BONOLICIOUS2's SparkPeople Blog BONOLICIOUS2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community PreSpark & PostSpark Once in a while, I have a moment where I am reminded that my life can be broken out into “pre-spark” and “post-spark” phases. <BR> <BR> When I joined Spark, I was in a bad place. I was drinking slurpees daily (sometimes multiple times a day!), eating almost entirely processed foods, and having all kinds of health issues. I went to the doctor because my ankles were swelling and it freaked me out. The doctor I saw at the time was pretty lame and just prescribed me diuretics, but I knew I had ... Wed, 28 Oct 2015 11:09:26 EST Beware The Swamp Creature First of all, I go to write a blog because I'm in an emotional state and could use some support, and a giant pop up ad covers my screen? I am SO over Spark some days. I come here for HELP today and go to start a blog and "oh wait, before you reach out for help from others, let me show you a FREAKING ADVERTISEMENT"................ What?! <BR> <BR> My best friend is getting married today. This is exciting stuff. We used to chase boys around the Renaissance Festival when we were 15, and now she... Fri, 9 Oct 2015 09:57:04 EST Weight Watchers and Expectations I have been pretty absent from Spark. It doesn’t count any of my fitness stuff anymore because of the apple watch, so it always thinks I’m lazy, and honestly it seems like many other sparkfriends of mine have dropped off too. It isn’t what it used to be for me and I don’t know what else to do! I have been toying with the idea of joining Weight Watchers online. I say that because I hear it is a good community, and they have a lot of resources, it will shake me up a bit, and everything ... Wed, 30 Sep 2015 11:07:47 EST Improvements? Opinions? Things. Hello! <BR> <BR> Collecting my thoughts, publicly. Yay Spark. <BR> <BR> First of all, the advertisements on this site have gotten ridiculous. Can someone please tell Spark that pop up ads are a thing of the 2000’s and nobody uses them anymore because THEY PISS PEOPLE OFF? And that any brand that buys into them is really confused about how to market digitally to the modern population? I can tolerate the creepy retargeting ads, but pop ups? Please. <BR> <BR> Another Spark frustration – m... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 09:35:44 EST My Apologies - Endometriosis I’d like to rescind part of my last blog post. Yes it is still frustrating to watch my tiny coworker eat pasta salad, twix and a bag of salt & vinegar chips for lunch (true story – happened to me yesterday) but I should have known something was up with my unusual gain. <BR> <BR> If you’re a dude, you might want to look away. You’ve been warned! <BR> <BR> I neglected to mention in my post last week that every time I hiked the return trail (my neighbor tells me it’s a 60 degree hil... Thu, 3 Sep 2015 10:23:15 EST So very very tired... want to throw in the towel This weight-weight loss –fitness thing can get SO FRUSTRATING. Frankly, I’m tired. <BR> <BR> I’m so tired of watching my skinny coworkers eat donuts and bagels and cookies while I sit at my desk and excuse myself. It is happening again at this very moment. <BR> <BR> I’m so tired of constantly thinking about what I’m eating. <BR> <BR> I’m so tired of making efforts to park in the farthest spot in the lot, walking to the farthest bathroom I can, watching my steps every day. <BR>... Fri, 28 Aug 2015 09:02:58 EST Insurance Companies Want You FAT and Sick PLEASE NOTE: I am not making ANY political statement with this blog. I am just sharing my frustrating experience with Cigna. <BR> <BR> __________________________________ <BR> <BR> Today at work I overheard a coworker of mine, who is the sweetest older woman, completely lose it on the phone with Cigna about her coverage. It was surprising to hear her get so upset, but little did I know I'd be in the same boat a few hours later. <BR> <BR> Since going gluten free, I feel like I have been stea... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 21:16:21 EST No worries, ya mon Hello! <BR> <BR> I'm back from Jamaica mon. It was awesome. I went on a full out binge in almost every way possible. We stayed at a Sandals, AKA All Inclusive EVERYTHING. We ate and drank a whole lot. They even delivered pizzas unasked to you on the beach. I mean that kind of ridiculousness. Obviously I returned to gluten for the week too. But it was awesome. I read three books. I felt more relaxed than I have in maybe YEARS. I walked around in a bathing suit and didn't care what I looked li... Thu, 13 Aug 2015 20:10:39 EST On the FLY Squeezing in some updates! <BR> <BR> Life is not slowing down! That is for sure. <BR> <BR> Two weeks ago, we went to Erie PA for a wedding weekend. From my experience, everything in Erie was fried or deep fried. I came home insanely craving a salad or some raw veggies. I ate horribly and had a huge gain to show for it. I think I’ve gotten myself back down to “Start” again and would like to see the numbers keep dipping. <BR> <BR> Our temporary roommate found a place of his own, so he ... