BLUEROSE73's SparkPeople Blog BLUEROSE73's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community No motivation at all today I have a lot to share about the past month or so, but that's not what I'm blogging about today <BR> <BR> However, a fallout of the past few months is I've been SLAMMED with a depression that is overwhelming me right now. I've been so stressed for so long. Now that the stress is gone, I'm falling apart. I was hoping it wouldn't be this bad, but it is. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, back to why I'm blogging today. <BR> <BR> I KNOW I need to run <BR> I need to run for my health <BR> I need to run for m... Mon, 19 Dec 2016 09:01:08 EST Back at it. I'm working on getting back to it all. I went for my run this morning. I did start out running half of it - run 1 block, walk 1. Even though I'm feeling queezy, I thought I needed to get out and try. I'm feeling a bit better, but I don't know if my stomach will settle at all today or not. Oh well. I'm planning on pushing through it anyway. <BR> <BR> This morning I'm off to do my practicum again. All day today. I'm getting so close to being done. At the latest, I'll be done on Dec ... Fri, 2 Dec 2016 07:25:39 EST In my ideal world... I would be in an awesome practicum placement, with opportunities to grow and learn as well as mentoring. <BR> I would be at my ideal weight <BR> I would be on track with my running training <BR> I would be coping with my stress better <BR> <BR> I can not change the issues at my practicum. I've tried. I am not giving up. I am not doing what I usually do - getting frustrated and walking out. I am trying to work with this and work through it. That's all I can do. <BR> I have control over... Wed, 23 Nov 2016 08:27:45 EST Today I stopped running for just over a week due to illness. I was struggling to get back to it. Who am I kidding. I still am. However, I made the commitment to get out of bed this morning and go. I was able to do half of my run, then I just felt too exhausted. My heart rate monitor was showing me that my heart rate was high and not coming down. So I power walked home. My avg heart rate was still pretty high. I'm not sure if its due to the stress (my practicum has become a bit of a nightma... Tue, 22 Nov 2016 06:48:38 EST Still plugging away at it my focus hasn't been on weight loss for a few months now. I knew it wouldn't be possible to make it my top priority. I've been far too busy with my practicum, work, and homework. I'm keeping my head afloat. I am still running every morning. Okay, at least walking. But I'm staying focused and getting out at least 4 mornings a week. I'm not doing it on weekends at all. I'm thinking this might be a bad indication that when my schedule eases up I may not keep focused on keeping up my run... Sun, 13 Nov 2016 15:12:24 EST It's been a bit ... ... but I'm still here. I haven't been running, but I have gone out for a run daily. I get about half of my run in and they I power walk. I really need to figure out why I've got that block and find a way to get over it. But for now, at least I'm still moving. <BR> <BR> It's getting cooler in the mornings. It hasn't started to snow her yet, but that's coming soon. Actually, it's past due. I'm ready for it - I always have my spikes and base layer ready to go. I'm definitely appreciat... Tue, 8 Nov 2016 06:49:19 EST Today's kick in the Butt It's been a bit of a busy week, but mostly I've been resting. I've been exhausted all week long. I know I'm fighting a cold, so I've been letting my body rest. I have been going out - I've been out for a run 4 mornings this week. However, I have not done much running. It's been a bit of running then finishing with a power walk. I think I really need to push through this block, but not before work. I'll try this weekend. <BR> <BR> Things at my practicum are progressing. I'm finally ... Fri, 28 Oct 2016 08:33:43 EST Today's kick in the butt I realized this morning that I've really slacked off of my running for the past few days. I took Thursday off. I had cramps Friday. I didn't go Saturday or Sunday either. <BR> This morning I woke up with a sore hip, so I decided to head out and walk rather than run. I'm glad I did. I finished my power walk strong. Went the entire distance. And I'm not in any more pain than I was earlier. <BR> <BR> I'm still just not feeling the motivation to get going. At least I still have