BEXXYOH's SparkPeople Blog BEXXYOH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Giving it a Tri My Race Rundown for the Year (in theory/tentative) <BR> <BR> March 16: THE COLOR RUN!!! Winston Salem, NC <BR> April 13: Run for Your Lives obstacle course/zombie-themed 5K in Nashville(?), TN <BR> April 28: Diva's Half Marathon- Myrtle Beach, SC <BR> May 19: Iron Girl Sprint Tri- Atlanta, GA <BR> November 4th: City of Oaks FULL Marathon in Raleigh, NC <BR> <BR> Can you tell which thing is not like the other? Can you tell which thing doesn't belong??? <BR> <BR> That's right, Sparkfriends. ... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 07:14:19 EST I'm Grounded and the Tale of Jerky Jerkace When I was bad when I was a kid, my stepdads always took away TV priveleges as a frontline punishment (and yes that says stepdads- I had a few of em. My mom was always working and never home and didn't care what I looked like. We got closer as I got older, then she got gastric bypass and is a snobby, smaller lady who puts me down because I'm still heavy. But I digress.) Losing priveleges motivated me to do well and to stay out of trouble to avoid losing something I like. <BR> <BR> I'm not... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 20:45:37 EST Under Pressure... or Ice Ice Baby? Vanilla Ice got sued mega big time for sampling Queen + Bowie's beats. He tweaked them only slightly and expected no one to notice. These days, people are noticing little changes in me before I do. 50 lbs is a lot. 50 lbs is a small child, a bunch of bags of flour, a trip up the stairs with both arms full of groceries. It's significant whether my self-deprecating sensibilities wish to admit/accept this or not. I'm doing a lot right. I don't need an overhaul. I need to TWEAK it- I need... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 00:53:22 EST Bite-Size Fun for 2013 I'm a little scared, because I know this is the year I'm going to get to goal and finish school forever. I'm not allowed back in a classroom unless I'm at the front of it when my master's is complete, and I won't be a big girl anymore. When you've focused on particular goals for 25 years, reaching the finish line is a little freaky. This is a guideline, a positive self fulfilling prophecy. These are NOT resolutions- these are fun-sized to-do lists. These are flexible, they'll grow and change ... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 04:16:39 EST As Good as it Gets? I don't do a very good Jack Nicholson impression. If I did, I would use this skill to make money. Here's a picture to get my point across. Rawr... sort of. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I haven't been this small since high school- lowest weight of 205 in the 10th grade... size 14/16, M-L tops. Currently a size 16-18, size L tops mostly. There's about a 40 lbs difference, but I didn't have the hips or the chest in high school that I hav... Sat, 22 Dec 2012 04:11:26 EST Veggie Tables - Three Weeks In I'm digging this vegeatiran thing. I have Morningstar HARMS at least once a day, out of necessity. When I get comfortable and figure out some different stuff to do for lunch at work (which for me happens at midnight) then I'll start incorporating some more variety into the mix. <BR> <BR> The most wonderful thing the switch has done for me so far is made me exceptionally conscious of what I put in my facehole. I have to plan ahead wherever I go, and my portions are so very different, i.e... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 23:32:27 EST Vegetary Anne - Healthy by Default I haven't been able to keep weight off since I switched to nights. The cleanse didn't go very well- I did alright on it but I was so miserable I didn't make it all the way through. <BR> <BR> So I've tried literally everything under the stars to make healthy living a lifestyle. High carb, low carb, crazy low-cal, calorie-cycling, juicing... none of it will stick. <BR> <BR> I won't go into how I came to this decision, because you naysayers will tell me I'm crazy. It felt right, and about ... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 21:12:23 EST 3 Week Metabolic Showdown (aka The Numbers Game) Helwo Sparkfriends <BR> <BR> This blog is to announce that I am officially waging war on my metabolism. I enjoyed the NC state fair, some brewskies with my brother and sister-in-law + my wonderful hubsband. I didn't track but I enjoyed it. It was worth it, fo sho. <BR> <BR> But now it's time to get down to brass tacks and prepare for the upcoming struggle. I know it's coming and this time I'm going to be smart about it. I'm hanging in the (lower) 250's which is always where I get comfo... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 20:49:42 EST Rolling Up My Sleeves Things were going well in Bex Land. I had an adventure at Torrid in Greensboro, NC while I was visiting for class and fell in love with an ensemble. I didn't purchase it in-store, but stole it for 20% off online with an additional 10% Cosmo coupon at the very end. Sweet victory. <BR> <BR> Ordered laaaaate Tuesday evening, arrived on Saturday- fit crazy well. I felt fabulous. Size 18 (SKINNY!) jeans and a plaid top. Here I am in the store looking very perturbed indeed. I can't emphasiz... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 22:05:06 EST The SP Effect I find that I have looked at so many before and after photos- for motivation, inspiration, etc. - that I look at ALL photos in this light. I'll see a picture of someone I haven't seen in awhile and automatically think- Wow she looks amazing! <BR> <BR> Then I remember that they have always been that size, and it makes me giggle. <BR> <BR> I am constantly in motivation-seeking mode, it seems. I'm NOT downing my slim friends for looking awesome all the time, I just think it's funny that I a... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 11:49:38 EST More than Splitting Hair(s) I've noticed among the ladies I follow that have lost significant amounts of weight (50, 100, 150 lbs or more) that their hair often lengthens and lightens as the weight comes off. This is not always the case, and I'm certainly not saying long hair is necessarily more attractive- everyone has preferences and can look awesome with differing do's. But the transition to long and blonde is something I see quite often... and I have a theory as to why this is so. Having healthy, long, color-treated... Sat, 15 Sep 2012 12:29:16 EST A (Brief) Open Letter To... To every jerk who has ever heckled me on stage while I'm doing something you would never have the guts to even attempt; to every idiot who felt the need to yell something unkind to me from their car as I RAN past you at Hugh McRae or the outskirts of Halyburton; to every hipster chick who has rolled their eyes at me, impatiently waiting to use my machine at Planet Fitness while I complete ANOTHER set: I am unphased. I run faster than you. I eat healthier than you. I lift heavier than you. I a... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 12:08:18 EST Switching Gears: A Study of Me in the Now After three years on Spark and hundreds of fresh starts, I've finally come to the conclusion that my focus may have been off along. I've been sabotaging myself inadvertently and it's time for yet another new beginning. :) <BR> <BR> I need to focus on the air in my lungs, and the way my sneakers feel as they separate and return to the asphalt. I need to relish the taste of the fresh fruit that has replaced my afternoon coffee & cookie habit. Spark has taught me in the past to focus on small... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 15:41:01 EST Setbacks- YAYYY! Ugh- I'm typing this from my flippin' recliner when I should be running. Actually I'm supposed to be at work. Instead, I'm in tremendous pain and I can't really walk. <BR> <BR> At the outset of last week, I had decided to NOT go for my first half marathon in May, because I felt like it was too much pressure. By midweek, however, I came to the realization that the demands on my time were about lessen significantly (done for the semester this week! = one year of grad school DOWN!) and that ... Sun, 15 Apr 2012 11:57:09 EST Hotness Training Month 3: Unplanned Maintenance So long story short: mom and grandma, both in the hospital in mid-to-late February. Both are out, grandma is in physical rehab for a few weeks, mom is... mom. :) <BR> <BR> Added dairy and whole grains back in- feeling much better. A stall for the past few weeks, but time demands have limited my workouts and I've used stress as an excuse to eat poorly. <BR> <BR> Had a show on Saturday- I felt hot as crap. New corset, spanx and leggings... I looked awesome. Got heckled anyway- what a lose... Wed, 14 Mar 2012 16:01:20 EST Hotnesss Training Month 2: Are you there, real food? It's me, Bex. Today, I got lost in a run. One of my greatest joys, following my first 5K, was simply to run just to run. No time constraints, just a playlist and a park track. Today I got that back, for a little bit. c25k, w6d3, a 22-minute run. A few weeks ago I was Captain Huff n Puff with a 60 second interval. Today I enjoyed a 22 jog in crisp, clear weather before church. I enjoyed it. <BR> <BR> I run for fitness, because it's great cardio, because I love racing myself... because I love to see t... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 20:32:59 EST Terror in the Goal Box My best friend from high school is getting married in November. He's a boy, I'm standing on his side, and the only wedding I've ever been in has been my own. <BR> <BR> I originally had a smaller weight goal planned for Vegas in May (which we MAY or may not be going, after all, but the enthusiasm hasn't dwindled, so I dig) but I just thought I'd see if I could even get close to "onederland" ( before the wedding. I plugged in 199, and it saved. I'm accusto... Mon, 23 Jan 2012 10:48:58 EST Ain't No Sunshine When She's Gone... My husband hid Shelly- my scale. I asked him to do it, because I was addicted to weighing. <BR> <BR> It. is. so. hard. not. to. weigh. first. thing. in. the. MORNING!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> I'm pretty positive he took it with him in his car. I've looked everywhere. <BR> I need that reassurance, which when I'm losing is a good thing. When it doesn't say what I want it to, or what I think it should, it goes the other way, though. Since I'm focused on EFFORT goals - not WEIGHT goals - this tim... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 11:26:31 EST Hotness Training Month 1: The Right to BARE Arms (and the Dance Class Epiphany) I am no stranger to dance, or dance aerobics like Zumba or Sweaty HipHop or any of the other million ‘I don’t feel like I’m working out’ workouts. Zumba happens to be my favorite, and I’m wicked pleased to be back in classes thanks to the wife of one of my husband's long time friends. She hooked me up with a 2 week pass to the Y, and now I’m joining. Neato. So I’ve been dancing for 20 years now, and I pick things up quickly in class situations, for the most part. Generally, if we go to t... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 11:34:40 EST 2012 = Excellence *Two of my best friends got engaged on New Year's Eve- I've never been in a wedding except my own, and now I'll be in 2 in the Fall! Motivation, no? <BR> <BR> *My besties came down for the night and we partied like rockstars. Sushi, White Russians (my fave), Cheese Puffs, I made a cake... sooo worth it. It's fine to blow it occasionally when it's worth it. <em>33</em> <BR> <BR> *This morning my friendies had donuts and OJ, and I made them cinnamony rolls. I had a whole wheat bage... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 11:34:09 EST The Hottest Me I Can Be... for VEGASSSS P.S.- No knife. My husband read an article where someone died from complications. He won't allow it... that and I've lost 9 confirmed pounds on my own in the last few weeks. This will be slow, but unless there is a freak accident of some sort, Spinach and Zumba will NOT kill me. Not a chance. I got this. <BR> <BR> So Vegas... <BR> I'm in a show called the Peepshow Cabaret. I've been on cast for a year now, and I used to wear corsets and cute stuff on stage, but having returned to my SW... Tue, 27 Dec 2011 13:04:08 EST It's THIS or the Knife: My Personal Ultimatum Hi Sparkfriends <BR> <BR> Heartbroken and melancholy, I return to my safe and reliable Sparktrackers. I can't do this alone, and I'm not going to try to do so any longer. <BR> <BR> My size 18s no longer go above my hips. I purchased one pair of size 20's and a few sweaters to get me through the holidays. I live in sweatpants and my husband's t-shirts, a lifestyle I thought I had left behind. <BR> <BR> Is this the same girl that trained so steadily for her first 5K, that delighted in the... Tue, 6 Dec 2011 13:42:52 EST There's a Party in My Tummy! So yummy! So yummy! <BR> <BR> Yes... Yo Gabba Gabba has a place in an adult's Sparkblog. :) <BR> <BR> I discovered a new favorite food this summer after trying Key Lime Pie for the first time, and vowed to keep it off my menu until my birthday in April 2012. <BR> <BR> But TODAY I mixed my Yoplait Light Thick 'n Creamy Key Lime Pie flavored Yogurt with a 100 calorie pack of Honey Graham Cinnamon Cookie things- Holy moly! I may never need Key Lime Pie again! (Okay that's a lie... a bold-fac... Wed, 3 Aug 2011 14:13:44 EST Graduation + Wedding Dress= Happy December I haven't weighed in weeks. I have been so stressed and essentially