BESSHAILE's SparkPeople Blog BESSHAILE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Real Gifts - More Mama Christmas Memories I'm all through with dootiful activities for the year and this is giving me time to sink indulgently into Christmas Brain - which, this year, includes More Mama Christmas Memories. I am one of those disgustingly cheerful Christmas celebrants who never gets enough Christmas music, enough Christmas tree, enough Christmas cards. I love it all and I loved it all from the very beginning. I get ready for Christmas all the way up to Christmas Day and then... I stop. <BR> <BR> But I don't think Ma... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 09:40:26 EST I Ache, Therefore I Am - Missing Mama at Christmas I have three friends who lost their mamas this same year that I was made an orphan. Each of us is facing our first Christmas without this essential hub. If they ache as much as I do there must be a whole lotta achin' goin' on right now. And yet - these ladies had such magnificent mamas - almost as pinnacle-like as mine - that they have to also be having the most wonderful Christmas memories floating to the surface. I thought I'd try to list some of mine so that I have them down on virtual ... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 11:07:50 EST The Brains Wrap Up Thanksgiving On la! Here it is December 1 already and already it seems like I'm running late. I better check in on what's going on with The Brains. <BR> <BR> * * * * * * * <BR> <em>43</em> Hey. Hey there. Wake up. <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> Zzzzzzz Zzzzzzzzzzzz <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> (shoving a shoulder) I know you're awake. Stop faking. <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> (starting up) Huh? Whazzup? <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> It's December 1st! Already! We haven't any plans. What are we going to do!?! <BR> <BR... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 07:01:15 EST What's Your Passion? A recent blogpost by 2BDYNAMIC poses the question "What are you willing to sacrifice?" and she talks about her reaction to people who always seem to have an excuse for why they "can't". <BR> <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820689 </link> <BR> <BR> You know - those folks, which I'll admit has sometimes included me, who say "I want to exercise but it's too cold and I hate gyms" or "I want to eat healthy but people keep pushing food at me" or... Sat, 22 Nov 2014 06:13:43 EST The Brains and Those Boots. An RB/LB conversation. Goodness Gracious. There's quite a ruckus going on inside my head. I think The Brains are going at it. Let's listen in. <BR> <BR> <BR> * * * * * <BR> <BR> (The sound of things being kicked over, crashes and shatters, growls and even maybe some muttered curses float into the air) <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> Hey hey! What's going on here-Hey! Watch it! (ducks out of the way of a flying object) <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> (snatching a pillow and throwing it after the hairbrush) Grrrrrrrr! ARRRRRG... Wed, 19 Nov 2014 06:50:05 EST That Glittery Color Chart Has Me Halfway To Goal So I've been playing with the glitter pens and my chart for a week now and I've earned 51 points - which is nice in and of itself because I'll soon be able to get my new camera. But there are added benefits to having this little visual - unexpected ones that are a real treat. <BR> <BR> I'm fully aware that visual cues and reminders are a powerful incentive. For some reason I've never been able to make a vision board - though I've read lots of testimonies about their efficacy and bought lots... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 06:40:13 EST The Brains Whispering on a Sunday Morning - a RB/LB conversation <em>43</em> Shhhhhh! She'll hear us <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> (giggling) yeah. and then she'll tell us to wait <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> I know, but I can hardly keep it quiet <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> Is it really working? <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> I think so. Look here at the chart <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> Oooooo pretty colors. I love those glitter pens <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> Shhhh! You know she'll say it's too soon to start bragging and all that stuff about counting chickens befo... Sun, 9 Nov 2014 06:55:44 EST The Brains Weigh In On November Plans - A LB/RB conversation I've been feeling pretty inspired to deal with the 5 lbs that have been weighing me down all year and that's usually a sign that The Brains are cooking up a plan or two. Let's listen in on what they have to say: <BR> <BR> * * * * * <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> Hey there, girlfriend. Look what I've got. <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> I can see – it's a Pile-0-Lists. <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> No no. It's just one list. It's an idea list. I've been thinking ... <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> Yeah. I know. I'v... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 17:42:02 EST Good Good Good good Eye-Dee-Ahs Every now and then an idea will drift across my mind and I'll get that feeling - that surge of joy, that tingle of happiness - and I'll know it's a really great idea. It's an idea I ought to act on. <BR> <BR> And then I forget about it. It sinks back into the lake of un-acted-upon ideas that might have made a difference. <BR> <BR> So why? Why do I ignore the things that fill me with a rush of gladness, only to bury my nose in some dreary, if necessary, routine. Oh. Well. No. Most of my ro... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 08:04:58 EST What?! November already? Where are we going with this? Yes, all you souls - it's your day and that means Christmas is only 55 days away. Hope you've been good sparkers. <BR> <BR> So - what's the plan for November? Where do I want to go? Where do I want to be at the end of the month. For that matter - where do I want to be on January 1? 2050? LOL - not moldering, I hope. <BR> <BR> Seriously - It's time to make some plans because I feel naked without them and I'm sure not where I'd like to be at this exact moment. Last week I wore one of my fa... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 08:13:44 EST October Is Whizzing By Whew. It's the 26th of October already! Less than a week left of this busy month that always includes so many events - birthdays, conventions, an anniversary. And this year, all happening while we're short staffed at work and Mercury is in retrograde! <BR> <BR> As for the anniversary, usually I post a repeat story of How I Connected With Himself on my Other Blog. This year I forgot/didn't have time, but it's a sweet story and you can read it here: <BR> <BR> <link> Sun, 26 Oct 2014 08:31:50 EST At Least I Saved The Plan Grrr. I wrote a lovely RB/LB blog but it got eaten due to erroneous html (even though I am sure I did NOT put in any html. Computers. Bah. <BR> <BR> and of course you can never recapture a RB/LB conversation once it's lost. But those two brains of mine did come up with a plan to get back into my skinny clothes. I have a terribly busy schedule over the next 4 weeks with almost zero gym time. And the weight has been hovering between 4 and 6 lbs above my goal; just enough to make waistbands ti... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 07:21:22 EST It Gets Better <img src=""> <BR> I <em>26</em> Tim Gunn and I seriously <em>26</em> the message of the "It Gets Better Campaign". In fact - the message need not only be applied to sexual orientation. It's a message of hope for all the world in all its troubles - packed with the power of acknowledgement, patience, bravery and perseverance. <BR> <BR> For me, for this past month, it is one of the lifelines I've clung to - that certain and sure know... Sat, 4 Oct 2014 08:05:46 EST October 1st: a Right Brain/Left Brain conversation I'm having a bit of a hard time these days and not just because I'm grieving my mother's death. THAT is normal. Other stuff is crashing into my life and panic mode is setting in. The brains are really upset about this so let's peek in on them and see what they have to say. <BR> <BR> * * * * ** <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> Oh La! October 1 already and I don't have a plan or any goals or even any clever ideas! I just ... I'm not ready! Wait wait ... oh. <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> But .. no. Don't... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 06:40:51 EST Grieving Through The Week With Fashion Thoughts So I'm sitting here thinking "There's something evil about autumn coming and my mama isn't here to enjoy it with me" and immediately my brain kicks my heart and asks "What's evil about that? For that matter - when is the last time you enjoyed an autumn with your mama?" And I can't remember. And I don't know. About the evil that is. I guess it's evil because I want my mama. I want to go visit her. I want to laugh with her. I want to tell her risque jokes and then laugh wickedly till tears str... Sun, 28 Sep 2014 10:06:55 EST Mama. Oh Mama. In the grey dark of dawn, gentle hands began to minister to my little mama and with that human touch, she took a breath ... and then she slipped away. <BR> <BR> And with that snip the last thread that held her body here on earth was cut. My precious beautiful little mama - who had grown so tiny and so soft - has died. And how I will ever be able to pay tribute to the mama she was to me ... I haven't a clue. This cut is so deep that I'm not sure the words can bubble up through the loss. She l... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 05:48:26 EST Early Birthday Gift - And a Goal Met Early in the summer I set a new goal - to find an additional form of exercise to add to my routine. No - to add to my life. I love the gym. I love the stationary bike. I love the elliptical. I love weights and strength training. But I wanted more. I wanted some exercise that was more like play or sports; though the problem with me and sports is that ... ugh. competition. Bleh. Yuck. I mean - let's just take all the fun out of movement, activity and exercise. Let's just coat things with words... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 09:23:01 EST The Year Without A Summer No doubt about it, I'm an autumn baby. My birthday is in September (I like to celebrate all month long) and I live in the south - in the muggy buggy sleepy swampy coastal land of Virginia. Secretly ... well, not really all that secretly ... I am proud that I can endure a tidewater Virginia summer. But most of all I have always been glad to see those mosquitoey days draw to a close. I can't wait for the crisp bite of a north wind, the clear blue of a humidity free sky - I even like the song of... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 08:38:29 EST Sea Change - a LB/RB conversation A sudden shift in the universe has lifted the stress off of my shoulders. A potential family issue melted away like ice in the summer and a new county employee came by with an idea for a cooperative project that really pumped me up. It's got The Brains whispering excitedly. Wanna hear? <BR> <BR> * * * * * <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> Whoa. Was that a victory last night? <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> Shhh. Don't talk so loudly. I think it was but we don't want to tempt fate. <BR> <BR> <em>18</em... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 07:01:47 EST The Brains Just Chatting In looking for something else deep in my blog archives I found the first post I'd ever made from The Brains. I hadn't realized I'd been doing this quite so long - but then - in my 60's now I tend to forget just how long ago something happened. It ALL seems like long ago. <BR> <BR> Anyway, rereading the first Right Brain/Left Brain conversation woke them up and now they're chatting. Let's listen in: <BR> <BR> <BR> * * * * * <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> Hey look at this! A record of our fi... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 07:57:44 EST The Brains Work Something Out for August - an RB/LB conversation I hear the brains chattering. Sounds like they have some issues. Let's listen in. <BR> <BR> * * * * * <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> Hey. It's August 2. Don't you think it's time we wrote something? <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> Why are you always picking on me! Go away. Waaaaaaaahh <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> Yeah. I thought so. <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> You thought so, you thought so, you thought so. <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> Yeah. Now I know for sure. Something's wrong. Spit it out. <BR> <BR> <em>18</... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 10:18:35 EST A Summer Bike Ride with pictures Summer always looks so long and carefree, stretching out across the calendar when you hang your new one in January. Alas, when it actually gets here it can zip by in a twinkling, leaving you sitting by the curb in September wondering "Wha happened?" <BR> <BR> I work in a public library and we are busier than a one armed paper hanger in June, July and August. It takes a concerted effort on my part to participate in summer as well as to serve the needs of all those others seeking summer enjo... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 07:56:39 EST Right Brain and Left Brain Make July Plans (well, LB does, anyway) It's that time again - time to make my monthly resolutions. I'm pretty durn tired after the push of the past few weeks and the days at work in summertime are chaotic even when they're quiet. So I thought I'd let my two brains take charge of the July resolves. Let's listen in on them now. <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> So whadaya think about 2014 so far? <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> I don't think. I feel. You're always forgetting that. <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> I blame it on summertime. Even a pleasan... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 07:09:44 EST Itty Bitty Update on those Itty Bitty Bites I've been at this project, trying to eat EVERYTHING, meals AND snacks, using itty bitty bites, for 15 days now. At first I did it with gritted determination. Not grim determination, since it was sort of fun to see if I could do something 100% of an allotted time, and not gritted teeth because ... well, you can't eat at all if you grit your teeth. <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> Okay, sorry, the goof in me is leaking. <BR> <BR> Anyway - dainty bites do not come naturally for me and often I hav... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 06:46:11 EST June Resolutions and the Itty Bitty Bite Report (with pictures) Oh la - June already. I want to shout "WAIT! STOP! I'm not done with May yet!" <BR> <BR> Only we don't get that chance. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And it's not that I am not looking forward to June. I just need a little more time to finish May. June is the last month of the fiscal year and I have to scramble to make sure I spend all my library budget but not spend a penny more than my library budget. And I need to do it, or at least ... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 12:44:09 EST Itty Bitty Steps Whew. What a sweet long weekend of rest and sunshine, conversations and peacefulness. <BR> <BR> And indulgences. <BR> <BR> The scale is my friend this morning, but I feel sluggish and I KNOW I downed a lot more sugar than usual - a lot more sugar than is healthy. How do I know? Because my tummy is saying "ugh - don't put anything into me." <BR> <BR> And it will be easy to eliminate the sugar. Even as I ate that fudge I knew it was a mistake. I was trying to eat my way into feeling like a ... Tue, 27 May 2014 06:55:27 EST Why I Read Your Blog The BACK STORY: <BR> <BR> A year ago I reached my goal weight and weighed in at my Weight Watcher meeting within the goal range (2 lbs) for 9 fabulous months in a row! woo woo. So proud of me. Still so proud of that. <BR> <BR> Since Christmas, though, and TheHeartAttack, and the serious cold weather, and the Bad Employee I Had To Fire, and the death of a cousin, and the New Administration with its New Rules, and the rotator cuff injury - you know - since life tossed me a basket full of lem... Sat, 24 May 2014 08:47:09 EST Sailing on The Rivah That's how it's pronounced down here - and in this part of Virginia, that usually means the Rappahannock River. Rappahannock is an old Powhatan word that means "Where the waters rise and fall" or "tidewater". And I am fortunate to live on its banks. <BR> <BR> When I was a girl I used to think the richest person in the world was the one who could walk out her back door and go swimming. Of course, as a suburban baby boomer I was thinking swimming pool, but one day, as I was walking out my door... Mon, 19 May 2014 06:33:28 EST Werk and Play - Plerk? My May resolution is to practice drawing, but all werk and no play is not such a great idea. Here is some art play - and some kitchen play too - making candied violet blossoms. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 5 May 2014 08:39:00 EST Why Bother? If chances of permanent success are slim (pardon the pun), why bother trying? Wouldn't you hate to work that hard, and then find yourself right back where you started a few months down the road? <BR> <BR> <BR> This is a quote from today's Best of Spark People article by Ellen Goldman. <BR> <link><BR>ion_articles.asp?id=1849 </link> <BR> <BR> I've bookmarked this and saved it and pinned it and I plan to use it as part of a project I'm developing with... Sat, 3 May 2014 07:54:44 EST Tra La, It's May Resolution Time YOU must wake and call me early, call me early, mother dear; <BR> To-morrow ’ll be the happiest time of all the glad new-year,— <BR> Of all the glad new-year, mother, the maddest, merriest day; <BR> For I ’m to be Queen o’ the May, mother, I ’m to be Queen o’ the May. <BR> *****Alfred, Lord Tennyson <BR> <BR> Only I don't plan on dying at the end like the girl in the poem did. I plan on dancing o'er the fields. Or at least watching the wheat dolphins gambol through the fields on sunshin... Thu, 1 May 2014 07:43:09 EST Conflicted, Discombobulated, Topsy-turvy - LB/RB blog I'd planned a rather long day off yesterday to take care of some business in the city, visit my mother, have lunch with my sister and maybe do a little shopping. Tuesday is the best day for me to be off since there is plenty of staff at work. But Tuesday is also my Weight Watcher meeting day and I'd already missed last Tuesday due to travel. A day in the car plus a lunch out is not something you want to have right before an official weigh in even if the scale was smack on target in the mornin... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 08:05:51 EST My April Resolution and some chatty stuff April at last. At last. Spring spring spring. So happy it's not winter any more. <BR> <BR> Mind now, Spring is taking her own sweet time. The poplar tree has yet to unfurl the tiniest leaf - so it's not officially spring. Maybe today it will be. Surely by the end of this weekend that harbinger tree will have it's mist of gold clouding it's branches. But 3 days without having to wear a coat is spring enough for me. <BR> <BR> We're back from a Birthday Visit with LD and PD in South Carolina.... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 07:49:02 EST A Good Deed Rewarded Yesterday the coolest thing happened. Our little department store carries a pretty decent selection of workout shoes and I very much needed some new ones. Skechers has a new running shoe with a memory foam insole and I was really curious to try them on. I was in the store anyway, purchasing a birthday gift card for a new employee so I took the opportunity to slip on back to the shoe department and give those shoes a try. Oh My Goodness! They are SO light and SO comfortable and I wanted to jus... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 06:57:38 EST A Snowy Day - with photos We'd been warned. The weather dot com guys had predicted 2-4 inches for my area and at the end of my half mile of country lane, that can mean I don't get off the farm. We can go years without any snow at all so we've never invested in 4-wheel drive. I just stay home when the fields are deep enough. Besides - it was still snowing on top of those 4 inches when I got up yesterday morning. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'd prepared for ... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 07:59:53 EST How Close Is Close Enough? a Left Brain/Right Brain conversation Well – it has been a year and a day since I hit my Weight Watcher’s goal range of 152 lbs. The actual goal is 150 but you are still considered “at goal” within 2 lbs. It took forever to get there as my weight flitted around but never quite landed on the magic number. The average weekly loss of those last 2 lbs was about one ounce a week. Once there, though, I managed to hold it tight all the way into December when I slipped back over the line … I can’t help but think of it as my personal Mag... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 14:04:46 EST New Year's Resolutions - at last Time for those New Year's Resolutions. <BR> <BR> Huh? What's that? It's March? Well? So? Who says you can't make resolutions as the world is beginning to emerge from the misery that was the past 2 months? Heck. It was all I could do to put on shoes and go to work every day. There wasn't anything left to help Make Plans for Better Times. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> But that was then and this is now. This morning I woke up with this old Lovin' Sp... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 09:22:44 EST 8 Last Reasons Why February is Better Than January When I rounded Pity Party Point last week and saw the safe harbor of March only a few short days away, it was as if I'd left all the gloom and doom behind me. The weekend was better, the work week was better, even my sleep has been better! Yippeee! <BR> <BR> So there are LOTS of reasons to write about but I'm going to limit my final February blog to 8. <BR> <BR> Reason 21 <BR> <BR> My house got sparkly clean in February. It was too cold and gloomy and depressing to really give everythin... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 16:29:20 EST Capturing The Promise of Spring No doubt about it - when something good comes along - like a gorgeous blue sky day - it's a good idea to go out and capture it. These are some photos I snapped while taking the dogs on a walk yesterday afternoon. Sometimes I wish I were a dog. And look! The First Crocus opened her arms to the sky yesterday. Sigh. Yeah. Life is good. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 07:17:07 EST 8 More Reasons February is Better Than January This week has had lots of early morning (think crack-0-dawn) starts that kept me away from the computer during my regular blogging time - and then - it was a little hard to come up with 8 more things that were better about February. Till yesterday when I had one of those fabulous exercise induced epiphanies and knew I had rounded the depression corner onto joy street. <BR> <BR> And just how many of you ever read Joy Street, by Frances Parkinson Keyes? It's the sort of novel you'd find at you... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 07:04:47 EST 9 More Reasons Why February is Better Than January I can only speak for this particular February since there are some Februarys that we will do better for forgetting. But this particular February has to be better than January because, in teen-speak, OMG, January was rank! I’m a little late posting this because as of Monday I hadn't found even 7 things that made February better … but I am going to give it a try today. <BR> <BR> Reason 4 <BR> <BR> February has a Super bowl party with my Richmond cousins – including the hostess who doesn't car... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 16:44:31 EST Why February is Better than January #1, 2, and 3. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Since January was such a sucky month, and since it is now officially over, I am determined to look on the bright side until I am actually ON the bright side. As my good friend OW says - I'm going to fake it till I make it. I plan to post a blog every Monday listing reasons why this month is better than last month - one for each day of the month. Here are the first 3 reasons. <BR> <BR> 1. It's not as long a mont... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 08:01:03 EST January will NOT define my year - nor will Fat define Me “When you have exhausted all possibilities, remember this - you haven't.” <BR> <BR> - - - Thomas A. Edison <BR> <BR> I loved seeing this quote this morning in SP's Today's Top Stories. I don't usually hunt down quotes - but something made me click on this and here was just the message I needed to read. January had pretty much sucked all the joy out of me - the list goes on and on (and on and on and on) Yesterday, on the last day of January, when I drove up to my mail box and opened the car... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 08:03:42 EST SKUNKED Of course if you asked my inner brat she'd tell you that my whole life is skunked - and that this metaphor is perfect. But that's brat-talk. This tale is much more literal. First, the lead up which is just a lot of blah blah blah complain blah blah pitty party me blah blah blah. <BR> <BR> We shall pick up our story here - on Sunday about 12:30 when Himself and I decided to walk down to the river (about a 3 mile round trek) to see if it's frozen over. It was <BR> <BR> <img src="http://ph... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 09:10:46 EST There's BAD NEWS .... but then there's Good News It's official. I am no longer at goal. At the Other Weight Watcher meeting last night I had to face the truth. I am 156 lbs which is 4 lbs over the 'at goal weight range'. <BR> <BR> This is not news. I knew this. I knew the news. It was not a surprise. I've been eating more and exercising less. Duh. I track. I knew what was happening. Yesterday my skirt was tight around the waist and not fun to wear. No surprises here. I've been playing with the bad boys and yesterday I had to face the mu... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 08:12:02 EST SUGAR BINGE - a Right Brain/Left Brain conversation Yesterday I pigged out on sugar. Lots of sugar. How did such a stupid thing happen? Well - let's listen in on my Left Brain and Right Brain and see if we can uncover any nuggets of value. <BR> <BR> * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> What the heck? Hey you - have you seen the playback tapes from yesterday's drive home? What are you ... OMG That's a petite vanilla scone from Starbucks! Stop! Wait wait! what the - ? A cheesecake brownie too? What were you thinking? <B... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 08:46:27 EST Post Heart Attack! or Home for the Holidays <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Here they are - my beauties - my loved ones - both 2 and 4 legged. All sitting around the tree, having heart healthy Brunswick stew (or begging for a taste) and either giggling or wagging tails with joy. Himself was released on Monday - his doctor shaking his head in puzzlement, muttering "he ought to be sicker - but he's not. No point in keeping him here." <BR> <BR> So we all drove over and loaded up the patient... Tue, 24 Dec 2013 07:59:58 EST Heart Attack! Not me - but my darling Himself had one. Friday night. Or Saturday morning rather, about 4 a.m. he woke me. He was in pain and it wouldn't go away. This, alas, is heart attack #2. I didn't hesitate - but was up and dressing within seconds. <BR> <BR> I must say - if you have to have a heart attack, 4 a.m. is probably a good time - there's no traffic on the roads so you can drive fast, there's nobody in the ER waiting room so you won't pick up germs or have to wait ... not that people having... Sun, 22 Dec 2013 08:01:13 EST PHOTOS of those Gold Brocade Slacks + mantra Here I am, dressed for work in my talisman slacks. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Obviously I'm feeling pretty moxie. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Also you can see all the Christmas detritus on the dining table - what a pile of clutter. I better start wrapping tonight! <BR> <BR> I wanted to come up with a mantra for December - a single thought that would keep me on ... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 10:43:00 EST Those Gold Brocade Slacks On the long journey to a healthy weight, during one of the more successful periods when the scale was going down instead of up, I went shopping at a boutique. I love to stop in little boutiqu-ey stores and poke among the pretties but I NEVER buy clothes in them. I never even look at them. Small little shops that have one off clothing NEVER have big sizes. The humiliation of flipping through a rack of size zeros and ones is a powerful teacher and I soon learned to stop looking. <BR> <BR> S... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 07:20:46 EST