anothe... Mon, 24 Oct 2016 08:37:23 EST Today's kick in the Butt Today was a bit rough on my run. Cramps are bad today. I'm hoping that the rest of my day goes better. I'll be sure to take some Alieve with me today just to be sure. <BR> <BR> I started running, but ended up walking. Even then I had to cut it short and I struggled the last half mile - the pain was ramping up. I was hoping this was behind me, but I guess not. Oh well. At least the pain is only bad a couple of days a month, instead of all day every day. <BR> <BR> I've got to get of... Fri, 21 Oct 2016 08:12:14 EST Today's kick in the Butt Thank you for the comments yesterday. I really needed the gratitude one. I am struggling with being overly stressed. That post reminded me that despite my current struggles, I still have a lot to be thankful for. <BR> <BR> I am struggling with frustration at my practicum placement, but I have a placement. <BR> I am struggling with some things at home, but I have a warm, safe home to come to. <BR> I am stressed and frustrated, but I am able to run to burn a lot of that off every morn... Wed, 19 Oct 2016 07:54:25 EST Today's kick in the Butt Back from today's run. It's raining lightly out there. Funny. I always find I run my best in the rain. Today wasn't a best run overall, but it was a good one. Poor Lulu is in the back porch drying off. <BR> <BR> It's going to be a long day. I leave for work in about a half hour (6:30am) and am gone until just after 7pm. Just under 3 hours of driving. Better remember to pack a supper. I can never make it that late without at least a bigger snack in the later afternoon. <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 18 Oct 2016 07:48:30 EST Today It's been a while since I've blogged. Lots has happened, but that's common considering how busy I am. <BR> <BR> Hubby has had to go back to work. He sees the specialist next week, so that's good. Plus today he's going to a doctor for some pain management. I am beyond sick and tired of doctors telling patients "I don't do pain management". Seriously? I'm not drug addict. I HATE taking pills. But if I'm in enough pain to ask for help, who are you to tell me that I can't have it? W... Mon, 17 Oct 2016 08:56:01 EST Today Today seems to be off to not such a good start. <BR> <BR> My run didn't go so well. I feel so emotionally drained when I'm out there. I just don't have it in me to run the full 3 miles. So I speed walk instead. I'll try again tomorrow <BR> <BR> Now I'm trying to drink my smoothie. It was blended for more than enough time. But the banana's are barely blended. In fact, they are still almost whole (I break my banana in half and put it in my nutribullet). Looks like I need a new one. <... Wed, 12 Oct 2016 08:24:05 EST Today's kick in the Butt Tomorrow is my final weigh in for my diet bet. This morning I weighed myself. I've hit my goal. Now to keep it there until weigh in tomorrow. Today's Thanksgiving supper here too. Could be tough. lol <BR> <BR> Not so much. I have to cook and bring my own meal for tonight. My hubby's sister decided to stuff the turkey. She also insists on making gravy with flour. The fact I'm allergic doesn't matter. And they wonder why I don't even bother to try to connect. It's been this way fro... Sun, 9 Oct 2016 12:12:45 EST Today's kick in the Butt ... and follow up on yesterday <BR> <BR> I returned to my practicum. There was plenty to do, but it was for the most part pushing papers. I get that though. It was a no school day, so that's all there was to do. <BR> <BR> However, that being said, there was some progress. We talked and cleared up more of my misunderstandings. I also prepared two presentations for early next week. We'll see how it goes next week. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, on to today. <BR> Hubby is depressed. He got so... Sat, 8 Oct 2016 10:29:41 EST Today's kick in the Butt This morning I weighed out (final weigh in) on my first of two diet bets. I made this one plus two pounds. Now I have to hit my next goal - one more pound by Monday morning (Tuesday at the latest). I'm pretty sure I can do it. <BR> <BR> I was frustrated though. I was doing so well, and on a loosing streak just as the dietbet started. Then my hip started to hurt. I didn't give up, but I was very restricted in what I could do with regards to my fitness. In fact, I lost 2 weeks out of the... Fri, 7 Oct 2016 08:06:40 EST Today's kick in the Butt I'm just not feeling very good today. I am tired. I couldn't breathe this morning, so today's run turned into a 3mile walk. Now I've got waves of nausea when I'm trying to get my smoothie down. <BR> <BR> Oh right. I just remembered. I got my MMR vaccination yesterday. I'll bet it is having a bit to do with this. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, I've got a full day ahead. As soon as I'm done here, I'll be back to reading more papers for my classes. I have almost 2 hours for extra reading before I... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 07:57:29 EST Today's kick in the Butt Back from today's run already. It went well. <BR> <BR> I finished my stepbet on Saturday. 6 weeks of walking 6 times/week - 6500 steps 4 times a week and 8400 steps twice a week. It felt great to see that it was done successfully. I'm not sure I'll do another one. I guess time will tell. It's not a bad idea to do another one leading into the cold winter months - to help ensure I keep moving. <BR> <BR> I am finishing my first of two dietbets this Fri/Sat. I made my goal weight last we... Mon, 3 Oct 2016 07:47:17 EST Today's kick in the Butt Got Lulu and I out for this mornings run. Even started to run. But the nausea I was feeling when I woke up didn't pass. I ran two more blocks to see if it would pass - nope. So we walked. Walked all 3 miles. <BR> <BR> Back home now, and finishing my morning routine. I need to be at work by 8am today. It's a full day at my practicum placement. Luckily once I get there, I am car pooling with my supervisor for the day. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, here's some motivation to help kick your own b... Fri, 30 Sep 2016 08:08:52 EST Today's kick in the Butt Today was a day of firsts. First day I woke up with no pain in my hip. First day of running without painkillers. First day with only a slight twinge in my hip while I ran (only for a quick second, then gone). Here's hoping my hip holds out for the rest of today as well. <BR> <BR> I'm already back from today's run. I've found I can't take the time to blog before running. I barely have enough time after running (and before my shower) to blog most days. I need to get my heart rate down s... Thu, 29 Sep 2016 09:27:53 EST Today's kick in the Butt Still here. Still running <BR> Hip still sore. Swelling this morning. It's getting frustrating. <BR> <BR> Still no time. I'll update when I get some time to play online. <BR> <BR> In the meantime, here's some motivation to get out and get 'er done <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosa... Tue, 27 Sep 2016 07:43:44 EST Today's kick in the Butt <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 26 Sep 2016 08:44:51 EST Today's kick in the Butt Today is a rough day to get out and run. It's pouring rain. I haven't had a good, strong run in 2 weeks now. My hip has been in too much pain. Despite this I haven't given up. But even though I've been walking, I'm so frustrated. I got on the scale this morning. My weight is going up again. I shouldn't be surprised. I haven't been able to do my workouts like I nee to in order to loose weight. <BR> <BR> So here I sit this morning. The first day after having my insoles adjusted (so ... Sat, 24 Sep 2016 09:13:45 EST Today's kick in the Butt Once again, I'm just back from this mornings run. I was actually able to push myself this morning. I'm just hoping I didn't hurt myself - my hip still isn't 100% . <BR> <BR> So here are some motivational images to help push you out the door today <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.... Thu, 22 Sep 2016 09:38:32 EST Today's kick in the Butt Once again, back from today's run already. The pain in my hip is still not gone, but it's not getting worse. In fact, it seems to be easing up. At least I hope it really is and not just in my head. <BR> <BR> I've got so much to do again today. I'll be logging off sparkpeople within a few minutes, and not able to log back on today. But it's all good. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://pho... Wed, 21 Sep 2016 08:17:30 EST Today's kick in the Butt Yesterday's run brought back the hip pain. This mornings run made it worse again. <BR> <BR> I am beyond frustrated. My weight loss has been stalled since I've had to stop running. <BR> <BR> Today I made it farther than I expected, but I did things a little different. I took a pain killer on my way out the door. I still listened to my body, and didn't push too fast. I just wanted to see if I could still simply go the distance. Speed has never been my thing anyway. <BR> <BR> I am... Mon, 19 Sep 2016 09:59:50 EST Today's kick in the Butt Today is only a little kick. The plan is to go running this morning. First time in a week. I'm really hoping my hip holds up alright. It was pain free yesterday - first time it's actually been completely pain free. <BR> <BR> I'll be taking it easy, but I'm hoping it all goes well so I can get back to training soon. <BR> I also have dance lessons starting t 4pm today. So I'll be busy. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, I took my thrive and it's going to kick in soon. Time to get dressed and get m... Sun, 18 Sep 2016 10:21:28 EST Plans for the Weekend Tomorrow I'll be weighing in. I haven't had a chance to do an actual weigh in for the past week. My mornings consist of getting up and getting out the door within 10-15minutes so I can get my walk in before I have to get ready for work. Today too. In fact, I only have 5min before I have to get up and get moving again. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I'll be able to sleep in. I don't think my body will let me, but I'm looking forward to no alarm. <BR> <BR> We have plenty to do in the house - movin... Fri, 16 Sep 2016 08:51:23 EST Today's kick in the butt Already back from this mornings power walk. <BR> <BR> I LOVE getting my fitness in right at the start of my day. It helps wake me up, and I end up feeling accomplished before my work day even starts. <BR> <BR> My hip is still bothering me, but it's not getting worse. It is however getting a bit better. Powerwalking only is tough, but I'm doing what I can to let this recover. Next Friday I'll see my podiatrist Hopefully he can help. In the meantime, I need to make sure I stay on tra... Wed, 14 Sep 2016 09:13:17 EST Today's kick in the Butt I'm up. I just took my thrive. Giving it a few minutes to kick in. <BR> <BR> When I was at dance lessons last night, doing the body isolations - especially the hip rotations and movements - loosened up my hip. I had no more problems with my hip for the evening. <BR> <BR> My plan for today is to get out there and power walk the 3 miles. Stretch first. Do some hip rotations, etc. NO running yet. But I'm hoping I can complete it as a walk. <BR> <BR> I know I'm pushing it, but I nee... Mon, 12 Sep 2016 08:13:15 EST Needing to rethink things My hip hurt again during today's run. Not a little nagging ache. Actual pain. I didn't even finish walking the entire route. Lulu and I stopped and went straight home. <BR> <BR> Since finishing, my hip is really bothering me. <BR> <BR> On Friday when I walked the rest of the route, I realized later in the day that was the wrong answer. So I didn't this time. <BR> <BR> I didn't have much problem on Saturday - I also didn't run. <BR> <BR> This is not a pain to work through. Th... Sun, 11 Sep 2016 15:42:14 EST Today's kick in the Butt I'm frustrated today. <BR> <BR> I got on the scale this morning. When I weigh about an hour after waking up - no food or water - my weight is at it's lowest for the day. This past week I've had to do my weigh in's later in the day - once even right at the end of my day. I saw higher numbers, but was not frustrated. I know my weight climbs during the day <BR> <BR> Today I was hoping to see my progress, since I've been able to stay committed to working out (5/7 days running, only one da... Sun, 11 Sep 2016 08:51:01 EST My Goals for this week, and review of last weeks goals I didn't actually do a review of the previous week, or define this weeks goals at all. I was just too busy. <BR> <BR> Despite this, I can still review how my week went. <BR> <BR> <em>194</em> over 8 glasses a day - over 12 most days <BR> <em>17</em> Tracking all of my food (all 5/6 days. 80% on remaining day). This is an important one to me. I'm glad I'm finding the time to take care of my personal business this week <BR> <em>551</em> I ate really well all week long - salads ... Sat, 10 Sep 2016 18:29:33 EST No Kick in the Butt today I was up at 2am making a roast beef dinner for 250 people. Around 200 showed up. <BR> <BR> I had to go home after 13 hours. I started to have stomach cramps - I think I was around too much gluten for too long (I have celiac disease). <BR> <BR> I got in over 10,000 steps before I got