'll throw herself into something like Weight Watc... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 09:48:59 EST Being shamed into good health I need to share this experience I had last night with a bit of food shaming. In my last blog I shared how I've been catching myself fearing or avoiding foods because they may be "bad"... well last night something happened that may have hurt me but then helped me: <BR> <BR> I was researching ways to use my apple watch better for fitness/food tracking. I keep seeing someone on Pep who is posting shots of hers with an app that looks like it is tracking better than just the regular steps/move/st... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 10:32:59 EST Go go go go go... It is weigh in day, which might as well become blog day too to reflect on the weighing in part hah. <BR> <BR> I am down about another pound, bringing me to nearly 10 pounds lost since around New Years. Not too shabby! I'm proud of myself but at the same time I wish I noticed it. I don't feel ten pounds lighter nor am I really seeing any change in how my clothes are fitting. Sigh. Only means I need to get rid of more! <BR> <BR> This time last week I was really hurting, physically, with the ... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 09:28:52 EST A Bad Day/Kettlebell Curse <img src=""> Thanks for all of your well wishes. It has been a long day. I swear every time I attempt kettle bells the world goes south. The first time was interrupted by my neighbor backing into my car. Today was this... My alarm did not go off. Or... It did, but with no sound? Thanks iPhone because that is useless! Luckily it was still early enough that I thought I could squeak in Kettlebells. I get downstairs,... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 21:22:09 EST Double Ouch <img src=""> I had a snow binge on Saturday. We ate cheese and crackers and some sweets and this amazing stuff called spicy feta salsa from Whole Foods. I stayed in my ranges yesterday to make up for it - tracked everything on a snowed in Sunday! We legit did four hours of shoveling. You guessed it: I'm hurting from head to toe. Ouch. Spark said I burned nearly 2,000 calories. My Apple Watch said 500... And my gr... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 09:06:01 EST Double Ouch <img src=""> I had a snow binge on Saturday. We ate cheese and crackers and some sweets and this amazing stuff called spicy feta salsa from Whole Foods. I stayed in my ranges yesterday to make up for it - tracked everything on a snowed in Sunday! We legit did four hours of shoveling. You guessed it: I'm hurting from head to toe. Ouch. Spark said I burned nearly 2,000 calories. My Apple Watch said 500... And my gre... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 09:05:22 EST My name is Jonas... <img src=""> What? This storm hasn't made everyone else permanently have this song stuck in their heads?!?! It is really starting to snow here! They keep tossing around the words "epic" and "historic" to describe this snowstorm. Yikes. We shall see! I'm a little afraid I'll wake up tomorrow morning and it will be the tundra outside. I did not get enough workouts in this week, so part of me hopes it will snow enou... Fri, 22 Jan 2016 15:40:38 EST Chugging Along Sometimes all of my insides malfunction at once. I know in my last blog I mentioned that my endometriosis was acting up. That blew up this weekend, along with some stomach nonsense, so I was down more than I'd wanted to be this weekend. I didn't even eat that much. The scale showed a teensy bit over a pound lost last week, which honestly I'm proud of considering how bad I felt Friday - Sunday and not getting as much cardio in. Also it is that lovely time of the... well mine don't go by months... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 10:40:06 EST Random Points <img src=""> Forgot a few things from yesterday's blog, and a few other new things I don't want to forget! First of all, I'm blogging from my phone?! Weird! For some reason my other blogs keep showing ? Where ' should be and I don't know how to fix that. Maybe this will help. Also please forgive any autocorrect mistakes lol. I forgot to mention yesterday that my anxiety has been creeping up on me again. It's sill... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 07:17:26 EST Momentum and Positivity I was pleasantly surprised when I stepped on the scale this morning. Things are finally heading in the right direction! <BR> <BR> I’m not sure what finally snapped in my head, maybe it was seeing that new high weight, but I’m in the zone and working it. <BR> <BR> Things I have noticed/changed/working on/learning: <BR> <BR> - I did not drink alcohol during the week. I used to do this more than I’d care to admit before. Two glasses of wine worth of extra calories a night really adds up. <BR... