BLONDEDOG's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BLONDEDOG BLONDEDOG's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Eating Rehab-Week 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862777 So, week 2 was fabulous! I hit my goals every single day last week. Even when I had girls night and it started at 6:00 pm. Pretty fantastic that I managed to make it through that without eating after 7 or having additional snacks. I am impressed with myself. I think the goals are really helping me. I didn't lose any weight this week, I stayed the same. I am really very satisfied with this. My lunch I fixed for last week was a little/lot higher on sodium than I need and it was pretty h... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 08:37:52 EST How nice... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862076 It was so lovely spending time with my girlfriends last night. We talked and talked and talked. They weren't terribly happy with me for forcing them to eat healthy....at first, but the food was tasty enough to persuade them. The buttered peach ravioli came out pretty well, but I think it needs something. I kept the recipe so I could play with it. It was something new and that's what I was aiming for. <BR> <BR> I exercised early in the day so I wouldn't risk skipping my workout if thing... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 09:21:59 EST No, the world is NOT coming to an end.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861427 Yes, I am blogging on a Saturday. Weird, right? <BR> <BR> Today is going to be a major challenge for me. My girlfriends are coming over for girls night in tonight. It has been forever since we have gotten together and has been a long time coming. I am so excited, but this does present some problems. <BR> <BR> First, exercising. I exercise in the evening while I'm watching tv with my husband. That won't be possible tonight and I have no clue how long the girls will be here. Typically,... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 08:17:17 EST Flabby-er? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860840 Oh!!! It is finally FRIDAY!!!! Thank you thank you thank you! I am hoping for some extra sleep tonight! I am ready for a great weekend. Although my husband and son are having a boys night out with a few other friends and their sons on Saturday and boy am I going to miss them! They will be leaving at 2 and will likely get home after I'm in bed. My kiddos first time to go to Monster Jam. I decided to host girls night at my house. Unfortunately two of my friends are fighting like childr... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 08:56:03 EST So, I only managed 10 minutes... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860102 Let me tell you something. I love the feeling of being in control of my health. I always forget how much I love that feeling. <BR> <BR> Last night I decided to keep snuggling with my husband instead of exercise. I flat out was enjoying the moment and didn't feel like interrupting it. Sometimes I think life is just too short not to enjoy these precious moments. BUT as I was sitting there I suddenly knew I needed something to eat. Fortunately for me I told my husband and he said "oka... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 08:40:15 EST Are you? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859325 I am not entirely sure what I am going to blog about today. I feel great. I feel the best I've felt since before Christmas. It is such a relief to feel like I'm back in the drivers seat. I am working very hard on my diet. That requires a lot of effort on my part. Healthy eating is not something that comes natural to me. If you've seen my rehab blogs you might know that I am currently putting myself through my own personal version of "eating rehab". "Hi, I'm Heather and I'm addicted to... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 08:26:05 EST Livin Right... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858585 This is a song by Sean Lamb that can be purchased on itunes. He's a local country singer who has been trying to make it in Nashville. It's a typical country music "party in the country" song. But I will tell you that some of the lyrics really resonate with me. "We're living right for the moment, if you wait too long it's gone". Isn't that the truth? My husband and I had a little set back yesterday and we were feeling pretty down about it. We talked and talked and talked about our optio... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 09:43:14 EST Eating Rehab, week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857714 What I learned: Goals are good, especially on the weekends. Setting an alert to go off on my phone at 7 to remind me not to eat was extremely helpful. I was successful every day that I set a goal for myself. One thing to note is that I fudged it a little on one day because supper was later than 7. I had to eat so I gave myself that one. I didn't eat any "extra" food, just my supper. So, off to my goals for this week. Same goals as last week plus one more. <BR> <BR> Monday: <BR> No s... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 08:50:38 EST How did my first day of eating rehab go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855605 Well.....truthfully for a minute I thought it was going to go poorly. I looked up at the clock and it was 5 till 7 and I actually thought to myself "I've got 5 minutes to eat whatever I want to eat, better get to it". What the heck? I got up from the floor (where I was reading to my son) and walked over to the kitchen to figure out what all I could eat in 5 minutes. What the heck?? Then I thought "Great, my plan has backfired on me". What the heck??? No it hadn't. I hadn't put any foo... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 08:27:26 EST Eating rehab, week 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854900 So, I came up with the idea of this blog and thought....I'll start on Monday like I start everything. Why wait? I might as well start now. So, here we go. <BR> <BR> What I need to work on: I am having trouble with snacking in the evening. I sit on the couch and munch. This I believe is one of my biggest problems because it seems to make me want more food AND stay stuck to the couch. <BR> <BR> My goals for week 1: <BR> <BR> Thursday-No food after 7:00 Goal Met!!!! <BR> <BR> Friday-... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 08:58:51 EST The affects of BGD Disease... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5854106 Have you heard of this disease? <BR> <BR> It is awful. It will suck the life right out of you. Go very long without treating it and the symptoms are staggering. <BR> <BR> -Muscle pain <BR> -Muscle weakness <BR> -Muscle tension <BR> -Consistent and persistent exhaustion <BR> -Weight gain <BR> -Becoming withdrawn <BR> -Bloated <BR> -Burning eyes <BR> -Depression <BR> -Anxiety <BR> -Tension <BR> -raging appetite for junk food <BR> -headaches <BR> <BR> On and on it goes. The list feels en... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 08:21:58 EST Lazy Days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853320 It's happened. Lazy has once again become my middle name. It is a bit alarming because so many lazy days have stacked up AND I told my husband yesterday that I had to do a 30 minute bike ride no matter what....and it didn't happen. That makes me more nervous than anything else. If I can just get right back into it I don't think it's a big deal. <BR> <BR> So, tonight I will ride my bike for 30 minutes. AND further more....I will not put it off for an "hour" while I watch a little tv with... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 08:43:50 EST OMG, OMG, OMG!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850114 I did it folks. <BR> <BR> I know you have no clue what I'm talking about, but I did it!!! <BR> <BR> I'm not quite ready to talk about it, but in the next few months I hope to have more to tell you. <BR> <BR> Deep breath....oh my... <BR> <BR> Sorry to tease you like that, but if you really want to know send me a message and I will address you personally, I'm just not ready for it to be public yet. <BR> <BR> So, onto other things now that we have that out of the way. <BR> <BR> I have noti... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 08:55:12 EST Phew! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849561 The training is done! <BR> <BR> Thank you thank you! <BR> <BR> It was a lot of fun, but I'm pretty sure my brain is ready to sleep rip van winkle style. <BR> <BR> I have to say that I am so very happy with my attitude and my come back this week. Normally if I stumbled for any longer than 3 days (let alone 2 weeks...sheesh), I would feel like I had to start all over at the beginning. I am so proud/happy/proud/happy/excited to say "not this time". I jumped right back in with both feet. ... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 14:10:08 EST Quickness... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849029 Because I just finished workout while watching Captain Jack Harkness (super yumminess....even my husband reluctantly agrees, lol). <BR> <BR> Still doing good....nerves stretched nearly to the breaking point through my training. The workout feels good to work off a little tension! <BR> <BR> Love to all. <BR> <BR> Talk to you soon! <BR> <BR> Keep up whatever good work you're already doing, and if you aren't....well then....what are you waiting for? Get your butt in gear! Wed, 7 Jan 2015 22:20:05 EST Kickin butt... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848074 and taking names. lol. <BR> <BR> I'm still here but very very busy this week. Will try to check in more tomorrow. Hope all is well for all my friends. <BR> <BR> All is well here. Diet is much better and exercise is back on track. Can't wait till weigh in on Monday! <BR> <BR> See ya soon! Tue, 6 Jan 2015 21:57:24 EST Beating myself up... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846391 I could. I could give myself a black eye and whine about this or that. You know what though? I'm not going to. I deserved my break. It was fun, it was comfortable, it was relaxing. It was everything I needed it to be. I don't mind the healthy living, but sometimes you just need a reset. This is sort of the ultimate test for me....can I take a 2 week break and jump right back in where I left off? Yes. I can. I couldn't do that before. I used to feel like if I gained more than 2 pou... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 08:18:47 EST Good Motivation... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837394 So. My brother in law is a country music singer. Not a famous one, but he's working on it. He has one album on itunes and is headed to Nashville after Christmas to begin recording his second one. Wayne Moss, the fellow producing his CD's has invited him to go to the Country Music Hall of Fame Induction Ceremony and he invited us to go with him! Talk about motivation. Now, he tends to exaggerate things a bit and make promises he can't keep so we don't believe it's actually going to happe... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 08:55:23 EST When you have a lifetime... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836725 you don't have to be in any sort of hurry. Although I must say that being as my reward to myself for getting to 189 is getting my hair done....I would really like to hit that number soon. I thought it was gonna happen this week, but no....Christmas dinner happened. I have to say that I did really well with the actual meal, it was the dessert that got me. And even that wasn't horrible. All in all, even though I got all the way down to 190.6 the past week and I ended up back at 192.8, I m... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 09:10:42 EST Drs visit... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835302 So I went for my annual check up yesterday. I am happy to report that my cholesterol AND sugar were excellent. That was a relief. Not that I was expecting anything different, I just see so many women who think they're doing well end up with elevated levels. The only real issue I had was that my potassium was pretty low. She said either I take a pill for it or she'll put me in the hospital with a drip, so yay....another pill. I'm hoping it will not upset my stomach and will improve my en... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 08:35:05 EST Absolutely disgusted... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834479 ...with myself. Truly. I made cookies for a pitch in today and frosted grapes. I had a cookie before bed last night, you know "to make sure they tasted good". Sigh. I brought my own healthy lunch with an ice pack in it so I wouldn't have to find a fridge at the meeting place. When I got to work I left it in my car knowing it was plenty cold enough. Then I decided to hitch a ride with a coworker to the meeting. The lunch still in my car, nice. Oh, and I nearly forgot to mention that I... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 14:39:34 EST But I don't want to...(and you can't make me) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833783 That can sometimes be my constant refrain. Last night I got into my workout clothes, but I am dying to work on the blanket I'm making (I have no idea why, I started it 12 years ago and plan on never being done with it, but once I get it out to work on for the winter I have a hard time putting it down). "I'll just do one row". Next thing you know I'm telling my husband that "I think tonight will be my one night off". I probably don't have to tell you that this is a darn slippery slope... <... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 08:57:25 EST There is a reason my tickers a turtle... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833286 Because my goodness am I SLOW. It's okay to be slow, I'm just sayin. Slow. I am down not quite a whole pound from last week. I am just so glad it's down. It could have been better, but I'm not terribly concerned. I am looking forward to getting down to 189, as when that happens I am going allow myself to schedule my haircut....and man oh man do I need a haircut! Probably what I should do is make a rule saying I can't wear my new boots until I get to 189. I bet I lose 4 pounds in a hur... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 09:17:18 EST When I put on lipstick... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831817 ...the world is in trouble. It's nearly equivalent to a woman taking off her earrings before a fight. Nearly. But not quite. I feel in a mood today. A low tolerance sort of mood. <BR> <BR> I started to write about who, what, when, why, where; then I realized none of that matters. It really truly doesn't. Yes, I feel a little cranky and one more complaint may just make me snap, however, in the long run this/she doesn't matter. It only matters how I conduct myself. I am very non con... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 08:49:36 EST Unknown... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831255 What to write about today is completely unknown. I feel like yesterday my brain was over flowing and today, nada. There's nothing in there but a tumble weed blowing from one side to the other. <BR> <BR> Well....I had a great workout last night. I did 20 minutes of cardio followed up by a "12 days of Christmas" workout that's mostly body weight and/or toning exercises. The first time I did it I got all the way up to the 8th day before I remembered that every time I moved up a day I was su... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 08:27:18 EST Thoughts and hunger... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830809 I have so many things whirling around in my head right now. I want to write this really great, funny blog. I just can't seem to make my brain stick to one subject. I have a pretty good idea of why. Because I'm hungry and that's all I can think about. In light of that this blog will be brief (very brief, not no one and not nothing stands between me and my food). So, happy thoughts and hopefully I'll blog better tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Hugs to all who need them, a good shove in the right dire... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 11:03:19 EST Oh.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830303 The emotions..... <BR> <BR> I just have no words. <BR> <BR> No, I do. I just watched a video of a marriage proposal and it reminded me so much of my husband's proposal to me. My eyes started leaking a little (or a lot). The two proposals were nothing alike. My husband was so excited about having the ring that he couldn't make himself wait. He got down on one knee in the bedroom, in front of the open closet (where the ring was hidden for all of 5 minutes) and asked me right then and the... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 12:28:44 EST Giving up... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830148 is no longer in my vocabulary. I know that now. After skipping 3 days of exercise, which has the potential to spell disaster for me, I was scared out of my mind that I would give in, give up. But you know what? I came right back here, I was honest, AND I got right back on my bike and went for it. I've learned that it doesn't matter how many days I let myself "forget", I can and must pick up right where I left off. I am so happy to say that I am stronger than I thought I was. <BR> <BR... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 08:25:55 EST Clearing away the cobwebs... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829558 The Sun'll come out tomorrow. It will. <BR> <BR> I was not a good girl for the past week or so. I didn't exercise daily, I didn't watch my diet, I ignored it all. For multiple days in a row. This is exactly what spelled disaster for me the last time. <BR> <BR> But tomorrow (today) is a different day/hour. I did exercise last night. I refuse to let this trip me up. I did manage to make up for my Thanksgiving gain just a little bit (although I still have about a half a pound to go)... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 09:25:05 EST Bad attitude... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827412 Alright. I'll admit it. I have a bad attitude (at least this week). Can I help it if people are jerks? Nope. I sure can't. Let's just say my temper is bubbling at the surface this week. <BR> <BR> And let me tell you something....it isn't them, they've always been just as rude, lazy, and inconsiderate. It's all me. This week I am weak. I'm not currently myself. I'm easy to anger, frustrate, sadden, cry, overeat, and laugh, and sing, and be silly. I'm up, I'm down. My Mom told me l... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 08:33:57 EST Excuse... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826840 So....some time ago I posted a blog, I don't remember for sure what it was about. I do know that I said something in that blog to the tune of "I don't log my weight when it goes up because I don't like my feed showing that I lost 2 pounds when it was really the 2 pounds I gained". I knew it was an excuse when I typed it. Really I did. Truthfully if there's something on my feed that I don't want there I know how to delete it. On Monday, when I gained a couple of pounds I knew what I had t... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 08:26:12 EST Gettin ready! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826262 For my sons 7th birthday party! His birthday is Thursday, his party is Saturday. I swear it is consuming my every waking thought. Between making decorations and cleaning my house it's all I have going on. I even let myself skip my cardio yesterday because I spent so much darn time cleaning I couldn't lift a finger, although my husband has been instructed to not allow me to skip my workout tonight....no matter what. The theme of this years party is "paper airplanes". Truthfully I don't u... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 08:38:27 EST November....oh November http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825633 Really a pretty darn good month overall. I did nearly 56 more miles than I did in October, I lost weight and inches, I exercised all but 3 days, but most importantly my confidence soared. <BR> <BR> Did I have some fall backs? Absolutely....one big on in particular, but I have to tell you....overall I am so proud of myself. <BR> <BR> Let me tell you about Thanksgiving last year. <BR> <BR> Last year I wasn't blogging regularly. I wasn't weighing regularly. I wasn't caring about my we... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 08:23:17 EST Tighten up...please take a guess http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823235 I could go a few different ways with this blog title. <BR> <BR> I wonder if I should just let you guess what I tightened up. That kind of sounds fun. Any guesses? <BR> <BR> I'm feeling good today and ready for my "holiday" to officially start! <BR> <BR> But I seriously think I'm gonna make you work for this blog so please leave me a guess as to what you think I tightened up. <BR> <BR> Have a wonderful day friends and I'll post a new blog tomorrow to complete this one! <BR> <BR> Wed, 26 Nov 2014 08:59:44 EST I'd like to introduce you to... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822673 the little things. <BR> <BR> They sneak up on you when you're least expecting them. <BR> <BR> They're funny little things. One day you can't see them, the next you can't avoid them. <BR> <BR> Today's little thing award goes to my hands. I looked down and BAM! I noticed that they don't look like sausages today. I swear they did yesterday. They almost look lady like again. What!?! And you know what's more? They don't look old either! They look like normal 37 year old girlie hands. ... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 08:18:41 EST Staying upbeat... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822123 I mostly have that under control these days, but I'm not gonna lie...I had a bit of a set back this weekend. I just got to feeling a little down about my weight. Frustrated with myself. Just for putting it back on in the first place. Dang it. I worked so hard to lose it the first time. Anyway, I had been doing so well and really felt like I should have lost 2 pounds this past week, but I just couldn't get under that 193 (it was 192.8 this by the way). I was getting down and frustrated ... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 08:57:52 EST Frustration... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5821521 When you don't lose weight as quickly as you would like or were losing it is so frustrating. I'm currently on a mini plateau and it seems like no matter what I do my weight doesn't change. I found myself really getting worked up about it. I took a deep breath and reminded myself of all my non scale victories. I'm due to measure this coming week and I am hopeful I will see a change there. Also, I'll think about jogging today to see if it jump starts me. Have a great Sunday sparkles! Sun, 23 Nov 2014 09:11:22 EST Embarrassed.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5821077 About my picture I posted. Seriously. I can't believe I posted it, but I did and I could cry just looking at it. I know from experience that that tummy isn't going anywhere....it will get smaller, but it will always look like that. <BR> <BR> I have decided that you should see the whole me and I am not going to be embarrassed about it any longer. It is what it is and all I can do is continue to take care of myself. <BR> <BR> It was hard to post that, but not as hard as it is to not b... Sat, 22 Nov 2014 11:05:04 EST Gobble gobble gobble... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820557 Fat turkey fat hen <BR> We're not here for living <BR> We're here for thanksgiving <BR> Gobble gobble gobble <BR> Fat turkey fat hen <BR> <BR> To the tune of "The more we get together" <BR> <BR> There are about a billion Christmas songs. I thought you'd like to have this little thanksgiving ditty in your head. haha. <BR> <BR> Any who....something has been on my mind lately and it is quite off subject.... <BR> <BR> I was looking through some of my pictures from my healthy days. I had wor... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 08:44:11 EST Why so serious? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820188 Why indeed? <BR> <BR> Reading some old blogs I found a lot of funny stuff. I told on myself....a lot. Hilarious stuff right there... <BR> <BR> I feel as though I need to find my funny bone again. Here's the thing...it's so different this time. The first time around I had a lot to learn about myself. Not just in how to eat healthy and exercise, but about a lot of bad habits I had built. <BR> <BR> Finding my funny bone won't be easy, but I do think it will be rewarding. I can still b... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 15:04:09 EST My plan for surviving turkey day.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819960 Let's be honest. For many of us that's what Thanksgiving is. Turkey day. I've heard people call it that for year now. Here is my plan for surviving the food temptations. <BR> <BR> 1. I will eat my normal, healthy breakfast. <BR> <BR> 2. I will take my water bottle with me AND I will drink the water in it. <BR> <BR> 3. I will make it about family and the food will be secondary. <BR> <BR> and most importantly (I used this technique back in the day when I lost my weight and it worked ... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 08:28:21 EST 3 minute update... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819371 Good morning! <BR> <BR> It feels great to have a little pep in my step in the mornings. If you remember, it wasn't all that long ago when I didn't have any pep in my step at all....all day long. <BR> <BR> I felt so happy this morning coming in to work. Nothing but positive energy rolling off my back. I attribute this to eating healthy, exercise, and finding my confidence again. <BR> <BR> Well, I'm down to one minute left because I'm in such a rush, but I will leave you with these word... Wed, 19 Nov 2014 08:30:35 EST Found a blog you should see... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818926 I absolutely Love this blog! Please stop by and like it if you get a chance. She has a wonderful idea on the what her new Sparkpeople "normal" is. <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818888 </link> Tue, 18 Nov 2014 12:26:04 EST Bringing tears to my eyes... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818776 Knowing that you are there rooting me on every step of the way. <BR> <BR> Knowing that I am finally on the right path. <BR> <BR> Looking in the mirror and seeing my progress instead of fat rolls. <BR> <BR> Feeling like a person in the morning instead of like a slug. <BR> <BR> Reading such positive comments from each and every one of you. <BR> <BR> There are so many things that bring tears to my eyes. But you should know that I had very nearly given up on myself when I finally found my w... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 08:09:13 EST Something to smile about... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818182 Weigh in was today. I am so happy to be back on track...it brings tears to my eyes. <BR> <BR> So...in 2009 when I started my first ever weight loss attempt I weighed in at 194 pounds. I went on to lose 65 pounds. Then I went on to gain it all back, plus some. <BR> <BR> Today I am so pleased to report that I weighed in at 193.8. It is a small victory, but a victory none the less. I cannot even remotely begin to explain how or why this means so much to me. <BR> <BR> I have had two rel... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 08:38:15 EST Shoutout to HOPEFULHIPPO http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5817678 As I sit here sipping my spicy ginger tea I can't help but think about her. She kindly and helpfully recommended it to me. I must say it is quite different, but yummy, and it has gotten things....shall we say...moving. How wonderful. The congestion is awful....but it's 10 times worse when it won't get out. Thank you thank you thank you. <BR> <BR> On a side note we went to see a Roller Derby bout for the first time last night. What fun! I wish I could skate (and not be so old). We wer... Sun, 16 Nov 2014 10:11:52 EST Oh Saturday... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5817249 Sleeping in, bubble baths, snuggling with my kiddo....all make for a lazy Saturday morning. I caught myself snacking a bit so I'm busy shaking it off for the rest of the day. <BR> <BR> I can do this, I know I can. I just have to be present every minute of the day. <BR> <BR> I know I can I know I can I know I can... Sat, 15 Nov 2014 12:21:26 EST I DO NOT feel beautiful today... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816607 Oh my. I slept somewhere around 8 hoursish yesterday, then slept through the night with only occasional tossing and turning. This sinus garbage has got to go. It literally makes me feel like trash. I am very sure many of you know this feeling. I happens this time of year every year. <BR> <BR> I'm sad to say that yesterday I let it get me down. I stayed home from work (always a big mistake), at pretty much everything in the house, and if that's not bad enough....I failed to workout. I ... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 08:26:55 EST Be Beautiful Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815408 Good morning Spark world! <BR> <BR> It is brrrr.....COLD outside today! <BR> <BR> Today my sinuses are in high gear once again. My face feels a bit bloated because of it. My eyes are burning and red. The congestion makes me feel like my eyes are gonna pop right out of my head. When they feel like that it becomes and automatic feeling of being tired, no matter how well rested I am. I can feel the junk sloshing around in there. Further more Aunt Flo is currently here for a visit so I'm n... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 09:15:56 EST If my feelings were my waist size... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814946 I would be full and bloated. I have so many "feels" right now. I'm not a hundred percent sure right now....shoot...I'm not even completely sure I could tell you what they are. I feel a little bit of a lotta bit. <BR> <BR> I wouldn't say it's good, I wouldn't say itss bad. It really just is. <BR> <BR> Today is a day I feel like getting under my heated blanket and hibernating until winter is over. Or getting in the bathtub and soaking so long my skin gets pruny and I start overheating. ... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 13:31:39 EST