BESTTHINGEVERJE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BESTTHINGEVERJE BESTTHINGEVERJE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My Current Label: CHEATER. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5420841 sooo.. last month around the 8th of june i decided that my friend justin and i should go on a date, he well agreed. it was fun, he treats me very well.. when hes not with chris, his bff.. i swear they have a bromance going on! its gross. anyway. justin told me that his doctor told him that if he and i spend alot of time apart, then once we saw eachother it would be awesome. then i asked him, "someday when and if we ever have sex.. will it be the same way? ull go 4 days out of the week without... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 15:23:43 EST My 1st Gym Membership http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262305 well, so my friend heather who just happens to be one of my ex's wife and i went to the local gym 2 days in a row! im soooo proud of myself! i know it was just yesterday and today haha but its better than nothing! yesterday i lifted and did 5 miles on the low bike. toda i only did weights with my legs and rode the regular bike for 3 miles (i was sore from yesterday).. anyway.. i feel wonderful! i hope i stick with it. i plan to pay for all of march. and go.. all of march. haha. <BR> <BR> my ... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 16:16:24 EST Jesse. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5252064 Ooooookayyyy.. so i have a small history with this Jesse person, we hooked up a few times about a year and a half ago.. things were going well. he was great company! altho. i always went there. so yeah, not really? anyway.. his daughter was scared in the middle of the night (being 3 yo i guess thats normal) and she came into the room where we were asleep FULLY CLOTHED! (no raunchy thoughts here folks.. haha) anyway she then told her mom (his ex wife) about finding me in her daddys bed.. and t... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 22:05:39 EST My BFF Clayton http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235011 What I forgot to mention was that in this past year, thru letters, visits, andd phone calls I fell in love with him all over again. I don't know if I'll ever tell him. For I'm afraid it'll ruin what we have. So I hold it in. The only other person that knows is my therapist, Gina. Here is one last photo! Enjoy the blog! Sorry my lips move slower than I talk, dunno whats up with that? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l989025077.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> P.S. Please DO... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 22:25:39 EST HAPPY GROUNDHOG DAY!! :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234239 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l303360214.jpg"> <BR> <BR> YAY SPRING IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER!! <BR> <BR> i did not go to the Gobblers Knob this morning, people usually go up to the Knob around.. 3am? lol.. it was only 9 degrees!! then Phil (the goundhog) comes out of his warm, insulated stump and makes a prediction!! It is alot of fun.. i highly recommend everyone to experience it at least once in their life time!! People come from all over the county and world! I'm no... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 09:17:31 EST just rambling.. :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230828 9:12pm (im gonna start putting the time on these blogs!) <BR> <BR> just talking about some stuff.. nothing special in general! hah Wed, 30 Jan 2013 21:10:01 EST surgery..? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230539 so.. I've been looking into that lap-band surgery. i had my first initial appt today and we talked about why i wanted it, what i knew about it, and generally how i was going to do this. my BMI is a whopping 42.5!! its supposed to be like.. 27! so.. i did this chart online and i guess I'm morbidly obese? I'm not too sure.. i dont really like the word "morbid" sounds so freaking degrading!! <BR> <BR> anyway, so they referred me to a group of doctors in pittsburgh who practice bariatric surgery... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 16:51:28 EST corn & cheese cassarole http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224534 so.. tonight is my dads birthday dinner.. and.. my mom made freaking cheesy corn cassarole! wtf! WHY!!?? because its my dads fave. well. i love it too but it looks like tonight is gonna be all about willpower and tears :( ill eat dinner with them, hawaiian chicken.. skip the cassarole.. eat a crapload of greenbeans, and save up for raspberry pie. then ill prob go cry softly in the bathroom like usual cause this is so damn hard for me!!! AHHHHH like, i want to now!! and those damn pepperidge f... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 15:17:12 EST grrrrrr http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222915 so as anyone with bipolar knows, mood stabelizers make u hungry for sweets and carbs.. and last night after i took my pills.. i had downfall. first day of the weight watchers diet and i completely screwed it up. i went home with 52 points from the day, 5 over my 47 daily points.. so.. yeah. then i was doped up on my sleeping pills and i went out to the kitchen crying sayin "f**k it" and i ate 6 soft HUGE pepperidge farm cookies! what the hell? i went to bed thinking that ill just quit. so now... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 11:14:59 EST