BECCA315's SparkPeople Blog BECCA315's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community End of Summer - September 17th This is my last End of Summer blog; I know autumn isn't for a few more days, but I feel I've gone as far as I can with this series. I've blogged about my job issues, my knee issues, my food issues... boy, it's seems I have a LOT of stressful problems going on right now. But through it all, I've kept the faith that I will continue to move forward, to meet of my goal of losing 100 pounds total, and will come out the other side a bit stronger. <BR> <BR> I'm getting a tattoo this year; I'm 55 an... Sun, 17 Sep 2017 18:26:19 EST End of Summer - September 15th Lost my job; it was mostly OK the first day, but hit me harder yesterday, when I had more time to think about it. Sometimes I feel like 15 years is now wasted; sometimes I feel lucky that I had the job because it got my older son through college, and helped pay for this house when we really needed it. <BR> <BR> So I've had my 36 hours of self pity and sugar, but now I'm ready to get back to business. Hitting the gym hard today!! Fri, 15 Sep 2017 05:48:54 EST End of Summer - September 12th Skipped again last night... Got the news that workman's comp has shut down my PT sessions. Since I can 'kinda' do the stairs, I'm considered functional and no longer need to go in for physical therapy. They even cancelled the last two sessions that had been OK'd a few weeks ago. I am of a mixed mind about this: I really love(d) my job, and would hate to lose it. But maybe something new and better is waiting down the line. Hubby is already pressuring me to start looking, and no final decisions... Tue, 12 Sep 2017 15:27:26 EST End of Summer - September 10th <em>244</em> Two parties today and NO sweet goodies!! Sun, 10 Sep 2017 19:28:46 EST End of Summer - September 9th Good food choices, plenty of exercise... A fun day with my hubby. Exhausted now and ready for an early bedtime. Sat, 9 Sep 2017 20:08:07 EST End of Summer - September 8th Today was my first 'mystery walk' of the new season. Ed calls me when he's leaving the industrial park where he works, and I tie on my shoes and walk up the street. The mystery comes in because I never know how far I'll get before we meet up, and then he drives me home. It was good to be outdoors, altho' still a bit hot and humid for walking. Today it was just over half an hour... <BR> <BR> <em>311</em> <em>102</em> Fri, 8 Sep 2017 16:20:19 EST End of Summer - September 7th Guess I forgot to check in yesterday... well, it was an up and down sort of day, so I'm not surprised. PT is moving along, getting tougher every time I go in. Not counting the work I'm doing on my own on the off days. I see the surgeon next week, and need to be at 110%; right now I'm at 103%, so it's moving along, but maybe not fast enough. <BR> <BR> Heard from work; may still have my job. She's waiting to see what the surgeon says. Doesn't want me to do light duty ~ it's all or nothing. <B... Thu, 7 Sep 2017 16:24:33 EST End of Summer - September 5th Had a great lunch today; wish I had taken a photo to share. I read in a magazine about grilling romaine lettuce, after brushing it with a bit of Italian dressing or olive oil. Grill wasn't available, so I 'toasted' it a bit in a hot frying pan. Then added some cut-up apple and half a chicken breast on top. It was SO tasty, very filling, and not a lot of calories. YUM! Tue, 5 Sep 2017 19:44:22 EST End of Summer - September 4TH Going to my older son's house for a BBQ, to celebrate his wife's b'day. Will be bringing some healthy goodies: carrot & celery sticks, apples for dipping and pineapple for grilling. I know there will be cake and ice cream, but I can have very small pieces. I once read that after 3 bites, our taste buds become bored with a food, and that should be all we need to satisfy a craving. We'll see how it goes... Mon, 4 Sep 2017 13:29:24 EST End of Summer - September 3rd Still in some residual pain from all the PT last week, but I did get more steps in today, and I practiced doing the stairs at church. I know it looks funny, but there are more railing at church than here at home, so it's easier to do. <BR> <BR> A new week is now upon us, and the Biggest Loser Challenge starts in a few days. I feel ready to get back on the challenge bandwagon, and see how far I can take it this time around. Sun, 3 Sep 2017 18:26:28 EST End of Summer - September 2nd I don't even know what to say about today. Went to a bridal