BLH507's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BLH507 BLH507's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Turkey Favors http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5817907 Spent the day crafting with my SIL, nieces and grandson. Logan and I made these little turkeys for Thanksgiving day. 30 of them! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1013153460.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1600799641.jpg"> Sun, 16 Nov 2014 19:45:49 EST BLC26 expectations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784521 Wow, didn't realize I haven't blogged for so long!! There's a Christmas tree on my last one! <BR> <BR> I have pretty high expectations for this round of BLC. I sat out a couple of rounds. First because I was in so much pain with my hip and could barely walk, much less do all the exercise needed for BLC. Then because my mother and my MIL were very ill and both passed away within 10 days of each other. The hip is better and I'm ready to go! I did a lot of emotional eating. The moms illn... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 06:45:48 EST 2013 Marillac Christmas Tree http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5537234 Every year, my sisters and I decorate and donate a tree for the Marillac Center for Children. The trees are sold in a silent auction. This year our theme is "A Forest Celebration". We made many of the ornaments including twine balls, pine cone gnomes and slices of wood stamped with sayings and snowflakes. It turned out very pretty this year. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l205538394.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l5436661... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 10:36:33 EST Cutest thing ever! Last tree house blog I promise but you've gotta see this! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467211 So, as you know from my last blog, my husband and son built a tree house for my grandson and he loves it. Well...his puppy loves it too! Jessie is a 3 month old beagle/rottweiler mix although I really think she might be a treeing coon hound! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1521599516.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1354432164.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/3/l83379296.jpg"> <BR> <BR> She ... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 21:00:33 EST Logan's tree house http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5466094 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l304025430.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My wonderful husband and son built this tree house for my grandson's birthday. Not quite done, it still needs to be painted and rails around the deck. We blindfolded Logan and surprised him this evening. He loves it and says he is going to live there now! <BR> <BR> Sun, 25 Aug 2013 20:43:31 EST Smart goals for BLC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385062 S- Stay within my calorie range weekly by planning ahead and making up for a higher calorie day by eating lower range on other days. I will get at least 20 minutes of cardio fitness in 6 days a week. <BR> <BR> M- I will measure my calories and fitness by using the Sparkpeople trackers and keeping them public so I recieve feedback from other members. <BR> <BR> A- I have all the resources I need here on Sparkpeople to attain this goal. <BR> <BR> R- I am choosing to count calories as my goa... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 21:17:21 EST Weight Loss Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5284972 I read an article today on Peertrainer.com titled Weigh Loss Motivation 101. <BR> <BR> <link>www.peertrainer.com/coaching/weight_<BR>loss_motivation_101.aspx?page=1 </link> <BR> <BR> I definitely need this right now. Part of our challenge this week is to remind ourselves often of why we are doing this. This article helps to guide you to that why. Not just "I want to lose 40 more pounds", but "Why do I want to lose 40 more pounds". <BR> <BR> There are 2 categories to consider: <B... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 09:06:39 EST Roaring River Pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281595 We spent the last few days at Roaring River State Park in southern Missouri. The river is not really "roaring", but it is beautiful and we always enjoy our time there. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1526961564.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We had a good time fishing and playing around. <BR> My grandson Logan with a couple of his trout. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1224089898.jpg"> <BR> Logan and his Mommy, my daughter Kate <BR> <img src="http://phot... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 19:46:59 EST Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5248398 Wow, this is a bad week to write a blog about progress. I feel like I have taken 5 giant steps backward this week. I managed to get some fitness in thanks to the BLC challenge but it was the bare minimum and no fun. I have been sick this week and really let that run away with me. I'm still not 100% but I think I am over the emotional eating part of it. <BR> <BR> Before this terrible, awful week I had been making some really great progress! I had lost 10 lbs since the first of the year... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 22:47:09 EST January Reflection/February Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233176 January has been a successful month for me. I started Bob Harper's Skinny Rules this month and have lost several pounds. I am still very focused but sliding occasionally. I am consistently exercising every day with an occasional rest day. My husband and I are working together planning and cooking meals. It's so much easier with his help and support. We both love trying out new recipes and flavors. He is even on board with one meatless day per week. <BR> <BR> February will be a bit... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 12:11:33 EST Dear Jane, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222931 <BR> Please know that you are beautiful and perfect just the way you are. There are many different body types and yours is different than your sisters' or your best friend's. <BR> <BR> Vegetables are your friends, learn to eat them. Believe it or not you will love Brussels Sprouts! <BR> <BR> Your future daughter needs you to learn to eat healthy so that you can teach her while she is young. She will need the knowledge as an adult. <BR> <BR> Never stop swimming! <BR> <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 11:24:16 EST Am I REALLY Ready? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179721 I am reading Are You Ready by Bob Harper. The first chapter asks "Are you REALLY ready?" These are 10 questions to ask myself and help myself to be as ready for success as possible. This is new for me. I am fully aware of the nutritional value of protein and know how many step ups I can do in 3 minutes. But, I have never delved into the emotional world of why I am fat. I need this success. This is the last piece of the puzzle and it's time to dig in. <BR> <BR> 1. Is there any event th... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 10:51:55 EST Back from England with pictures! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5125135 I just returned from visiting my granddaughter in Burton on Trent, UK. She is five and we haven't seen her since she turned 1. This was a special trip because it was the first time my family has all been together in one spot since my two grandchildren were born. Here we are! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1572576154.jpg"> <BR> We stayed in a lovely cottage I found just 5 minutes from their house. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1993513862.j... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 16:27:18 EST 12 week plan update (week 6) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5108189 I created a good plan. It was simple and should have been and easy fix to my wandering. I didn't stick with it. The 2 things that will keep me losing weight are tracking my food and moving my body. I have been moving but not as consistently as I should. It seems to be all or nothing right now. I haven't been tracking my food at all. I have been eating mostly healthy but I'm sure too much. <BR> <BR> According to my plan I should be tracking my food and exercising 30 minutes 5 days a w... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 09:52:48 EST Goals and Rewards http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5066549 After my wellness group session this week I have decided to try something new. I have never rewarded myself for losing or sticking to plan. So I came up with this plan: <BR> <BR> 170: new app or book for the the Fire <BR> 165: wonderful smelly bath stuff <BR> 160: new app or book for the the Fire <BR> 155: new WATP video <BR> 150: new app or book for the the Fire <BR> 145: Kindle magazine subscription? (this one may change) <BR> GOAL 140: Scrapbooking weekend <BR> 140 for 1 month: Swim ... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 14:58:39 EST BLC 20 Before pic & blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5061681 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l943339295.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Not the greatest pic, I chopped my head off because it was late in the evening and I looked really awful. I left the neck part in because I would like for that to change! <BR> <BR> My 12 week plan is all about consistency. I really have to get back to what was working for me before and stick to it! <BR> <BR> Week 1 - back to basics, logging every bite and not worrying about the calorie count too much. Just w... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 14:25:19 EST Logan's Birthday Party pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5061641 We had a great time. It was so much fun planning this Star Wars party. <BR> My niece made the Mellinnium Falcon cake and my son carved the Death Star watermelon. We had Jar Jar links (hot dogs) Boba Brats, Princess Lays, Darth Cheddar cubes, Luke's Lightsabers (dipped pretzel rods, definitely the kids' favorite), Vader Veggies, Tie Fighter Tea, and Yoda Soda (green sherbert & 7up). <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l113940864.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeopl... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 13:53:29 EST Some pics for my friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4909815 I promised to add pictures after our dress up wedding yesterday. The wedding was beautiful. I felt for the bride though. She was 45 minutes late to the wedding because of limo problems. It was outside in a rose garden and people kept just walking through! Her long lace veil and train kept catching on the concrete walk and someone had to walk behind her and hold it. At the reception, her ice sculpture had a huge crack in it and the cake was falling over. She kept up her lovely smile and... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 10:26:25 EST Holding on to the handrail! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4733680 I'll start by saying I have been soul searching a lot this week. Trying to figure out the broken bits that keep me from being successful. Last night we went out for a great meal of the best Kansas City BBQ (BB"S Lawnside BBQ) and listened to a great Kansas City blues band (Trampled Under Foot) and had a great time in general. I never expected to have a philosophical moment in the line at the Ladies room! <BR> <BR> The Ladies room is a 1 holer!! So...there is always a line. Last night ... Sat, 11 Feb 2012 11:40:57 EST Transformation: A slow process for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4712528 I wish I could say my transformation is complete. I wish I could say it has been easy and consistant. But it's not. I have lost weight I don't even know how many times in my life. This past year has been the most successful I have ever been. Not because of the weight that I have lost but because of the attitude that I have gained. I am a much stronger person now. I am much more honest with myself. I have all the knowledge I need to succeed. I learned over the holidays that I still ha... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 14:50:14 EST 12 week plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4685166 My goal for the next 12 weeks is to lose 24 pounds. Some of those are catch up pounds and some will be new. Losing 24 pounds would put me lower than I have been in 26 years. Since before my daughter was born. To accomplish this goal I need to be consistent. No more waiting 1 more day. No more telling myself that just this once it doesn't matter. It all matters. <BR> <BR> My nutrition plan is to eat clean and within my calorie range every day. <BR> <BR> My fitness plan is at least 30 ... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 19:03:28 EST North Pole Trek: Fairbanks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4626073 Wow, Fairbanks was a long way! Good thing we had those dog sleds! We can spend some time warming ourselves in the Chena Hot Springs <BR> <BR> <link>www.chenahotsprings.com/photo-galler<BR>y/the-healing-waters/ </link> <BR> <BR> While we are relaxing we can view the beautiful Northern Lights. Fairbanks is one of the best places in the world to view them. <BR> <BR> <link>www.alaskaphotos.biz/photos/aurora/a<BR>urora.htm </link> <BR> <BR> On our travels we have learned from the l... Wed, 14 Dec 2011 22:16:36 EST North Pole Trek: Anchorage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4618674 We made it to our first stop, Anchorage! What a beautiful area. We are going glacier gazing to the Portage Glacier, one of the most famous and beautiful glaciers in the world. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/5/l450214203.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The sights are amazing, wildlife is everywhere if you look carefully, <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l602771561.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Maybe we will see some eagles, but don't forget to watch wher... Fri, 9 Dec 2011 06:42:11 EST Golden Phoenix are trekking to the North Pole! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4606743 Welcome to beautiful Juneau, Alaska where our journey to the North Pole will start. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l61005627.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We have a LONG road ahead of us and we will have to work together to make to the North Pole in time to deliver our special gifts for Santa to deliver! But first we want to be sure to take time to enjoy every stop on the way. <BR> <BR> We can go ice climbing on Mendenhall Glacier <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.spark... Wed, 30 Nov 2011 21:34:33 EST Post Thanksgiving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4605806 August 2009 - "I thought about this for quite awhile and ended up with a fairly long list. Then I started reading some of the success stories this morning and decided to change my goal to just one. <BR> <BR> GET SERIOUS! <BR> <BR> I can recite the list of all the things I need to do to be successful this challenge but, unless I get serious about it, all that talk is for nothing." <BR> <BR> Nov 2011 <BR> I am up 7.8 lbs this week. I officially weigh more than I did when BLC started. I kn... Wed, 30 Nov 2011 10:45:13 EST Weight loss success = lessons learned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4573016 This weekend I realized how much my weight loss success is affecting the rest of my life. In order to be successful at weight loss I have had to learn to be more assertive, with myself and other. I am a stronger person now both physically and mentally. I am not afraid of what people think of me anymore and I will speak my mind more often. <BR> <BR> This weekend I rescued a mama dog and her 1 surviving puppy. She is pomeranian that had her puppies under my neighbor's porch/deck last Su... Mon, 7 Nov 2011 14:12:17 EST The other side of being honest with myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4537726 Yesterday I wrote about being honest when I go over my calorie range or eat something off plan or phone in the exercise. Today I want to write about the other side of being honest with myself. Being honest with myself includes taking ownership of the hard work and dedication it takes to have a successful weight loss. My husband and I were watching TV the other day and the report was on weight loss. I can't even remember what they were saying but I made a comment that it wasn't that hard t... Sun, 16 Oct 2011 07:58:05 EST To be honest... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4537282 I went over my calories by 33 calories today. I could have fudged my tracking and gotten more points for my team but I don't do that. My weight loss journey this time has been fueled by the fact that I am brutally honest with myself. I have been guilty in the past of saying, "Who's going to know anyway, the internet genie?" Without total honesty I will slip right back into my old habits, one tiny lie at a time. I'm the one I have to be accountable to. It doesn't matter what anyone else ... Sat, 15 Oct 2011 20:49:55 EST How do I stop feeling bad for someone that doesn't deserve it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4526563 I'm truly fighting the emotional eating demons this weekend and could use some suggestions. My daughter is in the process of divorcing her husband. He pushed her around a little, kept her from her friends and family, spent all their money and thank God she got out before it got worse. I didn't know the extent of what was happening until she left. She was brave and smart enough to get out. She has tried to keep it from getting nasty and let him be a father to their son. We allowed him to... Sun, 9 Oct 2011 10:03:46 EST Belated Celebration - Welcome to Onederland! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4508273 I'm celebrating today - I made it to the 160's!! I started at 206 in January and I'm almost halfway to goal. I'm feeling really good about it and it made me think of when I moved into onederland just after the start of BLC16 in April. My team celebrated for me. I thanked them but I just wasn't feeling it. The celebration surprised me. Didn't they know I had been there before? Didn't they realize this was a temporary situation? Maybe they did, many of them have been there too...but the... Wed, 28 Sep 2011 10:16:42 EST Think Big http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4469756 "Visualize what you want out of life & think big. Don't be afraid of what others think. That's their business not yours. Don't feel undeserving... You’re not doing anyone any favors by living small. Embrace these truths & step up. The world is waiting." Jillian Michaels <BR> <BR> I am visualizing myself feeling comfortable in my life. Not just in my clothes but in my skin. I want to stay at one weight long enough to wear the same clothes for 2 seasons. I want to wear out my jeans, and my... Tue, 6 Sep 2011 15:33:36 EST I'm not going to be a runner, but I CAN be.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4454794 a swimmer, a biker, a strong healthy woman. I have finally given up any dream I may have had of becoming a runner. That day has passed, my knee will never take it. I can only walk short distances but, I can swim for over 1/2 hour and I can bike for more than 10 miles and I have finally made peace with that darn elliptical machine and I can do that for a long time. Hopefully by doing all those knee friendly things eventually I will be able to walk longer distances. But, it not, then I ... Mon, 29 Aug 2011 14:29:08 EST Reflections on the weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4341246 Had a great weekend. I got in quite a bit of fitness but the eating was spotty at best. I at least had a large healthy salad on all 4 days. <BR> <BR> Went to MIL's parade and it lasted all of 8 minutes but it was worth it to see her so happy. Had a nice visit with my Mom. Rest of the weekend was all family, picnic etc. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/6/l267441763.jpg"> <BR> My Mother in Law on the float. She is the one in the middle with the sunglasses on... Mon, 4 Jul 2011 21:08:47 EST Quick Sat blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4336716 Just a quick blog before a busy, busy day. We will be seeing both Mom's today. One seems to be doing so well right now and one is slipping away. I hate it that I feel almost nervous to go see my Mom because I never know how she will be. Will she even know who I am? Not always. Today my daughter and grandson are going with me so I am doubly nervous that she won't recognize them. She went through all her pictures and got rid of any of Logan that were more than a year old. I guess she d... Sat, 2 Jul 2011 07:34:34 EST Ready for the weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4336450 I am so ready to relax this weekend. I have healthy food planned and lots of activity so hopefully I can hang on this week. I seem to have come out of my starving mode by upping my calories to the higher end. Looks like the weather might cooperate. It will be a great weekend. Sat, 2 Jul 2011 00:11:22 EST I Have Willpower-Yes I Do!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4333460 Oh my gosh!! I have been so hungry this week! I don't know why other than I upped my fitness minutes some last week. So far I haven't completely caved and I am not going to. I know I will get through this but it feels like I just started watching my calories yesterday! I don't care what I eat my stomach still rumbles. I just keep drinking drinking drinking and chewing more and more gum. I'm telling myself I can't snack unless it's been at least 2 hours since the last time I ate. Hope... Thu, 30 Jun 2011 17:01:15 EST Summer Reflections for BLC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4324319 I'm so glad I happened on the BLC sign ups while browsing one day. I chose a team that seemed to fit for my first choice and was assigned that team. This challenge has been the perfect incentive for me. I lost very consistantly the first few weeks and then stalled out. Looking at the first 4 weeks I averaged around 250 minutes of fitness for per week. The last few weeks the average dropped to 200 or less. Obviously I need to up my fitness minutes, which I have done this week. I had a c... Sun, 26 Jun 2011 20:02:33 EST I ran! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4283123 Not for long...but it was a definite run. I was on the treadmill last night and kept going faster and I could just feel myself ready to try, so I did! I ran for 30 seconds - 3 different times. My knees have been giving me a little pain but feel really strong. I have been doing tons of strength training for my legs and the Dr told me after my surgery last year that even if there was some pain I wouldn't damage my knee and could do anything I want. I don't think I am ever going to be a "Ru... Tue, 7 Jun 2011 12:16:47 EST Weekend reflection on bad habit plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4264582 3 family parties = breakdown in resolve. <BR> I didn't do horrible this weekend but I didn't do well either. I have been over calories and sodium for the past 3 days. I got my minimum exercise in each day plus some. That is a huge improvement. I didn't gorge myself on any day. That is also an improvement. Chips and sweets, that's what got me. I kept it to 1 serving of each so I'm not beating myself up over it. Move on and drink drink drink today!! Mon, 30 May 2011 08:54:47 EST A bad habit to work on and a great weekend to work on it!