BEAR_GURL's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BEAR%5FGURL BEAR_GURL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ STATS AND CHECK-IN: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5355286 My stats as of May 09, 2013 <BR> <BR> Weight: 227.6 lbs <BR> <BR> Neck: 16 inches <BR> Rib Cage: 37 inches <BR> Upper Arm: 16 inches <BR> Thigh: 30 inches <BR> Calf: 16 inches <BR> Forearm: 11.5 inches <BR> Hips: 50 inches <BR> Waist: 42.5 inches <BR> <BR> Hip to Waist Ratio: 0.84 <BR> <BR> Goal Weight: 130 lbs <BR> <BR> Total Expected Weight Loss: 97 lbs <BR> <BR> Wow, what a busy year; I can't believe the kids are almost out of school or the weather has yet to pick a season! The girl... Mon, 13 May 2013 14:27:29 EST There's no other love like the love for a brother. There's no other love like the love from a sist http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4681544 In Loving Memory of My Brother on His Birthday, <BR> <BR> Don't sit in silence & weep for me, <BR> I've moved on, my spirit is free. <BR> I'm in every flower & bird in site, <BR> I'm in the stars and wind and moon at night. <BR> I'm the morning sun that greets the day, <BR> I'm each burst of laughter when you're at play. <BR> I'm in your happiest loving memories... <BR> So do not cry, my spirit is free. <BR> <BR> <BR> James D. (Jimmy) Kinnen <BR> <BR> January 15, 1980-August 7, 2001 <B... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 08:03:41 EST MY STATS AND A QUICK UPDATE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4420136 My stats as of August 11, 2011: <BR> <BR> Weight: 199.4 lbs <BR> <BR> Neck: 14.5 inches <BR> Bust: 35 inches <BR> (R) Upper Arm: 14 inches <BR> (R) Thigh: 26 inches <BR> (R) Calf: 16 inches <BR> (R) Forearm: 10.5 inches <BR> (R) Wrist: 6.5 inches <BR> Hips: 45 inches <BR> Waist: 39 inches <BR> <BR> Hip to Waist Ratio: 0.87 (High health risk) <BR> <BR> Goal Weight: 130 lbs <BR> <BR> Total Expected Weight Loss: 70 lbs <BR> <BR> <BR> Where to begin? Well it's obvious I haven't been activ... Thu, 11 Aug 2011 04:33:47 EST UPDATE: 05/23/11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4250121 It's been a while since my last blog and I'd like to think the girls & I are doing well; although I still have my BLAH days, I think I've finally started to heal. I attend counseling biweekly, blocked my soon-to-be ex (and his fiancé) from Facebook, have begun doing things with friends (again) and taken charge of my health. Finances continue to be a struggle (still no child support), but I've paid a few things off and continue to pray for the best. <BR> <BR> The girls are almost finished f... Mon, 23 May 2011 05:03:21 EST Why do you hurt me so? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4075134 I don't know how to explain how I feel right now (so I apologize in advance if this blog doesn't make much sense); so many emotions going through my mind right now...I wish I were numb. <BR> <BR> Most of my SP family is aware that my husband & I are separated (I've filed for divorce) and things are complicated (I've too little energy to re-tell the story; please refer to blogs dated October 2010-present). About two and a half weeks ago, he started calling the girls and even sent them a card... Tue, 8 Mar 2011 05:35:30 EST AN "AAHHH" MOMENT AND STATS: 02/01/11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3979377 Weight: 189.2 lbs (up 5 lbs since 10/20/10) <BR> <BR> Neck: 14 (up 0.5 inches since 10/20/10) <BR> Upper Arm: 14 (up 1.5 since 10/20/10) <BR> Forearm: 10.5 (up 1 since 10/20/10) <BR> Waist: 37 (up 3 since 10/20/10) <BR> Hips: 44 (up 2 since 10/20/10) <BR> Thigh: 26 (up 3 since 10/20/10) <BR> Calf: 15.5 (up 0.5 since 10/20/10) <BR> Rib Cage: 34 (up 2 since 10/20/10) <BR> <BR> <BR> I can't believe its been over three months since my last blog or that I've allowed myself to gain when I work... Tue, 1 Feb 2011 02:48:23 EST AN UPDATE AND MY STATS: 10/27/2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3745924 Weight: 184 lbs <BR> <BR> Neck: 13.5 (down 0.5) <BR> Upper Arm: 12.5 <BR> Forearm: 9.5 <BR> Waist: 34 (down 0.5) <BR> Hips: 42 <BR> Thigh: 23 <BR> Calf: 15 <BR> Rib Cage: 32 <BR> <BR> Not much has changed since last week and I'm not surprised; I've been busy, thus neglecting my daily exercise. I'm down one inch, but I believe the only reason I haven't gained or lost weight is due to high levels of stress (not getting much sleep & food isn't very appealing). I've maintained my 10 ... Thu, 28 Oct 2010 10:08:48 EST MY STATS: 10/20/2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3730277 Weight: 184 lbs (down 2 lbs) <BR> <BR> Neck: 14 <BR> Upper Arm: 12.5 <BR> Forearm: 9.5 <BR> Waist: 34.5 <BR> Hips: 42 <BR> Thigh: 23 <BR> Calf: 15 <BR> Rib Cage: 32 <BR> <BR> Down two pounds since last week, but my measurements didn't change= ) To say I had an "off" week would be a gross understatement...next week will be better! Thanks to all who have shown me support this week--love ya!