BFLY2012's SparkPeople Blog BFLY2012's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My tantrum & addiction I haven't been having the best week, I'll admit it. <BR> <BR> I signed up Wednesday to take a Circuit Training class at my gym. It's late enough that DH is always home by then, so I figure, no problem, and even let him know what time the class is. He didn't get home in time (and he is chronically late for things anyway, and I do take it personally like his time is more important than anyone elses') and I missed the class. I was dressed and ready to go. I had put on my shoes and was ready... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 13:22:21 EST What does it mean when you dream... ... that you are looking in the mirror and are admiring your very toned and shapely derriere (that I am most definitely at least 60 lbs away from)?! Hahahahaha!!! <BR> <BR> <em>246</em> <BR> Tue, 30 Oct 2012 14:07:48 EST Seeing changes! I can see changes!! It's so motivating. My shirts fit better, my pants fit better, I stand taller. I haven't been seeing big numbers on the scale, but my workouts are definitely showing how my body is changing. The stretched out 2-baby belly is tightening. My "butt shelf" as I call it (spare tire anyone??) is flattening. I am down a size. It's strange that the scale isn't moving more, but at this point I don't care. I feel good. Thu, 18 Oct 2012 10:39:58 EST Obesity and insurance-someone explain this to me. QUITE frustrated. Here I am, about 90 lbs overweight. I am exercising, changing my eating habits, not seeing much in the way of results. So, a month or two back I checked out surgical weight loss options--gastric bypass. I am a candidate, with my BMI, sleep apnea, depression. Unfortunately, my insurance doesn't cover "morbid obesity treatment" How?? How can something simply described as leading to DEATH, not be covered in insurance???? Oh, our privately paying company that DH works fo... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 14:05:35 EST You know you are fat when... ... you have to double-bag your boobs for a workout! Mon, 27 Aug 2012 17:14:45 EST The friends and family we leave behind online I've been very active online on one of Sparkpeople's sister sites,, for, you guessed, TTC and pregnant ladies, since I became preggo with Squishy in the summer of '08. I met an amazing group of women on the site in the Due Date month group that I still talk to daily. I just had one family over at our house from Canada (I live at the beach!) for their vacation. We are very tight. When I became pregnant a 2nd time in 2011, I joined the Due Date club for September 2011. Again, t... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 14:32:50 EST Pulled inner thigh muscle Gah! I knew it. I totally pulled an inner thigh muscle doing stupid Bob Harper's Weight Loss Yoga on Tuesday. First, it was a mild irritation, but on my run today I fully aggravated it or something because I am in paiiiiiin! Ice, ice baby, I know. Pissed. From now on, GENTLE yoga. Mon, 20 Aug 2012 17:55:26 EST A terrible eating day did not destroy my drive You know how it goes: Day starts out like any other, proud that I ate a healthy, satisfying, and most important, a super deeelicious breakfast but ends with 2 slices of pepperoni, a breadstick, and a glass of Ginger Ale. OH WELL, I say, OH FREAKING WELL! <BR> <BR> I got up this morning and was still fat, so I had to get up and keep making choices. Every meal time. And was I going to go OH BOO FREAKING HOO now I'll eat cookies and ice cream for breakfast because I'll never succeed? NO. ... Sat, 18 Aug 2012 13:05:40 EST The perpetual question: "What's wrong with me???" GAH! I just ate about a cereal bowl full of Reese's Puffs straight from the box... and I regret it so much! I wish I could just turn back the clock 30 minutes and realize that I got through anxious moments WORSE than that without resorting to a futile attempt at "filling" myself up. Whatever. Lesson learned. And, that's not why I am asking, "What's wrong with me?????" <BR> <BR> I actually had a great day today. I feel in sync and content, not obsessing over food, my body begging me to ... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 20:59:26 EST