BONNIJEAN's SparkPeople Blog BONNIJEAN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Focus on what I CAN do It is so easy for me to get stuck thinking about the things I can't do: I can't walk very far without pain. I can't participate in martial arts. I am too tired to do the things I want to do. <BR> <BR> When I focus on those obstacles, I lose sight of the things I CAN do: I can choose to eat fruit instead of visiting my coworker's candy dish. I can walk a little bit in spite of the pain. I can do time-consuming tasks if I stop and rest then return to the task after my rest break. <BR> <BR> I ... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 10:40:31 EST I joined a gym. What was I thinking? I tend to be frugal. Spending money to exercise when there are so many free fitness opportunities has never seemed like a good use of money to me. Why pay to exercise when I live close to a park with running and walking trails? Why pay to exercise at a place that is a 6 mile drive when I can walk to the park? <BR> <BR> Well, there are several reasons that I joined 9 Round. <BR> <BR> 1. I've heard good things about circuit type fitness programs such as 9 Round and Curves. I've read about res... Sat, 3 May 2014 08:58:09 EST I feel so much better I know it is trendy, but going gluten free has made a great difference for me. <BR> <BR> Actually because it is trendy, I resisted going gluten free for a long time. My daughter's chiropractor suggested it when I accompanied her to her first visit. Well actually he suggested avoiding carbs, but since I wasn't his patient he didn't go into great detail. <BR> <BR> My daughter's gastroenterologist suggested that she do a gluten free trial even though her endoscopy showed no signs of celiac. Go... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 21:45:13 EST 4 Months After Knee Surgery I wish I had this surgery several years ago. <BR> <BR> Last Sunday, I noticed that I can stand for all the verses of the songs in church without pain. <BR> <BR> I can walk from my car to my office without feeling exhausted. <BR> <BR> I can enjoy shopping. I can walk through the grocery store without having to hang on to the cart for support. <BR> <BR> I still have some minor pain and sensitivity, but overall I'm glad I had the surgery. Tue, 11 Feb 2014 00:04:40 EST No amount of food will change the facts I know I tend to be an emotional eater, so I know the next few days or weeks will be very challenging. <BR> <BR> My mother died last night. <BR> <BR> No amount of food will bring her back. I cannot eat away the grief. The tears will stop someday, but today the tears flow freely. Sun, 8 Dec 2013 12:44:44 EST 95° In weather, 95° is hot, <BR> in knees, 95° is not. <BR> <BR> But 95° is much better than I could do when I came home from the hospital. The booklet says patients should be able to bend the knee at 110° now. I guess I'm not the ideal patient. I am making progress, just slower. <BR> <BR> Sat, 9 Nov 2013 11:44:34 EST 4 weeks after knee replacement surgery I am making progress, but the progress is not in a straight line. Some days are better than others. The pain is more manageable, but I am having problems with swelling. The problems with swelling limit my ability to bend my knee. <BR> <BR> Still I have hope that things will soon be better than they were before surgery. Thu, 7 Nov 2013 10:51:23 EST Day 22 after knee replacement I know that physical therapist actually want to help. If I didn't know that fact, I would think they are all sadist who enjoy seeing people experience pain. I know the pain is for a good cause: greater mobility. But therapy is hard. Hard work that can pay off with good results. <BR> <BR> During today's session, I wanted to quit. But quitting would void all the hard work I've already done and would leave me worse off than before the surgery. <BR> <BR> I'm exhausted! Wed, 30 Oct 2013 21:54:59 EST Walking - Correcting bad habits Wednesday the physical therapists pointed out that I don't bend my knee naturally. I lift my foot off the ground and swing it forward without bending. I didn't consciously develop this gait, but nevertheless I started doing it in the year(s) before surgery when I was trying to minimize the pain of walking. <BR> <BR> Therapy in the coming weeks will continue to try to strengthen the leg muscles. In addition, I'll be learning how to walk correctly. Heel first, rolling on to toes, and bending k... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 15:29:14 EST My scale is playing tricks on me. When I weighed this morning, I thought "wow! almost another pound down." Then I went back to bed and slept for two hours. I weighed again. "No way! 3 pounds down!" <BR> <BR> Better check again. "Wowsers! 