BOATSWIFE05's SparkPeople Blog BOATSWIFE05's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community BMI is 28.1 How did this happen? I'm like 2 points away from being in the obese category! I read through my spark page and see all of these re-start entries. I feel like I'm always battling myself and instead of going down I'm going up. But, this is out of control. Instead of having 20 lbs to lose I now have 40! I'm the heaviest I have ever been not pregnant. This entry is a reminder to myself of how high my BMI is. I want a record of it so I can look back and remind myself of why I'm doing this. This is... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 08:59:12 EST How many re-starts until I get it right? I am feeling very discouraged because I keep saying I'm going to lose this weight and instead of the scale going down- it goes up. I know what I'm doing wrong. I keep telling myself that I'm trying but I'm not. I can come up with every excuse why I don't have time to workout and eat right. They are all excuses that I can definitely over come. <BR> <BR> I am shaving my head in 10 days to support the St. Baldricks foundation and raise money for childhood cancer. (my goal was to raise $250 and ... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 12:54:10 EST Lovin it We bought an elliptical this past weekend and I LOVE it. I haven't been working out like I should be thanks to this ridiculous cold weather and snow. I kept trying to diet alone and I kept losing my motivation. However, I've worked out everyday (sometimes twice a day) and by working out, it helps control my snacking. I don't have all the 'right' foods in the house but I'm definitely more conscience of what I'm eating. I love watching my fitness minutes increase. I had forgotten I made the goa... Fri, 12 Feb 2010 16:21:46 EST Another new beginning Why do we or should I say why do I always seem to be starting over? When I set my mind to it last time, I lost the weight. Granted, I didn't have nearly as many obstacles in my way. But, I know I can do this. Why did I fall off the wagon again? I was reading through my previous blogs and I sound so motivated and sure of myself, yet I failed. <BR> <BR> However, I'm not failing this time. My husband Joe is on board with me and we are going to do this together. We have a house full of healthy f... Sun, 3 Jan 2010 17:12:26 EST New Beginnings I've been doing great with my fitness thanks to us getting our dog back. (long story) We no longer live in a house with a big fenced in yard so she has to be walked everyday (more than once). I try to take her for a long walk which means I have to get up before everyone so that I'm home in time for DH to leave. Every morning I'm up at 6:15 a.m. and we walk our street and back. (sometimes we don't always go the whole way) But, if we do it's 1.7 miles. However, now that my fitness is looking go... Mon, 21 Sep 2009 08:08:49 EST Wake up Call I've been on hiatus from Spark People for quite some time. We were trying to get pregnant and we did. But, due to me contracting the Swine Flu we lost the baby on July 9th, 2009. <BR> <BR> I just logged back in and found that my original goal was to go from 160 to 140 by June 15th. However, I now weigh 170. I didn't even realize I'd gained that much weight which is the scariest part! <BR> <BR> I am done feeling this way. I'm done avoiding mirrors. I'm DONE only having one pair of jeans and ... Fri, 24 Jul 2009 20:15:51 EST Day 1 Down Today was Day 1 of Spark People. I actually did the Jillian Michael's 30 day shred yesterday but I didn't find Spark People until today. I tracked all of my food and exercise today. I went over my calories due to my PB & J sandwiches but live and learn! <BR> <BR> On to Day 2! Tue, 24 Feb 2009 21:19:21 EST