BECCA315's SparkPeople Blog BECCA315's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Year of change reflection... Reflection: mostly what I've learned the past year is that I'm stronger than I thought I was, stronger than I would have given myself credit for. All due to falling at work, of course... I've learned that I can stand up to authority figures if I need to, even tho' I'm so uncomfortable with it, I've learned that I need to express myself when I'm not getting what I want, I've learned that I can let things, like housework or home-cooked meals, slide when I need to, I've learned that I can take m... Sat, 6 May 2017 17:35:03 EST Holiday eating Had kind of a weird ephipeny at the store today, BJ's, if everyone knows what that is. We were standing in line, ready to purchase a new vacuum for me, when in the next line over, I saw a man with his teenaged son. In their carts was five cases of beer, plus a couple bottles of whiskey and rum. And all I could think of was: this is what he teaches his son that holidays are all about drinking? What kind of message does that send? (Yes, I know I was making assumptions, both that they celebrate ... Sat, 15 Apr 2017 16:46:51 EST Why I started... ... and why I will NOT give up. <BR> <BR> This is a blog for the WEC, for the Biggest Loser Challenge that I've been a part of for a number of years now. In fact, it's been so many years now, many of the things we do, the challenges we take part in, are so ingrained that I do them even when we're in a interim phase, like around the holidays. <BR> <BR> But sometimes it's good, even necessary, to go back to the beginning and remember WHY this all started and why it will continue. And for me,... Mon, 3 Oct 2016 15:32:20 EST Rethinking I've got to cut back on the sugar. It has once again crept into my daily life. Seems I work so hard to keep just a few ounces off each week, then a couple of cookies puts me into sugar overload. I know it's not good for me, but I'm having a really tough time with this... <BR> <BR> So I'm rethinking: I'm going to level it out, keep maintenance in mind instead of trying to go crazy with the rules and regulations. The daily walks are a must, and I will focus more on the fresh fruits available t... Wed, 6 Jul 2016 05:29:38 EST Grrr... I am feeling very frustrated this morning. Part of it has to do with waking up sore all over, my 'reward' for working out hard two days ago. And part of it is from housework burnout, feeling like I'm doing the same chores over and over, yet the house never seems any cleaner. <BR> <BR> But most of it is my weight. Again, I feel like I'm working hard, putting in the time, sticking with it after more than five years, yet I don't feel like I'm getting very far. <BR> <BR> My older son, who is be... Thu, 21 Apr 2016 07:12:04 EST Anniversary blog Or what should have been an anniversary blog, except I was so busy on the 26th that I didn't get around to it. Then it seemed trivial to do it late. Then I felt like I didn't have time, even tho' I had more to add.... But, <BR> <BR> Ok, so the 26th was my Sparkpeople anniversary, and as I look back over this past year, I have to to say I'm mostly happy with my slow movement forward, even tho' it doesn't look like I budged much, according to the scale. My successes are geared towards what I'v... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 05:26:19 EST 50#... Well, the big day has come, one that I have worked towards for so long. I'm down fifty pounds... and scared as heck. "Scared?", you say. "Why should she be scared? Fifty pounds gone should be something to celebrate, something to be happy about..." <BR> <BR> Not long ago, I saw a cartoon of a weight-loss ice burg. The top, that people see, is the fact that you lost weight, you look better than you used to, you're taking care of yourself. But the bottom, the 'hidden' part of weight loss, the ... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 21:26:27 EST Exercise Blog... My all-time fave has got to be boxing. I never thought I'd like something so 'manly' and so 'violent', but all the moving and punching has been really good for me. So good, in fact, that I can only do it once a week. It's very draining and continues to use my muscles in ways they're not used to. I like pool aerobics, which I've been doing the last few weeks instead of boxing because my trainer had an accident and is out of commission for at least another month. <BR> <BR> My goal is to work ... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 06:09:03 EST interim challenge One of the bigger changes that I've seen in the past year is that I'm spreading my wings a bit more. Right now I'm in the middle of one of the suggested SP challenges, how to break a plateau. I'm also monitoring my excess sugar... I've hit the 200# mark again. Not the first time, to be sure, but the challenges are helping. <BR> <BR> Another big change is that I have a better idea of what I want and where I want to go with myself. It's not just about 'losing weight' or 'being healthier'. Tho... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 15:57:18 EST Wednesday weigh-in Those in the know, know that I do the Biggest Loser Challenge, and Wednesday is the official weigh-in day. For many of us, myself included, this is a day to be faced with uncertainty, sometimes with fear, as we look back at the previous week and pinpoint all the things we should have done, and didn't; and all the things we shouldn't have done, and did. <BR> <BR> But I am happy to say, I'm down another half pound. I'm happier to say that this is the 4th week in a row my weight has dropped, e... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 05:56:34 EST Boxing Boxing is the best exercise I've ever tried! Not too hard on my knees, and it really gets me moving! Thanks, Charles! <BR> <em>326</em> Tue, 26 May 2015 19:10:33 EST !! Biggest Loser Challenge 28 is about to start, and I'm so excited! Hey, that could be a song ~ maybe I could get the Pointer Sisters to sing it? Wanna join the dance party? Tue, 12 May 2015 17:37:57 EST Cinco de Mayo NSV A few days late, but that is because it took me a few days to realize that it happened. We had the kids over for tacos to celebrate Cinco de Mayo; served the usual array of foods: beef tacos, beans and rice, homemade guac thanks to my older child who makes the best. Didn't even get to the watermelon for dessert because we were too full from Mexican food. And as usual, I did a variety: ground beef with only a third of the taco seasoning mix, grilled chicken for fajitas, black beans, refried be... Fri, 8 May 2015 05:39:45 EST Interim Challenge Today's interim challege is to blog about my success from the past year. I'd say my biggest success is that after five decades, I'm finally getting to know myself. I'm getting stronger, becoming clearer to myself and others about my wants and needs, yet becoming more passionate about those that surround me. I've thought a lot about what I want the next four or five decades to look like, what I hope to accomplish, what I no longer have time for. Ed & I have had a LOT of hardships this past yea... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 15:22:53 EST Tracker Got my new Spark tracker set up today. Didn't get any exercise points, as I didn't manage 10 consecutive minutes with all the walking I did. This will take some getting used to, but I feel it's a huge step in the right direction. <BR> <BR> <em>546</em> Sat, 25 Apr 2015 20:59:57 EST Day 19 Today is day 19 of the 21-day no added sugar or salt challenge. (Another part of the challenge had to do with exercise, but that is a different blog...) Anyhow, I'm almost done with the 3 weeks, and 2 thoughts occur to me. <BR> <BR> #1: I did better than I thought I would. There have been many choices, many times extra sugar or salt have passed through my life. I did indulge a few times, like the birthday cupcake, but most of the time, I was able to let it keep on passing through. And it mad... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 17:42:21 EST WEC 6-week check-up Well, the WEC challenge is almost half over. What, if anything, have I learned this round? <BR> <BR> I've learned that life goes on, it doesn't stop for me. This has been a tough year, already tougher than last year. Yet meals still have to be made, housework still has to be done, and exercise still has to be fitted in somehow. I think that a good measure of my WEC time is that I will find time to exercise, no matter what else is going on in my life. It has become such a part of me; even at ... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 19:56:39 EST Oh, no... change! I don't do change well. I never have been the type of person who can just let sudden changes roll off her back, and I'm probably getting worse with age. Part of it is my really lousy memory; things have to go where they belong or I can't find them again. And part of it is the feeling of loss of control, which I dont like. <BR> <BR> But today was my first day with a new trainer, Charles. It seemed to go pretty well; we get along OK, and unlike one of the substitutes I was put with a few time... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 19:05:11 EST New Year Good morning, everyone! Hope you all had a great time last night, without overdoing it... We had a very fun time at the potluck supper/game night. Then we had a short reflection service, and the question asked was: what will you do this year that will affect you in ten years? My one and only answer is to continue losing weight and getting stronger. Thu, 1 Jan 2015 08:50:57 EST 12/231/14 This past year has been a tough one for us. Many health issues, some family problems, and my sister's house burned down. There have been many times when I have thought that if it weren't for Sparkpeople, I would just give up and go back to the overweight life that I had before. <BR> <BR> My successes include joining a new gym, and meeting with a personal trainer once a week; not gaining back the weight that I've lost in the last four years; taking on a co-captain position with one of my SP g... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 21:38:14 EST 32 Days So the format on the SP start page has changed again. Maybe good, maybe bad, but forever moving in a new area. One of the things that keeps catching my eye with the new format is that it tells me every time how many consecutive days of exercise I've done. This morning it told me I was on my 32nd day... <BR> <BR> I was keeping track on my own, counting the days down on my kitchen calendar. So it's nice that someone else is doing the work for me, one more thing I can stop worrying about. BUT, ... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 07:06:02 EST Biggest Loser...? Biggest loser or biggest winner? You make the choice. <BR> <BR> I've been a part of The Biggest Loser Challenges for quite a while now. And I have to say that it has made all the difference in my life, how I look at myself, why I eat the way I do... <BR> <BR> The Biggest Loser Challenge (also known as the BLC) is a 12 week challenge that was INSPIRED by, but not based on the TV show of the same name. We have been around for 8+ years encouraging HEALTHY weight loss and fitness by helping you... Wed, 26 Nov 2014 15:19:09 EST Tools and resources I think that Sparkpeople has given me many tools and resources for my long and rocky journey towards a slimmer me. Also towards a healthier me, which is really what I'm after. <BR> <BR> But I think the best tool has been the SP teams I've been on, mainly the Biggest Loser Challenge, because it keeps me on my toes, and the Knee and Hip Replacement team, because they are all dealing with the same health issues that I am, so they understand my 'bad knee' days. <BR> <BR> Of course, the other t... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 06:52:10 EST WEC challenge 11/1 I'd say the time I showed the most strength, mentally and physically, was when I had stitches without anesthesia. I had had some reconstructive surgery done, but being the type of person I am, and considering where the surgery site was, I found it impossible to stay absolutely still for the healing to really take. Every day or so I could feel a stitch pop out. By the end of the week, I had to go back to the doc's office and he told me I had a choice of him doing the stitches there, without be... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 06:34:28 EST WEC thoughts Well, this WEC was about choosing our own road to success. A lot has been going on this weekend, this month, this entire season. And I may not have been paying as much attention to my food and exercise as I should. But this challenge has given me a few things to think about. <BR> <BR> The aspects of the challenge that I have been consistently good on are sleeping, which is a necessity for me, water intake, freggies (altho' I tend to eat more fruit and less veggies some days), at least 20 min... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 06:45:48 EST Interim weeks Well, what can I say: these interim weeks could have gone better, but they could have gone much worse, too. It's been stressful, and I spent a lot of time eating my feelings. (Hey, I really like that expression, which I just heard today...) But I have kept up with my Spark friends, and I have kept up with my exercise. So while I haven't gone forward, I haven't really gone backwards, either. I am looking forward to the new challenge, which starts in two days. I know myself well enough to know ... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 17:05:45 EST Sept My small goal for the month of September is to get my eating back on track. Notice I said back on track, and didn't choose to say I will control my eating. Good intake is not something to be wrestled to the ground, like a wild animal, something to be controlled. It's like a friend that you gently want to lead back to the correct path. After all, food is my friend, right? And not my enemy. <BR> <BR> Many reasons why my food choices haven't been the best: both Ed & I are experiencing job issue... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 07:41:04 EST Tues Well, it's been a different sort of day here. Back to work after more than 2 weeks off for vacation. Had to do a route, which I did slowly so I didn't mess up my knee again. Waiting for Ed to get home because we're supposed to help buy the dry wall and beams we need to start working on the bathroom, after a week of it being torn apart. (Don't even get me started about having the pee in the woods behind the house!) And just found out from older son that younger son broke up with his girlfriend... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 16:13:03 EST 8/5 Everything I've learned the past year? It can all be put down to a few words: I'm stronger than I think I am. And I can almost always push myself a little bit more. <BR> <BR> I've had a tough year... my mom died, my cat died, I've gotten older, my younger son quit college, my older son got engaged, I've hurt my knee countless times, we've had endless insurance issues, and on and on. But I haven't thrown in the towel, haven't given up on SP, haven't give up on myself. One of the reasons is th... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 20:04:55 EST Hello... Hello, my name is Rebecca and I am a sugar addict... <BR> <BR> Went to have my nails done at my friend's house and she offered cookies and zucchini bread, one of my faves. Our roomie brought home little pies and cookies from work. There is chocolate left over from the long trip to Maine. Ice cream in the fridge... <BR> <BR> But today I was strong; today I found things to do when I started to think of sugar; today was better than yesterday. And in reality, that is all I can ask for. Thu, 31 Jul 2014 20:18:48 EST July 18 My best experiences this round can be put into 2 words: determination and friendship. <BR> <BR> First off, even with all the distractions (health issues, insurance problems, new roomies, job frustrations, etc) I was determined to stick with the program, and I did. I did not lose as much weight as I would have liked, but I didn't throw in the towel, either. <BR> <BR> Second, the support of the friends I have made in this round, and previous BLC rounds, have proved immeasurable. Without the c... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 13:35:59 EST 7/7 Day one: no sugar... <BR> <BR> Day two: good girl <em>43</em> <BR> <BR> Day three: can I admit I'm only doing this so I can post a positive blog every day? <BR> <BR> Day four: ice cream but I kept it under control, and added a banana for luck... <em>468</em> Mon, 7 Jul 2014 20:07:39 EST Summer challenge My exercise challenge for the 5% team is to do a daily bootcamp or other SP exercise video, and to continue my daily walking. I am now up to 6300 steps per day. While I know that my slow form of walking isn't enough to get out of my current plateau, I feel that adding a daily SP exercise will help. <BR> <BR> <em>252</em> <em>311</em> <em>67</em> <em>362</em> Thu, 19 Jun 2014 08:03:09 EST 5/19/14 Two weird/different emotions happened to me today... <BR> <BR> One deals with a DD coupon I've had on my phone for a couple of weeks, a deal on a coolatta. I usually go for the coffee; after all, I am a Mocha Maniac. But the weather has been nice enough that I figured some fruity flavor would sit really nice. But before I drove myself over after work, I got the great idea to look up the calorie content. So I downloaded an app for Calorie King, which is a great tool that I used to use, back i... Mon, 19 May 2014 16:24:23 EST I was going to say... Feeling sort of blah today, and I suspect the reason is because I'm up half a pound from last week. I know it doesn't sound like much, but it's still going in the wrong direction. And I also acknowledge that since I hurt my knee five days ago, my exercise has been limited to slow walking and upper-body ST. <BR> <BR> So I was GOING to say that despite my best efforts, my weight has gone up. But that is not honest. Just looking at my food intake for the last few days, I know I haven't put for... Wed, 7 May 2014 06:43:54 EST BLC blog This is my blog for the BLC#25, about the fitness tests. I did 35 push-ups and 48 crunches in the allotted time. Not too bad for an old lady... Actually, I was surprised that I did that well, especially on the push-ups, but I guess it's true that you can build muscle even if you're still heavy with fat. I know I'm getting stronger all the time. <BR> <BR> As for the mile walk, which took me 37 minutes, slow even for me: hurt my right knee this past weekend, so I wasn't even sure I would be ab... Mon, 5 May 2014 15:25:39 EST A perfect storm of food... Yesterday was a really bad food day for me. I got caught in 3 old traps: social eating, free food, and impending snow storm, which we ALL know could leave me trapped in my home for weeks at a time with no food, much less any good food. <BR> <BR> I feel very frustrated this morning. For one thing, my weight is up ~ frustrated but not surprised about this one. For another, I feel that I should have moved past these issues a long time ago. Yes, we have a house guest for an unspecified amount of... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 06:58:36 EST No, thank you... Ok, so I'm one week into the new challenge, and my weight is actually creeping up instead of down. So I've looked back at the last few weeks, and noticed that sugar has made a big-time comeback into my life. That is sort of disappointing after I did so well with the sugar-free challenge I set for myself a few months ago. <BR> <BR> But I've also looked back and remembered the time and place of these sugar bombs... and most of the time, they were 'extra' food circumstances. A piece of cake at... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 07:42:01 EST 1/21 Just finished the Good Belly Reboot challenge. Not that I have a lot wrong with my digestive system ~ just wondered if I'd learn anything new. And I did, because there were a lot of articles I was directed to along the way. But the most important thing I learned is that the ONLY time I have tummy troubles is when I eat too much... <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> Tue, 21 Jan 2014 17:55:32 EST BLC Ok, I finally did the goal-setting worksheets. Can't say they were a lot of fun, but they did make me think... <BR> <BR> My goal for this challenge is to lose 8 pounds. Doesn't sound like a lot, but considering how long I've been losing and regaining the same five pounds, I know it will take some work, some different ideas and inspiration. <BR> <BR> So, my goal is realistic, at a pound a week. And my reasons are that I want to live a long, healthy life. Also, less weight would mean less pai... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 08:19:03 EST 4 out of 7 Four out of seven doesn't sound like much ~ it's barely half of what I had hoped to accomplish... <BR> <BR> Started a new journal this year, and it has a space for weekly notes. So I decided to set a weekly goal for myself throughout the entire year. And last week's goal was to declutter one thing out of every room in my house for an entire week. Well, I made it four out of seven days. <BR> <BR> I can look at this as having failed for 3 days... even though I did declutter those days, it wa... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 08:15:02 EST 12/26 Today is my 2nd Spark-aversary! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I woke up in the middle of the night, planning my day, knowing I would need to avoid all the holiday goodies that continue to surround me in all the places I go. Jumped to how I'm going to be very short on time today, due to extra duties at work and the pressing need to buy food for an upcoming party, plus necessities like bathroom stationery and cat food. So it will be tough to get a work-out in. Then I realized that I haven't had ... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 06:46:59 EST Interim plan Was on an emotional high yesterday: enough sleep, cat doing well, getting firmly into the holiday spirit. I had a lot to do, but was really feeling the good vibes. However, the day ended on a LOW note... <BR> <BR> With all the mall-walking we did, we didn't find much that caught my eye. I'm still worried about filling stockings and haven't bought the Santa gifts for my guys yet. Then I spent 45 minutes on-line with a MAJOR book retailor, ordering books that I couldn't find at their huge stor... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 06:50:38 EST Small lessons ~ This is my first season of actually watching The Biggest Loser on TV, due to various reasons. And I can admit that the only reason I started watching in the first place is because I've been involved with The SP Biggest Loser Challenge for quite a while now, and was hoping to get some insight. Now it seems that I learn a little bit of something with every show. <BR> <BR> Last night I learned that you have to give up your old life to really be able to commit to the new one you hope to have. Ji... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 06:11:40 EST BMI Just charted my BMI, via SP, and it said I'm at 36.4. That is considered obese. I've never really thought of myself that way... <BR> <BR> The article also said that you’re at your ideal body weight when: <BR> Your weight isn’t causing (or putting you at risk for) any health problems <BR> Your weight doesn't limit you from living the life you want <BR> You can accept your body as it is, without feeling uncomfortably self-conscious <BR> You can enjoy being in your own skin, without... Tue, 19 Nov 2013 15:35:59 EST I swallowed, but I will not WALLOW... I fell off the no-added-sugar wagon last night. I opened the fridge and unthinkingly took a couple of slugs of Nick's rootbeer. The can right was in front of me and even though I'm not a big rootbeer fan, it was open and I picked it up. The 2nd sip got halfway into my mouth before I realized what I was doing.. <BR> <BR> This brings up a lot of interesting issues. How many times a day do we, meaning me, but maybe some others, put food or drink into our mouths without thinking about it. How ma... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 06:37:12 EST Cookies again... Cookies and browning and apple cake... oh my!! Had the monthly women's group meeting last night, and those are the treats I was tempted with. It's like a mini dessert buffet every time we get together. But I held it together, and had some cheese and crackers, and apple cider, which I know has sugar, but less than if I had some coffee. Plus I watered it down. (And I couldn't eat apple cake and pretend it was good for me because it had fruit in it, like I used to do...) ... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 08:00:35 EST Cookies... Passing up the candy corn at work today was easy ~ I don't care for it anyway and haven't eaten any in years. Passing up the homemade oatmeal raisins cookies was much tougher. They're my favorite, and I could eat them every day. One way I coped was to tell the construction guys, as I passed them out, that I was going sugar-free until turkey day. No way I would embarrass myself in front of them by going back on my word... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 15:08:27 EST No added sugar challenge Well, this one is going to be tougher than I first thought. One meal in, and I'm already having to make decisions. My SP page asked for cream of wheat, which I detest, so I sought to change it to oatmeal, which is what I usually do. Two kinds of oatmeal in the pantry, and both have 9 grams of sugar... Looked at the 2 boxes of granola bars, also a staple in this house, and they were even worse: 16 grams of added sugar! Yikes. So I had Triscuits instead. SP requested apple juice, which I don't ... Mon, 11 Nov 2013 08:31:11 EST The Biggest Loser THE BIGGEST LOSER: Can't believe that Ruben was sent home last night! He is so big, and seemed to work so hard. His spirit was true, and I figured the percentages would be in his favor. But I guess it only goes to show that sometimes you can work your butt off and the scale doesn't want to budge. <BR> <BR> This has been an almost 2-year journey for me. I really thought I'd be further along than I am. Seems that I put in the effort, follow the meal plan as best I can, and I KNOW I exercise a... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 06:32:24 EST