BETTER_LUCK's SparkPeople Blog BETTER_LUCK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Can't all be good. Can it? This is real life, after all. <BR> <BR> Today was a bad day. It started out about okay, but my muscles felt sluggish, so I really didn't want to do the lower extremity segment of my workout DVD. Took that in stride, did upper extremity and abs, but still, the fire was lacking. Absent. AWOL. The lean, mean workout machine was, well, tired. I had been riding it pretty hard, though, two >5 mile runs in 3 days, and formidable strength training. These didn't amount to all the minutes I'm... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 15:06:46 EST Reminder Wow, it's been almost a month and a half since I've blogged. <BR> <BR> It's certainly been a busy time, though. I haven't been very active on the site, but I've been tracking diligently, and I think I missed only two, or three days. The result? I've lost 5 pounds, nice and slow. <BR> <BR> So, this is to remind myself. I feel great now, top of my game, hot stuff. How do I get to be this way? 1: I have to be busy at work. If I'm not busy enough, I'm not happy. Simple as that. 2: Track, trac... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 12:12:22 EST Weigh-in day 150.8 vs. 153.2 last week. I don't think all of this is a real loss, as I was heavily PMS'ing last week, but I'll take it! LOL. I don't want my motivation to be governed by the scale, so I shouldn't be THIS pleased about a number, but heck, I am. I've been working out upwards of 60mins a day, and I find I don't do it to lose weight. I do it because it's fun and it feels natural. This 20-min workouts thing through the day really fits me. My energy levels are so high, I feel like the Energizer ... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 05:54:09 EST The weekend at a glance Thursday was weigh-in day, where I switched to my new digital scale (bought just for motivation! Fresh start, fresh scale) and started tracking my weight in pounds because in my country we use the metric system, and I have absolutely no emotional associations with the number in pounds. <BR> <BR> Friday went to a birthday party, and despite cake, came in only 200 calories above my range. This is a huge step if you consider that in the past, an outing such as this would mean upwards of 5000, ... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 06:28:45 EST Just to remind myself: Eleven minutes is how long it took to pack a lunch for tomorrow. Eleven minutes. That's it. Yes, the chicken was batch-cooked two weeks ago. Yes, the carrots were cleaned and peeled in the fridge. But these things don't take up a lot of time either. I gained the habits of batch-cooking and pre-preparing my veggies with Spark. Packing my lunch, I am proud to say, has become a habit, and it was maybe the easiest habit I ever gained. <BR> <BR> On to the next hurdle: cravings! Wed, 6 Feb 2013 17:23:47 EST Haven't blogged in a while... ...but I've been tracking food & fitness diligently, and managed to stick to my goals at least 80% of the time. Also, still maintaining the weight (my old analog scale said 1 pound loss last weigh-in, but I don't really believe it! LOL), despite a big case of PMS and, well, life. I have eaten in front of the TV a couple of times, but never lost control. I think I can say that I haven't binged in a month. That's more of a streak than I ever had, in my life, I think. Also, I guess the reason fo... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 06:28:36 EST Yes, still on track. But feeling kinda bleak. I was all right, bordering on ecstatic yesterday when I realized I am doing *okay*, in all areas of my life at the moment (knock on wood! LOL). What was most significant was my finances picking up, and I didn't even do anything super-large about that, just a few small changes here and there, cutting back on stuff that didn't really hurt me. So, what did I do with the extra, I invested in an electronic kitchen scale! I have a scale, one that is about five years younger... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 05:57:51 EST Week 2 So yeah, the weekend passed in a whirlwind that did not leave much time for online dealings. It was, however, a good one. I could of course not follow through on the meal-every-three-hours thing with the boyfriend at home, but there were several high points: <BR> <BR> - Worked out on the elliptical on Saturday <BR> - Cooked very healthy stuff and ate in moderation, within limits both days <BR> - Did not binge except for a very minor incident with dessert after dinner Sunday evening <BR> - W... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 12:04:14 EST Blogging keeps the motivation fresh. Right? So this is me, working for my motivation. <BR> <BR> Today while changing for my workout, I saw the scale. It was eyeing me from across the room, beckoning, appealing to whatever it is in us that makes explosions and accidents so morbidly fascinating. The internal dialogue I had goes as follows: <BR> <BR> "I wonder what I weigh. Maybe the fat fairy stopped by and incinerated a couple pounds." <BR> <BR> "There's no such thing as a fat fairy. You're fat and yet, strangely fair." <B... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 13:46:11 EST Waning motivation? I feel almost too ashamed to post this. It's just day 4 of the streak. I'm well-fed, well-worked out and eating clean. Emphasis on well-fed. <BR> <BR> So why don't I want to play any more? <BR> <BR> That's what it feels like. I just got home from an admittedly easy day at the office, no problems whatsoever. It's just a little cold, nothing else is wrong. Boyfriend seems to be feeling better as well. I should in fact be happy as a lark. Instead I feel like a surly 5-year old with a fever wh... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 09:48:48 EST The binge that changed it all You'd never believe the kitchen floor would be a good setting for an epiphany. <BR> <BR> That's what happened, though. After maybe 15 years of binge-eating, the one last Saturday night was the one that finally did it. I'd always had the irrational fear that one day I'd eat myself into oblivion. Well, I ate myself into consciousness, is what happened. <BR> <BR> You read stuff all the time. You nod your head, think 'so true!', and promptly proceed to forget about it. Not in a mental sense, ... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 07:13:29 EST Set up Spark page! I just finished uploading lots and lots of pictures on my Spark Page. I've noticed several things in the process: <BR> <BR> - Nowhere in these pictures do I look as disgusting as I thought I did at the time. <BR> - I like my face at any weight. <BR> - I am an expert at avoiding cameras when I feel uncomfortable with my weight. The only thing I seem to be better at is: <BR> - Using clothes to hide weight gain. <BR> <BR> These make me think. The first thing is probably true for everybody... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 10:10:05 EST New Year's Resolutions, what else? I have to revamp my life, it seems. <BR> <BR> Having lived since teenage with a multitude of eating disorders (pretty much everything other than anorexia), I've always had a problematic relationship with food. Whatever I do, this does not seem to change. Thanks to SparkPeople, I've gotten a long way from the binge-eating, hibernating, self-hating teenager that I used to be, but judging by the 15 pound gain in the last 3 months, there's still some ways to go. <BR> <BR> I've asked myself wh... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 05:17:42 EST Never mind, I was wrong Well, turns out I don't believe in love after all. <BR> <BR> At least, never again. I realize that it's probably the heartache (and the liquor, too, probably) talking, but nothing cures you of love faster than getting dumped by the guy who looked you in the eye and said 'you're the one' AND made you believe that. With a text, no less! <BR> <BR> He dumped me because I neglected to mention that a year ago, I had a little something like a one-night-stand with someone who's a close friend now... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 12:33:47 EST Progress? I'm a believer. <BR> <BR> I believe in true love. The kind that the nasty huge production companies poisoned us with. Who out there doesn't like romantic comedies, after all? <BR> <BR> I'm also tolerant. Open-minded. And the thing I like about myself most is that I am a really, really good friend. I'm the kind of friend who'd help you bury the body first and ask why later. And then I'd probably make your excuses for you. But I wouldn't stop myself from telling what you did was wrong. Stil... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 13:40:15 EST Wifi on the transatlantic Yeah, they've got wifi on planes now, apparently. Anyway, trip to USA over, as usual I'm kind of heart-broken to leave, but that's expected. Job interview went... Well, I can never tell with these guys, they're too professional to let anything show. I did splurge on the calories in NYC (had cheesecake, went back for it, but by god, was it worth it or what!) but also walked 10 miles once and 5 miles three times in that week. Have now reset my Spark trackers, will be spending the next two month... Sat, 18 Feb 2012 22:11:50 EST Blog virgin!! Wow. I've been online most of my adult life and this is the first time I'm writing a blog. Actually I love writing, especially the fiction kind, and I've wanted to write something in quite a while now, so here goes nothing. It's not like I'm forcing anyone to read my crap, right? :) <BR> <BR> I suppose an introduction is in order. I'm a 29 year-old single woman, living on my own and working as an orthopedic surgeon. In my country doctors are forced to work 2 years for the state at a location... Fri, 10 Feb 2012 16:06:36 EST