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> HUGS, <BR> <BR> Melissa <BR> <BR> <BR> HUGS, <BR> <BR> Melissa <BR> ... Thu, 21 Oct 2010 08:46:07 EST WITH ALL MY HEART http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3718077 I'm overwhelmed and humbled by the love my SP family has shown my daughters and I; the words of advice and unconditional support help remind me there are still good people out there. Although my Sparking may be sporadic at times (throughout this ordeal), please know I'll never leave SP and I'm only an email away (I'm also on Facebook). There's no need to feel ashamed about asking for my advice or support; I'm a pro at helping others; ) LOL <BR> <BR> That which doesn't break me will only m... Fri, 15 Oct 2010 21:01:14 EST MY STATS: 10/13/2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3714052 Weight: 186 lbs (down 4 lbs) <BR> <BR> Neck: 14 <BR> Upper Arm: 12.5 (down .5) <BR> Forearm: 9.5 <BR> Waist: 34.5 <BR> Hips: 42 <BR> Thigh: 23 (down .5) <BR> Calf: 15 <BR> Rib Cage: 32 <BR> <BR> Down four pounds and two inches since last week; this makes a grand total of 13.5 inches lost since September 5, 2010! Zumba and the Flat Belly Diet seem to do this body good= ) <BR> <BR> <BR> HUGS, <BR> <BR> Melissa Wed, 13 Oct 2010 23:18:14 EST A VERY PERSONAL BLOG http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3711808 I don't know how else to say it: my husband (of six years) informed me (via text messaging) that he wants a divorce; he's admitted to having cheated (in the past) and claims he can't forgive himself--apparently, counseling is out of question and a divorce is the only way he feels he can redeem himself. I realize this is his answer to avoiding responsibility and his chance for a fresh start (he graduates from his job--see previous blog--next week & will be moving to Missouri). <BR> <BR> I... Wed, 13 Oct 2010 00:14:17 EST MY STATS: 10/06/2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3696816 Weight: 190 lbs (up 2 lbs) <BR> <BR> Neck: 14 <BR> Upper Arm: 13 <BR> Forearm: 9.5 <BR> Waist: 34.5 <BR> Hips: 42 <BR> Thigh: 23.5 <BR> Calf: 15 <BR> Rib Cage: 32 <BR> <BR> I don't know what happened, but I've went up two pounds and my measurements are the same (as when completed the SSV Challenge); I find this very weird because I've exercised and my clothes are fitting differently (okay...perhaps I was too lenient with the "treats"). Nonetheless, there's no one to blame but myself... Wed, 6 Oct 2010 13:25:01 EST GOALS FOR OCTOBER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3685505 I'm a list person--this is how I keep myself sane and organized. Although my husband teases me that my lists have lists (LOL), I'd be lost without my lists. I don't know why I've never made a "goal" list, but here's mine (for the month of October): <BR> <BR> 1. Exercise daily. <BR> 2. Stay hydrated. <BR> 3. Continue to spread the Spark; complete all Team challenges. <BR> 4. Measure and weigh-in weekly. <BR> 5. Log all food. <BR> 6. Begin (and adhere to) the Flat Belly Diet (28 day p... Fri, 1 Oct 2010 18:43:46 EST ZUMBA FITNESS INFORMATION http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3677469 I probably sound like a walking, talking infomercial, but that's okay--I've received so many comments/questions concerning my success with zumba that I've decided to spread the love! No, I haven't received any for of compensation for shouting their praises, but I believe zumba is responsible for my recent success. <BR> <BR> Zumba burns calories at a rate as high as 1,000 calories per hour. It targets the lower body, abs, core and upper body--a full body workout. You will lose a dress or p... Tue, 28 Sep 2010 16:44:39 EST SSV CHALLENGE MEASURE