BBGRL112's SparkPeople Blog BBGRL112's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I am finally seeing light and Pruving it I haven't posted in a year, up till 2 months ago I weighed 360 lbs and was constantly losing and regaining the same 10 pounds. I had been a beach body coach for over a year I thought maybe by becoming a coach it would help keep me accountable while hopefully helping others. But I just felt like a fraud I tried to workout but didn't have energy working nights on 12 hrs 5 to 6 times a week and a 2 hr commute round trip. Meet the love of my life, but he lives an hour away and works in the same ... Sat, 15 Jul 2017 08:23:25 EST Water water water Water still isn't my favorite drink of the day and hard to get in...but making a conscious effort...committed myself to swapping water for my Mountain Dew at work and surprising so far not missing my caffeinated sugary goodness that I have become a custom too...actually feeling better and more alert ...only 9 more hours to go Fri, 10 Jun 2016 22:19:11 EST Enjoying The Journey... So I haven't had time to blog since my last post, but I have been doing pretty amazing and each day keeps getting better...My birthday came and went with no big fanfair, at least I didn't have to work lol...but the week after I decided to start the 21 day fix...I had already order the program a week before, read all the material and tried to prepare myself the best as possible for success this time around. I am now in my last week of my first round and I absolutely love it...I have seen a 15 ... Thu, 16 Jul 2015 19:57:54 EST 33 With my birthday right around the corner, there really isn't anything I want or need...and I have been thinking about a lot of things right now....don't know about the new year, but I am truly ready to make some changes...I have a love/hate relationship with my job, have degrees that really aren't marketable in my area, had an on again off again relationship with someone for 5 years only to find out how they really feel about my size...and am deffently hearing that baby clock ticking louder a... Tue, 16 Jun 2015 22:28:38 EST Let Her Eat Cake....and Oh Boy Did I Wow, my birthday was on Monday and my parents bought a cake, a couple coworkers bought a small cake for my bday, and then a couple friends took me out separately for dinner along with you guessed it....cake...I feel like I have been on sugar overload the past week... lucky I haven't seen any change in the scale, but also not losing anymore either...however I am wearing a smaller pair of jeans and they fit me better now then a year ago when I bought them so yea!!!!....otherwise I am trying to ... Fri, 29 Jun 2012 14:33:30 EST A close to a pretty good week - weekend Well I am down ten (10) lbs this week, managed to walk everyday so mom and I went out to the trail this morning and went once around the trail and made it for another partial round, plus I have her intrigued in the couch25k program so I may just have a buddy to accomplish that goal with as well, woo hoo...I am planning on starting the first week of training this upcoming week, and you know I will keep you posted lol...I have also made a physical effort on the starting my business/edu... Sat, 2 Jun 2012 15:30:07 EST Battleship I didn't spend much time on my favorite website today, but it was my mother's bday so :), I will have to say I am proud of us, we have both lost 10lbs before week's end and seem to be maintaining it. We went out to celebrate, not with food but with a movie instead, we went and seen battleship, awesome movie by the way, I would deffently recommend it :). Also, we got our walk in for today, walked a half hour more than we have the past couple days. <BR> <BR> It is going to be a slow process an... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 01:18:29 EST Less Than a Week So it has been less than a week since I found out my true starting point, and I am already seeing a consistent 8 lbs gone woohoo, can't wait to see what the rest of the week brings. I am also already seeing small changes in my energy levels, with working all night I could come home and sleep all day into the night, only getting up about an hour before I headed to work. Now that I am eating three regular meals a day, I am walking in the mornings with my mom, and I am up by early to mid-afterno... Wed, 30 May 2012 15:22:04 EST Having A Much Better Day So I managed to get back on track with the not eating at night, no snacks for me yay! (though I did take my fellow sparkers' advice and took a healthier snack just in case). I also am on my second day of walking, dragging my mom with me :), she has been wanting to lose weight too so what better workout partner and the more support the merrier :). Also did the 6 week body makeover strength training programming, and going to try to pull out a 45 min cardio as well. Feeling pretty great today, s... Tue, 29 May 2012 15:49:36 EST Really!?!?!?!?!? Where oh where did my willpower go??? I am longer trying...but determined to get off the late night eating...last night at work I was hungry, instead of waiting it out and drinking some more water, nope I bought a package of chocolate covered pretzels...while better than what I was previously doing (a bag of chips, candy bar, and a little debbie snack on both breaks, and maybe fast food or dennys for lunch...really) last night I stuck with the bag of chocolate covered pretzels and... Mon, 28 May 2012 09:34:40 EST Just an update, keeping myself accountable I finally went back to work last night (after three nights off with my ankle and my regular days off) I REALLY WASN'T LOOKING FORWARD TO GOING BACK!!! Oh well responsibility calls, and all in all it wasn't too bad. The swelling finally went down in my foot and ankle, some tenderness but I am looking forward to getting back into an exercise routine. I have a martial arts dvd coming in the mail that I can't wait to try out, but for I am going to start out slow and easy with some walking and may... Sun, 27 May 2012 16:03:49 EST Minor set back... So I went to have my ankle checked out since it still has been swelling a lot since I hurt it last week...trying to take better care of myself, I hate doctors and hospitals...anyways found out my will board is not necessarily the best source of a weight loss scale...I have been showing 270 - 265 on there, when I went to the doctor I was 310, so I am not so happy about that, but I have been staying on tract with my eating, and since I got some medicine for my ankle the swelling is going back d... Fri, 25 May 2012 14:16:08 EST Is this week over yet... I am just having one of those weeks, seen my ex out with someone new, and while it shouldn't bother me I know, it does hurt, but I am moving