BBONET's SparkPeople Blog BBONET's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Breathe I was checking for inspirational quotes and I came across "Breathe"! I remember I would always use this saying and it seems I need to go back to it because I feel that I am overwhelmed and not breathing! I can honestly say that I am feeling lost and do not know where to go! <em>39</em> <BR> Over the last fewer years I have taken over so many responsibilities that I feel I am failing myself and therefore I can't help everyone the way I should. <BR> I have been my mom's caretaker for quite... Sun, 19 Mar 2017 14:41:19 EST Celebrating my Angel <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today I honor and remember my Angelina that is celebrating her 26th birthday in heaven. Today is a bittersweet day remembering you and wishing you were here with us. Your two brothers talk about you so lovingly even though they never got to meet you. They see your pictures and always remember their older sister. Your Dad took out pictures of your pregnancy and wow that really made me smil... Fri, 17 Feb 2017 16:45:28 EST 5% Challenge I am getting ready to leave for the gym. I'm determined to put myself first and take care of my health so that I can then take care of everyone else. Let's rock this challenge this challenge. My goal is to stay on track my food intake, exercise and work hard at taking control of mt weight despite my thyroid issues and another obstacles. <BR> LETS GO TEDDY BEARS AND EVERYONE ELSE WORKING TOWARDS WEIGHT LOSS!!!! <em>381</em> <em>521</em> Sat, 14 Jan 2017 09:37:05 EST A Letter for Mom My dearest mommy, <BR> How I long to hear your sweet voice call my name, or just giving me the blessing you always gave me when we talked. Mommy what can I do for you. I feel so helpless and don't know if you are suffering or trying to tell me something. Once again I wait for more labs, X-ray and CT Scan to see if they can find why you are running a fever. <BR> Mommy I see you laying in this bed and you look so small, fragile and helpless. Mommy I wish I could take away your pain and suff... Sun, 20 Nov 2016 01:44:04 EST Mom Pleased to say mom is doing better. She is still on antibiotics and has a wound vac machine to help her heal. She has always been such a fighter. It is because of the way she was that it hurts to see her in these conditions. However I am thankful she is fighting. Thanks to all of you for your prayers. Sat, 12 Nov 2016 19:11:53 EST Update on Mom Mom is still in ICU but she is showing signs of improvement. She is off the ventilator and they have lower her sedation so she can start to wake up. <em>244</em> <BR> If things continue to improve she might be sent to a PCU room. <em>30</em> Thank you all so much for all the comments, goodies, prayers and support. <em>304</em> <em>247</em> <em>223</em> <em>252</em> Tue, 8 Nov 2016 18:01:11 EST Lemons really soured Mom had surgery Monday and she is in ICU. THINGS NOT LOOKING GOOD. She might be going back to surgery tomorrow if things don't turn around quick. Her heart is week and now she also has a bacteria. Still waiting on culture from lungs. <em>46</em> <em>198</em> <em>458</em> <BR> My spark friends please keep her in your prayers. Wed, 2 Nov 2016 17:42:34 EST Life Gives Us Lemons...... I just need to sit down and write about this so that I can come to accept it. My journey with Sparks began 5 years ago. I was going through difficult times with my son due to health issues, my mom had a stroke a few months before and I had to place her in a nursing facility and my weight was placed on the back burner. Accidently looking for Spark Notes I came across Sparkpeople. Little did I know that this website would change my outlook on things and that I would have so many friends and peo... Sun, 30 Oct 2016 15:40:02 EST 3 Days and counting It's been 3 days that we have no power. We are going out to eat and check our phones to stay in contact with family and friends. <BR> We are doing good bit it is getting annoying and I need a hot shower. Tomorrow I go to school to do clean up and organize because school is still out for now. <BR> Thanks for all your messages I hope to be back in action soon. <BR> Sun, 9 Oct 2016 18:27:25 EST Matthew is Gone I'm happy to say that we are safe and trying to clean up after what Matthew left behind. Our county (volusia) was hit hard and we had a curfew until this morning at 7am. We have no power yet, our cell phone reception is bad and unfortunately we had some roof damages. However, in the big picture we are fortunate to be alive. <BR> Just checking on mom at the nursing facility and she is fine. My son in Georgia is also fine, no power but he is safe. My younger son was with us but has now re... Sat, 8 Oct 2016 13:15:23 EST Hurricane Matthew Well I'm finally trying to relax at home waiting for what will be the worst Hurricane to hit central Florida. I had a long tiresome day yesterday between getting the classroom hurricane proof with 30 kids in the room and mom