YOURSELF: 09/27/2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3673389 Weight: 188 lbs <BR> <BR> Neck: 14 <BR> Upper Arm: 13 <BR> Forearm: 9.5 (down 0.5) <BR> Waist: 34.5 (down 1.5) <BR> Hips: 42 (down 0.5) <BR> Thigh: 23.5 (down 1) <BR> Calf: 15 <BR> Rib Cage: 32 <BR> <BR> WOW...I'm speechless: down one pound and five total inches within 5 days!? Thank you ZUMBA FITNESS!!! I normally don't weigh or measure until Wednesdays...so I'm BEYOND proud right now (and a little teary eyed). Despite injuring my back last night (my 4 yr old was after a toy a... Mon, 27 Sep 2010 09:13:27 EST WHEN I'M AN OLD LADY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3670798 I found this poem and just had to share...ENJOY; ) <BR> <BR> <BR> When I'm An Old Lady <BR> by Joanne Bailey Baxter <BR> <BR> When I'm an old lady, I'll live with each kid, <BR> And bring so much happiness just as they did. <BR> I want to pay back all the joy they've provided. <BR> Returning each deed! Oh, they'll be so excited! <BR> (When I'm an old lady and live with my kids...) <BR> <BR> I'll write on the walls with reds, whites, and blues, <BR> And bounce on the furniture.....w... Sun, 26 Sep 2010 02:40:52 EST SSV CHALLENGE: 09/25/2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3670794 Instead of writting a letter, I decided to post this poem; I couldn't have said it better myself= ) <BR> <BR> <BR> I Love Being Me <BR> by Gemma Hayton <BR> <BR> I can't run the fastest <BR> I can't swim the sea <BR> I can't type the quickest <BR> but I love being me. <BR> <BR> I can't kick a ball <BR> or even climb a tree <BR> I can't roll in the grass <BR> but I still love being me. <BR> <BR> You see, this is my life <BR> as others would see <BR> they don't know what it's like <... Sun, 26 Sep 2010 02:37:31 EST MY STATS: 09/22/2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3663170 Weight: 189 lbs <BR> <BR> Neck: 14 <BR> Upper Arm: 13 <BR> Forearm: 10 <BR> Waist: 35.5 (down 0.5) <BR> Hips: 42.5 <BR> Thigh: 24.5 (down 0.5) <BR> Calf: 15 <BR> Rib Cage: 32 <BR> <BR> Not overjoyed with my results, but it's my own fault for slacking on exercise--only down 1.5 inches total. All normal labs came back great and got my flu shot today, so let's hope I don't get sick! Taking the night off from exercise (although I did get in some fitness minutes from cleaning), but ... Wed, 22 Sep 2010 21:18:57 EST EXERCISE + EDUCATION= FUN : ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3659204 I'm always looking for new ways to keep my 4 year daughter, Madilyn, entertained; she loves to learn new things and "parrot" others. As playing outside isn't always an option (Houston, TX weather is unpredictable!), finding indoor play items are a must. <BR> <BR> I recently came across a video called Gymathics by Exploracise.com; it's a workout dvd for children that also teaches math skills--and most don't even realize they're learning! Research shows that movement in combination with l... Tue, 21 Sep 2010 18:04:25 EST MY STATS: 09/12/2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3629905 Neck: 14 <BR> Upper Arm: 13 (down 0.5) <BR> Forearm: 10 <BR> Waist: 36 (down 0.5) <BR> Hips: 36 (down 0.5) <BR> Thigh: 24.5 (down 1.5) <BR> Calf: 15 (down 0.5) <BR> Rib Cage: 32 (down 0.5) <BR> <BR> Per my stats last week, this is a total loss of 7.5 inches lost = ) Zumba must be agreeing with me; I can't believe I lost 1.5 inches off each thigh <em>334</em> Per the Skinny Pumpkin Challenge, I won't be weighing myself until Wednesday--I sure hope the scale has moved! Sun, 12 Sep 2010 09:41:22 EST MY STATS: 09/05/2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3609283 I've decided to track my measurements weekly (since the scale doesn't seem to move); I hope this helps provide me with the motivation I need to keep at it! I'm DESPERATE to get out of the 180's and would live to be 160 lbs by my birthday (November 27th). Wish me luck= ) <BR> <BR> <BR> Weight: 187 lbs. <BR> Neck: 14 <BR> Upper Arm: 13.5 <BR> Forearm: 10 <BR> Waist: 36.5 <BR> Hips: 43 <BR> Thigh: 26 <BR> Calf: 15.5 <BR> Rib Cage: 32.5 Sun, 5 Sep 2010 15:43:27 EST PAT BLOG: TEAM CHALLENGE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3559029 I LOVE the show, Ruby, and enjoy the Ruby-Lite Teams here on SP; I pledged to lose 10 pounds and have lost 3.2 lbs thus far. I know if I push myself, I