BECCAJ98's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BECCAJ98 BECCAJ98's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Fiasco http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6433412 One of the biggest struggles I'm having postpartum is getting regulated from the gestational diabetes diagnosis and "treatment" I had. I had one borderline high 3 hour glucose test, and they gave me the diagnosis. I was sent to a specialist and proceeded to attempt to explain to them that I have been insulin resistant most of my life and I know what my numbers are supposed to be. So instead of listening to me, they treated me like everyone else. I was placed of insulin injections. When my nu... Tue, 21 Nov 2017 09:01:08 EST My reason for being MIA http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6429786 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/3f3c4966-3b4b-4ab9-a67c-93d1bc8355c6.jpg"> <BR> Some of you may have noticed my lack of being on here. Well, I had a rough pregnancy. In addition to just the pregnancy, I had a doctor's group decide I needed meds that I found out later I didn't, which in turn made the pregnancy harder, and is making postpartum weight loss a huge challenge. But thankfully, I did give birth to two healthy beautiful boys about 2 weeks ago. So here I am again, sl... Thu, 9 Nov 2017 13:31:02 EST Pregnancy wows http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6340818 I never thought this would be this hard... I know women do this all the time, but it's kicking my @$$ bad!!! I was looking forward to finally getting to my final weight goal this year....I was so close! Only 22 lbs to go when I found out...Now I just keep seeing my # raising. I hate that I can't control my sickness, and my eating is all over the place. I never know when or what I can eat. I know in the end it'll be worth it, but at my age for first pregnancy, I'm not a fan. Wed, 29 Mar 2017 13:31:08 EST Source of my issues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6338823 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/81c8b075-6caa-48af-bfc6-4eaa19dbf077.jpg"> <BR> I found out my issues for last few weeks, my plateau, exhaustion, not feeling good.... After 36 years of being told I "can't"....It's amazing what losing 110# will do. Not only am I pregnant.....But I'm having twins this fall!!! Sat, 25 Mar 2017 13:57:44 EST Updates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6327269 I got off the other meds, lost 2# within first 2 days. I have been off them for a week now and I'm back under 200! Thank goodness! I worked too hard for this! They started me on a new med with a side effect of weight loss....I'm OK with that lol!! It's day 3 of Lent, and I'm still doing my challenge and my daily spiritual reading and prayer. 37 more days and maybe it will stay as habit. Hubs is loving the new job. I'm getting used to eating 3 or so hours later. I am loving being the cook ... Fri, 3 Mar 2017 14:32:17 EST Lenten journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6323647 People "give up" things for Lent. It's the discipline of it. For me, Lent isn't just giving something up, but it's the journey and spiritual part. I'm giving up something nontraditional...It's not food, sweets, eating out....It's my lack of discipline. I've blogged before about my lack of finishing challenges. My Lenten journey will include the discipline to do my challenge daily. I have already marked my calendar today that I completed it....Now onto my spiritual reading for today. Wed, 1 Mar 2017 22:03:23 EST Drug side effects.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6321220 I got to thinking about my weight gain. Since my blog a couple days ago about being annoyed with 5# gain, I've gained another 2.5#...In just a couple of days. So in just over 2 weeks, I'm up almost 8#. My husband had a good point yesterday, check my side effects list on a drug I started just about 2 weeks ago now. Side effect warning #3 "if you notice rapid weight gain, talk to your doctor". I do believe that this is rapid....And I believe I'm done taking it, and will be calling my doctor on... Sat, 25 Feb 2017 07:46:57 EST Annoyed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6319701 I was doing soooo well....And then not! And I have gained 5 lbs! I was getting soooo close to my goal, I only had 20 more to go. And then, NOPE! I stopped losing weight about 3-4 weeks ago. And then it slowly creeping on. I'm not happy!! I know I haven't been to gym as much as I want, but I'm still doing a minimum of 12K steps a day, tracking my food. My biggest problem is I'm always, always hungry anymore. I guess I need to go into turbo mode again! Wed, 22 Feb 2017 07:41:05 EST Not for everyone..