BEAUTY_WITHIN's SparkPeople Blog BEAUTY_WITHIN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The Park! I took my 2.5 year old to the park today. I made myself run. And climb. and jump. It was hard work!! But fun. Boy did I work up a sweat! No wonder kids are so skinny!! And they do have more energy. Probably because they use more. Its kind of like my milk supply (I'm nursing) The less I nurse, the less milk I make. The less energy I use, the less my body makes. It's all supply, and demand. I had a good day. And my son was delighted. I want to be able to do this more wirh him and his bro... Fri, 25 Sep 2015 18:16:49 EST Tracking climbing at the mcds play place I am sore! My 2.5 year old dragged me up the tunnels in the play place! I remember them being so much bigger! Of course, I was much smaller. But boy, is that a workout! ! I love watching him become braver and more adventurous! Wed, 23 Sep 2015 19:21:13 EST Tracking when you're sick How do you track food if you puke? Sorry for the gross question, but I had denny's today, and it didn't sit well. So I don't know what to do. Any ideas? Thankfully, I am feeling better now! Today is just not going as planned. <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> Sat, 12 Sep 2015 21:49:46 EST I'm a whale :_( I am so mortified and humiliated. I was, at McDonald's in Navy Pier today. I know, not healthy, but it was fast and cheap. I went to sit at one of those tables where the damn chairs are bolted to the floor (who the hell invented those, anyway??) and I didn't fit. Normally they're not exactly comfortable, but this one I didn't fit at all. To add insult to injury, I moved to another table, which was also like that (most of them were) and while I fit there, when I went to get out, I found... Wed, 9 Sep 2015 20:31:43 EST Planned food So for once today, I remembered to actually plan most of my food. And what I didn't plan, I tracked right away, so that way I was able to make adjustments for what I was going to have later. I've got the hamburger and chips and dip and strawberries already tracked. Chris is cooking, and they smell SOOO good. <BR> I hope you all had a great Labor Day! <BR> <em>67</em> <BR> Mon, 7 Sep 2015 20:18:40 EST Shopping, and lonely So I went shopping today for some new clothes, as my tops are fitting a big loosely. (yea!) I only got 2 things, partly because I didn't have alot of time, and partly because I'm not QUITE in a lower size yet. I'm getting there. So clothing shopping is still a bit depressing. I'm pretty critical, especially of my belly. I know I am, but it's so hard not to be. <BR> <BR> I have not been planning my food well enough, and I'm finding that while most of my choices are at least decent, I ... Sat, 5 Sep 2015 00:31:58 EST Warning: Whine ahead. I have a toothache. A bad one. And worse, it's gotten infected. I've been talking to my dentist, who prescribed an antibiotic, which I started today. My lower left jaw is swollen and achy. I have a tooth that needs pulling, but I have to wait till the 12th for that, because I have no one to watch the kids for that long during the week. <BR> <BR> I'm not in as much pain as I was yesterday (OMG, that was AWFUL!), so that's good. Honestly, I don't think I would have gotten any sleep if ... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 19:58:49 EST A glimpse of the future <img src=""> Today was my belly dancing class. There are, of course, full length mirrors on the front wall I realized during class today, I never watch myself dance, only the teacher. So I watched. I managed to correct some technical issues, and I had a great class. The other thing that happened as I watched myself is that I, saw a glimpse of where I was heading. I saw that instead of having "no butt" like I ke... Sat, 29 Aug 2015 23:18:27 EST NSV and a goof up So my favorite pants are too big! Yea! <em>224</em> So I spent this morning looking for pants I could wear. Apparently, the last time I lost weight, I must have lost at different intervals, because I had a bunch of pants that I just don't QUITE fit, and only one or 2 that I do fit. So I have to go shopping. Guess I have to hit the resale shops, and I need better shoes. <BR> <BR> I have been walking a TON! I'm walking 2 + miles a day, for at least 3 weeks now! I load up the boys... Tue, 25 Aug 2015 21:37:11 EST Tonight's tired review I'm tired. It's 9:15, but both my boys are still awake. Fitness was good, food was alright. My lunch was atrocious. 