5 pounds down since yesterday, no way!" <BR> <BR> Same scale. Same location on the floor each time. <BR> <BR> I ate breakfast then weighed again. It was the same as the first measurement. I don't really trust my scale now, but I'm recording the first number since it did register twice. Wed, 23 Oct 2013 10:34:28 EST Progress Two weeks ago, I had surgery. Although progress has been slow, I can tell a difference. The pain has diminished somewhat. I'm walking better. I still sleep a great deal more than I did before surgery. After breakfast this morning, I took a 3 hour nap. <BR> <BR> I'd like to be more mobile. I'd like to get more accomplished here at the house, but I'm glad for the progress so far. Tue, 22 Oct 2013 13:15:34 EST Bending and mending - day 14 after surgery Today the therapists had me walk out to my mail box. This little trip involved going up and down the steps from the sidewalk to the porch. <BR> <BR> My degree of bending is 93 degrees today. <BR> <BR> My knee feels tight and swollen. The therapist reminded me to use ice. How could I forget? I wrote it down so I can remind myself. <BR> <BR> I am impatient and want to be able to walk normally now. I must remind myself of how much progress I've already made and assure myself that I will cont... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 11:29:24 EST Knee replacement surgery and recovery I have had problems with knee pain since my early 30s. I've had physical therapy a number of times. Each round of physical therapy seemed to help for a while until the last round 2 years ago. When I finished that set of PT, my knees didn't feel any better. <BR> <BR> Four years ago, I tore the meniscus in my right knee. The surgeon offered arthroscopic surgery, but said he couldn't guarantee pain-free results. I opted to skip that surgery because it offered little hope for relief. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 11:31:03 EST Wow! 6 pounds in 6 days I've lost 6 pounds since I came home from the hospital. That sounds amazing, but I gained 6 pounds in the hospital from all the fluids I was given. <BR> <BR> I can't exercise that much because my knee is still swollen and sore from the joint replacement. <BR> <BR> I'm looking forward to being able to walk and exercise and actually lose weight. Sat, 19 Oct 2013 08:58:18 EST Knee update I got my stitches out today. <BR> <BR> I was able to reach 90 degree angle today. <BR> <BR> The therapist was pleased with the way it is healing. <BR> <BR> I want to feel better now. It's hard to wait. Therapy is challenging, but I'm seeing improvements. Fri, 18 Oct 2013 19:10:08 EST My breast cancer story Five years ago, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. <BR> <BR> If you want to read the long version, visit<BR>013/10/14/my-experience-with-breast-ca<BR>ncer/ . <BR> <BR> Thanks for taking a look. Mon, 14 Oct 2013 12:14:59 EST Changes ahead I'm having surgery in 3 days. There will be a 3-4 day hospital stay. When I get out and recover from all the surgery, I want to do things to improve my life. <BR> <BR> I've been reading Suzy Cohen's Diabetes Without Drugs. I am considering doing the dairy free and gluten free diet that she suggests after I get out of the hospital. <BR> <BR> If I do try dairy and gluten free, I'll blog about it here. Sat, 5 Oct 2013 11:02:52 EST New knee for me I am having knee joint replacement in less than 2 weeks. I am not looking forward to the surgery and the rehabilitation therapy, but I am looking forward to being able to move without pain. <BR> <BR> I am hoping that by January I can be back to walking. I think I'll be able to finally see some results. <BR> <BR> Every time I second guess myself about having knee surgery, my knee will lock or will start hurting even more. I feel confident I am doing the right thing, I'm just nervous about th... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 07:41:10 EST Is there a post-deployment stress disorder that doesn't involve trauma? My husband was deployed to Iraq 2 times. Since he was a reservist, we didn't live on or near a military installation and had very little support. No one else in our circle of friends had the same experience. <BR> <BR> He's retired now and has a great civilian job, but I still feel great anxiety welling up whenever I'm already busy and someone asks me to do something additional. Even if I say "no," I still feel stressed. <BR> <BR> I spent almost 3 years (+ all those drill weekends) parentin... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 15:23:15 EST Following/Setting the Wrong Example I loved my grandmothers, and I love my mother. Please don't think I am disrespecting either of them. <BR> <BR> I remember as a young woman watching my grandmother and my mom fill a plate with high calorie and high carb foods on many occasions. As I watched them, I remember thinking these kinds of thoughts: <BR> Don't you want to be around for my children? <BR> Couldn't you eat fewer fried foods so we could have you with us longer? <BR> Do you really want that more than you to keep your sugar... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 17:50:50 EST Farewell, Sweet Arwen I originally posted a longer version of this on another blog. <BR> <BR><BR>/ <BR> <BR> Arwen’s mother, an obviously pregnant tabby, showed up at my folk’s house a little over 12 years ago. START RANT – Why do people drive out to a rural location and dump their unwanted animals? Do they think their pet will go feral and survive better in the country? Do they think people away from town have unlimited resources to care for the pet they no longer want?... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 18:12:50 EST Done is better than perfect My daughters and I recently were working on a quilt block kit. My daughter cut one of the pieces incorrectly. I sewed it together and squared it up. Years ago, I would have recut the piece and have said grumpy things to the daughter. But now I know that it is more important that my daughter has happy memories of making our first quilt block together than it is to have a perfect block. And this block is done. Done is better than perfect. <BR> <img src=" Tue, 16 Jul 2013 22:41:01 EST The Second Half of 2013 Why not make resolutions for July 1st? <BR> <BR> Here are my resolutions for the second half of the year. <BR> <BR> 1. Hug my girls every day. <BR> 2. Hug and kiss my husband every day. <BR> 3. Only eat food I like. If the first bite isn't wonderful, then I don't have to finish it. <BR> 4. Keep the big picture in mind, but focus on the next 20 pounds. <BR> 5. My desire to be healthy is bigger than any desire for dessert. <BR> 6. At least 10 minutes of movement a day. Mon, 1 Jul 2013 20:48:05 EST Eating Strategies for Family Reunions, Potlucks, etc. I love family reunions, church fellowships, and other communal dining occasions. I used to eat with abandon, even to the point that my stomach would actually hurt. However, I know that I always felt bad after so much food. I have developed these strategies to help me eat at a potluck and not regret it. <BR> <BR> 1. Get lots of fruit. I try to always bring some kind of fruit. Today I brought watermelon and cantaloupe chunks. <BR> <BR> 2. Get some salad if there are any that are not loaded wi... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 19:31:10 EST Whirlwind Trip Adventure The trip that was supposed to take 3.5 hours each way took much longer. <BR> <BR> On the trip up we got stuck in a terrible traffic jam. We had to call Scott's parents and ask them to drive 30 minutes to pick up the teens from camp. <BR> <BR> When we finally got to Scott's parents, we found out that one of the teens we had taken to camp had been bitten by a copperhead and had spent 2.5 days in the hospital. His leader did NOT tell them that you need to disturb the wood before picking it up ... Sat, 29 Jun 2013 10:13:59 EST Whirlwind trip Today we get to drive 3.5 hours to King, NC and turn around and drive 3.5 hours back home. But it is worth it because we will pick up our daughters from camp today and get to attend a friend's wedding tomorrow. Fri, 28 Jun 2013 12:11:48 EST It's just not working today I haven't followed the exercise plan or the food plan today. I know the plan will work. But if I don't follow the plan, it won't. <BR> <BR> Breakfast was actually not so bad. Lunch could have been better. Dinner could be the closest to the plan. Thu, 27 Jun 2013 13:14:57 EST Frustration with Spark Start Yesterday the new spark start challenge started. I stepped on the scale to get my initial weight. Ugh! up from before. Oh well, it's going to be going down. <BR> <BR> Although it was the starting day of the challenge, I forgot to log in to Sparkpeople. <em>24</em> Of course I didn't record any of the challenge activities. <BR> <BR> This morning I stepped on the scale to see if there was any progress. Woo hoo! almost a pound down. After thinking about it, I decided to step back on the s... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 20:54:21 EST Father's Day My husband is a great father, but not a great cook. Read about his latest kitchen adventure here. <BR> <BR><BR>/2013/06/15/do-you-think-you-would-lik<BR>e-it-then-2/ <BR> <BR> Here is a story about my dad. <BR> <BR><BR>/2013/06/16/love-triumphs-over-loathing/ Sun, 16 Jun 2013 20:16:31 EST Gratitude I know that I am richly blessed. I have the normal challenges of life, and I have challenges that are the result of poor choices in the past. Nonetheless, I have much for which to be thankful. <BR> <BR> This is not a complete list and it is not in any special order of priority. It's just what comes immediately to mind. <BR> <BR> 1. My husband - Scott is patient and kind. We are approaching our 33 anniversary. <BR> 2. My 4 daughters - as different as can be, they bring joy to my life. <BR> ... Sat, 18 May 2013 07:48:08 EST Need Knee Advice Has anyone who has had knee replacement surgery willing to share her/his experience? <BR> <BR> My orthopedic doctor is recommending knee replacement surgery because I have no cartilage in either knee. I saw him 3 years ago, and I had some cartilage then. But the last 3 years have seen the cartilage completely disappear. <BR> <BR> I feel as if I am in a vicious cycle. I try to lose weight so my knees will hurt less, but the exercise makes my knees hurt worse than ever. The doctor thinks that... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 17:35:37 EST New experiences This weekend I have had 2 new experiences. <BR> <BR> 1. I attended a 5K. <BR> 2. I attended a Civil War reenactment. <BR> <BR> I enjoyed both experiences. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The reenactment looks back in history. It is admirable how much care the reenactors put into their apparel. No polyester lace there. <BR> <BR> The 5K made me look forward. One of the participants had just celebrated his birthday and came in 1st i... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 21:26:32 EST Thankful for another day - close call Yesterday right after my daugher got her driver's license on the first try, a hit and run driver narrowly missed our car. His momentum was slowed by hitting the car in front of us, and we escaped serious injury. <BR> <BR> Our mood went from happy - celebrating my daughter's new license - to serious and shaken - we could have died. <BR> <BR> This event served to remind me to make the most of my blessings. There is no guarantee of tomorrow. Fri, 11 Jan 2013 10:16:19 EST Just another day I think I know why some people are uncomfortable when a friend or family member makes changes in his/her life to become more healthy. Those people are uncomfortable because they feel as if they are being left behind. They see positive things happening to someone else, and they are jealous because they don't see similar positive things happening to them. <BR> <BR> While I don't want to make others uncomfortable, I cannot allow other people's discomfort to be my problem. Thu, 10 Jan 2013 10:51:34 EST I've picked my reward I have always had problems picking a tangible incentive for weight loss. After all, isn't losing weight a reward in itself? And if I need a new pair of shoes, then I don't want to delay getting them till they can be a reward. <BR> <BR> But when I thought I had lost my favorite earrings, I realized that I love new earrings and they are not something I actually need to have. So I have decided that I will treat myself to new earrings when I lose 5 pounds. And I will not buy new earrings till it... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 22:06:32 EST 2013 New Year's Day Thoughts January 1 is not a magic day. Resolutions or wishes don't just happen, a person has to take action to make the resolution or wish become reality. <BR> <BR> Although, I have been with SparkPeople a long time, I have yet to be where I want to be physically. I don't consider myself a yo-yo dieter, but anyone looking at my weight chart would think I am a yo-yo. My pattern has been to get serious about food intake and exercise, lose some weight, sustain an injury, then gain back all the weight. I... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 11:17:25 EST Really? Today a friend asked me how much weight I had lost. Whenever anyone asks, I always try to remember how much I weighed when I saw her last before I answer. I did the math and answered, "about 5 pounds." She replied that it looked as if I had lost much more than that. <BR> <BR> Well, how should I react? After gaining and losing and gaining, I am only 5 pounds down from the highest I've ever been. In fact, I may be a couple pounds heavier than I was when I saw her last. <BR> <BR> Maybe it was ... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 21:25:54 EST Exercising in Middle Age No excuses. <BR> <BR><BR><BR>ml?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=em<BR>ail&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+CrankyFitness<BR>+%28Cranky+Fitness%29 Thu, 1 Nov 2012 23:43:13 EST Another new start A friend challenged me and some mutual friends to set a weight loss goal for the rest of the year. I joined in, but today I found out that I had even more incentive to be serious. I decided to check in with Wii Fit Plus today. Wow! In the 200+ days since I last used it, I have gained 12 pounds. Oh my. That would account for the pants and skirts being a little snug. <BR> <BR> Since I had the Wii up and running, I did basic step and the obstacle course. I could tell I was out of shape, but I ... Sun, 28 Oct 2012 19:30:59 EST Adding Insult to Injury My knee is still hurting. Hurting a lot. So I'm not doing much walking for fitness or standing on it for a long time. <BR> <BR> When people ask how I hurt it, I tell the truth. The original injury came from a misstep in my driveway. The most recent problem happened after I sat at my desk all afternoon without getting up to move. <BR> <BR> I wish I could say something both honest and dramatic such as <BR> <BR> I injured my knee rescuing a child from a burning building, or <BR> I injured my... Sat, 7 Jul 2012 11:10:48 EST Prone to injury I can't seem to get ahead. Almost every time I start up exercising, I wind up with an injury. I had recently started back at the gym, but last Monday my knee pain returned with a vengeance. <BR> <BR> I am focusing on eating right till my knee heals. Something is better