being discharged from the hospital. Today I got up early to check on mom at the nursing home. She is doing well and the facility is well prepared for the storm. <em>27</em> <BR> Then home to finish getting ready and picking up my son from college. So now the wait begin... Thu, 6 Oct 2016 20:32:29 EST Update Thank God we were all evacuated from the school to city hall. There parents were redirected to pickup their children. All students were wonderful and so well behaved. My 31 2nd graders made me feel so proud. We were actually the first class out and they follow directions and were so calm. I never knew what it felt like to be responsible for so many students in that situation and all I could think of was get them away from the school. <BR> <BR> We received the all clear and staff, teachers... Tue, 13 Sep 2016 18:08:55 EST Bomb Threat We just had a bomb threat at our school and had to evacuated all our students! Most scariest situation I have lived making sure all my 31 students and the rest of the school is safe!! We are all safe in the city hall building now! Pray for us! Tue, 13 Sep 2016 10:15:24 EST Update on Mom First and foremost I want to thank each and everyone of you that were praying for mom. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. <em>304</em> <BR> Her feeding tube was successfully reinserted on Friday. She was doing good with the food when they restarted her late Friday night. So after waiting to make sure all was going good she was finally sent back to the nursing facility late Saturday. <em>224</em> <BR> I made sure she was settled in and comfortable before I left which was again cl... Sun, 14 Aug 2016 09:36:12 EST Mom back in hospital Today mom was sent to ER from the nursing facility because her feeding tube came out. So she has been admitted and scheduled for the procedure to reinsert tomorrow. She is very agitated and confused. This is so hard with her blindness and now even some dementia setting in it is so hard to understand her needs and wants. They just gave her something to calm her so I hope it starts to work soon. Please pray for her. <BR> Thu, 11 Aug 2016 21:29:03 EST Mom back in hospital Today mom was sent to ER from the nursing facility because her feeding tube came out. So she has been admitted and scheduled for the procedure to reinsert tomorrow. She is very agitated and confused. This is so hard with her blindness and now even some dementia setting in it is so hard to understand her needs and wants. They just gave her something to calm her so I hope it starts to work soon. Please pray for her. <BR> Thu, 11 Aug 2016 21:29:02 EST First Day of School. WOW! What an amazingly and exhausting day it was. 30 students and their supplies all eager to please. Thank goodness I was given an assistant or I would have drown in so many supplies to collect, check off and go over rules and procedures. I am completely drained. <em>198</em> This is only day one and 180 left <em>30</em> But who is counting. I know it will get better little by little but for now I just need a foot rub. I am sitting with my feet on two cushions trying to pamper them... Wed, 10 Aug 2016 19:32:05 EST Wrong Direction ! <em>334</em> <em>489</em> <em>486</em> I'm so disappointed in myself today. <em>46</em> I have no one to blame just me and my mindless eating of junk food at work ! <BR> This week was our teacher workdays to get our classrooms ready for meet the teacher day on Friday and school start on August 10th. So needless to say a week of working late and ordering from fast food took its toll on me. <em>4</em> <BR> Well nothing like starting the day on that note. So enough of that... Sat, 6 Aug 2016 09:15:52 EST Sister Time WOW! I had forgotten what is like to be together with all your sisters. <em>244</em> I grew as the oldest in a family of 5 sisters and 2 brothers: but we have all moved and don't find the time to be together unless it is due to an emergency and even then we have not all been together at the same time in a long, long time. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> So for some unplanned reason this weekend all the sisters were in the same place for the weekend!! We all stayed at my sister's house that l... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 13:13:41 EST 5% Challenge and Trip Ok so today we started the 5% challenge which I am very excited about!! <BR> However, tomorrow morning I leave for Myrtle Beach, SC with my husband for a week. <em>224</em> He will be working but I will be in the hotel by the pool trying to get some much needed R&R!! <em>298</em> I do plan on taking my work out clothes and getting some walking in also but I know I might be tempted!!! So while I am there I will try my best and hope to not do to much damage that will put me to far beh... Sat, 25 Jun 2016 20:05:52 EST 26 years of marriage Today I celebrate 26 years of marriage by the Justice of the Peace. We then had our church wedding on Nov. 23 of the same year so therefore we do double celebration! <em>408</em> <em>384</em> <em>212</em> <BR> I was lucky whenImet my DH. He has been with me through great times, (birth of our boys), sad times (birth/death of our daughter), through happiness, ups, downs, we have had (and continue to have them all). Our commitment and love have helped us on this journey. I thank God fo... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 10:06:42 EST A Proud Mom <img src=""> <BR> Here you were only 3 months! It seems like yesterday. You have bought so much happiness to our lives. You came to join your older brother ( your sister you did not meet). You both filled our hearts with such joy. <BR> Today my son you are turning 22 years old. In your short life you have been through so many challenges and tribulations. You have faced your challenges head on and you are such ... Mon, 20 Jun 2016 10:42:17 EST God Give Me Strength Have been dealing with my in laws health issues. In and out of hospital. Sister in laws that are only interested in what benefits them. The situation has been a nightmare. My DH is besides himself trying to do what is best for my in laws. Dealing with that situation has been heartbreaking and stressful. Being far from them is taking its toll on us. Traveling back and forth plus holding down a full time job. <BR> <BR> So this weekend we are back home and I am spending it with mom at the nu... Sat, 7 May 2016 14:41:26 EST Murphy,s Law Lemon, lemons, lemons <BR> <BR> Things come in three. I don't need anymore lemons. I have enough to make lemonade a for all. <BR> <BR> I am dealing with health issues now with my in laws. Both in hospital five hours from us. The only one stepping up is my DH and I. Trying two get them in a nursing place close to us. Hopefully where I have mom but it is not easy to place to people. I just met with an elder lawyer and all the paperwork I needs to gathered. So I am driving myself 5 hours to... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 18:58:34 EST Spring Break Yes! I am officially on spring break this week. The first two days were dedicated to mom at nursing home and to running errands. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> So now starting tomorrow it will be me time with my DH. We are flying to New Orleans until Sunday. <em>244</em> It is a mini vacation we both need. Plus my birthday is on Sunday so we are also celebrating. <em>220</em> <em>236</em> <BR> <BR> I know I just started a challenge but I hope all the walking will help with any eating I... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 19:09:08 EST 5% Challenge - Day 1 Well here we are again! <em>249</em> <BR> The weigh in today was the worse one yet! <em>198</em> <em>192</em> <BR> <BR> However, I am ready to go and give the challenge my all! I have had a rough three months and I am still under doctor care for muscle spasms, but I will make sure I am tracking my calories and at least walking in place. I will not give up and I know I will work hard and do my best!! Let's go Teddy Bears we can do this! <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> <em>386</em> ... Sat, 26 Mar 2016 15:11:08 EST 2016 in Review You must be thinking how can someone review 2016 in just 2 months!! <em>40</em> Well I feel like I have been run over by a steamroller! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> January - <em>411</em> <em>408</em> started out as a great year! I didn't make any resolutions but I did start out by leaving work/school early and hitting the gym everyday! <em>315</em> <em>324</em> . This was awesome and I was doing something for me and I felt great! <em>104</em> <em>224</em> Then came Jan 24... Sat, 27 Feb 2016 11:19:34 EST Happy Birthday my Angel! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today you would be 25 years old! Celebrate in heaven and know that you are loved and remembered by us!! This day always brings tears to our eyes but we know in our hearts that there is a reason for everything! <BR> <BR> Words can't express the emptiness we feel at times but we look at your pictures and remember you dearly!! You will always be our baby girl!! <BR> <BR> I know you are look... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 11:10:09 EST Mom - Back to the Nursing Home Miracles of miracles! Mom is back in the nursing home and she looks great! <em>30</em> <BR> She is not as alert as she was before but to look at her you would never think that this wonderful lady was almost gone two weeks ago today!! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> She will be on the breathing treatment for awhile and still with some antibiotics but she is resting so peacefully and all my siblings came to see her. Some are still around but we all know things need to go back to normal. <BR> <... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 14:33:15 EST Mom update I'm so happy to report that mom has been upgraded to stable and improving. <em>243</em> Doctors says if all continues this way she might be sent back to nursing home tomorrow. <em>345</em> We are so happy and stunned by her miraculous recovery. We had said our good byes and all my siblings came in to see her. <em>247</em> I think she just needed to hear them and know we are here. <BR> <BR> Thank you so much for all your comments, prayers and support during these difficult and emot... Sat, 6 Feb 2016 12:27:14 EST Mom Well once again stable but critical. She is swollen now from all the fluids. Still with pneumonia but coughing less. If all continues she might be moved to PCU floor. This is a step down from ICU. This has been an exhausting, emotional and draining week. <BR> <em>527</em> <BR> Thank you all for all your prayers. <em>247</em> <em>304</em> <em>220</em> Sun, 31 Jan 2016 17:47:37 EST Update on mom Still in ICU. Holding her own. Also has the flu. Thanks for prayers. Thu, 28 Jan 2016 09:10:39 EST So many doctors, so many decisions Oh My! Our heads are spinning with so many doctors coming and going. They are working real hard to keep mom alive. She is stable but critical and we are still waiting on lab results. We now have to put on gown and glove and mask to go in room. We have had counsel with Hospice and now it's just waiting the 48 hours deadline. <BR> <BR> Thank you all for your prayers, comments and support. <BR> <BR> Wed, 27 Jan 2016 08:33:36 EST Mom in ICU Mom took turn for worse. We are in ICU prognosis not good. Prayers Tue, 26 Jan 2016 07:10:24 EST Update on Mom Thank you all for your prayers for mom and me! <em>247</em> <em>304</em> <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> Her fever finally broke last night after sweating profusely and she fell into a peaceful sleep. So far the X-ray and lab work show no infection but the doctor says it might just be to early to detect anything. She did have a restful night but was not responsive or alert. Once again, thanks to all of you for your prayers and comments. I will keep you all posted <BR> <BR> <em>220</em> ... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 10:15:16 EST Prayers needed. I came to visit mom at nursing home and found that She is not well. Fever, low oxygen and wheezing. Please pray for her. Right now waiting for X-ray and blood work. Her fever is extremely high and she is not responding to me. <em>39</em> Sun, 24 Jan 2016 12:49:28 EST 5% Challenge - I am happy to report that so far I have been able to stay focused on this challenge. I have been at the gym everyday and if I miss one day I am walking or moving to get my exercise in. <em>521</em> <BR> <BR> The first week I lost 3 pound and the second week I gained half pound but I am still moving on and taking one day at a time. Slow and steady wins the race so I am chugging along like the little train that could. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> This blog is just a reminder for myself so t... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 22:44:16 EST Never Quit Pledge Repledging. Thanks for reposting! <BR> <BR> I was looking through some of my old blogs for a link to a walk/job audio aid. I haven't found it, but I did find this pledge which it just seems fitting to resurrect on January 1. <BR> <BR> Saturday, June 30, 2012 <BR> Taken from BBonet's blog <BR> <BR> Please respond that you want your name added to the bottom of the list. <BR> <BR> Never Quit Pledge <BR> <BR> Today, I promise I will not quit. <BR> <BR> I pledge that no matter, how man... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 11:46:21 EST Xmas 2015 This was an amazing Christmas because both my sons were home. My youngest came home a week ago and we did go to see my in laws and help them out for a few days. Then it was back home to get ready for Christmas Eve and wait for my oldest son and his girlfriend drive down from Georgia. <em>30</em> They got in late that night but in time for him and his brother to make cookies for Santa. <em>495</em> It was so much fun watching a 21 and 23 making cookies and being silly. <em>345</em> ... Sun, 27 Dec 2015 23:25:33 EST Day before Thanksgiving Today I'm off from work so I decided to go to the nursing home and spend time with mom and get her haircut. I woke up feeling miserable Sore throat and coughing. I still went to mom because she had the hair appointment and someone needs to be there to help. I was able to do that and spend a few hours with her. Now my throat is worse and I'm really feeling miserable. <BR> <BR> All of this now that I have to cook and get ready for a 5 hour drive (to Statesboro Georgia) tomorrow to cele... Wed, 25 Nov 2015 14:21:09 EST Results are In First of all I want to thank everyone that posted on my blog, send me goodies or commented on my page. I really appreciated each everyone one of your prayers and support! It is so nice to know that there is a whole support system out there for any situation.I love SPARK! <BR> <em>304</em> mm <em>223</em> <em>252</em> <em>220</em> <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> Today I went to my endocrinologist for the results of the biopsy of my four nodules. <em>282</em> She had great news and tol... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 19:47:48 EST Challenge and challenges <em>192</em> Well so far this challenge is off to a good start. I'm down 3 lbs and tracking all my intake of food. <em>521</em> So I hope that the rest of the road continues in the same way. <BR> <BR> I have stayed focused even though I am going through some health issues. Yes for the last month I have been going to doctors, specialists, blood work and ultra sound to figure out why I have a lump in my throat. Well so far it has shown no thyroid problem <em>24</em> But the ultrasou... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 21:01:08 EST Special Pray Request <em>520</em> <em>520</em> <em>520</em> <em>520</em> <em>520</em> <em>520</em> <em>520</em> <em>520</em> <em>520</em> <em>520</em> <BR> <BR> I ask for prayers for my friend and co-worker, Mary, who has pancreatic cancer. She just finished chemo and is waiting for surgery once she regains her strength. <BR> <BR> The school will be having a prayer service for her on Friday and the whole school community will be wearing purple and collecting donations to help her and ... Wed, 7 Oct 2015 07:28:13 EST October 1 - Honoring Mom on her birthday! Happy, happy birthday to a very important person, my mom! <BR> <BR> Love you and miss you! I will go to see you today and give you a kiss but I know you will not recognize me! It's OK Mom - I recognize you! I love you and thank you for all you did for me and my siblings. Now it my turn to take care of you! <BR> <BR> I will leave you flowers and balloons, which you can't see (mom is blind too), to let everyone at the nursing home know it is your birthday! <BR> <BR> May God bless you a... Thu, 1 Oct 2015 11:42:31 EST 5% Challenge Day 1 Well I'm off to a good start on this first day of challenge. I'm feeling positive this time around and I hope to do the best I can. Last challenge was not so productive due to many things. But why linger on the past. I'm looking forward and will try do my best not to look back. So day 1 and 55 more to go. <BR> Let's rock this challenge and have fun in the process. <em>521</em> <em>306</em> <em>381</em> <em>249</em> Sat, 26 Sep 2015 19:01:46 EST Back to School Well I know people up North find it hard to believe but we are back in school. I work for the Diocese of Orlando and students started school on August 12. So needless to say this has been a very long and tiring week. I teach 2nd Graders and these first few days you have to go over rules, procedures and questions never stop. 😍😄. So today, Saturday, I already feel that I am losing my voice. Week one down 😀 <BR> <BR> Today I'm spending quality time with Mom because now that I'm back at work... Sat, 15 Aug 2015 12:16:07 EST Summer Ends Well this might seem a little early for some but I being a teacher go back to work next week! I have to start setting up the classrooms and have things ready for our back to school night on August 7. <BR> <BR> My summer has been in the hospital, for two weeks, and now at the nursing home with my mom. She suffered some more strokes which left her with no speech or swallow, plus she had blood clots in her legs. Things are settling down a bit with her - she is in therapy and I go everyday to m... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 09:43:21 EST We Plan and God Laughs!! I know this isn't right but I am taking some me time to write some positive feedback on my life. <BR> <BR> If you have read my previous blogs you will understand why. Short summary - Mom in hospital for 2 weeks with stroke, blood clots, etc. Feeding tube and filter put in. Now she is back in nursing facility but trying to prevent pneumonia so she is on antibiotics. I have been with her non stop since June 11th. <BR> <BR> While all this was going on I OOPS - missed father's day- I did take a... Sat, 27 Jun 2015 09:27:17 EST UpDate on Mom! Finally, after two long, anguish weeks in the hospital I am happy to say that Mom is back in the Nursing facility. <BR> <BR> She was sent to the hospital because of blood clots and dehydration - but they also discovered she had various strokes also. This brought on more complications as is expected. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> She lost her swallow reflex and her speech. So she had a feeding tube placed and then the next day she had a filter placed for the blood clots. Seeing her go through al... Thu, 25 Jun 2015 09:12:33 EST June 20th. Special Day I want to take a few moments to honor this date. I have been in the hospital with mom for over 10 days and right now I'm sitting here waiting for yet another procedure for her. 😪😪 <BR> <BR> However, I will now be a mom and honor my youngest son that turns 21 years old today. <BR> <BR> Happy Birthday son and may you be filled with lots of love and may all your dreams and goals become a reality. 🎂🎂🎁🎁🎈 <BR> <BR> I know the last four years of your life have been such a struggle with ... Sat, 20 Jun 2015 08:43:06 EST