800 calories. Ick. So I managed to rebound for dinner, which was good. I SO have the munchies right now, which is why I'm sitting here blogging and playing on Spark. :) I've had to up how much soy I've had though, because my seizures are acting up a little bit. I tend to not "count" that when it's actually necessary, because I don't really get a choice in having that ... Sat, 22 Aug 2015 22:24:38 EST About bedtime Today was a good day. My oldest son is a bundle of energy. It's getting a little easier to keep up with him. My seizures have been hard to deal with lately though, but my hubby has been a big help keeping me on track with my food. Even if I don't want him to in the moment. LOL. <em>4</em> <BR> Water is going pretty well, same with tea. :) Did lots of walking today. I need to work out how I'm going to do this in the winter, I'd miss it, I think. <BR> Have a good night! Wed, 19 Aug 2015 00:48:52 EST Fab fitness, sucky food Well, my exercise is going great. At least the cardio is. I'm rocking it. I just got a 1,000 minute award today! :D Strength training...not so great. I manage maybe 2 days a week. Need to work on that. <BR> <BR> But the food. *sighs* I SUCK. I just do not seem to be able to get that under control to save my life. Every time I think I've done well, I track, and then find, nope, not so much. I always mean to track first, and never seem to be able to. I have such a hard time gettin... Mon, 17 Aug 2015 23:36:30 EST The scale is stuck I'm frustrated. The scale hasn't been moving in a while, despite lots of activity. I just want the number to go DOWN. I need to start doing my measurements. I haven't done that since the pregnancy. I'm just tired of being this big. On the good side, I decided that I didn't want to spend 500 calories on a slice of pie, even if I do have room for it. Thu, 13 Aug 2015 23:42:51 EST My poor baby We took my 2 mo old for his doctor appointment today. He had 3 vaccines today. He took a good nap afterwords, and now he won't stop screaming. He's been so fussy, and if you touch it he cries. Poor thing. I've gotten him to sleep a little, thankfully. Right now hubby swaddled him and is taking him for a walk. I hope that gets him to sleep. I hate doing the vaccines. I always worry that I'm doing the right thing giving them to him. N ate never cried like this after his vaccines, but ... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 19:17:50 EST New normal So my hubby has been out of work for some time, and I've been working on my own without much luck for a while. So last Monday, we decided that we would alternate weeks working on our respective stuff. The ther one of us had the boys. We walked together as a family every morning, then picked the other parent up a a family too. Ut's been nice. I'm tired. I'v been walking between 2 & 4 miles a day. I love the new routine! I want to find a way to continue it when Chris is working a 9-5 a... Thu, 30 Jul 2015 16:14:55 EST oh my... Ok, I blew it today. I haven't had this poor of a calorie day in a while. It was mostly just a few poor choices. Oh well. Tomorrow is a new day. Sat, 25 Jul 2015 00:32:04 EST What a scary night I am a freelance web and graphic designer. Many of my clients, and potential clients, are on my facebook page. I may not know them well, but we all talk occasionally. <BR> <BR> Tonight, one of my former clients posted about how he was "done" and was "saying goodbye for good". This of course, alarmed me and some of his other friends. I managed to reach him by messenger, and he told me point blank that he intended to end his life. I managed to keep him talking. I tried to call him, havin... Fri, 17 Jul 2015 22:58:41 EST I so want dessert I have 9 calories left to my high end. I am so craving dessert right now. I want a banana split. We have all the bits for it. But I don't have the calories for it. Doesn't seem to matter. I'm having a hard time mastering this tonight. I don't know why I always crave something sweet after a meal. It's annoying. Thu, 16 Jul 2015 00:16:28 EST Had a pretty great day We took the boys to the museum today! I am pooped! We walked nearly 4 miles today, and I ate really well. Snack of fruit, lunch of cod, asparagus, and mac & cheese. Hubby is making homemade spinach & mushroom pizza for dinner. Yum! <BR> <BR> Hope you all had a wonderful day. I'm looking forward to my belly dancing class tomorrow, for the first time in AAAAAGGGEEESSS!!!! Yea!!! <em>224</em> Fri, 10 Jul 2015 22:36:03 EST Seriously creeped out and insulted My insurance company's nutrition department has been trying to reach me. Considering I have no interest in it, I haven't been returning their calls. I don't have time. So today when I was out with my husband, someone from my insurance showed up at my DOOR and handed my housemates a letter requesting I contact them. I am so creeped out by that! <BR> <BR> So I finally called them today, amid the chaos of two small children screeching and crying and running around. Their reason for houndin... Thu, 9 Jul 2015 18:08:02 EST I want a banana split I'm crabby and hot and nursing a baby who thinks its helpful to unlatch every minute or so and scream because we aren't latched. And we have the bits for a split. But I don't have the calories for it. I'm trying really hard to care about that right now. Our ac died last night. Thank goodness we had a replacement in the attic that we put in the window, but it's nowhere near as strong as our old one. We also don't really have the money to replace it. So, I'm crabby. It's cooler than it was... Tue, 7 Jul 2015 00:42:31 EST Long day <img src=""> So, we went to mom's today. This time for the 4th. I am so worn out. Getting everyone ready and fed and to the bathroom was such a pain. And I get to do it all over tomorrow. If it weren't for the fact that it's my husband's family and he hasn't seen them in, awhile, I would love to insist we stay in the area. I didn't eat too well. I've been drinking alot of my calories. The actual meals, aren't b... Sun, 5 Jul 2015 00:49:46 EST My day Today was a busy day. Mostly busy with the kids. If you asked me exactly what I did, there's not a whole lot I could say. I nursed a lot. Did some yoga, and a little strength training. I am so out of practice in that regard. 