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6318322 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/cfc7dd2f-e66f-4979-8eef-43d4f6525d72.jpg"> <BR> I love hiking, and the random funnies on the way! This sign reminds me that this journey is not for everyone, it's a little bit of work.....but it's worth every ounce of effort. Sun, 19 Feb 2017 11:47:45 EST Happy Valentine's Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6315966 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/da93e8ba-22e1-407d-8032-a18066dd5f49.jpg"> <BR> Happy Valentine's Day from my heart to yours! Tue, 14 Feb 2017 11:22:46 EST I knew better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6306670 I've been lazy this week, and not eating well (Chinese buffet last night lol). I know better, but with the craziness in my life right now, I kinda needed it. But because of it, I'm up....4#. This close to my goal, 4# is a big deal. So today, I'm dusting off my big girl panties, refocusing, and getting myself back on track. I haven't had this much of an up swing in a long time. Talking with a friend last night, I have a couple ideas I'm going to start to help me focus. I'm also restarting o... Sat, 28 Jan 2017 10:03:13 EST Winter hiking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6306377 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/7b23260d-020c-48bd-944f-831fda255183.jpg"> <BR> Hubs has been sick for a long time, so our hikes have been mostly nonexistent since November. Finally we got out today:) 25° out today and we went hiking finally! Was a great time. Saw bunch of deer, actually watched these guys for a while. We took a new trail and couldn't find a good way to cross the creek. I got frustrated and just said eff it and walked through the water. So my feet were wet f... Fri, 27 Jan 2017 18:56:13 EST And fail... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6301910 One would think I could meet a simple goal like doing a challenge for 30 days...but nope. I made it 12 days. No reward this time. It's still on my goal board, and I'll finish it up. Then restart to try again for my reward.... Fri, 20 Jan 2017 11:10:09 EST FitBit woes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6298596 I love my fitbit. I love not only watching my steps add up, but challenges with my friends as well. But this week....I left mine on here charger one morning, I'm trying to balance new things at home, I've not been feeling 100%, and I am sucking at my challenges there. I join all the ones I get invited to. I normally keep up pretty well with everyone. I do 12,000 + a day. But lately some of my friends' friends are stomping me. I have to get used to not being in the top 3...i just don't hav... Sun, 15 Jan 2017 13:09:00 EST My challenge challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6297970 30 days....you can do it, unless of course you are me. It's not that I can't, it's that I get side tracked, forget a day, then two, then stop the whole thing. As per my other blog, I'm committed to doing this all the way through (although I still have no idea what my reward will be). Today is Day 10. That means I've been doing this, checking in and completing the exercises given (in addition to what I do now) for over a week. And for a third of the program. There have been a few days it's ... Sat, 14 Jan 2017 12:05:32 EST 2nd job http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6295804 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/6584ab4b-63f8-4393-a119-820b31bc49a0.jpg"> <BR> I'm loving my second job!!! I've been asked to do a show 2 months before the one I was originally planning. So I am trying to get all stocked up. Surprisingly though, I'm still getting my exercise in with all the hours in my lair :) My custom orders are almost finished, so I feel productive for sure!! Wed, 11 Jan 2017 06:59:29 EST New milestone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6293727 I weighted today, like most days. (If you're friends with me you know this is just me). I recorded my findings... Not only am I .3% away from an ok body fat percentage, I have hit the impossible... I have joined the ranks of an overweight BMI. NO LONGER AM I OBESE or higher!! Now to finish my way down to 28% body fat and my goal weight. #20togo Sun, 8 Jan 2017 09:35:32 EST Challenges and rewards http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6292797 I'm good about a lot of things....and bad about them too. I am good about rewarding myself for my mini goals I've set along the way. I'm good about trying new things, enjoying working out, doing most things right. I'm bad about still binge eating, eating unhealthy things, and not finishing what I start.....and that leads me to this blog. I decided to take Sparkpeople up on their challenges. I haven't done one of them in about 4 years. I'm great at starting them....I'm great at doing the as... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 19:55:34 EST My benefits of Resolutions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6292219 Every year, millions make new year resolutions. Most to lose weight, eat healthy, exercise more, blah, blah. By January 16th, they've forgotten, stopped, made 1000 excuses as to why they aren't continuing. But, every year, I get the benefit of these for a few weeks. My friends start begging me to workout with them. I'm at a much higher fitness level, and I know a few things. So I get to play personal trainer. I enjoy the change in my routine. I like the added challenges of having someone w... Thu, 5 Jan 2017 21:52:45 EST Maybe I was busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6284341 It's our peak season at work. My job is a customer service agent, I work a retail counter and my desk (computer). My time is spent about 50/50. Then there's the time I help in the warehouse. I was running all day, all 14 hours I was at work. I know I was busy, my legs are telling me that. I just checked my fitbit for the first time today.....12 miles!!!! That is almost a mile an hour in addition to all my other work. No wonder I'm tired!!!! I still have tomorrow, a break on Saturday, then... Thu, 22 Dec 2016 22:33:36 EST The sugar diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6283384 I work in an industry in which this is our peak season....we prepare all year for 2 weeks of "hell" just before Christmas. My coworkers (and their spouses) are mostly amazing cooks. And they like to spoil us. And so do a few of my customers as well. We also work extended hours (up to 14 hrs days). I love cookies and candies, but I'm normally good with one or two and I can walk away. This year, not so much. Several reasons for it....none I'm overly proud of. I have been eating more tan my ... Tue, 20 Dec 2016 13:43:35 EST What does 105# look like? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6278622 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5806da9f-137b-4730-a845-82e647b2893d.jpg"> <BR> About 5 years into my weight loss journey, I'm down about 105#. The fat picture was taken approximately 8 years ago, the other one this morning without any makeup or filters :) Fri, 9 Dec 2016 13:43:50 EST Supplements??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6278210 A local nutrition/vitamin store set up shop at my gym the other day. They were giving out samples of things. I got a pre-workout drink, an amino acid supplements for while doing weights, and a protein powder. I take my daily multivitamin, and I do the occasional protein powder smoothie. I know that a lot of athletes take different things to help performance. I want to know what people actually take, what benefits are, etc.....not just what the sales guys say. I know with as active as I am,... Thu, 8 Dec 2016 17:38:01 EST Getting close... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6277211 I weigh daily (yeah I know, but I do it). I don't record my weight daily, and I know it fluctuates daily. But it also helps me with knowing when certain things will happen (my weight is only indicator of my cycle). I recorded my first weight under 200 a few weeks ago. Then my honeymoon came and went, and so did the stress of the wedding. I got back to normal life and I have been in my little range of 200-203. Well, I do believe I have finally gotten under that 200 Mark officially!!! I have... Tue, 6 Dec 2016 14:54:16 EST Blah blah done... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6276832 After a very busy weekend, and end of last week, cleaning massive amounts, going through 20 yrs of clothes, scrubbing the 55 gal fish tank (and moving it), my normal 3+ mile daily walk/run/elliptical workout, strength training daily, a sick husband, and a 10.5 hr work day....I'm done! I am going to take tonight to curl up with a book and read until bedtime!! I haven't been lazy or had down time in who knows how long. I've already done a 5K on my lunch break, so I'm skipping weights in favor o... Mon, 5 Dec 2016 19:43:27 EST Purging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6275000 We are getting a new TV for our bedroom, and trying to move my hubs clothes into the master instead of the spare room. He has always had a problem with my amount of clothes and shoes. I cut down a lot before I met him, but still have a lot. Because the TV is being wall mounted, the closet needed cleaned out sooner than later. I have already gotten rid of a ton of jeans, shirts, bras, and dress pants in last few months. Well, over last 2 days I have now emptied all my dresses (have 2 left)...a... Thu, 1 Dec 2016 20:21:36 EST Getting expensive! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6272366 There are many benefits to a healthier lifestyle, and I enjoy them! Especially when my boss tells me I have to order new uniforms because the ones I have look sloppy....and they are numbers I've never seen before (size 10!!!!! I was a 14 in Jr high!).... So my hubs' aunt passed away on Thanksgiving. Funeral is on Monday. I figured jeans are not an appropriate thing to wear, so I'm digging in my closet for my dress pants. I used to buy all my clothes tight, I mean sooooo tight I had muffin... Sat, 26 Nov 2016 11:34:35 EST Not thought possible http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6269943 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/57ff4207-d272-45dd-a619-9c45f20816d7.jpg"> <BR> After my broken foot and subsequent hip issues, I haven't ran in over 3 years....I've gotten in a tenth or quarter here and then, and pay the price. My hip gives out and I can't walk. But at gym tonight, I started a slow jog warm up. It was too slow, I cranked it....and kept going! 2 quick walking breaks only cause I couldn't breathe....but I ran a full mile! And at a pace I'm happy with. It is ... Sun, 20 Nov 2016 19:14:28 EST Frozen camp http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6266795 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a94d9afe-5365-4a15-8ce9-715c3e5d82da.jpg"> <BR> We ended up at a park his aunt had told us about a couple weeks ago. Went out Friday night. Hubs wasn't feeling the greatest but wasn't going to not go since he promised me. We forgot to pack pillows, so had to go fishing do a Walmart (30 miles away). We set up camp, built fire and enjoyed listening to wildlife all evening. It got to about 29° F that night, I was fine but hubs froze all nigh... Mon, 14 Nov 2016 14:34:08 EST Repeating myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6264432 So as someone who has been on this journey for some time now, and am at (depending on the day and woman's cycle) 100+# down....I think I know a little bit, even if I get off the wagon. I've never regained everything, in fact only 30# or so during divorce/unemployment/last semester college/broken foot which has all happened in a year. So to my point of this blog.....I'm part of a women's group on FB. They post all the time about how to lose weight fastest and which fad diet they are going to... Wed, 9 Nov 2016 16:45:32 EST Love the hubs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6263372 I get a text this morning asking what our plans are this weekend. To my knowledge it's nothing.... So his reply is "find a place on your bucket list of parks and we will camp then hike all day".... It's awesome that he encourages me and is active with me!!! Now to decide where we are going.... Mon, 7 Nov 2016 14:02:06 EST Cleaning.....nah!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6262384 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/276f419c-2955-49a2-81d5-75e456dbe97f.jpg"> <BR> I needed a break from cleaning.... I wanted to hike, but the hubs is under the weather and he really likes joining me. So instead I headed to local park for a walk...figured I'd do a couple miles. And a 10K later.....I'm heading back home 😊 Happy Sparking #soretodaystrongtomorrow Sat, 5 Nov 2016 17:03:26 EST Post honeymoon struggles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6260822 Yeah Yeah I know I need to get pictures posted....I'll get there soon. But I am having a heck of a time readjusting now....I am gaining at a rapid rate. I'm up now 7# since wedding day 12 days ago. I wasn't horrible on honeymoon, but seem to be almost binging now. I'm always, ALWAYS, hungry this week....it's like I can't get enough. (And yes I drink enough water, I'm on my 2nd 32 oz bottle since 6 am and it's 9 am now....). I'm getting frustrated I am going backwards after finally meeting... Wed, 2 Nov 2016 10:09:50 EST Wedding Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6255784 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/47a1a675-cea0-4927-bf25-f379eabaf9a9.jpg"> <BR> This isn't going to be a long blog.....just enough