home. <BR> <BR> Right now I'm resting. Feet up. Painkillers close by (in case the pain doesn't stop). Time to catch up on some homework. <BR> Sat, 10 Sep 2016 18:17:14 EST Today's kick in the Butt I'm still on track with my stepbet. I have also joined two dietbets as well. One starts today, the other on Monday (I'll be weighing in on Saturday or Sunday) <BR> <BR> This morning I had to get up early to make my salad for lunch. I was so tired last night by the time I got all of my school work downloaded and organized. I haven't even had a chance to read my week1 school work. Luckily in most classes it involves simply getting familiar with due dates, etc. But one of my classes has a... Fri, 9 Sep 2016 08:07:02 EST Today's kick in the Butt Yesterday was alright. I needed the rest from running though. The pain I had on Tuesday night is long gone (thank heavens). <BR> <BR> Now time to move forward. <BR> <BR> I weighed in for a dietbet last night. I weighed at the end of my day, as I just don't have time to do a proper weigh in during the mornings. I knew the number on the scale would be up, but it's still a little frustrating to actually see it - 246.4. But that's my starting place. That's already part of my past. Time ... Thu, 8 Sep 2016 08:06:37 EST No Kick in the Butt today Last night I was in a lot of pain. As if I ate something I shouldn't have. I took one pain killer and went to bed. No luck. Took another. 3 hours later still not sleeping because of the pain. <BR> <BR> I was not going to be up most of the night in pain, get out of bed before sunrise and go running. So I reset my alarm to sleep in. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling better this morning, but I'm frustrated. I hope I can get all my steps in for the day for my stepbet. If not, I guess I'll be walk... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 09:10:30 EST Today's kick in the Butt Today is the first day of my practicum. I'm excited to get started. I packed lunch last night, and have tried to make this morning as easy as possible to get out the door on time. <BR> <BR> I've just taken my thrive, and I'll be heading out for this mornings run in less than 10 minutes. It looks like a cold morning out there, so I'll have to be sure to dress for it. <BR> <BR> Today's going to be a busy day. <BR> Run <BR> 1 hour drive to and from my practicum <BR> Back in town to wo... Tue, 6 Sep 2016 08:17:12 EST Upcoming Dance Classes My line dance group asked for it. So now I'm ready to go. I sure hope they're up for it. We're learning this line dance <BR> <BR> <link><BR>HzGWI8 </link> <BR> <BR> Check it out. I figure it'll be one heck of a workout. And this is only one lesson I'm teaching that day. I have 4 other classes after this one. <BR> Mon, 5 Sep 2016 21:38:19 EST Today's kick in the Butt Today is my last day before life gets incredibly busy. Tomorrow, on top of everything else I've got going on, I start classes as well as my practicum. I'm excited to get started on my last year of school before graduating with my BSW, but a little nervous also. There's so much to do and only so many hours in a day. <BR> <BR> Oh well. I'll have to start being VERY organized, and prioritizing. I NEED to make sure my fitness and health does not take a back burner more than once a week. ... Mon, 5 Sep 2016 08:22:07 EST Today's kick in the Butt What an interesting start to my day. <BR> I just entered 3 of my baking mixes in a contest for emerging specialty foods -Gluten Free Brownies, Gluten Free Sugar Free Brownies, and Gluten Free Sugar Free Angel Food Cake. I'm so excited. Here's hoping I am chosen later this month to attend the blind taste test as a finalist. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, despite that excitement, I'm needing to get my butt up and out the door. Yesterday was a travel day - hubby and I ate junk food on the road. Then... Sun, 4 Sep 2016 11:31:38 EST Today's kick in the Butt Yesterday was a crazy busy day for me, but it was very productive. <BR> <BR> I went for my morning run, but was not able to complete a training run. No worries. I still walked the distance. Then went to work for the morning. After that I went into the kitchen to make pizzas. I made 20 pizza crusts, and made 15 pizzas (sold 12, brought 3 home for hubby and I). No, we didn't eat 3 pizzas. We have enough for two days, including lunches at work for hubby. <BR> <BR> By the time the la... Fri, 2 