BF20PERCENT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BF20PERCENT BF20PERCENT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ A work in progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495723 Here I am almost to the end of September, I am trying to see what I can do before 2013 is over. I lost some weight over the summer but gained some back due to getting too comfortable with new skinny me. My lowest wt for this summer was 132.4 in Aug. 23 and the highest after the wt loss was 145.2 in Sept. 14. Wow, that's a lot of wt gain in a very short time. That's about 13 pounds increase in 3 weeks. I blame eating too many cheesecakes and eating out a lot. <BR> I weigh average 140 po... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 09:57:31 EST Transformation Challenge until June 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5243168 I signed up for a 'transformation motivation by June 1'. I am hoping to lose 10-15 pounds by then. My B-Day is a couple days after that deadline so, I really want to finish this challenge with a big wt loss. I made my mind up to eat very blend meals. Thru a course of binges, I noticed whenever I eat spicy, salty or any strong flavor food, it causes me to eat more other food. Therefore I will avoid spicy food, which is salty usually, like a poison. Don't know how it will be but I don't k... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 18:35:16 EST Transformation: Phase I-Valentine's Day Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5200110 I want to transform my body this year. First phase will be 'controlling my appetite'. I always thought I burn off calories I ate by exercising but I didn't and couldn't; I eat way too much. So for this phase, I will concentrate on eating right. "Right" I meant, eating within daily allowed calories, eating more protein, eating more fiber, eating more good fat and drinking lots of water. I will not drink soda. It will be hard because I like to drink diet soda but it makes my stomach bloat... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 09:00:10 EST Lifting weight makes me to overeat? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5067025 I lost weight before by not eating properly. But I gained it back and more. This time around, I want to lost fat by eating well and lifting weights. I am reading more about fitness and learned that I need to build muscle because as you get older you lose muscle mass and that means you cannot eat as much :-) <BR> So, I try to do ST three times a week and every time I lift weights I get sore(that's good, I'm lifting heavy) and I want to eat all day LONG. I didn't notice it before but as I d... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 21:56:08 EST Size matters http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5013604 On Saturday, I went to mall to eat not to shop. There is a Japanese buffet restaurant in the mall which is very nice. I haven't been there for a couple years and my DH wanted to go there since I like sushi. Anyway, we had about 45 minutes before the restaurant to open for lunch. (We got there early because I had a medical test that morning and it was done early.) To kill the time, I went to shop for clothes. I don't need any new clothes but, why not? I bought a skirt from H&M which mad... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 13:12:48 EST Free Gold's Gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4486623 I was looking for a local gym and found out that Gold's gym offer a free 7 day pass. I could not pass up the 'free' stuff. So I went to the gym yesterday and had a free body assessment. The gym associate (I don't think she is a PT) measured my body fat in 7 different places and told me I'm 30% bf. Well, that is lower than what my home scale says. I'm happy that I am not fat as I thought but I am weaker than I thought. Before my appointment, I did my ST and light cardio at home. The a... Thu, 15 Sep 2011 13:57:13 EST My TOM is affecting my mood ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4428299 I was doing good until Saturday. Then yesterday, I got my period and my mood swings 180 degrees and I became a self hater. I don't want to do anything good for me. I just wonder why I live in this earth. I never loved myself because of my weight. I never thought I was beautiful. <BR> I hear many times you have to love yourself first. Why is it so hard for me to love me? I just want to crawl back in the bed and sleep all day. I don't want to do anything. I am very negative, I know. ... Mon, 15 Aug 2011 12:59:58 EST Get serious! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4334545 It's July 1st. I didn't lose any wt in June. Actually I lost some but gained it back. Now I'm 177 pounds. I still keep my wt scale in my sparkpage as 170 that's how low I was in June. I will get there soon and lose more in July. <BR> I need to get serious. Seriously! Fri, 1 Jul 2011 07:35:16 EST New Diet- put a game face on! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4273472 This morning I blogged about my wt loss challenge with my DH. Well, today I was okay until lunch time then it went all down. I ate like crazy and after dinner, I wanted to eat something sweet so, my DH made chocolate chip cookies. Isn't that crazy or what?! <BR> It's only 2nd day of our challenge and we are bad influence to each other. That's not the way. I will win and he will win too. I need to be strong so that we both can make a healthy choice on food and need to be more serious abo... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 20:50:17 EST Weight loss challenge now to September 23 with hubby http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4271836 I planned to lose 40 pounds in 40 weeks and I haven't lost any wt. Actually I gained some weight. I got to get serious. <BR> My in-laws are coming to see our new house in Sept and my DH and I are decided to lose weight together. He is aiming for 15 pounds and for me, it is 30. I need to lose more but it's about 4 months away and I don't want to set up unrealistic goals. We are big on snacks, especially at night. So, we promised each other that there will be no snacking after 7pm. Just ... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 07:55:07 EST 40 lbs down in 40 weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4128359 So, there are 40 weeks left for 2011 including this week. I am planning to lose a pound a week for the rest of this year. That means 40 pounds down and it puts me around 120. I weighed that much in 2002 and it lasted about 2 months. This time, I will be in 120's by end of this year and maintain the weight forever. <BR> A pound a week loss sounds very realistic to me. Let's just go for it!!! <BR> <BR> Update: April 1 <BR> Today I weigh 174.6 lbs from binging 2 days straight. So, if I ... Wed, 30 Mar 2011 06:49:05 EST March Madness: 28 days diet makeover http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4056866 Day 1 <BR> I didn't follow my weight loss plan at all in February. I ate good and bad (mostly bad). I exercised 2/3 month everyday. But I still gained weight due to lack of willpower and discipline. <BR> Today I weigh 177.8lbs. It is 14 pounds up since I recorded my wt. I will blog every day following my high protein, lower carb diet plan. <BR> March 28th is a special day for me and I am shooting to lose 15lbs by then. I never lost any more than 5 pounds a month so, this will be a cha... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 09:45:39 EST 100% Committed, Smart Eating, Workout, Fit Body, Healthy You, Look Great, and Happy Life! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3976913 I cut up some words from the magazine the other day and posted as one of my pic on SP. <BR> <BR> I will commit to a new plan 100% <BR> by eating smart, <BR> by working out <BR> and I'll have a fit body and will be healthy <BR> I'll look great (look as gorgeous in the mirror as I feel inside) <BR> and have a HAPPY life! <BR> <BR> I never committed myself 100% to anything for wt. loss. This time I will. I am not just 'potential' but a 'proof'. <BR> <BR> Here's my Day 1 pic. <BR> <img sr... Mon, 31 Jan 2011 11:20:22 EST Get motivated...Watch this! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3955705 I saw this and pumped up. <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=GvnzmNy2ce0 </link> <BR> <BR> Are you ready to lose weight? <BR> Let's go!!! <BR> <BR> ***I am not supporting the ad in the end of the video. Mon, 24 Jan 2011 10:46:24 EST Losing focus...I need HELP! But who will? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3939905 I watched "Biggest Loser" and I now have no feeling about that show any more. I used to cry with them and got excited as much as the contestants about losing weight. This morning, I am eating my cake(7:30 AM) and saying to myself 'whatever...' <BR> I am having night mares about my weight and I can't focus on 'living healthy'. One time, it was long, long ago, I had a dream that I broke the scale because I weighed too much. I was so scared even though it was just a dream. I lost weight. ... Wed, 19 Jan 2011 08:31:42 EST Week 2: Binges and Exercises http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3926712 I maintained my last wk wt loss this wk. I should lose more this week but I overindulged myself with lots of fried food. I knew I had to work out a lot to even keep my wt from last week so I exercised my butt off. Well, I'm disappointed that I didn't lose any wt but am happy that I didn't gain. I would like to exercise less coming week and control my food intake. Mostly, I shouldn't eat after 6pm. That's where I screw up. I know it but how come I do it all the time?! I will be a perfe... Sat, 15 Jan 2011 07:16:21 EST Measurements...facing the reality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3914565 After last Friday, I went on binges by celebrating the wt loss. So today I'm back to 