BOARDBUNNY1984's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BOARDBUNNY1984 BOARDBUNNY1984's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ When Life Blows up in your Face..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5330088 Saying that life has been tough these past few months is a understatement. Between a busy work schedule, court cases (yes, caseS, plural, more than one....), family things, volunteer work, day-to-day life, etc., I have not had even a second for myself lately. Fitting in workouts has been a hassle. Eating healthy has been difficult because all of the stress I'm experiencing. All I want to eat is "comfort foods". Potatoes, bread, chips, snack foods, fried foods, cheese, ice cream...all my faves... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 22:06:49 EST Gratitude: A Foreign Concept http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5101465 Gratitude is a word we are all familiar with. From a young age, our parents, mentors, friends, etc. are always reminding us to be thankful for what we have. But throughout our lives, we are also bombarded with the idea that we always need more, that we are not really satisfied unless we have x, y, or z. What ultimately happens then, is that "gratitude" gets left behind, and we ultimately become so focused on what we DON'T have instead of what we DO have. <BR> <BR> There is a children's bo... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 14:52:11 EST Just when you think you have it all figured out... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5087533 ...you don't! <BR> <BR> These past 2 months have been real challenging for me. Brendan and I have had some crappy things happen that have not helped my progress. When I'm stressed, I do one of two things: don't eat or eat a ton. I know MANY others do this too. I've been eating well MOST of the time, but I've had a lot of "comfort food binges," pigging out on things like chips, crackers, cheese, bread, among other foods I otherwise haven't touched for MONTHS! And the only reason I'm doing thi... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 07:57:42 EST Just when you think you have it all figured out... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5087531 ...you don't! <BR> <BR> These past 2 months have been resale challenging for me. Brendan and I have had some crappy things happen that have not helped my progress when I'm stressed, I do one of two things: don't eat or eat a ton. I know MANY others do this too. I've been eating well MOST of the time, but I've had a lot of "comfort food binges," pigging out on things like chips, crackers, cheese, bread, among other foods I otherwise haven't touched for MONTHS! And the only reason I'm doing th... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 07:56:20 EST Just when you think you have it all figured out... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5087529 ...you don't! <BR> <BR> These past 2 months have been resale challenging for me. Brendan and I have had some crappy things happen that have not helped my progress when I'm stressed, I do one of two things: don't eat or eat a ton. I know MANY others do this too. I've been eating well MOST of the time, but I've had a lot of "comfort food binges," pigging out on things like chips, crackers, cheese, bread, among other foods I otherwise haven't touched for MONTHS! And the only reason I'm doing th... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 07:56:06 EST Managing it all... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4977140 My life is super stressful. I generally work 10-12 hour days, 4 or 5 days a week. On top of that, I have work I have to do at home. Then there's taking care of myself and my needs. And then I'm supposed to fit my boyfriend and social life in too. Oh yeah, and that thing called sleep.... <BR> <BR> It's hard to work on taking care of myself because it's just one more thing that I have to do. Who wants to cook dinner after working 10-12 hours, knowing you have another 2 hours of work to do befo... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 01:51:24 EST Lots of Good Changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4864458 Well, when I last wrote in this blog, I felt hopeless, like I would never find the motivation or will to change. I was convinced I was just going to be "fat" forever and should just accept it <BR> <BR> Then something hit me out of nowhere: the desire and NEED to change. <BR> <BR> I can't explain it; it was weird. I went to the market with Brendan to get some kombucha beer brewed by a local place (Unity Vibrations), and it was at that moment when I started picking out a bunch of whole, pur... Thu, 3 May 2012 10:04:35 EST This is an off week.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4753206 ...but I'm okay with it. <BR> <BR> $hit happens whether you like it or not. This week has been a bit odd. I've had strange work hours because my students are on break and wanted to see me during my otherwise free morning hours. I had to unexpectedly go to the doctor on Tuesday. Today I had to take my car in to the shop...and it goes on. <BR> <BR> One can say that I'm just making excuses for not working out or trying to justify my actions. No, I'm not. i am recognizing that things are n... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 12:07:32 EST No progress.