BEYONDHOPE70's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BEYONDHOPE70 BEYONDHOPE70's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ begin again and start over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674438 My life is on another round of "begin again and start overs" . I've found myself with yet again, a road block, my marriage is dissolving. I never realized how much I have come to depend on my husband, not just financially but emotionally. Now I'm discovering my own power. I have little choice I still have a household and two kids to take care of. And recently I've noticed that I'm looking forward to the challenge and being successful at it. Life and relationships are complicated. I'm disc... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 14:22:31 EST Home vs gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5604533 My husband and I are in a little competition of sorts. He was able to join a gym and get a discount through work. I have chosen to stay at home and get my workouts there. My kids can be a good motivator. We have decided to have a friendly competition on the amount of exercise we can accumulate during the week. We could have decided who could get in shape the fasted, but that could lead to some hurt feeling and we just want to have some fun with this. So far he is racking up more exercise mil... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 15:41:27 EST Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5571926 Didn't focus much on fitness today. Decided to focus on Christmas with family. What I mean today is that I didn't record what I ate today. I made that decision and I am okay with that. That doesn't mean I didn't watch what I ate just that I wasn't fixated on it. My portions were reasonable and going for seconds didn't happen. I was able to enjoy my family today without added pressure because sometime even being with family is stressful. Tomarrow is a new day, and I'm choosing to get back to w... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 00:22:43 EST Uninspired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561256 Feeling in the dumps today. So much on my plate with the holidays coming up that I feel like doing none of it. How do I get back into the Christmas spirit. My fitness has gone to the wayside because of strep. Ok, I can't exercise like I want, but my eating healthy isn't going to bad considering the season. So what I have to do is figure out exactly what I need to do, figure out how I'm going to do it, then just do it and let it go. Tue, 10 Dec 2013 11:58:27 EST The weeks plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5560403 For the past few days I have been dealing with strep, so working out has not been easyto do. <BR> I'm on antibiotics, but my neck feels stiff and I fear if I do to much it could set my back. This week my plan is to have a months worth of meals planned out and to get my house cleaned and finally organized. Mon, 9 Dec 2013 10:17:53 EST being consistent http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5556698 Being consistent is the most difficult thing for me to do. It doesn't matter what the task. I just can't keep my head in the game. I will keep on trying though. I know I will find a way that will work for me. Wed, 4 Dec 2013 10:13:01 EST The cold bug http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555015 For the past couple of days, the family and I have been hit with a bad case of the cold. The kind that sucks whatever energy you have right out of you. The only thing you can do with any skill is blow your and hope you hit the basket when tossing the tissue away. Needless to say exercising has not been in the forefront of my mind. But today I feel better and I'm getting right back on track. Moving forward is where it's at and I intend to keep going. Taking care of myself and my family is what... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 11:41:07 EST In one sentence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5547585 I feel inspired to make some changes. Fri, 22 Nov 2013 09:33:34 EST Thankful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5546992 I am grateful for another new day of delightful possibility. Thu, 21 Nov 2013 13:47:31 EST Today's feelings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5542783 I feel upbeat! Sat, 16 Nov 2013 15:40:33 EST How I feel today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541795 Prepared for the day! Fri, 15 Nov 2013 09:53:46 EST The challenges http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531887 This month I decided to tackle 3 challenges at once; the 28 day bootcamp, the kitchen makeover, and the better sleep challenge. I've already done some of them here and there, but I thought I could jumpstart myself a little more by really focusing on them. It's only been a few days and I already sleep better and have more energy. Creating an organized kitchen has always been a goal of mine. And I know that it will help my family create healthy meals. Mon, 4 Nov 2013 11:57:33 EST Grateful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508134 I am grateful for my family because they are my inspiration to keep fighting the lazy bone that creeps into my body begging me to do as little as possible and doing nothing is not very inspiring at all. Tue, 8 Oct 2013 15:35:06 EST The good