BBINDELRAY's SparkPeople Blog BBINDELRAY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 9 pant sizes down! Hard to believe but I'm consistently fitting into 12's! Last pair of 12's I bought was a pair of tan chinos at Lerners somewhere around 1982. No kidding. That's 22 years ago. Wow. <BR> <BR> Found a cute consignment shop around the corner from work. Hoping they keep getting in more options in my size! <BR> <BR> Starting to have a little fun with this! <BR> <BR> Mon, 7 Jul 2014 14:10:09 EST Motivation for the Motivator I've been blessed to have friends who tell me that I am an inspiration to them. Lately, though, I am feeling like I can't seem to get off the dime and keep the scale moving. I know why... I have a bad case of the "if onlys". If only I could.... fill in the blank.... then - then I could really get crackin'. Well - what's stopping me? ME! I am in control of my own destiny - nobody else. I am the only person who is looking out for my needs. I'm in charge. So what's the problem? I think... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 14:22:04 EST Here we go, here we go, satellite radio.... Love when I get back from the gym, and I'm flying high on the adreline rush.... makes me feel like I can do anything I can set my mind to. And I can. I continue to prove that every day... Many days are not easy, and there are some days I don't FEEL like getting it done - but I still do it because I know that consistant performance is the key to success. <BR> <BR> I'm retraining my brain to try and my internal sound track. Hence the blog title... :) Sun, 3 Feb 2013 13:48:42 EST Just hit 100 lbs.... Resetting goals, counters and timeline! Didn't think this day would ever come... but here I am, 100 lbs lighter. I have 50/60 lbs to go, but am genuinely pleased that I have made it this far. It has been 10 years since I weighed this much, and am pleased to see that I'm making progress. Biggest change is that I'm resetting my expectations of myself. Turning "I'm not sure I can" in to, "of course I can". Self doubt is a thing of the past - and so are food rewards. Sure - I'd love a big bag of fish and chips today - but inste... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 09:48:02 EST Crossing the threashold........99.4 lbs and counting.... So - I'm home early from work, and am looking forward to a nice long weekend. I've got .6 lbs to go until I hit 100 lbs lost... and I'm actually feeling a little overwhelmed. I'm trying to really stay focused, and know that once I hit that mark - I am going to reset the counter, the goals and my expectations. This is the STARTING point for me, not the finish line. Balancing a good sense of achievement and trying to turn that into motivation to keep pressing forward. Don't want to sit on ... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 18:09:51 EST About to take a major header...... So - after 7 good weeks of fitness - I have shin splints. I am really frustrated because I am two pounds away from a good number - and want to get there NOW!! I am also close to making my first 100 miles on the treadmill - and now I am afraid I am going to be side tracked. <BR> <BR> On one hand - I can celebrate that my 'transformation' is becoming real - because I am caring about these things, not what is in the fridge. <BR> <BR> On the other hand - I am afraid if I am not doing the w... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 20:01:45 EST Trying not to get distracted by Pesky neighbor's comment... So- I'm staying at my sister's house, and her neighbor (who is in her 50's, mows her grass in her bikini, and tans ALL day) brought over a magazine. Before I could turn it over to see the cover, I said - "Thanks - I'll be sure to give this to my sister." She says, "Well - maybe you should read it to." Duh - of course it turns out it is "Fitness" magaine. <BR> <BR> OK - I'm fat. I get it. But I know that I go to the Y every single day, am consuming less than 1200 calories a day, and am... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 17:54:36 EST