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4731906 ...and whose falt is that??? Mine. I've been working out, sort of. I haven't been tracking my food ( the funny thing is that I now have an iPhone with the sp app which makes it do easy, yet I don't do it). And I've been eating food instead of preparing well-rounded meals that aren't going to leave me feeling hungry. So if I know this is what is keeping me from progressing, why don't I change it??? I'm sick of feeling gross and uncomfortable all of the time. My weight has hit an all-time high ... Fri, 10 Feb 2012 08:10:12 EST Super Lazy Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4706375 Its do hard to work out when your life is overwhelming. This has been such an emotional week. Even though working out would prob help me feel better, I decided that laying in my bed was the better option. One thing I have NOT done this week, though, is overeat. *yay* <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is yoga and weigh in day...we'll see if there's been progress.... Fri, 27 Jan 2012 02:34:20 EST When will I learn.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4686403 Yesterday I was so excited because I only went over my calorie goal by like 150 calories. I'm normally not even close. Then I came home and stuffed my face with leftover pizza. I wasn't even hungry!!!! Why do I consistently do things to sabatoge myself??? Honestly, I think I ate the pizza bc Brendan was making me upset, so I stuffed my face to make me feel better. Well it kind of had the opposite effect. I felt worse, defeated, and hopeless. <BR> <BR> I need to remember these feelings in the... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 10:08:53 EST Oh so careless..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4658824 Man I have been careless this holiday. Before Christmas and everything was in full swing, i had already gained like 7lbs. Now I have probably gained another 3-7 on top of that bringing me to an all-time high of somewhere over 200lbs!!!! This makes me want to cry, literally. <BR> <BR> But, I cannot let this get me down. I KNOW what led to this ridiculous weight gain. Cookie binges, not tracking food, eating recklessly...It makes me sick thinking about it. I just do not understand why I ... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 07:24:41 EST So here's to a new year... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4647155 2011 has been, well, interesting. There have been a lot of things to adjust to this year in all aspects of my life. My bff moved from MI to AZ, my tutoring business blossomed more than I ever imagined, Brendan and I are adjusting to longevity, along with all of the other things life threw at me this year. <BR> <BR> Normally I let this stuff get to me...and I did this year. I often blame myself for things that happen, assuming that I could have done something differently or could have prev... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 20:06:13 EST Laziness is like a disease.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4300191 Many people ask me why I like to stay busy. The reason seems clear to me. Laziness is a disease. If I am consistently working, working out, and staying motivated, I continue to do that. As soon as I stop, everything crumbles. And the proof is sitting in front of the computer right now. <BR> <BR> I was working out 5 days a week for about a month. And then I did not wake up on time one morning...now I'm down to 2 days a week for the past few weeks. As a matter of fact, there is a zumba... Wed, 15 Jun 2011 10:46:22 EST d;oihfljshsvlv/ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4269714 Busy, stressed, tired. <BR> <BR> What a combo. <BR> <BR> I need this to pass soon....and its not bad stuff at all...I just have a TON of stuff going on these next few weeks... <BR> <BR> (Which reminds me...I need to call a few people back today about summer stuff) <BR> <BR> This has not been good for the workout/eating stuff.... <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> How am I supposed to balance everything when I don't even have enough time in one day or week to fit everything in? How do I ... Wed, 1 Jun 2011 11:02:02 EST Stressful Week..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4239983 All I want to do is SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> I love my job (I'm a self-employed academic tutor), but it is at times like this that I hate it. <BR> <BR> Marketing <BR> Exam Time <BR> Student Issues <BR> ACT Prep <BR> Meetings <BR> Lesson Plans <BR> Summer Schedule (Can't go 2 1/2 months without making $$$$) <BR> Workshops <BR> Client Chasing (I'm a hustler baby!) <BR> <BR> ...and of this is all happening at once and needs to be done now! And then working out and eati... Tue, 17 May 2011 23:27:28 EST Positive outlook = positive results? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4221985 After reading Fitwhit's blog, I realized something about myself....I often dwell on what is not going right instead of all the stuff that is going well. Being an anxious perfectionist, I often focus on the things that seem to be beyond my reach, things I cannot "fix" or make better right away. I'm also very "clingy" and resistant to change. As everyone says, part of this journey is changing your outlook on things. Maybe this is the thing I still have not done yet....and need to work on t... Mon, 9 May 2011 23:55:50 EST Some things just don't make sense... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4207354 I am a planner. I plan everything. In fact, I have an 8x11 planner to keep track of everything I need to do...BUT, I never take the time to plan what I am eating, what I am putting in my body for fuel. <BR> <BR> Now, I would never put diesel in my car, or something absurd like pop or water even. The car will not work if I do that. So why don't I think of my body like my car??? If I put the wrong stuff in my body, it doesn't work properly either. <BR> <BR> So....things I need to work on... Tue, 3 May 2011 12:45:41 EST Grrrrrr!