Sep 2016 10:27:46 EST Today's kick in the Butt I'm up. I'm working on waking up, but I'm up and out of bed. <BR> <BR> Today I have a busy day. <BR> Work <BR> Making Pizzas - I have 16 gluten free (some dairy free) pizzas to make before supper today. <BR> Then when I finally get home, I still have 40lbs of apples to process. I made apple pie filling yesterday with the first 20lbs. Now I'm on to making apple sauce, and apple butter. <BR> I need to keep on top of all of this, as this weekend I'll be picking up tomatoes from the far... Thu, 1 Sep 2016 08:29:11 EST Today No need for a kick in the butt. I've already finished my run, and even got in enough steps for my stepbet. <BR> <BR> This morning I had to be in Regina early for a podiatry appointment. So it was a dry run at seeing what I can get done, how fast I can get it done, and what time I can get into Weyburn. <BR> <BR> Up at 6, run 3miles, shower, make smoothie and fill water bottles, dressed, out the door just before 8am, and in Weyburn just before 9am. <BR> <BR> So now I know I have to l... Wed, 31 Aug 2016 18:36:58 EST Today's kick in the Butt on my plate for today, in addition to meeting my daily goals (see blog My Goals for the Week): <BR> <BR> running - C25K Week 3 Day 3 <BR> Baking - I have an order for 3 dozen cinnamon buns being picked up tomorrow. <BR> Work - I am working for 3 hours later today. <BR> <BR> On top of all of that, I want to meet my stepbet goal. That shouldn't be a problem (running takes me to my active goal and the rest of my day often takes me over my stretch goal for the day. <BR> <BR> I jumped on th... Tue, 30 Aug 2016 09:12:12 EST Today's kick in the Butt I'm so frustrated. Yesterday I went for a run and my MP3 player shut off - low power. I had it on the charger for 4 days. So when I got home, I put in on the charger, and made sure to check to see if it was charging - it was. This morning same thing. Low power and it shuts off right away. I'm done with that one. Time to get a new one. Unfortunately there is not much for selection around here unless I want an iPod. I really don't <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Anyhow, I'll try to use my ph... Mon, 29 Aug 2016 10:16:53 EST Triathlon Training - Week2 (2nd try) My schedule this week is: <BR> <BR> Monday: Off <BR> Tuesday: Run 15min <BR> Wednesday: Bike 6 miles <BR> Thursday: Swim 300 yards, Walk 30min <BR> Friday: Off <BR> Saturday: Run 20min <BR> Sunday: Bike 8miles <BR> <BR> This is my last week before I'm back in school - full time studies, as well as working my practicum (almost 40 hours/week, plus a 1 hour drive each way 5 days/week). <BR> My plan is to can apples this week - I need to get some to cook into apple pie filling, apple sauce, a... Sun, 28 Aug 2016 14:12:24 EST Today's kick in the Butt Time for me to get back on track. This week is C25K Week3. I'll redo day 1, as it's been a few days (ok more than a few) since I ran. <BR> <BR> My daughter wants to run a marathon. In less than a year. I've got a lot of training to get done. So does she. We've decided we want to do the hypothermic half this coming February. So we'll see how that goes. That's still a lot of training though. <BR> <BR> My running partner Lulu has been sick for the past few days. I'm not doing well ... Sun, 28 Aug 2016 09:49:37 EST My Goals for this week, and review of last weeks goals - Week 3 My goals last week were: <BR> <BR> 1. Continue tracking all of my food, and continue drinking at least 8 glasses of water a day <BR> I tracked half of my week. The days I missed I know I didn't do enough water on at least 2 of them, possibly 3 <BR> 2. Continue with my fitness - finish at least week3 of my running training, and stay on track with triathlon training (biking at least). <BR> I didn't get week 3 done. I also missed two biking days <BR> 3. Track calories burned every day ... Sun, 28 Aug 2016 09:36:47 EST Today I've been offline for the past couple of days. Wednesday I was exhausted (right from the minute I woke up) and had to prepare 30+ pizzas for Thursdays Market. I was on my feet enough to get my steps in for my stepbet so that's a plus. But I did notice I did not drink enough water. I really need to be more aware of that. <BR> <BR> Thursday was market day. I live 2 1/2 hours away from the market. So my entire day was tied up. Loading the truck, driving to market, setting up (we were set ... Fri, 26 Aug 2016 15:39:40 EST