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 11:01:51 EST Lifestyle Changes I had "a moment" on Sunday night. We had eaten so much stuff over Christmas and I was feeling AWFUL, just so bloated and blah. I told my fiancee as we got in the car that even the act of getting behind the wheel felt awkward to me because my body is beyond itself. So I forced myself on the scale on Sunday night. It knocked me over. I have never been this heavy, ever. Seeing a number so close to 200 lbs was shocking. I'm five feet tall, carrying almost 200 pounds. This is not good. <BR> <BR>... Wed, 30 Dec 2015 19:28:21 EST Good Times Life has really changed in the past week! <BR> <BR> My last day at my old job was last Wednesday. I had to give a 90 minute presentation to close it out. They asked me to email the slide deck out afterwards and I couldn't because my email had already been shut down. It made me realize just how ridiculous the place had become and I was so ready to politely bow out. But get this - the next day they posted my job opening and it is now a manager level position. I'm a little hurt, it feels like a... Mon, 21 Dec 2015 21:28:12 EST Starting the change process What a whirlwind I had last week! Hard to believe it is Monday again. This time last week I was in medical tests and then everything went kind of crazy! So much change but in a good way?! <BR> <BR> Giving my notice at my job was tougher than I thought. Right now I’m in that weird “one foot out of the door” phase. You get used to a place after three years, but at the same time I’m really feeling the drive to move on. I was on a conference call last Friday and found myself getting worked up be... Mon, 7 Dec 2015 10:25:01 EST Big News!!!!!! Hi! <BR> I know I have been pretty absent recently. A LOT has been going on so here is a big ol’ update! Buckle up, this is gonna be a big one! <BR> <BR> I finally scheduled a doctor’s appointment. I just plain haven’t been feeling well. She said that it seems like my thyroid is off again. I showed her my spark tracker, my steps counts and everything. She agreed that a person who is my age should not have gained so much weight with how I’m living. I went in for blood work yesterday, and we a... Tue, 1 Dec 2015 12:53:13 EST PreSpark & PostSpark Once in a while, I have a moment where I am reminded that my life can be broken out into “pre-spark” and “post-spark” phases. <BR> <BR> When I joined Spark, I was in a bad place. I was drinking slurpees daily (sometimes multiple times a day!), eating almost entirely processed foods, and having all kinds of health issues. I went to the doctor because my ankles were swelling and it freaked me out. The doctor I saw at the time was pretty lame and just prescribed me diuretics, but I knew I had ... Wed, 28 Oct 2015 11:09:26 EST Beware The Swamp Creature First of all, I go to write a blog because I'm in an emotional state and could use some support, and a giant pop up ad covers my screen? I am SO over Spark some days. I come here for HELP today and go to start a blog and "oh wait, before you reach out for help from others, let me show you a FREAKING ADVERTISEMENT"................ What?! <BR> <BR> My best friend is getting married today. This is exciting stuff. We used to chase boys around the Renaissance Festival when we were 15, and now she... Fri, 9 Oct 2015 09:57:04 EST Weight Watchers and Expectations I have been pretty absent from Spark. It doesn’t count any of my fitness stuff anymore because of the apple watch, so it always thinks I’m lazy, and honestly it seems like many other sparkfriends of mine have dropped off too. It isn’t what it used to be for me and I don’t know what else to do! I have been toying with the idea of joining Weight Watchers online. I say that because I hear it is a good community, and they have a lot of resources, it will shake me up a bit, and everything ... Wed, 30 Sep 2015 11:07:47 EST Improvements? Opinions? Things. Hello! <BR> <BR> Collecting my thoughts, publicly. Yay Spark. <BR> <BR> First of all, the advertisements on this site have gotten ridiculous. Can someone please tell Spark that pop up ads are a thing of the 2000’s and nobody uses them anymore because THEY PISS PEOPLE OFF? And that any brand that buys into them is really confused about how to market digitally to the modern population? I can tolerate the creepy retargeting ads, but pop ups? Please. <BR> <BR> Another Spark frustration – m... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 09:35:44 EST My Apologies - Endometriosis I’d like to rescind part of my last blog post. Yes it is still frustrating to watch my tiny coworker eat pasta salad, twix and a bag of salt & vinegar chips for lunch (true story – happened to me yesterday) but I should have known something was up with my unusual gain. <BR> <BR> If you’re a dude, you might want to look away. You’ve been warned! <BR> <BR> I neglected to mention in my post last week that every time I hiked the return trail (my neighbor tells me it’s a 60 degree hil... Thu, 3 Sep 2015 10:23:15 EST So very very tired... want to throw in the towel This weight-weight loss –fitness thing can get SO FRUSTRATING. Frankly, I’m tired. <BR> <BR> I’m so tired of watching my skinny coworkers eat donuts and bagels and cookies while I sit at my desk and excuse myself. It is happening again at this very moment. <BR> <BR> I’m so tired of constantly thinking about what I’m eating. <BR> <BR> I’m so tired of making efforts to park in the farthest spot in the lot, walking to the farthest bathroom I can, watching my steps every day. <BR>... Fri, 28 Aug 2015 09:02:58 EST Insurance Companies Want You FAT and Sick PLEASE NOTE: I am not making ANY political statement with this blog. I am just sharing my frustrating experience with Cigna. <BR> <BR> __________________________________ <BR> <BR> Today at work I overheard a coworker of mine, who is the sweetest older woman, completely lose it on the phone with Cigna about her coverage. It was surprising to hear her get so upset, but little did I know I'd be in the same boat a few hours later. <BR> <BR> Since going gluten free, I feel like I have been stea... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 21:16:21 EST No worries, ya mon Hello! <BR> <BR> I'm back from Jamaica mon. It was awesome. I went on a full out binge in almost every way possible. We stayed at a Sandals, AKA All Inclusive EVERYTHING. We ate and drank a whole lot. They even delivered pizzas unasked to you on the beach. I mean that kind of ridiculousness. Obviously I returned to gluten for the week too. But it was awesome. I read three books. I felt more relaxed than I have in maybe YEARS. I walked around in a bathing suit and didn't care what I looked li... Thu, 13 Aug 2015 20:10:39 EST On the FLY Squeezing in some updates! <BR> <BR> Life is not slowing down! That is for sure. <BR> <BR> Two weeks ago, we went to Erie PA for a wedding weekend. From my experience, everything in Erie was fried or deep fried. I came home insanely craving a salad or some raw veggies. I ate horribly and had a huge gain to show for it. I think I’ve gotten myself back down to “Start” again and would like to see the numbers keep dipping. <BR> <BR> Our temporary roommate found a place of his own, so he ... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 10:13:25 EST Good Things Take Time I am not letting the scale get me down. I know in my heart that I have been doing much more for myself recently than I have in a while and the scale is a dummy. <BR> <BR> Since my last blog post, I have really thrown myself back into the Spark. We had a monsoon on Saturday and instead of being a complete bum inside, I did a video and some miscellaneous other exercises while the dog tried to lick my face. On Sunday we went for a five mile hike/walk down and up the trail. I have been squeezin... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 09:33:00 EST 20 Pounds Hi. It’s me again. <BR> <BR> The blessing/curse of having such a long commute is that I get A LOT of time to think. Sometimes that means getting stuck in a big never ending negative cycle of irrational thinking that doesn’t help me in the least bit. Once the spiral starts, it is really hard to stop. Monday and into Monday night I was feeling SO down. I crawled into bed around 8:30 because I couldn’t face the world anymore. When I woke up on Tuesday, I asked myself if that was really ho... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 11:29:06 EST Read This If You're Having a Fat Day Clapping my hands, so true! Thought I'd share: <BR> <BR><BR>015/06/read-this-if-youre-having-a-fat<BR>-day-and-suffocating-from-insecurity/ Fri, 19 Jun 2015 11:23:53 EST Ugh. Life has been all kinds of crazy lately. I haven’t blogged because, like Bambi says, if you haven’t got anything nice to say don’t say anything at all. <BR> <BR> We got a new roommate yesterday, one of our best friends is getting divorced and we’re giving him a place to stay. That has been the big thing this week I suppose. We’re throwing him a big welcome home party on Saturday. My sister is visiting this weekend as well, it is going to be a busy one. <BR> <BR> To be honest, I h... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 09:57:42 EST The Engagement Story! This will not be a blog about my food, or exercise, or anything body-related. I’m finally getting around to posting about our engagement! <BR> <BR> We have had a lot going on lately and my fiancé’s best friend is getting divorced after only a year of marriage, so I hadn’t really been thinking about our own engagement/marriage much at all. A few weeks ago, my bf proactively made dinner reservations at our favorite place and I had a thought like – hmmmm, could it be a proposal? Well i... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 09:36:54 EST Personality Types Beware when the brain starts rumbling! <BR> <BR> I am an INFJ on the Myers Briggs scale. For anyone who doesn’t know their type, I highly recommend you check it out. Whenever I am struggling with my identity, I just pop over to the internet and google INFJ and remember I have a place in the world with this 1% of people just like me. <BR> <BR> Basically, I’m lined up like this: <BR> <BR> Dominant: Introverted Intuition <BR> Auxiliary: Extraverted Feeling <BR> Tertiary: Introverted Thi... Thu, 14 May 2015 09:17:23 EST F---A---T Hello Spark! I can’t remember my last blog, right before Vegas? A month ago perhaps? <BR> <BR> A lot has been going on. My endometriosis flared up pretty badly right after Vegas, then I got bronchitis. I think this is the first morning in about a month where I have woken up and not felt physically blah in one way or another. Now I’m ready to get moving again! <BR> <BR> I legit coughed for weeks straight. I had to go to Canada for work and that is when it got the worst and the trip prett... Mon, 4 May 2015 10:01:39 EST Stop the food judging! There is a saying I have seen a few times, so I may butcher it here, but it goes something like “Before you think you’re depressed, make sure you’re not just completely surrounded by idiots first” <BR> <BR> STORY <BR> <BR> <BR> OF <BR> <BR> <BR> MY <BR> <BR> <BR> LIFE <BR> <BR> (I think) <BR> <BR> <BR> I feel like everyone I work with is just a little more judge-y than other places I have been. I already hear from a neighbor at least once a week asking what the holdup is fo... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 11:00:05 EST Less than 24 hours 'til James Franco... Trying to kill some time before my flight… Vegas baby! I am most excited that the forecast says it will be 92 today when I get there. I got my toes done yesterday and I can’t wait to free them! Oh and seeing James Franco tomorrow, that is pretty exciting too. <BR> <BR> Anyone out there also a nervous traveler? I don’t mean in the sense that you’re scared – more like there are way too many variables out of your control and you can’t go with the flow with everything. It inevitably ... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 09:40:05 EST OVER FITBIT, We are THROUGH! I am adrift! My steps aren’t being counted! My sleep isn’t being tracked! I feel lost! <BR> <BR> My fitbit Charge HR bit the dust hard on Saturday. I woke up and saw the battery was near death, which isn’t surprising because that happens every 2 days. I plugged it in to charge and nothing seemed amiss. I put it back on my wrist and it gave me the little motivational message meaning it was tracking again. BF and I took Bea on a long walk and half way through I went to check my steps and... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 10:40:00 EST Fail Brakes! I am having a total and utter fail streak all of the sudden. <BR> <BR> Last night my BF and I went out for a sort of anniversary dinner thing. Somehow he convinced me to go to Buffalo Wild Wings because I could get “Naked Chicken Tenders” which is code for a grilled chicken breast cut into strips. Cool, grilled chicken. Then I ate most of his fries and had a margarita. Oops. I swear I just kept sticking my hand in his fries basket without even thinking until I realized afterwards what I... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 13:53:19 EST When Gold Stars Aren't Enough I swear – I hit the ball out of the park last week. I did! I was all proud of myself. Lots of gold star days. <BR> <BR> <BR> I tracked all of my food 6/7 days. I even made space for and tracked wine. <BR> <BR> <BR> I hit my steps goal all but Friday and even then I was just a couple of hundred steps short. <BR> <BR> <BR> Yesterday we went on a “family hike” and it felt so good on the trail that we all broke into a jog for I swear a good couple of minutes. Me, who hasn’t jogged in over a... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 11:19:53 EST