BAYBELIEVER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=BAYBELIEVER BAYBELIEVER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ A blog redo- Remembering McDonalds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5097107 Life has been a struggle lately. I have found a hole in myself that I have believed could be filled with food. I have felt like there are so many things in my life right now that are upside down, backward, and in turmoil. I am working 2 jobs. My real one (the 40 hour a week one) is having me work close to 60 hours a week. I am tired. I am lonely at home all alone with my 3 children out of the house mostly (my youngest is a sophomore in college). I have let weight creep back on. I am working a... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 00:21:40 EST Doing better. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5043187 Had my "off" day yesterday according to my new carb cycling program. And I had planned for it all week. <BR> <BR> I am a huge fan of Panera Bread's cobblestone roll with my breakfast. Mmm. Mmmm. So all week long when I thought of it I got to say, no, wait for Sunday. This happened about 3 times during the week. That shows what a problem this is. But, anyone can wait 6 days or less, right? I also wanted an oyster po' boy so since I had to work in the resort community where that restaurant is... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 22:42:27 EST September 1. My promise. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5039731 So today is September 1. Today begins a new promise to myself. It was an ugly summer and I knew it. I had to step back and get it all together. I spent the last 2 weeks planning, prepping and taking it all back. I promised myself that BY September 1 I would go back on plan. <BR> <BR> And I did, actually on August 27. I have been eating better and moving more. I wasn't perfect, but I know I never will be. I will shoot for perfection as I do everything else in my life, but I will live my life ... Sat, 1 Sep 2012 08:50:03 EST No. No. No. No. No. No. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4977400 After 1.75 years of "treating myself well" suddenly something in me crashed and I decided I wasn't worth it anymore. <BR> <BR> No. Not really. <BR> <BR> And after a couple months of wondering what happened, why I am this way? Why would I go back from feeling so good inside and better outside to feeling like I am a stuffed sausage again? <BR> <BR> And now, after those couple of months wondering I think it comes down to this for me: The work of saying "no" had become too hard. <BR> <BR> T... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 08:57:27 EST I am me. Now. Even if I don't know it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4971981 I have a plan, finally! I am using the Spark nutrition tracker and have developed some MEALS that I made into groupings so it will be easy to track and assign those things I eat on a either routine or rotating basis. My calorie range given my size and exercise level is 2300-2600. <BR> <BR> I am going to walk at least 2 times each week, in addition to my weightlifting. If it is too hot outside, I have a Leslie Sansone DVD with the 1 mile, 2 mile, 3 mile and 4 mile workouts. I also have some ... Sun, 15 Jul 2012 22:24:00 EST Help. Suggestions. Encouragement. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4969924 I could use any help, suggestions, or encouragement right now. <BR> <BR> I have stumbled. Let's be real, I have fallen and I can't get up! <BR> <BR> I do keep trying. I fall down and reach up my hand to the kitchen counter and refrigerator and get the eggs, peaches, turkey, broccoli. And it all feels good. And then I stumble over a cookie or ice cream and realize that this behavior is making me lose ground. <BR> <BR> The seatbelt in the car is a little tighter. Shirts are a little more st... Sat, 14 Jul 2012 11:30:27 EST My own worst enemy; need to be my friend. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4948729 It's been a rough late spring/early summer. Yep. I am one of THOSE people. The ones who lost 90 lbs and then got scared, I think. I have no other reason to understand why I sabotage myself. I have gained weight back. I know that. Despite a plateau for a long time, the past 2 months have been all my own doing. <BR> <BR> Whatever that is. Because I am too scared to actually step on a scale at this point. I am terrified. I know my clothes are tighter. I know the car's seatbelt is not as easy to... Sat, 30 Jun 2012 09:51:30 EST The 12-day experiment ends. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4846314 Well, the great 12-day experiment that my trainers wanted me to try out because they suspected I might have a food sensitivity ended this morning. And I have very mixed feelings about it. Some of which actually start with my trainers. <BR> <BR> I lamented starting this originally. Mostly because of my 4 trainers, 2 said this was a 12-day thing and then we would slowly reintroduce foods. Good, I am good with that. However, the 2 others said if it worked it would be for a couple years. And I w... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 09:54:49 EST Being Great and Loving It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4843875 Today's workout: <BR> Deadlifts: <BR> 10 reps at 65 lbs. <BR> 10 reps at 85 lbs. <BR> 5 reps at 155 lbs. <BR> 3 reps at 185 lbs. <BR> 3 reps at 205 lbs. <BR> Circuit: <BR> 21 deadlifts at 85 lbs <BR> 21 box squats holding a 30 lb sandbag <BR> 15 deadlifts at 85 lbs. <BR> 15 box squats holding same 30 lb sandbag <BR> 9 deadlifts at 85 lbs. <BR> 9 box squats holding you guessed it! <BR> For time...and I did it in about 14 minutes, which Mike (my trainer) said was just flying through. I thought ... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 10:10:52 EST Weight loss giveth...and mall management taketh. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4836251 What a weekend! Uggh. I hate my weekends, for those who don't already know it. Yes, they can be relaxing and away from work. But they are very, very lonely for me. Friday nights are okay because I have worked all day. But by Saturday afternoon, I am incredibly lonely. And then for the next few weekends, I will be extremely busy with my volunteer work. <BR> <BR> I am volunteering to head up and water station at the Ocean City Marathon. And we have to have a theme. So this year's theme is "Ov... Sun, 15 Apr 2012 15:55:41 EST Shout Out. Stop the voices in my head. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4827816 Not much more to say. <BR> <BR> Having a terrible time of it today. Did really, really well on my trip. Ate as clean as anyone could hope to while traveling. I walked 4.5 miles one day and over 2 the other two days. <BR> <BR> Came home. <BR> <BR> Celebrated Easter alone. For the first time in many, many years. But I had lamb, asparagus (4 spears from my garden in the back yard) and strawberry shortcake. That's my traditional Easter dinner. <BR> <BR> Today. Ate well. And worked 13 hours... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 21:56:21 EST When I was a Kid http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4825584 I am easing into blogging again, since I have been out of town for a week on business and I need to do somethings relaxing... <BR> <BR> Happy Easter everyone! <BR> <BR> <em>451</em> <em>448</em> <em>453</em> <em>448</em> <em>452</em> <BR> <BR> 1. My parents told me…My mom always told me I was the smart one and would do great things. Of course I haven't (not the great things she thought) so I feel guilty of having not lived up to her expectations. <BR> <BR> 2. I wanted to grow up to ... Sun, 8 Apr 2012 11:57:08 EST Being Real. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4813232 I had a day yesterday of wallowing in self pity. And today I am going to move into hermit mode. I cried a lot yesterday. And apparently crying the way I do it is a cardio workout because I lost 2 pounds yesterday despite not eating well, although not high calorie, just not great nutritionally sound food. I am sure I will pay. <BR> <BR> I found out truthfully yesterday in a statement face to face that my trainers don't get what is going on with me either. They truly don't. They expected much ... Sat, 31 Mar 2012 08:23:39 EST Give it up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4790469 If you read my blog of yesterday, you know that I was hoping for awesome, incredible news from my Bod Pod test. This is actually a second test and so I was hoping to see some great improvement. I haven't been losing weight (I actually gained a portion back in 3 weeks in December, like 10 pounds a week!). On January 1 we changed things in my diet and focused on workouts, increasing my weightlifting to 3 times a week (from 2). A few weeks ago I also focused again on walking "deliberately". I wa... Fri, 16 Mar 2012 11:17:53 EST Today's the day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4788975 Today is my appointment for my second BodPod visit. So, I may not have lost any weight or inches, but everyone says this is the day that I will get to "see" the transformation that my body is making. <BR> <BR> I am TERRIFIED! I feel in some ways like this is a last chance...the last chance my body has to tell me that what I am doing for it is actually doing something. <BR> <BR> I had lost 90 lbs a while ago. 35 of it crept back. I am not even really sure why totally, yes some of it was n... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 12:20:58 EST Mine. All mine. Make it yours. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4780377 My gym is one of those old-style PE-type gyms. We do jumping jacks, squats with medicine balls, push prowlers, pull sleds, push ups, pull ups, jump rope, etc. etc. There isn't a shiny, new piece of equipment anywhere. Well, there are 4 rowers. But otherwise we run around the building, sprint grate to grate, or flip tires--big honking truck tires! <BR> <BR> I have been doing weightlifting 3 times a week at the gym. I can bench press 145 lbs now (which apparently makes me the best female bench... Sat, 10 Mar 2012 09:46:46 EST Meant to be fat. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4756260 That's how I feel today. That I am just meant to be super obese. My body hates me. It refuses to follow all those "simple" rules. It even fails to follow all those ones I keep telling it. Like you have to give in someday. You have to realize I mean this and you have to start going down again. <BR> <BR> Today, all those things I tell everyone else is Crap. Or maybe not. I don't know. <BR> <BR> I have been working my butt off. Last October I had lost 85 lbs in 18 months. And even though th... Sat, 25 Feb 2012 09:55:18 EST The Power of Hard Work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4734970 I have had this blog theme running through my head for about 2 weeks. It all originated with another Sparker asking for ways to make tracking food and losing weight easier. It made me think. And in my new full disclosure mode I am in, thanks to some SERIOUS sisters, I had to reply that right now, I honestly think there are no shortcuts. And in the ensuing weeks I thought about it a lot. And things have "appeared" that have only served to support this statement. <BR> <BR> First, I thought ab... Sun, 12 Feb 2012 10:52:03 EST Working Out...Being Last. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4700924 At the gym, I am always longest in finishing the workouts (they are timed). Last week at one on Thursday we did an actual workout where we all had to start at the same time. Usually we all just start when we are ready. Of course at the end, I was still a minute or more behind everyone else. I had to finish with everyone watching and cheering me on. But, just like with the scale, all I felt was shame and embarrassment that the fat lady was last. I couldn't celebrate, as I should have, that I d... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 11:15:49 EST It's Tuesday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4687573 It's Tuesday. Things aren't much improved from my last blog and from the weekend. I have been unable to go to the gym yesterday and today. They are closed on Sundays. So I haven't been since Saturday. I also did a 2 mile walk on Saturday. But, nothing since then. And I hate, hate, HATE not being able to go to the gym and do what I can to work toward my ever increasing health! There is no way around it. It is not just about working through the pain because I would gladly do that. It is about ... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 19:19:41 EST Follow the darn rules! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4682844 It has been a horrible weekend. As I finished this blog up, there was no redemption to that thought. Don't read if you are looking for encouragement. I wasn't going to keep this, but it is about me. And I need to write this to get out how I feel. Sorry. Don't read it. You have been warned. <BR> <BR> Today is my day to weigh in. I avoid the scale but once a week so I can check in and make sure that things are going as expected. Of course they aren't. <BR> <BR> How can you adopt a new eating... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 20:07:03 EST Fighting Glad. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4670756 I need to reach out. I have been back at it hard and heavy for about 8 days now. That is awesome! In my first week I lost 7.8 lbs and despite the fact that it is some weight I am re-losing, it is all a part of the cycle of life. I am not happy about it, but I am currently thrilled that at least I am losing it and that I was able to say enough after the wedding and the holidays. Not everyone can do that. I know. I wish they could. But I am glad that I have been able to. <BR> <BR> Interestingl... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 08:58:02 EST The Hard Work Continues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4649311 So many people are on here today doing one of two things: You are either revisiting 2011/planning for 2012 or you are signing up! Yep, it's that time of year when probably hundreds of thousands of people are resolving to get healthier and trying to find that magic fix to make it happen! <BR> <BR> Well, I hate to burst anyone of those people's bubbles, but there is no magic pill, some special procedure, or some compelling words that will make a weight loss journey easy as...salad. <BR> <BR... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 19:34:11 EST Reflections. Honesty. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4640818 Christmas is over. And since I don't have any plans for New Years, I am finishing up any "cravings" I had for this time of year and then am ready to get back on track. <BR> <BR> The wedding started a downward spiral that didn't really get out of control until Christmas weekend. But, it wasn't as good as it should have been for that whole period. There was a lot of ups and downs. <BR> <BR> I am not happy with where I am right now. I have gained about 20 of the 90 pounds I had lost. Let's be... Tue, 27 Dec 2011 21:48:55 EST Wedding Promises--My daughter's silly! -- With Pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4625823 That's right, there was no dating and wedding for me silly! <BR> <BR> But I did promise after my daughter's wedding I would share pictures and information. So, finally