BEAUTY_WITHIN's SparkPeople Blog BEAUTY_WITHIN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I always forget... how MUCH FOOD you can actually eat when you eat healthily! We haven't been grocery shopping in awhile, so the good stuff was pretty much gone. And no one much felt like cooking. Well, I cooked today. An omlette for breakfast & fruit, a salad for lunch. I made soup to go with it, but I think the soup will have to be reheated. I'm pretty much good with what I had. <BR> The fresh fruit & veggies are SO yummy! I'm 37 weeks this past Thursday, so I'm gonna start adding Dates to my diet, wh... Sat, 16 May 2015 17:23:16 EST Families At this point I'm 35 weeks pregnant. I started the pregnancy at about 231. At my checkup last week I'm up to 244. I didn't loose the weight like I did with Nate, much to my disappointment. I'm trying to eat well, and stay active, but it's been really hard. :( <BR> <BR> So for some reason, my mom thinks it's helpful to be all "Oh, maybe after you have this baby you can start eating better and healthier, since you didn't loose weight with Nate and now you're getting bigger with this b... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 14:24:27 EST So so so so tired Not sleepy, mind you. But i'm just so worn out. I decided to walk to the CVS and back today with hubby. Normally I took the bus. It's about 3/4 of a mile one way. Oh my gosh. I am So tired and hurting so much. The baby keeps sitting on my siatic nerve. It hurts so bad. Then I've got braxton hicks going, and my bad tooth. The only thing i can take this late in the pregnancy is Extra Strength Tylenol. It works when it wants to. Which isn't too often. <BR> <BR> And my poor hubby ... Sun, 26 Apr 2015 20:58:29 EST grr argh I will not loose my temper. I will not loose my temper. I will not loose my temper..... <em>18</em> <BR> <BR> I am so aggrevated with my in-laws. And it's been so many little things lately, and I'm trying so hard to not loose my temper with them, because it only ever causes a fight. <BR> <BR> The latest thing is my poor cat. He's 17. He tends to not pee in his litter box, which is of course, gross. There's not really anything that can be done about it. So he's generally stuck ... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 19:40:44 EST Feeling proud of myself! I have been so busy lately! I did the math and realized I've got 3 weeks till Wesley is considered early full term, which is when my first son was born. Yikes! We have SO much to do still! <BR> I have been noticing that my eating has not been where it should be, and due to feeling huge, and very tired, I haven't been as active as I have in the past. I've been overdoing it on the carbs and sugar. I paid attention to that today. I had lunch at Starbucks, along with my green tea latte (w... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 15:14:49 EST Wow, it's been a month?? <em>524</em> <BR> I didn't realize it'd been so long since I wrote. I've mostly been on my phone or tablet, and I can't for the life of me figure out how to write a blog on those. I've tried. it doesn't seem to work. Do any of you know? <em>38</em> <BR> <BR> So I'm officially in my 8th month! Wesley Michole is due June 4th. Kind of amazing how fast it's gone, in some regards. I've done well on the weight gain, I'm 238, which is only 7 lbs from where I started. It's a little d... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 15:46:18 EST I hate being sick I've officially got Nate's cold. And I'm miserable. My head is congested, i can't talk much without coughing continually, my head hurts, and I'm SOOO tired. Chris' first day of work was today, and I haven't been this grateful for my in-laws in a long time. <BR> <BR> I napped when Nate did, and mostly I've been able to just relax cause my mother-in-law was entertaining the energizer toddler. :D I haven't napped again yet, cause I wanted to be able to get up and help with Nate if I need... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 19:41:36 EST One day at a time Don't really know what to talk about today, so this will be random I guess. I've been really overwhelmed lately. I'm starting the third trimester, so I know that's part of the problem. I feel like I change alot during this trimester, emotionally, and I did with Nate too. So that means things in my head are all weird. I never have the words to describe it; I guess I'm figuring out how being Wesley's mom integrates with the other parts of me. I don't know if that makes sense. <BR> <BR>... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 22:57:48 EST Hi all! Hi everyone! Sorry I've been MIA. I've been here, just not saying much. I've been so worn out and done by about 6pm every night, no matter what I do or don't do. Between having a very hyper toddler, growing a baby, and trying to do my own work, I'm so tired. <BR> I'm officially 26 weeks! I'm almost in the 3rd trimester! Hubby and I have been discussing what we want to do differently with Wesley than we did with Nate as a newborn. The biggest of those things would be my nursing. I me... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 19:42:02 EST Very nice day! Hi Everyone! I'm having a really nice day over here! We are all in the process of moving a family member into a new bedroom, as well as creating a nursery in our room for the arrival of little Wesley. All have this has meant that there have been old clothes of Nate's to pull out and wash, furniture to move, boxes to pack and unpack, and lots and lots of planning. <BR> We've had a REALLY busy day today! We got the last of the Christmas <em>442</em> stuff up in the attic (Yes, I know... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 21:44:13 EST Snow day! It is seriously snowing today! They're saying we are due for about 16 inches. That's a lot of snow! I managed to get my 1,000 minutes of exercise for January! I was doing about an hour a day for the last few days, but I managed. So this month I'm NOT going to let myself get down to the wire like that again. I have an hour's worth in today already. :D Between walking in the snow, and then SHOVELing it (Ugh, and you can't even tell we shoveled!) <BR> Food has been pretty good, I've b... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 17:50:14 EST vent ahead I am really aggrevated. I have epilepsy. Had it since I was 9. My husband has a chance at a job in Evanston, which is an hour and a half commute from here, so chances are after Wes is born and things sett <BR> W down again, we'd move out the way. For the most part, barring certain circumstances, my epilepsy is under good control. I'm very independent, and do well on my own with it. <BR> <BR> So today I mentioned the interview to my husband's aunt, and how if he got it, we'd p... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 12:56:36 EST I'm proud of myself! Lately I've struggled with everything health related. But I am on a roll today! <BR> I had a decent breakfast, great snacks, and an awesome lunch, and I splurged on a drink at Starbucks. They have treat receipts, where you bring back a reciept after 2pm, and get a pastry for $1. I looked over the selection, and decided to pass. <BR> Furthermore, I decided that I'm not getting anything for my husband. He's not feeling well. It occured to me, shouldn't I be getting him som... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 16:05:48 EST Mess of routine I have been really tired lately. Tired and sluggish. And I think I have my reason why! I just got my 250 minute award. That is really low for me, since it's the 17th! I didn't realize just how little activity I've been doing. I've been off here more than I've been on lately. I did at least an hours worth of cleaning today, so I'm pooped! That was good, but I need this to be a streak. Pregnancy is not when I should be stopping my routine! <BR> <BR> Oh, and we did the ult... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 18:46:39 EST worried, and trying to feed a picky eater I'm worried about my son. He's got a yeast infection. AGAIN. This is the 3rd or 4th time. His pediatrician says it's notoriously hard to get rid of. But it seems to me if the meds don't work, then there's a different problem. <BR> So we're trying to institute some different dietary stuff. The hard part is, at this point, all he'll eat at lunch/dinner is mac & cheese, and spaghetti-os. *sighs* <BR> <BR> It doesn't help that we live with my inlaws, and all they eat is processed crap... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 15:36:57 EST So worn out! I am so tired today. I have no idea why... which sucks. I had all these plans for today, and the idea of getting up to go to the washroom is tiring! <BR> <BR> Food has been pretty good the last few days. I gave myself yesterday as a rest day from running around. Today is supposed to be Strength training. Ugh. Can I just say how much I don't even want to TRY to do any??? I will manage at least 3 5 minute spurts tho; I promised I would. I just so don't want to! <BR> <BR> On the ... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 17:13:18 EST I need some help I am having a lot of trouble staying motivated. <em>33</em> I am going to make it a point to come here each day and check in. I may not be able to be actively trying to loose weight, but I can certainly work on eating well and staying active. This is a lifestyle, after all. And it's better for the baby. <BR> Everyone, would you mind helping me stay accountable? Please? <em>303</em> <BR> <BR> I've been doing well keeping the carb/calorie/protein/ ect ration under control, t... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 14:58:45 EST wow... I didn't realize how long it's been since I blogged! I didn't mean to go MIA, I've just been a bit of an introvert with this baby, it seems. <BR> Not a whole ton new. I'm officially in my 2nd trimester, and this baby is doing well. My weight is yoyoing, it seems. I'm hanging around the same 5lb range. I gain a few, I drop a few, I gain, I drop. But it's never very much of a fluctiation. This doctor says she doesn't mind if I loose weight during the pregnancy, as long as baby is ok. ... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 22:49:55 EST awful doctor So I had my day of doctors today. First the regular ob who said everything looked good, then my blood work (yuck) then I killed some time shopping, then the high risk doctor. The care protocol for this baby is going to be pretty similar to that of Nate. Lots of ultrasounds, lots of non-stress tests (which have to be the most boring tests in the world!) <BR> The high risk doctor was awful. In the beginning of the appointment, he asked if this was my first pregnancy. I said no, it was my ... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 20:51:09 EST HAPPY THANKSGIVING! Well, today did not go as planned. Plans with my husband's grandma fell through, and my mom had already made other plans. We were supposed to go to the Thanksgiving day parade, except my husband got sick last night & woke up feeling lousy. So now he's crashed on the couch. :( <BR> <BR> But I do have a lot to be thankful for. For one thing, today is the first day of the 2nd trimester! While that doesn't mean that nothing can go wrong, chances are very good now that the baby will be ok... Thu, 27 Nov 2014 14:02:29 EST sooo tired I forget how tired and emotionally worn out I get when I'm pregnant. I've been looking after Nate, and working on my etsy shop, and doing some web work. I'm just a weepy, sleepy mess. And it's so COLD outside! <em>425</em> with the windchill it's like -8. Ugh. <BR> <BR> I feel like I'm letting my son down, but I just can't keep up. Thank goodness I have help! My food has been pretty good today, except the fruit loops for breakfast. which I have determined I don't like anymore. I... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 18:12:31 EST Today's blog I haven't been blogging regularly, so I thought I'd write. I realized, from looking back at the blogs from when I was pregnant with Nate, I focused ALOT more on food. So I definitely want to change that. <BR> <BR> On that note: <BR> I have SUCKED on the fruit & veggie front lately. Today, I've had 1 serving of veggies. That's it. I haven't had supper yet, so I'll be sure to have something with that. <BR> <BR> Water - I've done very well. I have 8 glasses today, and did yesterday as ... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 22:04:35 EST The Hot Chocolate Run It was awesome. I had originally set my goal for this to be the first 5k I entirely ran. However, between a sore foot, and getting pregnant again, I didn't train much. Oh well. I ended up in the walk section, that took a different route. At first I was really disappointed about this. But I jogged some at the beginning and end, and did a brisk walk the rest of the way. I kept worrying I'd be last in line, but there were a few places I could look back and see a long stream of people behind... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 11:19:02 EST Hot Chocolate Run This is the first race I wanted to run, a couple of years ago with Hot_Momma_13. We haven't made it yes, and my goal for this race is different than I wanted it to be. I wanted it to be the first race I ever ran entirely. Sadly, this won't be the case. Between the hurt foot, and the pregnancy, I haven't been able to train like I wanted to. But I will run what I can handle running, and that will give me a good benchmark to continue to work through. I'm sitting here waiting for my eggs t... Sat, 8 Nov 2014 21:02:02 EST Very introspective lately I haven't been on much lately except to track. I seem to be very my head, if that makes sense. I haven't felt the urge to really connect with people outside of the house lately. I'm sorry I've dissapeared lately. I just don't have a whole lot to say. <BR> Part of it is I'm trying to through the first trimester, and not worry too much about the baby. Which, I've seen a few times on ultrasound, with a good strong heartbeat! Yea! <BR> I don't what the rest of it is. I just hav... Fri, 7 Nov 2014 21:47:31 EST Well, shoot. Well, I WAS really proud of myself. And then I tracked. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I was proud for a few reasons. <BR> 1) I only had 1 poptart, instead of the 2 I normally have when I decide I want them. <BR> <BR> 2) I ordered a medium drink at Starbucks, instead of a large, hold the whip creme! <BR> <BR> 3) I opted for a greek yogurt with dried fruit, granola, and honey, instead of the pecan tart that was calling my name. <BR> <BR> I'm really proud of these choices! <em>243</em> ... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 18:36:15 EST Focusing on Food I have no restrictions on my activity levels, other than "listen to yourself" which I should be doing at all times anyway. But what I'm really going to focus on right now is my food. This baby is pickier than Nate was. I've served myself food so often, sat down only to go "No, I can't eat that". <BR> So this next week is going to be focusing on the healthiest food I can manage. First step is to make sure I'm getting my 5 servings of fruits and veggies, as I'm noticing a trend in my eati... Sat, 25 Oct 2014 23:41:02 EST What's been going on I know I'm not blogging much. There's been so much going on in my head, that I don't know where to start. I have been lax on my fitness. I think I'm barely at 500 minutes this month, and I'm not even sure I've gotten to that. Considering I normally top out at over 2,000, that's horrible for me. <BR> <BR> I'm afraid for this pregnancy. I'm afraid that I'll do too much or too little, or eat too much or too little and something will go wrong. I've hod no problems, but I'm worried anyway... Sun, 19 Oct 2014 20:14:24 EST Haven't been around much I've been dealing with alot of the same feelings I had when I was pregnant with Nate. I am eating constantly (When I don't feel sick, that is!) and it's hard to remember that I'm pregnant, not just slipping. I need to really focus on eating well. I've been wearing my pregnancy clothes simply because I need to FEEL the pregnancy. I need to feel what's going on with my body even if it's not showing yet. <BR> Otherwise I just get upset and want to restrict what I'm doing. <BR> Fitness ha... Fri, 10 Oct 2014 01:09:00 EST So lost I have my first appointment with my midwife tomorrow. And I'm glad. I keep worrying that I'm going to overdo it, but then I feel like I'm not doing enough. As for food, I go from not even REMOTELY hungry to "RAOR!!!! FEED ME NOW!!!!" in a matter of seconds. And of course then I look for food to eat and the idea of all of it makes me feel sick. <BR> *sighs* <BR> and I'll have plenty of energy and suddenly "yank" no energy! I can't win!!! First trimester is hard. There's so much goi... Sun, 5 Oct 2014 19:59:52 EST From sad to happy As I've said in previous posts, this is the month my baby would have been born. She was due in September. Well, obviously, she didn't make it. <BR> HOWEVER. <BR> I'M PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!1 <em>79</em> .......... <em>236</em> I just tested positive yesterday! So I guess I'm back off the weight loss bandwagon. I'm going to continue tracking, however. It's a good way of telling what I'm eating and what I am lacking still. <BR> I thought I would be terrified when I got pregnant again tha... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 14:05:26 EST An update I've had a very long few days! Computer problems, unexpected financial stuff, to name a few. Thankfully, things seem to be doing better and calmer. Tonight is date night. I'm so looking forward to some nice, quiet time with my husband. we're gonna cuddle up at watch Cool Runnings, which is new on Netflix. I haven't seen the movie in years. <BR> Sunday is the Alzheimer's Walk. It's a 5K at Montrose Harbor, and it's a pretty walk. I haven't raised NEARLY what I wanted to, only $100 ou... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 17:43:58 EST Sad September I'm not sure anyone will ever read this. But my head is so full I don't know what else to do. My baby was due today. The baby I lost. I was supposed to have had her today. And she died. I've been pretty depressed this month, and I'm sure that's at least most of it. My in-laws are convinced I'll conceive again this month. My MIL had a dream just before I announce my pregnancy with Nate that she was going to be a grandma to a baby boy. A week or so ago, she had the same dream, but it ... Sat, 20 Sep 2014 22:12:27 EST Weird question, please don't laugh I'm planning on going to lunch with my cousin in about an hour. I've had breakfast, and I'm out shopping. And I HAVE to eat. I've got a headache , my tummy hurts, generally just feeling yuck. So I'm eating. <BR> Problem is, I feel bad about it. Like I shouldn’t be eating because I'm planning on eating out in a little bit. I know where this comes from - I can almost hear my mom saying "and this is why you're so fat." I'm aware my body needs to eat, so I am, but I feel ashamed about it. An... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 13:24:44 EST My style is changing A few weeks ago, I posted pictures about an outfit that actually bared my midriff (gasp!). Today, I pulled out an old shirt that buttons, but gaps a little over my breasts. So instead of getting angry and frustrated like I normally would, I pulled out a tank top, put it underneath, then tied the shirt under my chest & tucked the tank into my pants. Everyone said I looked really good. I'm still stuck at 226, but that's ok. <em>236</em> <BR> <BR> My taste for sugar has been ebbing aw... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 14:53:52 EST So far so good! So I washed my shoes as per an article they found. So far so good. They came out NOT smelly, and they didn't fall apart. They are currently drying. I didn't want to risk the dryer, tho that article claimed I could dry them. Better safe than sorry. I'd rather not be able to wear them a few days than risk them being ruined. <BR> Food wise, I'm doing well. I'v only had a glass or 2 of water today, and I haven't done a whole lot. If my shoes are dry, I'll go running tonight. If not, I'... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 13:44:37 EST Vent I am SO frustrated, angry, and annoyed! <em>239</em> My cat peed in my new running shoes!!! They are completely ruined. And they reek to high heaven. Of course it's the ONLY thing he peed on. He couldn't have gone on like, my $5 flipflops. Oh no, it had to be my $60 running shoes. I can't really afford to replace them, but I don't have much of a choice. I didn't have the money to get JUST running shoes, so they also work as my everyday shoes. (Not good, I know, but it'll have to ... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 15:26:53 EST SO self-conscious today! I'm am feeling so self-conscious today. I'm dressing a bit outside of my comfort zone. I was shopping yesterday, and I got some cute shorts as a gift from my aunt (they're just a hair too big, maybe half a size or so), a midriff top that I really like (!) and some chunky heeled clogs. My husband thinks I look great. I'm REALLY self-conscious. I think I look good. I think...LOL. I feel like everyone's staring at me though logically I'm pretty sure they could give a hoot about what I'm w... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 15:19:47 EST weekend at mom's It's been a good weekend. We're going home tomorrow night. Once again she actually had something for me to have for lunch, and made a healthy dinner. I was even brave enough to go for a run after supper. I ran a mile of interval training. With HILLS!! I forgot there were bunny hills here. They aren't big, but they were hard to run! <BR> I came back to the house prepared for snide comments about how I did or didn't run. (Defensive, me??) And got handed a bottle of water and asked how m... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 22:31:16 EST sad My parents - my mom and my step dad - have been divorced since I was 15. Since then, I've had contact with my stepbrother, and only rarely my stepdad. It's been hard. I was "friends" with my stepdad on Facebook - till last night. Long story very short, my dad is very conservative, and I'm not. He posts alot of political stuff online, and I made the mistake of commenting on an article he posted. I had a very logical argument, and most of his friends conceded that I was correct, in regar... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 22:08:19 EST Down by 2! I'm down by 2 lbs! And a weird NSV - I noticed my shoulder area (?) looks trimmer....not 100% HOW it looked different, but it did. Maybe it was a little more muscle. Have you ever had that? You know something looks better & different, but you can't put your finger on what's changed? That was last night. <BR> <BR> At long last, the storm has broke, taking with it the humidity. It's 73 & GORGEOUS! It's about time. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Tue, 26 Aug 2014 15:56:33 EST I FINALLY got to run! It was finally cool enough for me to run today. I haven't been doing the couch to 5K challenge, but that's ok. There's a street by the house that's about a half mile stretch with a good hill. I've been using that as my training ground right now. It's a block away from the house, and a block away from the Starbucks I work at. So I walk the first block as my warm up, do my interval training for the half mile, then walk the last block home. That's the downhill half. I'm going to wait a we... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 01:14:27 EST An AWESOME derailment I had planned on going running this evening. Hubby had an unhappy tummy this afternoon so he took a nap when I was planning on originally running. Ok, no problem, I'll go in the evening; it'll be cooler anyway. So he got up, and I was chilling on the couch while he ate and got moving and everything. He was chatting with a friend on text while he ate. Turns out his friend had a free ticket to the Chicago Symphony Orchestra to go see a SOLD OUT performance of Final Fantasy. I went. I LOV... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 01:48:57 EST Frustration Today was an exercise in frustration. Crabby me, crabby Nate, too humid weather, plans fell through. I'm a bit bummed. Nothing went how I wanted. And the weather has been SO humid - 93% humidity, UGH. I don't dare run. I'm itching to, though. I've got a race to train for! <BR> I'm struggling with food. I don't know why. I just seem to be completely snacky lately, and we need to go grocery shopping. It seems like the food dissapears overnight, and there's usually more junk in the h... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 01:00:00 EST Me, a runner. So, today I WAY overate at dinner. It was SO good, but I felt so icky when I was done. I haven't done that in a LONG time. It was the biggest meal of the day, and it's the one that put me over. The rest of the day was pretty moderate. <BR> Today was supposed to be a running day, but I ran yesterday instead of Tuesday, so I didn't run today. I can't decide how to handle this. If I had run today, I would run again on Sunday, Sat being my off day. But if I don't run tomorrow, I won't ru... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 00:12:25 EST Disappointing run Well, I ran. Which I'm proud of. And I don't know if I didn't warm up well, or not, but it was not a good run. My tailbone was NOT happy. This isn't uncommon for me, and it's due to muscle weakness following an ancient injury. If I don't keep strengthening it, it flares up. <BR> Then my arches hurt. From the outside of my arch to the top of my heel. I'm not sure ]was going on. I'm thinking I didn't warm up properly. I'll try that on the next run day and see if it helps. Otherwise... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 20:20:29 EST No running today :( Running just didn't happen today. I'm disappointed. First it was too humid. Then the humidity broke, hooray! But that I had something weird that my tummy didn't like. It settled down and I had dinner, thinking I'd run after. Yea, by then it was pitch black out. BOOO. Oh well. I guess tomorrow's another day. But I'm supposed to go biking tomorrow...hmm, not sure how that'll work out. <BR> I didn't track as I went today, and I found that (when I did track) I'm literally 2 calories f... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 22:17:26 EST I slept like a LOG! Some of you may remember from earlier blogs that I have trouble sleeping. Not last night. Hooray! I slept SO well. I was sleepy - not just tired - by 9:45. For someone who generally goes to bed at 1, then tosses and turns for another hour or so, this was awesome. <BR> So I made some hot tea, grabbed my book, and read for another hour or so. (I'm very guilty of the 'just one more page' syndrome!). I was asleep by probably 11:30 or midnight. And I slept. THROUGH. THE. NIGHT. Didn't ... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 13:52:23 EST An AHA! Moment! I was reading a blog by STEPH-KNEE, and I just had a lightbulb moment! <BR> <BR><BR>_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760661 <BR> <BR> She was saying how she shuts down sometimes when she feels overwhelmed. I've noticed that I tend to say, "well at least I'm not...(Fill in the blank)" or "At least I didn't do...(fill in the blank)". This may sound like I'm not focusing on the negative, and I'm not, but it also means that I'm accepting a lower stan... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 21:20:36 EST Today's analysis I think I need to change what I'm doing. My body seems to have gotten very efficient at walking. That has been my main form of activity lately. I'm getting lots of steps in. But I'm not making any progress. I don't like how the new tracker works; and I think I'm going to see if there's still a way to unhook them, and see if that helps. I'm going to focus on eating the base calories again, the 1200-1500. <BR> I'm also going to re-add my strength training, as I am HORRIBLE at doing ST. ... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 00:46:12 EST