can lose the remaining weight and have only myself to blame if I don't--so what's my problem? <BR> <BR> I'm doing well with my food choices and water consumption; exercise seems to be my weakness this month. I just can't seem to get motivated and tend to put everyone (and everything) before exercise time. I'm disappointed in myself beca... Sat, 21 Aug 2010 03:16:20 EST SKINNY VIBES CHALLENGE: WHAT I LIKE ABOUT SP: ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3531955 What's not to love about Sparkpeople? It's not just a weight loss site...its like visiting extended family (without the guilt trip...lol); there's always someone there (no matter the time of day or night) who will lift you up and share in your happiness--or burden--of the day. We celebrate, sympathize and chat about our days...its a "safe" place to share; no one's going to tell your mother-in-law you secretly hate her famous meatloaf!? You'll share GOOD for you recipes and receive sound a... Fri, 13 Aug 2010 00:18:14 EST ***WARNING: THIS BLOG MAY CONTAIN TMI!!!*** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3517024 I'm committed to becoming a healthier me; physical exertion, staying hydrated and consuming good for you foods are a must to begin a life style change. So why am I so gassy? I've tried beano, taken gas relief pills, etc...nothing seems to be working!? Its quite embarrassing and painful: ( Could this be related to having had my gall bladder removed? <BR> <BR> Any advice would be appreciated <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> HUGS, <BR> <BR> Melissa Mon, 9 Aug 2010 02:26:02 EST TEAM SENDING ((((SKIINY VIBES)))) BLOG CHALLENGE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3512249 A - Available or married? Married. <BR> <BR> B- Book? Currently reading Running Scared by Lisa Jackson; I LOVE to read! <BR> <BR> C- Cake or Pie? Pie. <BR> <BR> D- Drink of Choice? Flavored water. <BR> <BR> E- Essential Item? Bug spray: I'm allergic to mosquitoes!!! <BR> <BR> F- Favorite Color? I don't have one but if had to choose, would be blue--the color of my hubby & daughters eyes. <BR> <BR> G- Game to play or watch? Not a big game person, but enjoy playing board games ... Sat, 7 Aug 2010 11:22:39 EST AUGUST 7, 2001 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3511403 The day of August 7, 2001 will forever be etched in my memory: for this is the day my only brother, Jimmy, passed away at the tender age of 21. Although he was with us for a short time, his memory continues to touch the lives of many; he will not be forgotten. <BR> <BR> When I found the following poems, they brought tears to my eyes; the angel picture took my breath away...its like a massive guardian angel, looking over the world. I know my brother has found happiness and he's not alone... Sat, 7 Aug 2010 01:05:06 EST TOO LITTLE TOO LATE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3490243 As my mother-in-law's scale is wobbly (and mine is in storage), I decided to purchase a new digital scale; I'm up 10 pounds...UGH! I have no one to blame but myself, so why do I feel on the verge of tears? When will I learn that to achieve change, you MUST change? I feel like such a hypocrite: I can give advice but not follow it?! <BR> <BR> So...here we go again: I refuse to give up!!! I've filled as much of my fridge and pantry with good for you foods; ordered a zumba workout (dvd col... Sun, 1 Aug 2010 01:31:16 EST WHAT SPARKPEOPLE HAS DONE FOR ME... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3445498 I've been a member of Sparkpeople for quite some time; since then, I've made lots of friends, some of which I speak to (via the phone or facebook) every couple of weeks. I can't claim to have always been an extremely active member of this site but in time, I've come to realize a few things: I NEED Sparkpeople and it needs me! I need the love and support of my SP pals; I need to track my food intake; I need to exercise daily; and I need to spread the Spark. <BR> <BR> Although I love being ... Sun, 18 Jul 2010 23:44:02 EST MY SPARK NAME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3426058 I came upon Sparkpeople via the show, Ruby, aired on the Style Channel; I was skimming over her online site when I came across it. As I'd been trying for years to lose weight, I immediately joined. <BR> <BR> Coming up with a