170.6. I promised myself this is my last binge and decided to record my measurements. <BR> <BR> Breast 39 <BR> Chest 34.5 <BR> Waist 35 <BR> BellyButton 43 <BR> Hip 41.5 <BR> L Thigh 25 <BR> R Thigh 25 <BR> L above Knee 17.5 <BR> R above Knee 17 <BR> L Calf 15.5 <BR> R Calf 15 <BR> <BR> I really need to get my BF% down. My measurement of bell button area is <em>15</em> . Also, I wanted to compare abo... Tue, 11 Jan 2011 15:45:40 EST Week 1: Back from cruise and focus on 2011 transformation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3902694 I went on a New Year's Day cruise for a week and gained a couple of pounds (167.8 to 170.2). Not bad for how much I ate <em>15</em> I was on the treadmill for an hour every day and I walked a lot and swam so, all those activity helped not gaining 5 pounds I initially thought. <BR> Since I came back home, I was being careful what I ate and exercised twice a day for 3 days. I was little cranky since I reduced my carb & calories and burned off a lot of calories by exercising. I ate every ... Sat, 8 Jan 2011 08:00:38 EST Does Santa have a magic wand? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3829412 I wish Santa brings me a whole new wardrobe(size 4)...sexy lingerie, a little black dress, 5' stiletto heel, etc <BR> <BR> But wait, I don't have a body to go with all these items. None of them will fit me or look good on me. Ahhhhhhhh, I had a whole 12 months to make my wish come true and I realize Christmas is just around corner. I've been a bad girl all year. But I will work hard everyday next year and make my wish come true. Who knows, I will wake up one morning and be in my dream ... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 09:09:46 EST December 1, 2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3818665 Binge after morning exercise...My period started today and I felt like a crap & wanted to eat. What a first day to start December.... <BR> <BR> (All these numbers are not accurate. Just an estimate...) <BR> Calorie Intake 4682 <BR> Protein 189 g <BR> Carb 594 g <BR> Fat 182 g <BR> Water 10 cups <BR> <BR> <BR> -- I didn't control myself again. Menstrual cycle shouldn't be an excuse to overeat. Better control next time! <BR> --Too much sodium intake due to eating processed food. <BR> --... Thu, 2 Dec 2010 06:48:09 EST November 30, 2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3815146 Calorie Intake 893 (decide to have a 24 hour fasting starting 2PM) <BR> Water Intake 9 cups <BR> Protein 98 g <BR> Carb 65 g <BR> Fat 28 g <BR> <BR> Calorie Burn thru exercise 1305 <BR> <BR> --I didn't consume enough calories today due to fasting plan. Will get back to normal eating plan after 2pm tomorrow. I don't know whether I can stay that long. <BR> --Double cardios today. I don't feel tired at all today even though I exercise twice. I kept my HR below 85% zone. Instead of high im... Tue, 30 Nov 2010 18:28:25 EST November 29, 2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3812784 Today was a good day. I planned my meals and workouts and I followed them except dinner meal. DH decided to cook dinner and wanted me to eat so I had my 6th meal with him even though I wasn't hungry at that time ( I just had my 5th meal about 30 minutes ago.) But I kept it to only one serving and it was healthy one so, I don't regret eating it. <BR> <BR> Here's my recap for the day... <BR> <BR> Water 8 cups <BR> Calorie Intake 1267 <BR> Protein 145 g <BR> Carb 77 g <BR> Fat 44 g <BR> ... Mon, 29 Nov 2010 18:34:51 EST On the 28th day of Christmas my true love gave to me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3809793 I will go on a cruise on the day after Christmas. So that's about 28days to count down. I need to be strict on my eating and be more active until that day so that I can enjoy ' cruise food'. I will try to eat clean while I'm on cruise but I don't think I can 100%. I am very excited for this trip because all my family is going (which is 16 of us). Some of my family member is already lost some wt for this trip and I'm not one of them. I am disappointed at myself (we planned this one from ... Sun, 28 Nov 2010 11:33:43 EST July 28, 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3801268 I am signed up for The 3rd Annual eat-Clean Diet Makeover Challenge and July 28, 2011 is the last day to submit 'after' pictures. According to SP calculation, I need to lose 1.5 pounds per week, then I will reach my goal on that day. So far, I haven't lost any weight. But I am stronger than a month ago (which I sent my 'before' pictures to the challenge) and am learning about the clean eating and am trying to change my attitude towards food. I am always 'all or nothing' person about eatin... Tue, 23 Nov 2010 08:50:22 EST Weight Training and Scale Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3714679 My Biggest Loser for Fall Challenge is not going so well. Today is my week 7 weigh-in and I'm up 3.6 lb more than last week. I ate salty food yesterday so I'm