BIGT_56's SparkPeople Blog BIGT_56's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community (Another) New Start I have had a major setback in the last few of months. Between the stress of this new job and the changes being made within the company I am about to explode. I usually counteract stress with exercise, but not lately. I have to walk so much on my new job (plus climbing steps and ladders) that I have hurt my left knee and cannot get it to feeling better no matter how much Advil, ice, heat, or rest will make it feel better. I need to lose weight to make my knee feel better, but I need to exe... Wed, 20 Nov 2013 01:36:56 EST 7/15/2013 I am trying to recover from my family's visit this past week. I love my children and my grandchildren. I was so looking forward to their visit, but to my surprise, I was equally as glad to see them head back home yesterday. <BR> I have been trying to understand my feelings. Part of it is having lived by myself for the past 3 years. I have gotten used to the solitude and I rather like it. I can't deal with all the chaos that is my children's lives as well as I once did. <BR> I love my g... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 16:08:56 EST 7/9/2013 Sitting here on my patio on a warm summer night, listening to my neighbor's radio playing good old down home bluegrass music....makes me a little homesick for the mountains of VA. I'm just an country girl at matter where I might be living. <BR> <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> So glad to be off for the next nine days! I am muddling through okay on this new job, but the atmosphere there is so depressing. It is hard to be working for the power industry in a coal-fired power plant these ... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 23:08:54 EST 7/1/2013 Well there is some great news, some good news and some bad news to report from this week. <BR> <BR> The great news is that I stayed on my eating plan all week with just one day of a little treat. I really am not sure where I was at the start of this (didn't want to see the scales). I know where I was awhile back and I am down 6 lbs. from there. I won't be celebrating until I see that number go back under 200....2 lbs. to go. <BR> <BR> On the good news front, I worked off on a three-day ... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 21:22:21 EST 6/27/2013 Another crazy day at work today. Every day I survive at this new job is one day closer to retirement. That is the only way I can get through the next 5 day at a time. I am trying so hard to change my mindset about it. I know that I need to just embrace it and go with the flow, but it is so hard some days. <BR> On a good note, I have a secret fairy that has put new hubcaps on my car. It had to be one of the guys at work, but I am not sure who it is ( I have an idea though). ... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 23:47:56 EST 6/23/2013 Well my despair reached "critical mass" over the past two days. I sat down and took a very hard look at what I have been (or not been doing) to help myself....I did not like what I saw. <BR> I know there are things I can't change at this point in job, my children's continuing dependence on me, and my financial situation (due to this dependence). There are things I can do for myself. I did it before when things were even more dire than they are now, so I know it can be done...I ... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 14:38:22 EST 6/19/2013 My rant for the day: My Job <BR> Almost 33 years with the same company, several different jobs and a relocation three years ago, but this is the first time I am having this many doubts about my abilities. I ended up with this job, not by choice, but by downsizing. I was given little to no training (a little over a month). I was put in charge of people I had never even met and I still don't quite know their potential to do their jobs. <BR> I work in the power industry where things can tu... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 15:23:54 EST 6/18/13 I seem to be in a very bad place these days. I can't stay on track with my eating or exercising...and my stress level is way over the top. I hate my life, but I can't seem to see any way to make it better. I just want to go into my apartment, shut the door, and not see or talk to another living soul. I feel so detached from everyone and everything. My brain is just a jumble and I can seem to organize my thoughts...or my life....I got to find a way to get out of this dark place. <BR> I kn... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 14:15:18 EST First Week of the New Plan <em>244</em> I lost 3 lbs. this first week!!!!! <BR> <BR> I managed to stay in my calorie range this week and managed to get in my exercise. The calories were not to hard to do, but the exercise was a toughie. <BR> <BR> After I lined up my plan, my life took a big zigzag. My job scope at work changed dramatically this past week. This a one of those good/bad things. My stress level has gone through the roof...but I am walking an average of 4-5 miles every day at work with the possi... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 17:40:50 EST MY PLAN "B" My Plan “B” is about what to do when I go back home to VA once a month. When I am there, I stay very busy working on the house, dealing with issues that have come up since the last time I was in, and most importantly…playing with my grandchildren. <BR> I don’t always have the time to get on the computer and log exercises or meals (which tend to be irregular and not usually very healthy). Here is the plan I am going to follow when I go back to VA <BR> a) I will buy fresh fruits and veggies ... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 14:19:32 EST MY GOAL REWARDS Goals wouldn’t be any fun without some type of reward for achieving them. I have decided on three types of rewards…one for sticking to my exercise routine, one for sticking to my eating plan, and one for losing lbs. <BR> a) My reward for sticking with my exercise will be some new exercise clothes or equipment. I am going to fix an “Exercise Rewards” envelop. Every week that I stick to my plan, I will put $5 in that envelop. At the end of three months, I will pick something out that I h... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 10:05:30 EST MY 2013 ACTION PLAN I have set my goals, now it is time to establish an action plan to help me achieve those goals. Here is my action plan (I may revise it as I go along if I see something not working or see a way to make it work better). <BR> <BR> I will exercise for an hour at least every other day. If the weather is good, I will either walk in the park at a 3-4 mph pace or go for a bike ride and try to keep it at a 5 minute-per-mile pace. On days that I can not get outside, I will ride my spinning bike at a... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 14:37:15 EST Goals for 2013 I have had a hard time writing down my goals for 2013. I started out with a very elaborate and in depth plan, but the more I read through it, the more I realized that I would never be able to keep these goals. So I have re-evaluated my list to what I know I would realistically do. Here is my list: <BR> <BR> 1) I will exercise for an hour at least every other day. If the weather is good, I will either walk in the park at a 3-4 mph pace or go for a bike ride and try to keep it at a 5 minu... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 23:59:40 EST Change <img src=""> Thu, 3 Jan 2013 08:52:53 EST New Year - New Determination When Fall came, I made myself a promise that my exercise would not suffer this winter. I had worked my way up to running a mile without stopping and I was getting out every day to either walk, run, or ride my bike. <BR> <BR> Then several things made that promise fly into the wind. First, I had to work a lot of overtime (15 12-hr shifts straight). Second, I got the flu which put me out of commission for over a week. Next, I went back to VA for 2 weeks to celebrate Christmas with the f... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 14:20:41 EST Giving Thanks - Day 27 Today I give thanks to the wonderful family I became a part of almost 40 years ago when I met my husband Doug. We have shared lots of wonderful memories (and a few sad ones as well). <BR> <BR> Celebrations at the Bowles house were large, loud, and filled with laughter and lots of good food. Sundays were always spent together around the dinner table. Afterwards the kids would be running and playing and grownups would be sitting on the porch talking (or in the living room napping). More ... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 01:07:32 EST Giving Thanks - Day 26 I have been working a lot of overtime lately and I am behind in posting my thanks for the month. Even though I am not posting them every day, I am truly thankful for all the good people and good things in my life and the smiles they bring me. <BR> The greastest lesson I have learned in my lifetime is that I can either dwell on the bad or focus on the good. I may not be able to change the situation, but I can change how I let it affect me. <BR> Life is too short...the world will continue to ... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 23:17:35 EST Giving Thanks - Thanksgiving Day I give thanks today for all the past Thanksgivings, Christmases, birthdays, births, graduations, weddings, anniversaries, and all the other celebrations I have been a part of throughout my lifetime…celebrations with family and friends…for accomplishments both big and small. By coming together in celebration, we come together in love. By celebrating the accomplishments of each other, we are celebrating lives well lived. I hope this Thanksgiving was one of those celebrations for you all. ... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 16:20:27 EST Giving Thanks - Days 19 & 20 Today I am doubly thankful because I am doubly blessed with two of the sweetest granddaughters a Grammy could ask for. <BR> <BR> My little redhead Jaylyn was truly a gift from above. She came into this world at one of the worst times in my life and she helped my heart to heal. The day she was born there was no room in the nursery at first, so I got to hold her for over an hour. As I sat in that OR holding her, looking at that sweet little face, touching those little cheeks, I fell insta... Wed, 21 Nov 2012 10:41:52 EST Giving Thanks - Day 18 Today I give thanks for my son. He came into this world right on time, looked around, and unceremoniously went straight to sleep. He slept most of the night right from the start. He was so quiet and mellow…little did we know what a tornado we had on our hands. <BR> <BR> He was mischievous, precocious and as one teacher told me “too darn cute and sweet to scold”. He went through his childhood full tilt, no holds barred. The “Nick Stories” are too numerous to relate. Here are two though ... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 21:21:54 EST Giving Thanks - Day 17 Today I give thanks for my daughter. She was born three weeks late, kicking and screaming all the way. My husband used to say she didn’t want to be born and she would crawl back in if she could. From the moment she came into this world, she was a momma’s girl. She always felt things very deeply and, just like her daddy, she “wore her heart on her sleeve”. She talked early and she walked early. She was always very serious and always talked very grown-up. I used to tell her she was an “o... Sat, 17 Nov 2012 21:54:29 EST Giving Thanks - Day 16 Today I want to give thanks for my stepfather, Doc. Even though we were all grown when he and my mom married, he loved us as his own. He was a wonderful grandfather who loved having family gathered round. He loved all his grandchildren dearly...and all his grandchildren loved him. He used to get such a kick out of the mischief that my son Nicholas was always getting into. <BR> He always had a funny story (or a corny joke) to tell you. He and my husband Doug used to see who could spin th... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 02:04:08 EST Giving Thanks - Day 15 Today I want to give thanks for my big sisters Louise and Earlene. I also want to give thanks that we are all still on this earth together. I can’t imagine life without them! There have been lots of ups and downs in all of our lives. Together we have celebrated the good times and together we have made it through the bad times. We have shared a lifetime together and we hold each others memories in our hearts. We are (and forever will be) "The Runions Girls”…and I wouldn’t have it any... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 01:31:11 EST Giving Thanks - Day 14 Today I give thanks for my father. He was the best daddy in the world! I lost him to cancer when I was only 21 years old, but his spirit and love will live in my heart forever. <BR> <BR> He was one of the most patient and kind men that I have ever known. That in itself is amazing considering he lived in a household full of women (think that is why he liked to go hunting and fishing a lot). <BR> <BR> He was a quiet, calm man that had the sweetest little smile. I can still see him smil... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 22:39:46 EST Giving Thanks - Day 13 Today I give thanks for my mother. I always loved her with all my heart, but as I have gotten older, I have learned to appreciate all she did for me and all the lessons she taught me. She loved us girls unconditionally and in her eyes we were always her "good girls". She spoke her mind (whether you wanted her or not), but she always spoke the truth. No one had better, ever hurt any of "her girls" or anyone else that she loved! <BR> I used to love to sit and listen to her stories about her... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 21:23:27 EST Giving Thanks - Day 12 Day 12 Thanks: Today starts my family thanks. I am so very thankful for my whole family...mother, father, sisters, grandparents, husband, daughter, son, grandchildren, cousins, nieces, nephews,and all the rest. Through the years they have loved me, consoled me, taught me, and entertained me. Together we have shared all of lifes through ups and downs. They helped make me into the person I am today. I love each and everyone of you with all my heart! Tue, 13 Nov 2012 21:21:16 EST 30 Days of Thanks: Day 11 Today is Veteran's Day and I want to give thanks to all the men and women who have put their lives in harm's way to serve and protect this great country of ours. They leave behind their own families to help others in far off unfamiliar places. They all deserve our utmost admiration and respect! <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> Sun, 11 Nov 2012 20:38:41 EST Giving Thanks Day 5-10 (forgot to post them...) OMG! I have forgotten to put my thanks into my blog. I did write them, but I just forgot to put them here in my blog. Old Lady Brain... I can't seem to make it work quite like it used to. <BR> <BR> Thanks Day 5: Today I give thanks for a very wonderful lady, Mrs.June Kerr, for a neighbor and a friend for many years. She had a heart of gold and a very tender heart...especially for children. She was someone with a "like mind" and I loved talking to her and listening to her take on world ... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 11:32:54 EST 30 Days of Tanks - Day 4 Today I give thanks to the ever evolving medical technology and to the doctors and nurses who have the knowledge and ability to use it to save lives. Special thanks to the ones looking after my great-nephew Timothy (who was born 3 months early and weighed only 1.5 lbs.) and all the other little ones that come into this work too soon or with disabilities. They help make miracles happen every day for families like my niece's. Also an extra thanks today for the people that envisioned the Rona... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 10:54:38 EST 30 Days of Thanks - Day 3 <em>465</em> Day 3: I am thankful to the brilliant minds that conceived of the internet and the world wide web. It has changed the way we all live, do business, and entertain. I personally can't remember how I got along without it. Through the internet, I was able to find my way to a group of people who helped me gain the strength to battle my children's drug addictions. It gave me the means to find out more about my husband's illness that the doctors ever told me. Through the in... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 16:44:46 EST 30 Days of Thanks - Day 1 Instead of just one day of giving thanks this month, I have decided to give thanks for one thing in my life each day of the month. They will be in no particular order...just what comes to mind each day. <BR> <BR> Day 1: I am thankful for having a good job with benefits (which enable me to have some of the other things I am thankful for). <BR> <BR> Day 2: I am thankful for the sunshine. It warms my body and my soul, even on a cold day like today. Fri, 2 Nov 2012 12:00:17 EST A Feeling Down Day I am having another "feeling down" day today. Don't know why they have been coming so often these days. To be honest yes I do, I just don't want to think about it. It seems that the world is passing me by...and I am letting it. My family has a very strong "hermit" gene. I thought I was one of the lucky ones that didn't get it, but I now know how wrong I was. <BR> <BR> I only had one really close friend growing up, but I had lots of aquiantances. I met my husband when I was only 16 an... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 01:48:06 EST National "Get Up and Ride" Campaign <img src=""> <BR> <BR> For all the bicyclists here at Sparks. There is a national challenge to join between May and August this year. You can do it solo or join a team. There are prizes given away each month of the challenge...even bikes. If you bike, why not add your miles here and join in the fun and prizes. Go to the site and read all about it. <BR> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> Sun, 27 May 2012 12:37:03 EST Week 3 of the "Tame Your Sweet Tooth" challenge...think my body (and mind) are finally "getting it"! As week three of this challenge is coming to a close I think the light bulb is finally coming on in my brain. I would be hasty to say my battle is won, but I am winning of few of the skirmishs along the way. <BR> <BR> I knew I loved sweets (always have, always will), I just didn't realize what a hold they had over me. I look back on things and it seems that the hold got so much worse after I moved to Ohio to work. <BR> <BR> I had always lived in the same place around my family and fri... Sat, 14 Apr 2012 20:55:57 EST Week 3 of the "Tame Your Sweet Tooth" challenge...having moderate success. I did pretty well with the sugar thing yesterday, but I have discovered that I am craving carbs more though, especially at night. I ate a serving of triscuit thins to try and satisfy that urge last night. I did eat my serving of dark choc. almonds which I spread out throughout the day and I indulged in a .5 serving of a generic Nutella before bedtime (less calories than the real thing). I ate a cup of grapes for an after lunch sweet treat. <BR> <BR> I didn't get to go biking last night wh... Wed, 11 Apr 2012 09:27:57 EST End of Week 2 of the "Tame Your Sweet Tooth" challenge...on to Week 3! Well, I went through week 2 for the second time with a little better success. I haven't bought any of the goodies at the local bakery like I had been before this challenge. That is a really hard thing for me to do because when I enter the grocery store, the bakery is right way to around it. <BR> <BR> See my problem is not what is in my house. I try not to keep anything here. My problem is what I buy when I go out. There are just too many goodies right there in front of me wh... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 11:05:59 EST THIS IS WAY HARDER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE!!!!!! I didn't realize that sugar was such a big part of my day, but it is! It seems the more I try not to think about it, the more it keeps creeping in. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had some sweet potato fries (baked) as a sweet treat. They were pretty tasty. I had an orange later in the night too, but I still wanted something sweet. I ended up finding two Keebler chocolate mint cookies in a baggie in my lunch box and ate those. Not great, but better than it could have been....there could have be... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 03:55:39 EST Didn't get to ride yesterday.... I had a plan to go bike riding yesterday before I came to work, but that didn't happen. I got home from work at 6:00am and went straight to bed. Usually I will wake up around noon which gives me plenty of time to wake up, have coffee and breakfast, and still get out for a ride before I go to work at 5:30pm. That didn't happen this time...I slept until almost 2:00pm. I was still trying to get ready and have a short ride, then I had a visitor which shot that idea down also. <BR> I guess m... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 03:29:56 EST Been MIA for the past week...not good for my plan! Seems I have been MIA for the past week. I was back home in VA with my children and grandchildren. Since I moved to OH to work in 2010, they have all lived in my house back in VA. I go home one week of every month to take of things back there. This is creating havoc with my weight loss and exercise plan. I know I should be able to manage, but I don't seem to be able to. It is not the physical change that is getting me as much as the switching my brain from being by myself to being in a ... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 15:09:47 EST Last Day of the First Week of the "Tame Your Sweet Tooth" Challenge Well the last day of my first week is here and boy have my eyes been opened to what I have been doing. It is no wonder I have gained weight. I have lost my sense of portion control where sweets are concerned. Oh I will have the right portion...and then I will have another right portion...and then maybe yet another one. If I try and resist the sweets, my mind will just race through everything else I have in the kitchen. I have found I might as well get the sweets before I eat a bunch of other ... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 16:10:57 EST Day Three of the "Tame Your Sweet Tooth" Challenge Well it has been three days since I started paying attention to just how much sugar I was consuming. I am finding that not only do I consume a good deal, but that I think about it way too much also. I know it is like any other addictions and the overwhelming desire will fade as I clean it out of my system, but the amount of time I was dedicating to these thoughts was disturbing. <BR> I am sitting here after supper craving something sweet like always. So far I haven't broke over, but it isn... Thu, 22 Mar 2012 21:26:13 EST First Day of My First Week on the "Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge" I have had a love affair with sweets for as long as I can remember. My family didn't believe the meal was over until there was something sweet consumed...even if it was just some sweet cooked apples. I feel empty even now if I don't get that sweet fix. <BR> I am not going to try and eliminate all my beloved sweets...just be a little more picky about what I eat and when I eat it. <BR> This is my first week of the "Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge". This week I am just suppose to monitor a... Tue, 20 Mar 2012 23:41:44 EST Schwinn Airdyne...not fancy, but it gets the job done! There is an old Schwinn Airdyne stationary bike in the control room at work. I finally decided after Christmas that I was going to use it to keep in shape for biking in the spring. It doesn't look like it would do much, but I am here to tell you that it can kick my butt. Thirty minutes on that thing at 50-55 RPMs and I am whipped. I can do 8.4 miles in 30 minutes, but it is tough. It has the arm poles, so my arms are getting a workout at the same time. Talk about making my heart pump! ... Sun, 22 Jan 2012 03:35:20 EST Happy Birthday (in heaven) to a Very Special Lady On this day in 1922, a very special person was born into this world. She would grow up during the depression. She was one of five daughters in a household where her father drank, and for some reason she was "the whipping boy" of the family. This made her a strong and independent minded woman. <BR> She was just 19 years old when she went to Canton, OH to live on her own, and work in at Republic Steel Mill during WWII. After the war she came back to VA and married her sweetheart home fro... Thu, 19 Jan 2012 13:44:36 EST New Year...New Goals...New Me! I am so glad to see the end of 2011! It has been a very rough and depressing year for so many people. I personally have struggled with family issues, money issues, and weight issues (the first two causing the third). <BR> <BR> There was one bright light. My newest granddaughter was born on Dec. 15th. Nothing like a new baby to make you see what is truly important in this world. <BR> <BR> I never really like making resolutions. I always make them with the best of intentions and then... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 09:07:49 EST July...Celebrating The Anniversaries of Three Big Moments in My Life! In the next couple of days I will be celebrating three very important events in my life. <BR> My baby boy turns 27 today. He has given me much joy, a few heartaches, lots of laughs, and many, many fond memories. <BR> Three years ago, on July 11, I found Sparks and it literally saved my life. Not only physically, but mentally. I was in a very dark place after my husband passed away after a long illness. It got even darker as I dealt with two kids with drug problems. I had lost myself ... Sat, 9 Jul 2011 02:24:12 EST A Little Chuckle for all of us over 50 out there IMPORTANT MESSAGE <BR> You've no doubt heard about people who have been abducted and had their kidneys removed by black-market organ thieves. <BR> <BR> My thighs were stolen from me during the night a few years ago. I went to sleep and woke up with someone else's thighs. It was just that quick. The replacements had the texture of cooked oatmeal. Whose thighs were these and what happened to mine? <BR> I spent the entire summer looking for my thighs. <BR> Finally, hurt and angry, I ... Sat, 30 Apr 2011 09:29:20 EST A New Plan I have decided that I needed to change up my plan a little. It has been a lot harder trying to get my "regained" weight off than it was the first time around. It was just down right depressing to see that 20 lbs. to lose...again. <BR> I have decided to try and lose it just 5 lbs. at time. I have also decided to give myself a little "treat" for each 5 lbs. I lose. Since I need some new biking things, I think that will be what I buy. I would like to have the weight off before I go on my ... Fri, 4 Mar 2011 21:39:01 EST 1/26/2011 Success and Fear In order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear of failure. <BR> Bill Cosby <BR> <BR> That is so true. Some days I think, why am I doing this. It is a lot of work. Why deprive myself of the things I like. Then I realize I will not be happy until I feel better about myself. To do that, I need to do I am still here fighting the fight. Wed, 26 Jan 2011 21:56:47 EST 1/24/2011 Thought for the Day and for the Year The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance. <BR> Alan Watts <BR> <BR> I am getting my dancing shoes out and polishing them up...lets start dancing! Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:45:20 EST