Spark name was easy: my husband has nicknames for everything (and everyone) and he has called me his "bear girl" for as long as I can remember. The bear part of this nickname is due to my dislike of the cold (bears hibernate); the girl part because I'm his girl <em... Tue, 13 Jul 2010 00:34:49 EST WE GIVE THANKS TODAY ON TEAM SSV: ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3416456 Wow...this blog really got me thinking! I am truly blessed and have SO much to be thankful for; too many to list, but I'll throw out a few (not necessarily in this order!): <BR> <BR> *I am thankful for each and every day; even if its not my best. <BR> <BR> *I am thankful for my husband and two gorgeous daughters; its difficult to put into words how much I love them. <BR> <BR> *I am thankful for my extended family and friends; I love you too! <BR> <BR> *I am thankful I found the SP websit... Sat, 10 Jul 2010 01:15:40 EST RANDOM RAMBLINGS AT 3 AM http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3372136 Its after 3 am and as my mind refuses to shut down for the night (and Lunesta didn't do the job), warning...this blog may tend to ramble; ) <BR> <BR> A physical update since my last blog: I'm down 23 lbs (but seem to be at a stand still); I follow my daily exercise program and consume lots of water (brings back basic training memories...LOL); I'm TRYING <em>43</em> to stay within my calorie range (damn sweets!?); and most important, I've notice a HUGE difference in my body's appearance!... Sat, 26 Jun 2010 04:36:52 EST FEELIN GOOD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3315083 This is a short blog, but I've been feeling good about myself and wanted to share; I've lost a total of 18 lbs in the last two months and I'm exercising daily. I never thought I'd enjoy it but I feel better physically AND emotionally afterward. <BR> <BR> It may sound selfish but my main motivation right now is me; I'm tired of being tired and feeling uncomfortable in my own skin. I also need to set a better example for my daughters; they deserve a mother who can keep up with them without... Tue, 8 Jun 2010 20:56:24 EST OUTTA THE MOUTHS OF BABES http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3311421 When my daughter's 5th grade class graduated last week, they sang a remarkable song that brought tears to my eyes; it was accompanied with photos of soldiers and their families. As you read this, remember our soldiers and their families give of themselves daily~shouldn't we do the same? <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> THANK YOU SOLDIERS <BR> <BR> When I lay my head down ev'ry night <BR> And go to sleep in peace, <BR> I can stay there knowing all is well, <BR> While you're standing on your feet. <... Mon, 7 Jun 2010 21:45:24 EST SLOWLY GETTIN HER GROOVE BACK; ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3304837 A lot has happened since my last blog: I FINALLY finished moving and now reside with my in-laws; my oldest daughter graduated from the 5th grade; I'm trying new medication (and my second counseling appt. is set for June 11th); I've lost some weight and God has added to his guardian angels by two--my husband's grandmother and my uncle (through marriage). <BR> <BR> Suffering a loss (of any kind) is difficult but death is the ultimate loss; I had to inform my husband (who is out of state tra... Sun, 6 Jun 2010 00:04:00 EST WHAT THE ?...WAIT, I CAN'T SAY THAT!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3233753 What am I doing? Don't I have enough on my plate? These are the thoughts I've been having lately...well, let me start from the beginning: <BR> <BR> My husband has wanted to "change" careers for a while, but the job market being what it is...need I say more? He had updated his resume and sent out several applications, but we weren't expecting much. And then it happened: an excellent career opportunity with great benefits and a significant pay increase! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> To ma... Sat, 15 May 2010 23:01:22 EST I'M LOST..