eating everything in sight. I usually start off each day telling myself I'm going to get back on the wagon... but I'm usually completely off course by 3 o'clock. I'm returning to some of my binging-ish habits, like picking up an order of fries and Chick-fil-a sauce (which is like 150 calories per packet) plus a milkshake on my way home, knowing dinner will be an hour or so away. That's the kind of thing I used to get when... Fri, 17 Dec 2010 10:03:38 EST UPDATES!!! :) Hey everybody! Sorry I was really out of the loop for quite a while. Lots of things to update- super excited- great things are on the horizon! <BR> <BR> 1) The internship is going great. I'm not sleeping much these days and I don't have a lot of time for... well... much of anything- but I'm about half-way there! I'm hoping to take my boards the week of Christmas and should be on as an RN at the hospital by Jan 11, 2011! YAYYY!!! <BR> <BR> 2) Brandon officially proposed! It was at a fr... Tue, 26 Oct 2010 14:48:42 EST I DID IT! My first 5K! :D So it's over! I trained, I came, and I conquered! :) 40:21... I beat my PR of 46:13 and my GOAL of 50 minutes. I didn't come in last... I was kind of towards the tail end of the runners. I ran the ENTIRE time. <BR> <BR> I hit a really rough patch towards the end of the 3rd mile. Other runners had rounded the loop and were running towards me on the other side of the road. I could feel my legs turning to lead and my lungs had been on fire for a little while- I was telling myself out loud:... Sat, 4 Sep 2010 11:45:38 EST 5 Days Until Race Day!!! ADVICE? That's right Sparkpeople! My first 5K is on Saturday! I can't believe those words are leaving my mouth, but I'm really excited. <BR> <BR> Details: <BR> March of Dimes 5 K <BR> 8 am Saturday September 4th <BR> Mostly flat terrain- sidewalks and asphalt. <BR> <BR> Is there anything I should eat/not eat this week? How many days should I train this week? Should I run the day before? Help me out, Sparkland! Thanks so much for your input! I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M DOING THIS!!!! :D This would ... Mon, 30 Aug 2010 09:35:43 EST Mixed Emotions I find that I have a fairly self-defeating personality. Whether I like to admit it not, I am NOT the eternal optimist. <BR> <BR> I didn't get a parking pass this year. It's my last semester and I'm only on campus for 2 days a week, so Brandon is going to drop me off @ campus (he works nearby) so I'll have extra time to utilize the on-campus rec center that I'm already paying for, as well as have time to study at the library. All of this sounded great to me this morning. <BR> <BR> I ran 2.... Thu, 19 Aug 2010 12:03:19 EST Expedited 5K Training Progress :) So... I'm wicked proud of myself. :) <BR> <BR> I keep looking back over the past few months. I haven't lost a million pounds, I haven’t gone down a bunch of sizes (yet) and I'm not unrecognizable to anyone else. But today, I was unrecognizable to me. This 22 year old chick ran her first non-stop mile ever. Never in my life have I ever run more than a few minutes without stopping. What did I do to celebrate? I grabbed some water and did it all over again. :) <BR> <BR> I was proud of my... Mon, 16 Aug 2010 00:39:02 EST Upcoming 5K - HELP Okay guys- I have the opportunity to run a 5K in September. For those of you runners- how can I (quickly) push and build to being able to run 3.3 miles from being able to run just under half a mile? <BR> <BR> Can I do it? What kind of pace should I go for? I would absolutely LOVE to do this! I am comitted to getting up early before class/clinicals to train, and training 7 days a week if I need to. <BR> <BR> Someone who has made this kind of progress before or someone who knows running.... Thu, 12 Aug 2010 16:55:47 EST 3 Week Countdown... and AWESOME UPDATES! :) 1) So first and foremost- I am 100% totally going to start tracking again. I drove 2 hours to go to my brother's fiancé’s bridal shower, stayed there for 20 minutes, and then went out to eat with my brothers and my sister-in-law. They're all 30-32 and I've always wanted to hang out with them, go to dinner, grab a drink etc. So this was the first time I really felt like a "grown up" with my "grown up" brothers. :) So I had a light dinner (grilled chicken, spinach salad), had 2 servings of ... Mon, 12 Jul 2010 12:33:51 EST Deep Thoughts I get a tremendous feeling of bliss when I see some beautiful girl from high school on Facebook who is now fat. (I know... that's terrible... but it's a knee-jerk reaction