BIKERNEL1's SparkPeople Blog BIKERNEL1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Dec 30,2011 I just got back from a long postponed doctors appointment. Not a fun visit.. Of course the scale sucked and read more then my home scale, that not a biggie, cause that always happens. The biggie is my blood pressure.. high! enough that she was not concerned with my cholesterol level at this visit. After doing an EKG - all fine, she was super kind with the way she explained that I either get my crap together and lose weight and stop smoking, or I will be on meds for the rest of my life! <BR> W... Fri, 30 Dec 2011 11:26:34 EST Update from March 2010 I just reread a blog I wrote March 2010 about downsizing my clothes cause pants were getting too big. WOW, I could really sit here and <em>46</em> knowing that if I have been constant on this journey to loose this darn weight, I would not be sitting here in tight jeans once again. I could really kick myself in the butt, which is bigger then last year! <BR> I think about the amount of money I have in my closet of clothes that just don't fit me cause of my weight and it is really makes me sick.... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 09:32:37 EST Unorganized weekend planning This weekend is one of our family birthday dinners were we lump whoevers birthday within 6 weeks together to celebrate. I love these days and am so fortunate to have such a wonderful bunch of people in my family. Average number of people who make it is about 20 people. <BR> 99% of the time it is at my home, which I really enjoy most of the time! <BR> So, here it is Friday afternoon, party is tomorrow at 3pm and I have no idea what to make for this thing..not much in the pantry and freezer and... Fri, 28 Jan 2011 15:15:25 EST 13 week count down In the 13 weeks til my birthday I will : <BR> *Walk on the treadmill - 4 times per week for 30 minutes each <BR> *Play Wii - 2 times per week for at least 30 minutes each <BR> * Strength training - 3 times per week for at least 20 minutes <BR> * Drink 8 glasses of water daily <BR> *Eat at least 5 servings of fruits and veggies every day <BR> *Track my meals everyday <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Tue, 25 Jan 2011 08:06:54 EST Day 16 without the scale I almost got on it this morning.. It really was calling my name.. On Jan 4 th, I decided that I was not going on the scale everyday, so I put it away. Have not decided when I going to jump on it again. I hope to wait at least till next Tuesday so it will be a full 3 weeks without going on it. I do hope that it will Make me happy when I do go on it, I have not been able to see my weight ticker move since I rejoined, so I hope to be able to move it! <BR> Thu, 20 Jan 2011 09:07:47 EST I will not allow myself to go backwards It's that time again, got caught up in life for the last week and am starting to have the feeling of what the heck.. why not just stay fat instead of working to loss the weight. <BR> I can not allow myself to do this to me once again. <BR> I need to be DONE! <BR> I can be DONE! <BR> Instead of reminding myself that I have not tracked any food or exercise, I need to just do it and not kick myself in the butt for it. <BR> I need to JUST DO IT INSTEAD OF TRYING TO DO IT! Tue, 18 Jan 2011 09:07:17 EST January 17th 2011 Last Wednesday I wrote about needing to put myself in the # 1 slot. The number 2 slot was my parents. Then, on Thursday I got a call that my 81 year old father was being brought to the hospital by ambulance for very low heart rate. His blood pressure couldnot get regulated and the heart rate would not go up with meds, so this morning he is getting a pacemaker put in. <BR> Even though everyone says it is a very simple procedure, it is still scary for all of us. <BR> Off to get ready to bring ... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 05:44:50 EST Need Put Myself in the Number One Slot 1. Work and business - 10 hours per day plus 24/7 as the owner.. lot's of worry & stress.. this is not going to change.. can not change.. it is the life we have made for ourselves and I have to just deal with it the best I can.. I have to remember the benefits to my whole family for working so hard. <BR> 2. Parent's - Again, this is not going to change and honestly I would not want it to change.. Even though it adds stress to my life, I thank GOD everyday that I have my mom and stepdad still ... Wed, 12 Jan 2011 09:10:59 EST To Scale or not to Scale It is so amazing how I allow a square foot of plastic and metal to determine how I feel for the day. Step on it somedays, it starts the day out great, loving the way I look, dress alittle dressier for the day, even my hair seems to look better on those days. Then the other days, like today.. I pull out the old reiable "cover all fat" clothes. Why bother to blow dry my hair? <BR> Why the heck do I allow that metal box to do that to me? <BR> I know that I am better then that! <BR> So what ... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 15:58:47 EST Starting 2011 with Sparkpeople So it is almost the end of 2010 and a month shy of 1 year as I started with sparkpeople. Today I reset all of stats and am starting with a clean slate. I have lost some.. then gain back and more. Total story of my whole adult life. I really need that light bulb to come on in my head and make me realize that my weight is not going to come off without effort and hard work. I have been concerned about my overall health and it's time to stop the madness that I have allowed for so many years. <B... Wed, 29 Dec 2010 13:29:08 EST what the heck is the matter with me?? Today is a day that I really feel like I could sit and cry about my weight! I hate this feeling! When I started to Spark in the beginning of the year, I had the motivation of my vacation. Well sure I lost some weight, felt great, was exercising and so darn proud of myself that I exercised on a regular basis. I have gained 10 pounds since I came back at the end of APril!! I can make that sound better by saying some days it is just 8 pounds! <BR> Every morning I wake up saying this is the day... Wed, 28 Jul 2010 08:54:43 EST Losing Spark can happen SO Fast! It's amazing how just a few days can really send you in a different direction. Last Tuesday was the last day I felt the spark. After that it all went down hill.. Having to lay off two employees due to not being busy at my business, teenager problems,time of month, aging parents problems... all the normal stress of life! So, in return, I have not had much time to be online and feel the spark that I need. I have not exercised much, I am eating more then I should and not the greatest food, I h... Mon, 22 Mar 2010 06:34:18 EST Vacation count down begins! - 26 more days When the group of us first planned our sailing trip to the British Virgin Islands it was September. Sitting there with one of my longtime friend and a friend that I really don't know well, I remember thinking to myself, Oh Shoot here it goes, I am going to be the Fat Chick on the boat! What a crappy feeeling! <BR> But since September, I may not have lost all the pounds I wanted to that day sitting there, but I have lost some of them and with the exercising I have committed to since the begi... Wed, 17 Mar 2010 08:43:46 EST Started to downsize clothes this morning It took extra long to get dressed this morning. That's because 3 pairs of pants were just too big for my butt! I just officially started a TOO BIG FOR ME pile of clothes to give away! Yeah for me! Now don't get me wrong, I still have plenty of clothes to chose from. <BR> I have, like many other women more clothes then I can ever really wear. I have the bins tucked away that I hope someday I will fit back into, I have the seasonal clothes that I pull out every spring and fall and always fin... Tue, 16 Mar 2010 06:52:33 EST Feeling Great! It's amazing how somedays you can just feel wonderful! Today is one of those days, and I am going to enjoy every moment of it. I slept wonderful last night, except getting up to use the bathroom many times due to the water challenge with the lady bugs. Tonight I get to go see Elton John and Billy Joel with my husband. The concert was cancelled twice last year and it is finally happening tonight! We are spending the night and even planning on coming into work late tomorrow, which is huge for... Thu, 11 Mar 2010 08:09:51 EST One Word.. Just One Word Not as easy as you might think! Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. It's really hard to only use one word answers. <BR> <BR> Where is your cell phone? Desk <BR> <BR> Spouse? Work <BR> Your hair? Casual <BR> <BR> Your mother? Angel <BR> <BR> Your father? Deceased <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing?Sunshine <BR> <BR> Your dream last night? None <BR> <BR> Favorite drink? Rum <BR> <BR> What room are you in? Office <BR> <BR> Your hobby? reading <BR> <BR> Yo... Wed, 10 Mar 2010 07:45:14 EST Water - How much is really needed? Oh No! Just found out that the next challenge for my Lady Bugs Team will be about drinking water. Every time I am on a roll with my weight lose, the word water and the "offical" guidelines stress me out. The only time I drink diet soda is when I have Rum in it, about 2x a week lately and on the weekends. I do not drink fruit juice, maybe once a month will have a glass of juice. I only drink unsweetened ice tea once a day aqnd coffee 2x day. I can not remember the last time I had a glass of ... Tue, 9 Mar 2010 07:59:35 EST What a great meal! Last night my husband and I went to one of our favorite restaurants. I have been wanting to go there for about a month now. There is always a wait to get in, and after a day of running around doing errands, by 6pm, standing outside waiting my stomach was growling with hunger. It scared me a bit, cause I did not want to sit down and gorge myself because I was so hungary. The hot fresh loaf of bread came to the table along with the half melted butter, half olive oil. I look at it as my husba... Sun, 7 Mar 2010 11:06:43 EST What a week! So glad this week is over, Have not had a easy day all week it seems. And looking back to what I have eaten really proves that. Thank God that I eat a good breakfast every morning. My husband and I eat out every lunch, which can be challenging some days. I hate the days he suggest to go to the favorite sandwich place, which also has awesome pizza! But thank god that they do have wraps and salads that are not too bad. We also have our favorite diner that I usally have a salad or bison burger.... Fri, 5 Mar 2010 22:17:26 EST what happened the last week?? I did it again, started