BERGBA7's SparkPeople Blog BERGBA7's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Dedication (Richard Strauss) Love, Faith, Music, Weight loss, Change - everything needs dedication! <BR> Sometimes things don't go the way you want it-be thankful at exactly that moment! I am thankful for my voice and my singing - no matter what. Habe Dank! <BR> <BR> Yes, you know it, dearest soul, <BR> How I suffer far from you, <BR> Love makes the heart sick, <BR> Have thanks. <BR> <BR> Once I, drinker of freedom, <BR> Held high the amethyst beaker, <BR> And you blessed the drink, <BR> Have thanks. <BR> <BR> And y... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 14:08:50 EST Una voce poco fa - Rossini This is a recording from yesterday's Christmas Gala Concert where I am singing "una voce poco fa" from the opera "Il barbiere die Sevillia" by Rossini for the first time in public. I hope you Enjoy! Sun, 7 Dec 2014 13:17:53 EST Update on Running Family Running is a family affair - lol <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My father is going to celebrate his 30 year running anniversary in December this year. His secret aim is to run around the world (40,000km) in his lifetime. He is getting very close and at the moment it looks like he will be doing it. <BR> <em>243</em> <BR> <BR> He had a bad calf injury in the spring and had to stop running for 6 weeks. After being back for a few m... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 05:42:42 EST Want to scream! Need to vamp and play victime for a second! I need to get steam off and get rid of this feeling of being a victim! I am not a victim - I am a winner! Where is my punch bag .... ugh... <BR> <BR> <em>326</em> <BR> <BR> I will try to keep the blog short, to the point and understandable... I am writing it because I want to avoid a binge with mulled wine and speculoos biscuits because of anger, disappointment, frustration and tons of feelings of being a failure! <BR> <BR> <img src=" Fri, 28 Nov 2014 16:20:56 EST Gaining Independence There is a time as a child where you learn to potty train to be more independent. Then there comes the time as a teenager where you become more independent of your parents. Today, it is my time to learn to be more independent from Sparkpeople. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> No, this does not mean I will disappear and not show up on this website again. An independent adult also visits his/ her parents and shares her life with them in a... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 03:23:05 EST GOAL! Two weeks ago, I gave up on the idea to become 60kg (132pounds) again because I had the feeling I was obsessing with the number, with calorie-counting, and spending way too much time and energy focusing on the number-goal. I reset the goal and decided I would be very happy with maintaining 134 pounds - around 61kg. What does 2 pound really make as difference? Right? <BR> <BR> and guess what happened? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 07:39:16 EST Preparing Maintenance One more week before switching to maintenance for the second time. The first time was two years ago. I am getting ready for the mental shift and am really looking forward to focusing less on how many calories are in each and every bite that goes into my mouth and what the number on the scale is telling me. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> As soon as I learn to trust my stomach - I will make good food choices. <BR> My pitfall is to eat... Sat, 8 Nov 2014 09:38:07 EST Eat to Live or Live to Eat? Which one are you choosing? Last week I decided to stop chasing that goal weight of 132 pounds. I noticed two things. <BR> First, as reported in my previous blog, I look skinny - no need to become skinnier. <BR> Second, I realized that during my journey I became a food control maniac. I became obsessed with calorie counting-Analyzing every bit of food I put in my mouth. I am putting way too much attention and energy on my food. That can not be the aim of my journey here on spark. My brain told me to STOP! Relax girl!... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 15:14:26 EST Changing Directions last Sunday I sang a concert and my father recorded it with his video camera. He loves to record everything that happens - everywhere! <BR> <BR> <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> Watching the video today made me realize that I really look skinny in my gown. My clavicles are really showing and the "décolleté" starts to look bony and dry. I never wanted to look bony - just slim. I think I am going to re asses my goal and put it up 3 pounds for now. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.c... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 15:02:33 EST Where is My Ability to Set Goals? I am in a kind of "creative block" like writers or painters sometimes find themselves in. I am in a "goal setting block." I just don't know what goals to be working towards next to keep me motivated to loose those 5 pounds and work on my overall health and fitness. I am kind of bored with everything at the moment. A state that I find myself very rarely in. <BR> <BR> To help myself get out of it I thought that I would go back to the gist of my journey. Start from the beginning basically and ... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 14:11:52 EST Is it Worth The Struggel? Doubt sneaked in over the last few weeks: <BR> <BR> Is loosing 4.7 pounds really worth the effort, the tracking, the constant food control and the dreadful weigh-ins week after week after week? Loosing 47 pounds~yes, that's a goal but loosing 4.7? Am I putting the bar too high? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am still struggling to loose that one pound I put on over our vacation and just am in a moment of doubt. Maybe I set the b... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 09:22:29 EST Life is a Roller Coaster Ride - 3 Years on Spark Today, three years ago, I discovered this website. <BR> <em>345</em> <BR> I was trying to find help to loose weight, and I found it. <BR> <em>9</em> <BR> I found more than I imagined, actually. I found a tool for personal growth to support me on my roller coaster ride called Life. <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> My starting weight was 148 pounds and I wanted to loose 16 pounds. Not dramatic, but I did not feel well in my body anymore. I felt like I needed to take action immediately... Thu, 1 May 2014 15:09:27 EST Honor your Mother's Heart as Long as It is Beating "Honor your mother's heart as long as it is beating." This is a German saying that my grandfather used to say a lot. Today I feel like honoring my mother's heart even though it stopped beating. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today is my mother's 70th birthday. She is no more here to celebrate it with us, although we all hoped she would have lived up to today.. it was not meant to be. <BR> <BR> She was a strong woman and a tough c... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 17:49:37 EST A partially cloudy 2013 The best description for my year 2013 is that it was partially cloudy. Good and difficult moments were always side by side. This is especially true for the second half of the year. <BR> <BR> I am trying to have a fresh start in 2014 and looked back at the goals I set for 2013. I met about 50% of them. <BR> <BR> I failed at building strength and loose body fat. I actually lost strength and increased the fat by about 1-2%. I also failed at getting under 30% fat consumption a day and put on ... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 10:18:23 EST What are your excuses for disappearing from Spark? What are your excuses for disappearing from Spark for a longer period? Have you been out of touch for longer at some point? Why? How did it happen? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have been gone for around 6 months after being on Spark for 2 years. At first, I was just very busy with the end of the school year. Than my boyfriend moved from the United States to Germany and there was a lot to do. After that, I had the excuse of going ... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 15:25:32 EST Father's Day Race My father and I did a very demanding race today. In fact it was the toughest race I have done so far. My father used to do this race every year 30 years ago and he was very happy to do it again. the track goes over 13.5km and has many hills - really steep once! After kilometer 4 it goes basically uphill until kilometer 9 and after that there are some more hills... lol <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My father knew what he got himself... Sun, 16 Jun 2013 15:03:22 EST