things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495911 For the past two days I have been following the meal plans from spark people. I have discovered that some of the meals that sound unappetizing are really quite good. I have also been letting go of stuff that really have no more value or purpose in my life. Every so often I need to make space. I am also learning ways to let go of old hurts. I don't have the power to make others happy unless they really want it. I realize I'm worth taking care of. Wed, 25 Sep 2013 13:07:46 EST Feeling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493585 Today I feel driven. Mon, 23 Sep 2013 09:11:37 EST Getting back to work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5491868 I have not been motivated enough to to stick with the program lately. It's a bit of life getting in the way and a bit of laziness. So my goal for the day is to move some more. I have lost my momentum. But I am ready to get back to work and work "hard" for my goals. And the start is to put this down and get moving. Sat, 21 Sep 2013 11:16:08 EST The fight to start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5487246 When it comes exercise I am good at doing the work, but getting up and starting is my biggest obstacle. I have found that exercise can be enjoyable. I know that it is important for my health and well being. So what is the problem? As I struggle through and exercise anyway even if it's only 10 minutes I hope I can overcome this and discover that exercise became more important and valuable to me that its not something I second guess myself in doing. It becomes automatic. Mon, 16 Sep 2013 12:42:52 EST I know I've had a good workout when http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5480186 I'm smiling afterwards. Mon, 9 Sep 2013 06:29:24 EST Good reasons to workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5464802 1. I deserve to look and feel good. <BR> <BR> 2. My family needs a mom and wife that is healthy and active. <BR> <BR> 3. Because participation is what life is about. <BR> <BR> 4. Everyone is in a better mood when I'm feeling gooood! <BR> <BR> 5. Because I can and I should. Lazy is not my middle name. Sat, 24 Aug 2013 10:52:36 EST Hubby http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5456994 The biggest supporter in my weight loss journey has been my hubby. He is doing this right along with me. We both have our ups and downs so we understand what the other one is going through. He is better at some thing then I am, like exercise. We work with each others strengths and weaknesses. We learn from each other. We are quite the team, but I knew that pretty early in our relationship. I know we can reach our goals together. Fri, 16 Aug 2013 09:49:36 EST On my way to heathy eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5449788 I've been on this journey for a little while now, and if I were to rate my eating habits now to when I started I have made great strides. Before I couldn't even tell you how many calories I was over eating (1000-2000). Now I'm getting the hang of knowing which foods I can eat without depriving myself of the tastes I like. For the first time in a long time I feel in control. I do have the power to live healthy. The choices are all mine. The excuses just don't carry the punch anymore. Doesn't m... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 10:24:31 EST My ultimate goal date http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5448775 I have extended my goal time to meet my goal of 145 lbs. til January. I have come to the conclusion that I need a longer learning curve to figure out what will work for my life style and for my body. I have developed many bad habits that I am trying to work through. And some of them I'm not too excited about dealing with. But working on them I will. Thu, 8 Aug 2013 12:04:44 EST The momentum http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5444079 This next week I hope to keep my exercise momentum going. I am starting to feel really good physically when I exercise. All it takes me now is only 30 minutes a day and I feel great the rest of the day. I have all these tools now to help me record my progress. Wonderful motivator. <BR> Sleep is another thing I need to work on. I have a hard time making myself go to bed at night. Some nights I don't get home from work until 10:00. I would like to work on a night time ritual that will wind me ... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 11:06:52 EST Food on the brain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5439494 The more I work on eating right the more I think about eating poorly. Even when I meet my calorie goal for the day I want to have that little extra treat that take me over the top. Once in awhile that is ok, but this is turning into an everyday occurence. I hope by recognizing this I can combat it. It is alright for me to break out of the norm. Wed, 31 Jul 2013 09:06:23 EST Clothes donation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437302 I have already started donating clothes that no longer fit me to goodwill. While I'm there I find other clothes that fit me at my new size. I always find something cute that has hardly been worn if not brand new. One of my rewards when I do reach my goals is to buy a new wardrobe, second hand stores are a good transitional place for me especially when I'm on a budget. <BR> Mon, 29 Jul 2013 11:55:49 EST Moving and grooving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5433017 I am getting into exercise lately. I enjoy feeling how strong I am getting with each passing day. I can go longer and farther on my stationary bike. My legs have that comfortable ache to them. My clothes fit better some even baggy. I never thought I would start to enjoy exercising. It's empowering to know that I can make wise healthy choices for my life. I have started to incorporate childhood games and activities into my routine. I can confidently do this because of my small children.... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 11:06:17 EST Meal planning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5428481 This weekend I am working on organizing my kitchen so it is easier to plan some meals. I didn't realize how much food I already have in my cupboards until I took a look and wrote it down. I have already made a menu for the week just with the food I have in the house. I could probably even plan another few more days. What a good start in organizing. Sun, 21 Jul 2013 17:57:17 EST Off Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5427209 I have been struggling to stay on track. I feel like I'm trying to play catch up. Luckily I haven't been gaining any weight. I must have something to learn before I can start losing again. Consistency I know is the key to success, but I don't always do the small thing everyday. I've got the time to do this. I have the support. I have most of the tools in place. <BR> I let mundane life get in the way. It's easier that way. It's all boils down to a matter of choice. I must choose diff... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 10:06:20 EST concentrated breathing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402385 I discovered today that I can jog for exercise. I'm not great at it, but I can actually do it. What I found out about the process is that it I concentrate on controlling my breathing and less on the run then I can go farther. Now I am not what I would call a runner. Running is hard. But I can add a little jog to my powerwalk and feel like I actually worked out. There really is a natural "high" to me felt when your heart starts pumping and your breathing becomes stronger. It was a good wa... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 12:07:53 EST enviro change motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5377857 What is giving me the greatest motivation is seeing how my world is changing with me. While my body is changing and getting healthy so is my house getting cleaner and more streamline. My kids are eating healthier. My husband has more energy. I am able to let go of things that no longer serve me. My kitchen is organized. My meals are little better planned. My time is better used at least most of the time. And I'm enjoying life more. I take notes of all the changes inside myself and th... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 11:15:46 EST attitude all the time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5363243 I fall for the "all or nothing" attitude just about every day. It's that feeling that I should at least get one thing right. And of course it is totally irrational. Perfection isn't for me. Way too much work. Too time consuming, also. Creating that personal balance for my life is where I see part of my problems being at. Playing the comparison games with others even when I'm not completely aware of it is another self destructive attitude I carry with me. I know I won't complete get the... Tue, 21 May 2013 09:51:22 EST What is my "happy" weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5356234 I have already discovered some perks to getting fit. My memory has improved. I recall names I would not have remembered 6 months ago. I can play tag with my kids without getting winded as fast. I don't have that "you look pregnant" gut anymore or at least not as much. I think my happy weight is the weight where I feel fabulous about what I can do because my body and health is not in the way. It's the weight where I am no longer obsessed about my size. I want to enjoy living and doing t... Tue, 14 May 2013 11:41:15 EST The fairy distraction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354870 Some days I have good intentions. I plan out my day, my exercise and what I'm going to eat. I have my activities written on a calendar. I am set. Except I have this little issue. I live with a four year old fairy princess with curls. I swear she has magical powers, she knows exactly when I am planning on getting my stuff done. This is the time she really demands my attention. And she very persuasive. I have distracted her with trinkets and sweet treats to no avail. She is very deter... Mon, 13 May 2013 09:12:54 EST A hilly adventure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343132 When I started sparkpeople, it was an exciting adventure. Then it became overbearing because I tried to do everything at once. I started chucking large portions of my plans out the window. I have discovered about myself that I need to reevaluate my goals often and that I need to slowdown. Just changing one thing at a time and spending time letting it stick is helping me lose weight steadily but also allowing this to be a personal empowering adventure once again. Thu, 2 May 2013 11:00:07 EST