BLDANCY's SparkPeople Blog BLDANCY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Hey This Still Works I received a new phone and forgot I had to log into my apps again. So I haven't used this is so long. I have so many updates I will post in my next blog. However, I've finally gotten to the point where water is something I consume. Last night i worked 12 hours and drank 10 cups of water. I'm drinking water daily without thinking about it 🙌🏾 How many cups do you consume a day? Sun, 19 Nov 2017 17:53:33 EST Mourning <img src=""> <BR> I decided to log into my facebook after many months of deactivating and found out that a month ago one of my God Brothers was murdered a month ago. I've been crying off and on since I found out. I have not talked to him since January. My heart is broken. There were so many things I wanted to say to him. Once I fell into my depression I shut myself off from the world and now I have found out that... Thu, 27 Apr 2017 13:21:39 EST Depression :-( <img src=""> <BR> I'm ready to accept and admit that my depression has taken a toll on my weight loss efforts. I've gained 8 pounds this month and I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. Heck if I'm just going to sit around and cry all day I might as well be exercising while I'm crying. I went for a walk for an hour today and it felt so amazing. I can overcome my depression and I am dedicated to reaching my goal... Sun, 23 Apr 2017 15:52:10 EST I cannot eat Today is the third day I haven't eaten anything. I have no appetite and when I tried to eat I couldn't eat without gagging. I've been drinking fluids here and there but I know I have no consumed enough calories. I don't know what I should do but I am sure this is not healthy. I've been depressed before but I've never gone this long without eating. The only good thing about this day is I haven't cried. I hope the lack of food doesn't effect my weight-loss. I'm down 5 pounds since Monday. Sat, 28 Jan 2017 16:46:27 EST No longer getting married <img src=""> <BR> Well guys that didn't last long. Single and depressed. Strangely I have no appetite. I don't want to eat a single thing. As I write this at 2:08 pst I don't think I've even drank anything today maybe a little soda but that might have been last night. I don't remember. Weight as of January 26, 2017 is 175 I guess I might as well keep my goal of 150. Thu, 26 Jan 2017 17:08:24 EST Guess What?! <img src=""> <BR> I'm getting married!!!!!! I'm so very excited to share this news with my Spark Family! It came as a complete shock. Now I have to lose more weight so that by my wedding day next year I fit perfectly in my dress. I am currently up and down with my weight after experiencing another death in my family. I was 167 then went up to 175. Now I'm stuck at 170 but my husband-to-be has been motivating m... Wed, 26 Oct 2016 17:19:21 EST I reached my goal... now what? <img src=""> <BR> About three years ago I decided 175 would be my goal weight. Today I stepped on the scale and was pleasantly shocked that I had finally reached that goal. Now what? Now I continue what I've been doing to reach this number. Now I continue to change my lifestyle. Now I continue to be healthy. Thank you everyone for being my support and encouragement on this journey. Wed, 29 Jun 2016 04:54:12 EST Close to one of my goals! <img src=""> <BR> Please ignore my toes lol. It is almost 3:30 am in California and I decided to get on the scale and to my surprise I am 3 pounds away from my 2nd goal. The first goal was to get under 200. My 3rd goal will be to reach my target weight of 165. My birthday is June 7th and it is possible that I will reach my 175 goal by my 29th birthday!!!! Fri, 20 May 2016 06:30:21 EST Progress Picture <img src=""> <BR> I'll say my journey began in June. That's when I realized I had to do something to drop some weight. So I started walking and making minor changes. Then August I lost my Grandmother and feared I would eat my emotions but my Sparks Family was there to help me through it. Then December the love of my life broke up with me and I said F this I have to stay motivated. So I began walking again, trying t... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 19:16:51 EST Motivation Five months I've been logging on here. SparkPeople has become a place where I feel safe especially since I deleted most of my social media accounts. August 31st, 2015 I lost my Granny and December 2015 my relationship with my boyfriend ended. Naturally I fell into a depression yet I was drawn to SparkPeople to help me through it and to stay motivated. <BR> <BR> I am happy to report that I am finally under 200 pounds after 3 years. I am more motivated than ever to reach my goal of 175 pounds ... Thu, 4 Feb 2016 05:25:58 EST Meal Prep <img src=""> Last blog I briefly talked about meal prep and then I found this funny picture. I am going to continue to research some healthy options and after I go grocery shopping this week I am going to attempt to plan all my meals for the week and give it a try. Sometimes I feel like I have a love hate relationship with food. Some days I'm just not hungry and I know it is important to eat and eat the right th... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 15:30:53 EST Caloric Intake <img src=""> I am back to tracking my food intake and I feel the calorie range SP gave is way too high for me and I am unsure how to change it. 1,880-2,000+ seems high. I am 5'4 190 lbs and I try my hardest to reach 1,200 calories a day. I have a love hate relationship with food. Some days I'm just not hungry, I want cookies all day, or I make great food choices. I think I'm going to try to prep my meals for th... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 18:00:47 EST Buying Clothes I'm actually looking forward to buying new clothes once I lose more weight. Today I bought a pair of shorts because they were on sale and really cute. I've avoided clothes shopping as much as possible over the years because I would have to buy size 16+ and I was embarrassed. Today I have on a 16 pair of jeans and I have to wear a belt or they slip right off. I bought them in June and they fit snug back then. I am so happy that I am losing and can't wait to buy clothes that make me feel confid... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 19:42:10 EST Thoughts on Surgery A family friend recently had a Brazilian Butt Lift and I started looking into it. I'm 15 pounds away from my goal and doing it myself is so rewarding. The surgery would get me to my goal and I would have a bigger fuller butt afterwards. Not like Nikki Minaj or anything like that but definitely a curve to match my breast. The thing is I'm on the fence. If I could afford it I would do it but part of me wants to do it myself. The only thing is I know without a doubt I can reach 175 pounds but ... Sat, 2 Jan 2016 15:32:18 EST Day 1 of 366* (2016 is a leap year) Happy 2016 everyone!!! I'm not one for resolutions but I plan on continuing doing everything to reach my weight loss goals. - Drink 8 glasses of water - Work out 3+ times a week - Continue to walk 5 days out of the week - Overcome this depression - Reach 175 lbs by day 365 Hope everyone has a great year Fri, 1 Jan 2016 17:00:12 EST Is This Really Possible?! <img src=""> My goal is 175 and just now I stepped on the scale and 190.0 greeted me. It has been 3 years since I was under 200 pounds. And here I an 15 pounds away from my goal. I cannot describe what I am feeling right now. This is real? Am I dreaming? I can't believe I've actually made it down to 190. I'm excited as if my main goal was 190. But I won't throw myself a huge party just yet I have a lot more to ac... Sat, 26 Dec 2015 20:57:16 EST Depression For two weeks I've barely wanted to get out of bed unless I have a good reason. I was dropped from my physical therapy program because I didn't want to leave the house. All I do is cry. Some days I'll eat snacks and other days I don't eat anything. I feel like so much is going wrong in my life. I've lost a lot of people this year and I just don't know what to do to get out of this depressed mood. The only good thing is I've finally lost weight I'm now 194 but I can't even get excited about it... Wed, 23 Dec 2015 17:39:08 EST Road Block I started at 212 pounds back in June and now I'm at 198. However I cannot get any lower than 198. I am not sure why I have stop losing but it is a little discouraging. I was hoping to lose 13 pounds by November 16th but now I do not think that goal is attainable. All I can do is increase the amount of exercise I've been doing and change my eating habits. Any tips or motivation would be greatly appreciated. Sun, 4 Oct 2015 14:05:08 EST copy & paste fun I found this on a friends blog and thought I would do it as well! Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. Where is your cell phone? In my hand Spouse? Not married yet but dating Drew Your hair? Dark brown Your mother? Val Your father? Bill Your favorite thing? My sons and school Your dream last night? I can't remember Favorite drink? Red cream soda 😃 What room are you in? My bedroom Your hobby? Reading and spending time with my sobs. Your fear? I... Sun, 6 Sep 2015 16:37:25 EST Grieving <img src=""> My grandmother passed away on Monday and I just want to give up and stay in bed crying all day. I've thought about finding comfort in a bottle of alcohol but I decided against that. I'm not closing myself out to the world I'm going to stay active and become healthier. My Granny wouldn't want me to quit. My Granny liked me fat but I have to lose this