BEYOND-FENCES's SparkPeople Blog BEYOND-FENCES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My glass is 1/8 full... my not so inspiring blog of the week :( My weigh in yesterday showed a 1 lb loss. I had hoped to see more of my holiday bloat come off this week but being sick over the weekend and spending more time on my butt than doing anything I'm sure didn't help :) Good thing I'm back to 100% now! <BR> <BR> I don't know what to say today. I'm entirely overwhelmed by life right now to where I wish I could look at it and say the glass is half empty... instead unfortunately the most sunshiny perspective I can come up with is to say the glass is... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 06:53:50 EST 2013 Here I Come!!! My 2013 goals... I had planned to weigh in and take some pictures and measurements today to kick off my New Year but life happens and I didn't get that far as some family unexpectedly came to visit so I spent my afternoon with them instead. Maybe tomorrow I can get that far... WOW! Right there was proof I made progress with one of my 2012 goals - not to sweat the small stuff! <BR> <BR> Overall though today was a good start to the New Year getting to hug my 3 boys this morning, have some pleasant conversatio... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 19:32:27 EST What to do... Having one of those days that I feel swamped by all that I have to do and can't seem to come up with a plan for my day. Its supposed to be 60 degrees, which for Michigan in December is definitely odd! so its a perfect day to keep chugging away at winterizing the barns, grooming up some horses, etc but I just don't want to play outside today :( <BR> Mon, 3 Dec 2012 06:32:56 EST Crunch time to meet 2012 goals! Today is the first day of the last month of 2012... I'm pretty satisfied with my accomplishments in life this year but still have a few goals I'd like to meet and progress I'd like to make and I guess if I want to credit them to 2012 I'd better get a move on instead of playing on my computer LOL! <BR> <BR> Sat, 1 Dec 2012 09:08:23 EST Almost back on track... and early plans for December... As my last Blog mentioned November was mostly a wash and its less than a month till Christmas and family stuff at which I want to wow a few people so here's the plan... <BR> <BR> Nutrition... I tracked my food for a day or two and made sure I was still pretty much on track with what my normal choices would be but I did fall in a bit of a binging hole the past 2 days... for whatever reason I've been STARVING so I've been eating and snacking a ton! I also had some not so good for me yummy's in... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 09:07:39 EST 30 days to Christmas!!! Well, most of November was a wash... no gains, no losses, no changes at all... just life. I'm pretty content overall with how my year has gone BUT the realization that we are only 30 days from Christmas and 37 days from 2013 and somewhere in the middle is a trip to see the in-laws which has me ready to get to work on some things in my life... <BR> <BR> First of all we will start with the superficial! <BR> <BR> The family visit is going to be a hoot... My in-laws saw me this summer when I wa... Sun, 25 Nov 2012 15:10:00 EST Update... A week in, give or take, to November and I'm not making much progress! I've cleaned up the eating habits a bit but am still munching on things I know I shouldn't and not taking the time to make up and eat the things I should during the day but at least I'm not munching half a bag of pizza rolls at midnight every night! I have oomphed up the nutrition though by getting some of the fruit and veggie smoothies and drinks that I like (I am NOT a fruit eater!) as well as some protein drinks for qui... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 09:55:07 EST Filled the cupboards with good stuff... Made it to the gym yesterday and got in 20 minutes on the Elliptical and 20 min on the treadmill. Tummy still wasn't up to any hardcore workouts (not that I'm lazy on the cardio machines but running wasn't going to happen!) and it was exhausting to do as much as I did after nearly a week of doing nothing! but at least I got there and did something!!! Have plans to get back there today <BR> <BR> Didn't eat the best for breakfast, lunch and snacks as I had a few favorites still around the hous... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 07:08:39 EST A new month to work on the new me and focus on my eating habits! I'm finally over whatever was upsetting my stomach so much last week so today I'm on the mission to get back on track for the gym! Have to say that I miss the "high" that a hard workout gave me so I'm pretty excited to get back there even though I still get the occasional tummy twinge :( <BR> <BR> I pretty much figured out that the stomach problems were being food related although I haven't figured out what foods so its time to clean up the eating habits for October to match the workouts I c... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 09:03:06 EST I'm becoming a Gym Junkie! To fake bake or not to fake bake??? My mother and I got a SNAP Fitness membership late on October 10th but had to get some new work out clothes on the 11th before starting at the gym since then my work outs have gone like this... <BR> <BR> F 12- 20 elliptical; 10 treadmill w/ 3 running; 20 lower body toning <BR> S 13- day off <BR> S 14- 30 elliptical; 30 upper body toning <BR> M 15- 25 elliptical; 30 lower body toning <BR> T 16- 15 elliptical; 15 treadmill; 30 total body toning <BR> W 17- day off <BR> T 18- 25 elliptical; 20 u... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 07:22:08 EST Lost a full inch off my waist in 9 days! 3 1/2 " all over!!! 9 days of gym membership and 6 workouts equaled a 1 pound gain :( but 3 1/2 inches lost :) with 3/4" off calf, 1/2 " off thighs, 3/4" off hips, 1" off waist and 1/2" off ribs/back just under the bust <BR> <BR> I also took a fitness test last night at the gym and expected some pretty sad results and was surprised to see this 31 year old body score as a 35 year old one... not too bad when you consider I still haven't fully kicked the smoking habit either. I really expected it to tell me I was ... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 09:18:38 EST How do you turn "good enough" into GREAT in 75 days? Technically this should have been posted yesterday but I ran out of day before I ran out of projects LOL! Especially funny since that was what this post was meant to be about, time running out faster than the things that need to get done! <BR> <BR> What do you do when you realize that there are only 75 days left to the year... <BR> <BR> I had so many things I wanted to accomplish this year in my personal and professional life, some small and some unbelievably huge goals to meet. I met some... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 07:46:05 EST Joined SNAP; learned I'm not a PEAR anymore; bought a size 8!!! Last night I got a SNAP fitness membership so I've spent my morning today getting my measurements and such so I can track changes while I add hitting the gym into my routine. I need to get some photos taken too so I can have a picture reference too! <BR> <BR> I am very happy to announce that after measuring myself today I learned that I am no longer pear shaped! My measurements came in with 41.5" around the largest part of my chest, 31.5" at my waist and 41.5" at the widest part of my hips ... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 09:25:44 EST Can you imagine... (October goals a little late) Since yesterday I reached one of my major goals of single digit jeans again I was lying in bed thinking where I could have been if only I... So being that I hadn't taken the time to set any October goals here we go... <BR> <BR> * Eat better! I'm always running here, there and everywhere and the only constants in my diet seem to be coffee, chocolate, chips, cheese and wine, none of whom are exactly wonderful for me, and only sitting down for 3 "good" meals a week which is whatever happens to ... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 08:59:13 EST Today I proudly welcomed size 8 jeans to my closet again!!! I don't even know what to say!!! I'm so happy and excited! I knew my jeans were all a little saggy lately but when I went shopping for a new pair of jeans today for my interview on Monday (to take over management of a large horse facility) I didn't expect this... <BR> <BR> First off my penny pinching ways and determination led me to swear to myself to ONLY buy new clothes if I had nothing "decent" to cover my butt until I reached single digits again and a job interview definitely needed mor... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 23:05:55 EST Hoping this is a sign of a good day on its way! (Picture) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Walked out to a beautiful rainbow over our property then got 25 points AGAIN on the spark wheel... fingers crossed these are signs of a good day on its way! <BR> <BR> *we have a few leaks in the barn but as a non-profit we haven't had the funds to re-roof properly so we re-roofed this weekend in blue tarping just to ensure we don't get soggy in the barn with all the rain predicted this week! Tue, 18 Sep 2012 08:44:23 EST Its a happy dance day! 25 lbs down & switching to E-Cigarettes Running a non-profit therapeutic riding center and horse rescue is not a way to become rich... my average is about 70 hours a week of chores, fencing, riding, teaching, paperwork, etc and my average income is $25 a week... yes I meant $25! Hubby is barely making enough to cover our basic bills let alone school supplies, groceries and the extra large electric bills due to having to run air conditioning for my mother who has heart issues so things are pretty tough around here before we even get... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 06:50:06 EST September goals... adding mommy time to the mix! I can't believe September is here!!! life is busy, hectic and crazy!!! <BR> <BR> WEIGHT LOSS: Stick to the plan and do it... no more excuses! If I look hard enough I can always find a reason not to stick to the plan and it needs to stop! I don't want to be fat and I need to do something about it!!! No goal but I'm not going to let myself off the hook either! <BR> <BR> WORK: Advertising! spend the month putting out more ads for our services... <BR> <BR> FINANCES: add more business for more ... Sat, 1 Sep 2012 08:47:42 EST August summary... NO PROGRESS but no set backs either... Didn't really go up, didn't really go down in weight, business didn't change from the end of July, I've managed to spark some what consistently but otherwise everything went out the window :( Oh well... Its a new months now :) <BR> Sat, 1 Sep 2012 08:32:01 EST Sticky Scale is making me depressed! What to do??? I've been struggling with my sticky scale the past few days! Without me changing anything from what was causing losses earlier in the month my scale jumped back up to 168's and has been stuck there for days! Really aggravating when I decided to go for it and make a big push to try to get to 159 by the end of the month and my month is running out faster than the pounds are coming off! <BR> <BR> I had worried that in setting a goal instead of going with the flow was going to lead to let down,... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 09:21:45 EST 16 1/2 lbs to go! Sounds so easy and so hard all at the same time... Doing the math for a reply made me realize I only have 16 1/2 lbs to go to my primary goal :) BUT that also means I have 16 1/2 lbs to go :( <BR> <BR> It feels so close but so far away all at the same time! I really want to make a push... I want to see if I can drop 6 1/2 lbs by the end of the month... that is 19 days away but am I just setting myself up to fail by making a specific goal and not only specific but a difficult one to attain too? Am I just adding more stress to an already str... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 09:19:41 EST Took the time to measure... Somewhere in my house I have old measurements from my last weight loss adventure where I went from 237 to 136 in 2002 to 2005 but since I'm not sure where I have them right now I can't really compare but I did take the time yesterday and today to measure myself... I measure occasionally but don't tend to track them, I just go by what size pants I can get into LOL! I would love to someday find a collection of photos with height, weight and measurements of the individual so I could "see" what I... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 10:02:01 EST 2 mini successes making me feel better after yesterday's let down... My scale decided to agree with me and after yesterday's disappointment of only a pound lost (really felt like I had lost more!) I just had to make the additional .8 of a pound lost according to my scale official So in 8 days I lost 1.8 lbs... that I can handle LOL! <BR> <BR> I also was out of work T-shirts that aren't fitted in my regular dresser so I dug into my drawer that has items that were previously too small and am happy to say that I can wear my supply of Large T-shirts again instea... Thu, 9 Aug 2012 07:56:17 EST Update... not being as successful as I hoped :( but lost 1 lb this week. A week into the month and I'm feeling pretty disappointed which never leads to anything good... Feeling like I'm taking 10 steps back for every 2 forward today even though in reality I'm creeping forward to my goal... <BR> <BR> WEIGHT LOSS: Get into my size 8's... I brought home the box of single digit clothes last week and want to make it into something from that box before the month is over! <BR> * I was hoping since I was a "good-girl" all week and had stayed stable weight wise for al... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 09:12:57 EST August goals: Life got to busy yesterday for me to get my August goals on "paper" so here we go... <BR> <BR> WEIGHT LOSS: Get into my size 8's... I brought home the box of single digit clothes last week and want to make it into something from that box before the month is over! <BR> <BR> WORK: Be an owner, not just a worker! I spend too much time worrying about the day to day work and don't always remember I'm an owner too and need to work on the big picture. <BR> <BR> FINANCES: add 3 lesson clients, 1 t... Thu, 2 Aug 2012 07:37:48 EST July accomplishments Happy I didn't aim for too much on my goals for July because for the first time in a long time I'm a full fledged success!!! I didn't go over the top but I did meet or exceed every goal I set for July!!! <BR> <BR> WEIGHT LOSS: to get in my favorite jeans again without feeling like sausage in a casing <BR> * I managed to get into these jeans and be comfy about a week into July! May not have lost an ounce but obviously I toned up some! <BR> <BR> WORK: train more! riding, ground work, does... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 16:25:36 EST Not participating in my weekly weigh-in :( Knowing that last week was not following my normal eating and exercise because of family in town I'm not even going to bother with the disappointment of weighing in today. I didn't make bad choices but they weren't anything like my normal choices so I'm sure that everything is thrown off by a few pounds and figure its better to wait and not be disappointed than step on my scale and start my week off badly! <BR> <BR> Lots to do this week while it is cooler... hoping it all sticks around but i... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 09:07:13 EST Only June 6 and making some progress in my goals for the month! WEIGHT LOSS: Haven't really stepped on the scale officially but seems like this crazy heat is pulling the pounds right off! I have family in town this week so we've had to go out everyday so I had to break into the hidden recesses of my closet to find enough nice clothes rather than barn wear LOL! I have worn my favorite jeans which 2 weeks ago were still uncomfortable... they are still a touch tighter than I prefer but very doable! <BR> <BR> WORK: In 100 degree temperatures with family in ... Fri, 6 Jul 2012 07:27:48 EST July's goals to balance my life! I definitely don't want to go crazy with the goals since last month I accomplished so much in life without really setting any but I do have a few things I really really want to accomplish! <BR> <BR> WEIGHT LOSS: to get in my favorite jeans again without feeling like sausage in a casing <BR> <BR> WORK: train more! riding, ground work, doesn't matter just more! <BR> <BR> FINANCES: add either 3 new lesson clients OR 1 new training horse <BR> <BR> MARRIAGE: show my husband that he is the lov... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 10:59:41 EST June review Its been a topsy turvey life for the past month! Sorry I haven't checked in much but my computer has been down and my "smart" phone isn't all that smart LOL! <BR> <BR> I didn't put any focus on my weight loss at all in June and had no loss but also no gains which is enough to make me happy. I've been nursing a back strain so no extra exercise and have passed off some of my daily work to others around the farm and am feeling "soft" because of it and am looking forward to getting back on track... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 10:29:28 EST And here we go... Bring it on June!!! After having reached so many major milestones on June 1 and having them be so anticlimactic I had to take a few days off to recover... I didn't go off the deep end or anything but wasn't exactly watching my p's and q's either LOL! Instead I focused on my job, my family, catching up on my laundry LOL! <BR> <BR> I did wear my pedometer the last week or so and found that I average 15,000 steps a day at least just at work, not home. I was taking it off for any riding I do and only wearing it fo... Wed, 6 Jun 2012 09:24:49 EST Trying not to give up... Having had a monumental day basically go unacknowledged has me feeling miserable and unmotivated... and now I'm starting to turn the corner from sad, lonely and depressed about it to pissed off and angry... beginning to think the only cure is to say screw it and give up!!! Sun, 3 Jun 2012 09:10:43 EST Celebrating 12 months of Spark and 20 lbs lost! (photos!) I'm celebrating 12 months with Spark today as well as being halfway to goal! <BR> <BR> I've been hit or miss with keeping up with Spark with all the highs and lows of life over the past year having almost lost my mother to a heart attack, house fires, moving out of state, starting a new business and having lived 4 months apart from my husband but I'm happy to report that since starting this profile on June 1, 2011 at 189 lbs I have, as of this morning, lost exactly 20 lbs and am halfway to m... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 22:22:22 EST Had a bit of a binge late last night so time to get moving! With the storms that rolled through last night I wasn't able to sleep and found myself parked in front of the TV until 12:30 am with a kitchen freshly stocked from a shopping trip that afternoon! I didn't grab the super healthy choices of fruits or veggies but didn't go on an all out junk food attack either. It also wasn't a mindless stuffing but something I took time and tasted and tried to consider if I was really "hungry" so I guess I won't hold it against myself that I ate 3 health-nut gr... Tue, 29 May 2012 08:57:03 EST As my SparkAversary approaches I realized I'm almost 20 lbs lighter than I was one year ago! Just had the realization that in 4 days it will be 1 year from crating this account at 189 lbs... It may have been slow going but I am almost 20 lbs less than I was then and that is something to be proud of... I think this calls for a BIG push to hit that 169 by Friday so I can say 20 lbs lost in one year without the "almost"... If I can hit that goal I think Friday night will call for a celebration! Wonder what to do??? <BR> <BR> Mon, 28 May 2012 13:53:14 EST 2 week weigh-in = SUCCESS! Start - 5/14/12 - 176.8 lbs <BR> Wk 1 - 5/21/12 - 173.4 lbs - lost 3.4 lbs <BR> Wk 2 - 5/28/12 - 171.6 lbs - lost 1.8 lbs <BR> <BR> * Total of 5.2 lbs in 2 weeks <BR> <BR> Mini goal # 1 is only 1.8 lbs away! <BR> Mon, 28 May 2012 08:48:22 EST 5 lbs down in 13 days! Not looking forward to my day today... forecast is for a hot and icky day and of course I overslept so now chores will have to be done in the heat... on top of that we will have 150 bales of hay being delivered this afternoon that have to be unloaded ICK! <BR> <BR> On a positive note, I couldn't resist stepping on the scale this morning one day earlier than my scheduled weigh in and was pleased to see I'm down to 172... only 3 more pounds to my immediate goal! That is also 5 lbs lost in 13 ... Sun, 27 May 2012 10:15:11 EST Crazy busy week and a stalled scale! This week has been crazy! Doesn't seem like I've gotten anything more than usual done but I sure do feel like I've been busier than ever! My scale seems to have stalled out but its that time of the month too so I'm trying hard not to get disturbed about it. Maybe if I could get my family to cooperate and buy what I put on the shopping list instead of skipping 2/3rds of what I add OR if I could actually slip away to the store to get the foods I want/need it would help but I can't stand shoppi... Fri, 25 May 2012 08:48:43 EST The best "Something for me!" EVER!!! I got a new horse! (PHOTOS) I've been wanting to log on to share the news but time has been hard to find the last couple days... Saturday night I got a new horse! Kingsford Smith, aka TGIF, a grey Irish TB who has multiple Regional Championships and trained to 3rd level in Dressage as well as jumping and western training... So happy with my new addition!!! Especially since I got a real steal on him of $100 plus $30 for shipping LOL! He's an older boy at 22 and needs a little TLC to bring him back up to 100% but is nearl... Tue, 22 May 2012 08:38:06 EST Paying the price for a yummy dinner! I have to always remember that there is something my husband manages to put in the most harmless of foods when he cooks that causes me to bloat up like a balloon. I swear if he cooks I can gain 5 lbs just smelling the food but I think its because he always goes on carb overload like last night having bleu cheese, bacon burgers (4 oz patties of lean beef with a strip of bacon crumbled and a pinch of bleu cheese squished in the meat before cooking... oh so yummy!) with deli roll buns, a pasta ... Sat, 19 May 2012 09:19:29 EST Wishing I had a heart rate monitor and down another 2.4 lbs!!! Down another 2.4 lbs for a total of 3.8 this week so far! <BR> <BR> For those who don't know me this is by no means a matter of "starving" myself LOL! I work and play very hard and anytime I pick up my healthy eating habits instead of junk food-ing my way through the day I get a huge drop right away... It will go for a short while longer probably then stabilize again to 1 or 2 lbs a week. As a matter of fact I had a whole 12" thin crust, roasted garlic and 3 cheese pizza for dinner last nig... Fri, 18 May 2012 14:34:30 EST Its a don't know what to say kind of day... I'm just not feeling it! Just not feeling it today... I've got the start of a cold, not so bad I can't do anything but just enough I don't want to but I've got a huge to do list!!! Chores (about 2 hours), pick up a load of hay, have one of my apprentice trainers here until 3 who has to be supervised, should work at least 2 of my horses in training, a HUGE meeting for the non-profit therapeutic riding center that starts at 3, a house that is a pig sty yet that is where the meeting is being held, no clean socks left in... Thu, 17 May 2012 09:53:15 EST Lovin, Life and Loosin... 