sure some are from fluid. (I weighed 1.2 lb less yesterday.) I am having a very hard time losing the wt. I started Insanity Upper Body Training program and since then, my wt is not going down. It happened before when I followed ChaLean Extreme program. It seems that every time I start a wt lifting program, I am gaining wt. It is... Thu, 14 Oct 2010 09:50:56 EST Wk 9/23 - 9/29 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3681316 Do you see the title of my blog? Yes, it is not 'Wk 3 result on new plan'. I didn't follow my plan that much, maybe 30%. The result; gained 3.4 pounds. That's a lot of wt. What did I do wrong? I exercised every day. BUT I ate tons of salty food. I like spicy food and it is usually salty too. Whenever I eat spicy, salty food, I want to eat many food that are not good for me and can't control the portion. I'm sure some of the wt gain is water (I hope a lot of it). I will find out tha... Thu, 30 Sep 2010 06:07:43 EST Week 2 result on new plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3664620 I'm down to 159.6. That's 2.8 loss. <em>244</em> <BR> I stick to my eating plan 5 out of 7 and exercised everyday. That is much better than wk 1. <BR> Thanks for everyone who encouraged me to keep going! <BR> <BR> I need to keep doing what was working for me and learn from my mistake. <BR> I hope wk 3 is better than wk 2. Crossing my fingers! <BR> <em>9</em> <em>224</em> <em>334</em> <em>104</em> Thu, 23 Sep 2010 10:42:36 EST I watched the Biggest Loser and cried again. How many times do I have to cry more? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3662316 I watched the Biggest Loser 1st episode just now. I've been watching the show ever since it aired years ago. The story of the show is always same. My reaction to the first episode of every season is same. CRY with them listening their sad stories and DETERMINE to lose weight. Have I lost wt? Yes. Do I need to lose any wt again? Yes. <BR> That's right. I am at the same wt as last time I watched the last season. I cried again while the contestants were all shocked how much they weighe... Wed, 22 Sep 2010 15:53:20 EST Week 1 result on new plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3643216 I lost one pound so now I weigh 162.4. I've been keeping up with my calorie intake but since TOM came, everything went out the window. I had difficult time coping with my pms craving and one bite of spicy food led to 'all or nothing' mentality again. What is with me that I cannot control my food portion? Since I was on this special diet I created, I was craving for spicy and salty food and I got my one meal to enjoy and then the whole day was ruined and the next day. <BR> I didn't do s... Thu, 16 Sep 2010 08:41:51 EST New Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3624510 I got sick a couple days ago. I believe it was food poisoning. I couldn't keep the food down but I was hungry I was keep eating and going to bathroom right after that. Even though I got sick and lost a lot of liquid, I still gained wt. Hmmm, I am just not good at losing wt. <BR> I thought I need to be serious about losing wt this time for real. I was thinking about quitting the Biggest Loser fall challenge and thought about my first comment to the team board. My main goal to the team ch... Fri, 10 Sep 2010 09:04:29 EST TurboFire---Burn, baby, burn!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3562103 I got this DVD a few days ago and didn't do it until yesterday. I heard from someone that it is too high impact and I was worried about my knee. I love TurboJam but was tired of doing same thing over and over somewhat. I exercised yesterday with TurboFire Classic 60 and loved it. It is almost same moves as TurboJam but with fast tempo and different time frame. Hopefully it burns my fat for good <em>224</em> Sun, 22 Aug 2010 10:38:53 EST March Bootcamp--'before' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2942326 It is 1st day of March. I am planning to do weight loss boot camp. I will stick to eating plan and lift wt more and get one day rest every week. <BR> My 'before' wt is 155.8. Even though I weighed 148 about 3 days ago, I binged two days and all the water wt came back. I just read Jillian Michaels "Making the cut" and will put her advice to my wt loss plan. <BR> I will take 'before' picture for myself (too ashamed to post) and will compare on last day of March. <BR> Let's make it happe... Mon, 1 Mar 2010 10:39:03 EST NOVA wk 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2884286 I can't believe I've been here 3 weeks already. I haven't been good at all this week for wt loss. It's almost my TOM and my hormone was driving me to binge all week long. Of course, I need to learn to control my appetite despite my hormone but I was giving up myself. I feel I let myself down but I didn't feel like exercise as much as I used to or pay attention to what I am eating. I've been eating out a lot since my DH was at home due to snow. We were