BOBCATGIRL76's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BOBCATGIRL76 BOBCATGIRL76's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 1368- No Free Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5988651 With the school year starting back up, I'm crazy busy with the recruitment and hiring process for my department, so I'm pretty busy from start to finish of every day. And when I get home, I'm trying to destress. <BR> <BR> I've had a few bad days mentally and emotionally that seemed to pile onto a few more, but thankfully I've been keeping control of my food. <BR> <BR> I feel bad not being as active as I usually am, but I don't have a ton to say, and I've got to stay focused on work right ... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 09:02:04 EST Day 1363- Busy Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5985023 A whole week away! Sorry Sparkfriends! <BR> <BR> Last weekend I traveled home to Ohio to celebrate my friend's bridal shower. I also spent time with my mom and we went golfing. <BR> <BR> Golf is such a frustrating game, but it can also be rewarding when you see improvements. <BR> <BR> Headed to the bridal shower after the golf game, and got to wear a new dress. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d8e0c02d-1464-4806-bfa7-0c478066b603.JPG"> <BR> <BR> Then I visite... Wed, 26 Aug 2015 09:15:09 EST Day 1356- Stop Running Away http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5980959 In case you're just now joining us... <BR> <BR> I made a resolution to run a race every month in 2015. I actually started in November of 2014 and have stuck with it since. <BR> <BR> In July, I ran an 8k trail race, which was much harder than expected. I finished in 1:01:09 which I felt was a terrible time. And I was so hot and exhausted from the muggy weather that I asked J.D. to take me home immediately. <BR> <BR> When I got home and checked the results, amazingly, I'd come in third in ... Wed, 19 Aug 2015 14:52:49 EST Day 1355- Falling On My Face Into A Box Of Donuts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5980294 As I sit here writing this, I can still taste the custard filled donut on my tongue. <BR> <BR> Who the heck am I? <BR> <BR> I'm certainly not the same girl who just completed a Whole30. <BR> <BR> Because that girl wouldn't do this to herself. That girl said no to free donuts, and an entire smorgasbord of chips, dips and sweets. <BR> <BR> And yet now, now when faced with free food, 275 pound Jan-Marie reared her head. <BR> <BR> So, yes on this path to health, I've once again tripped a... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 14:45:00 EST Day 1354- Final Soccer Game of the Season! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5979691 Last night was our final soccer game of the season and we won 2-0 meaning... <BR> <BR> drumroll please... <BR> <BR> We're the league champs! <BR> <BR> My team made me feel pretty great by pointing out that we hadn't lost a game since I took over as full-time goal keeper. <BR> <BR> I was reluctant in the beginning because all four bones I've broken were playing goalie, and I had my trip to Europe in mind and didn't want to be in a cast. <BR> <BR> But once I got back from Europe, I playe... Mon, 17 Aug 2015 15:24:39 EST Day 1353- Another Whole30 Complete http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978864 Today is Day 31! <BR> <BR> i successfully completed another Whole30, this time without weighing myself the entire time. <BR> <BR> My first time completing Whole30, I started at 191 and ended at 173, losing 18 pounds. <BR> <BR> This time, I started at 202 and ended at 191, losing 11. <BR> <BR> I'd be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed. 18 pounds would have been great. <BR> <BR> However, I also know that 11 pounds in 30 days is great, and this time, eating well was so much easier. S... Sun, 16 Aug 2015 10:37:56 EST Day 1351- How I See Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5977762 I was pretty tired yesterday and ended up going to bed early, so I didn't get to write my car buying blog. <BR> <BR> But here is my beautiful new Ford Focus! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/387952b9-4a66-42ee-9fa1-c5d1cb488046.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Whenever I ask J.D. to take my picture, he always takes a million until I walk up to him and grab my phone. It's just become a thing we do, and its always funny to see the look on my face as I'm walking up to him. <BR> <B... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 09:48:15 EST Day 1349- Winner Winner Chicken Dinner! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5976757 Hey. <BR> <BR> I actually am eating chicken for dinner tonight so that's awesome. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was our golf outing for our Department, and I won closest to the pin! So that was great. I packed my lunch and ate in on the course as they provided sandwiches for everyone. Then dinner was barbecue, but with sauce already added, so I went and bought my faithful chicken breast with fruit from the local grocery. <BR> <BR> I also received a call yesterday from a salesman at a dealer JD an... Wed, 12 Aug 2015 16:48:35 EST Day 1347- Weekend With Our Friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5975428 What a wonderful weekend we had. <BR> <BR> First off, our friends got in Friday evening, and we made a Whole30 dinner consisting of steak kebabs, oven baked sweet potato fries and watermelon. My best friend Sam asked what we did for my birthday, and when I told her that I didn't blow out a candle, she was determined to celebrate. So we cut a peach in half, and she garnished the plate with cinnamon, and she, her husband Nate, and J.D. all sang happy birthday to me. When I went to blow out th... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 16:15:53 EST Day 1344- She Believed She Could So She Did http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5973645 I can't say enough good things about my husband. <BR> <BR> J.D. has always supported my journey, and has lost weight in the process eating the foods I fix and exercising with me. For my birthday, he was so thoughtful and bought me a wall hanging to display my race medals on. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d3f48603-f689-4d23-9c1b-54c731db9eaf.JPG"> <BR> <BR> It says "She Believed She Could So She Did." <BR> <BR> It's so beautiful and it means so much to me bec... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 10:54:36 EST Day 1342- My 26th Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5972708 Today, I turned 26. So I guess I'm actually starting my 27th year of life, since I had a year from 0-1. <BR> <BR> Sorry, the math nerd in me just took over. <BR> <BR> But I decided to write a list of things I want to accomplish before I turn 27. <BR> <BR> To Do List: <BR> <BR> 1. Complete a triathalon. <BR> 2. Reach 155 for the first time in my life. <BR> 3. Actually establish a workout program. <BR> 4. Start writing my book. <BR> 5. Become certified as a personal trainer through an a... Wed, 5 Aug 2015 16:45:25 EST Day 1341- Unexcused Absence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5971963 So sorry to leave you hanging SparkFriends! <BR> <BR> I didn't realize my last blog was on Wednesday, but I've been really busy since then and have just forgotten to blog. <BR> <BR> I guess the good thing is that my "unexcused absence" had nothing to do with falling of the wagon, or gaining weight, or making bad choices. It had all to do with simply not having much time to log on and blog. <BR> <BR> Tuesday and Wednesday night I played indoor soccer games. The team I played with on Wedne... Tue, 4 Aug 2015 11:32:24 EST Day 1335- 40,165 Reasons to Smile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5968678 40,165. <BR> <BR> I'm sure you're thinking that's an odd random number (literally). <BR> <BR> And you're all probably hoping I'm not about to list 40,165 reasons in this blog. <BR> <BR> Don't worry I won't. <BR> <BR> However, today I counted, and since I started on this journey, 40,165 comments have been left on my over 600 blogs. <BR> <BR> And that is truly overwhelming. <BR> <BR> And to think that I gave ANY time at all to the 3 negative comments I've received in close to 4 years,... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 13:57:12 EST Day 1334- It's a Brand New Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967957 Just a short comment about yesterday's blog. When I got the negative comment in February, I vowed to never let a negative comment bring me down. Instead, I would just delete it an move on. I think what struck me so hard yesterday, was that is was his personal blog calling me out by name. I couldn't delete it or unsee it. I tried to ignore it, but I have a very bad habit of giving others' opinions of me much too much power. And that's what I did yesterday. <BR> <BR> I feel as if I disrespect... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 11:25:14 EST Day 1333- Being Called Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967304 A while back, you may remember that a SparkPeople member wrote a comment on my blog that said I knew what to do but I was choosing not to do it. <BR> <BR> I deleted the comment and vowed to forget it. I was slightly hurt but didn't want to focus on it. That member was having a lot of success with no gains, only losses on the scale. I was amazed by his consistent weight loss and would check up and read him from time to time to silently cheer him on and watch his success. He knew what to do... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 09:31:22 EST Day 1332- Running Takes Practice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5966986 Yesterday was hard. <BR> <BR> I didn't train for my trail race. To be honest, I'm pretty sure the last time I ran before yesterday was at my June race. <BR> <BR> Could that have caused some of my 20+ pound weight gain? <BR> <BR> Well duh, Jan-Marie. <BR> <BR> Also, research trail races before signing up for one. <BR> <BR> My Fibit said I climbed 77 floors yesterday, so that will give you an idea of how hilly this trail was. <BR> <BR> 8k is almost 5 miles and I finished in just ove... Sun, 26 Jul 2015 18:45:11 EST Day 1331- My First Trail Race http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5966628 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f04aea37-1996-4c36-bc04-e7ece1ae6975.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I will write a much better blog tomorrow when I'm not as tired. I ran an 8k trail race today and ended up getting 3rd! But I did so poorly that we left before they gave awards. I was so sure I didn't get one and so tired. It was almost 90 with high humidity and I just felt so fat and out of shape. But like I said I'll give a better blog tomorrow. Tired and sore right now. Sat, 25 Jul 2015 22:31:44 EST Day 1330- I Survived The Great Potluck Temptation of July 2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5966038 I feel like I need a t-shirt. Or a medal. Or something. <BR> <BR> I just finished up lunch at work. And here's a list of what was provided. <BR> <BR> Donuts. <BR> Jello Cups. <BR> Sinful chocolate chip oreo brownie things. <BR> Potbelly sandwiches <BR> Breadsticks and Dip <BR> Buffalo Chicken Dip <BR> Fruit salsa and cinnamon chips <BR> Snickerdoodles <BR> Dunkaroo funfetti dip and animal crackers <BR> Seven layer dip <BR> Ruffles and onion dip <BR> Guacamole and tortilla chips <BR> Two t... Fri, 24 Jul 2015 14:47:27 EST Day 1329- Sorry For The Rant Yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5965421 Hi Friends. <BR> <BR> Usually my blogs are about the ups and downs of my journey. <BR> <BR> However, yesterday was just a bad day I think, and my anger was evident, and with it came a lot of negativity. <BR> <BR> So I'm sorry if my blog yesterday brought you down. That was not my intent. I just really needed to get all that off my chest. <BR> <BR> The thing is, Jeff is a nice guy. <BR> <BR> I don't want to ruin his business, or his livelihood, or his life. <BR> <BR> I don't know if... Thu, 23 Jul 2015 11:08:41 EST Day 1328- Fuming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5964992 On the Whole30 Timeline, it says Day 4-5 are the "Kill All The Things" stage. <BR> <BR> Well today's day 6, but I think I'm behind a day. <BR> <BR> See, I've never openly talked about my wedding photographer and videographer situation on here, but today I'm so frustrated and angry I want to scream and writing is one of my best outlets, especially since I can't go drown my feelings in a big bowl of ice cream. <BR> <BR> If you viewed our Wedding Photos, you know we used Jeff Schaefer Phot... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 15:36:50 EST Day 1327- Beating Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5964443 Today is day 5 of Whole30. I woke up with a headache that hasn't left me, but it's definitely not a migraine. I think it's a delayed sugar withdrawal headache. Nothing a little Aleve wouldn't help. <BR> <BR> But I thought of you guys last night. I decided to go for a swim, because I keep feeling like I want to do a triathlon and since I already run and bike, I decided, I should start trying to swim. When I got to the pool last night, around 8:15, I only had about 45 minutes before the pool ... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 16:47:45 EST Day 1326- Days 2,3 and 4 of Whole30 and Life Updates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5963854 I swear, I really do have the best intentions of blogging daily. <BR> <BR> On Saturday while at the beach I tried to blog from my phone twice, but I think my signal must have been week because it never posted. Then yesterday I had an early soccer game (we won 9-2, BOOYAH!) and then spent the rest of the day cleaning around the house and doing meal prep for this week. <BR> <BR> However, I have so much to catch you up on! <BR> <BR> First off, I'm not sure if I said it earlier, but my frien... Mon, 20 Jul 2015 15:59:02 EST Day 1323- Day 1 of Whole30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5962309 Hey Everyone! <BR> <BR> For all of you asking what is Whole 30, you can read more about it here: <link>www.whole30.com </link> <BR> <BR> I discovered Whole30 last summer when I was looking for a solution to my migraines. Whole30 is a 30 day elimination diet designed to help people discover if they have certain common allergies or intolerances like gluten or dairy. By eliminating these products and then slowly reintroducing them, some people discover what has been causing their health pr... Fri, 17 Jul 2015 14:30:27 EST Day 1321- That Unsnapping Sound http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5961188 You know what's embarrassing? <BR> <BR> When your pants continuously come unsnapped while you're at work because they are too tight to fit you anymore. <BR> <BR> ARGH. <BR> <BR> I've made so many excuses for myself and cannot believe I'm back here. <BR> <BR> I saw 200 on the scale this morning, if only for a second, and it made me so mad. <BR> <BR> I swore I'd never let myself see that again. <BR> <BR> And yet, here I am. <BR> <BR> I need a reboot of my system. A getting back t... Wed, 15 Jul 2015 11:22:31 EST Day 1319- Summer Sickness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5960177 I've been lucky up until now to have never experienced that summer cold everyone dreads. <BR> <BR> But I think I caught one on our flight home from Europe, because this past week has been a major struggle. <BR> <BR> I was off work Thursday and Friday, and only came back today due to the overwhelming feeling of falling behind. I still feel like crap. <BR> <BR> However, I refuse to let this sickness make me fall back into my old ways. <BR> <BR> I'm tracking my food today, as well as sti... Mon, 13 Jul 2015 14:17:57 EST Day 1314- Tales of Our European Adventure! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5957516 So hopefully this link works! <BR> <BR> I took 370+ pictures and I obviously can't post them all in a blog so I decided to give you a link to my Facebook album instead. Hopefully it will work. Let me know if it does! <BR> <BR> <link>http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?s<BR>et=a.10153378298555734.1073741840.5029<BR>60733&type=1&l=2d86ad98bb </link> <BR> <BR> I also haven't had time to sit down and caption all the photos, but to give you an idea of what we did I'll give you the short run... Wed, 8 Jul 2015 12:13:13 EST Day 1313- Why Do I Fear Success? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5957030 This blog could also be titled: <BR> <BR> Why do I continue to self-sabatoge? <BR> <BR> Or... <BR> <BR> Why am I not at goal weight? <BR> <BR> The truth is, I'm not sure I know the answer. <BR> <BR> But here's what I do know. <BR> <BR> Every time I get into the 170s I get too comfortable. I fit into my smaller clothes, and I feel great physically. And for some reason, that triggers in my brain that I can slack off. <BR> <BR> When really at that moment is when I need to try the harde... Tue, 7 Jul 2015 15:41:39 EST Day 1305- Having a Great Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952917 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ad2e531e-7a7b-4ed8-bfa9-99049de5544b.jpg"> <BR> Hi everyone! I'm updating my blog on a bus with wifi from Dublin to Galway! Technology is so cool. <BR> <BR> You guys were so right! We keep forgetting to eat because we're trying to do so much and I walked 25,000 steps our first day here. I might come home lighter than when I left! We've had fun so far and I've taken a ton of pictures but the SP app will only let me upload one so I'll give you ... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 17:45:02 EST Day 1301- Prepping for Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5950934 Sorry for my absence. I'm trying to get everything prepared for our trip, and have been running errands all over the place. I've got our mail stopped, and both passports finally. Also been packing, and let me tell you, if that isn't inspiration to get the pounds back off, I don't know what is. <BR> <BR> I hate having tight clothes, but I refuse to buy more in larger sizes. I've got the more loose closed packed and I hope that by walking around a lot, I'll be able to minimize the weight gain... Thu, 25 Jun 2015 17:04:57 EST Day 1298- Another Wedding Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5949287 Hi Everyone! <BR> <BR> Sorry I didn't update this weekend. I've been going nonstop since driving back to Ohio Thursday night. I went and had my nails done with the bridal party at noon on Friday, then we went to Macy's (the bride) house to get ready for the rehearsal dinner. We had a great dinner and I got to wear that size 10 red dress I bought a few weeks ago. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/93e5d5de-3682-4f3c-9e4e-23ce125d85a4.JPG"> <BR> <BR> The wedding and ... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 16:18:10 EST Day 1293- Mindful of Mindless Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5946713 Today while eating my measured and pre-tracked lunch, I realized something. <BR> <BR> I don't ever truly eat mindlessly. Sure, when I'm on a binge, I eat way too much food, for absolutely no reason, sometime sitting at my computer, or while watching TV. <BR> <BR> But I'm always aware that I'm doing it. And that's the scariest part for me. So many times, after eating one free donut at work, I'm on my way to getting another, and I think, why are you doing this? You're certainly not hungry. ... Wed, 17 Jun 2015 14:22:52 EST Day 1292- Fall Down Seven Times, Stand Up Eight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5946216 First off, thank you. <BR> <BR> As always, your love and support overwhelmed me. I sat here reading your comments on my last blog with tears in my eyes. Although almost all of you, I've never met and probably never will meet, you can't begin to imagine how much I appreciate you for being a part of my journey and helping me when I get down on myself. <BR> <BR> I took so many things away from your comments. <BR> <BR> Many of you asked or suggested that I get help from J.D. And last night ... Tue, 16 Jun 2015 17:00:03 EST Day 1288- How To Stop a Downward Spiral http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5944079 My silence is deafening. <BR> <BR> I shy away from SparkPeople when I'm embarrassed or ashamed. And for the past month, I've been out of control. <BR> <BR> I'm not going to say that I can't stop eating crappy food. Because I'm entirely capable of stopping. <BR> <BR> But every time that I've had to make the decision, do you really want to do this? I've said yes. I've eaten ridiculous amounts of terrible food, for no reason I can really pick out. <BR> <BR> There haven't been any events ... Fri, 12 Jun 2015 15:26:31 EST Day 1284- Active Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5941967 Sorry for the delay in updates. <BR> <BR> This weekend was very busy. <BR> <BR> Saturday morning, I ran my first 10k ever. <BR> <BR> I was aiming for a 10 minute mile pace. I ended up running it in 1:03:18, which was around a 10:06 mile pace I believe. <BR> <BR> I ended up winning second place in my age group. <BR> <BR> Trick is there were only 2 of us in my age group... *womp womp womp* <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/05724ec0-cfd4-44e2-b92f-850c50f1fdc1.... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 20:03:23 EST Day 1279- June is Here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5939154 So I was thinking about how we're in the sixth month of the year, and thanks to regain, I'm only 9 pounds lighter today than I was on January 1st. <BR> <BR> Usually, I'd be upset and feel like the past 5 months were a waste. <BR> <BR> But I don't feel that way. <BR> <BR> Each month I've run a race. Each week I've burned at least 1500 calories through working out. <BR> <BR> I may have not had my nutrition where it needed to be, but I'm not becoming the couch potato I used to be. <BR> ... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 16:23:44 EST Day 1276- Surprised Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5937322 Day 151 of 2015: <BR> <BR> It's amazing what a good run can do. <BR> <BR> I was so sure that my weight gain was going to prevent me from having a good race this weekend. <BR> <BR> I had signed up for a 2 mile race for May because I've got a 10k next weekend for June. <BR> <BR> So for this 2 mile race I had hoped to run it in under 20 minutes because I can usually run a few miles at a 10 minute mile pace. But I was scared since during my last run I felt slow and sluggish and just out o... Sun, 31 May 2015 14:24:51 EST Day 1273- Well That Didn't Work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935687 Day 148 of 2015: <BR> <BR> Remember how I said I wasn't going to weigh myself and just stay in the 180s where I'm happy and healthy? <BR> <BR> Well I did that for a few days, and didn't track my food, and just lived life. <BR> <BR> And when I went for a run on Tuesday morning, I noticed a heaviness in my chest, and strange pains in my shoulders that felt like I could feel my body bouncing up and down. My clothes felt tighter. I realized I hadn't kept control of my situation. <BR> <BR> D... Thu, 28 May 2015 11:35:54 EST Day 1270- Let's Try This Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934206 Day 145 of 2015: <BR> <BR> I had a nice blog written, and it timed out and I lost it all. I'll try and write another one tomorrow. As for tonight, I'll just post all the pictures I had in my other blog. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9ea57b23-059a-497e-a8bc-8e93743f8540.JPG"> <BR> <BR> The conference I went to last week was in Baltimore. I was there Wednesday through Friday and had no wi-fi. <BR> <BR> I started a vision board at the conference. <BR> <BR> <i... Mon, 25 May 2015 21:05:26 EST Day 1264- Feeling Powerful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930893 Day 139 of 2015: <BR> <BR> Sorry for the delay since my last blog. <BR> <BR> I was really confused and unsure with how to move forward. <BR> <BR> I think since I've been doing this for so long and because I have so many wonderful SparkFriends who constantly comment and check in on me, I was worried to let you all down. <BR> <BR> I was worried about feeling like a failure. <BR> <BR> But it's like something magic happened. <BR> <BR> It's as if writing all my thoughts out and express... Tue, 19 May 2015 15:00:22 EST Day 1260- Soul Searching http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928602 Day 135 of 2015: <BR> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Week: 504+618+507+180=1,809 <em>248</em> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Year: 43,915 <BR> <BR> This blog is going to be a long one. So I'm just warning you now. <BR> <BR> Yesterday morning, when I woke up, I got out of bed, looked at myself in the mirror and thought, "You look pretty dang good and pretty dang healthy." <BR> <BR> Then I stepped on the scale and saw almost a 2 pound gain. <BR> <BR> And I couldn't understand it. I ... Fri, 15 May 2015 11:21:26 EST Day 1258- Recharging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927768 Day 133 of 2015: <BR> <BR> Weight: 185.0 <BR> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Week: 504+618+507=1,629 <em>248</em> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Year: 43,735 <BR> <BR> Today, I was battling yet another migraine that came on hard last night after I played soccer. <BR> <BR> Yes, I'm back on the soccer grind. A girl from my team last season, had a team that was short on girls so I'm joining. The best part? No team fee, just $15 to use the indoor facility. So that will be fun. <BR> <... Wed, 13 May 2015 22:55:46 EST Day 1256- Catching Up To Do http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5926392 Day 131 of 2015: <BR> <BR> Last week's Calories Burned: 280+180+324+435+288+471= 1,978 <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Weight: 186.0 <BR> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Week: 504 <BR> Total Calories Burned This Year: 42,610 <BR> <BR> When I logged into SparkPeople yesterday from my phone, it said that I'd logged in for 1 day! What? My streak was broken? How could that be? I read so many interesting comments to my latest blog on Saturday. <BR> <BR> Apparently clicking the links SparkPeople s... Mon, 11 May 2015 13:39:43 EST Day 1253- Lookism. It's a Thing. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924795 Day 128 of 2015: <BR> <BR> More and more I've been noticing the way I'm being treated. <BR> <BR> It's not that I'm being treated poorly; in fact, I'm being treated so kindly that it got me thinking. <BR> <BR> I'm completely aware that prejudice exists. People have prejudice based on gender, race, sexual orientation, socioeconomic status, religion, age, and so many other things. But it wasn't until I started feeling like I was receiving special treatment that I started thinking about how ... Fri, 8 May 2015 11:18:09 EST Day 1252- Redefining Goals and Surprising Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924186 Day 127 of 2015: <BR> <BR> Weight: 182.8 <BR> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Week: 280+180+324+435=1,219 <BR> Total Calories Burned This Year: 41,347 <BR> <BR> Last night, when I got home, I went for a run like I said I would since the weather was so nice. I found a running path that leads to the bikepath near my house and when it loops back through my neighborhood is exactly 3 miles from start to finish. Well, I just like running 5ks so I ended up running 3.1 miles, but I did that in 30:... Thu, 7 May 2015 10:00:49 EST Day 1251- No Excuses and No Justifications http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5923749 Day 126 of 2015: <BR> <BR> Weight: 184.0 <BR> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Week: 280+180+324=784 <BR> Total Calories Burned This Year: 40,912 <BR> <BR> Monday, I was pretty tired so I rushed through my blog. But one thing I noticed was that even when I posted my weight, I didn't feel the need to justify the gain. I post my weight every time I blog, just so people know where I'm at and if I'm headed in the right direction. But every single time before that, I always explained about the s... Wed, 6 May 2015 14:23:34 EST Day 1249- 30 Day Shred Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922709 Day 124 of 2015: <BR> <BR> Weight: 185.6 <BR> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Week: 280+180=460 <BR> Total Calories Burned This Year: 40,588 <BR> <BR> Today I started Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred, and it was just as difficult as I remember it. My measurements are as follows: <BR> <BR> I took all of these at the widest part <BR> <BR> Chest: 40.5 <BR> Waist: 32.5 <BR> Hips: 41 <BR> Arm: 14 <BR> Thigh: 24.25 inches <BR> <BR> Here's my photo. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeo... Mon, 4 May 2015 22:26:12 EST Day 1248- Wonderful Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5921963 Day 123 of 2015: <BR> <BR> Weight: 183.6 <BR> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Week: 280 <BR> Total Calories Burned This Year: 40,408 <BR> <BR> This weekend was great. Saturday, I took Marigold to meet one last family, the retired couple, and after meeting them, I made the decision that they'd be the best fit for Marigold. She would never be crated, and she has two people who love to take walks and just want a companion. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l159779... Sun, 3 May 2015 19:08:06 EST Day 1246- Forgotten Lunch Means Opportunity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920756 Day 121 of 2015: <BR> <BR> Weight: 182.6 <BR> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Week: 458+370+163+535+157=1,683 <em>248</em> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Year: 39,872 <BR> <BR> As I walked out the door this morning, I left my wonderful packed lunch sitting on my kitchen counter. <BR> <BR> Great. <BR> <BR> But then I thought, maybe it is great? I work less than a mile away from a great little grocery called the Produce Station that has an awesome salad bar. So today, I'm going to wa... Fri, 1 May 2015 11:13:38 EST Day 1245- Last Soccer Game Tonight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920255 Day 120 of 2015: <BR> <BR> Weight: 182.0 <BR> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Week: 458+370+163=991 <BR> Total Calories Burned This Year: 39,180 <BR> <BR> Yesterday's meet and greets went well. I'm definitely leaning towards one family that seemed the most excited and most in love with her. Still have two or three more applicants to meet but I'm almost positive this family will get her. <BR> <BR> Walking the dog every morning has made me realize I'm completely capable of getting up earlie... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 13:41:32 EST Day 1244- Two Workouts in One Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919592 Day 119 of 2015: <BR> <BR> Weight: 181.4 <BR> <BR> Total Calories Burned This Week: 458+370=828 <BR> Total Calories Burned This Year: 39,017 <BR> <BR> Yesterday afternoon, I met up with my friend to go to a spinning class. A local athletic club was offering free one day passes to see if you like the club. I'd agreed to it, completely forgetting that last night was my last soccer game for my Tuesday night league. But I decided to try it out. <BR> <BR> Man, were my thighs burning! I alway... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 10:00:46 EST