past it and I do really know I am better off...and it is funny, when you are single it is like skeletons (ex's) come out of the wood work, like they have some sixth sense or something, I was contacted by a man that I had a 2 year relationship with, first man I ever really loved contacted me out of the blue and also a guy that it has been kind of hit or m... Fri, 18 May 2012 07:52:08 EST random thought I rented movies yesterday, just getting around to watching them...after the way this week has been watching the vow (while a good movie) bad to watch after a break up...if I haven't cried enough and my eyes aren't swollen enough...lets add a few more tears lol...the hardest part watching that was the tickling and the banter I use to have that and miss it alot...but enough about that...for now more movies like haywire, less movies like the vow lol Fri, 11 May 2012 03:13:47 EST Goals Been thinking it would be good to write down my goals, short and long term, and what better day to think about these things then my day off :) so here goes (but not limited to): <BR> <BR> Short term <BR> <BR> -rebuild my confidence <BR> -learn to love myself <BR> -acknowledge at least one thing I love about myself each day <BR> -try something new every day <BR> -learn something new every day <BR> -recommit myself to education and prepare myself for going back to school <BR> -keep my journa... Thu, 10 May 2012 16:27:50 EST Rough Patches So, I forget about those pot holes, those rough patches we all hit along the way. It has been a rough week Letting go of someone, wether they are good or bad for you is tough, and seeing them with someone else giving them the little things you so desired even harder...but I made it thorough with out using food as a crutch, no late night binging no fast food or deserts...I did do a lot of crying and a little sidetracked with keeping my journal up and exercise...but slowly and surely I am getti... Thu, 10 May 2012 11:36:06 EST Strangely Enough... It is the weirdest thing, I know it has only been a couple days, but I can't explain how strong I feel...I don't want to jump the gun so to speak...but it is just weird usually, especially with everything that has happened, I would usually dwell on lost friendships, blame myself, mope...but I have kept my will up, set and have stayed committed to workout goals, staying within my calorie range, drinking more water and cutting out late night eating...each day it gets easier and I just feel stro... Mon, 7 May 2012 16:38:16 EST Time Heals All... I know it will get better with time...but how do you get out of that frame of mind of internalizing everything, feeling like it is something you done or didn't do, I know some people are just asses but it is hard to just accept that sometimes, to say i is them and not you...I guess I will just try to keep focusing on me and achieving my goals and hopefully it will help to keep my past in the past and maybe develop some new and better habits Sat, 5 May 2012 10:14:07 EST Putting out the trash... So I finally tossed out an unhealthy friendship...something I should have done months ago, and I hate losing a friend, but I guess it took me till yesterday to realize we never really were friends and I don't need want or was not put here to be used, and now I know and believe I deserve better, but I also know I need to start with me, today I got up worked out with my wii, and have the motivation to work out some more today...I am hating this rain though...if I can give up somethin... Fri, 4 May 2012 08:43:56 EST Still Kicking It's been a long while and a long time still struggling. I guess I am just at that place where you wonder how you even got here, not that it happens overnight, but still. I am about to turn 30 in a few months, and while I have accomplished a lot, there is still so many other things I am unsatisfied with and just thought I would have figured out by now. I never expected to still be single, no children, a job I hate, and no real direction in any area. Sometimes it feels like I am constantly try... Sat, 7 Apr 2012 17:33:25 EST I'm still here I have been doing my entries and workout as planned and endding a very long week...overtime looks great on a check but physically sucks and I think I am trying to come down with a cold do to the weather change yea!!!, lol oh well at least I have made up for my little trip to NC which was so worth it and I haven't let this week drag me down enough to use it as an excuse for bad know that little voice "oh you can work out tomorrow" or "go ahead eat that you deserve it"...nope al... Fri, 19 Sep 2008 20:03:04 EST Today I am feeling absolutely awesome today...I have done awsome with my meals for the day...I also bought the Jillian Michael set several months back but haven't been ambitious enough to try it till today...well I did the kickboxing cardio, I was amazed with myself I managed to keep up with the whole thing...for the rest of the other dvds it looks like I am going to have to get my step out of storage, I might just actually use it lol!!!!...oh and as far as cleaning out my closet...DONE!!!! Woo hoo... Sun, 14 Sep 2008 16:52:43 EST Turbo Jam Ok so my friend at work has been trying to get me to try turbo jam forever, I still haven't bought the system but as soon as I can I am going to...anyways I found the whole routine on youtube the other day and I absolutely love is is challenging, but not so hard you become frustrated and I sweat so much it is just unreal...I have been wanting to try hip hop abs but have found a full routine on there yet...but I have deffently found something to throw in to the mix Sun, 14 Sep 2008 14:13:33 EST Playmate in Training Challenge Workout Plan: <BR> *Mon-Sat curves <BR> *Walk 2 to 3 times <BR> *work my way to jogging and running <BR> *Do some other form of cardio and strength training daily <BR> <BR> Nutrition Plan: <BR> *Track my calorie intak daily <BR> * Drink at least 8 glasses of water a day <BR> <BR> Beauty Regimen: <BR> *Dye my hair every 4 months <BR> *get nails done once a month <BR> *wax my eyebrows once a month <BR> *at home facial once a week <BR> <BR> Getting Organized: <BR> *Clean out closet by 09/14... Sat, 13 Sep 2008 16:16:01 EST Today Well I am finally kicking myself in the butt!! I have gotten off to a slow start in august, as always life happens, but I spent a much needed weekend with my best friends, which really motivated me and perked up my spirits a bit. She started curves, which my last trip down there she convinced me to do the same, but she has done awesome, she started in Feb at 240 and is now around the 160 range, doesn't even look like the same person....but anyways I have done awesome so far this week, I have ... Fri, 12 Sep 2008 14:34:04 EST