BLVINBUTTERFLYS's SparkPeople Blog BLVINBUTTERFLYS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I NEVER QUIT WANTING IT!!! Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> NOTE: I wrote this a few days ago... just finished the entry: <BR> <BR> Well, today (09/26/2014) was my 3 year surgiversary from having my WLS. <BR> UN-happy surgiversary to me!! <BR> <BR> YES, 3 years ago today I had weight loss surgery. I went in thinking it was going to be the best day of my life! I was finally doing this, finally breaking out of my fat shell and going to know what it's like to be thin! <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 29 Sep 2014 19:22:12 EST IRONY at it's best!! Today was a great day for me! <BR> <BR> I did get up kinda late but I am getting used to just going with the flow of things, not letting things get to me, and just trying to change what bothers me, or things I don’t like at a pace less stressful. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So, I still got to the gym… and once again, Travis went with, that is every day since we have started, every day that I have made it, with the exception of w... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 00:41:26 EST OMG!! It was me all along!! Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I have had a few rough years and my life has been up and down so much I felt like I was riding a roller coaster. But we have all had times like that periodically in life. This last life roller coaster was important to me because of the fact that I had just lost 180 lbs before it hit. I was on top of the world, and felt nothing could bring me down, and fell hard when I realized that if not prepared, we can all be brought down by life’s horrendous roller coasters. <BR> ... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 01:11:23 EST THEY PROMISED!! ~REFLECTION~ Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I was responding to a note from a Spark Freind this morning and wanted to reflect on what I said to her in my blog because I really think this is a key foundation to my journey and the very thing that will ultimately lead to my success. <BR> <BR> Here is what I wrote to her: <BR> <BR> I also have a yo-yo history but one of losing weight and gaining it back. It is tough during pregnancy, I was high risk on 2 of mine so weight gain was inevitable... or so I thought at t... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 09:39:46 EST It remains a mystery... Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well I ended the week last week with another insomnia night, ended up not sleeping from the time I woke up at 6:30 am on Friday till I ended up falling asleep Saturday night about 8 pm. I ended up waking up this morning around 8 am and felt terrible because the guys let me stay asleep directly under a fan that was in a window the entire night... I was so upset with them because it seems like no one, (but me), ever pays attention to anything in our house unless its on a ... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 03:38:22 EST The caterpillar and the butterfly Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well I slept last night, and I made it to the gym today... so the day began well! <BR> Found out why I have been feeling so bad the last few days... I began my cycle, which since I only have about 3 a year, was an unexpected surprise and the peri-menopause is doing a number on my body, my nerves, my emotions, basically me all together. I am refusing to let it take hold of me, although I am not able to take medication for it. <BR> <BR> I think the exercise and the heal... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 02:51:34 EST Chuck it out... NOT! Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Just a few quick words on my day... it was rough to say the least: <BR> <BR> Slept through the alarm... Zach was almost late for school. <BR> <BR> Got up feeling great... then it hit me once I ate breakfast. <BR> Got nauseous really bad, had to lay down... ended up falling asleep and slept half the day away. Travis seemed to think my body had lost so much sleep over the last week and a half that it REALLY needed to catch up more than just one night. I don't know, he ... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 00:53:20 EST Just a quick check in... Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> On the way to LA-LA land quickly with the help of a very small dose of melatonin. <BR> <BR> I rarely take anything medication wise to help anything unless I REALLY need it. So, I was seriously desperate to get here. But I am reversing the issue. <BR> <BR> Barely ate today. <BR> Barely moved today. <BR> <BR> Spent most of the day dozing off and trying not to, or zoning out. <BR> <BR> Good sleepin' tonight... <BR> Tomorrow... <BR> Back to eating right... <BR> Back to... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 23:57:50 EST Rough Monday... Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well for being so high on last weeks successes, today was awful! <BR> <BR> The day began with sleeping in late because I have been dealing with a nasty bout of insomnia. Hence I am still up at 4:04 am AGAIN tonight as well. <BR> <BR> Then had to get some things done, so since we started late it threw my whole day off for eating. I ate on the run, ate in a diner, and threw together dinner for the whole family which wasn't bad at all except I ended up eating a bit too ... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 05:26:00 EST I AM FINDING IT!!! Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> WOW, I never really thought I would find my mojo again. I have struggled and struggled so much the last 2 years and I have started, and started, and started over and over again… without staying with it. I don’t give up, and I learn from my failures, so I do not feel like I have fallen by the wayside but I have not stuck with it enough to make it happen. Every time I fail I go back and look and find that it’s my mojo or rather motivation I suppose, that’s missing… every ... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 02:37:09 EST Get busy living... or get busy dying! Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> That is one of my favorite lines of one of my favorite movies! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> But it applies to a lot in life... especially weight loss. Come on, let's ask the taboo question, how many of us are dying because of our weight? <BR> <BR> Diabetes <BR> Heart Disease <BR> High Blood Pressure <BR> Sleep Apnea <BR> Cancer <BR> Stroke <BR> Fatty Liver Disease <BR> <BR> These are just a few ways that w... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 12:52:49 EST That's what I'm talking about!! Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well week 1 almost down! I feel like I did really well this week. Tomorrow is my weigh in for the week although the week is not quite over yet. I have to weigh in on the mornings of my high carb days. That weighs me the most accurate because of the fluctuation that carb cycling can cause. So we weigh in after our low carb days to see what has been lost. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I had another awesome worko... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 01:28:31 EST Such busy days... Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I hope everyone is doing well. I feel like I am doing the best that I can... and that's not been bad this week! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> WOW, it seems like I just don't have enough hours in the day for 5 meals and 3 workouts and working and keeping up with family... I am working hard to find balance, and struggling at it, altho... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 09:48:16 EST Week 1: Day 2 - Low Carb Day Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well today was awesome and still feel great! I really rocked it today, seriously! I also feel good because I am organized this time, I am not just winging it, I am going into this with a plan. <BR> <BR> I have my weigh in chart in the bathroom on the wall: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Then I have my 9 minute mission calendar. This is po... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 00:47:46 EST Back on track: Week 1 Day 1 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> OK, I am not losing it... nor am I going backward, I have reset my transformation plan because we have redone some things, (me and the doc and my trainer). So, now things are back on track, we have torn apart what I was doing wrong, and what I was doing right, and now I am back on track. For the sake of keeping things straight, I am just starting back at Week 1 Day 1. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So, I got th... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 01:50:21 EST WOW, what a day! Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Not posting accountability today because I really don't know what all I ate or what it weighed or anything. LOL <BR> <BR> I spent 4 hours laying a carpet in my bedroom and burned A LOT of calories... 1,010 according to my band. <BR> <BR> So, here is what my bedroom floor looked like this morning... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> ...and what it looks like now... 4 very sore hours later! BIG difference, and I ... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 21:47:40 EST Week 2: Day 4 - Normal Day Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Meal accountability for today... <BR> <BR> Workout Meal: none (no workouts today) <BR> Breakfast: Eggs and Bagel w/ cream cheese <BR> Calories: 355 Carbs: 30 Fat: 18 Pro: 19 <BR> Lunch: Chicken Breast Pita w/ Veggies <BR> Calories: 245 Carbs: 34 Fat: 4 Pro: 25 <BR> Dinner: Logan's Shrimp & Veggie Skewers w/ Rice and Sweet Potato <BR> Calories: 603 Carbs: 75 Fat: 25 Pro: 19 <BR> Evening Snac... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 00:39:14 EST Week 2: Day 3 - High Carb Day Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Meal accountability for today... <BR> <BR> Workout Meal: none <BR> Breakfast: Granola w/ milk & banana <BR> Calories: 293 Carbs:55 Fat: 6 Pro: 10 <BR> Lunch: Egg Salad Sandwich & Kiwi <BR> Calories: 232 Carbs: 36 Fat: 5 Pro: 17 <BR> Dinner: Kat's Italian Chicken Penne <BR> Calories: 300 Carbs: 36 Fat: 9 Pro: 17 <BR> Evening Snack: Pear & Yogurt <BR> Calories: 220 Carbs: 43 Fat: 0 Pro: 13 <BR... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 20:17:31 EST Week 2: Day 2 - Low Carb Day Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Meal accountability for today... <BR> <BR> Workout Meal: none <BR> Breakfast: Pepperjack Omelet <BR> Calories: 216 Carbs: 9 Fat: 11 Pro: 21 <BR> Lunch: Cottage Cheese Salad w/ chipotle avocado drizzle <BR> Calories: 214 Carbs: 15 Fat: 12 Pro: 16 <BR> Afternoon Snack: none <BR> Dinner: Hamburger & Spicy Sweet Potato Chips <BR> Calories: 337 Carbs: 23 Fat: 18 Pro: 24 <BR> Evening Snack: Apple... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 23:42:12 EST Week 2: Day 1 - Low Carb Day Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Meal accountability for today... <BR> <BR> Workout Meal: none (I did not get to my workouts today) <BR> Breakfast: Smoothie & Cheese <BR> Calories: 355 Carbs: 26 Fat: 23 Pro: 15 <BR> Lunch: Chicken Wrap w/ Avocado chipotle sauce <BR> Calories: 214 Carbs: 6 Fat: 14 Pro: 19 <BR> Afternoon Snack: missed <BR> Dinner: Warm Chicken Cauliflower & Chickpea Salad <BR> Calories: 325 Carbs: 39 Fat: 10 Pro: 21 <BR> Evening Snack: missed <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.spark... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 00:39:17 EST Step 1: Believe Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I love Chris Powell's Book: Choose More, Lose More, For Life. I have been skipping through it to get most of the important information regarding the transformation process, and I began really reading it today. It is very thorough in that it takes you through not just the weight loss but the whole transformation of YOU. So here and there I will be blogging about these steps as I take them. <BR> <BR> Chris says, "Transformation isn't weight loss. It's your journey toward... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 23:59:43 EST Week 1 Day 7: High Carb / Free Day Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> No your not seeing double and I am not losing it... YES I did have 8 days last week! LOL <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> OK... had to change my weigh in day to Saturday so that makes Sunday my Day 7 from now on... which means I had 2 day 7's this week... and people say there are no weeks with 8 days in them... LOL. <BR> <BR> So, I am posting for yesterday, and I began Week 2 Day 1 today. <BR> <BR> I got so cau... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 12:48:58 EST Week 1: Day 7 - High Carb Day / Weigh In Day Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Weigh In Day: 10.8 lbs lost in Week 1! (For those who have seen this post today, it was wrong... 10.8 not 9.8) Woot! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well I think I did great this week. Had some ups and had some downs, but things come out ok in the end. Proud of myself that I set a mini goal and I stuck to it! WooHoo!! <BR> <BR> I n... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 01:30:27 EST Week 1: Day 6 - Low Carb Day Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I had a very bad day, so please excuse me while I post my accountability and go read a book before bed. <BR> <BR> I hope everyone has a great weekend! <BR> <BR> Meal accountability for today... <BR> <BR> Workout Meal: missed it <BR> Breakfast: Veggie Omelet and Bagel Thin w/cream cheese <BR> Calories: 238 Carbs: 18 Fat: 12 Pro: 17 <BR> Lunch: missed it - Had a Muffin later ( not all of them in the pic... just 1) LOL! <BR> Calories: 93 Carbs: 24 Fat: 0 Pro: 3 <BR> A... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 20:05:39 EST OMG... It's Everywhere, It's Everywhere!! Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> OMG... what happened to me yesterday has opened my eyes so much! <BR> <BR> Worked out yesterday and burned oh, tons of calories... yea me! Was feeling great, followed my plan to a T and was even able to splurge just a tiny bit in the evening... well I call it a splurge, but it was still within my plan so I am told it was not exactly a splurge. But in my opinion, any time you can have cookies, it's a splurge! LOL! But they were healthy cookies and they tasted great! <BR... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 14:34:16 EST Week 1: Day 5 - Low Carb Day Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I loved that picture the second I saw it. Thought I would share the beauty. <BR> <BR> Been learning some things this week, done some soul searching, as I always am... continuing to improve myself as a person, etc... these two pics say it all for me: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Fri, 28 Feb 2014 00:58:34 EST Week 1 - Day 4: High Carb Day Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Going to make it short tonight, had a so-so day. Kinda haven't really felt good today although I kept pushing forward with my plan. Just ready to go snuggle up with my couch and watch some tv before bed. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Meal accountability for today... <BR> <BR> Workout Meal: Strawberry Pineapple Smoothie <BR> Calories: 200 Carbs: 33 Fat: 0 Pro: 16 <BR> Breakfast: Granola w/ milk and banana <BR> ... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 23:04:23 EST Week 1 - Day 3: Low Carb Day Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well it's Tuesday, tuesday... felt like singing, but it doesn't quite go, huh? LOL <BR> I did have a pretty good day. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Having a heck of a time trying to get up in the morning early enough to get in the 9 minute missions and a workout also, although 30 minutes is what I am shooting for... not quite there yet. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Tue, 25 Feb 2014 21:32:44 EST Week 1 - Day 2: Low Carb Day Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I had a pretty good MOnday. Started off a bit slow because our new little puppy kept me up all night long, I could have thumped the little bugger, but she is completely adorable! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well, not much to say today really, just had a pretty good day! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Week 1 - Day 2: Low Carb Day <BR> <BR> Meal acco... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 23:20:44 EST Week 1 - High Carb Day/ Free Day #1 Back to business again... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I promised that as soon as we got moved and settled I would get back to the business of getting this weight off. Having a year and a half that I was not really able to get things done right was tough on me. I gained about 50 lbs of the 160 lbs that I had lost back due to not sticking with the right f... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 23:17:18 EST 30... +1, more reasons to live and be thankful!!! Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I hope everyone had a GREAT Thanksgiving! <BR> <BR> I watched all month how people on FB were listing every day another reason to be thankful in the spirit of thanksgiving. Personally, I had mixed feelings about that one; I thought we should find reasons EVERYDAY to be thankful, not just the month of November for thanksgiving... and so I read my friends and families reasons and kept thinking that maybe I should be thankful... but then could I REALLY come up with 30 re... Sun, 1 Dec 2013 16:34:13 EST What to do... What to do... Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> WARNING... no positive thoughts here tonight... I am sorry! <BR> <BR> I am feeling all sorts of low today. A tornado of mixed feelings that I am not sure what to do with. I am faced with huge Y's in the road and I am not sure which way to turn. I have so many questions... and very few answers. <BR> <BR> Let me go back a few days... <BR> <BR> I decided last week that I just could not live with this weigh gain anymore. I knew I just had to kick it into high gear and ba... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 01:16:06 EST My Live It List Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I have one of the most awesome motivational people in my area, he has lost over 400 lbs. He began a FB page called The Live It List: (his words) "The Live It List was created by me in the midst of a battle to save my life. I was too far gone for a Bucket List, so the Live It List was born to give me a place to write my dreams and goals. It started simply with me getting my health back and has grown exponentially from there! Have you created your Live It List?" <link>h... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 01:11:59 EST Do you believe? Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Today has been a weird day. Every time I turned around I was confronted with the statement or question of second chances. The issue at work today... I was told I got a second chance to fix it. The bank thing that happened, I was told it was ok, that's why they are second chance accounts. At least 4 times today I heard those two words together, it was starting to feel creepy. <BR> <BR> Then I come home and decided to finally sit down and watch the first episode of The B... Tue, 5 Nov 2013 22:57:40 EST I will not stand for it anymore! Well, here I am... yet again. <BR> <BR> I am not sure what I feel now days, I am not sure where I am headed or where I am even coming from. All I know is that I just can't live like this anymore. <BR> <BR> I have lived in pain for too long... <BR> <BR> I have spent the last 10 years of my life struggling for where I deserve to be in life. Struggling to find who I am and who I wish to be. I have found that I am someone who has blamed many things on where I am in life, and who I have become... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 22:21:58 EST What the heck is rumination? Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well, my weight loss plan seemed to be beating me... yet again. Every time I get depressed, I eat too much, especially when my depression is in control. Now days it seems to be in control most of the time. It's a cycle I have been fighting for too long... I eat too much and then I beat myself up for eating too much, then I get depressed more... then I eat more... see a pattern here? <BR> <BR> So, I decided to go to the heart of the problem and get the depression out ... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 22:33:34 EST A woman's work is never done... Hi Friends, <BR> <BR> A woman's work is never done... <BR> <BR> No truer words were ever said. <BR> <BR> I stirred in bed this morning, not yet opening my eyes and laid there wondering what today holds. Of course thoughts go through your head; what did I do yesterday, what needs to be done today, etc etc. Before I even opened my eyes I decided I would do nothing today... absolutely nothing! <BR> <BR> I deserve that on a Sunday, right? I run my business and work from 9 am till 11 pm every... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 14:03:17 EST Reflect on YOU... Day 1 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well I got through Monday! YEA! Hope everyone else did too! <BR> <BR> I did great on my eating today! Worked out 97 minutes for 1049 calories burned! Woot! I am very proud of myself for not giving up when I really really wanted to today too... LOL. <BR> <BR> I did some major reflecting today in my journal for today: <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> One major thought on my mind today: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 00:32:41 EST A very good day! Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well I had a fairly good day today. Still trying very hard to get into the habit of eating every 3 hours. It's throwing my plan off, but I still think I am doing well. Tomorrow is my week 1 weigh in, I hope I have lost at least a pound a day average. That is my goal, one pound a day. Next week I kick into high gear and get back in the gym NO EXCUSES! <BR> <BR> Here is my personal blog entry for very early this morning, I was kind of ranting so excuse the rant... I feel... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 01:04:54 EST OMG... your kidding me? Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well, I began week one again except this time I have a goal... a big goal! I will be concentrating on my first 90 days. I am struggling some, mostly trying to not eat food that I am not suppose to have, and end up not eating much at all. I have had 2 days this week with calories around 400 - 600. I have had a bit of a rough week... dealing with stress and other stuff. But I am determined to stick in there and keep on moving on! <BR> <BR> My blogs here will mostly conc... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 04:25:14 EST The same 7 lbs? Come on? Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> WARNING... anger alert! <BR> <BR> I am so pissed off today! I took a hard fall last week, right at the beginning of the week. I had a seriously emo week too, and even though I didn't record all my food, and I wasn't able to work out. I still did not go all out and pig-out on everything. <BR> <BR> So then I step on the scale this morning, my regular weigh in day and the same 7 lbs I lose the week before, is back... it's like that week never even happened! Grrr! I am s... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 13:40:11 EST Things that make you go hmmm... Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I seriously had an emo week from hades this week! <BR> <BR> It began with a fall on Monday. It hurt... BAD, I have been limping all week, my left ankle would not bend, and my right arm would not go above my head... grrr! <BR> <BR> Why does this crap happen to me just when I get in the groove? <BR> <BR> Thought about throwing in the towel... <BR> cause... <BR> well heck, I don't know why, but I thought about it... <BR> Weird huh? <BR> <BR> Anyway, I saw this on m... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 20:10:09 EST 7 lbs. down this week! WooHoo! Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Yeap, today was weigh in day and I lost 7 lbs! *Doin' the Done Girl Dance* <BR> <BR> <em>218</em> <em>244</em> <em>104</em> <em>218</em> <em>244</em> <em>104</em> <em>218</em> <em>244</em> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> I feel so much better now that I know what I am doing will work! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I did hear back from Chris' Staff, (Chris Powell), and the woman said that the... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 16:38:48 EST Back to the gym and... WOW! Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well here it is Friday and I have stuck with things for the entire week, yea me! I do not know what has come over me, but it is feeling great! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I started back to the gym, and WOW I knew I had been gone... but at the same time, I must have had some mega vits or mega motivation, or mega something 'cause I doubled my time on the elliptical... granted my "time" was only 5 minutes but darn it, that 5 minutes killed me last time, and yesterday I managed t... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 22:35:03 EST Midweek... and still pushing forward! Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> It's a good thing... nah it's a great thing that someone said you don't fail till you stop getting up, 'cause I have fallin' so much my bum hurts. LOL But here I am again, getting back up and pushing forward. <BR> <BR> I lost my motivation for a very long time. I don't know where it went, but I kept trying to begin again, and again, and again... until I realized, I am not beginning, I began 2 years ago, I just stalled and now I am going forward again. I suppose ... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 13:09:02 EST Taking time to remember... Hi friends! <BR> <BR> I began my weight loss journey, it seems so long ago. Actually it was only 2 years when I got really serious about it. It was the time I weighed my max weight which was 443 lbs. <BR> <BR> Here is a picture to remember: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> That picture was taken on December 24, 2010. <BR> <BR> I woke up on April 25th 2011 and joined SP yet again... but vowed it was for the last time! I did really well, g... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 11:30:12 EST Day One: “Your first step is to let your imagination run wild.” Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> I miss being here, I miss everyone and I miss me the most of all… time to get back to business… once again! <BR> <BR> Daily Visualization: <BR> <BR> Today, imagine your "future self" giving your past (or current) self a hug. See your future self thanking your past self for having the courage to move forward in this healthy lifestyle journey. How does it feel to look back on your former self with new eyes? <BR> <BR> It is wonderful to know how far I have come so... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 22:21:58 EST Update... Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> I figured I should get back to this business, and stop mulling around in my blah! <BR> <BR> I turned my knee while doing Jillian's 30 day shred. I went to the doctor and was told that I mostly just inflamed it and it took a while for it to get to where I could walk on it everyday without pain. I have had about 3 days of little to no pain now. To be honest, it has made me leary of "getting back on the bike" as the saying goes. The reason is that even now when I w... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 11:16:18 EST Day Five & Day Two 30 Day Shred... Ouch and more! Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> WOW, Jillian is killing me, I actually cried through all the jumping jacks in set two! I persisted though and actually finished today (yesterday I come up about 4 minutes short just couldn't finish). Ouch do I hurt though! <BR> <BR> But today was hard for other reasons… more and more to do with my marriage and all that crap. Today I feel, “one day I will learn!” <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> <em>46</em> <em>39</em> <em>46</em> <em>39</em> <em>46</em> ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 01:16:49 EST Day Four & Day One 30 Day Shred... Oh My! Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> Ooooo today I began Jillian’s 30 Day Shred added on top of the gym workout. Am I crazy… yea maybe so, but I know I can handle it. The Shred wasn’t half bad, all of Jillian’s workouts are fairly hard because she mixes cardio and strength and the switch up, while very effective, is hard! The hardest for me was believe it or not the thing we learn to do even at a very young age in school… jumping jacks… they kill me! I think its because I have so much weight being th... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 02:02:16 EST