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4197741 I reset everything...and now my stuff is all off. My Fitness minutes are higher than they should be, my goals are still the same, and now I just lost everything. <BR> <BR> Ugh...whatever. <BR> <BR> I revamped my workout schedule, so maybe I needed to start over on here as well...like a clean slate type of thing. <BR> <BR> New fitness schedule: <BR> <BR> Monday: 30 min of cardio and 60 min of fitness pilates <BR> Tuesday: Cardio and PT Workout #1 (Cobras (30r, 2s), Planks (30 sec, 2s), S... Thu, 28 Apr 2011 23:49:07 EST 3 months...and very little progress... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4169665 So I've been on Spark people for 3 1/2 months now and have made very little progress. I have lost 10lbs and have been working out regularly, which I guess is better than before, but I can't seem to get my eating habits in check. I'll do fine for a few days of the week, and then it all goes downhill from there. These may be some of the reasons: <BR> <BR> 1) I am working 12+ hours a day and often grab whatever I can to eat. I have been eating out a lot because I do not have time to cook. ... Sat, 16 Apr 2011 11:12:55 EST This is when I usually give up... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4102690 After a few months of working at at, I feel like I can't change. I still consistently go over my calories, I still obsess and feel guilty about it, and I'm still not losing weight. I go to the gym consistently, but that only matters if I am eating well to go with it. I don't know if I just formed such bad habits in college that it is extremely difficult to change them or if I'm just not committed enough. I just don't get it. I want to lose the weight and feel better about myself, but at ... Sat, 19 Mar 2011 10:30:51 EST Seriously Delusional http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4097566 I have realized how delusional I am when it comes to this stuff. I wonder why I lose weight, and then stop, and then gain it, and then lose it again....but it's because I have no consistency. I don't consistently meet my calorie goals. I fluctuate so much that my body doesn't know what is going on. Once it gets used to one thing, I throw it back in the other direction, not even thinking about the affect this is not only having on my weight loss, but also on how my body works. I need to g... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 00:43:06 EST Errrrrrrrrrrrr! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4083422 OH I binged last night...not my usualy binging...I would normally be up to like 2600 calories...last night I only got up to like 1700...but I stepped on te scale first thing this morning!!! Ugh! I know there are a lot of you that can relate to this. I can't let this get me down...can't!!!!! Fri, 11 Mar 2011 07:57:15 EST The snacking has got to go!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4030858 If I didn't mindlessly snack everyday, I would be eating like 1/3 of the calories I eat. I get the whole "fresh veggies" substitute thing, but its hard to do that when you're not the one doing the shopping. Things I do not want to eat are always brought into the house by others, and I'm too married to food that I don't just say no and walk away. It consumes my mind. Its definitely not healthy. Sometimes I just think I have to suck it up and do it...is that all I need to do??? Just step... Sat, 19 Feb 2011 18:36:31 EST My Relationship with Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4027530 Sometimes it seems like food and I are in a fully committed relationship. The catch is, this relationship is not egalitarian. Food for me is like a controlling significant other. I feel like it doe not let me make my own decisions, and when I try to, I get guilted into spending more time with food. In other words, we need to break up!!!! <BR> <BR> Even from readign the blurb above, it is obvious that I am an emotional eater. However, I am also and on-the-go eater too. I work 50+ hours ... Fri, 18 Feb 2011 10:25:34 EST Staying Motivated.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4019366 When I put on my jeans this morning, I had this idea in my head that they would be super loose and almost be too big because I have been working out and trying to be mindful of what I eat (I have been tracking EVERYTHING, even if I eat badly). This was usually the reality that would send me spiraling backwards. I know I am often impatient, and when trying to loose weight in the past, I have had a really distorted perception of reality. Really, my jeans are going to be loose after 2 1/2 wee... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 10:46:30 EST Getting Started... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4012017 When I first decided to come back to Sparkpeople (I had used it about 2 years ago), I felt kind of stupid. I kept thinking "How in the world is a silly website going to help he get motivated to lose the weight I want to lose?" and I felt really silly coming on here. I was sort of ashamed. Why can't I just do it on my own???? <BR> <BR> Then I read someone else's blog entry about feeling the same way...and I found out a girl at my work uses Sparkpeople too...and I began to feel less silly a... Sat, 12 Feb 2011 13:36:46 EST