2 sets of 12 squats used to be nothing. Now? That's hard! :( Oh well. I'll get there again. I was proud of myself today. I managed to get all of my freggies in. And my water. I'm thinking of taking my son to the park tomorrow. It's supposed to be nice out, so may... Thu, 2 Jul 2015 00:49:58 EST It's so good to be back. So I had my first checkup with the ob, and I've been given the ok to go back to light exercise, so I've been walking and doing yoga. I did some yoga that focused on core wore yesterday, and boy, I'm weAK as a kitten! But I did what I could, and finished with a nice muscle ache. I was very proud of myself. I'love do some tonight before bed too. <BR> With the nursing and the extra water I've been drinking, the weight is practically melting off. I'm down to 220 from 253 before We... Sun, 21 Jun 2015 23:32:11 EST Hi everyone! I'm back! My son is 2.5 weeks old now! He was born via emergency/scheduled c-section. I say it that way, because I ended up going in for a routine ultrasound at 39 weeks & 1 day. They ended up finding that my placenta had grown over my cervix, which meant that there was no way I could have safely delivered without a c-section. It also meant that since I was term, they had me stay that day and did the cesarean that evening. <BR> I REALLY had wanted to not have another cesarean, but it ... Mon, 15 Jun 2015 21:24:52 EST I always forget... how MUCH FOOD you can actually eat when you eat healthily! We haven't been grocery shopping in awhile, so the good stuff was pretty much gone. And no one much felt like cooking. Well, I cooked today. An omlette for breakfast & fruit, a salad for lunch. I made soup to go with it, but I think the soup will have to be reheated. I'm pretty much good with what I had. <BR> The fresh fruit & veggies are SO yummy! I'm 37 weeks this past Thursday, so I'm gonna start adding Dates to my diet, wh... Sat, 16 May 2015 17:23:16 EST Families At this point I'm 35 weeks pregnant. I started the pregnancy at about 231. At my checkup last week I'm up to 244. I didn't loose the weight like I did with Nate, much to my disappointment. I'm trying to eat well, and stay active, but it's been really hard. :( <BR> <BR> So for some reason, my mom thinks it's helpful to be all "Oh, maybe after you have this baby you can start eating better and healthier, since you didn't loose weight with Nate and now you're getting bigger with this b... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 14:24:27 EST So so so so tired Not sleepy, mind you. But i'm just so worn out. I decided to walk to the CVS and back today with hubby. Normally I took the bus. It's about 3/4 of a mile one way. Oh my gosh. I am So tired and hurting so much. The baby keeps sitting on my siatic nerve. It hurts so bad. Then I've got braxton hicks going, and my bad tooth. The only thing i can take this late in the pregnancy is Extra Strength Tylenol. It works when it wants to. Which isn't too often. <BR> <BR> And my poor hubby ... Sun, 26 Apr 2015 20:58:29 EST grr argh I will not loose my temper. I will not loose my temper. I will not loose my temper..... <em>18</em> <BR> <BR> I am so aggrevated with my in-laws. And it's been so many little things lately, and I'm trying so hard to not loose my temper with them, because it only ever causes a fight. <BR> <BR> The latest thing is my poor cat. He's 17. He tends to not pee in his litter box, which is of course, gross. There's not really anything that can be done about it. So he's generally stuck ... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 19:40:44 EST Feeling proud of myself! I have been so busy lately! I did the math and realized I've got 3 weeks till Wesley is considered early full term, which is when my first son was born. Yikes! We have SO much to do still! <BR> I have been noticing that my eating has not been where it should be, and due to feeling huge, and very tired, I haven't been as active as I have in the past. I've been overdoing it on the carbs and sugar. I paid attention to that today. I had lunch at Starbucks, along with my green tea latte (w... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 15:14:49 EST Wow, it's been a month?? <em>524</em> <BR> I didn't realize it'd been so long since I wrote. I've mostly been on my phone or tablet, and I can't for the life of me figure out how to write a blog on those. I've tried. it doesn't seem to work. Do any of you know? <em>38</em> <BR> <BR> So I'm officially in my 8th month! Wesley Michole is due June 4th. Kind of amazing how fast it's gone, in some regards. I've done well on the weight gain, I'm 238, which is only 7 lbs from where I started. It's a little d... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 15:46:18 EST I hate being sick I've officially got Nate's cold. And I'm miserable. My head is congested, i can't talk much without coughing continually, my head hurts, and I'm SOOO tired. Chris' first day of work was today, and I haven't been this grateful for my in-laws in a long time. <BR> <BR> I napped when Nate did, and mostly I've been able to just relax cause my mother-in-law was entertaining the energizer toddler. :D I haven't napped again yet, cause I wanted to be able to get up and help with Nate if I need... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 19:41:36 EST One day at a time Don't really know what to talk about today, so this will be random I guess. I've been really overwhelmed lately. I'm starting the third trimester, so I know that's part of the problem. I feel like I change alot during this trimester, emotionally, and I did with Nate too. So that means things in my head are all weird. I never have the words to describe it; I guess I'm figuring out how being Wesley's mom integrates with the other parts of me. I don't know if that makes sense. <BR> <BR>... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 22:57:48 EST Hi all! Hi everyone! Sorry I've been MIA. I've been here, just not saying much. I've been so worn out and done by about 6pm every night, no matter what I do or don't do. Between having a very hyper toddler, growing a baby, and trying to do my own work, I'm so tired. <BR> I'm officially 26 weeks! I'm almost in the 3rd trimester! Hubby and I have been discussing what we want to do differently with Wesley than we did with Nate as a newborn. The biggest of those things would be my nursing. I me... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 19:42:02 EST Very nice day! Hi Everyone! I'm having a really nice day over here! We are all in the process of moving a family member into a new bedroom, as well as creating a nursery in our room for the arrival of little Wesley. All have this has meant that there have been old clothes of Nate's to pull out and wash, furniture to move, boxes to pack and unpack, and lots and lots of planning. <BR> We've had a REALLY busy day today! We got the last of the Christmas <em>442</em> stuff up in the attic (Yes, I know... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 21:44:13 EST Snow day! It is seriously snowing today! They're saying we are due for about 16 inches. That's a lot of snow! I managed to get my 1,000 minutes of exercise for January! I was doing about an hour a day for the last few days, but I managed. So this month I'm NOT going to let myself get down to the wire like that again. I have an hour's worth in today already. :D Between walking in the snow, and then SHOVELing it (Ugh, and you can't even tell we shoveled!) <BR> Food has been pretty good, I've b... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 17:50:14 EST vent ahead I am really aggrevated. I have epilepsy. Had it since I was 9. My husband has a chance at a job in Evanston, which is an hour and a half commute from here, so chances are after Wes is born and things sett <BR> W down again, we'd move out the way. For the most part, barring certain circumstances, my epilepsy is under good control. I'm very independent, and do well on my own with it. <BR> <BR> So today I mentioned the interview to my husband's aunt, and how if he got it, we'd p... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 12:56:36 EST I'm proud of myself! Lately I've struggled with everything health related. But I am on a roll today! <BR> I had a decent breakfast, great snacks, and an awesome lunch, and I splurged on a drink at Starbucks. They have treat receipts, where you bring back a reciept after 2pm, and get a pastry for $1. I looked over the selection, and decided to pass. <BR> Furthermore, I decided that I'm not getting anything for my husband. He's not feeling well. It occured to me, shouldn't I be getting him som... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 16:05:48 EST Mess of routine I have been really tired lately. Tired and sluggish. And I think I have my reason why! I just got my 250 minute award. That is really low for me, since it's the 17th! I didn't realize just how little activity I've been doing. I've been off here more than I've been on lately. I did at least an hours worth of cleaning today, so I'm pooped! That was good, but I need this to be a streak. Pregnancy is not when I should be stopping my routine! <BR> <BR> Oh, and we did the ult... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 18:46:39 EST worried, and trying to feed a picky eater I'm worried about my son. He's got a yeast infection. AGAIN. This is the 3rd or 4th time. His pediatrician says it's notoriously hard to get rid of. But it seems to me if the meds don't work, then there's a different problem. <BR> So we're trying to institute some different dietary stuff. The hard part is, at this point, all he'll eat at lunch/dinner is mac & cheese, and spaghetti-os. *sighs* <BR> <BR> It doesn't help that we live with my inlaws, and all they eat is processed crap... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 15:36:57 EST So worn out! I am so tired today. I have no idea why... which sucks. I had all these plans for today, and the idea of getting up to go to the washroom is tiring! <BR> <BR> Food has been pretty good the last few days. I gave myself yesterday as a rest day from running around. Today is supposed to be Strength training. Ugh. Can I just say how much I don't even want to TRY to do any??? I will manage at least 3 5 minute spurts tho; I promised I would. I just so don't want to! <BR> <BR> On the ... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 17:13:18 EST I need some help I am having a lot of trouble staying motivated. <em>33</em> I am going to make it a point to come here each day and check in. I may not be able to be actively trying to loose weight, but I can certainly work on eating well and staying active. This is a lifestyle, after all. And it's better for the baby. <BR> Everyone, would you mind helping me stay accountable? Please? <em>303</em> <BR> <BR> I've been doing well keeping the carb/calorie/protein/ ect ration under control, t... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 14:58:45 EST wow... I didn't realize how long it's been since I blogged! I didn't mean to go MIA, I've just been a bit of an introvert with this baby, it seems. <BR> Not a whole ton new. I'm officially in my 2nd trimester, and this baby is doing well. My weight is yoyoing, it seems. I'm hanging around the same 5lb range. I gain a few, I drop a few, I gain, I drop. But it's never very much of a fluctiation. This doctor says she doesn't mind if I loose weight during the pregnancy, as long as baby is ok. ... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 22:49:55 EST awful doctor So I had my day of doctors today. First the regular ob who said everything looked good, then my blood work (yuck) then I killed some time shopping, then the high risk doctor. The care protocol for this baby is going to be pretty similar to that of Nate. Lots of ultrasounds, lots of non-stress tests (which have to be the most boring tests in the world!) <BR> The high risk doctor was awful. In the beginning of the appointment, he asked if this was my first pregnancy. I said no, it was my ... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 20:51:09 EST HAPPY THANKSGIVING! Well, today did not go as planned. Plans with my husband's grandma fell through, and my mom had already made other plans. We were supposed to go to the Thanksgiving day parade, except my husband got sick last night & woke up feeling lousy. So now he's crashed on the couch. :( <BR> <BR> But I do have a lot to be thankful for. For one thing, today is the first day of the 2nd trimester! While that doesn't mean that nothing can go wrong, chances are very good now that the baby will be ok... Thu, 27 Nov 2014 14:02:29 EST sooo tired I forget how tired and emotionally worn out I get when I'm pregnant. I've been looking after Nate, and working on my etsy shop, and doing some web work. I'm just a weepy, sleepy mess. And it's so COLD outside! <em>425</em> with the windchill it's like -8. Ugh. <BR> <BR> I feel like I'm letting my son down, but I just can't keep up. Thank goodness I have help! My food has been pretty good today, except the fruit loops for breakfast. which I have determined I don't like anymore. I... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 18:12:31 EST Today's blog I haven't been blogging regularly, so I thought I'd write. I realized, from looking back at the blogs from when I was pregnant with Nate, I focused ALOT more on food. So I definitely want to change that. <BR> <BR> On that note: <BR> I have SUCKED on the fruit & veggie front lately. Today, I've had 1 serving of veggies. That's it. I haven't had supper yet, so I'll be sure to have something with that. <BR> <BR> Water - I've done very well. I have 8 glasses today, and did yesterday as ... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 22:04:35 EST The Hot Chocolate Run It was awesome. I had originally set my goal for this to be the first 5k I entirely ran. However, between a sore foot, and getting pregnant again, I didn't train much. Oh well. I ended up in the walk section, that took a different route. At first I was really disappointed about this. But I jogged some at the beginning and end, and did a brisk walk the rest of the way. I kept worrying I'd be last in line, but there were a few places I could look back and see a long stream of people behind... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 11:19:02 EST Hot Chocolate Run This is the first race I wanted to run, a couple of years ago with Hot_Momma_13. We haven't made it yes, and my goal for this race is different than I wanted it to be. I wanted it to be the first race I ever ran entirely. Sadly, this won't be the case. Between the hurt foot, and the pregnancy, I haven't been able to train like I wanted to. But I will run what I can handle running, and that will give me a good benchmark to continue to work through. I'm sitting here waiting for my eggs t... Sat, 8 Nov 2014 21:02:02 EST Very introspective lately I haven't been on much lately except to track. I seem to be very my head, if that makes sense. I haven't felt the urge to really connect with people outside of the house lately. I'm sorry I've dissapeared lately. I just don't have a whole lot to say. <BR> Part of it is I'm trying to through the first trimester, and not worry too much about the baby. Which, I've seen a few times on ultrasound, with a good strong heartbeat! Yea! <BR> I don't what the rest of it is. I just hav... Fri, 7 Nov 2014 21:47:31 EST