BHAYES218's SparkPeople Blog BHAYES218's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Staying out of my own way Nothing is holding me down except me. I know its time to own up to my excessive over eating. And I intend on making a stand for myself against myself! Thu, 17 Dec 2015 22:39:47 EST Starting over for the hundredth time! Here I go again. Lost my way and now I'm back. I lost 100 lbs 2years ago with sleeve. Now I've put 10 lbs back on and I still needed to lose another 100. So I'm ready to get back on track. Mon, 7 Dec 2015 07:55:05 EST I've been gone far too long! <img src=""> Hello sparks people! I've been away from sparks for almost two years, and didn't know I would have missed it so much. I took a couple of days getting myself reacquainted with all the new features it took me a min to even find out how to post a blog lol😊. I did get my weight loss surgery and I've lost 105 lbs. I still have at least another 100 to lose. Sat, 15 Aug 2015 21:52:00 EST Glad to be back Hello everyone, I'm so glad to be back, <em>30</em> I physically haven't been anywhere just got off track. <BR> I been so wrapped up in trying to get my weight loss surgery I put my computer aside and was running around it seems everyday, from one doctor appt. to another <em>282</em> seems to be a never ending journey. <em>39</em> I'm back now and ready to move on and get back to losing weight. I haven't given up on getting the gastric bypass surgery but, I know I need to keep mo... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 13:08:05 EST Can't shake this cough!! The flu took me for a loop, but I still can't get this cough under control. It feels like I'm trying to get a cold or the flu again, which I sure hope is not happening <em>39</em> <BR> one plus from the flu is I lost about 10 lbs. and my appetite is still not back, so I eat a lot less still <em>9</em> Mon, 4 Mar 2013 22:22:59 EST I'm still standing Hello everyone, I have had a long month away. First my computer died, then I came down with the worst case of flu, I have ever had in my life. <em>24</em> <BR> But I now have a brand new dell, and i'm feeling much much better <em>224</em> Tue, 26 Feb 2013 17:39:02 EST KEEPING IT MOVING!!! I'm still going strong, I know I got to keep it moving and stick to the plan. I had a long weekend and a lot of stumbling, but I was not going to let myself fall <em>319</em> I bought me a exercise ball having fun bouncing it...LOL Wed, 23 Jan 2013 21:15:33 EST Feeling it!! I'm still feeling the effects of my exercise from yesterday but I didn't let it stop me from moving my body today. I didn't do any regular exercise today but what I did instead is house cleaning. I kept my body moving today as much as I could. <em>183</em> Baby steps. <BR> One thing I do know is that I wanted to do more, that's what made me feel good today. Knowing that I was not discouraged by the soreness from yesterday <em>386</em> Sun, 20 Jan 2013 17:07:56 EST exercise OMG! I went to a RNY support meeting today come to find out it was a meeting to help you start your exercise program. An that's what they had use doing EXERCISING!!.. I knew it was time for me to start, but I didn't know how much work it I got through it well, but when I got home I took a shower and then a nap, when I woke up I was in so much pain, I couldn't even move my fingers or toe' I had to take a few tylenol before I could get up. I'm not going to let it discourage me ... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 23:30:23 EST I'M Happy !! Down 13 lbs..!! Fri, 18 Jan 2013 16:56:49 EST Ducking and dodging I really didn't realize how many fast food places I pass just on my way to work and back. Its crazy, I have been taking the long way to work and back to keep the temptation down. So far so good. I have only stopped at Mcdonald's on way to work a few times but only got an unsweetened tea. I recently started making my own tea at home and taking it with me to keep from stopping for anything. Today after work it popped in my head to stop at checkers for an Ice cream cone <em>18</em> I made... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 21:42:07 EST Tired woke up feeling out of sorts this morning. It might had something to do with a 2am on-call One good thing is that I have not been hungry all day. I have only been able to eat about 800 cal. when I'm trying to stick to at least 1200. I weighted myself sunday and was down 2 lbs.. <em>244</em> hope to get more sleep tonight. <BR> Mon, 14 Jan 2013 22:04:59 EST my first video first video <BR> This is the first video of many to come, documenting my weight loss journey. This is a change of life for me not just another diet. Sat, 12 Jan 2013 00:27:57 EST to video or not to video? My sister has been on me to video document my weight loss journey. I'm not sure if I really want to, only because I'm still not comfortable with the way I looK . I've been telling myself, that it doesn't matter what I look like now because I know I'm going to look 100% better when I'm down a few 100 pounds..LOL <BR> This still doesn't help how I feel <em>39</em> . so far I've been lucky, I made my first short video but me or my sister weren't able to get it to upload. <BR> WHAT ... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 00:20:32 EST walking the walk I had to go grocery shopping today and was able to walk through the whole store and bag my groceries before having to sit down. <em>104</em> another mile stone down. <em>48</em> <BR> I figure if I keep track of the mile stones it will help me continue on and be more aware of where I came from. Wed, 9 Jan 2013 20:07:22 EST doing good! I had another good day. packed my breakfast and lunch for work for the second day. I have not stopped at any fast food places, nor do i plan to. I read on one persons blog that she was able to put on her pants when she is standing up. it may sound like a small goal but it feels good when you achieve it, I'm not there yet, <em>39</em> but i did have a mile stone today I was able to get from the couch up without holding on to my coffee table <em>41</em> . <BR> <BR> I have been feeling th... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 19:51:51 EST I'm back! I'm back, I have strayed away for far too long. I am ready to start a new, phase in life. I plan to work toward getting gastric bypass surgery. Its not something i just decided, I had started the process in 2008, but my health insurance got dropped by my employer. So almost a years of worth of work trashed. I tried not to let that get me down, I continued to yo-yo diet for years. I was able to lose 30 lbs in 2010, I got down from 398 lb to 368 lb but gained it back and more. I started ... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 23:23:25 EST