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 10:13:25 EST Good Things Take Time I am not letting the scale get me down. I know in my heart that I have been doing much more for myself recently than I have in a while and the scale is a dummy. <BR> <BR> Since my last blog post, I have really thrown myself back into the Spark. We had a monsoon on Saturday and instead of being a complete bum inside, I did a video and some miscellaneous other exercises while the dog tried to lick my face. On Sunday we went for a five mile hike/walk down and up the trail. I have been squeezin... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 09:33:00 EST 20 Pounds Hi. It’s me again. <BR> <BR> The blessing/curse of having such a long commute is that I get A LOT of time to think. Sometimes that means getting stuck in a big never ending negative cycle of irrational thinking that doesn’t help me in the least bit. Once the spiral starts, it is really hard to stop. Monday and into Monday night I was feeling SO down. I crawled into bed around 8:30 because I couldn’t face the world anymore. When I woke up on Tuesday, I asked myself if that was really ho... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 11:29:06 EST Read This If You're Having a Fat Day Clapping my hands, so true! Thought I'd share: <BR> <BR><BR>015/06/read-this-if-youre-having-a-fat<BR>-day-and-suffocating-from-insecurity/ Fri, 19 Jun 2015 11:23:53 EST Ugh. Life has been all kinds of crazy lately. I haven’t blogged because, like Bambi says, if you haven’t got anything nice to say don’t say anything at all. <BR> <BR> We got a new roommate yesterday, one of our best friends is getting divorced and we’re giving him a place to stay. That has been the big thing this week I suppose. We’re throwing him a big welcome home party on Saturday. My sister is visiting this weekend as well, it is going to be a busy one. <BR> <BR> To be honest, I h... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 09:57:42 EST The Engagement Story! This will not be a blog about my food, or exercise, or anything body-related. I’m finally getting around to posting about our engagement! <BR> <BR> We have had a lot going on lately and my fiancé’s best friend is getting divorced after only a year of marriage, so I hadn’t really been thinking about our own engagement/marriage much at all. A few weeks ago, my bf proactively made dinner reservations at our favorite place and I had a thought like – hmmmm, could it be a proposal? Well i... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 09:36:54 EST Personality Types Beware when the brain starts rumbling! <BR> <BR> I am an INFJ on the Myers Briggs scale. For anyone who doesn’t know their type, I highly recommend you check it out. Whenever I am struggling with my identity, I just pop over to the internet and google INFJ and remember I have a place in the world with this 1% of people just like me. <BR> <BR> Basically, I’m lined up like this: <BR> <BR> Dominant: Introverted Intuition <BR> Auxiliary: Extraverted Feeling <BR> Tertiary: Introverted Thi... Thu, 14 May 2015 09:17:23 EST F---A---T Hello Spark! I can’t remember my last blog, right before Vegas? A month ago perhaps? <BR> <BR> A lot has been going on. My endometriosis flared up pretty badly right after Vegas, then I got bronchitis. I think this is the first morning in about a month where I have woken up and not felt physically blah in one way or another. Now I’m ready to get moving again! <BR> <BR> I legit coughed for weeks straight. I had to go to Canada for work and that is when it got the worst and the trip prett... Mon, 4 May 2015 10:01:39 EST Stop the food judging! There is a saying I have seen a few times, so I may butcher it here, but it goes something like “Before you think you’re depressed, make sure you’re not just completely surrounded by idiots first” <BR> <BR> STORY <BR> <BR> <BR> OF <BR> <BR> <BR> MY <BR> <BR> <BR> LIFE <BR> <BR> (I think) <BR> <BR> <BR> I feel like everyone I work with is just a little more judge-y than other places I have been. I already hear from a neighbor at least once a week asking what the holdup is fo... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 11:00:05 EST Less than 24 hours 'til James Franco... Trying to kill some time before my flight… Vegas baby! I am most excited that the forecast says it will be 92 today when I get there. I got my toes done yesterday and I can’t wait to free them! Oh and seeing James Franco tomorrow, that is pretty exciting too. <BR> <BR> Anyone out there also a nervous traveler? I don’t mean in the sense that you’re scared – more like there are way too many variables out of your control and you can’t go with the flow with everything. It inevitably ... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 09:40:05 EST OVER FITBIT, We are THROUGH! I am adrift! My steps aren’t being counted! My sleep isn’t being tracked! I feel lost! <BR> <BR> My fitbit Charge HR bit the dust hard on Saturday. I woke up and saw the battery was near death, which isn’t surprising because that happens every 2 days. I plugged it in to charge and nothing seemed amiss. I put it back on my wrist and it gave me the little motivational message meaning it was tracking again. BF and I took Bea on a long walk and half way through I went to check my steps and... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 10:40:00 EST Fail Brakes! I am having a total and utter fail streak all of the sudden. <BR> <BR> Last night my BF and I went out for a sort of anniversary dinner thing. Somehow he convinced me to go to Buffalo Wild Wings because I could get “Naked Chicken Tenders” which is code for a grilled chicken breast cut into strips. Cool, grilled chicken. Then I ate most of his fries and had a margarita. Oops. I swear I just kept sticking my hand in his fries basket without even thinking until I realized afterwards what I... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 13:53:19 EST When Gold Stars Aren't Enough I swear – I hit the ball out of the park last week. I did! I was all proud of myself. Lots of gold star days. <BR> <BR> <BR> I tracked all of my food 6/7 days. I even made space for and tracked wine. <BR> <BR> <BR> I hit my steps goal all but Friday and even then I was just a couple of hundred steps short. <BR> <BR> <BR> Yesterday we went on a “family hike” and it felt so good on the trail that we all broke into a jog for I swear a good couple of minutes. Me, who hasn’t jogged in over a... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 11:19:53 EST Chin Up Buttercup Have a little update! <BR> <BR> I went back to the doc today to discuss endometriosis surgery. While she does think I have it, she doesn’t think it warrants surgery – yet. We’re trying another medication for a few months and will check back in. She also wants me to continue the gluten free diet and “eating close to the ground” which is a new way to say eat non-processed foods. Factories are far from the ground! She nicely suggested losing weight to help, which I understand. Overall, I am ver... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 13:55:10 EST Pity Party, Table of 1 I’m really struggling today. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I spent two plus hours shoveling – two separate rounds. At the time I kept telling myself that I should probably stop or take it easy, but of course I don’t ever listen to myself. I always think I can do it all. I came back in and saw my Fitbit Charge HR thought I had 45 minutes of cardio which is the best I’ve ever seen on it, so I was all proud of myself for doing it all too. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up and knew I was in trouble. I cou... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 16:13:54 EST Starting TODAY. Because Why Not?! My brain can’t stop rumbling about this endometriosis stuff from Friday (side note: thanks to everyone who commented on that blog!) <BR> <BR> I did A LOT of research this weekend. I ended up in tears at the thought of surgery. I know this is the only way to know for sure if you have endometriosis, but it seems so dangerous and expensive and in the end all you know is that you have it or not. There is no cure. I have started a little list of pros and cons and the only Pro I can think of is h... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 10:26:49 EST Endometriosis Diagnosis Well well well. <BR> <BR> I do have an update on the fitbit saga. They chose to ignore most of my feedback but did add this comment: The indent that users receive from the Charge HR is unavoidable, as this is how the PurePulse is able to get an accurate reading of your blood volume. <BR> <BR> So to anyone who is interested in the Charge – it sticks into your skin and it hurts and they think that is completely normal. <BR> <BR> They are letting me return it. I think I’m just going to go t... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 15:38:56 EST Fitbits and Resetting (again.) I have a whole bunch of stuff to get down “on paper” here! Whew! <BR> <BR> First of all, I am kind of hating my new fitbit Charge HR. I ran into trouble with the Bluetooth syncs less than a week after opening it. It refused to sync to my brand new phone. After a lengthy back and forth with fitbit support, I had to reinstall everything and so far it has been working again but it still does not proactively sync as much as my old fitbit did. Second, the battery life is TERRIBLE on this fitbit. ... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 09:51:29 EST NEVER SAY THIS TO A (fat) WOMAN I couldn’t figure out why everyone was liking my status update, then I realized over half of it was missing. This is NOT something likeable in any way. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I wore a new dress with tights and boots. When I bought/created the outfit, I thought it was cute. Yesterday, I wasn’t sold. All day I just felt so bloated and fat. I got home and my neighbor stopped by and then asked me if I was pregnant. I immediately was like “No, I’m just really fat!” She tried to backpedal and said I ... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 16:53:13 EST Initial Fitbit Charge Review! Got my fitbit charge yesterday! It is a bit too soon to do a full review, but here are my initial thoughts: <BR> <BR> 1. It is lighter than my fitbit flex. The band is thinner, I definitely don’t “feel” it as much. <BR> 2. The band is textured and has a more traditional watch clasp. My flex would pop off sometimes (taking off a sweater, sticking my arm in a tight spot, etc.) and I used to be so scared of losing it! This band is MUCH more secure. That being said, this textured band seems to ... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 15:19:29 EST Is THIS Rock Bottom? Here I am… again! <BR> <BR> I really haven’t been on Spark much recently, and how odd that I sign back in today and I’m very close to the next “Level” of Spark points. Coincidence? Hah! <BR> <BR> Let’s see… where did I fall apart… <BR> <BR> A few weeks ago, my dad went back in the hospital. They say his heart is weak on one side, amongst other issues. They told us ahead of time that they knew he wouldn’t be home for the holidays. It was a tough pill to swallow and it through me for more of... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 09:59:01 EST Pushing On Hi. I’m here. Still not working out. Still sticking with Gluten Free. Thought I’d update on how that is going at least: <BR> <BR> PROS: <BR> <BR> - My digestive process has NEVER been better in my life. I tried the greek yogurt thing, the probiotic pills thing, everything and I have never had results like this. <BR> - I’m getting a better sense of when I’m actually hungry. <BR> - I have cut my alcohol consumption pretty strongly. I used to drink more beer than I realized. <BR> - I’m no long... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 12:02:23 EST Balance/Working Out Advice Needed! Hi All – <BR> <BR> Hope you had a good holiday! We had an interesting trip to Pittsburgh full of snow and such. I did take a small break from gluten free to have some pumpkin pie. I’ve really been sticking to it as much as I can. So far I have noticed my digestive process (lol) is improving and my energy levels seem just slightly higher. Curious to see how it goes after 30 days are up. So far I really miss everything I shouldn’t be having anyways – croutons, beer, pizza, bagels, pizza bagels... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 13:02:41 EST Some people... and this week... Need a moment to rant… <BR> <BR> This week has sucked, from a health standpoint. Between that crazy doctor and my non-results results and more. <BR> <BR> I also kicked in the gluten free stuff this week and already hit a few walls. We play trivia on Wednesday nights at a brewery. They don’t serve food, so usually there is a food truck and the food truck this week just so happened to be a WAFFLE truck. I ended up getting a baked potato and side salad from Wendys near the brewery, which was ... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 09:45:17 EST Results & Doctors I am still trying to process yesterday but not in the way that I thought it would be. <BR> <BR> My primary doc recommended me to see a “lady doc” specialist, but all she said was that all of the docs at this women’s practice were good. So when I called, they suggested this one doc and I agreed. They know best right? <BR> <BR> This woman should come with a warning. <BR> <BR> I have never had an experience like this in my life. She quoted poetry, maybe something in German, made one comment ... Wed, 19 Nov 2014 15:49:31 EST No Blame Game As I mentioned in my status, I finally went and got all of the doctors orders tests done. <BR> <BR> I’m a gigantic baby and have been dragging my feet on the blood work. My doc prescribed me meds to help but I was having trouble even committing to a date. I have to fast and be driven there if I take the meds, so I would have had to make plans with my bf for a ride. Anyways, yesterday I went to the imaging place to see my insides and what was this? A blood place was in the lobby. And I had fa... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 15:55:31 EST Viva Las Vegas! I know they say what happens in vegas is supposed to stay in vegas, but I had such a great trip that I want to share it! <BR> <BR> My boyfriend’s vendor was holding a conference in Vegas and paid for our sweet suite at the Venetian, two nice dinners, and to see the Beatles LOVE. I basically got to tag along for the price of my airfare and it was awesome. Thursday was such a nice day that I almost cried from happiness. Our air travel was painless (seriously… that NEVER happens!), we got a ma... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 11:43:21 EST "Pupdate" and Other Stuff Long time no blog! <BR> <BR> Been very busy at work. Worked a Saturday and through lunch most days. Lots of stress there. <BR> <BR> I've also been feeling pretty lousy, health wise. I finally went to the doc today and have a whole battery of tests coming up. Checking my inflammatory markers, thyroid, and for things like lymes. It is pretty evident my thyroid has slipped again which makes me kind of sad. I wish I could make it better but it doesn't work that way. The doctor recommended I go ... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 14:56:22 EST Loss of Routine/Puppy Update Hello! <BR> <BR> Getting out some thoughts and I am totally sleep deprived so please excuse my rambling… <BR> <BR> I can TOTALLY see how women gain a ton of weight after having a baby. I haven’t had a baby myself, but I think a puppy sort of counts and is giving me an idea of what an infant might be like. My routine is TRASHED. I expected that to happen but the actual routine bombing has still hurt. <BR> <BR> A lot happened last week. I had two completely insane days at work. My family ca... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 10:01:41 EST Saying Hi Hi! <BR> <BR> I feel like I should say hi. <BR> <BR> I don’t think I’ve updated since before Colorado? Guess I better talk about that too! <BR> <BR> We had a great trip! Lots of fun experiences. Got to visit my family, have lunch at one of my top ten fave restaurants, go on lots of hikes, breathe lots of thin fresh air, see many gorgeous sights and vistas. I finally got to go to Red Rocks which was on my bucket list. We saw an amazing meteor while we were there too – so cool! We went to a ... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 13:50:37 EST LIFE and a Puppy! Hallo! <BR> <BR> Someone once said to me that if they didn’t actually know me, they’d think I was crazy with everything that goes on in my life. I always had a suspicion that other folks had less crazy in their lives, but I swear mine comes in waves and then I get quiet periods and that MUST be how life works for everyone right?! <BR> <BR> Last week my mom called in a panic and said my father had literally fallen over at dinner and was in an ambulance on the way to the hospital. He legit br... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 09:34:43 EST What To Do About Spark? I’ve been doing a lot of thinking – and you know that never goes well! <BR> <BR> I’m wrestling with the idea of leaving Spark. I’ve been here about 3 years. How crazy is that?! And yet I’m not at my goal weight. I never really got close to my goal weight. What is the quote about the definition of insanity? Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results? <BR> <BR> Perhaps this is just me, but I’ve noticed a few changes in Spark and it just isn’t holding, well, the “... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 10:34:14 EST Highlights & Hindsight I think my mental crisis has somewhat abated as the week has gone on. I had a little funk and I had to work through it. <BR> <BR> A few highlights of this week: <BR> <BR> - Exceeded my step goal every day <BR> <BR> - I have convinced co-workers to take our meetings outside for a “walking meeting” – twice this week! <BR> <BR> - I had two people tell me I looked skinner/asked if I lost weight <BR> <BR> - I made two new healthy pinterest recipes this week, one of which was pretty good and t... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 09:05:24 EST Nature v. Nurture & Weight I’m having one of those days where my brain keeps turning on itself for no good reason. I think I feel a sense of change coming again, not sure why or how or what… maybe I’m just growing up a little more? <BR> <BR> I’m thinking this all traces back to Sunday. My mom brought over this HUGE pile of pictures from when I was growing up. I spent a while going through them, organizing them, putting them in storage boxes. <BR> <BR> I can look at them now and recognize a few things, not all of whi... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 13:16:10 EST Vaycay Quick update! <BR> <BR> My steps counts for vacation look amazing. We did tons of walking. I doubled my average every day….. and I probably doubled my average calories each day too. We packed breakfast/lunches but I swear dinner and our many brewery visits negated it all. I feel kind of bloated and my skirt is tight today – not good signs! <BR> <BR> Got off to a rocky start at vacation – my neck tried to give me a migraine so the first night I was in bed pretty quickly. The second day, not ... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 14:21:52 EST Don't Worry, Be Happy Hello! <BR> <BR> I braved the scale this morning. I fully expected to see a giant gain. I have been terrible. Well, maybe not terrible but certainly not behaving myself. With my “time” last week, I was down in steps and ate some junk. I’ve gone out and made some bad choices, like French fries and beers being involved kind of choices. So I was honestly surprised this morning to see I didn’t lose weight, but I didn’t gain either. Hmmm. <BR> <BR> This is why the human body really puzzles me. I... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 11:37:59 EST What. A. Week. What. A. Week. <BR> <BR> I have been all over the place this week. Physically, emotionally, everything that ends in “ally” <BR> <BR> We’ll start with the “professionally” bit – this week was the final announcement of the big change at my work. We’re officially sold and no longer work for our old company. I had a big part to play in this and worked A LOT of hours earlier this week. Now starts the fun of transitioning to the new company. I’m trying to keep my blinders on and just focus on my... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 09:43:21 EST Back in the Swing & Changing Been really getting back into the swing of things this week! Packing meals and snacks for work, cooking dinner at home, 3 nights of PT, taking care of chores like laundry that I hate, plus getting even more stuff in order at the house. I’ve been trying to get my walks in at lunchtime to keep my steps count up. That Wednesday last week is still bothering me! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> (ps - I know my goal seems low but it is what ... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 08:33:31 EST A case of the (sore) Mondays I can’t believe this weekend has come and gone! <BR> <BR> Friday night we just relaxed. We were both pretty tired and wanted to rest up for the weekend. <BR> <BR> Saturday we did a ton of errands and got most of the final stuff over from the rental house. We did a HUGE grocery shop and I feel so much better now that our fridge is stocked with fresh food! The veggie drawers are full and I even treated us to a rather expensive asian melon for desserts this week. We restocked greek yogurts, al... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 09:37:57 EST Quick/Good Week! What a quick week! Feel like I was just here posting on… Monday?! <BR> <BR> Monday and Tuesday my exercise was PT and moving more stuff to the new house after work. I did a little too much heavy lifting on Tuesday and needed a break on Wednesday (my PT gave me the whatnot about my back!) I’ve pretty much been eating salads for lunch and cheese and crackers for dinner. This approach isn’t going well, I can’t wait to go grocery shopping and have REAL meals and snacks again. Our fridge is looki... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 09:14:58 EST The Big Move Hello hello! <BR> <BR> This was supposed to be a blog to say “omg we did so much moving this weekend that even my toe and finger bones hurt” but I think I can do better than that! <BR> <BR> My stomach has been acting up a lot, probably from eating out last week and from the stress of the move. I am definitely one of those stress/nervous tummy trouble people. I have been trying to channel all of that nervous energy into productivity or walks. On Friday I caught myself stressing and I told my... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 08:38:43 EST A Lesson in Kindness & Positivity Quick story to relate… <BR> <BR> I was on the elevator at work just now and at one stop the lady next to me said “Have a good weekend” to the lady getting off the elevator, who in return completely ignored the well wishes and dashed off with her nose in the air. When the door closed, the nice looked at me and said “I was just trying to be nice…” and I replied “I was just thinking about how nice you were and how sad it makes me that people can’t return the kindness! I know everyone has a lot ... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 12:27:00 EST