stuck at hotel nothing to do (not e... Mon, 15 Feb 2010 13:00:19 EST NOVA wk 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2855345 Whew, what a week has been... <BR> It snowed and snowed. I couldn't really walk my dog, Tira, 3 miles straight but had to break down one mile at a time. She enjoyed the snow more than me. I wish I had energy like her. <BR> Well, for my eating habit, I controlled little bit. I wasn't good every day but some days. Exercised most of week and tried to walk Tira as many as possible. I thought I can't run a lot as I used to due to my knee pains but I would be active whatever I can. It worked... Mon, 8 Feb 2010 09:24:52 EST NOVA wk 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2824977 It's been a week since I moved to Northern Va. I am still not settled in a new area. I live in a temporary place (hotel) and don't have all my weight lifting gear with me. I really miss lifting wt. I feel I'm losing muscle mass. <BR> My wt has not been changed that much even though I am running at least 5 miles a day. I need to overcome my binge eating habits. <BR> <BR> I will keep eating every 3 to 4 hours and keep myself active so I don't eat out of boredom. Also I will keep my cal... Mon, 1 Feb 2010 11:13:24 EST September 1 stats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2365105 This morning I got up and took myself a photo. I will take a monthly pic to see how much I progress. I took a 'before' picture a long time ago but didn't follow up. <BR> So here are the before stats <BR> <BR> ht : 5'3" <BR> wt: 146.6 lbs <BR> bf: 30.8% <BR> chest: 32.5 <BR> waist: 31 <BR> hip: 38 <BR> thigh: 23 1/3 <BR> calf: 14.5 <BR> upper arm: 11.5 <BR> <BR> Hopefully, I can keep up with exercising and eating right to see good results on these numbers. <BR> <em>9</em> Tue, 1 Sep 2009 14:44:50 EST Got an itch... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2339539 I go to the gym to run on weekends. But this morning, my DH wanted to serve a breakfast so I decided to stay home and enjoy the time with him. After breakfast, I couldn't exercise right away so I waited until later. But I couldn't wait too long because I got an itch to exercise. Yes, I got bit by an exercise bug. I was craving to sweat the calories out and feel the power within me. I warmed up by jogging a mile and then wt lifting and cardio intervals. I've been on ChaLean Extreme plan... Sun, 23 Aug 2009 17:23:02 EST Biggest Loser Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2328931 I saw a new BL season for this fall a couple days ago. Every time I watch the new season, I promise myself that I will lose all the wt by the end of the season. But here I am still overweight. I've been trying to reach my 'healthy' wt - 140. Yet it has been a struggle to weigh below that. So when I saw a recruit on message board, I jumped right in and signed up for the challenge. I had a similar challenge before and had a good result even though I couldn't finish due to my dad. Its ini... Wed, 19 Aug 2009 13:17:48 EST Wrong Direction... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2319750 Whew... <BR> I had my family over to my house for a week from Va. Before their visit, I was busy cleaning the house and I didn't exercise that much because I was too tired. While they were here, I ate a lot and didn't exercise because of no time. After they left, I still had a lot of food left (I need to eat them or throw away) and tired from cleaning and eating too much. The result is I weigh 155.4 this morning. What?! I gained more than 10 pounds. This is not the right direction I ne... Sun, 16 Aug 2009 11:37:37 EST Weight Lifting and Scale Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2240147 I've been doing CharLEAN Extreme for little while now. In Feb, I started the program and had to hold in March due to my dad. When I came back in June, I started the program back instead of picking up where I left. Now, I am in Push Circuit week # 3. Since I started the weight lifting, my weight hasn't been gone down 140 lbs. Actually I gained some wt. In the program, Charlene Johnson talks about how much you get hungry after you lift wt heavy. Definitely, I am HUNGRY and I eat whatever... Sat, 18 Jul 2009 22:48:07 EST Last three months of my life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2215214 End of March, I had to take a break from SP because of my dad's condition. I flew to Va. and stayed with my dad in ICU all day everyday. After two months of struggling to survive, my dad passed away. My dad was very health conscious person. He only drank water and ate natural food. He liked to garden so he always got exercise. So why he is not here now? I thought my dad would live over 100. But he was only 72 y/o. I miss him. I didn't want to talk about this here but today I feel l... Thu, 9 Jul 2009 11:22:08 EST Me and the world http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1846557 My wt hasn't been going down for 3 weeks now. On top of that I