BIGMAMAT's SparkPeople Blog BIGMAMAT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Welcome November Hello November! So great to see you again. It's a great month to reflect on reasons to be thankful. Friends , Family, Sparkfriends, jobs, food in the fridge. So thankful I truly don't know what hungry is. On occasion, famished perhaps. Like the time I biked 15 miles one way and was completely HANGRY (so hungry your angry) when I arrived. lol. But food was never very far away. <BR> Still hurting from our accident in October but the pain is getting better than goodness. Yet another blessing.... Mon, 2 Nov 2015 23:25:49 EST Awesome hike today! <img src=""> <img src=""> Went to Cooper's rocks with my husband and son. Gorgeous day to be outside and enjoy. Hope y'all had a good day. Happy Sunday. Sun, 25 Oct 2015 19:09:03 EST Week 14 (lost some ground) Weight is up 2.5. Counting and moving forward and hopefully downward. Stress eating took over this weekend. Not going to lie, I was sooooo bad. <BR> Charlie and I were in an accident on Saturday night. The other driver was ticketed for failure to yield the right of way. Our vehicle was not drivable from the scene but just thankful to walk away!! could have been so much worse. <BR> We were on the way to take pictures of my son and his homecoming date. He was following behind us in his... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 09:44:38 EST Wonderful fall weather <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> hope you all are enjoying the fall as much as I am! Here are a couple pictures from our trip yesterday to Seneca rocks West Virginia and Spruce knob. Mon, 12 Oct 2015 07:17:03 EST Week 13 Gosh! I missed week 12 all together. I worked last weekend. When I work, not much time for anything else. <BR> This has been a very nonproductive week. I have been unmotivated. I have made NO progress toward weight loss since the beginning of October. The good news is , I'm holding steady. I put my stuff in the car to go to the gym yesterday and that's as far as I got. <BR> Still 20 pounds down. need to up my game. <em>386</em> Sat, 10 Oct 2015 06:58:14 EST Dealing with demons(anxiety) We all fight our own battles. I struggle with the ups and downs of emotions. Anxiety and depression. Some times we just need to call it like we see it. Over the years, I have dismissed this. You see, I grew up in a family that didn't talk about these things.... Suck it up butter cup. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and go forth and produce greatness.. In my parents generation, you didn't go there. Yes, everyone has that one crazy relative that isn't quite right. lol. <BR> <B... Fri, 2 Oct 2015 17:26:42 EST Goodbye September Enjoying my morning coffee this morning, reflecting on September. <BR> Total loss in September 6.5 pounds. for a total of 20 pounds. <em>250</em> <BR> <BR> Thanks friends for the support. <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> I would just like to say that I am not a fan of the scale. It makes me ride the ups and downs of weight loss but I also feel like it keeps me on track. But can I give it up completely? I don't think I can. I do need, however, to keep it into perspective. I am using it as... Thu, 1 Oct 2015 07:48:39 EST Today. I am so glad it's evening. No where left to go. Making supper. potato's, chicken(rotisserie , thank you Walmart. )beans and rolls. Hubby is hunting. two oldest are working. enjoying a nice cup of coffee on this rainy evening. <BR> Made an appointment 8 weeks ago to have my hair cut and colored this morning. <BR> My hair dresser forgot to show up? ummmm. <BR> <BR> called and made and appointment for the afternoon somewhere else. LOVE my hair. <em>41</em> I don't think I will ev... Wed, 30 Sep 2015 18:37:29 EST over weight children (sensitive subject ahead) The subject of over weight children has always been a sensitive subject for me. You see, I was one. For most of my life, I struggled with my weight. I was always active, but I liked to eat. Did I eat fruits and veggies?. Yes. But I lived for sweets. I grew up in a nice," normal" family for all its worth. No earth shattering trauma here. My mom and dad both worked, I was a only child. middle class America. Parents are still both alive and well, still married to this day. I do reme... Tue, 29 Sep 2015 08:55:03 EST feeling blah, but I'm still here. Week 11 feeling blah. Week 11 was by far my crapiest week yet. dealing with dad being sick and all the emotions that come with this really reaped havoc on my emotions this week. I understand that I am not alone with this. Stress/ emotional eating has always been my way to cope with stress. <BR> Eating feeds the emotional void temporarily but then comes the guilt. what a viscous cycle. <BR> Dad is doing much better. Blood pressure is under control and he's doing ok. <BR> This week was the buckwh... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 11:52:26 EST stress eating. well it started at midnight. I had a latte, cheese and salami wrap, and a donut.... <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Got a call from my mom that they were taking Dad to the hospital for chest pain. Ugh... He has a huge cardiac history. so while I was waiting for them to transfer him to a bigger/cardiac hospital which happened to be MY Hospital, my floor... <BR> So I ate.... <BR> Drove my mom the second hospital. Up late, didn't get home and in bed till 330 am... Tired. So I ate. <BR> Back to... Tue, 22 Sep 2015 21:20:56 EST week#10 Starting Weight : 243 <BR> <BR> Today's weight: 222 <BR> <BR> This weeks weight loss : 1 # <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Total weight loss : 21 # <BR> <BR> OK week. Making more healthy food choices most of the time. <BR> <BR> Love this weather for biking. Went on anther long 20 mile bike ride with my son. Love the deckers creek trail which winds beside of a gorgeous creek with rocks an mountain laurel. It is so wonderful to get to spend some one on one time with him. They grow up so fas... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 21:09:39 EST week #9 Week 9 of exercising more than 100 minutes a week. <em>319</em> <BR> <BR> Day 67 of log in streak. <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> As I blogged earlier in the week, 20 pounds lost. <em>192</em> <BR> <BR> Looking back, I haven't been 223 since 2013. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Eating has always been my biggest challenge. MINDLESS grazing . I bite of this, OH you know , just one more donut, crazy carb/sugar addict here. Making better choices., for the most part. Claiming EVERY victory.... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 09:04:44 EST Offically lost 20 pounds! SOOOOO, It's official. I have lost 20 pounds!!! Woohoooo!! <em>9</em> <BR> <BR> I am sooo excited. <em>248</em> <BR> I have not always eaten perfectly, but even with THOSE days, I am losing weight. This journey is not only about weight loss, it is about balance and choices. Will I go through life without eating cake? <em>35</em> Ummmm, No. So I will keep on pushing forward. <em>386</em> <BR> <BR> It's my goal to lose another 4 pounds this month. Thanks for all the suppo... Fri, 11 Sep 2015 10:50:46 EST week #8 Happy Weekend everyone. I have been trying to blog so I can reflect weekly on my progress. <BR> Starting weight- #243 <BR> Today's weight- #223.5 <BR> Total weight loss- 19.5 pounds. Yay! <em>9</em> <BR> <BR> Feeling lighter. People are starting to notice. I can really tell my scrubs are fitting better. I hate the roller coaster ride I'm on with the scales though.... My time of the month really effects what I see on the scale. FLUCTUATION drives me CRAZY! Anyway, I'm down. <B... Sat, 5 Sep 2015 15:26:31 EST Fiber So I was looking though the challenges and happened across one that looked easy . Basically a fiber challenge . I reviewed my last several days of eating and realized that it my truly be a CHALLENGE! <em>246</em> <BR> I don't think I actually hit my 25 grams of fiber all month long! Anyway, almost bailed but this might actually be fun. I picked high fiber foods to play catch up today . I think focusing more on my meals should be more priority than exercise this month. <BR> I have bee... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 13:47:55 EST week 7 Hi friends. time for a quick blog. Reflecting on this week. <BR> Had to change my schedule up this week because my parents came up and spent the night with us. Dad had a Dr. appointment. No surgery for now. He has a large aortic aneurysm but surgery is last resort since he has had extensive heart surgery before. <BR> So we wait... Wait till it's last resort. <BR> So loss of routine and stress equals decreased activity, lack of planning, and poor choices. <BR> Current weight 228. <BR>... Sun, 30 Aug 2015 22:34:51 EST Stay in the present. I was reviewing my goal board today and this one popped up. STAY IN THE PRESENT. <em>52</em> <BR> <BR> I have always been a planner, trying to figure out the next step. That's just me. Planning is not a bad thing, but dwelling on things that happened yesterday, or focusing too much on tomorrow steals our Joy! <BR> <BR> Psalm 118:24 This is the day which the LORD hath made; We will rejoice and be glad in it. <BR> <BR> Wishing everyone a great day! <em>247</em> Mon, 24 Aug 2015 10:14:16 EST Awesome active day 14986 steps so far today! Worked last night, got groceries and put them away on the way home. Slept for 4.5 hrs and woke up to an empty house... Decided to take a hike at a nearby State park. <img src=""> <BR> Sun, 23 Aug 2015 21:25:43 EST Weekends with Bigmamat (#6) Happy Saturday my sparkfriends! How's everyone doing? I'm happy with this weeks progress. <BR> I pulled the bike out of the building! <em>217</em> Love, Love, Love to ride. <BR> I try to have a me day when kids go back to school, so I planned a trip to a nearby town on the rail trail and had breakfast at a quaint little cafe . My friend bailed at the last minute but guess what? <BR> I WENT ANYWAY! 16 miles, and loved every minute. I enjoyed my day so much. <em>41</em> <BR> Also, ... Sat, 22 Aug 2015 07:31:54 EST baby chick Totally nonweight related, but thought I'd share my baby! <img src=""> I can hear chirping from one more egg, so maybe by the end of the day we'll have two! <em>26</em> Sun, 16 Aug 2015 11:03:07 EST weekends with bigmamat(#5) We'll, anyway you slice it, I'm up a pound this week. No Excuses. Reflection. And Redirection. <BR> Weighing in and moving on! I work the next two nights so going to try and get some more sleep. 229# this week. <em>24</em> <BR> Striving for 4 days at the gym this week. 10000 steps a day and within calorie range. <BR> Hows everyone doing? <em>213</em> <em>220</em> <em>386</em> Sat, 15 Aug 2015 14:54:10 EST weekend with Bigmamat # 4 Well the good news is I made it to my pre-injury weight! Yay!! <BR> Went to our family reunion and unfortunately didn't eat carefully. probably not as bad as I think but I was unable to count my food. I stepped on the scale tonight which was a mistake.... <BR> <BR> Totally committed to getting back on program tomorrow. Will weigh again next weekend. Hope all is going well with you. <em>213</em> Sat, 8 Aug 2015 23:30:59 EST Weekends with Bigmamat (#3) Hey Sparkfriends! <em>213</em> Excited to do the weekend blog. <BR> Good bye July! <em>253</em> <BR> <em>524</em> August! <BR> <BR> July has been my friend. A fresh start, a new perspective, a new Motto, a new beginning. <BR> <BR> Started at 243# <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> LOST 11# <em>521</em> <BR> <BR> Current weight 232# <em>192</em> <BR> <BR> GAINED endurance and perspective. <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> I wanted to lose 8 pounds .Met my weight loss goal for J... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 17:24:51 EST SKINNY GIRLS EAT CAKE, WHY CAN'T THE CHUNKY GIRL HAVE A DOUGHNUT? I am feeling thankful for this site this morning and all the fabulous sparkpeople I have met along the way. <BR> I am treating everyday as a new start, making positive choices and it's showing. 10 pounds down! Woohooooo!!!!! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> I realized after reading other people's blog and evaluating my yo-yo ways, that what I was feeling after LETTING myself have that doughnut was guilt. Why should I feel guilty about having ONE doughnut.? It's not like I do it everyday and I o... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 09:31:46 EST Tomorrows a new day. Tomorrow is a new day. Thank goodness. after working the last two days, I decided that this morning I would allow myself a doughnut on the way home. Just one. <em>473</em> <BR> Why? After two very long night-shifts I felt like i could splurge a little. <BR> Why does one splurge lead to another? <BR> Weakness.... <BR> Ate my doughnut on the way to pick up and deliver the boys to band. had a complete melt down because I couldn't find my wallet which turned out to be in DH vehicle . ... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 23:13:52 EST Weekends with Bigmamat (#2) I am blogging a few days early. (No it's not Sunday yet. LOL) <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> I lost one more pound this week for a total of 8 pounds which was my first goal! Yay!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I have exercised like a mad woman <em>198</em> , but unfortunately I have also eaten like one. Not really, but I did go over my calories a couple of days. I'm tracking though. <BR> <BR> Worked really hard to try and get the family a little more active this week. We went and played tenn... Fri, 24 Jul 2015 23:23:34 EST Fantastic Day! Up early today. Middle child had to be at band camp at 630 this morning and its about 1 hr and 20 minutes away. THAT'S REALLY EARLY!!! <em>102</em> I really enjoyed the ride there talking to him, (really the only way to get quality time with a teen is trapped in the car, lol) <BR> Then I went to my mom and dads for a surprise visit. They loved it. They were eating breakfast, so we had coffee and enjoyed the time. Mom and I took a nice walk and had some alone time to talk which was reall... Mon, 20 Jul 2015 22:02:59 EST Weekends with Bigmamat(#1) Good morning Sparkfriends! I have decided that I will make a weekly blog on the weekends so I can share(and track) my progress and so you can share yours! I am, once again, happy and excited to be on this weightloss journey. <BR> <BR> My goal is to lose 8 pounds a month, which is 2 pounds a week. I have lost 7 pounds in July so far. <em>334</em> Still waiting on the next pound to drop off. <em>386</em> <BR> I have a digital scale and it kills me when I see a glimmer of that nex... Sun, 19 Jul 2015 09:42:45 EST Success is so much more than a number on a scale A number is only a number. That's right. I said it. There are so many things I love about this site. <em>252</em> <BR> I love it that people from all walks of life can come together with the same goal " to be healthy". Yes, weight loss may be important, but when I read the success stories, that's not the only thing I see. People in these stories talk about their improved health, and the increased ability to do things. Lower blood pressure, lower blood sugar, normal cholesterol levels... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 20:02:21 EST REBOOT TIME Came back from vacation refreshed and renewed. After my birthday I decided its time to press the restart button. Here we go . Hold on tight! Personally I find a direct correlation with my weight and confidence and happiness. I have always felt that people treat me different when I'm heavier. TRUTH. But then it occurred to me that MAYBE I'm more likeable when I'm thinner. <BR> <BR> Maybe my attitude is better when I'm thinner. <em>40</em> So my goal is to work on being positive. Mak... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 00:34:12 EST feeling blue So, My last status was 19 days ago. ugh. I have had a big set back again. I feel like a broken record. I cycle so badly. I was doing soooo good and BAM. set backs happen. I hurt myself at work. long story. pulled a hamstring and hurt my back. Super sad. I was off a week and then had to go back because I don't have FMLA, haven't been there a year yet. Anyway, Still having major pain issues so could use some extra prayer. Love you lots. And please pray I get a handle on this eating! ... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 22:59:34 EST work, work work.... So I got on to spend a little spark time and realized that I hadn't been on for 6 days! what's that. lol. Then I realized that I worked Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. 12 hr shifts. So that explains my absence . I need to get back on track. Not that I have been bad, exactly, just not good. lol <BR> I went to the gym today but only for 40 minutes. Just busy. <BR> <BR> The good news is that I found a buyer who wants to buy all of my eggs. lol. I sold 5 1/2 dozen today! Yay!!! . So once... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 20:01:01 EST busy day Feeling accomplished today! woke up early. Enjoyed to morning solitude. so nice. might be my favorite time of the day. Sent the boys off to school. Delivered 5 dozen eggs. (which cleared out my fridge a good bit) Went to the gym and did one hour of cardio. A friend saw me in the locker room and asked me if I showered. Um, no, that's sweat! Yay!! <BR> picked up the boys from the bus since school let out early due to rains/ and flooding in the area. snow in the forecast tonight. made sup... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 15:33:35 EST Last day of February I can't believe February is gone! Looking forward to a wonderful March full of mild weather(insert optimism hear) It has been a bitterly cold February full of snow. <BR> <BR> As I wrote in my last Blog, Not the weight loss that I wanted but moving forward. 9 in January, 4.5 in February = 13.5. I'll take it! Double digits baby! Woot, Woot. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Every pound gone is a victory! Thinking positive thoughts. <BR> <BR> My goals for March? Thinking positive. Movin... Sat, 28 Feb 2015 07:53:10 EST moving forward Moving forward. Straight ahead. The road is rocky, lots of hills but beautiful all the same. <BR> Extremely slow weight loss and progress.... With today being the 24th, reality is hitting hard. Not going to meet goal this month. THIS is ok. Moving forward. <BR> <BR> What could I have done differently. Honestly, I think the sweet splurges (sugar cravings, ugh) got me this month. Cold and snowy.... I hate to even step out of the house on those days. Just coming off a big work stretch. <... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 09:18:22 EST Triple Yoke(non weightloss related blog from Crazy Chicken Lady!) Ok, no question what this one is about! <em>30</em> might as well have been a golden egg. I'm so darn excited. <BR> <BR> TRIPLE YOKE!!! No joke. <img src=""> <img src=""> Sun, 15 Feb 2015 15:46:24 EST Mid February Blog Happy Valentines day! So this morning I weighed in at 12 pounds down since the first of the year. Yay! Right on target. February loss has been slow. I was one pound past goal in January so I am right where I need to be. 9 last month, 3 this month =12. Goal for the end of February is 16 total. <BR> <BR> 4 more pounds. <BR> <BR> I think I can, I think I can, I think I can..... <BR> <BR> Hubby bought me a fit bit for our anniversary today! Woot, woot! so excited. Maybe this will he... Sat, 14 Feb 2015 21:38:57 EST Hello February!!! Come share your goals with me. Welcome February! Statistics show that people who write down there goals are more successful. So here we go! Let's share. <BR> In January I lost 9 pounds. Yay! My goal was 8 pounds down so I am soo happy to have met that. <em>104</em> <em>521</em> <BR> I would like to add that my 11 year old has been carefully watching what he has been eating and he lost 10.5!! So proud of him. <BR> <BR> So that brings me to February. <BR> <BR> I am hoping for an 8 pound weight loss. <e... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 12:00:12 EST favorite things. I always seem to go in cycles with my food choices. I get a favorite thing, eat the heck out of it, get tired of it, then move on to something else. Does anyone else do this? <BR> <BR> Thank goodness I have left the donut phase. <em>473</em> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> So I have discovered that I love coconut oil. Just a little dab will do ya, and its suppose to be good for you so I have been using it will my scrambled eggs and sautéed shrimp in it the other day. Yummmy! <em>4</em> ... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 08:33:17 EST Mid January Mid January update. Its cold here. I guess it's cold most places, it is January! <BR> I was so excited to get my Spark activity tracker, but of course after a couple of days its gone! I've lost it. The crazy thing seems to come and go from my kitchen where my computer is, because it is syncing periodically? I think my dog ate it! <em>40</em> <BR> I have done well but the last couple of days made some poor eating choices( I am tracking them even though I'm not proud of them).Trackin... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 17:27:12 EST January Hi friends! Happy New Year. Looking forward to see what 2015 brings. 2014 brought some big changes for me. I resigned my position with Hospice and went back to work at the hospital. I am finally adjusting to my new job and settling in. love the 12 hr shifts. more days at home to enjoy the things that really matter. <BR> I got a Spark people activity tracker for Christmas and joined planet fitness! So excited. looking forward to great things to come this Year and moving forward with you a... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 22:39:44 EST Why not? No better time than the present to be mindful of my eating . Most of you know that I am a nurse and I work at the hospital. With the holidays fast approaching, everyone visits their loved one in the hospital. AND to show their appreciation, they bring food, and LOTS of it. And you guessed it, Candy , cakes, pies, cookies, cookies, cookies. All, my weakness...... <BR> So I have a choice, I can gain the Holiday 10 or I can lose it. I am choosing to LOSE it. My goal(success rate goes up when ... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 19:00:03 EST weight loss and work update Hi everyone! Missing the good old days. Hope all is well with all of you! I haven't been on here for a while so I thought I would blog to let you all know what's going on with me. <BR> I started Midnights (3 12 hour shifts a week) and I am much enjoying my days off! Today is the first day of 6 off, happy girl right here! <em>100</em> <BR> I am planning to enjoy some of this "almost fall" weather. <em>465</em> <BR> <BR> As for the work, I have always enjoyed being a nurse. Hands on... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 16:12:46 EST First day at my new job Hi everyone! How was your Monday? I am blogging to update you on the changes in my life. I am so happy to say I survived my first day at my new job! <BR> <BR> It felt so strange to be the new kid on the block.. But, I survived and it was good! I am home early(which never happened at my other job) AND I ate good today! Soooo Happy! I finally feel like I am going to turn my life around. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday everyone. Mon, 30 Jun 2014 17:13:18 EST Time off Well Ladies, I've finally taken the plunge. I have been incredibly unhappy for about a year now. Struggling with with decisions. I have excepted a new job! <BR> <BR> I am going back to the hospital where I started out my nursing career. I am going to work 3 x 12 hr shifts . I need my life back! I need time off! Right now I am finding myself working 5x12 hr shifts, so anything would be an improvement. <BR> <BR> I don't start till June 30th so I am waiting a couple of weeks to put in... Fri, 30 May 2014 05:56:58 EST Time passing by Hi sparkfriends. I cant believe its been a month since I've been on. Hope everyone that's on and reading this is enjoying the signs of spring. I thought I would write a blog to let everyone know what's been going on in my life. <BR> <BR> As some of you know, I have been struggling with my job since starting with the new company in November. Lots of changes, difficulties and challenges. Working long hours. adjusting to full time. <BR> <BR> I am finally settling in to my new role. I h... Sun, 4 May 2014 19:40:11 EST reaching out for recipes Hi everyone! I am working full time now and I'm reaching out for support. I am struggling with how to get everything done. I have always been fortunate to work part time but recently upgraded to full time status.... I have been putting in 40 hrs plus a week and I am praying that as I get the hang of the job, the requirement will be less. I miss you all bunches.... I miss time at home taking care of things and I hate delegating . <BR> I really am looking to you all for your go to rec... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 22:30:42 EST Instant weight loss plan.... So, Unfortunately I have found a weight loss plan that is fool proof. At work Thursday, I was eating a small candy cane, and the cap on my tooth came off. It's a back tooth and it has had a root canal so it doesn't hurt but they can't get me in until Monday. This happened Thursday . I'm thinking, REALLY? I think it's a crazy that Monday is the first day they can see me??? What the heck. Ok. So I made a big pot of "skinny soup", put it in the blender and poof. Instant weight loss pla... Sat, 7 Dec 2013 18:39:00 EST busy life.... I don't know how we could be busier!!! This is cooper. Our new pound puppy. Boxer and???? Anyway. The good news is I am walking more, the bad news, I have no time!!! lol. I still miss my beloved LAB Sandy more than i ever thought I would, but this little guy is easing the heart ache. Hope this finds you well. Hugs. Tricia <img src=""> <img src=""> Sat, 28 Sep 2013 19:39:12 EST