shower for my niece, and while I was there, I had a great time. But as soon as I got home, the depression started to sneak in the back door. I feel like nothing is ever going to change on the home front, so why bother trying... Sat, 2 Sep 2017 18:10:42 EST End of Summer - September 1st I have cleaned out more junk this year than in past years, a LOT more. I’m working on my fifth box of stuff, all to be donated to the church for their Holly Day Bazaar, which is in a month or so. My next big project is to go through the large dresser that holds all my crafting supplies. I’d love to get back to x-stitch, but I’m pretty sure decoupage is a thing of the past. I think a lot of it is because looking at these sorts of things bring mixed emotions; part of me is sad that I can no lon... Fri, 1 Sep 2017 19:19:34 EST End of Summer, and last day of August Did some heavy-duty workouts, both the PT and on the elliptical at the gym. I ache all over, and I know it will be worse tomorrow. But my numbers are looking good: the knee has more flexability, and I've lost a pound this week. So I keep telling myself it's worth it. Thu, 31 Aug 2017 16:17:42 EST End of Summer - August 30th, I think I'm starting to lose track of the days. I've not worked since the first week in May, and it doesn't look like I have a job anymore. The surgeon let the HR rep at work know 2 weeks ago that I was ready for light duty, but she hasn't gotten back to me, which I feel is an answer in itself. And I'm having some family issues, which are wearing me out. My exercise was great today, but my food intake was crap... Wed, 30 Aug 2017 19:37:57 EST End of Summer - August 29th Grocery shopping and other errands today, walking and yoga... <BR> <BR> It still feels weird to skip certain aisles in the grocery store. No chips,cake,candy... I still feel the call but can ignore it better if I avoid those certain areas in the stores, and certainly if I don't bring the items home in the first place. I don't think I'll ever get past this sugar craving but will always have to take it one day at a time. Tue, 29 Aug 2017 15:52:18 EST End of Summer - August 28th Saw two lovely ladies in the parking lot when I was walking back from PT. One was thin, blond, and impeccably dressed in black slacks and a dark sweater; she had a good watch on and was fiddling with her gold necklace. The other one was more like me, a little shorter, quite a bit chunkier, in jeans and a t-shirt. She couldn't fiddle with any jewelry because she was carrying 2 large Dunkin' Donuts coffees: a girl after my own heart. <BR> <BR> I spent a LOT of my younger years wishing I were ... Mon, 28 Aug 2017 18:42:04 EST End of Summer - August 27th Woke up with a plan today and pretty much stuck to it. I did have an ice cream sandwich but I also did 15 minutes of pool aerobics, so I worked my knees. It was SO nice being in the water again... Sun, 27 Aug 2017 16:59:56 EST End of Summer - August 26th Went to a food truck festival today, and had a great time. Also stuck with my plan: eat whatever I wanted, but only eat a third. Beef empanadas, pulled pork sandwich without the bun, slaw, and a whooping pie for dessert. So I got plenty of exercise walking around, plus stayed within my calorie range! <BR> <BR> I love it when the plan works out and I know there won't be any morning after regrets... Sat, 26 Aug 2017 19:04:56 EST End of Summer - August 25 Killed it at PT this morning. I swear I can withstand the pain more if I have a morning session... Even the therapist was impressed. So this weekend I will continue to practice going up and down the stairs without swinging my leg wide, and without taking the steps one at a time, which I've been doing for years because I'm so afraid of falling. Fri, 25 Aug 2017 17:56:12 EST End of Summer - August 24th Woke up with a plan this morning, and even though I didn't get everything accomplished, I'm doing pretty good. Walked a mile at the mall, and my food is on track. Been cleaning up the home office a bit, dumping some old paperwork, and I'm feeling good with the day so far. Now I want to see if I can convince the hubby to do something FUN!! Thu, 24 Aug 2017 15:33:48 EST End of Summer - August 23rd Finally got to go back to PT today. She worked me extra hard to make up for the weeks I missed, between vacay and when I was take off the roster. I am going to need the ice packs tonight! But I'm happy to be back in the routine, and I know it will help me in the long run. Wed, 23 Aug 2017 15:20:11 EST