to show a quick picture and to say I don't think I've ever loved the way I look as much as I did yesterday! Sun, 23 Oct 2016 10:09:00 EST Epiphany http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6255311 So I know I'm gonna get in trouble for blogging on my wedding day.....but I don't care. I hit 200# this week, which means since my high "known" weight, I'm down over 95# in 6 years. This means I have lost another adult human off of me. I know I have gone down a couple of sizes (16-18 to a 12), a cup size in my chest (had to buy new bras), and shirts fit me different. But last night when I'm rushing 100mph to get changed and out to wedding set up, I threw on a shirt I haven't had on since s... Sat, 22 Oct 2016 09:05:22 EST Wedding goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6254980 Calling this a win.....my goal was under 200# by my wedding which is tomorrow....well even with eating bad this week, 200 even.....I am going into wedding being where I've not been since JR high!!!! So I think I did it! I will not be weighing myself after tomorrow for at least 10 days. We are leaving on honeymoon that is a road trip from Central IL to the Gulf of Mexico and back.....with hiking and swimming in the middle!! Fri, 21 Oct 2016 12:10:46 EST Before and after http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6254566 I just read (and looked at) an amazing photographic journey of before and after pictures of extreme weightloss. I know what my body looks like after my small adult has been shed from this frame....and it's not pretty. (Especially during my one of my favorite hobbies). This woman lost twice as much as I have. When you are losing 100+ lbs it's much different than just 20 lbs. It's taking a human off of you....but leaves it's remains. Thu, 20 Oct 2016 15:12:39 EST Something lied to me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6253108 Ok.....as you all know by know, the wedding is in 5 days. I have been desperately trying to get under 200. I have never been there (last time was Jr High). I wanted this wedding to be the start, in more than one way, of new things. That included me a new person under 200. I weighed on Sunday morning, 199.8!!!! Oh I'd never been more excited....except with everything else that happened over the weekend, I was in no mood to celebrate. So I decided that I would weigh today and get excited (s... Mon, 17 Oct 2016 18:52:26 EST Struggles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6252127 How am I supposed to keep healthy when everything is falling down around me!?!?!? What is supposed to be happiest time of my life, the week before my wedding, has turned into a struggle. Hubs and I have been fighting...he's very depressed and taking it out on me. Then the bank decides to freeze all of our accounts because of stupidity from my ex husband. Apparently I will never be able to get away from what he did to me. The only thing I've eaten in two days is a few bites of pork, chocola... Sat, 15 Oct 2016 22:12:31 EST New hobby http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6250315 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c9ee33ea-570c-4da4-9ae6-4da5d5818e43.jpg"> <BR> My hippie groom wanted tie dye at the wedding....so a girlfriend of mine helped me do the tablecloths. I got hooked! I love having a hobby that isn't fitness related :) I do love those hobbies, but then my unwind time at home is playing Facebook games. Since I started this 10 days ago, I am so much happier. This was one shirt I did for a groomsman. And only my second batch of tie dye ever.....I ... Wed, 12 Oct 2016 08:37:04 EST Hungry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6250059 I know I'm active....heck I average between 12 and 15 thousand steps in a day, and thats not if I go hike for hours. I eat a lot because I am so active, and I do still lose weight. But the last few days, I am hungry, I mean tummy grumble, feeling sick, hungry. Within a couple hours, my body wants more food. Drinking water makes it worse (not full feeling). I know this is part of my not making Wedding Day Goal......but i have tried everything and its not working! Tue, 11 Oct 2016 19:16:31 EST Dress fitting part 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6247227 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/24e4c758-6f18-49f9-b007-64be86a4912c.jpg"> <BR> Little more off the top and I should have it next week 😀😀😀😀 But unfortunately I don't think that will make my wedding weight goal....I was only 2.2 # away, but have gained 1.8 back. I really want to be in 100's for the wedding. But 2.5 weeks away I