weight. At least she saw me at my biggest weight and ... Thu, 3 Sep 2015 11:36:25 EST Progress. around the middle of June of 2015 I looked in the mirror and said Bree it's time for a change. since then I've been taking small steps towards losing weight and I can say that this week I finally stepped on the scale and found that I'm down 5 pounds since the middle of June and I am very proud of my progress 26 more pounds to go. in the past I focus on the number and not the actual steps towards a healthier life. finally I can say that I am taking all the steps necessary towards a healthier ... Fri, 28 Aug 2015 11:32:22 EST How I Got Off My Butt and On My Feet Hello all it has been over a year since my last entry. I won't post excuses but share my new journey. <BR> <BR> My children and I recently moved and their school is over a mile away. Every morning I awake at 6 am and an hour later we begin our walk. For the past three weeks 5 out of 7 days I am active! Instead of asking people for a ride I am enjoying walking the distance. Five days a week I am engaging in 90 minutes of exercise a day! That is big for me because even when I was using this si... Thu, 20 Aug 2015 11:18:44 EST Finding my way back I used this site all the time and it really helped me stay motivated then life happened and I abandoned SparkPeople and all the connections I made. Since my last post I left a VERY toxic relationship and I've lost many friends and I'm finally happy. The only thing is my weight. <BR> <BR> <BR> My scale broke (my youngest dropped it one too many times) and I took that as a sign to not care. I was ashamed to get on here because I felt like I let everyone down because I stopped caring I was ju... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 03:34:05 EST End of the Challenge - Team Bouncing Apple Blossoms I am so proud of myself for making it through the end of this challenge! I may not have received the most points throughout but I stuck it through!!!!!!! <em>250</em> <em>380</em> <em>243</em> Yay! To all of us who made it to the end. <BR> <BR> <BR> Looking back I realized I posted my current weight for my goal weight when I began this challenge. My starting weight was 206.2 and my final weight is 198.8 I lost 7.4 pounds!!!!!!!! I made it under 200 pounds and I am happy about that... Fri, 10 May 2013 19:59:39 EST Vision I tried to put everything on here I could! I had so much fun making this collage!!!!!!!!!! I have it saved as my desktop and I'm going to print more copies so I can put them everywhere so when I need motivation I have something to look at!! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sat, 27 Apr 2013 01:04:12 EST Accountability - Bouncing Apple Blossoms Sadly I have not reached my goals and I am posting this to hold myself accountable. I do track everything I eat and I am making sure I eat as healthy as I can, there are days where I have eaten fast food but I make sure I log them in my nutrition trackers. <BR> <BR> Here is my problem the first 3 weeks I made sure I reached all the fitness challenges and I was going to the gym faithfully. Then I broke my tooth and this toothache is horrible <em>18</em> and then I been getting headaches so... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 20:02:01 EST Feeling Sad About a week ago my Aunt stopped breathing and ended up in a coma. A few days ago she was declared brain dead and this morning Easter Sunday around 5 am she passed away. My Aunt was barely 40 and I am not fully understanding the situation but I miss her dearly. <BR> <BR> Even though today is Easter I am going to spend time with my family and remember all the good times I had with my Aunt. <BR> <BR> Rest In Peace Auntie Sue Sun, 31 Mar 2013 21:12:04 EST My Goals <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My main goal is to learn to love myself and the body I am in. When I started my journey I was 206 pounds the biggest I have ever been in my life. Before I had children I weighed between 140-145 and after my second child I went from 189 in labor to 165. A month after my second son I became very ill and then started to slowly pick up weight until I reached 206. I would love to be 145 again but honestly I just want t... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 00:10:21 EST I Wanna Quit I've been working my butt of in the gym and trying to improve my eating habits but it isn't enough. It's been over a month and my weight is still up and down I started at 205 then went down to 202 then up to 206 now I'm between 201-203. This sucks!!!! <BR> <BR> I want to give up and just be fat. It hurts that I am working this hard and nothing is showing. Yes I seen a little progress but I'm disappointed. I tried to lose weight last year and in two months I had lost 10 pounds. Why is this ti... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 22:24:49 EST Small Progress I forget to take some pictures some times but here is a photo to show the small progress. I still have a lot of work that needs to be done but having some progress is very helpful in continuing on. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I need to work on my upper body, especially my back and arms. I've noticed I work on my lower body maybe because it is easier for me to do those exercises. Last night I worked on my abs so I'll continue ... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 22:11:45 EST Small Victory!! Today I was feeling sick and did not want to go to the gym but after talking to myself and my boyfriend I decided maybe going to the gym would make me feel a little better so I went to the gym with my niece. <BR> <BR> I increased the incline as well as the speed and turned my music up. I wasn't running but I was walking pretty fast and enjoying the music. Before too long 20 minutes past and I was at 200 calories and 1 mile. Wow I reached a mile in less than 30 minutes!! That pushed me and af... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 02:51:15 EST Motivation My oldest son (7 years old) has gotten used to me going to the gym Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays and in his own way is making sure I go on those days. Whenever I do a video my 7 year old does them along side me and tells me what exercises he thinks I should do next. When I stretch or do sit-ups my 2 year old sits on my stomach. <BR> <BR> I love that my sons are helping me in their own special way. I did not think it mattered having them supporting my exercise habits but I am finding it do... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 19:20:54 EST Not Losing Anything - But That Is Ok Hello everyone <em>213</em> <BR> <BR> I'll admit I fell off track I only went to the gym once last week but I am ok with that. I did some videos so instead of 3 days at the gym I got in one day and did one video. It may not seem like much but I feel I am making progress because I am doing something. <BR> <BR> When I started about a month ago I did not take a picture as soon as I started I don't know what I was thinking. But I did take pictures for this week and I also have a progress ph... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 19:56:55 EST Beyond Day One The last time I wrote a blog was New Years Day and I talked about how I could not get beyond "Day One" <em>249</em> well here I am February 18th and starting the second week of being on track! <BR> <BR> I haven't made any weight loss goals but I have met other goals! <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Last week I went to the gym 3 days and completed over 120 minutes of fitness. My favorite machine is the bike and usually I am able to complete 1 mile in 5 minutes but last Friday I completed 3 mi... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 02:24:14 EST Excuses Excuses Excuses So the last time I blogged I said that it was my day 1 and I was serious once again. Yet I did not do anything, I only did the videos twice and barely tracked my calories <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Now here I am again back at <em>249</em> and I'm wondering what makes today different? It is almost 11 pm and the start of a New Year. So I decided I will not start by saying what I plan to do this time around nor will I make excuses for why I didn't stay on track. Since the truth is I just didn... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 01:52:51 EST Back On Track - Day One Last month I was really looking forward to my weight loss journey and not even a week into it I fell off track. <em>227</em> I completely abandoned this website, my goals, friends, everything except for my bad eating habits and lack of exercise. <BR> <BR> One day I was talking to a close friend of mine who is always talking about going to the gym and being in shape. I confided in him about how I wanted to get in shape, I told him I want to drop the weight to feel better about my appearanc... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 21:06:05 EST Before Pictures - My First Blog Hello everyone <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I became a member of months ago and after seeing an article on Yahoo! stating that a lady lost over 100 pounds using this website I said to myself "Bree you have to get back on that website" <BR> <BR> So here I am, I have been trying to learn this website and making some great friends in the process. I have my ticker on my SparkPage and I'm thinking about posting my before pictures. <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> I try to wear clothes th... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 05:00:44 EST