End of Summer - August 22nd I really have nothing good to say today, as it's been a blah day. I'm only writing because I set a challenge of blogging every day until the end of summer. But so far, I haven't gone off the deep end with food, and I have exercised, so I guess it's not all bad... Tue, 22 Aug 2017 15:56:44 EST End of Summer - August 21 Found out that my PT was reinstated, but nobody told me. So I missed my app't, the first I would have had in 2 weeks. I did go to the gym, and took my son with me; did some ST and 15 minutes on the elliptical. So I guess it worked out. <BR> <BR> I guess if I had known better, I wouldn't have let the weight get so bad before I started working on it. It didn't bother me so much when I was younger, but once I hit my 50's, it suddenly became an issue, especially with the limited movement. I gues... Mon, 21 Aug 2017 15:43:10 EST End of Summer - August 20th Quiet day - spent time with my guys. Made sure I got some walking in, though... Sun, 20 Aug 2017 18:58:57 EST End of Summer - August 19th Listening to some music, and I heard: I want to sleep like a baby, like I have no regrets at all... <BR> <BR> Is that what sleeping like a baby means, no regrets. Does it mean you did everything right that day? Ate healthy, got plenty of water, exercised for a specific amount of time, shared quality time with your family... Most days, unless I'm going through a really tough time, I can check all those items off my daily list. In fact, that is one of the reasons I do so well with SP, because ... Sat, 19 Aug 2017 08:00:26 EST End of Summer - August 18th Rather quiet day ~ the first day all week I didn't have at least one appointment or something pressing to do. I got some housework done, and a few errands. But that is it. Tomorrow will be the gym; the knee surgeon measured the bend in my knee and I'm at 90 degrees. He wants me to be at 100 degrees by my next app't, which is in four weeks. So I will be making very good friends with the bikes at the gym. Still haven't heard if the insurance company is going to OK more PT sessions... Fri, 18 Aug 2017 17:16:24 EST End of Summer - August 17th I have not had much sleep in the last couple of days. Perhaps that explains the massive headache and the tendency towards unwanted tears. I did manage to eat well, and I got some exercise in, plus 2 appointments and some housecleaning. Spent what little downtime I had thinking of the last couple of days, the poor food choices I made, and pondered why my emotions still lead me down that path... <BR> <BR> I've read more than once that food addiction is not like 'other' addictions, that it's no... Thu, 17 Aug 2017 18:53:58 EST End of Summer - August 16 Too tired to say much today, but I ate much better than the last couple of days. And I had another follow-up appointment with the knee surgeon. He says I'm ready for light duty at work, so we'll see what happens... Wed, 16 Aug 2017 16:41:26 EST End of Summer - 8/15 Still struggling with the lousy news I got yesterday, concerning my job status. I'm feeling very tired and sluggish and I don't really want to do anything. So I am decluttering a bit, picking up things I know I haven't really looked at in a while, and putting them in a box for the huge yard sale my church has every autumn. I know having less stuff will help clear my mind a bit. Tue, 15 Aug 2017 14:50:07 EST End of Summer - 8/14 Not a happy day here... Everyone seems to be having issues and not being kind to others. No word yet if the PT will be reapproved and I just got a call from a co-worker that my job has been given away to a friend of my supervisor. So even if I am approved for light duty, there is no job to go back to... I've had some ice cream, but it didn't help. Mon, 14 Aug 2017 16:35:10 EST End of Summer ~ August 13th Today was a better day even though I didn't as much exercise in as yesterday. My frame of mind was better, got some errands done, found a new Italian restaurant, and I did do some marching/walking. We went to the store afterwards and I had NO desire to buy junk food of any sort for myself, just extra water and some office supplies. Sun, 13 Aug 2017 18:36:28 EST End of Summer ~ August 12th Today is a mini celebration ~ it's the first time in four months I've gone to the gym. I did the treadmill for a while, and then some ST. Was shocked to find out that my gym doesn't have a regular leg press machine. They do have some for serious body builders, way down on the ground with hundreds of pounds of weight