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4259360 I have 2 bad habits I have been working to break. 1 is stress eating and 2 is eating for entertainment. <BR> My home life is quite stressful right now. My daughter is getting divorced so she and her 3 yr old are living with us. There's just a little too much drama for me right now. Yesterday I had planned on a short workout after work. It would have been much easier for me to go straight home, sit down with a snack (or another meal!) and talk to my husband about what is going on. ... Fri, 27 May 2011 09:16:48 EST This me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4216164 Today I am in recovery mode. I did fine yesterday, went for a long walk, tracked everything, chose to be on the high end of calories but still in range...then I lost it. I ended up eating leftover Easter candy, popcorn with butter, and 2 beers!! AGH! No calorie deficit for Jane!! Good news is I did track every single thing. My strategy for life right now is being totally honest with myself and my family. The old me would have not tracked and ignored the whole thing. This me is trackin... Sat, 7 May 2011 10:47:05 EST Into the fire and out of the ashes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4183569 I have really been thinking about the kind of person I am, what I want to change, and who I want to be in the end. <BR> How will I emerge from the ashes? I hope to feel like my body matches the petite, athletic person that I have in my head. Right now I don't feel like I match up. I want to be a person that doesn't think about food all the time, that can walk past the appetizer table, that can sit at the table and talk to friends and family without a plate. <BR> Self doubt, guilt, procra... Fri, 22 Apr 2011 10:47:58 EST Where am I? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4162719 I am here at Sparkpeople, engaged, involved and learning how to handle stress and disappointment without food. I have been successful at weight loss before and have gained it back every time because I never really figured out the why of it. I carry guilt and anxiety around with me that I feed instead of feel. I am feeling very sure of myself now. I am learning to speak up when I need to and to stay out of it when I need to. My children's problems are not mine. I can't fix things for eve... Wed, 13 Apr 2011 10:26:23 EST Commitment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3710285 I have reset all my Spark goals. I need to start at square one and figure out where I keep going wrong. I have had many, many changes in the last year and I am now weigh more than I have in years. My blood pressure is high and that scares me. Today is the first day! Tue, 12 Oct 2010 12:27:40 EST Struggling but still hanging on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3018274 I am really struggling right now but I feel like I at least still have my goal in front of me and I'm still working toward it. I am very thankful that we are able to help my daughter in her time of need, but the stress of 4 adults and a 2 year old living in a small house is getting to me. Hopefully they will be able to get back to their own place in the next month or so. I start back to work on Monday after having knee surgery 6 weeks ago. I finally have the all clear to start working out... Fri, 19 Mar 2010 09:09:19 EST 5 pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2425034 I am officially done with the same stupid 5 pounds I have been gaining and losing all summer. DONE WITH IT! I am moving on and will not miss them at all. Thu, 24 Sep 2009 08:17:37 EST Changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2366893 I got the news Monday that I am being transferred to another branch. I work at a bank. They are eliminating my position where I am. I guess I should just be happy I still have a job, but it would be nice if they had let me in on the decision a little sooner. I start there on Tuesday. Everyone where I am now is very health conscious and nobody brings a lot of cookies and stuff so it's pretty easy to just bring my own lunch and not have to worry about too much temptation. Maybe there will... Wed, 2 Sep 2009 07:10:34 EST Goals for Fall Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2353054 I thought about this for quite awhile and ended up with a fairly long list. Then I started reading some of the success stories this morning and decided to change my goal to just one. <BR> <BR> GET SERIOUS! <BR> <BR> I can recite the list of all the things I need to do to be successful this challenge but, unless I get serious about it, all that talk is for nothing. Fri, 28 Aug 2009 07:21:43 EST Week 8 Reflection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2268750 Week 8!!!!! What happened to 4-7? Wow this challenge has gone by so fast. My goals for this summer changed dramatically from losing 2 pounds a week to trying to keep from gaining 2 pounds a week. I have had an unbelievable amount of stress this summer. It seems like the minute this challenge started my life blew up into overdrive. We are short handed at work so I am doing everyone's job but my own, but still expected to get mine done. My DD and SIL are working on getting custody of hi... Wed, 29 Jul 2009 07:31:34 EST Vacation, hiking, and family http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2199832 Well, vacation from work is over, although my son is still home on leave until the 9th. It's so great to have him home! He is the hugger of the family and I sure miss them when he is gone. At least he is currently stationed somewhere safe and I am not worried 24/7. We have been through that before and I'm sure will experience it again, but for now, he's safe. <BR> My eating habits have been pretty atrocious while the last couple of weeks. I just need to get through tomorrow and w... Fri, 3 Jul 2009 08:16:08 EST