BLUEBLAZINGSTAR's SparkPeople Blog BLUEBLAZINGSTAR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Starting Now I'm Starting Over... It's been well over a year, and I was supposed to be down by about 40 lbs by now. Instead, I'm up 10. My biggest set backs: my computer crashed (no more spark people) and I was working long and somewhat odd hours. Sure it was great that my office had it's own gym, but what good does it do if you never have time to use it? I'm not making excuses. After dropping my kids off at school / daycare at the earliest possible hour I barely made it to work in time to clock in, and usually had to pay lat... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 09:56:37 EST Thanksgiving and Offering my own Thanks With Thanksgiving just around the bend, I'm paying a lot of attention to the things I should have gratitude for, and I feel that area is overly abundant! My husband and I don't make a lot of money, but we have jobs we really enjoy. Our kids are healthy and happy, and aren't having to do without anything. We have wonderful parents who help us when he need it, and give us space when we don't. We both got everything we wanted for our birthdays, and even a few surprises. Our bills are paid, ... Mon, 23 Nov 2009 12:31:23 EST Hello 25. . . It's November 16, 2009, which means at 11:57 tonight (unless I magically lose 50 pounds) I will not have met my goal for the year. I'm very disappointed in myself more than anything else. I mean, back in January I was so gung ho to do whatever it took to get the weight off. I bought a couple of videos, borrowed some from my mom, got a new stability ball and a few weights, bought some new cook books, and completely restocked my kitchen. I didn't eat a carb for 2 weeks. And by March I had ... Mon, 16 Nov 2009 09:11:19 EST A Whole New Goal I've really struggled at home with any kind of real progress. My weight fluctuates, as well as my enthusiasm. So, I've decided that when I get a car, I'm going to join a gym. I know that sounds like one of those crazy far fetched dreams, but this is a true reality because I'm getting a car very soon. It's a '93 Pontiac Grand Prix, but who cares? The thing runs. . . that's all that matters! And once I have a set of wheels, I can actually go places during the day. So, it looks like I'm a... Tue, 15 Sep 2009 11:02:31 EST Off the Wagon. . . ? So, I kinda fell off the wagon. I say kinda, because unlike all the times before, I really didn't change my eating habits. My usual trend is to get really into watching what I eat for about 2 weeks, and then binge like crazy when I get bored. This time I didn't pay attention to when or what I was eating necessarily, but when I think back about it, I really wasn't eating that badly. I wasn't sitting down to a plate of nachos or a big bowl of mashed potatoes and gravy at 10 o'clock at night... Wed, 19 Aug 2009 15:42:15 EST Food for Thought As I've thought more and more about why I eat and what I'm eating, I've found myself. . . not eating. I'm rarely truly hungry, and when I am, it doesn't take much to fill me up. I thought about how I ate as a teenager. Back then, it was 1 pop tart or a half a sausage biscuit for breakfast, if I ate breakfast at all, a salad or stuffed potato for lunch, a small snack occasionally when I came in from school, and maybe dinner if I enjoyed what my mother made. <BR> These days I often skip brea... Thu, 16 Jul 2009 10:12:55 EST Into the Swing of Things I'm starting to get the hang of logging onto this site. I've made it my homepage and get on it whether I'm ready to track something or not. Anytime I've left something up to my own devices, I tend to fail, so it's nice to have somewhere to go to keep me motivated. Now if I could just resist soda and random fried foods at work... Thu, 9 Jul 2009 11:45:11 EST Better Late than Never I spent my morning spring cleaning my kitchen while I worked on the laundry. Being productive always makes me feel better and want to do more. Today I worked on the cabinets, drawers, and the top of the microwave and fridge. Tomorrow I'm going to tackle the pantry and the living room. My computer desk seems like it's always a mess. I know my house isn't as bad as some of my neighbor's, but I still can't stand it. Maybe this is one of those baby steps... Wed, 8 Jul 2009 13:31:13 EST So Far No Good So far I haven't done much. I haven't been drinking water like I'm supposed to, I haven't been exercising... at all!, I'm still smoking, I've been drinking soda at work, and I ate fast food yesterday. It's time for me to put up a calander on my wall. Something I have to look at every day that's not on my computer. Tue, 7 Jul 2009 09:13:15 EST