you can add. So I made do. Leg presses are one of the four exercises my physical therapist says I should be concentrating. Still, it was a small beginning. Sat, 12 Aug 2017 16:46:54 EST End of Summer ~ August 11th It's just like being on a diet: you say you're going to cut all sugar and fat out of your food choices, and all of a sudden, all you see are fast food commercials on TV and junk food coupons in the newspapers. No matter where you go, there is something to tempt you, help trip you up. Same here: I decide that I'm going to spend the rest of the summer going Zen, getting my life back in order from the upsets of the last six months or so, and preparing myself mentally and physically for the next ... Fri, 11 Aug 2017 16:52:13 EST End of Summer ~ August 10th Had ice cream yesterday for a snack. A Blue Bunny 'sandwich' which is portion controlled, so not many calories. And I feel OK about it. It was not emotional eating, not out of control eating, and I stayed within my calorie limit for the day. <BR> <em>244</em> Thu, 10 Aug 2017 09:24:33 EST End of Summer ~ August 9th Wednesday weigh-in. I lost the four pounds of water weight I've been carrying for the last week or so!!! I love it! I know that it's 'just water' but it makes me feel better about myself, and hopefully the swelling around the knee that I had the surgery on will go down a bit. <BR> <BR> Have more tortuous physical therapy to look forward to this afternoon... <BR> <em>334</em> Wed, 9 Aug 2017 08:18:53 EST End of Summer ~ August 8th Well, yesterday was a very emotional day, both good and extremely bad. But since I'm trying to 'feel my emotions' instead of eating them, I decompressed by spending time with my favorite sleeping bag, nestled in the hammock in the back yard. Did a bit of crying, but that's OK. What I didn't do was have any sweet or salty snacks, so I'm pretty proud of myself. Tue, 8 Aug 2017 14:31:00 EST End of Summer ~ August 7th I know it's not really the end of summer, but it is winding down. And I want to take a few minutes each day to reflect on the ups and downs of this year, and how it has affected my weight and other health issues. <BR> <BR> The biggest factor is that I fell at work last May, over a year ago, and slammed my knee into the cement floor. We didn't think the issue was that big a deal at first, but as time went on, and I gradually started to lose feeling in my lower leg, I decided that I needed pr... Mon, 7 Aug 2017 06:24:20 EST Year of change reflection... Reflection: mostly what I've learned the past year is that I'm stronger than I thought I was, stronger than I would have given myself credit for. All due to falling at work, of course... I've learned that I can stand up to authority figures if I need to, even tho' I'm so uncomfortable with it, I've learned that I need to express myself when I'm not getting what I want, I've learned that I can let things, like housework or home-cooked meals, slide when I need to, I've learned that I can take m... Sat, 6 May 2017 17:35:03 EST Holiday eating Had kind of a weird ephipeny at the store today, BJ's, if everyone knows what that is. We were standing in line, ready to purchase a new vacuum for me, when in the next line over, I saw a man with his teenaged son. In their carts was five cases of beer, plus a couple bottles of whiskey and rum. And all I could think of was: this is what he teaches his son that holidays are all about drinking? What kind of message does that send? (Yes, I know I was making assumptions, both that they celebrate ... Sat, 15 Apr 2017 16:46:51 EST Why I started... ... and why I will NOT give up. <BR> <BR> This is a blog for the WEC, for the Biggest Loser Challenge that I've been a part of for a number of years now. In fact, it's been so many years now, many of the things we do, the challenges we take part in, are so ingrained that I do them even when we're in a interim phase, like around the holidays. <BR> <BR> But sometimes it's good, even necessary, to go back to the beginning and remember WHY this all started and why it will continue. And for me,... Mon, 3 Oct 2016 15:32:20 EST Rethinking I've got to cut back on the sugar. It has once again crept into my daily life. Seems I work so hard to keep just a few ounces off each week, then a couple of cookies puts me into sugar overload. I know it's not good for me, but I'm having a really tough time with this... <BR> <BR> So I'm rethinking: I'm going to level it out, keep maintenance in mind instead of trying to go crazy