BAZOOKABOBCAT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BAZOOKABOBCAT BAZOOKABOBCAT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My First Half Marathon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718941 When I first started working out, running was an unattainable goal. In fact, in the spirit of full disclosure, it was a goal I didn't even have. To quote Jake, of Adventure Time, running just seemed like some kind of "leg magic" to me. I'd see people on the treadmill for any longer than five minutes and I could not even begin to understand how they were able to survive that. <BR> <BR> My first experience with running was using the SparkPeople 5k Your Way program. That was last spring, I thin... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 08:54:19 EST Busier and Fitter Than Ever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656814 Hi SparkFriends! <BR> <BR> I don't blog nearly as often as I used to but a lot's been going on so I thought I would. <BR> <BR> Awesome Husband has finally gotten back into a routine and we've been hitting the gym four or five times a week which I really like. I've been mostly running but I try to work in my lifting days still. It's definitely hard to balance the two since running takes so much TIME. <BR> <BR> Running is the biggest challenge I've ever tackled but I'm rising to it! I ran my... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 08:36:13 EST A-Z About Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5603139 I can't resist. Everyone else is doing them. <BR> <BR> A is for Age: 27. Thirty is fast approaching! <BR> B is for Booze: Wine. I am all about Carmenere lately. <BR> C is for Car: 2013 Honda Fit. I call her Vworp. <BR> D is for Dad's name: Michael <BR> E is for Ego: It is..........large. Except when it's not. <BR> F is for Favorite song or music: Hmmmm, lately I'm all about the Frozen soundtrack and dubstep for running. But my taste is pretty eclectic. Anything from Bollywood soundtracks t... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 09:08:46 EST This Week's Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5560380 I've noticed that a lot of you have been posting blog entries with your goals lately and I like that idea a lot. I figured I'd do the same. <BR> <BR> Goals for 12/9-12/15 <BR> -do all three of my scheduled runs <BR> -eat whole foods for at least 80% of my intake <BR> -do at least one upper body ST workout <BR> -do at least one lower body ST workout <BR> -write in journal at least twice <BR> -hang up art in sewing room and move vanity into bedroom <BR> -cook dinner every night this week Mon, 9 Dec 2013 09:50:50 EST Goals, PRs, Doing More http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555771 Hello SparkBuddies! <BR> <BR> It's been so long. Inspiration doesn't seem to hit as often as it used to but I'm doing well! Lots of changes, though! <BR> <BR> Some of you may remember that I wrote a blog entry a while back about some poor experiences I was having at the gym. And then that I decided to go back to P90X, this time with the sequel. That went well for a while but I found myself getting bored. Don't get me wrong. P90X2 is a challenge. And it taught me that I'm able to do so much... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 08:56:50 EST A Hiking Adventure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514980 Since I've been at my job for so long, I have a LOT of vacation hours. So I've been using them steadily so I don't lose them at the end of the year. My father recently asked me if I wanted to go up north to hike on Columbus Day. I jumped at the opportunity! So I took Friday off (to be with Awesome Husband) and yesterday off to recuperate. <BR> <BR> My father said he wanted to hike Mt. Chocorua in NH. It's in the White Mountains but it is not one of the other 4,000 footers. My father has don... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 09:10:00 EST What I've Been Up To (With Pics!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5502246 Last week, I started up with P90X2. It was awesome getting back to my roots and it was encouraging to see that what used to be a real challenge for me now, if not easy, is much more attainable. Although, day three involved some stuff that I just could not do. Lots of laughter happened. Look up "Boing Pushups" on YouTube. Yeah, those? Nearly impossible. <BR> <BR> This past weekend, I ran two 5k events. The first was Color Me Rad and it was a blast. I finished in 31 minutes and ran it with a g... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 08:57:21 EST Back to My Roots http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494636 Two years ago, I asked my SparkFriends for advice. I'd been working out at home for a long time and Awesome Husband asked if I wanted to join the gym. I didn't want to. It freaked me out. But I wanted to share my exercise experience with him. So we joined the gym. <BR> <BR> It's been an excellent two years. I got my deadlift over 200lbs. I got my squat up to 180lbs. I took up running and have become........proficient. Not good. But functional. <BR> <BR> But lately, the gym just does not hol... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 09:11:36 EST Vacationing and the Dreaded Weight Gain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474388 This weekend Awesome Husband and I went on a trip to Mystic, CT. Mystic is only about an hour south of us but it's a lovely town. <BR> <BR> And yes, Mystic Pizza is a restaurant that exists there. <BR> <BR> And no, we did not go. It has awful reviews on Yelp. <BR> <BR> Instead, we headed to New London on Friday morning. We went to a cafe that had awesome reviews. When we walked in, I have never felt less cool in my life. Everyone in that cafe was super hip. We got coffee. The coffee was so... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 09:48:48 EST An Even Better Run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424027 My last blog entry was about the triumph of an excellent run. <BR> <BR> This one is about the same thing. <BR> <BR> Today I had to run 4 miles on my training program. My last PR was three miles. That is a WHOLE MILE MORE. <BR> <BR> Guys. That is a lot more. <BR> <BR> At about 1.75, I was very very tired. My shoelace came undone and it was magical because it meant I could stop for thirty seconds and tie it. And then I kept going. And I started talking to myself. <BR> <BR> You are going t... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 10:20:51 EST Short and Sweet (A Moment of Triumph) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5415315 I do not make a secret of the fact that I hate running. <BR> <BR> I am starting to hate it less. But it is not something I am innately good at. Lifting, I understand that. I have always been strong. And getting stronger is easy for me. Except for when it comes to my lower back but that is just a whole other thing. <BR> <BR> Running is something that takes everything I've got. It is HARD for me. So, naturally, I want to get better at it. I want to beat it. I hate that something can defeat m... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 09:40:44 EST Jolene Haack's Guide To Running http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407160 Jolene Haack's Guide to Running: <BR> Step 1: Get a good song playing. Yeah. Running is your jam. <BR> Step 2: Run for thirty seconds then relace untied shoe. <BR> Step 3: Sprint that hill. Yes. RUNNING. <BR> Step 4: Gasp like a fish for a while as your pace suffers because you sprinted a hill. <BR> Step 5: Skrillex?!?!? YES. You will run off into the sunset. <BR> Step 6: Thirty seconds later realize you're only at .75 miles?!?!?!?!? <BR> Step 7: WHAT BOJO THOUGHT RUNNING WAS A GOOD IDEA?!?! ... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 09:13:05 EST I Am Awesome (And So Are You) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5401238 Go Kaleo, who I am sure all of you know I absolutely love, recently made a meme of a photo of herself, listing all her supposed "flaws" and finished it off with saying she was awesome. Not in spite of. Not "awesome even with all these flaws". Just awesome. <BR> <BR> She then invited other women to make a meme of themselves. <BR> <BR> So I did. And sent it to her. <BR> <BR> http://gokaleo.com/2013/06/24/im-awesome<BR>-and-so-are-you/ <BR> <BR> My photo is currently at the bottom. Me in a ... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 10:53:54 EST Form Correction for Box Squats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5397147 Hey all! I've started taking videos of my squats because I want to be sure they're good form. And then I realized I haven't blogged in forever. So I figured I'd share the video! <BR> <BR> <link>https://www.dropbox.com/s/omluyqhtxa<BR>pozvt/2013-06-21%2006.43.45.mp4 </link> Fri, 21 Jun 2013 09:09:36 EST Taking Up Space (With Photos) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5318173 Whoa, it's been a while! Just a quick check in. My workouts and unprocessed eating have been going well. I feel like I'm very well able to practice moderation. A slice of pizza or a scoop of ice cream isn't going to make or break me and I'm loving it. <BR> <BR> I also started a new workout program. I'm in the first week. It's by Nia Shanks of Lift Like a Girl fame. It's a fifteen week lifting program. GETTIN SWOLE WITH IT. <BR> <BR> I'm on a mission of self-acceptance, of not needing to fix... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 09:53:27 EST Acts of Gym Kindness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5293417 So since the ballerina comment from my last blog post, things haven't necessarily gotten much better. I've still been feeling remarkably unwelcome in "boys club". In fact, when doing an upper body circuit last week, some guy came over and took the bench I was using. I had just stood up from it, was doing curls with my legs still touching the bench and the rest of my weights all around it, and he sat down and took it without even asking me. I was sad. <BR> <BR> We've changed the time when we... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 09:06:04 EST A Gym Story That Will Make No One Laugh (Least of All Me) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265687 If you'd asked Little Jolene what she wanted to be when she grew up, you'd probably hear something having to do with horses or to be a veterinarian. I sincerely doubt that I ever suggested being a princess. And I never wanted to be a ballerina. <BR> <BR> Ballerinas are some of the most talented and strong and fit individuals I've ever seen. I just never wanted to be one. Under most circumstances, being called a ballerina would probably not insult me. What's to be insulted about? <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 09:03:30 EST Oh My Glob, You Guys. Gym Drama Bomb! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264553 Last night I got to the gym and it was crazy packed. It was packed to the point where I had to alter my gym plan consistently because I couldn't get to the equipment I needed. But do you know what happens when the gym is packed? If you guessed Gym Stories you are right. <BR> <BR> I set myself up in a squat rack to do narrow stance squats and barbell step ups and all sorts of thigh-shaking awesomeness and noticed a young chap set up in a rack behind me. I went over to steal a plate from his r... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 10:40:56 EST Gymventures! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238461 A running theme in my gym stories is the characters I meet at the gym. I meet a lot of them. A lot. From Phil the (incredibly nice) leech to Paul, who trolled me hard, to stinky guy, to guy who sort of questioned whether or not I was a woman? Still not sure on that last one. These stories probably make my gym trips sound more exciting than they are. In reality, they're usually fairly low key. But when I get a gem, I share it with you guys. I'm sharing a few this time around. <BR> <BR> One o... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 09:35:29 EST TAKE THAT GYM BROS!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230197 Last night, Awesome Husband and I went to the gym for a really quick session before heading over a friend's house for dinner. We knew we didn't have much time but we both had had really stressful work days and wanted to lift some metal. Also, my new weight lifting belt and chalk came in and I was desperate to try them out. <BR> <BR> We get to the gym and we rush over to claim a power rack. The amount of guys near the racks is unbelievable. Most of them are working out together, four or five ... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 12:01:02 EST Further Gym Adventures (Back by Popular Demand) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218240 Okay, popular demand might just be a note on my wall from the lovely Kim_Possible77 asking how I'm doing since there haven't been any gym adventures! Well, don't you worry. I've had them. I just haven't posted about them for some reason. Buckle up. These are good ones. <BR> <BR> My last blog post was about my goals on my big lifts so recently I was at the gym working on my squat. I was at a rack and I loaded the bar up to 135lbs. Did my set. And I noticed there was a man on the rack immediat... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 09:03:54 EST Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5181833 I've been thinking about goals all morning and feeling positive about them. It might be because I've had the flu for a week and have barely worked out at all and am itching to get back to the gym. <BR> <BR> So goals. Goals which I have definitive plans to reward when they are reached. My rewards are already pinned. Thank you, Pinterest! <BR> <BR> So by mid-year, I want to be at <BR> <BR> 100lb power clean <BR> 180lb squat <BR> 200lb deadlift <BR> <BR> <BR> I can do this. I want this. Mon, 31 Dec 2012 08:36:36 EST An Exceptionally Important Revelation. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172714 Do you want to know what sucks? Being afraid to look in a mirror because all you see is flaws. Being afraid of the scale because it very well might ruin your whole day and not in an abstract way. In a tears and anxiety kind of way. Having a fun night out and eating a little extra and then being wracked with guilt. Worrying about missing a workout. Knowing that your body is a good body and that it is strong as crap and more fit than ever but still hating it. Being afraid to talk about it becau... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 08:36:29 EST Hushing My Inner Jerk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5127210 Last night I left BodyCombat, sweaty and beet-red, with a burning hip and a little fear that I'd overdone it, when I saw a friend. We got to chatting about the assorted classes offered by the gym and the various instructors and members of the classes. Over the course of the conversation we admitted that it helps to be in the front of the class to keep our brains from slipping into judgment mode. You've probably been there. It's an ugly place. <BR> <BR> You're working hard, working as hard as... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 11:15:35 EST Adding Something New (Spoilers: It's CrossFit) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5119985 Whoa. It's been a while since I posted anything. I don't really have anything insightful to say. Just some updates on what I've been up to. <BR> <BR> Awesome Husband hasn't been up to the gym this week. He's fighting something. He feels okay but he's feverish and wakes up in the middle of the night pouring sweat. Not to mention that Monday was the storm. <BR> <BR> So I've decided to try some new things. The key here is: METABOLIC WORKOUTS!!! <BR> <BR> Monday and Tuesday evening I did circu... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 08:51:35 EST Practicing What I Preach http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5092483 I talk a lot about body love and acceptance. I always have. But most of the time, I'm a giant hypocrite. <BR> <BR> At my lowest, I had a hard time looking in any mirror I walked by. I'd cry sometimes. I'd keep my arms crossed over my belly when I sat down. I fidgeted with my shirts to make sure any and all bulges were covered. I did this at my skinniest. I did it at my heaviest. <BR> <BR> I'm trying not to do it now. <BR> <BR> It's so easy to just hate. It's easy to be afraid and to speak... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 10:36:43 EST Getting Back To It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5081771 Last Friday I had my last visit with my physical therapist. She did some strength tests, looked at my range of mobility and tightness, asked about pain levels, brought me into the gym to do lunges with dumbbells and strength moves with a resistance band, and asked how I was feeling. I said I felt great! <BR> <BR> We talked about the game plan to get back to the gym. She recommended I keep on the treadmill where I can control incline for a while before I start walking/jogging from my house w... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 08:41:04 EST Sad Spiral http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5063477 Maybe this entry is going to be really just for me. Or maybe it's so people know what's going on inside my head. Maybe I just need to get it all out. <BR> <BR> Being depressed is not something that usually happens to me. Anxiety, sure. Me and anxiety are buds. This being depressed business is something new entirely. <BR> <BR> And thing is, being this sad just makes me feel like more of a whiney-faced baby because comparatively, my problems are so small. <BR> <BR> Here's what's going on. <... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 15:29:37 EST Your First Amendment Rights http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5057255 In the past two days, you have undoubtedly heard or read about the tragedy that occurred in Libya and the subsequent riots at embassies in Egypt and Yemen. I have no intention of making this a political statement. I work very hard to try to stay neutral in all political matters. The reason I mention it is that the protests occurred after a fourteen minute trailer for an anti-Islam film was put on Youtube. To say that it is hateful would be a massive understatement. The man who made it is not,... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 08:39:08 EST Just Say No to Fitspo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5043890 Awhile back, my motto on my SparkPage was "Strong, Not Skinny". I'd recently found the "Strong is the New Skinny" ideal and I loved it. I loved the idea of muscles being sexy. I loved the idea of strength being sexy. <BR> <BR> But something happened. The more I looked at the images being presented the more I realized that really the message was "Strong AND Skinny is sexy". Miles of photos of perfect headless six-packs and cleavage covered every facebook page. The message was skewed. And it ... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 11:47:51 EST Critically Thinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5034303 I use Facebook too much. I freely admit it. But in doing so, I found an absolutely incredible Facebook page called Go Kaleo. The woman who runs it, Amber, is a powerhouse. She's fit and strong, had an incredible journey, and basically became Yoda in the process. But not the adorable lovable Yoda who sagely grumbles and gives advice. <BR> <BR> No, she's the Yoda who sits on your back while you're doing backflips through the swamp and yells at you. <BR> <BR> I love it. <BR> <BR> She doesn't... Tue, 28 Aug 2012 08:37:24 EST Fear is the Mind Killer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5027512 Last night, Awesome Husband and I met Awesome Sister and Awesome Brother-in-Law for dinner at a local mexican place and then went to a cafe after for a decaf almond milk latte and half a cannoli. It was delightful. We sat outside and chatted for an hour or so, had some laughs, and just generally enjoyed ourselves. <BR> <BR> But since my butt/hip are the current topic du jour, conversation eventually came around to my prognosis, diagnosis, assorted -osis. Fact is, I'm still on crutches. I hav... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 08:29:39 EST Butt Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5026086 My typical style when I come on here is to try to be a little humorous, a little irreverent, a lot sarcastic. I just don't have it in me today. <BR> <BR> Here's the thing. I KNOW that what I'm going through right now, on the scale of life catastrophes, barely even registers. It feels selfish to be so sad. It IS selfish. But guys, I am tired. <BR> <BR> Last night, after trying to engage in some.......ahem.......activities, unsuccessfully I might add, I was left in enough pain that I had to t... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 09:39:29 EST My Broken Butt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5013297 Well SparkBuddies, I am officially in a rut. Not because I've given up. Not because I've been eating poorly. Not because of anxiety or a busy life. <BR> <BR> No. <BR> <BR> It is because I broke my butt. <BR> <BR> Okay not actually. It's not broken. But it does hurt like a son of a beesting and I can't walk on my right leg at all. I'm crutchin' my way around these days. <BR> <BR> Here's how it went down. Last Wednesday I did a kettlebell CrossFit WOD at my own gym. It was enjoyable. Nothin... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 10:02:12 EST The 50 Things About Me Game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4975742 I saw a few of these on my feed so I figured I'd do it! <BR> <BR> 1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? <BR> No sir. It's not often you meet other Jolenes. <BR> <BR> 2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? <BR> Hmmm. I'm not sure. Probably watching a movie of some sort. <BR> <BR> 3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? <BR> I love it. It is absolutely atrocious and a little masculine. <BR> <BR> 4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? <BR> I am not into lunch meat at all. But if I have to choose it'd be ... Wed, 18 Jul 2012 08:49:37 EST So I Guess I'm a Runner Now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4972434 Let me start this by saying: I hate to run. <BR> <BR> I hate it. I HATE it. I've made my peace with that. <BR> <BR> But I am nothing if not determined. So if I'm bad at something, if I hate it, you can be gorram sure I am going to conquer it. <BR> <BR> So have I conquered running? No. I haven't. Not YET. But I will. <BR> <BR> When I started running (read: jogging fairly slowly), even after months and months of P90X and TurboFire, even when I knew that I was fit, I could jog for barely t... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 08:53:18 EST Superfoods and Why That Ridiculous Word Makes Me Insane http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4934336 So I was driving into work today, sweaty and exhausted from the gym and only half awake because, guys, it's 7:30 at this point. I am not a morning person. So anyways. A commercial comes on the radio and it's all "Blah blah blah, the superfood you should eat more of!!" It was blueberries or something. I don't even know. Doesn't matter. <BR> <BR> I went into rage mode. Which, to be fair, at my current state of exhaustion and sweat, rage mode looked kind of like........a slightly furrowed brow.... Wed, 20 Jun 2012 08:39:13 EST A Very Muddy Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4921335 Awesome Husband and I ran the Warrior Dash this weekend about ten minutes from our house. It was a great experience. We didn't really train for it aside from our normal routine and neither of us are runners so our time kind of reflected that. But we had such a good time! <BR> <BR> We headed to the course at around 12 and checked in then spent a good chunk of the time people-watching. The costumes were excellent. We saw barbarians, ballerinas, men in pink hot pants, women in tutus, men in tut... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 09:43:12 EST A Superb Weekend, The Face, and a Melodramatic Plea for Help!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4870073 Ever start a blog but have to stare at the box for ten minutes before you can even think of a way to say ANYTHING because there's so much to say? Yeah. <BR> <BR> Let's try........Good morning! <BR> <BR> And it is. Because my weekend was so excellent. So very very excellent. Thursday night, Awesome Husband and I went to see The Avengers at midnight along with every other human being on earth. I'm a comic book nerd, so keep that in mind. But when I tell you the movie was PERFECT, I surely do... Mon, 7 May 2012 09:01:44 EST Gym Giggles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4862921 When Awesome Husband and I first joined the gym I wrote a blog about all the characters there. There are some new faces at this point but the crowd has mostly stayed the same. We've learned a few names. (Hint: Every guy is named Paul, Phil, or Mike) <BR> <BR> Recently we've made a pretty good "friend". And by "friend" I mean PLEASE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! <BR> <BR> Let me clarify. This man, whose name is Phil, is actually really really nice. He's just also a haunt. A barnacle. A parasitic grow... Wed, 2 May 2012 11:25:37 EST Brutal Beyond All Words http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4858848 So I had a truly fantastic weekend. Friday night Awesome Mother-in-Law, Awesome Sister-in-Law Senior and Awesome Sister-in-Law Junior and Future Awesome Sister-in-Law went out for what we dubbed "tequila and underpants party". Future Awesome Sister-in-Law is getting married in a month to Awesome Husband's little brother. So we had a super fun mini bachelorette at a truly fabulous tequila cantina. We laughed. We ate. We joked. It was fabulous. <BR> <BR> Saturday morning Awesome Husband and I ... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 08:52:04 EST Is My Lower Body Even Attached Right Now?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4851184 So that workout I posted yesterday? Sweet lord. SWEET LORD. My butt and thighs feel like they're made out of wood. And I do not mean this like in a "I have buns of steel!!!" sort of motivating way. I mean that they are so sore they don't even feel like living flesh anymore. It's brutal. <BR> <BR> I sort of love it. <BR> <BR> But when I woke up this morning, stretched and immediately asked Awesome Husband if he would give me a butt massage, the last thing I wanted to do was hit the gym. But ... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 08:38:00 EST Long Time No See! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4849499 Heya guys! It's surely been a long time since I've blogged! <BR> <BR> For the past month I've been battling with anxiety. My doctor diagnosed me with General Anxiety Disorder a few years ago but it honestly doesn't crop up that often. Every once in a while I'll have a panic attack and sure, stressful situations tend to hit me harder than others. But it's been years since an episode of anxiety has struck and then stuck around. I'm blaming it on hormones. <BR> <BR> I don't to belabor the poi... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 09:14:27 EST The Inconvenience of Health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4783303 I just want to relay a brief story about something that happened to me this weekend that I really think is indicative of a larger problem. <BR> <BR> Awesome Husband and I went to a favorite local restaurant a little after noon to have a late breakfast. The specials cried out to me but the night before had been a little overindulgent so I decided to choose a much healthier omelette. The waitress came over and I ordered it this way: <BR> <BR> Me: "Can I have an omelette but can I have just on... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 09:24:40 EST Trying to Make Sense of it All http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4775448 Grey clouds pouring tears <BR> All my thoughts are cliches <BR> Tomorrow is a better day <BR> This, too, shall pass <BR> A friend in need.... <BR> Words buzz and swarm <BR> but do not heal. <BR> Loving arms hold and console <BR> but do not solve. <BR> Prayers help. <BR> The comfort comes. <BR> And yet the war wages <BR> Where are answers? <BR> Where is solace? <BR> How to help under a drowning sea of truthful cliches? Wed, 7 Mar 2012 11:12:53 EST 25 Habits I Cultivate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4773450 Some of these are a work in progress. Many I don't even think about anymore. <BR> <BR> 1. Telling my loved ones that I love them at every opportunity. Hanging up the phone. Leaving their house. Saying goodnight. All. The. Time. <BR> 2. Cooking meals at home instead of going out. <BR> 3. Having meaningful conversation with Awesome Husband. We don't really have to work to cultivate this. We always talk. <BR> 4. Reading books. <BR> 5. Reading the Bible daily. <BR> 6. Praying. Not just before me... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 10:23:09 EST Today's Motto http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4764964 I actually journalled this as well, including the picture, in an effort to force myself to be positive and forgiving and proud of my own accomplishments. (Ran my first 5k today on the treadmill with only TWO walking breaks!) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l756712283.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is Pauline Nordin. She is phenomenal. <BR> <BR> But this is what I wrote in my journal: <BR> <BR> This body might be what I WANT but that does not mean that it is a reasonabl... Thu, 1 Mar 2012 09:54:53 EST Very Small Accomplishments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4752992 Well folks, time to check in and update the ol' goals. <BR> <BR> Some of you may have checked out my Goals pinboard on Pinterest. Making it was the right thing to do because I've already accomplished one goal! Now I just have to make sure I have the money to buy my reward. <BR> <BR> This past week has been rewarding in and of itself. I lost two pounds doing a three day cleanse. Don't be gross. It wasn't poop. hahahaha. <BR> <BR> I put up a new progress photo on my SparkPage that I am hones... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 10:19:07 EST A Truly Exciting Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4743217 This morning Awesome Husband and I moaned and groaned our way out of bed, were super late for the gym, and neither of us wanted to do Kris Gethin's leg routine. Not only are his routines out of control difficult, they primarily use machines and we always used free weights and bars for leg day. So we modified a bit, did some of what he prescribed and some of our own thing. Standing hamstring curls, bb calf raises, front squats with a bar, straight leg deadlift with a bar, leg press, etc. <BR>... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 10:53:11 EST 20 Things That Make Me Smile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4740111 1. Puppies. My own or others. Those little wiggly bums and round tummies just make me light up inside. <BR> <BR> 2. A quilt fresh out of the dryer. <BR> <BR> 3. The smell of garlic frying. <BR> <BR> 4. Doctor Who <BR> <BR> 5. Quoting movies back and forth with friends. Yes it annoys everyone else. Makes me smile. <BR> <BR> 6. Curling up with a book. <BR> <BR> 7. A really good cry. Yeah yeah. Bit of a paradox. <BR> <BR> 8. Awesome Husband sleeping later than me so I can wake him up and ... 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