don't think I can pull it off without starving myself. I have also gotten into not great habits this past week or so with trying to get everything... Thu, 6 Oct 2016 08:41:03 EST Dress fitting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6243847 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e86003b0-b288-4c98-81d5-6a09a888a5fd.jpg"> <BR> So......we gots a problem....the whole top half is too big. So we tucked and pinned and adjusted. I go back someday next week for another fitting. My $7 dress is costing me wayyyyy more but at least it'll be what I want and flattering 😊 Thu, 29 Sep 2016 21:00:39 EST Addiction and withdrawl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6238652 Yesterday while cleaning my house (deep spring style due to upcoming wedding which means family in town....), I lost my addiction :(, my favorite tool, funnest aide.....my activity tracker. It came out of its casing on my wrist. I loved that little thing....flashing lights when I reached 12,000, encouraging me to go that extra 10 or 1000 steps. And it's been 24 hrs since I've seen the little guy. Hubs thinks I can do without it...I'm not convinced I can. I do awesome at maintaining without o... Mon, 19 Sep 2016 18:21:20 EST It's not the diet and exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237990 I've been on this journey a long time. I've lost and maintained and lost some more, so I know a little bit about what works and doesn't. I hate reading some of the things people write because I know unfortunately it's not going to be a lasting thing. They will drop the weight and then put at least that much back on. IT IS NOT THE DIET AND EXERCISE! This journey is about making permanent lifestyle changes to be able to make healthy choices for a lifetime!! If you only make decisions for weig... Sun, 18 Sep 2016 16:19:50 EST Mini goal met http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237324 As of this morning, I am officially less then my lowest before the gain from divorce started. <BR> That number is also lower than what I weighed in Jr High when I started seeing civilian doctors. <BR> It means that I am only 4# away from my goal for wedding in October!! <BR> I am ready to start playing in Onederland!! Sat, 17 Sep 2016 10:18:24 EST Stupid move...? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237037 Before I broke my foot 2 yrs ago, I was training to actually RUN a 5k. Well, crutches put a damper on that. Fast forward 9 months, released but tendinitis and arthritis has set into my hip. I'm unable to move some days. I trying running off and on but only able to do between quarter and half mile before hip gives out. Fast forward to 3 weeks ago, and I get severe shin splint. So been easing back into routine. I've been walking a nicely paved trail to minimize chance of injuries. My shins... Fri, 16 Sep 2016 18:53:33 EST Wedding dress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6235707 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/81a8bf78-5260-4ee7-8164-42978268d490.jpg"> <BR> Wedding is in just over 5 weeks....I tried on my dress for first time in almost a year....went from I can't move in it to whole thing has to be taken in. But....because of that....I get options with the alterations! So when we remove the elastic waistband I have always hated, we are putting in a crochet ribbon band to go with what's on the bottom of the dress....and it'll show skin through the ri... Wed, 14 Sep 2016 10:24:53 EST Why can't I? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6234249 Today, I met up with a few girlfriends for walking the Wildlife Park. First thing one said to me (whom I'd just seen a week ago) commented on how tiny I was. Then after my walk and hike, i had errands. Stop one was my sister inlaw made comment on how I wasn't gonna fit in my dress for the wedding in 6 weeks. Stop two was another friend stop, they made comments too. Yet, I look at me and don't see it. If I post pictures side by side, I can. But actually looking at myself in person I just don'... Sun, 11 Sep 2016 21:38:14 EST Jeans, Part 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6233303 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a2e23860-4813-474e-aa94-b0855fa2991e.jpg"> <BR> I don't see differences in me when I lose weight. I still see the very round 300#. A month ago (and 4 lbs) I posted a very embarrassing post on a pair of jeans I was given a year ago that wouldn't even get on my thighs. I could button, but was a sickening site. While cleaning closet today, I tried again. Today is the bottom picture.... Sat, 10 Sep 2016 10:01:33 EST