which I cannot control). Then I scroll down, realize she is not fat- she is 7+ months pregnant, and the house in front of which she is standing is NOT some cozy vacation bungalow- it is in fact, the home she purchased with and for her husband, 4 cats, 3 and half dogs (long story about Bowser) and her soon-to-arrive crazily ... Mon, 5 Jul 2010 13:38:05 EST Oops... I did it again... I started this week with a cleanse, and I felt pretty fantastic. I broke my plateau, lost a few pounds (I know it was water but it felt good to see the #'s move) and was feeling pretty excellent. I did good for the two days following, tracking and doing well- exercising as I had planned. <BR> <BR> Then Thursday rolled around. I got a haircut- it was supposed to be a trim from what I already had, as I'm trying to grow it out. The stylist offered to "give it some movement," to which I agre... Fri, 4 Jun 2010 10:59:58 EST Running into HIS Ex... So I must say, for a big city… Wilmington, NC is the SMALLEST town I have ever encountered. <BR> <BR> My guy's grandma gave us a 2-for-1 lunch coupon for the local TGIF, and we decided to go there for lunch today while he had the day off. We were about 5 minutes into eating, when we noticed his grandma leaving- she had kept a coupon for herself! It was neat to see her out and about, so we chatted for a minute and then went back to our table. <BR> <BR> Less than 30 seconds after we got b... Mon, 24 May 2010 15:13:42 EST When Things Fall Apart Alright. I'm at a crossroads. Weighed and measured today- my measurements are the same (except my thighs have actually gotten bigger) and my weight is the same - it's actually up 3 pounds from my ticker marking but I really don't want to change it- I keep thinking that tomorrow will be the day the number changes and then I won't have to. My clothes aren't looser, either. I've been looking for all of those subtleties that might not show up on the scale... they're not happening. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 7 May 2010 11:11:21 EST What A Weekend... So last week I worked out as usual... about 5-6 days. But I didn't track like I normally do. I'm scared to get on the scale. I was very bad for a few days, resorting to the old habit of "getting a craving out of my system" so I could "be good". <BR> <BR> It's time to rededicate- get serious. I'm pumping up my cardio, I'm going to build to about 1 hr 30 minutes, and beyond if my body will let me. I have 3 months to fit back into my School of Nursing scrubs or I have to buy new ones... whi... Mon, 3 May 2010 23:45:29 EST A Blog From the Boyfriend :) Brandon's personal message to the SparkNationWorldCommunityThing :) Sat, 10 Apr 2010 20:10:34 EST Still the Fat Girl... Apparently So today my nursing school hosted a Health Fair. It is also my birthday... I'm 22. Neat. <BR> <BR> I was feeling pretty good about myself. I was wearing some capris that were a little loose and my School of Nursing polo- per uniform policy for the event. I'm always the biggest one in my class- it's been that way for as long as I can remember, honestly. But honestly the whole "fat girl" mentality was mostly in my head. People were never really cruel to me directly, save for a few really ... Fri, 9 Apr 2010 18:11:02 EST ChaLean Extreme... and my reservations... :-\ So ChaLean Extreme got here today, and I started out super excited! I couldn't wait to get into the package and figure everything out and get started. <BR> <BR> Starting Measurements <BR> Chest...............49.5" <BR> Upper arms....18.75" <BR> Waist................47.5" <BR> Hips..................54.5" (good lord...) <BR> Abductors.......33.75" <BR> Thighs..............26" <BR> <BR> Fit Test (Start) <BR> Pushups...........21 <BR> Crunches........18 <BR> Squats.............12 <BR> Plank.... Tue, 6 Apr 2010 15:51:05 EST Energy... Neat! I'll post a video blog later this week or perhaps next week... but I just gotta say- A fellow SP member introduced me to TurboJam, and I am totally in love with this workout! It kicks my butt! BUTT (haha) I don't feel like I'm really working out because it's so much fun. This is what I've been looking for! I'm covered in sweat and warm all over at the end, I know I've burned tons of calories...and the energy is AWESOME! <em>252</em> I'm down 5 lbs and I can't wait to see what's going to... Mon, 29 Mar 2010 22:01:58 EST Blog Numero Uno: I need your help! Talking about future goals and a special request: I need your input! What works for you? Mon, 22 Mar 2010 15:00:54 EST