BETHGILLIGAN's SparkPeople Blog BETHGILLIGAN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Introducing........ <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Carys Amelia Gilligan <BR> Arrived January 19, 2015 <BR> 9 lbs 6 oz 21" long <BR> <BR> <BR> "Carys" (Care-is) is Welsh for love or kind. Mommy's grandma was from Wales. Amelia is daddy's grandma's name. Tue, 20 Jan 2015 14:34:33 EST Quick update.... I'm still doing fairly well. I have not seen the scale move one bit and waist size is the same. But, I think I look trimmer and the belly doesn't seem to hang over the pants like it did. How is that possible? Anyway, that's what I see. And, I continue to feel good; stronger, healthier. Just wish I could "see" some results!! This is when it gets tough for me to keep going. I hit that "why bother" wall. This time I will continue to make the decisions and try to push through. <BR> I'm... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 09:29:26 EST Feeling better (again) So I've worked on staying focused over these last couple of weeks. I have made the decision to work out every day (some days the decision was tougher than others!). I have tracked calories every day and stayed in range. I have made good decisions with my eating which makes me feel more like I'm in control. That's good! <BR> I am feeling stronger and healthier. I got my Fitbit One and have found it to be a motivating tool to keep me moving. I think some of it is subconscious. I feel t... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 20:43:49 EST It's the same old song.... In September I was up, up, up. Well, I've been down and up a couple of times since then. Right now I am definitely down but fighting to get back up. <BR> Exercise and diet were going fairly well and then....well, I don't know what then. I got sick? I got busy? I lost a few pounds and got complacent? The answer to all of these is yes. <BR> As many of you know, exercise motivation is a real problem for me. Almost the minute I take a day off, I'm done. I don't know why. I keep trying to... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 15:10:15 EST I did not fall off the face of the earth....... I'm really in a much better place than I was a month or so ago when I wrote my last blog. I got started on the recumbent bike and found that I almost like it! I pop on my ipod and crank out 20 minutes (I started at 10 minutes and it was a struggle). I do my knee exercises every day and have started to add in some weights for my upper body. I don't like spending so much time on exercise but I am feeling better and my body is starting to look better. We went to Indiana for a long weekend a... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 20:26:02 EST Major Wake Up Call!! So, a lot has been going on since our trip to London. I met with the nutritionist at Kaiser and she was very nice and was able to give me a few tidbits that I didn't already know. She was able to be more specific as to what my calorie range should be. That was a big help as every site I checked had different numbers. After reviewing about a week's worth of food tracking, she determined my diet was OK although I could add a fruit or so a day. Her conclusion was that increasing my exercise... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 20:58:51 EST Happy, happy news!! Our dear son and daughter in law are expecting first baby in January!!! They are over the moon and so are we! There were many reasons we were afraid this wouldn't happen for them but it seems it was easy-peasy!!! (TMI?) They will be amazing parents!!! Wed, 16 Jul 2014 08:10:15 EST WARNING: London Travel Pictures! I finally have some of my London/Ireland pix downloaded to computer so I'll give you a sample of what I've got. They are pretty standard point and shoot travel pictures. I'm not a very good photographer. So, with all those caveats; here goes: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Tower of London <BR> <img src=""> <BR> London Street sign <BR> <img src=" Sun, 22 Jun 2014 14:27:56 EST The inside story (still no pictures)...... That blog sounded like a boring travelogue. Let me give you some of the inside dirt. Leaving Dulles my husband was told his carry on was too big. It wasn't. The guy was just giving us grief and being "tough". He said he'd let it go this time (it fit in the measure thing!). Nobody else on the entire trip made a peep about the size of that bag and we saw at least one carryon that was almost twice that size. <BR> I got stopped a Dulles security. They had 3 different people come up to look a... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 17:50:38 EST Some info about trip but no pictures.... We had a wonderful time in London and Ireland! I'm an OK traveler but I do not like the airport stress!! And, flying international seems to add to the stress for me. Anyway, we were plenty early for our flight but still had little wait time by the time we stood in all of the lines. <BR> Arrived at Heathrow 5:30 pm our time (10:30 pm England time). Took the Heathrow Express to Paddington Station; caught a cab to hotel. We were exhausted. Had a nice room; got unpacked and collapsed into ... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 20:51:37 EST I'm still here Well, it's been awhile but I've been busy! We got the boat down to the lake. That is also known as the trip from hell or Black Thursday!! Very convoluted story--it's funny in retrospect (well, my husband still won't laugh). 