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3155997 Wow...I can't believe how long it's been since I last blogged! My surgery on Feb 18th went great; minimal scarring and believe it or not, the VA hospital was wonderful to me and my family: ) I was looking forward to starting an exercise routine and I was relieved to have that worry removed from my life. <BR> <BR> During my post-op appointment, I received the shock of my life: I was pregnant. My husband and I wanted to add a third child to our family...we just weren't expecting one this s... Sat, 24 Apr 2010 14:24:20 EST BACK IN THE SADDLE--AGAIN AND SURGERY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2887126 Wow...I hadn't realized just how much time had passed since I last logged on or posted a blog...until now. I originally joined SparkPeople in November 2008 and instantly felt accepted; I received a tremendous amount of support and began gaining confidence. <BR> <BR> Less than a year later, I felt as if I were contributing more than I was receiving; where was the heartfelt acceptance and support? It may sound selfish, but I was tired, stressed and disappointed...disappointed in myself and th... Tue, 16 Feb 2010 02:46:05 EST UPDATES: PHYSICAL & MEDICAL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2412952 Wow...I hadn't realized until now how long it's been since my last blog! Lately, I've allowed food to regain control my life-I've gained 10 pounds! UGH <em>15</em> I don't know why I'm surprised...I always seem to self sabotage once I start making progress. I'm SO tired of feeling like a yo-yo!!! Any ideas? <BR> <BR> I finally had a mammogram AND an ultrasound on September 9th; the lump in my left breast was very visible and I'm schedule for a core needle biopsy on October 12th. The... Sat, 19 Sep 2009 20:07:00 EST GOTTA BRAG...MY PROGRESS THUS FAR : ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2186126 Today's Weight: 179 lbs (11 lbs Loss) <BR> <BR> Today's Measurements (Inches Lost Since 01/20/09): <BR> <BR> Neck--13.5 inches (loss of 0.5 inches) <BR> Upper Arm--12 inches (loss of 2 inches) <BR> Forearm--9.5 inches (loss of 1.5 inches) <BR> Thigh--23.5 inches (loss of 4 inches) <BR> Calf--15 inches (loss of 1.5 inches) <BR> Rib Cage--33.5 inches (loss of 2 inches) <BR> Hips--43 inches (loss of 3 inches) <BR> Waist--38 inches (loss of 2 inches) <BR> <BR> Just had to brag a bit about my ... Sun, 28 Jun 2009 01:49:46 EST WHAT A WEEK! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2170073 Okay...Thursday was a very frustrating day for me! As previously mentioned, my youngest daughter has been ill (read previous blog) and that morning, she looked extremely pale & lethargic; I called her pediatrician and was scheduled to bring her in for a follow-up that afternoon. As soon as I hang up the phone, my husband calls me--my niece was taken to the ER due to a temperature of 104.9! As if the high temp wasn't enough for concern, my niece (age 2.5 yrs) only has one kidney!! The ER s... Mon, 22 Jun 2009 02:13:49 EST MAY I BE EXCUSED? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2156775 Why is it that I always seem to blog about the "negative" things going on in my life? I can't remember the last blog that I didn't come off as a total whiner!? Needless to say, this blog is no different; I feel the need to vent and lucky you--you've decided to read my blog! <BR> <BR> This past week has been hectic, with trips to the pediatrician, a family reunion, conflicting schedules and the adoption/death of a puppy. Last Thursday was my 10 yr old daughter's last day of school and I re... Tue, 16 Jun 2009 19:53:20 EST APOLOGY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2074183 I would like to apologize to the various Teams I belong to and co-lead for my lengthy absence; I shouldn't take on Team responsibilities and then throw them to the side. We've all experienced those times in life when we're overwhelmed and unable to complete the tasks we've "assigned"...hence my absence. <BR> <BR> It started with a HORRIBLE migraine and a stomach "bug", which put me in bed for quite a while; then I sent a mass email letting everyone know I was back. As I slowly started "wee... Tue, 19 May 2009 01:56:16 EST UPDATE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1970402 Received a call from the VA today...my mammogram appointment isn't scheduled until June 18th! When I asked why it was so far out, the receptionist stated this was the company's next available appointment; apparently, they have a contract with an outside company. <BR> <BR> I'm not happy, but there's not much you can do when the VA is the one paying the bills:( At least I now know there's an appointment and should receive the results within 14 days! <BR> <BR> <BR> Melissa Mon, 13 Apr 2009 23:57:06 EST ANOTHER LAUGH:) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1944636 I received such a FUN response from my latest blog, I just had to share this story:) This is an excerpt from a post I responded to about children and the crazy things they say...I hope you enjoy!