BILLYLYNN's SparkPeople Blog BILLYLYNN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Time to fast again tomorrow. I´m really looking forward to fasting. It's so nice not to have to worry about if I'm eating the right thing, too much, etc. All I have to do is drink my water and that's easy, fix meat, potatoes and a veggie for my husband and I'm good to go. I fix myself a big salad with some of the meat I fix for him as a smooth entry back into food and I'm back to normal. <BR> I've read that there are basically 3 ways to fast 1) the 5:2. 2) the once a week and 3) twice a week. I obviously am... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 09:31:45 EST Trying again. Fast. Yesterday was the first day I have fasted in quite awhile. I've fasted for 12 hrs for blood tests every now and then, but I chose to fast for 24 hours. I went from 6pm to the following 6pm. When I got hungry I drank water and got up and did something that required concentration - to get my mind off food. <BR> The times I was more tempted I thought about all the people I knew who were sick or dying and prayed for them. Spent some time doing that and that was really helpful. <BR> Duri... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 07:48:27 EST The ups and downs of life. My pedometer slipped off my belt as I was getting into our boat yesterday and is now buried at sea. I know my steps were down yesterday but really. <BR> <BR> So, plan B. Took me till this morning to realize that 10,000 is 5 miles so if I take my walk that I know is 3 miles, I'm sure I'll have my 10,000 in. This week is one of the hottest, most humid we've had all summer. I better do this early in the morning - not my favorite time of day to move. Wish me luck. Mon, 15 Jul 2013 07:07:08 EST Moving fast I found that if I just kept moving life goes on a little smoother. So I was over 10,000 steps without any special effort, just kept moving most of the day. Sun, 14 Jul 2013 07:18:51 EST Very bad day. My dog died today. Unexpected. This is awful. He was such a big part of my life. I forgot to put my pedometer on but I'm sure I walked at least 7,500 steps. Fri, 12 Jul 2013 21:33:29 EST Tues & Wed. Or the title could could be "goodest and not so good" Tuesday was another great day of holiday activities. Wed I was whooped and it rained - 6,ooo+ <BR> But today is a beautiful s unny day. Can't wait to get outside. <BR> <BR> Thanks to all of you for your support! Thu, 11 Jul 2013 09:10:58 EST 2 Week Diary for 10,000 Step a Day Challenge I didn't even have to go out of my way to try today. The dog got out twice. My adult children were home from out of town and wanted a variety of things and by the end of the day I looked down at my pedometer and I was quite a ways past 10,000. This was an easy way to start. We'll what tomorrow brings. Mon, 8 Jul 2013 22:37:09 EST Sugar, sugar, sugar everywhere Feeling a lot better today. I made an anniversary breakfast today to help ease the pain of yesterday: pancakes (no syrup) , eggs, and Canadian bacon. Later I realized that the pancake batter had sugar in it as well as the Canadian bacon. Darn. I'll have to go back to making my pancakes from scratch. <BR> Wed, 29 May 2013 15:02:19 EST Today's my 36th wedding anniversary. 5/28 Bad planning. I should have waited a couple days, but we we went to the local ice cream shop and I got the smallest cone. The only problem I had was being extremely tired. No headaches, but I kept falling asleep. I was not good company for anniversary celebrations. Wed, 29 May 2013 12:56:13 EST No sugar. Today is the first day of no sugar. I've made it to 9:07. No headache yet. I've gained a couple pounds again and I know it's mostly from sugar indulgence. Time to tackle the beast. Mon, 27 May 2013 09:11:51 EST Really missed you My kindl fire refused to receive or send email for about 5 days. I really missed you all. Sat, 25 May 2013 17:53:22 EST How is this changing my life? This is the question that spark coach suggested writing a blog about. I would not have thought to even ask the question, but now that I have there are a couple things worth mentioning. <BR> Weightloss is no longer the elephant in my hip pocket. I´m beginning to feel in control of my own body. Notice I said beginning, so it's not the elephant anymore, only the elephant's baby. <BR> I'm on my way. I don't feel that sense of panic that I'll just keep getting fatter the rest of my li... Wed, 15 May 2013 07:14:53 EST A New Milestone There isn't really a way to track hesitant change. I really admire people who can jump into things wholeheartedly and doggedly make changes consistently from the beginning. When it comes to physical fitness and weight loss I am a hesitant participant. Slow change is my game. I try something and stop, think about for awhile, "awhile" being several weeks, and get convinced of its value and try again. <BR> For instance, drinking 8 glasses of water.This seemed excessive to me. But after w... Sun, 12 May 2013 12:19:13 EST Jump! There is a story about a dog who refused to be trained. He was more stubborn than stubborn. His owner was consumed with finding a way to live in peace and harmony with this dog. The owner had a small dog but it could jump to high heaven and loved showing off. This was the answer! He ran and got the box of treats and whenever the dog jumped the owner said "Jump" and gave the dog a treat. Oh bliss that crazy dog ffffinally began doing something it was told to do. After learning that comm... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 07:26:58 EST There is really a freshwater fish named crappie. Some days there is no other way to say it. #### landed in your path. I mean a cow patty is a cow patty even if you paint it pink. My mother taught me not to say bad words so I have to use #### or substitute a gentler version like cow patty or crap. Which reminds me,there is a fish called a crappie. It's part of the sunfish family and it's delicious. FISH FRY!!! Fire up the deep fryer. Who's bringing Cole slaw, potato salad, chips, dessert, drinks? Another opportunity for a great famil... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 20:28:42 EST Sleep - the land of opporunity Sleep, that wonderful,elusive thing. Now that I have the most beautiful eyebrows of my life, I'm thinking that maybe I can find a way to get more sleep . <BR> I love living in America. It is still the land of opportunity. I have the opportunity to watch the same news stories 4 times every night. You're saying what's the big deal? I don't have cable. I don't have Dish or anything else I would have to pay for (remember those days?). It's true. I´m a throwback from another generation r... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 06:55:45 EST New Weight Loss Technique··· Pluck eyebrows Forget the pain you will cause yourself by overeating···do something worthwhile that's painful··· Pluck Your Eyebrows. I tried this the other night. It worked quite nicely. Got up to eat something totally useless that would only make me feel fatter, not a positive feeling, and plucked my eyebrows instead. Now, I hadn't plucked mine for quite awhile so it got me through most of the evening. And I felt much better in the morning, in fact I may have lost 1/2 lb. <BR> Why haven't I heard ... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 19:21:48 EST Quick note on sleep Went to bed at 9. Yeah. No eating from 9-11:30!! Tue, 26 Mar 2013 09:02:39 EST Hopeful Change If I have money in my pocket I firmly believe it's there to spend. If there's cheesecake in the refrigerator, it's up to me to make it doesn't go to waste. One cannot save things for too long. I think I can give up my role as garbagerator. I'm finding it is possible to leave 1/2 a piece of cheesecake because I'm full. #1HOPEFULE CHANGE. <BR> <BR> Checking caloeies in the snack food section I found that cheese balls have 130 calories for 32 cheese balls Yes! Went home and immediately c... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 06:29:13 EST I can't believe I ate the whole thing BECAUSE I DIDN'T Hold on to your hats ladies and gentlemen. I'd like to introduce myself as someone who has always wanted to find my own way to do things. I wanted to learn to read before I went to kindergarten so I could learn the way I wanted. Of course this is not the easiest way to go through life and I am catching on most of the time that using the help that's offered is often the easier way to go. So joining Sparks has been a real education. I love the opportunity to encourage other people, to enjoy... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 07:53:21 EST That first cup of coffee In the beginning, when I was first wishing I could change, I decided I could start by changing from sugar to milk in my coffee. I did it! The hardest part was changing my pattern of movement - walking from the coffeepot to the frig, not the sugar bowl. <BR> <BR> Changing eating patterns feels like a huge mountain. The first cup of coffee was a mountain too, just made of different stuff. But now I know I can change. I changed my coffee, and I'm exercising and enjoying it. This is possi... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 18:14:09 EST While I was waiting for the shower I was out of town, staying with relatives, waiting for my turn in the bathroom and I felt compelled to exercise. So I did: lunges, one arm rows, bicycles, and a plank. Wbat a good feeling. <BR> <BR> As far as eating gluten-free, it was more of an awareness exercise. My family is really into food but it's not especially healthy. Eating at home is manageable but I'm glad I'll have more practice in managing a GF lifestyle before eating with extended family. <BR> FYI. I chose gluten-free bec... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 03:13:10 EST Specificity Out of the swamp and on to dry land. That's where I´m going. My new healthy habit is to eat breakfast within 1 hour after getting up. I've done that 4 days in a row so far. The side benefit is I take my meds more regularly too. This is pretty easy so in March my new food project will be to go gluten-free. I'm close now,but am casual about in different situations. So from now to the end of March gluten-free. <BR> <BR> Now for the physically enabling activities. 1) Cardio. Continue ae... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 22:21:31 EST Start to Finish. Be bold baby I am excellent at starting almost anything: sewing projects, quilting projects, cleaning projects, cookies (been known to not bake them all and save dough for eating later), half read books, almost learned piano pieces. I think the picture is pretty clear clear here. <BR> <BR> So this morning celebrate with me. Raise a glass (of water with a little lemon in it). I finished a sewing project yesterday. "Finish" is not my middle name, not even a distant cousin. BUT this week I did somet... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 06:18:43 EST New Eyeballs I heard about the world-wide women's demonstration ,Feb 14, "Stand up and Dance" to draw attention to the fact that 1 out of 3 women will be assaulted in their lifetimes. My first thought was I should have told someone in the university dance department where I work about it. It would have been something really special for that group. <BR> My second thought was...I..could help organize something on campus. This is beginning to change my life. I´m not losing any weight, but I'm going to ... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 08:18:28 EST One big step I did it. I made it through an aerobics class without having to stop and rest. WooHoo. I am soo sore this morning but every ache is worth it. I haven't lost any weight yet but I've passed one obstacle. That will be coming. Fri, 15 Feb 2013 06:32:58 EST One foot in front of the other, but sometimes I've got a drag. Rough week. Changing meds. Some ups and downs. One more week and change of meds will be over. .......Drum Roll.......YEAH. <BR> Getting into changing my diet. I was really having trouble drinking more than 2 or 3 glasses of water a day - and they want us to drink 8? I took a desperate measure. I ate a Lot of chips in one day and drank about 1o glasses of water, I was so thirsty. Of course I gained a pound and a half but I have a much better sense of when I'm thirsty and need to drink... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 08:59:38 EST Gotta keep movin' Things are better. Thanks for all the encouragement. I´m halfway through a change in meds and it's helping. I've also learned a new coping skill. I got some sound canceling earphones for Christmas. I put those on and put on gentle classical music and it takes me out of myself when my feelings are overwhelming. And after awhile, sometimes several hours, I'm good company. It doesn't usually take that long. At least I can be in the same space with other people and be a decent person. A ... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 10:04:47 EST Leaving the past behind Today' s healthy thought resonated with me, to keep only the part of the past the helps you today. There are two different problems from the past, those your parents/siblings/childhood authority figures,etc.. The other problems are the ones you've created for yourself. <BR> The only way I've been able to figure out how to leave anything behind is to learn how to practice forgiveness. It's a never ending process. Tough but worth it. It' s a bit like an onion, and doggone it, there's a... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 07:01:54 EST Tango - the new mood medicine Hang on this is really connected. I gave some advice to sing "Jesus Loves Me" on those really bad days. Yesterday it was time to take my own advice. I sang and it just didn't do anything for me. I played the piano, picking the song out by ear and pretty soon this little Sunday School song came out as a tango. Just in case you don't know, a tango is a passionate dance; think of a gypsy woman dancing with her man . Very strange combination. I tried to reproduce it this morning but it's g... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 11:31:13 EST Budget Tracker Just discovered this feature. I paid my credit card bill and got a little sticker shock so this caught my eye. Has all the features of weight loss trackers - how fun. <BR> Maybe that's how I need to think about weight loss, as fun rather than this looming monster to be defeated. I think I need to rediscover the fun. Wed, 23 Jan 2013 07:34:48 EST Less depressed? Went to the psychiatrist, actually the nurse practitioner in that office, and had a good interview. I didn't realize how few medications have been tried to help with my depression. Lots of options left!!!! Probably a bit of a roller coaster ride coming to find the right one, but it's great to have hope that something will be found and I will be permanently off the couch. <BR> <BR> Remember those dances Snoopy would do when he was happy, feet flying and ears flapping, I call that a happy... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 09:07:30 EST 2nd cardio class I made it. I kept moving through the whole class, enough so that I'm sore today. <BR> <BR> I managed to hurt 2 people today. Me and my mouth. One thing about epilepsy is that with every seizure some brain cells are destroyed,not in the same place for everyone. One of the places in my brain that I've had some decay is in my ability to control an outburst whether it's positive or negative. One I thought was positive but was definitely taken as a negative. The other was a blazing negativ... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 19:04:19 EST 1st cardio class I can't seem to be able to do cardio alone. Needed real bodies. Now I know why. I have no cardio. I was a powerhouse for 10 minutes after that no one was home. I had nothin' <BR> So I chilled, did some isometrics, then some gentle walking in place with no arms. I go again tomorrow and will definitely start off slower. Wed, 9 Jan 2013 11:04:34 EST