4-5 hour trip took us 11 hours (yes, with the dog!) Long story short, bad tires on the trailer (at different times on the trip). Not good. I spent about 3 hours at a Walmart in Orange County. <em>28</em> Never been so happy to unhook a trailer/boat in my life. ... Mon, 19 May 2014 20:53:08 EST Hangin' in there.... So, I've been doing fairly well these past couple of weeks. I had a stretch of allergies/cold/whatever. Finally, got through that and things have settled into more of a routine. Back to the regular exercise routine and very happy I'm able to walk outside again! Watching my food intake and consistently tracking. Not seeing any results yet other than I am starting to feel better physically and emotionally. And, that's a great way to start!! I'm feeling a bit conflicted: on one hand I wan... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 20:03:55 EST Busy times.... The last week or so have been good for me. The weather is finally showing some spring which does so much to lift my spirits. I've been trying to take the dog out for a walk in the afternoon in addition to whatever my scheduled exercise is. It just feels so glorious to be out in the sunshine and moving my body. I must admit that March wreaked havoc on my exercise program. I did fairly well (not perfect, by any stretch) with my food but I had more days not exercising than exercising. Goin... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 17:00:00 EST The results are in...... And, after over 20 blood tests; 1 visit to doctor; 1 visit to specialist; 1 very long phone conversation with doctor.............I AM FINE!!! I got an email from rheumatologist this morning telling me everything was negative. My lab results are posted to my medical website so I already knew that the tests where I had a point of reference were normal. I am a very happy girl. Not necessarily because I now know I have NO autoimmune disease (they tested for everything), my liver is good as is... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 17:53:38 EST And, on and on it goes....... I met with the rheumatologist today. She was very nice, seemed to know her stuff and appeared to be 18!! LOL!! We reviewed my history and all of the blood work done so far. She sincerely doubts that I have lupus. But, she did want to do more blood work to check for more obscure autoimmune diseases. She said that, as a specialist, she feels driven to make sure there is NOTHING there! I have dry eye syndrome and that could be related to Sjogren's Syndrome and I had 4 miscarriages which c... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 16:20:26 EST And, the ongoing saga..... So I did talk to the doctor on Monday. However, it only happened following much confusion but whatever. We had a very long talk (40 minutes), got the air cleared, although she was extremely apologetic so I didn't have to say much. She kept going on and on about how awful she felt. She explained the communication breakdown and we talked about the lab results. Discovered that the last ANA test (2011) was also mild positive but dermatologist interpreted it as negative. This ANA shows the v... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 20:32:24 EST deja vu all over again..... I'm definitely back on the roller coaster of life. What a couple of weeks (month?) it has been. As of my last blog, I was increasing weights and reps; doing great and feeling good. Uh-oh. <em>40</em> Chest pain rears it's ugly head. No, not heart related but it felt like pulled muscles. On right side of chest, that achy pulled muscle feeling that, when you move a certain way, reminds you it's there. Ouch. On the left side of chest (actually on top rib) a burning sensation. It wou... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 10:05:56 EST Waning enthusiasm Actually, in the overall scheme of things, I'm doing well. I am keeping my calories within range and, many days I'm on the low end! Proud of that! And, I've even done it on days when we've gone out to eat. YAY for me. I am very consistent with my exercise. Rarely miss a day and have increased number of reps for each exercise and have added a couple of new exercises. YAY for me again. I am tracking everything and weighing/measuring. <BR> Still using "proactive" as my word. My enthus... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 21:07:23 EST Quick check in.... It's been a busy, birthday weekend! My daughter's birthday was yesterday and her husband sent her shopping so I went along. It was fun! Like the days when she was young. Lots of laughs and chatter. Then hubby and I went to dinner the family for her big day. Today is Connor's 4th birthday (yes, she was in labor on her birthday having him!) Party is at 1:00 with pizza, cake and lots of fun with the family. Son and daughter in law will be there, too. <em>334</em> I love it when we're ... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 10:46:13 EST PROACTIVE is still the word....... And I've done a pretty good job at following through with that mindset. (Except, maybe with blogging <em>211</em> ) Last week I hit a bit of a slump with exercise but fought my way through it. I even worked out in the late afternoon since I hadn't in the morning. Typically, if I don't work out in the morning, it just doesn't get done. So I'm proud of that achievement! Tracking all of my food and staying in range--I need more days in low range instead of the higher end of the range. B... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 15:46:33 EST PROACTIVE Geez! Haven't written for awhile but things have been bouncing around in my head. I finished that book from my last blog. I learned a number of interesting things that I can use but nothing that really "struck" me as being me. Interesting enough that I finished the book. <BR> A couple of things keep "rattling" around in my head. One of my Spark friends posted a blog asking people to post the word that they will pursue this year instead of a resolution. Immediately I thought of "consist... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 19:39:45 EST Looking for insights, thoughts, opinions, ideas.... This blog is not going to really be about me specifically and my day to day issues. I am at my all time highest weight. Had no idea my scale went that high! I've never had a fat butt -- I mean NEVER -- until now. I'm in the largest size I've ever worn. I'm not asking for sympathy or pity or whatever. I'm just stating the facts as they are today. I have, obviously, totally fallen off the wagon (and then some). Eating too much and not healthy enough. Absolutely no exercise of any kind-... Wed, 18 Dec 2013 12:44:01 EST Sleep study results and more So, the last time we talked I was getting ready for my sleep study. It was, essentially, a disaster. I could not sleep for anything--tossed and turned (as much as you can when wired). The finger probe made my finger feel "burny" and the medical tape on my throat itched all night. Miserable!! <BR> Took the machine back the next day and within 24 hours got a message that the finger probe malfunctioned and they got no readings. <em>40</em> REALLY???? I have to do it again. I am told not t... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 08:11:24 EST Oh, the folly of my ways....... Over the past month I have been all over the place emotionally. First, I found a food tracking site that seemed awesome! Easy-peasy!!!! Yikes! I could never type in anything that came up in their data base. Not sure what my problem was so I left that site after a week or two in search of a new site. Bingo! Found it. Great site that gave lots of great info. Problem????? It was awful trying to input new foods!! My original complaint. So I decided to return to Spark food tracking. N... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 14:08:32 EST Ramblings again but this time with questions and confusion........ First of all, I NEED to update my Sparkpage! The dogs are gone, the baby is here and the son is married. I am a bit behind. <BR> Not sure where to start this rambling blog. First, let me say that I am not frustrated, depressed or angry. Just curious....wondering what the heck? <BR> I joined Spark in 2009 and I now weigh more than I did then. I have been down and I have been up but I have kept nothing off. I have tracked food and exercise religiously and I have not tracked at all. I hav... Fri, 4 Oct 2013 16:45:20 EST Looking up! HMMMM! I see it's been a month since I've written. I don't know why I procrastinate blogging. I think I have nothing to say (after reading some of the awesome, inspirational blogs!) or I have too much to say and don't know where to start. <BR> This past month has been pretty good for me. I got back to walking. Whew! I was so out of shape it was pathetic. But, I kept pushing and am back to my old routine. Actually, I've changed it up a little. I walk and do ST 2 days, walk a longer di... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 15:01:40 EST UGH! Still here Well, last week I was motivated to get back on track but that mojo has left already. I am not in a good spot at all--physically or emotionally. I think I'm having a bit of a crash from losing Ernie, wedding over and lake over. I am home alone this week which doesn't help my mood. However, I know I spiral into depression if I don't exercise for awhile so I imagine that's the real culprit of my mood. I've been on the binging side of eating---way too much bad stuff. It's almost I'm aiming ... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 11:11:23 EST Ramblings...... So the wedding is over. The honeymoon is over. The lake vacation is over. Back to reality for all of us. <BR> The wedding was amazing. I must admit I had some trepidation about some the bride's ideas but it was beautiful (I was thinking it may be like a beerfest!) The (outside) ceremony was hot as blazes but only about 20 minutes. It was very touching and romantic. My son and his new wife are "criers" so many tears were shed during this special time. My grandson (3) was fired as ring ... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 15:17:43 EST Just when things are breezing along...... I haven't written in such a long time. My intentions have been good but my actions have not. Things have been fairly hectic preparing for the wedding (this Saturday) with painting, cleaning, etc. We're now down to some last minute things. <BR> I was brought down by a nasty sinus infection which set me back almost a week on my to do list plus the fact that I felt miserable. That seems to be gone and I'm feeling much better. <BR> So we think we have this nailed. The weather will be unbearab... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 09:48:23 EST Update So we went to the beach for a long weekend. Had a great time although the weather was "iffy". We laugh like fools with this couple which was just what I needed! <BR> I'm not tracking food (although I am trying to stay in range) and the exercise has stopped. <em>39</em> I have a "busy excuse" for every day! I'm really hoping to get back on track this week. I know I'll have more energy and feel the decision must be made!!! My frustration is my weight is staying the same (... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 08:58:23 EST Same old..... So, it's been a couple of weeks since I've written anything. Life is pretty much the same. Once the clothes purging ended I lost my cleaning momentum and have not regained it yet. That tends to stress me out as son's wedding is in about 7 weeks and we'll have people visiting as well as staying with us. My list is so long I think I am frozen. Not sure what to do first so I'm doing nothing. In addition, lots of errands to be run as well as daily chores. I'm feeling overwhelmed!! <BR> M... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 09:40:22 EST Closets and drawers and shelves, oh, my!!! With some spring weather finally rolling around, I have been eager to clean out closets, drawers, etc. Ready to get rid of items that don't fit or that I don't wear anymore. I have lots of clothes (read that *too many*) from my teaching days and many of them just don't "fit' my retired lifestyle or my body. I've been looking at lots of stuff for over 4 years and am ready to clean out and simplify my clothing options. <BR> So I started with my drawers. Yeah, yeah. Boring stuff. No excit... Sat, 18 May 2013 09:28:26 EST I give up.... Well, sort of. I have been on Spark since December 2009 (I think). In almost 3 1/2 years I have lost a grand total of 5 pounds and have gained 3; leaving a grand total of minus 2 pounds in over 3 years. Not a very good statistic. <BR> I have been up with the program and down with the program. I have worked hard and I have been a slacker. I have been happy and I have been frustrated. <BR> So, here's where I'm at right now. I give up. I give up worrying about my weight and the scale and ... Wed, 8 May 2013 20:33:00 EST My mind is like a whirling dervish....... .....too bad my body is more like a turtle!! I have never been diagnosed with ADD but I think I know how my son and husband feel. I cannot focus on one thing for longer than 2 minutes! Bridal shower today, baptism tomorrow. Planning and prep for both of those finally done. Rehearsal dinner invites, menu, etc. coming up. Arrangements for family from out of town and scheduling all that needs to be done before then. Vacation at lake the following week. We've never done this before so try... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 10:51:25 EST This and that........ Well, I'm inconsistently trying to be consistent!! Not working so well yet. I track food for a couple of days, get in my exercise and then I don't for 3-4 days. I know it's all excuses. I am still watching what I eat but being more consistent with the workouts is more difficult for me. I will get it but can't give up. <BR> It seems I have been so busy with annoying tasks--phone calls, scheduling, etc. Not getting basics accomplished like house cleaning! it's frustrating but all those... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 09:32:49 EST What happened to March? Most of you have heard the story so just a brief update: Sarah Rose was born on February 27 at 12:31 pm following a fairly short induced labor. I stayed at daughter's house from Tuesday night till Saturday. Then drove back and forth every day for the next week. Trying to take care of 2 houses was not easy. So my house and husband got a bit slighted. My time out there has tapered since then. Sarah is a good baby and, like many thirds, just seems to go with the flow! Much more mellow (ri... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 15:31:59 EST Short and sweet Not sure how sweet this is but it will be short. The pain is subsiding a bit in my hands. They are a bit better every day. That is good news!! Finally, I can tell real improvement! <BR> I seem to have put my life on hold waiting on baby! Actually, the entire family is at the end of their rope waiting for this!!! I have not exercised all week. I am totally focused on getting as much done around the house as possible before I go to daughter's. Not sure how long I will be staying (2-4 da... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 14:12:07 EST Back at it while we wait..... First, I need to whine a little. I am STILL having pain in my hands and right knee from my fall!! It has been a month!!! What is up with this??? I will say they are better but still painful!! Really???? I am so old it takes this long to heal? Yeah, well I'm over this!! I want pain free!! <BR> I have gotten back to exercise on a regular basis. Pretty much in my old routine...walking 4 days a week. ST 2 days a week. And, no one will be surprised to hear, I'm feeling better!! I purcha... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 09:04:54 EST I learned 2 things about myself this week..... I have not done any exercise since January 10th. During the holidays it was hit or miss. On the 17th I had my "accident" so for the next 7 days or so I was just trying to get somewhat back to normal. On Tuesday (29th) I had spiraled into a blue funk. I'd had a lot of stuff going on--the one year anniversary of my dad's death being one of them. But, I didn't think that was the total cause of my funk. I was sharing my mental state with my husband. His normal response is to nod, sympathiz... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 20:46:38 EST Quick check in..... So a little over a week since the accident. I am feeling much better but am a little discouraged with the nagging pain I have in different parts of my body (i.e., knee, thumbs, finger, etc) Still have a little swelling by my eye and on the bridge of my nose but the bruising is all fading to that lovely yellow green. <BR> Today is the one year anniversary of my dad's death. I'm not really depressed but feeling a bit melancholy. I have thought of him every day since he passed. I'll be glad... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 14:52:48 EST Screeching Halt (literally)(picture not for squeamish!) OK! I can hardly believe this happened myself!! It was like an out of body experience. Daughter and I headed to national harbor on Thursday with the two kiddos. Found the new Children's Museum--no problem. Parked in garage across the street. <BR> We had a good time. It's much smaller than I thought it would be but it wasn't crowded so the kids could interact with anything they wanted. And, they were having a great time. I was getting irritated at so many parents on their cells while ... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 09:53:55 EST Consistently inconsistent........ That's how I would describe my journey since the holidays. I walk/workout for 2-3 days; then nothing for 3-4 days. Same with tracking food; diligent for a couple days; nothing for a couple of days. Just not getting in to any Spark routine. <BR> I don't feel discouraged or "down" about this situation--yet. I stll feel the committment, just not the enthusiasm that would "push" me through difficult days. I know I'm not prioritizing me but prioritizing "things to do" before my needs/health... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 09:34:58 EST It's over and back to the routine We had a wonderful Christmas! On Christmas Eve, we all went to dinner. Lots of laughs and fun. We were home fairly early. Christmas day I did cooking for "our Christmas" on the 26th. I finally finished up and we headed to daughter's to check out what Santa brought the kids. They were all very tired; still in jammies; house a wreck----you know, typical Christmas with little ones. We stayed for dinner; helped clean up a bit and headed home. Nice, quiet day. They all began arriving aro... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 16:07:50 EST Tough week........ Last week (12/12/12) we said goodbye to our sweet Toby. The vet arrived at our house at 8:30 am. He is so kind and gentle. We were so happy we could give Toby this last gift of saying goodbye on his favorite sofa in our laps. <BR> It, obviously, was difficult for the next couple of days. Then CT happened on Friday. I taught special ed preschool in an elementary school for 23 years. This tragedy really hit me hard! I know a lot of you are or have been teachers and know how I felt. I ... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 15:02:27 EST ACK!!! The holidays are here....... I've been thinking about getting going on this blog but life keeps intruding. I could probably write at least 3 different blogs at this point. <BR> First of all, since Thanksgiving my enthusiasm has waned a bit. I'm still walking, lifting weights and trying to eat right but the enthusiasm is gone. Like that excitement of first months with new love (remember?). All atwitter and bubbly. Then it gets a bit more humdrum. Yeah, that's where I'm at now. Doing it but just doing it. I remain ... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 15:28:00 EST What happened to last week? Somehow I totally missed posting a blog last weekend. I don't even remember what I was up to that made me so busy. We did go out to dinner with son and fiancee on Saturday night. We had so much fun! I love the man he's becoming and the couple they are! My daughter (who(m?) I adore let us know that she was a bit jealous that they weren't invited. I'm hoping this doesn't indicate some attitudes to come. She's used to being the family "princess" and maybe it will be hard for her to share ... Sat, 17 Nov 2012 15:21:22 EST Me, Toby, and pictures..... First, ME!! Another measurement and I've lost another 1/2 inch from my waist and 1/2 inch from hips!!!! WooHoo!! I have "officially" lost 1 pound but unofficially have lost 4 pounds. When I started this push at the end of August I continued to gain---3 pounds actually---I did not post my gain. I have a bit of pride!! LOL So now I've lost those "secret" 3 and one more. WooHoo!! (again) <BR> The last couple days have not been so great with exercise but I will be back on track tomorrow. A... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 11:10:44 EST From doggie surgery to nasty Sandy Well, it's been an interesting week to say the least. Last Thursday I took our 12 year old beagle in to have a constantly infected anal gland removed. I was shocked when we picked him up! The vet had tried to warn me that this is a significant surgery but I had no idea.....He was hesitant to do the surgery because of Toby's age and health. Well, his rear end was shaved bald and swollen to at least twice its size. If I'd had a sense of humor then I would have sung "Baby Got Back" or "I Li... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 20:10:56 EST How am I doing this? I have been walking and doing ST consistently for 8 weeks!!! I think this is the point where it is a habit??? Some mornings I don't even think about it--just put on my clothes and go. I am amazed at myself! I don't remember the last time I had such a streak going!! My eating has been on target, too. Just a few days of being at the top of my calorie range. <em>224</em> Please don't ask about my weight though!! <em>28</em> That scale isn't budging much. I am happier when I look ... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 19:01:47 EST Busy week even without visitors It ended up my daughter and grandkids came on Friday and left on Sunday morning. We had lots of fun. On Saturday, grandpa and mommy took kids to playground while grandma tried to pull herself (and the house!) together. Then, daughter and I took kids to bookstore. I love books but have never thought of a bookstore as a place to hang out. They do. It was fun and grandson and I explored all the aisles while daughter and granddaughter looked at some books and found a birthday present for GD... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 14:08:44 EST