than nothing. Mon, 2 Jul 2012 23:12:23 EST Random Father's Day Thoughts This doesn't really have anything to do with exercise or fitness, but it's what's been on my mind today. <BR> <BR> Naturally, I think about my dad, Eugene Hemphill Marlowe (Gene), on Father's Day, but I think about him on other days as well. <BR> <BR> I still miss being able to call him to find out the best route to anywhere. <BR> <BR> He was a faithful deacon and later lay pastor. He and I were baptized during the same service. <BR> <BR> Gene loved corn - corn on the cob, creamed corn... Sun, 17 Jun 2012 17:42:36 EST Yes, I can tell a difference For a long time I wondered if going to the fitness center or exercising made any difference. Well, in a perverse sort of way, I now know that it does. <BR> <BR> Because of my daughter's health issues, I've put my own exercise on the back burner. I haven't been to the gym in 4 months, and walking or exercising at home hasn't happened either. And guess what! I feel a lot worse both in over all health and specifically in my knees and legs. <BR> <BR> I am seriously looking forward to going bac... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 20:44:24 EST Just the reverse Many people step up their exercise in January. I have had just the reverse experience. With so many appointments this month for myself and for my daughter's physical therapy, I've not been able to go to the fitness center at work. I'm glad that I'm not gaining weight, but I'm not losing anything either. I want to get back to exercise. I enjoy the freedom of movement that I get when I am active. Sun, 29 Jan 2012 20:45:05 EST 10 Weeks, but still waiting for results I have been going to the fitness center 4-5 days a week for the last 10 weeks. I've been riding the bike for at least 30 minutes and doing some stretching and strength training. I have lost only 2 pounds. I'm so discouraged. <BR> <BR> And out of the blue, my hip has started hurting. It hurt so bad when I woke up on Tuesday morning, that I wondered if it were possible to break one's hip just lying in bed. I am going to see the doctor tomorrow. I hope she gives me clearance to go back to the g... Thu, 21 Jul 2011 21:23:36 EST New Bike at the Fitness Center As soon as I walked into the fitness center, the attendant said, "I've been waiting for you. I wanted to tell you that we got three more bikes." (side note - someone actually notices that I've been going to the gym for more than 4 weeks no.) <BR> <BR> I tried out the second recumbent bike this morning. It had a flashier display, but the display was just barely not level. The slight tilt made me feel a little off center myself, but other people might not have noticed. The newer bike was sturd... Wed, 15 Jun 2011 16:13:27 EST That was unexpected. This morning I was scheduled for a stress test. <BR> <BR> <em>315</em> <BR> <BR> I'm thinking, "ok, I'll just get my exercise on the treadmill rather than on the bike this morning." <BR> <BR> After getting connected to a dozen electrodes, I started the test. After listening to the explanation, I expected the test to take 15-20 minutes, but it was over in 8 minutes, maybe less. The treadmill starts out slow and level and then increases speed and incline slightly. Every 3 minutes, the spe... Wed, 25 May 2011 09:23:48 EST Is vanity a motivational tool? Do compliments from others help me stay on track? <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I went to the fitness center every day last work week even though I felt unmotivated for part of the week. After a few days of exercising, I knew I felt better, but the scales weren't cooperating. In fact, the numbers were heading the wrong direction. <BR> <BR> <em>316</em> <BR> <BR> This weekend, however, I got a great deal of positive feedback from an unexpected source: friends and family. At a funeral on Saturday, several family members commented on how great ... Mon, 23 May 2011 11:43:00 EST Day 5 - Staying Alive Well, I finished strong this week. I made it to the fitness center 5 days in a row. <BR> <BR> I can hardly believe it myself! Four 30 minute bike sessions and a 5th session of 20 minutes with a daily strength training session alternating upper and lower body exercises. <BR> <BR> The early morning time is working well for me. I think I might just keep this schedule after my daughter's classes are over. <BR> <BR> Now the challenge for the weekend is to make good food choices so I don't undo ... Fri, 20 May 2011 13:25:19 EST Return to the fitness center I had to take a break from the fitness center because of family medical issues, but I made a plan for my return. I decided that when my daughter started summer school (to get ahead) that I would drop her off at school then head for the fitness center before heading to work. <BR> <BR> So for the last 4 days, I have been putting on my workout clothes and then heading for the car first thing in the morning. <BR> <BR> Day 1 - I'm going to do this! <BR> <BR> Day 2 - I'm determined. This is it!... Thu, 19 May 2011 20:44:13 EST