1.4 lbs down since MONDAY!!! Hubby and I had a couple rough moments the last little bit... not an unimaginable thing when due to my mom's health I moved back to Michigan last fall leaving hubby in Wisconsin until January when he broke down and took a near $20 an hour pay cut to be with me and my son again which also meant moving in with my mom to make ends meet... Mom is kind of a pack rat and not known for keeping a tidy house and hubby can be a bit of a Nazi about order and organization... He's a planner she's a wing i... Wed, 16 May 2012 16:03:14 EST Something for me: goal of the day! New rule for me... take time to do something for yourself everyday! So to start things off easy my goal of the day is to actually take the time to put on makeup! I don't wear much of anything to begin with on the best of days, just a little mascara and eyeliner usually but most days I feel like I don't have the minute it takes to apply it! <BR> <BR> Right now I am getting up... <BR> <BR> I'm walking to the bathroom... <BR> <BR> and... <BR> <BR> I'm back! <BR> <BR> Make up is on, and my... Mon, 14 May 2012 08:54:31 EST Here we go again... goal changes and me time! Been a busy person working around the farm, taking care of family, taking care of my horses and my dogs... somewhere along the way though I forgot to take care of me so I'm putting my foot down!!! Everyday I need to make a point of doing something for ME! I'm not saying this to help with weight loss goals, I'm not saying this because of stress levels, I'm saying it because sometimes I don't even feel like a person any more, just a caretaker for everyone and everything! I don't care if my some... Mon, 14 May 2012 08:49:54 EST Day 16: At a loss for words today and would love to drown myself in chocolate and cheese! Too tired for creative juices to produce words today... too many things have gone poorly which has me in a sour mood so I'm just doing what I can to not drown myself in chocolate and cheese to "feel better" Mon, 16 Jan 2012 13:06:53 EST Day 15: A new addition to our family and fitting in jeans I haven't worn in a year! (Pics) I promised myself I was going to participate on Spark several times a week yet I started ignoring it after only 2 days! I'm a little disappointed in myself even though I had good reasons but at least I did not ignore my efforts to make healthy choices... As a matter of fact I can now fit in jeans I haven't worn in nearly a year!!! <BR> <BR> One of my good reasons for ignoring spark was my husband FINALLY moving to Michigan to be with us on the 6th! I'm so happy to finally get to live under t... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 08:30:07 EST Day 2: Can't decide if I feel like superman or been hit by a bus??? Snow, mud, cold and ick plus 36 horses to take care of alone equals a very sore back!!! <BR> <BR> We didn't get enough snow to use the sleds to take feed out to all the pastures but it was too much to use the cart so it was wheelbarrows and hand carrying 16 - 60 lb bales of hay and 175 lbs of grain through the snow, mud and slime all on my own... one of these days I'm going to wear my pedometer for chores to see how many steps it really takes but I do know in good conditions its 2 hours of ... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 20:02:37 EST Day 1: Out with the old and in with a NEW LIFE! I'm not one for making New Year resolutions but this year I've got one for 2012... to make it better than 2011!!! <BR> <BR> 2011 was a rough one for me, my family and my business... Lots of changes have happened in the past few months and I'm looking forward to things coming back together for a new start in life! <BR> <BR> It may sound pretty dramatic to say a NEW LIFE but for me that is what it is... My life has always been a hectic one with lots of ups and downs, running here and there, ... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 21:22:43 EST Its been 175 days since my last visit. I can't believe its been 175 days since my last visit to Spark!!! I've peeked in a few times but didn't have time to be committed to anything beyond survival! Life has thrown more than a few curve balls at me the last few months and i'm hoping to get it pulled together and get life on track. As I have time this week I will edit my page to reflect all the new and interesting changes that have happened during that 175 days... Mon, 5 Dec 2011 15:58:38 EST