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> My oldest daughter, Cheyenne (10 yrs old), is at the age where her younger sister, Madilyn (2.5 yrs old), embarrasses her--she hates that Madilyn "parrots" her every action & word! <BR> <BR> One evening while dining out, Cheyenne excused herself to the restroom; Madilyn (keepin... Sun, 5 Apr 2009 11:20:10 EST WHAT A DAY!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1944097 What a day...boy am I glad to see it end: ) It started out fine, but it turned out to be "one of those days"! <BR> <BR> First, I decided to take my girls grocery shopping, despite the fact that my youngest hadn't had her nap; I knew it was a bad idea from the start, but we needed groceries and my husband was busy. As you've already guessed, my youngest pitched a fit and the trip took twice as long as it should. Thankfully, she fell to sleep as soon as we got home! <BR> <BR> On the way ... Sun, 5 Apr 2009 04:40:46 EST Doctors, Prescriptions, and a Two Year Old....OH MY!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1928684 As I was fed up with everyone (my oldest started showing symptoms on Sat.) being sick, I took both girls to visit their pediatrician; two hours later and a quick stop by the pharmacy, I considered the problem resolved: my oldest daughter (age 10 yrs) was diagnosed with an ear infection and allergy related issues; my youngest daughter (age 2 yrs) was diagnosed with a severe sinus infection and wheezing...but my two year old had other plans! She had a massive melt-down when it came to her med... Tue, 31 Mar 2009 05:33:48 EST FEELINGS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1913880 My husband works nights (he's a police officer), so if it's to be done, it's up to me; he started this shift in Feb. and since then, I feel frustrated...I'm just plain worn out! <BR> <BR> I don't normally have a problem with being "in charge", but I've been pulling double duty lately; my husband has been sick for the past week and my youngest daughter (age 2 yrs) is sick for the second time within a month (YES, she's been to the doctor...steroids & the terrible two's DON'T mix!). I'm also... Thu, 26 Mar 2009 02:33:35 EST THANKS : ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1889315 I can't say <em>304</em> enough to all who took the time to read my last blog AND leave words of encouragement. Since I joined SP in Nov 08, I've had the pleasure of meeting several wonderful people; I was brought to tears as I read through the numerous wishes of positive thoughts and prayers sent my way. <BR> <BR> Again, thank you SP for your support and best wishes to all throughout your journey. Until next time.... <BR> <BR> <BR> Melissa Tue, 17 Mar 2009 23:12:45 EST NOT AGAIN?!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1871963 Okay...so this blog isn't positive, but I'm not feeling very positive right now. This past week has been hectic: my oldest has had several school events & soccer season starts soon; my hubby has worked late--leaving me w/it all; trying to plan for Spring break (next week); haggling w/a dealership over a car and the "kicker"---I found a lump in my breast. <BR> <BR> I had a lump removed in 1998 and thank God it was benign; I vividly recall the long process. I called to schedule an appointm... Thu, 12 Mar 2009 04:05:06 EST SEEING IS BELIEVING! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1764878 Alright, I'll admit...my last blog wasn't all that positive or upbeat, but it made me think...if I'm not losing weight, am I losing inches? I knew my clothes had started fitting differently and my muscles were more defined, but was this "lifestyle change" really working? I felt like I was doing everything possible (but need more sleep!), but the scale hadn't moved much and my patience was wearing thin!! <BR> <BR> I hadn't measured myself before I started, but decided to do so on Jan. 20; I... Tue, 3 Feb 2009 01:32:43 EST