BLVINBUTTERFLYS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BLVINBUTTERFLYS BLVINBUTTERFLYS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Get busy living... or get busy dying! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658650 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> That is one of my favorite lines of one of my favorite movies! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2088071810.jpg"> <BR> <BR> But it applies to a lot in life... especially weight loss. Come on, let's ask the taboo question, how many of us are dying because of our weight? <BR> <BR> Diabetes <BR> Heart Disease <BR> High Blood Pressure <BR> Sleep Apnea <BR> Cancer <BR> Stroke <BR> Fatty Liver Disease <BR> <BR> These are just a few ways that w... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 12:52:49 EST That's what I'm talking about!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648131 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well week 1 almost down! I feel like I did really well this week. Tomorrow is my weigh in for the week although the week is not quite over yet. I have to weigh in on the mornings of my high carb days. That weighs me the most accurate because of the fluctuation that carb cycling can cause. So we weigh in after our low carb days to see what has been lost. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1228285226.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I had another awesome worko... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 01:28:31 EST Such busy days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5647606 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l207267162.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I hope everyone is doing well. I feel like I am doing the best that I can... and that's not been bad this week! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1540387484.jpg"> <BR> <BR> WOW, it seems like I just don't have enough hours in the day for 5 meals and 3 workouts and working and keeping up with family... I am working hard to find balance, and struggling at it, altho... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 09:48:16 EST Week 1: Day 2 - Low Carb Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645839 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/3/l535956043.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well today was awesome and still feel great! I really rocked it today, seriously! I also feel good because I am organized this time, I am not just winging it, I am going into this with a plan. <BR> <BR> I have my weigh in chart in the bathroom on the wall: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2080371330.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Then I have my 9 minute mission calendar. This is po... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 00:47:46 EST Back on track: Week 1 Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644998 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> OK, I am not losing it... nor am I going backward, I have reset my transformation plan because we have redone some things, (me and the doc and my trainer). So, now things are back on track, we have torn apart what I was doing wrong, and what I was doing right, and now I am back on track. For the sake of keeping things straight, I am just starting back at Week 1 Day 1. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1339172133.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So, I got th... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 01:50:21 EST WOW, what a day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5642477 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Not posting accountability today because I really don't know what all I ate or what it weighed or anything. LOL <BR> <BR> I spent 4 hours laying a carpet in my bedroom and burned A LOT of calories... 1,010 according to my band. <BR> <BR> So, here is what my bedroom floor looked like this morning... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l397420625.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ...and what it looks like now... 4 very sore hours later! BIG difference, and I ... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 21:47:40 EST Week 2: Day 4 - Normal Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641782 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1790830992.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Meal accountability for today... <BR> <BR> Workout Meal: none (no workouts today) <BR> Breakfast: Eggs and Bagel w/ cream cheese <BR> Calories: 355 Carbs: 30 Fat: 18 Pro: 19 <BR> Lunch: Chicken Breast Pita w/ Veggies <BR> Calories: 245 Carbs: 34 Fat: 4 Pro: 25 <BR> Dinner: Logan's Shrimp & Veggie Skewers w/ Rice and Sweet Potato <BR> Calories: 603 Carbs: 75 Fat: 25 Pro: 19 <BR> Evening Snac... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 00:39:14 EST Week 2: Day 3 - High Carb Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640764 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/5/l950969655.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Meal accountability for today... <BR> <BR> Workout Meal: none <BR> Breakfast: Granola w/ milk & banana <BR> Calories: 293 Carbs:55 Fat: 6 Pro: 10 <BR> Lunch: Egg Salad Sandwich & Kiwi <BR> Calories: 232 Carbs: 36 Fat: 5 Pro: 17 <BR> Dinner: Kat's Italian Chicken Penne <BR> Calories: 300 Carbs: 36 Fat: 9 Pro: 17 <BR> Evening Snack: Pear & Yogurt <BR> Calories: 220 Carbs: 43 Fat: 0 Pro: 13 <BR... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 20:17:31 EST Week 2: Day 2 - Low Carb Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639974 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l758901184.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Meal accountability for today... <BR> <BR> Workout Meal: none <BR> Breakfast: Pepperjack Omelet <BR> Calories: 216 Carbs: 9 Fat: 11 Pro: 21 <BR> Lunch: Cottage Cheese Salad w/ chipotle avocado drizzle <BR> Calories: 214 Carbs: 15 Fat: 12 Pro: 16 <BR> Afternoon Snack: none <BR> Dinner: Hamburger & Spicy Sweet Potato Chips <BR> Calories: 337 Carbs: 23 Fat: 18 Pro: 24 <BR> Evening Snack: Apple... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 23:42:12 EST Week 2: Day 1 - Low Carb Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639126 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Meal accountability for today... <BR> <BR> Workout Meal: none (I did not get to my workouts today) <BR> Breakfast: Smoothie & Cheese <BR> Calories: 355 Carbs: 26 Fat: 23 Pro: 15 <BR> Lunch: Chicken Wrap w/ Avocado chipotle sauce <BR> Calories: 214 Carbs: 6 Fat: 14 Pro: 19 <BR> Afternoon Snack: missed <BR> Dinner: Warm Chicken Cauliflower & Chickpea Salad <BR> Calories: 325 Carbs: 39 Fat: 10 Pro: 21 <BR> Evening Snack: missed <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.spark... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 00:39:17 EST Step 1: Believe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639103 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I love Chris Powell's Book: Choose More, Lose More, For Life. I have been skipping through it to get most of the important information regarding the transformation process, and I began really reading it today. It is very thorough in that it takes you through not just the weight loss but the whole transformation of YOU. So here and there I will be blogging about these steps as I take them. <BR> <BR> Chris says, "Transformation isn't weight loss. It's your journey toward... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 23:59:43 EST Week 1 Day 7: High Carb / Free Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638586 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> No your not seeing double and I am not losing it... YES I did have 8 days last week! LOL <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l202369498.jpg"> <BR> <BR> OK... had to change my weigh in day to Saturday so that makes Sunday my Day 7 from now on... which means I had 2 day 7's this week... and people say there are no weeks with 8 days in them... LOL. <BR> <BR> So, I am posting for yesterday, and I began Week 2 Day 1 today. <BR> <BR> I got so cau... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 12:48:58 EST Week 1: Day 7 - High Carb Day / Weigh In Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637352 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1798007183.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Weigh In Day: 10.8 lbs lost in Week 1! (For those who have seen this post today, it was wrong... 10.8 not 9.8) Woot! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1643586839.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well I think I did great this week. Had some ups and had some downs, but things come out ok in the end. Proud of myself that I set a mini goal and I stuck to it! WooHoo!! <BR> <BR> I n... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 01:30:27 EST Week 1: Day 6 - Low Carb Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636377 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I had a very bad day, so please excuse me while I post my accountability and go read a book before bed. <BR> <BR> I hope everyone has a great weekend! <BR> <BR> Meal accountability for today... <BR> <BR> Workout Meal: missed it <BR> Breakfast: Veggie Omelet and Bagel Thin w/cream cheese <BR> Calories: 238 Carbs: 18 Fat: 12 Pro: 17 <BR> Lunch: missed it - Had a Muffin later ( not all of them in the pic... just 1) LOL! <BR> Calories: 93 Carbs: 24 Fat: 0 Pro: 3 <BR> A... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 20:05:39 EST OMG... It's Everywhere, It's Everywhere!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636175 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> OMG... what happened to me yesterday has opened my eyes so much! <BR> <BR> Worked out yesterday and burned oh, tons of calories... yea me! Was feeling great, followed my plan to a T and was even able to splurge just a tiny bit in the evening... well I call it a splurge, but it was still within my plan so I am told it was not exactly a splurge. But in my opinion, any time you can have cookies, it's a splurge! LOL! But they were healthy cookies and they tasted great! <BR... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 14:34:16 EST Week 1: Day 5 - Low Carb Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635715 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1817945358.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I loved that picture the second I saw it. Thought I would share the beauty. <BR> <BR> Been learning some things this week, done some soul searching, as I always am... continuing to improve myself as a person, etc... these two pics say it all for me: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1477405087.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 00:58:34 EST Week 1 - Day 4: High Carb Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634827 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Going to make it short tonight, had a so-so day. Kinda haven't really felt good today although I kept pushing forward with my plan. Just ready to go snuggle up with my couch and watch some tv before bed. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l36565730.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Meal accountability for today... <BR> <BR> Workout Meal: Strawberry Pineapple Smoothie <BR> Calories: 200 Carbs: 33 Fat: 0 Pro: 16 <BR> Breakfast: Granola w/ milk and banana <BR> ... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 23:04:23 EST Week 1 - Day 3: Low Carb Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633791 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well it's Tuesday, tuesday... felt like singing, but it doesn't quite go, huh? LOL <BR> I did have a pretty good day. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l325937621.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Having a heck of a time trying to get up in the morning early enough to get in the 9 minute missions and a workout also, although 30 minutes is what I am shooting for... not quite there yet. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l131253175... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 21:32:44 EST Week 1 - Day 2: Low Carb Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633001 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I had a pretty good MOnday. Started off a bit slow because our new little puppy kept me up all night long, I could have thumped the little bugger, but she is completely adorable! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1732801171.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well, not much to say today really, just had a pretty good day! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1305274791.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Week 1 - Day 2: Low Carb Day <BR> <BR> Meal acco... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 23:20:44 EST Week 1 - High Carb Day/ Free Day #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632027 Back to business again... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l685173188.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1652827414.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I promised that as soon as we got moved and settled I would get back to the business of getting this weight off. Having a year and a half that I was not really able to get things done right was tough on me. I gained about 50 lbs of the 160 lbs that I had lost back due to not sticking with the right f... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 23:17:18 EST 30... +1, more reasons to live and be thankful!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5554330 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I hope everyone had a GREAT Thanksgiving! <BR> <BR> I watched all month how people on FB were listing every day another reason to be thankful in the spirit of thanksgiving. Personally, I had mixed feelings about that one; I thought we should find reasons EVERYDAY to be thankful, not just the month of November for thanksgiving... and so I read my friends and families reasons and kept thinking that maybe I should be thankful... but then could I REALLY come up with 30 re... Sun, 1 Dec 2013 16:34:13 EST What to do... What to do... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5539723 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> WARNING... no positive thoughts here tonight... I am sorry! <BR> <BR> I am feeling all sorts of low today. A tornado of mixed feelings that I am not sure what to do with. I am faced with huge Y's in the road and I am not sure which way to turn. I have so many questions... and very few answers. <BR> <BR> Let me go back a few days... <BR> <BR> I decided last week that I just could not live with this weigh gain anymore. I knew I just had to kick it into high gear and ba... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 01:16:06 EST My Live It List http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5537003 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I have one of the most awesome motivational people in my area, he has lost over 400 lbs. He began a FB page called The Live It List: (his words) "The Live It List was created by me in the midst of a battle to save my life. I was too far gone for a Bucket List, so the Live It List was born to give me a place to write my dreams and goals. It started simply with me getting my health back and has grown exponentially from there! Have you created your Live It List?" <link>h... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 01:11:59 EST Do you believe? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533408 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Today has been a weird day. Every time I turned around I was confronted with the statement or question of second chances. The issue at work today... I was told I got a second chance to fix it. The bank thing that happened, I was told it was ok, that's why they are second chance accounts. At least 4 times today I heard those two words together, it was starting to feel creepy. <BR> <BR> Then I come home and decided to finally sit down and watch the first episode of The B... Tue, 5 Nov 2013 22:57:40 EST I will not stand for it anymore! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5532427 Well, here I am... yet again. <BR> <BR> I am not sure what I feel now days, I am not sure where I am headed or where I am even coming from. All I know is that I just can't live like this anymore. <BR> <BR> I have lived in pain for too long... <BR> <BR> I have spent the last 10 years of my life struggling for where I deserve to be in life. Struggling to find who I am and who I wish to be. I have found that I am someone who has blamed many things on where I am in life, and who I have become... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 22:21:58 EST What the heck is rumination? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5436712 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well, my weight loss plan seemed to be beating me... yet again. Every time I get depressed, I eat too much, especially when my depression is in control. Now days it seems to be in control most of the time. It's a cycle I have been fighting for too long... I eat too much and then I beat myself up for eating too much, then I get depressed more... then I eat more... see a pattern here? <BR> <BR> So, I decided to go to the heart of the problem and get the depression out ... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 22:33:34 EST A woman's work is never done... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5428309 Hi Friends, <BR> <BR> A woman's work is never done... <BR> <BR> No truer words were ever said. <BR> <BR> I stirred in bed this morning, not yet opening my eyes and laid there wondering what today holds. Of course thoughts go through your head; what did I do yesterday, what needs to be done today, etc etc. Before I even opened my eyes I decided I would do nothing today... absolutely nothing! <BR> <BR> I deserve that on a Sunday, right? I run my business and work from 9 am till 11 pm every... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 14:03:17 EST Reflect on YOU... Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5422513 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well I got through Monday! YEA! Hope everyone else did too! <BR> <BR> I did great on my eating today! Worked out 97 minutes for 1049 calories burned! Woot! I am very proud of myself for not giving up when I really really wanted to today too... LOL. <BR> <BR> I did some major reflecting today in my journal for today: <BR> <BR> <link>https://penzu.com/p/65a17d34 </link> <BR> <BR> One major thought on my mind today: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 00:32:41 EST A very good day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5420353 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well I had a fairly good day today. Still trying very hard to get into the habit of eating every 3 hours. It's throwing my plan off, but I still think I am doing well. Tomorrow is my week 1 weigh in, I hope I have lost at least a pound a day average. That is my goal, one pound a day. Next week I kick into high gear and get back in the gym NO EXCUSES! <BR> <BR> Here is my personal blog entry for very early this morning, I was kind of ranting so excuse the rant... I feel... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 01:04:54 EST OMG... your kidding me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5419499 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well, I began week one again except this time I have a goal... a big goal! I will be concentrating on my first 90 days. I am struggling some, mostly trying to not eat food that I am not suppose to have, and end up not eating much at all. I have had 2 days this week with calories around 400 - 600. I have had a bit of a rough week... dealing with stress and other stuff. But I am determined to stick in there and keep on moving on! <BR> <BR> My blogs here will mostly conc... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 04:25:14 EST The same 7 lbs? Come on? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5390859 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> WARNING... anger alert! <BR> <BR> I am so pissed off today! I took a hard fall last week, right at the beginning of the week. I had a seriously emo week too, and even though I didn't record all my food, and I wasn't able to work out. I still did not go all out and pig-out on everything. <BR> <BR> So then I step on the scale this morning, my regular weigh in day and the same 7 lbs I lose the week before, is back... it's like that week never even happened! Grrr! I am s... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 13:40:11 EST Things that make you go hmmm... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389397 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> I seriously had an emo week from hades this week! <BR> <BR> It began with a fall on Monday. It hurt... BAD, I have been limping all week, my left ankle would not bend, and my right arm would not go above my head... grrr! <BR> <BR> Why does this crap happen to me just when I get in the groove? <BR> <BR> Thought about throwing in the towel... <BR> cause... <BR> well heck, I don't know why, but I thought about it... <BR> Weird huh? <BR> <BR> Anyway, I saw this on m... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 20:10:09 EST 7 lbs. down this week! WooHoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5383556 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Yeap, today was weigh in day and I lost 7 lbs! *Doin' the Done Girl Dance* <BR> <BR> <em>218</em> <em>244</em> <em>104</em> <em>218</em> <em>244</em> <em>104</em> <em>218</em> <em>244</em> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> I feel so much better now that I know what I am doing will work! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1824254350.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I did hear back from Chris' Staff, (Chris Powell), and the woman said that the... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 16:38:48 EST Back to the gym and... WOW! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381945 Hi Friends! <BR> <BR> Well here it is Friday and I have stuck with things for the entire week, yea me! I do not know what has come over me, but it is feeling great! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I started back to the gym, and WOW I knew I had been gone... but at the same time, I must have had some mega vits or mega motivation, or mega something 'cause I doubled my time on the elliptical... granted my "time" was only 5 minutes but darn it, that 5 minutes killed me last time, and yesterday I managed t... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 22:35:03 EST Midweek... and still pushing forward! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380370 Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> It's a good thing... nah it's a great thing that someone said you don't fail till you stop getting up, 'cause I have fallin' so much my bum hurts. LOL But here I am again, getting back up and pushing forward. <BR> <BR> I lost my motivation for a very long time. I don't know where it went, but I kept trying to begin again, and again, and again... until I realized, I am not beginning, I began 2 years ago, I just stalled and now I am going forward again. I suppose ... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 13:09:02 EST Taking time to remember... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376672 Hi friends! <BR> <BR> I began my weight loss journey, it seems so long ago. Actually it was only 2 years when I got really serious about it. It was the time I weighed my max weight which was 443 lbs. <BR> <BR> Here is a picture to remember: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1658087830.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That picture was taken on December 24, 2010. <BR> <BR> I woke up on April 25th 2011 and joined SP yet again... but vowed it was for the last time! I did really well, g... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 11:30:12 EST Day One: “Your first step is to let your imagination run wild.” http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335767 Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> I miss being here, I miss everyone and I miss me the most of all… time to get back to business… once again! <BR> <BR> Daily Visualization: <BR> <BR> Today, imagine your "future self" giving your past (or current) self a hug. See your future self thanking your past self for having the courage to move forward in this healthy lifestyle journey. How does it feel to look back on your former self with new eyes? <BR> <BR> It is wonderful to know how far I have come so... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 22:21:58 EST Update... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285144 Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> I figured I should get back to this business, and stop mulling around in my blah! <BR> <BR> I turned my knee while doing Jillian's 30 day shred. I went to the doctor and was told that I mostly just inflamed it and it took a while for it to get to where I could walk on it everyday without pain. I have had about 3 days of little to no pain now. To be honest, it has made me leary of "getting back on the bike" as the saying goes. The reason is that even now when I w... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 11:16:18 EST Day Five & Day Two 30 Day Shred... Ouch and more! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259467 Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> WOW, Jillian is killing me, I actually cried through all the jumping jacks in set two! I persisted though and actually finished today (yesterday I come up about 4 minutes short just couldn't finish). Ouch do I hurt though! <BR> <BR> But today was hard for other reasons… more and more to do with my marriage and all that crap. Today I feel, “one day I will learn!” <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> <em>46</em> <em>39</em> <em>46</em> <em>39</em> <em>46</em> ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 01:16:49 EST Day Four & Day One 30 Day Shred... Oh My! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5258239 Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> Ooooo today I began Jillian’s 30 Day Shred added on top of the gym workout. Am I crazy… yea maybe so, but I know I can handle it. The Shred wasn’t half bad, all of Jillian’s workouts are fairly hard because she mixes cardio and strength and the switch up, while very effective, is hard! The hardest for me was believe it or not the thing we learn to do even at a very young age in school… jumping jacks… they kill me! I think its because I have so much weight being th... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 02:02:16 EST Day Three http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256868 Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> Well today was a different kind of day. Today I stood on my own two feet again! What I mean by that is this: Since I began this re-journey a couple of weeks ago, I have been struggling with balancing my business, my weight loss, my family, my home, and other stuff. Trying to find balance in all of this was not easy to begin with, then there was another thing that bothered me. <BR> <BR> Recently I began playing an online video game with my husband again. For anyo... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 23:22:16 EST Day Two: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5255616 Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> Well day two began with a work out at the gym. I got in 43 minutes but had a bit of trouble because I pushed myself too hard right at first and got a lump of mucus stuck in a very sore throat and my chest was burning like a flame! I should have stuck with what I know and worked my way up slowly, but I was told that I could do the workout and so I tried and felt like I about killed myself. Now the thing I am proud of was that I really wanted to quit but I didn't. I... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 00:23:07 EST Day One: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5253996 Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> Well I see other do this Day One, two, three thing, so I guess I will see if it works to just keep a journal going each day. I know it will help. <BR> <BR> <em>249</em> <em>249</em> <em>249</em> <em>249</em> <em>249</em> <em>249</em> <em>249</em> <em>249</em> <em>249</em> <em>249</em> <BR> <BR> Today's Visualization: <BR> <BR> "Take a minute today to collect all the negative thoughts or feelings you've been experiencing this week.... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 19:53:40 EST I CAN do this! I AM worthy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5253906 Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> This is a lengthy blog, and may get boring, and I do not hold it against anyone who does not read it through... but it is more for my benefit than for others, although I am always hoping to motivate and inspire, and hope someone else learns something too! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> NEW WEIGHT LOSS PLAN BEGINNING TODAY: <BR> <BR> Back to SP: February 2, 2013 <BR> <BR> Height: 5' 6.5" <BR> <BR> Initial Starting Weight: 443 lb. (April 25, 2011) <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 18:27:56 EST ...unworthy? HELP PLEASE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249863 Hi Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> I have been having some things on my mind lately... <BR> <BR> After taking off 160 lbs a year ago, I had a very bad year in 2012, a lot of personal issues... <BR> <BR> Separated from my husband, then got back together, then separated again, then complicated things with my best friend, he confused me by moving in on me while I was still trying to figure out things between me and my husband. Took advantage of me while I was vulnerable, and that made things even m... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 01:41:49 EST Back to the Gym! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246962 Hi Spark Buddies! <BR> <BR> Well today I found myself filling out the paperwork and paying 6 months for the gym. I am actually very excited! I have a tread mill at home but it's getting boring. The gym has quite a bit of stuff I can mix it up and try to figure out why I have not been able to keep my workouts in the higher zones. The subscription to the gym also included 3 visits with a trainer, so I am looking forward to getting some input as well. <BR> <BR> So I get to report how I did my... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 21:15:46 EST That little fat girl… won't win! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5245656 Today I had a break through. I have watched Biggest Loser for so many years and seen the trainers talk about how gaining weight and being fat isn’t just about eating food. I know that things in our lives have had direct effect on the person we become. I have seen the trainers push and push till they break someone down and get inside and find out what is controlling their behaviors. <BR> Well today I had that happen to me, and I didn't even expect it. <BR> <BR> Someone on my FB page complai... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 21:44:36 EST I vow to make this year spectacular! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5245247 2012 was a very long year for me, it started rough and just got rougher throughout the year. When 2013 rolled around I was so glad to see the year go, I vowed to make this year spectacular! <BR> <BR> I am a little late getting started, but I guess showing up is what's important! <BR> <BR> Here is my daily Spark Coach Check In: <BR> <BR> My visualization for the day: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1650337814.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My daily self-assessment: <BR> <B... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 15:22:28 EST My Compass http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4994393 Hello Friends... <BR> <BR> I want to thank those of you who send kind words, prayers, thoughts and more the other day when I posted that ever so gloomy blog. Sometimes things just have to be let out or you explode. So I did. *HUGS* to you all, my SP and FB friends and family are very special to me, and have been there many times when others have not, you are all appreciated so much! <BR> <BR> After that blog, I barely slept, then had a conversation with my best friend the next morning... it... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 09:08:54 EST Decisions... can I still or should I even try? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4991251 It has been a long time since I have written. A long time since I even logged in. A long time since I really felt like I should even try and care. <BR> <BR> My family and I have been dealing with many things this year. What began as a rough start to a new year has quickly turned into a bad year all the way around. We all know that in this journey we call life we can have good days and bad days, good weeks ad bad weeks, even good months and bad months, or at the most extreme; those days, wee... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 03:59:36 EST