injured myself while lifting wt. So I haven't been exercised for 3 or 4 days now. I could eat less than normal(when I exercise) so I could still lose wt but I didn't. I was depressed so I ate and slept and ate and slept. <BR> Today I weighed myself and ,of course, I gained a lot of wt. So I figure all the wt I've lost is water wt? How can I gain so much wt so fast? I just can't do this anymore. I just want to give up t... Tue, 3 Mar 2009 12:56:03 EST Chalean Extreme http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1809440 Initially I wanted to do P90X transformation. But reviewing it and trying a couple times, I decided to follow 'Chalean Extreme'. I am soar from yesterday exercise (CE Get Lean Interval). I wasn't plan to do it so early but wanted to taste what feels like. I was thinking starting CE as of 1 Mar but, I like how I felt after exercise so, I will start the program as of this Sunday and just increase one more wk for 'Burn Phase' until 28 Mar. I am very excited about the exercise. Only if I ca... Wed, 18 Feb 2009 13:43:42 EST Valentine's Day and TOM....and Rain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1809425 I didn't lose any wt today (for my BLC9 weigh-in). <BR> The reasons are <BR> 1) I rewarded myself with food when I lost 5 lbs last weigh-in <BR> 2) It's that time again and my hormone is out of control. All I want to do is eat, eat and eat. <BR> 3) Weather has been really bad; rainy, windy and cold. I didn't spend much time outside. <BR> 4) DH had a 4-day-weekend. It is the pattern; I don't lose any wt over weekend b/c my daily priority changes; Spending time w/ him 1st then exercise/losin... Wed, 18 Feb 2009 13:34:51 EST Reviewing my new year's resolution so far... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1794482 Yesterday was my BLC9 weigh-in day and I weighed 154.4 lbs. Wow, that's more wt loss than what I expected. I lost almost 20 lbs so far. I can see some definition on my shoulders and my ab. I will get my measurements in two weeks so that will be interesting. This is all from exercising twice a day most of times. I don't really want to do that rest of my life so I need to find a better/ healthier way to lose wt. Now for most important aspect of losing fat....eating. Until this day, I a... Thu, 12 Feb 2009 21:45:33 EST Garage Light---Support System? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1706498 I have a home gym in the garage. I usually run right after my DH goes to work. This morning I was sore every where doing 2 days in a row 30 Day Shred. I didn't feel like to exercise...it was hard to roll out of the bed any way. But I know better and exercise is daily routine (at least I force myself to think). So I turned the garage light on and walked back to my bedroom to get me running socks. I set on the edge of the bed and thought "I don't feel good. Maybe my body's telling me I n... Fri, 16 Jan 2009 12:18:04 EST BLC9 Bright Green Goddeses http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1699837 Today I found out I am belong to Bright Green Goddesses team while I'm on Biggest Lose Challenge round 9. I'm so excited bc there are so many people waiting to join and I got chosen to be one. Wed, 14 Jan 2009 18:24:02 EST Celebrating 2009 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1678954 Back from vacation and the wt gain over 10 days is 5 pounds. It wasn't worth eating all that food but I wanted to enjoy myself with my family. I didn't want to put me under stress about weight. Also I didn't exercise as much as at home. Traveling doesn't help losing wt. <BR> But I am not hopefulness. I know if I keep my healthy lifestyle then I will be back on track soon. <BR> <BR> I celebrate each day of 2009 knowing I will be healthy and happy! Fri, 9 Jan 2009 15:33:23 EST Holiday Wt ---Help http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1614849 I weighed 168.4 about two wks ago. Today I weigh 172.2. I've been eating out a lot due to Christmas parties, B-Day party and family visit. I thought I deserved to celebrate my wt loss so I indulged myself every weekend. The wt is not coming off and that frustrate me even more and make me eat more. I feel like I just want to give up. I was so focused to lose wt a couple wks ago. And now what? What's going on? I'm not motivated any more. I will visit my family in 10 days and I am horr... Wed, 17 Dec 2008 19:13:01 EST Trigger food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1604780 I should never done that...I knew I will gain ton of weight. <BR> I am very weak on chips and soda. This is my trigger food to eat out of control. Last week I bought chips and dips and made more dips and bought sodas and I thought I would control myself and eat them in moderation. No! Old myself came back and ate everything in sight at home and also dining out didn't help either. I hated myself yesterday so bad I was hitting myself. Why am I born with this horrible body? Some people th... Wed, 10 Dec 2008 12:28:53 EST