BLONDEDOG's SparkPeople Blog BLONDEDOG's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Always amazes me... A popular blog award....I didn't see that coming. I couldn't for the life of me figure out what blog I wrote that would have earned that title. Thank you!!! <BR> <BR> That blog was so simple and reminds me of what the most important things about blogging are... <BR> <BR> Honesty, reality, heart. Those are the best blogs I read and the best blogs I write. Thank you for keeping it real and keeping me on my toes. <BR> <BR> I do not have much time this morning, but I will... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 08:19:34 EST If it sounds like I'm starting over all the time... Well....I suppose I am. Every day is a new day. Today won't be just like yesterday. Every day you have choices to make, some major and some minor. But minor or not they can still affect the outcome of your day. <BR> <BR> Today I am starting over. Today is a fresh new day. Now is a fresh new now. I say that because this mornings drive to work was particularly stressful so I've decided to start my day over at this very moment. <BR> <BR> Here I go to start my day with my smile on my ... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 08:29:00 EST Unknown... There are a lot of unknowns in life, I know. What I am referring to specifically at this exact moment is "what on earth am I going to write about today?". Truly, it is unknown. Guess I'll figure it out as I go. <BR> <BR> So some of you may know I've been struggling a bit lately. It is for no other reason than laziness. Once I get out of my habits....boy is it tough to get back into them. After nearly 2 weeks of letting my good habits slip I was able to jump back into things. Here's th... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 08:23:10 EST Up and going... I'm not perfect. I never claimed to be. I never will be. <BR> <BR> But what I am is determined. I may mess up. I may get knocked down.....or knock myself down, BUT I will get up. I'll get up today, not tomorrow because today is MY day! Every single day I will get a little bit better and a little bit stronger. Even if I screw up for two weeks. As long as I get going again that two weeks doesn't matter a bit. This would have seriously derailed me in the past, but with my new outlook... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 08:42:21 EST Back to my regularly scheduled programming.... Meaning that I am back on my normal work schedule. Thank you thank you! If I have learned anything at all it is that I do very well when I stick to my routine, but throw it off and I'm all out of balance. <BR> <BR> What lead to my self destruction the past couple of weeks? Well....a few things. It started with a 4 day weekend. I did some hiking and some walking, but I didn't do any real cardio. I struggled after that weekend to get back into it. Sporadic cardio at best and zero stre... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 08:24:23 EST I need to shake it off... I really do. I'm struggling pretty good at the moment. It's frustrating because I know I can do better. I just can't for the life of me force myself to suck it up. Tonight my goal is to do 12 minutes on my bike. That's it. 12, good minutes. Sound lame, I know, but it is what it is and right now I can't get past doing 0 minutes so 12 minutes might not seem like a lot, but for me it's a lifeline. I promise myself that I will do 12 minutes on my bike. Period. No excuses. Thu, 9 Apr 2015 11:35:51 EST Too many days... without my cardio. Seriously. And now I'm struggling to get back into it. Last night I chose not to do it again. Tonight I am determined to do at least 10 minutes if nothing else. Wish me luck. Tue, 7 Apr 2015 08:29:36 EST Hola....long time, no blog... Hello fellow Sparkies. I apologize for my absence. My husband, son, my Mom, and I went away for a couple of days at the end of last week. We went to a State Park and stayed at the lodge there. It was absolutely wonderful. I cannot tell you how amazing it was. The company was great, the surroundings were comfortable...there was plenty to do, or nothing to do if you wanted it that way. I did some hiking, but I didn't track a thing. <BR> <BR> I am back but may not get to blog much this... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 12:57:52 EST What changed this time... In response to yesterdays blog about surviving a major craving for the first time in months a friend asked me what changed? Why was I able to get past that craving. Well.....hmmm.....I guess I hadn't really thought about it. I will tell you as best as I can. <BR> <BR> 1. Tracking....and I don't mean logging my food every day because I don't do that, but tracking my cravings. I've been doing that a month or so now and it has helped me so much with awareness. <BR> <BR> 2. Knowing that i... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 08:40:58 EST isn't terribly exciting, but it's news... I made it through one entire crave day. Seriously people....this is a big big deal for me. It has been MONTHS sense I have survived a for real, genuine TOM craving. It doesn't seem like much, but it will make a WORLD of difference. In the past I could go weeks without losing weight, but if I could make it through my TOM cravings I would lose 5 pounds in one week and be able to keep it off until the next time. This just reminds me that I DO have power. I've known that all along of course... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 08:13:32 EST Excellent workout... So over the weekend I read something on FB posted by a friend of mind regarding HIIT. Most of us have probably heard of it at this point, but for those who haven't it stands for "High Intensity Interval Training". I had never heard of this years ago when I started doing it naturally on my felt right, it felt good. I do 2 mins normal speed and 1 minute as fast as I can push myself (in theory). Well....since I not only fell of the wagon, but burned it too I have struggled to get b... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 09:43:38 EST Nothing of import to say, but I'll give it a shot... Hmmm....Nope. Still nothing important to say. <BR> <BR> I hate to be a negative nelly, BUT I have noticed a disturbing and annoying trend. My FB feed is swamped with Beach Body Coaches who are working very hard at selling a product to folks. These are people we know and they are trying to earn a buck from us. This in and of itself isn't a big deal. What is bothering me is this trend that cardio is bad. Now listen....I know cardio isn't the end all beat all, however, it definitely has... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 08:24:43 EST The effects of healthy sleep habits... So, I have a tendency to go to bed later than I would like. AND when I do go to bed my husband and I lay there talking till forever. Some of our best conversations happen then. But every now and then I get so tired I just HAVE to go to bed early. And do you know what happens? Nearly every time? I lose weight the next day. Mostly no matter what I had to eat or if I exercised the day before. Yes, I am a daily works for me and I have learned the patterns of my weight pretty ... Thu, 26 Mar 2015 09:02:36 EST Ready for some sunshine.... Today is supposed to be so much warmer than yesterday, unfortunately I think it's also supposed to rain. I do believe there may be a speck of sunshine out there if I can time being outside perfectly. <BR> <BR> Not much going on here at the moment. I have a cold and I slept terribly last night. I had congestion and coughing, then once I did get to sleep I had a bad, reoccurring dream. Ugh. I really wish that dream would suck it. I don't remember any details about it, luckily, but when... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 10:19:16 EST Is it time for bed yet? No. I suppose it isn't considering I just got up a couple of hours ago. Boo. I have a cold and ugh.....I can't get enough water or sleep. I managed to do my cardio last night, which was a small miracle. I did not want to, but I made myself and I am so glad I did....I felt better afterwards, even if that feeling didn't last long. <BR> <BR> So, yesterday got marked down as a "C" day in my calendar. I had a nasty frantic craving last night after my workout. Fortunately I verbalized it ... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 08:37:07 EST Monday morning review... So, last week I decided to start tracking my binge days. One thing I have decided? I need to define "binge". I decided it could mean a few different things: <BR> <BR> 1. Eating outside my scheduled meals and snacks. <BR> 2. Eating more than one serving of something in an out of control manner. <BR> 3. Overeating significantly at schedule meals or snacks. <BR> <BR> For me these can be pretty fluid. One thing must be consistent and that is honesty. I cannot be ashamed or embarrassed t... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 08:20:15 EST This business about tracking my binge days... Oh it's gonna be fun folks! Yes indeed! Yesterday was a binge day. I didn't log it as I ate it....decided not to because I was not being rational (otherwise I wouldn't have ate 3 rice crispy treats in a row). But I did get in here and log it this morning. It was definitely NOT the worst of my days, but I am living in Truth City now and if I'm honest with myself I was out of control which equals binge.....even if it wasn't the worst binge I've had....a binge is still a binge, yes? <BR> ... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 08:53:03 EST Here we go now... Hello....good morning, good afternoon, good evening, and good night...since I don't know where you are I'll cover all the bases. <BR> <BR> Today is going to be a good day. I can tell! Whoop! My supper isn't going to be super healthy and it will be difficult to track but I'll use a much smaller plate and I will fill most of my plate with steamed broccoli. Yay. A lot of folks on here would balk at what my meal is going to be Beans and weenies and mac and cheese with extra cheese, but yo... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 09:34:52 EST Walking, eating, planning, and don't read if this if you are in a binge threat... Went to Indy yesterday for St. Patricks day. Lots and lots of walking as well as lots of eating. I had a yummy mushroom/spinach soup and a pretzel reuben and I don't regret it one bit. Full disclosure I also had a frozen beverage and crab balls with french fries. I'm putting that out here because I didn't log any of it. I had no clue how to log it so I decided not to. I immediately noticed the difference as I ate like 4 oreos and 2 rice crispy treats when I got home. Yikes. So, in my ... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 10:31:46 EST Phew.....I burnt a hole in my shoes.... Traipsing around the art museum, followed by downtown Indy in high heels, and 5 glorious hours of tootsies are smokin! It was a blast. Believe me when I say that is impressive considering that I was the lone wolf among my friends who wasn't drinking. When you have 300 of your closest friends hanging out and they are very used to you being rowdy with them.....well....let's just say they don't let you be a wall flower. Fortunately the music was loud and my friends were rowdy en... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 08:28:08 EST Eeeek..... Big date day/evening with my husband. So excited! And proud of myself for working out this morning. Eating out at a very bad restaurant tonight....I'm going to enjoy and not fret over my diet. But I will dance my butt off tonight. Also, I can't drink right now because of some medication I'm on so I'll save calories there! Hugs to all! Have a wonderful weekend. Sat, 14 Mar 2015 10:36:18 EST Lessons... 1. If the school calls to tell you your child is sick and he had a low temperature you should probably ask if he just finished gym class. if so, perhaps they could wait 15 minutes then take his temperature again....just to be sure. Also....could he possibly be hungry since it's just before lunch time? <BR> <BR> 2. I can control myself when the day gets thrown out of whack. Technically I already knew this, but I've been so bad lately that I had sort of forgotten and my confidence has bee... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 09:12:27 EST Marvelous.... Hola Sparkies. How are you this lovely (almost) spring day? I am wonderful as it is Thursday and therefore nearly Friday! I have plenty to write about today, no shortage of words here. Here goes. <BR> <BR> 1. Diet. Well this has been a drastic improvement the past couple of days. Now, just to be clear the timing of my effort to fix my diet issues is situated perfectly. This is a time of the month that I don't typically have cravings so it is so much easier to work on my diet. <BR> ... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 10:22:58 EST Keeping it real... That's an issue for me sometimes, keeping it real. I find I often get so carried away in being the "rah rah" cheerleader that I forget to really dig down deep into the heart of my matters, my issues. Recently I confronted an issue head on. That issue being eating. My eating habits are horrible, the really really are. I had fooled myself into believing I was doing well for a while now. But I've finally had enough. I put my foot down and I told myself I had to take control and I had to d... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 08:56:54 EST Ahem... Okay. So.....I'm not super duper excited about posting this blog. Yesterday was the first day in.....well.....a very long time that I tracked everything I ate. It really wasn't pretty. At all. Let's just say that over 50% of my calories came from snacking. I knew I was going to be logging my food yesterday so I had the best of intentions. Then....well.....I didn't. And last night I thought "you know it's just too difficult to log all this random food so I'm just not going to, no biggy... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 09:01:25 EST Potato chips, cookies, and chocolate OH MY! So I may have fallen a bit off the wagon.....a lot a bit. joke. My eating is absolute crap. It really is. I've known it for a while and I keep saying it, but I think I've been in denial about how crappy it really is. And while I'm at it....I randomly skip exercise too. Oh, and lets not forget about the low water intake. Ugh. What does this mean for me? It means I went from having lost 21 pounds to 18. It means that my face feels bloated. It means that I'm tired all ... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 08:35:47 EST What to say? Honestly, I haven't a clue. <BR> <BR> my eating hasn't been very good this week....terrible actually. And what I just noticed when I logged in this morning I weigh more today than I did on November 1st last year....sigh. Obviously I haven't been working hard enough at this. I did exercise last night and I didn't eat after 7, however, what I ate before 7 wasn't exactly great. <BR> <BR> Anyway, no whining or complaining. I'm well past that point. As I've said before the nu... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 08:26:32 EST Good morning minions... That's right. I called you minions. What are you gonna do about it? Kick my butt? Go right ahead. I need it and I figured what better way to get you to "kick my butt" than to call you a name. Buwahaha!!!! <BR> <BR> Food! Food! I love it! In just about any form there is. I like healthy food as much as I like unhealthy food. I love it in large quantities and I like it in small quantities. I like quality food and junk food. I love crunchy food, soft food, slippery ... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 09:01:43 EST Sleepy, naughty me.... That's right. I'm sleepy. Always so sleepy. And why? Most likely it is directly related to the "naughty" portion of my title. I'm not eating right, nor am I exercising right. It is dreadful. I am really going to have to try hard to get out of this. I make goals, then I break them. <BR> <BR> Again, I'm not worried about it, however, I really would like to lose weight so I need to find a way to buckle down. I will never lose any poundage if I keep up what I'm doing right now. Today... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 08:57:26 EST Hola Sparkies.... Good morning. Today was a 2 hour delay day and typically my son would go with my husband to work and then John would take him to school when it was time. This time I decided to be a little bit selfish and stay home with him myself. It was wonderful. He watched a little tv while I got cleaned up. We ate breakfast together and snuggled and played a video game. I love my little man. <BR> <BR> So.....exercise. Oh my. I am definitely not doing it as much as I should/could/want to. I norm... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 10:31:57 EST Well... I am doing pretty well. My food habits need some work, but otherwise feeling pretty good. I wasn't able to make it to the grocery yesterday so I don't have the best lunch today, but I will be sure to get to the store for some nice healthy food tonight. <BR> <BR> School was cancelled today so my Dad came to stay with my son. I have to say, when he begged me not to leave That was difficult. I've been leaving practically ever day since he was 6 weeks old.....he's 7 now and it... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 08:43:26 EST Give me my fish... Sometimes we think that's what we want. Just give me what I need so I don't have to struggle to get it. What happens though....when you have it, but you never learned how to keep it...or get it back? What happens then? You crumble. You starve. <BR> <BR> So, basically, what I'm saying is, I'm not losing weight. I'm learning how to fish. <BR> <BR> Keep on learning. Fri, 27 Feb 2015 11:57:44 EST Happy with where I am... What to right about? <BR> <BR> Hmmmm..... <BR> <BR> I don't know. My brain seems a bit "stuck" this morning. <BR> <BR> Well....I can say I definitely feel like I'm back in the saddle after my illness. I had a fantastic workout last night (even if I was playing Trivia Crack). It feels so good to be back. I still need to work on my diet, but I'm not terribly concerned about it. Overall I feel like I'm right where I want to be. <BR> <BR> I must say it feels amazing to be released from t... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 09:02:19 EST Check it... So, yesterday I had a lunch time meeting. There was a little pre meeting chatting going on about foods folks brought to eat. One particular person.....someone who has been trying to lose weight was eating powdered soup. It's all part of her diet plan assigned to her by some professional she is seeing. It's working well for her because it's taking the guess work out of it for her. I expressed some concern about what happens when you go back to normal food and I guess they "wean" you into ... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 08:43:05 EST Hit the road jack... Hello Spark world! <BR> <BR> Today is a brand new, beautiful day! Well....okay, it's still colder than a monkeys uncle out there, but hey! I'll take it. You know why? Because I feel like a human again. I'm exercising, I'm eating better....shoot....I can taste my food again! Woot! And I can almost/sometimes/occasionally smell again as well. Whoa....what's up with that (imagine my best Seinfeld voice)? <BR> <BR> Oh, and the sleep.....oh the wonderful sleep. It feels so good to slee... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 08:25:44 EST Thank you thank you thank you! I am so thankful to be feeling better. Of course the past 3 days I've started off feeling "better" and just gotten worse throughout the day, but today really feels different. I feel like I have my positive attitude back even if I get worn down during the day. <BR> <BR> It's so nice to just feel normal for a change. I went down a pound since last week which is sort of a miracle because I didn't eat well and I didn't exercise well either. I did drink a lot of water and truthfully there w... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 08:28:36 EST Bah Humbugger.... And don't tell me I can't be hateful. I can, and I will. Let me tell you just how hateful.... <BR> <BR> When I was driving home yesterday and there's the smallest amount of snow on the road and certain people found it necessary to drive 5 miles an hour I began composing a new the tune of "The Brady Bunch". <BR> <BR> Here's the story <BR> Of some $hitty drivers <BR> Who forgot how to drive in the snow <BR> They are idiots who shouldn't have a license <BR> Who was dumb enough to ... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 08:54:23 EST Hanging in, hanging out, and hanging on. <BR> <BR> I am getting by. My stupid bike started acting up last night so that's a little disconcerting. I absolutely would not know what to do without it. Like seriously. I get a little panicky just thinking about it, lol. Hoping it's just the batteries making it wonky. My hubby offered to pick some up for me today....keep your finger crossed. <BR> <BR> Pretty tired right now....I absolutely cannot get enough sleep right now. My kiddos school was cancell... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 09:40:03 EST Still not my best, but... better. Good, better, best....better than the rest. Yesterday was better than the day before and that is good for something. My head still feels like dung, but the body aches and pains are gone and the fever is gone. I'll take it. My eating was better yesterday as well....a lot better really. My lunch was pretty crappy because I didn't feel up to cooking Sunday night. I have all the ingredients for a fabulous lunch, but ugh. I think I'm not going to put much effort into my lunch for t... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 09:13:14 EST Not my best... I am not feeling well. And I do not make a good sick person. I'm whiney and complainy and....well, you get the point. I am not nice when I'm feeling ill. I'm not going to complain about it right this minutes. And I'm not going to use it as an excuse for my lack of exercise. Especially Sunday because I wasn't feeling ill yet, I could have done my workout. I just let myself skip it. AND furthermore I know that my cardio usually helps my sinuses more than just about anything else. Today... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 08:27:56 EST ... That's all I got this morning. <BR> <BR> And a great big sad face. <BR> <BR> I am being a great big, giant, flat faced dummy right now. <BR> <BR> I just can't even. <BR> <BR> I have no reasons, no excuses. Pure and simply? Lazytown. This has been my destination. <BR> <BR> I have requested that my husband does not allow me to "forget" exercising tonight. Of course I never actually "forget", that's just what I tell myself. Not this time. No way. I will ride my bike for no less than ... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 08:34:25 EST Oh my.... I just love the first day of my TOM. Yes, it sucks. Whatever. <BR> <BR> Anyway, other than that, not much going on. I'm pretty busy at the moment and haven't been feeling super motivated. My eating habits are currently atrocious. I am working hard to rectify that. No I'm not. But I'm going to. I am. Right? Right? Seriously? I have to. I know that. I swear I just don't have the energy for it. What? No. Bad excuse. Urgh. I have enough bad excuse to line a football field a hu... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 14:44:08 EST Like new... It feels so good to get my hair done. I swear I feel like a shiny new me. Ahhh.... <BR> <BR> Anywho....nothing much going on at the moment. No big insights or anything like that. Just livin my life. <BR> <BR> I haven't got a lot of time this morning, but I really wanted to wish each and every one of you the best hump day yet! Make today the best day yet!!! Wed, 11 Feb 2015 08:22:14 EST Killin it... So, last night I once again did an extra 15 minutes on the bike as I am currently trying to make up miles from skipping a couple of days. The last time I did 45 minutes I was pretty slow....definitely not my usual pace and I swear it took FOREVER. So, last night I decided I wasn't "phoning" it in. I was going to go all out, the entire time AND I was going to do a plank every 6 minutes! Woo Hoo! Let me tell you....I was a soggy girl. I did nearly an entire mile more than I did the other ... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 08:40:11 EST Better attitude and back to basics... I feel a little better today. For those of you who don't know I am a Health Coach at work. I went from working 10 + years in billing to Health Coaching so it was quite a jump. I absolutely LOVE what I do. Unfortunately I work off of a grant. The State decided to increase the portion that my work had to match by more than double and my work told them to forget about it. Soo.....what does this mean for me? It means my job is in jeopardy. I was feeling pretty crappy about it last week. ... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 08:30:48 EST Feeling sorry for myself... It's true. I am. It is getting me nowhere fast, obviously. I have skipped exercise the past 2 nights. My eating has been absolute crap. I haven't been following my eating rehab rules worth a darn. I feel just plain miserable. Between the sinus stuff, the cycle stuff, and work issues I feel like I could shatter into a million pieces. Fortunately my blood pressure seems to be staying stable....that's a good thing considering the additional stress I'm under right now. I got some cruddy ... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 08:06:59 EST Breath.... a;sdflkjasoedijfoweij;alskdjfa;ksdfaljsfl;<BR>k oakjeflkajsdfoiwjerrfikjdsfoajsdf;lasdjfa;<BR>sljoifjoweij;fasd;lja sdflkajsf;alskdjdfoiejf askjdf;lakjsfoi fja;jdsfoweijfj a;sdlfkasj dfjaosijfaio;sjf098asufjkajsdf aj lkja;sdflkj!!!!! <BR> <BR> Okay, my temper tantrum rant is over. Nothing to see here. Thu, 5 Feb 2015 11:50:30 EST Bugger... I feel like poo. I'm tired. I'm crabby. I'm tired. I'm lazy. I'm grumpy. I know what it is, but it seems super nasty this time around. I don't know why, but it's not a pleasant feeling and I'm sure I'm just an absolute "joy" to be around at the moment. <BR> <BR> I swear I'm sabotaging myself. I didn't workout yesterday and I broke every single rule I have. You know, they aren't very complicated rules and yet.... <BR> <BR> Well, whatever. I know it will pass. I just have to try my... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 08:43:23 EST Hi.... That's the best I can manage at the moment. So very very tired. I got plenty of sleep last night so I'm not completely sure what's going on. I just know that I feel like my head weighs 100 pounds. I think my body is gearing up for my cycle and this is going to be a rough one. Add the sinuses to that and it's basically a miracle I got out of bed this morning. haha. <BR> <BR> Seriously tho... <BR> <BR> I was feeling crusty last night as well, but I went ahead and gave it my all when I di... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 08:40:52 EST Cold... I am so tired of being cold. You know what I do at home when I'm cold? <BR> <BR> 1. Snuggle. <BR> 2. Stand right in front of the fire. <BR> 3. Take a hot bath. <BR> and last, but not least.... <BR> 4. Ride my bike. <BR> <BR> That number four is a doozy! And my sessions are getting better and better. I love it. There is just something about sweating during a workout like that.....makes me feel like a beast. <BR> <BR> I'm really enjoying my workouts these days, even when I'm no... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 08:25:10 EST