BESSHAILE's SparkPeople Blog BESSHAILE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Conflicted, Discombobulated, Topsy-turvy - LB/RB blog I'd planned a rather long day off yesterday to take care of some business in the city, visit my mother, have lunch with my sister and maybe do a little shopping. Tuesday is the best day for me to be off since there is plenty of staff at work. But Tuesday is also my Weight Watcher meeting day and I'd already missed last Tuesday due to travel. A day in the car plus a lunch out is not something you want to have right before an official weigh in even if the scale was smack on target in the mornin... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 08:05:51 EST My April Resolution and some chatty stuff April at last. At last. Spring spring spring. So happy it's not winter any more. <BR> <BR> Mind now, Spring is taking her own sweet time. The poplar tree has yet to unfurl the tiniest leaf - so it's not officially spring. Maybe today it will be. Surely by the end of this weekend that harbinger tree will have it's mist of gold clouding it's branches. But 3 days without having to wear a coat is spring enough for me. <BR> <BR> We're back from a Birthday Visit with LD and PD in South Carolina.... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 07:49:02 EST A Good Deed Rewarded Yesterday the coolest thing happened. Our little department store carries a pretty decent selection of workout shoes and I very much needed some new ones. Skechers has a new running shoe with a memory foam insole and I was really curious to try them on. I was in the store anyway, purchasing a birthday gift card for a new employee so I took the opportunity to slip on back to the shoe department and give those shoes a try. Oh My Goodness! They are SO light and SO comfortable and I wanted to jus... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 06:57:38 EST A Snowy Day - with photos We'd been warned. The weather dot com guys had predicted 2-4 inches for my area and at the end of my half mile of country lane, that can mean I don't get off the farm. We can go years without any snow at all so we've never invested in 4-wheel drive. I just stay home when the fields are deep enough. Besides - it was still snowing on top of those 4 inches when I got up yesterday morning. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'd prepared for ... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 07:59:53 EST How Close Is Close Enough? a Left Brain/Right Brain conversation Well – it has been a year and a day since I hit my Weight Watcher’s goal range of 152 lbs. The actual goal is 150 but you are still considered “at goal” within 2 lbs. It took forever to get there as my weight flitted around but never quite landed on the magic number. The average weekly loss of those last 2 lbs was about one ounce a week. Once there, though, I managed to hold it tight all the way into December when I slipped back over the line … I can’t help but think of it as my personal Mag... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 14:04:46 EST New Year's Resolutions - at last Time for those New Year's Resolutions. <BR> <BR> Huh? What's that? It's March? Well? So? Who says you can't make resolutions as the world is beginning to emerge from the misery that was the past 2 months? Heck. It was all I could do to put on shoes and go to work every day. There wasn't anything left to help Make Plans for Better Times. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> But that was then and this is now. This morning I woke up with this old Lovin' Sp... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 09:22:44 EST 8 Last Reasons Why February is Better Than January When I rounded Pity Party Point last week and saw the safe harbor of March only a few short days away, it was as if I'd left all the gloom and doom behind me. The weekend was better, the work week was better, even my sleep has been better! Yippeee! <BR> <BR> So there are LOTS of reasons to write about but I'm going to limit my final February blog to 8. <BR> <BR> Reason 21 <BR> <BR> My house got sparkly clean in February. It was too cold and gloomy and depressing to really give everythin... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 16:29:20 EST Capturing The Promise of Spring No doubt about it - when something good comes along - like a gorgeous blue sky day - it's a good idea to go out and capture it. These are some photos I snapped while taking the dogs on a walk yesterday afternoon. Sometimes I wish I were a dog. And look! The First Crocus opened her arms to the sky yesterday. Sigh. Yeah. Life is good. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 07:17:07 EST 8 More Reasons February is Better Than January This week has had lots of early morning (think crack-0-dawn) starts that kept me away from the computer during my regular blogging time - and then - it was a little hard to come up with 8 more things that were better about February. Till yesterday when I had one of those fabulous exercise induced epiphanies and knew I had rounded the depression corner onto joy street. <BR> <BR> And just how many of you ever read Joy Street, by Frances Parkinson Keyes? It's the sort of novel you'd find at you... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 07:04:47 EST 9 More Reasons Why February is Better Than January I can only speak for this particular February since there are some Februarys that we will do better for forgetting. But this particular February has to be better than January because, in teen-speak, OMG, January was rank! I’m a little late posting this because as of Monday I hadn't found even 7 things that made February better … but I am going to give it a try today. <BR> <BR> Reason 4 <BR> <BR> February has a Super bowl party with my Richmond cousins – including the hostess who doesn't car... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 16:44:31 EST Why February is Better than January #1, 2, and 3. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Since January was such a sucky month, and since it is now officially over, I am determined to look on the bright side until I am actually ON the bright side. As my good friend OW says - I'm going to fake it till I make it. I plan to post a blog every Monday listing reasons why this month is better than last month - one for each day of the month. Here are the first 3 reasons. <BR> <BR> 1. It's not as long a mont... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 08:01:03 EST January will NOT define my year - nor will Fat define Me “When you have exhausted all possibilities, remember this - you haven't.” <BR> <BR> - - - Thomas A. Edison <BR> <BR> I loved seeing this quote this morning in SP's Today's Top Stories. I don't usually hunt down quotes - but something made me click on this and here was just the message I needed to read. January had pretty much sucked all the joy out of me - the list goes on and on (and on and on and on) Yesterday, on the last day of January, when I drove up to my mail box and opened the car... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 08:03:42 EST SKUNKED Of course if you asked my inner brat she'd tell you that my whole life is skunked - and that this metaphor is perfect. But that's brat-talk. This tale is much more literal. First, the lead up which is just a lot of blah blah blah complain blah blah pitty party me blah blah blah. <BR> <BR> We shall pick up our story here - on Sunday about 12:30 when Himself and I decided to walk down to the river (about a 3 mile round trek) to see if it's frozen over. It was <BR> <BR> <img src="http://ph... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 09:10:46 EST There's BAD NEWS .... but then there's Good News It's official. I am no longer at goal. At the Other Weight Watcher meeting last night I had to face the truth. I am 156 lbs which is 4 lbs over the 'at goal weight range'. <BR> <BR> This is not news. I knew this. I knew the news. It was not a surprise. I've been eating more and exercising less. Duh. I track. I knew what was happening. Yesterday my skirt was tight around the waist and not fun to wear. No surprises here. I've been playing with the bad boys and yesterday I had to face the mu... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 08:12:02 EST SUGAR BINGE - a Right Brain/Left Brain conversation Yesterday I pigged out on sugar. Lots of sugar. How did such a stupid thing happen? Well - let's listen in on my Left Brain and Right Brain and see if we can uncover any nuggets of value. <BR> <BR> * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> What the heck? Hey you - have you seen the playback tapes from yesterday's drive home? What are you ... OMG That's a petite vanilla scone from Starbucks! Stop! Wait wait! what the - ? A cheesecake brownie too? What were you thinking? <B... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 08:46:27 EST Post Heart Attack! or Home for the Holidays <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Here they are - my beauties - my loved ones - both 2 and 4 legged. All sitting around the tree, having heart healthy Brunswick stew (or begging for a taste) and either giggling or wagging tails with joy. Himself was released on Monday - his doctor shaking his head in puzzlement, muttering "he ought to be sicker - but he's not. No point in keeping him here." <BR> <BR> So we all drove over and loaded up the patient... Tue, 24 Dec 2013 07:59:58 EST Heart Attack! Not me - but my darling Himself had one. Friday night. Or Saturday morning rather, about 4 a.m. he woke me. He was in pain and it wouldn't go away. This, alas, is heart attack #2. I didn't hesitate - but was up and dressing within seconds. <BR> <BR> I must say - if you have to have a heart attack, 4 a.m. is probably a good time - there's no traffic on the roads so you can drive fast, there's nobody in the ER waiting room so you won't pick up germs or have to wait ... not that people having... Sun, 22 Dec 2013 08:01:13 EST PHOTOS of those Gold Brocade Slacks + mantra Here I am, dressed for work in my talisman slacks. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Obviously I'm feeling pretty moxie. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Also you can see all the Christmas detritus on the dining table - what a pile of clutter. I better start wrapping tonight! <BR> <BR> I wanted to come up with a mantra for December - a single thought that would keep me on ... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 10:43:00 EST Those Gold Brocade Slacks On the long journey to a healthy weight, during one of the more successful periods when the scale was going down instead of up, I went shopping at a boutique. I love to stop in little boutiqu-ey stores and poke among the pretties but I NEVER buy clothes in them. I never even look at them. Small little shops that have one off clothing NEVER have big sizes. The humiliation of flipping through a rack of size zeros and ones is a powerful teacher and I soon learned to stop looking. <BR> <BR> S... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 07:20:46 EST Still At Goal First a moment of braggadocio - I have weighed in at goal or within 2 lbs of it for 9 months. I am absolutely thrilled about this - proud - excited - even inspired. This is a fabulous thing - and the first time I've maintained a healthy weight this long since I was in my early 40's ... which is decades ago my chickadees. <BR> <BR> And what do you know - I just won 100 goodie points here on the spark bonus wheel - so there - I got myself a new pair of shoes - because ... there was a time I w... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 07:55:48 EST Zen and the Art of Cleaning Up Afterwards All my life I've been "On The Quest". At least - since I was 7 years old and spent a summer "thinking". Picture some 7-year old you know and imagine her lying still on a couch. Imagine asking her what she's doing and having her tell you "I'm thinking". When you ask her what she's thinking about she tells you "Important things - arithmetic things" And that's because this particular 7 year old (that was) knew instantly that there was no way she could tell her loving and beloved mother "I'm t... Sat, 30 Nov 2013 07:57:26 EST Everybody Dances at the Haile House We love Thanksgiving at our house. It's Only Son's favorite holiday and sits pretty high up on the favorite's list for Himself and me too. We have hosted the meal for a long time and the guest list varies from time to time but always includes beloved cousin and a favorite couple from the city. When our parents were alive they came. Sometimes sisters are here.Sometimes people we know will be alone. Recently it's expanded to include a couple who are so proud to be naturalized American citizens.... Sat, 23 Nov 2013 06:54:27 EST Heading Into The Holiday - Plans - Oh - Yes - Cute Jeans We heard at our last Weight Watcher's meeting that ... because it's too small - the company is shutting it down. Evidently they have to have 16 paid members at the meetings and .... our group is so durn successful most of the members are lifetime at goal. this makes me very <em>39</em> <BR> One reason I love this meeting so much is that there are so many successful weight losers encouraging the others along. I felt it when I was in the losing mode and have taken my role as a cheerleader ... Fri, 22 Nov 2013 06:58:43 EST So What Are My Right and Left Brains Up To? The B's have been pretty reticent lately - they're having a hard time coming to grips with something so I thought I'd let them each lay out their viewpoints and see what sort of conclusion they come to. <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> LB So do you realize TheHolidays are upon us? Do you realize we have to start planning and making lists. We don't want to show up on New Year's Day with an extra 20 lbs on us, now, do we? <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> RB La la la la - <em>335</em> Christmas is coming t... Fri, 15 Nov 2013 07:16:48 EST What's Different This Time Every Tuesday I weigh in at a Weight Watcher's meeting. I like to go there because they have a pretty rigorously calibrated scale and someone else is actually reading it. I like the corroboration of a second person and the unfamiliar scale I get each week. Also, the commitment to the program, which involves a bit of a financial risk, helps. And this time around, at this stage in my life, I will take all the help I can get. <BR> <BR> I reached goal in March of 2013 and I have been within 2 lb... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 06:57:40 EST Taking the Puppy for a Walk On this delicious Extra Hour weekend - when daylight savings time goes off at last - I wanted to savor all the time off I could. Alas - the house; a house with spoiled puppies owned by geezers who indulge their dogs way more than they did their children, was an utter wreck so I had to put in hours doing laundry, cleaning kitchens, vacuuming the dust dinosaurs out from under the bed. But once all that was done, I decided to take the new baby puppy, Juno, for a walk. <BR> <BR> <img src="http... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 07:28:34 EST Thank You Thank You Thank You Thank You Thank You Thank You Spark People. You always come through for me. Today's article by Dean Anderson titled "3 Ways to Stop Negative Thinking" <BR> <link><BR>ion_articles.asp?id=614&page=1 </link> <BR> was so completely what I needed. Here's the back story: <BR> <BR> I've been on a staycation this past week and I've had a little health issue pop up. I already feel cheated. I mean - I could have used sick leave if I was going to be sick and gone on a vacation some... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 07:43:16 EST Vacation Rambles I love the travel and hiking blogs people post sometimes, showing me the beauties of their world. Yesterday Himself and I took a ramble through the countryside to a place I've been longing to visit - Lake Anna, between Louisa and Spottsylvania counties. <BR> <BR> To get to Lake Anna we travel west from our flat tidewater landscape. The very next county west of us is Caroline and right away you get the feeling that you're up on higher ground. There are more folds and rolls in the contour of t... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 08:16:24 EST Autumn Reflections Today I begin a week of sweet R&R vacation. I love to take a vacation in the autumn and spring because those are the prettiest times of the year around here. I love to spend time outdoors and in Virginia, spring and autumn are the best times to do that. I particularly like an autumn vacation so I can take time to reflect as the year starts it's downward slide into the holidays - and if there is something I'd still like to do before a new year rolls around, there's enough time to at least get ... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 08:27:40 EST Right Brain and Left Brain are at it again Here's a little bit of dialogue between my two brains as they figure out how to plan for October. It's nice to see they're able to expand their roles a bit and help each other along. <BR> <BR> * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> LB So. What are we going to do about October? <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> RB What do you mean "do" about October? I'm just going to live <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> LB You know what I ... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 07:46:52 EST Bye Bye Birthday Month Here it is - the last day of September - no more Birthday Thoughts for me till next year. But what a month it's been - so packed and full and stressed and filled with joy it feels like it's lasted for 2 months. In fact, it's been SUCH a busy month it's worth a bit of recap or I might forget what all's happened. <BR> <BR> ("what all" - a Southern Expression meaning both something and everything - coloquial, quaint, bordering on slang) <BR> <BR> We began September with a hot labor day weeke... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 07:34:46 EST Oh What A Birthday Surprise! We said we were just going to look but we knew we were lying. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Callie was thrilled. She's already chased her little sister, rolled her over, and shared her toys. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Altogether it was a perfect birthday, complete with presents, pizza and cake and then, even the heavens decided to celebrate by sending an inch and a half... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 08:12:55 EST Who do you love? <em>26</em> <em>129</em> <link> </link> <em>129</em> <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> LB Girlfriend - that was awesome yesterday, wasn't it? <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> RB Oh yeah it was. Can you believe how tired we were? And we went to the gym anyway?!? <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> LB I know. I didn't think that could ever happen. I mean - Not just tired but we'd just had that uber-relaxing manicure - we didn't have to go back to work! How did we d... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 06:39:24 EST 6 Months At Goal Woo woo. It's true. Yesterday was my official weigh-in at my Weight Watcher's meeting and I was smack on target. I firmly believe in using all tools that work on this journey of a lifetime of healthy living and since I'm also a committee type of person when it comes to problem solving - those in-person meetings are extremely valuable. LOL - it's because I couldn't go to a meeting every day that I started using Spark People to get more input, be with more friends, feel more connected. <BR> <... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 07:29:31 EST Swamped Canoe - or the video I wish I had We had company over yesterday for a last fling of August/Labor Day weekend bash. It was a splendid day - warm enough to justify telling folk to bring their bathing suits. Two of them also brought their dogs. I'm not an advocate of bringing or taking pets to someone else's house since animals can be very territorial, but our puppy just lost her mate and their dogs were ones she already knew and loved. Extra dogs were just what we needed. <BR> <BR> People showed up at different times since no... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 08:41:38 EST The Emerald Forest ... or ... IIIIIIIIIIII'm Off To Be The Wizard.... Today we "Go Live" with new software at my library. We've had a test program to play around with for a few weeks but it was NOT a complete program - just some of the basic functions. It is definitely not intuitive ... although the public side of it is very pretty. For staff ... it looks terribly Star Trekky or at least terribly geeky. And because it can do just about everything but cook my dinner it's also extremely busy. <BR> <BR> We've had some training but there is only about .000001 tra... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 07:29:46 EST It's The Process, Baby " ... Begin making choices based on what makes you feel freer and happier, rather than how you think an ideal life should look. It's the process of feeling our way toward happiness, not the realization of some Platonic ideal that creates our best lives." <BR> <BR> ~ Escape Your Rat Race, <BR> The Martha Beck Collection, Essays for Creating Your Right Life Volume 1 <BR> <BR> Of course - it's no surprise that I <em>26</em> Martha Beck. I subscribe to a daily quote from her and often feel ... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 07:18:29 EST An Utterly Amazing Story - with pictures This year TheReunion fun and family love was too much to be contained in a single day. It needed a whole weekend to soak up all the joy, the history, the story telling and the family. So on Sunday we gathered deep in the countryside between King & Queen County and Essex, at the quaint little fork in the road called Indian Neck. Cousin J had arranged for a horse and carriage tour of several family homes and home sites. <BR> <BR> Only a handful of us could make the Sunday rendezvous and some ... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 13:10:37 EST What's In It For Me - a #backontrack for August conversation between LB and RB <em>18</em> RB So what's the reward going to be? <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> LB How should I know - you know it doesn't count till we are both on board. <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> RB oh. well. yeah. so. What did you decide? <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> So what do you want? <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> RB I dunno <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> LB Me neither. It's always hard to do the reward thing, isn't it. and besides, a reward implies rules obeyed and ... well - that's not your strong point. <B... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 08:13:19 EST #backontrack for August - We Haff Whey's Off Meking You Obey Now here's a funny thing. I am resisting my 3 tweaks that I selected for the #backontrack in August challenge. Weird. <BR> <BR> I thought resisting the granola would be a bit of a challenge. I mean - that's such an entrenched bad habit. Not that a bite of granola is such a big thing - but, as I blogged yesterday, that get out of jail free this doesn't count I can't hear you La La La sensation has reared it's ugly head. So. This morning I woke after a delicious - if slightly too brief - nig... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 07:30:15 EST #backontrack challenge - and where did that lust come from? <em>481</em> <BR> Day 4 dawns and so far so good with the tweaks. I've taken the dog for an extra walk every day, I've resisted the double desserts - I've even resisted the temptation to have .... a bite, just a bite ... of Himself's granola. But man - the temptation - the desire - the ... the lust, for goodness sake! For a stupid spoonful of granola in cold milk! Where in the world did that come from? Honestly! I'm standing at the kitchen counter and I've poured the milk and my mouth gr... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 07:02:21 EST Three Tweaks for the #backontrack in August challenge Three. As in three kisses or three heroic feats or three wishes - three is one of the universal folk magic numbers. <BR> <BR> I've been wanting a little challenge lately - something new and different but disciplined - to give me a framework - a structure - as I plow through the busy month that will be August. In fact, I have been wanting to take on a Big Project soon, but right now I'm winding up some previous Big Projects. My little ENFP heart doesn't really like coming to closure, doesn'... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 07:22:01 EST So How Did It Go - That Mindful Cardio? Truth? Though this didn't have the controls of a scientific experiment I think I really DID get more out of my cardio by paying attention to my body. I wear a monitor and it showed me that 50-100 more calories were burned yesterday than I expected. <BR> <BR> Is it true? did really paying attention to how my thighs, my back, my abs and upper arms felt as I worked my 35 minutes on the elliptical really burn more calories than just flopping my way through? Or did I subconsciously spend more tim... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 07:33:17 EST Who Is This Body? Don't you just love it when a light bulb goes off inside your head? When an idea you never thought of before blossoms right in front of you? When something suddenly becomes clearer? <BR> <em>189</em> <BR> (of course you do, LOL) <BR> <BR> So today while reading The Best of Spark People article 10 Smart Ways to Burn More Calories <BR> Crank Up Your Cardio to Blast More Fat! the light clicked on at number 9. <BR> <link><BR>_articles.asp?id=1600 </link... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 07:23:56 EST Wearable Art Here I am in my Zentangle T-Shirt <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Himself asked me if it was finished - and didn't I want to put 'more stuff' on it. In fact, I don't, but the fun thing about this is that I can always add more if I wanted to. I'm much more likely to put in too much than not enough - in life as well as in art. So I stopped here and gave this shirt a little spin. <BR> <BR> I used Sharpie Fabric Pens for most of it and some ot... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 06:41:57 EST Dancing in the Street - Photo at the end. I do love how sometimes the universe aligns things just perfectly - in big ways and in small ones. I'm back from a two day beach get-away that turned out to be particularly magical. I took a bit of a risk with this one since I was trying to achieve something for two people, me and a family member, who were coming from two very different emotional places. My life is pretty good, pretty stable and pretty secure. Hers is chaos. I love this person. Her birthday is in a few days. I wanted this to ... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 07:10:07 EST Showin' Off My Artistic Side <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Last winter I took up playing with pens and drawing, inspired by the books about Zentangle Art. I was immediately struck with the idea to do something like this. It's still a work-in-progress - I'm taking the leaf fronds around the back. And I'm still learning to keep the pens upright ... there's a lot of smearing in this first attempt. Still, I am having a ton of fun with this artistic play. <BR> <BR> Thu, 18 Jul 2013 06:43:33 EST Looking For A New Challenge Wanna know a secret about me? <BR> <BR> I hate goals. <BR> <BR> Yep. I really hate goals. Goals are not like challenges. A challenge means it's still going on. You don't have to stop. You can keep on learning whatever it is you're working on. A goal means you're done. It's over. Finis. For an ENFP - the sort of person who hates to come to closure, a challenge is a friend. A goal is not. <BR> <BR> ENFP? That's a personality type - you can read about them here: <BR> <BR> <link>www.mye... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 08:10:26 EST Happiness Experiment I got this idea from fellow sparker LDRICHEL. <BR> <BR><BR>=LDRICHEL <BR> <BR> If, at any time, someone were to ask me, I would say "I'm a happy person" and I am. But I also struggle with nagging worries that, when looked at closely, are not really worries at all. They're more like distractions from the responsibility of living joyfully. Most of the world's cultures, and most of our philosophers, push us to think that the world is bad and life is bad... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 07:36:30 EST Pick Yourself Up, Dust Yourself Off, Start All Over Again Yep. It's Day One of a new streak for me. I'm concentrating on only one streak this year - to make each day as healthy as I possibly can. Not as perfect as I can ... though the inclination is to obsess over reaching or not reaching perfection. I'm pretty good at dismissing the perfection imp. Doesn't mean I don't feel his pinch - just that - I can tell it to sit down and be quiet. <BR> <BR> No - what I want is to eliminate - or at least drastically limit the number of days when I blank out... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 06:54:20 EST