with the rules and regulations. The daily walks are a must, and I will focus more on the fresh fruits available t... Wed, 6 Jul 2016 05:29:38 EST Grrr... I am feeling very frustrated this morning. Part of it has to do with waking up sore all over, my 'reward' for working out hard two days ago. And part of it is from housework burnout, feeling like I'm doing the same chores over and over, yet the house never seems any cleaner. <BR> <BR> But most of it is my weight. Again, I feel like I'm working hard, putting in the time, sticking with it after more than five years, yet I don't feel like I'm getting very far. <BR> <BR> My older son, who is be... Thu, 21 Apr 2016 07:12:04 EST Anniversary blog Or what should have been an anniversary blog, except I was so busy on the 26th that I didn't get around to it. Then it seemed trivial to do it late. Then I felt like I didn't have time, even tho' I had more to add.... But, <BR> <BR> Ok, so the 26th was my Sparkpeople anniversary, and as I look back over this past year, I have to to say I'm mostly happy with my slow movement forward, even tho' it doesn't look like I budged much, according to the scale. My successes are geared towards what I'v... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 05:26:19 EST 50#... Well, the big day has come, one that I have worked towards for so long. I'm down fifty pounds... and scared as heck. "Scared?", you say. "Why should she be scared? Fifty pounds gone should be something to celebrate, something to be happy about..." <BR> <BR> Not long ago, I saw a cartoon of a weight-loss ice burg. The top, that people see, is the fact that you lost weight, you look better than you used to, you're taking care of yourself. But the bottom, the 'hidden' part of weight loss, the ... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 21:26:27 EST Exercise Blog... My all-time fave has got to be boxing. I never thought I'd like something so 'manly' and so 'violent', but all the moving and punching has been really good for me. So good, in fact, that I can only do it once a week. It's very draining and continues to use my muscles in ways they're not used to. I like pool aerobics, which I've been doing the last few weeks instead of boxing because my trainer had an accident and is out of commission for at least another month. <BR> <BR> My goal is to work ... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 06:09:03 EST interim challenge One of the bigger changes that I've seen in the past year is that I'm spreading my wings a bit more. Right now I'm in the middle of one of the suggested SP challenges, how to break a plateau. I'm also monitoring my excess sugar... I've hit the 200# mark again. Not the first time, to be sure, but the challenges are helping. <BR> <BR> Another big change is that I have a better idea of what I want and where I want to go with myself. It's not just about 'losing weight' or 'being healthier'. Tho... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 15:57:18 EST Wednesday weigh-in Those in the know, know that I do the Biggest Loser Challenge, and Wednesday is the official weigh-in day. For many of us, myself included, this is a day to be faced with uncertainty, sometimes with fear, as we look back at the previous week and pinpoint all the things we should have done, and didn't; and all the things we shouldn't have done, and did. <BR> <BR> But I am happy to say, I'm down another half pound. I'm happier to say that this is the 4th week in a row my weight has dropped, e... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 05:56:34 EST Boxing Boxing is the best exercise I've ever tried! Not too hard on my knees, and it really gets me moving! Thanks, Charles! <BR> <em>326</em> Tue, 26 May 2015 19:10:33 EST !! Biggest Loser Challenge 28 is about to start, and I'm so excited! Hey, that could be a song ~ maybe I could get the Pointer Sisters to sing it? Wanna join the dance party? Tue, 12 May 2015 17:37:57 EST Cinco de Mayo NSV A few days late, but that is because it took me a few days to realize that it happened. We had the kids over for tacos to celebrate Cinco de Mayo; served the usual array of foods: beef tacos, beans and rice, homemade guac thanks to my older child who makes the best. Didn't even get to the watermelon for dessert because we were too full from Mexican food. And as usual, I did a variety: ground beef with only a third of the taco seasoning mix, grilled chicken for fajitas, black beans, refried be... Fri, 8 May 2015 05:39:45 EST