something with a blast, and then it faded. I was so good about logging on everyday to sparkpeople, reading all the info, eating better, exercising. The last week I have not been on sparkpeople but a few times. I have had too many "treats", "bites"," oh, I have been doing so well, I will just have a Wendy's Burger" <BR> At least I have not totally lost as of yet, I have been exercising, just not as much, and not recording it.. I need to see it down on paper for me to... Tue, 2 Mar 2010 09:01:45 EST 2/23/10 - snow storm Tuesday Morning, waiting again for the big snow storm that the media gets everyone so hyped up about. I just don't understand, we do live in the northeast, why so people think that if we get a few inches of snow that they are going to be snowbound in their house for weeks and go to the grocery store and buy all the milk, bread and crap that they really don't need. So maybe people should not be on the roads for a few hours, but I think the road crew does a fantastic job on trying to keep the ... Tue, 23 Feb 2010 09:52:04 EST so good all week, then Friday hit! I have not tracked all what I eat yet today... I did write it on a sheet of paper, stuck it in my purse, and will pull it out soon. I don't have too read it to remember what I ate. The way my belly feels right now reminds me of the crap. okay scooped out bagel as usual for breakfast, and egg white( the only real healthy thing today). Lunch at the diner. Ceasar chicken wrap, not so bad.. dressing on the side and only dipped my fork in the dressing and drizzled aliitle on the wrap. Normally on... Fri, 19 Feb 2010 21:00:09 EST 2/16/10 - Disappointed with results?? I not really sure if I am disappointed with myself and my non weight loss since starting this in the end of January. Let's see.. Have I lost weight?? NO! I have lost one official pound. There has been a few days were it looked like I was 3 pounds down, but it came back to only that one pound. I know that I said I was not going to weigh myself everyday, but I can not quit that addiction as of yet. I do feel it keeps me on track, so I decided to take it back out of the closet and not knock my... Tue, 16 Feb 2010 09:05:08 EST Feb 10 2010 - new day! So today is the new day I spoke about yesterday. I did get on the treadmill for 20 minutes las tonight and did crunches while waiting for my hubby to come home. I have to get in the groove of things everyday instead of saying to myself, I'll do it tomorrow, I still have x amount of days, weeks left before I wanted to lose the weight. I have to figure out what is the matter with me that I keep putting off losing this weight.. Geez, its not like I want to lose a ton of weight... It is only 1... Wed, 10 Feb 2010 09:14:04 EST Feb 9 2010 Well, my start of this journey has been side tracked for the last 4 days.. have not exercised much, have had great intentions every day, but just have been finding some excuse not to move my butt. That has to end tonight, not even tonight.. in 1/1/2 hours I WILL be on the treadmill! everything else can wait until I am done. I brought wii active last night, I need to open it up and not leave it in the bag. I also have not tracked any thing down that I have eaten in 4 days.. Not eating terri... Tue, 9 Feb 2010 15:57:58 EST Feb 5 2010 Start of a another day.. So busy at work today, with so many things left undone for the last few days. I buy bagels for my employees each Friday AM, and they are calling my name this morning. I do usually have one and put laughing cow on it, but don't have any cheese, so I will stay away from what they left. As soon as everyone has had one, I will pack up the leftovers so they are not in view from my office. <BR> I have been spending alot of time on spark the last few weeks, getting so m... Fri, 5 Feb 2010 08:53:41 EST Feb 4 2010 I been thinking about the scale this morning and how for so many years it has been messing with my head. Go to the doctor, it says one number, go on it at home. its another. I really need to stop worrying about the number and just continue what I have been doing for the last few weeks and realize that its not all about the number that pops up. I have been feeling good, and that is what i have to remember instead of the number! <em>30</em> Thu, 4 Feb 2010 07:53:55 EST Energy?? Is my committment to the treadmill actually doing something to me? I have noticed in the last few days that I have a bit more energy, move alittle faster up the stairs, and over all feel pretty good. I can't let the stress of work get to me and I have to check myself not to turn to snacks to make through the day. Some days I wish I had someone else in my office, so I can have some support during the day, the dog just doesn't give me the answers I need to hear! Wed, 3 Feb 2010 09:06:13 EST 1st blog ever! Feb 2 2010 So after doing spark for 9 days now, thought it might help to start writing down my thoughts and goals to help me through this journey. I want to make this a place that I can look back on and see where I am now, where I want to be and all the in between. For the past 2 1/2 weeks i have been on the treadmill almost everyday for at least 20 - 45 minutes. I am so proud that I am jumping on that thing more then I really thought I would. I know that it feels great after exercising. <BR> Now fo... Tue, 2 Feb 2010 09:38:27 EST