I am getting to it. <BR> <BR> The wedding was wonderful and very personal. There were all sorts of issues that made it different from what we planned, but it all worked out in the end. The wedding was suppose to be quick and small to replace a courthouse wedding I asked her not to do so I could give my only daughter a weddi... Wed, 14 Dec 2011 18:44:06 EST December 2011-Goals, Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4607480 First, let's just say, "I'm awesome!" <BR> <BR> My trainer says I have to say that every morning. I need to start changing how hard I am on myself. Apparently this was a huge discussion at my daughter's wedding and how I never give myself credit for anything. And I need to change that. No news really. I just don't know how to do that. So, Lisa says I have to tell myself everyday that I'm awesome. Be a little more like her. It's funny now too because both my son in college and my daughter who... Thu, 1 Dec 2011 10:16:54 EST New. Small. Steps. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4536951 Now, see, I am getting better. It has only been a week since my last blog. Hope that means I am trying harder. <BR> <BR> But I am worried not. Eating some days was good. Some days was not. I worked out at the gym only 2 days this week. I am exhausted. I can't sleep. My job situation remains very rocky and every time we turn around our salaries/benefits get less and less. I am working this weekend for free (My old company had a weekend pay policy since they charge our clients $6000 for weeke... Sat, 15 Oct 2011 15:43:48 EST It's been a No Good, Very Bad month. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4525907 I can't believe it has been a little over a month since I last blogged here. And to think in that blog I said that life happening was no reason to make excuses not to take care of ourselves. And because I tried to stare it in the face and beat it down, it fought back. <BR> <BR> I owe all of you an apology for having disappeared after that. I owe all of you a thank you for sending me goodies and leaving comments so I knew you were there. Yes, I was checking in just not reaching out. <BR> <... Sat, 8 Oct 2011 19:45:10 EST Bouncing Back. Lessons being learned. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4467360 That's it. <BR> <BR> I am done. <BR> <BR> So done. <BR> <BR> You know. Life happens. <BR> <BR> And it is not a reason to forget or overlook or make excuses for not taking care of myself. (It also is not a reason for having not found the time to be here with my SparkFriends...more on that later.) <BR> <BR> I am going to find the positive in the past few months: <BR> <BR> - Despite my 27-year-old daughter coming to live with me and introducing all sorts of stuff into my house (bad food... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 11:57:55 EST Year 2, Day 96: Strong is the new Sexy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4396096 The gym I go to is thinking about putting that on some new t-shirts. And I had been thinking about this for a while since I am going to the gym and love my strength training! <BR> <BR> The gym I go to is a "cross fit" type place, mixing up your workouts every single day. Every day on the white board there is a new workout. And it all gets times so that theoretically you can not only see your strength or abilities improve but also your times. <BR> <BR> Here's an example of Wednesday's work... Sat, 30 Jul 2011 15:37:52 EST Year 2, Day 93: The frog in me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4389973 I am working on the frog in me this week (and last!). I have been struggling with wondering if this is all worth it. That's right. <BR> <BR> -Even after losing 100 pounds,. <BR> -Even after going from couch potato to being able to walk 4 or more miles, <BR> -Even after barely being able to life a grocery bag to benching 90 lbs, <BR> <BR> I have started to wonder if it is all worth it. <BR> <BR> And despite telling myself over and over again, even if this is the best I ever do, it was and... Wed, 27 Jul 2011 14:12:48 EST Year 2, Day 91: This is your life--stay in the game! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4385737 Hmmm. That's not pretty. It has been 47 days since my last blog. I have been here logging food and exercise (for the most part) and visiting friends as I could. But, I have not had the dedicated time for catching up and being able to commit to "paper" what has been going on in my life. I have written many, many blogs in my head, but by the time I sit down at the computer to write them, my life has turned topsy-turvy and I no longer have the same feelings, thoughts, positives, or negatives. <... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 18:55:51 EST Year 2, Day 44: Sapphires' Summer Slimdown Letter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4286118 It seemed appropriate that yesterday evening I was sitting on the beach thinking about this challenge to write ourselves a letter and then re-read it at the end of our 10-week BLC Summer Slimdown. I thought about not doing it. I thought about keeping it private, but I am in this challenge full tilt, so I wanted to do it. And then I started thinking about my goals and then I started doodling in the sand. Doesn't that seem appropriate for a summer challenge? So here is the letter I composed. <... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 17:41:52 EST Year 2, Day 27: Just checking in/up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4249109 I just wanted to take a little of my down time to check in so I know (and you, if you care) that I am not gone from here. Things are very, very busy in my life right now. My youngest DS is preparing for his graduation from high school on June 1. This past week we have had his last theater play (Shakespeare Under the Stars) to attend for 3 nights. In addition, my DD (my oldest) has moved home to see her brother in his play and watch him graduate, while at the same time speinding some time with... Sun, 22 May 2011 16:24:49 EST Year 2, Day 17: Working toward acceptance. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4228989 I am so overwhelmed with the notes and comments on my blog yesterday! Thanks everyone for being so supportive and encouraging and trying to help me learn to forgive myself. <BR> <BR> Today was another day like that. It feels great to be back tracking food (not just remembering) and being able to get back to movement. I still slept last night, but I didn't get to bed early enough and that has been an issue. So, that is another thing I need to work on. <BR> <BR> Today after work I decided to... Thu, 12 May 2011 21:38:33 EST Year 2, Day 16: Yeah, it's been a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4226582 The title says it all. I know it. It has been a while since I blogged or really had a ton of time to look in on all my friends here. I have been going through some stuff. Nothing major. Just stuff. Part of it has been the busy-ness of my son's senior year in high school coming to an end. We have had college visits, decisions, an injury to his knee, prom/after prom, and his final play to be presented next week. As if all that wasn't enough, my dad is coming to visit for 2 weeks (to see my DS's... Wed, 11 May 2011 21:09:51 EST Day 362: Loving me. Right here. Right now. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4183303 Well, see that number up there? Yep, we are nearing my 1 year birthday! My 1 year birthday of the new me! Hmmm. What plans should I make? I will have to think about that. <BR> <BR> It has been a long time since I placed a blog out here (for me, at least since I started bloggin). Things have been pretty hectic in my household and I have been dealing with some emotional issues...that aren't likely to go away anytime soon...but that is what life is all about so it is time to get back in my Spar... Fri, 22 Apr 2011 08:56:15 EST Day 349: Seeing the real me (with photo) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4154658 Well, tonight I did it. I went shopping for clothes and bought some. In about 10 days my DS and I will be heading to South Carolina to visit the Univ of South Carolina to see if it meets his needs and desires for his college years. It is already 70 to 75 degrees there, so I figured I was going to need clothes. I don't have any "summer"-like clothes that fit and I hate to embarrass him by wearing clothes that might fall off at any moment! I mean, I may have lost 93 pounds so far, but this body... Sat, 9 Apr 2011 22:54:17 EST Day 339: Two guinea pigs and a newborn calf http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4128559 With thanks to SERAPTAJANE for posting this on her blog, I thought this would be a fun way to look at weight loss to share. <BR> <BR> As of this week, I have lost a guinea pig and a newborn calf! Hoping, before my one year Sparkversary that I can lose a human head, just not mine! <BR> <BR> 1 pound = a Guinea Pig <BR> 1.5 pounds = a dozen Krispy Kreme glazed donuts <BR> 2 pounds = a rack of baby back ribs <BR> 3 pounds = an average human brain <BR> 4 pounds = an ostrich egg <BR> 5 pou... Wed, 30 Mar 2011 08:51:04 EST Day 328: Terrifying Turns Terrific! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4100814 Some of you have asked about what I did that was terrifying on Wednesday! And I am sorry I didn't get to this last night, but we were having internet issues and I got too frustrated trying to stay connected. And since frustration isn't a cardio exercise, I stopped letting myself from trying. <BR> <BR> Well, here's how the story goes... <BR> <BR> So, I have had this milestone I wanted to reach. For years, I have not been able to go into a brick and mortar store and shop for clothes. No. Not ... Fri, 18 Mar 2011 11:46:00 EST Day 325: Can't get no...satisfaction. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4094731 I can't believe it has been over a week since I last blogged. <BR> <BR> I know. I have been quiet. It's kind of unusual for me here on Sparkpeople. Not so in real life as I am really quiet and shy. <BR> <BR> Life has interrupted and I have not had the time to spend on Sparkpeople visiting friends and that has been upsetting. I miss you guys--okay, mostly gals--a lot. Work has been busy. A volunteer opportunity I am involved with is kicking into high gear (an After Prom party for the high s... Tue, 15 Mar 2011 22:29:11 EST Day 316: Working it out... rocking my old body! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4071805 Who would have thought there were this many fitness exercises out there for us to try? But, my fitness center has fitness trainers that have I swear have been to every training/seminar/conference for the past 30 years! Yes, I found out this weekend that my trainer, Lisa, has been working in gyms since she was 17, that's 30 years of experience! <BR> <BR> The point of this is that we NEVER (okay, slight exaggeration probably) do the same thing twice. There are constantly new ways to torture th... Sun, 6 Mar 2011 23:20:22 EST Day 314: Go ahead. Get mad! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4067401 It's another day, and as is my fashion, after I blog about something that is really just on my mind, my heart, and weighing me down, the blogging itself lifts the weight from my shoulders. (Only figuratively of course, otherwise I wouldn't be on this plateau.) <BR> <BR> So, I felt better yesterday, because underneath it all I truly believe that I am on the right path. I mean after all, I have lost 80+ pounds and while that may not be a lot in my relative scope of things, it still is SOMETHI... Fri, 4 Mar 2011 23:55:14 EST Day 312: How can I possibly be a Sparkpeople motivator? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4059984 February was an awful month for me. I am not whining or complaining (yet). It is just a fact. <BR> <BR> - I tracked my food and weighed and measured it every day. I went too high out of my range, 1 day in the 28 days of February. <BR> - I drank 16 glasses of water minimum nearly every day. <BR> - I worked out almost every day, burning on average 5,000 calories a week. <BR> - I increased my strength training by adding a session on Saturdays of intense cardio/strength training for 45 minutes t... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 10:09:47 EST Day 305: Done in by chlorine, shoes, and work. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4042199 Ugggh. Someone has it in for me this week! And I am the one going to have to pay the price. <BR> <BR> First, I went walking last weekend, as I usually do and realized that my shoes were done. Isn't it amazing how that just sort of creeps up on you? I did my 2.5 mile walk and by the end of it thought the bottom of my feet were on FIRE! Blisters forming on the bottom of my feet. So, I figure the padding or whatever is gone. I checked my mileage tracker. Ooopsss!!! 200 miles in that pair of sho... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 17:40:21 EST Day 303: Stronger than Five Guys! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4036957 Today was another first, but it was not necessarily a good first. Although there could be a bright side, I guess. <BR> <BR> Today is President's Day and that means my son was home from school but I still had to work. He had to work tonight though. So, for lunch today I made us dinner: Pork, broccoli, and zucchini sauteed and served with 2 oz. of whole wheat noodles in a peanut satay sauce and salads. This was important and special to me. Now that he has theater practice on Tuesday and Thursd... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 22:49:21 EST Day 302: Awesome. Just awesome. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4032263 Awesome is my son's favorite word. He does such a great job of telling himself how awesome he is. He even found and owns a t-shirt that says: <BR> <BR> "I can't hear you over how awesome I am." <BR> <BR> But he doesn't always feel that way either. He is a heavy high schooler who is suffering right now from feeling like a social outcast. He wants high school to be over so he can get away from all the drama. <BR> <BR> I have had a rough end of the week this week. I have been struggling with... Sun, 20 Feb 2011 11:51:37 EST Day 300: No one said this would be easy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4028903 Look at that line above. Day 300. <BR> <BR> Wow! I have been working this for 300 days. 65 days to go until I hit the 1 year mark. I am still hoping that by that one year mark I will have lost 100 pounds. But my body isn't cooperating much. At my last weigh in I was up a few pounds again. Just keep going up, then down, up, then down, and can't seem to get out of the 330s for good/real. On the 1st of February I did hit 329 but then in the next week went back up a few pounds (okay about 7) an... Fri, 18 Feb 2011 21:10:36 EST Day 297: I love us. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4020773 Yesterday, I wrote a blog. And then Sparkpeople ate it. And I just wasn't feeling up to writing it again. But, it gave me more time to think about what I had written and where it was going. Maybe it was God's way of telling me it really wasn't ready for prime time! (Heck, after re-reading this, it might still not be!) <BR> <BR> So, here is how the thinking started: Yesterday was Valentine's Day. (Bet you all thought I forgot!). Since I am without a significant other in my current world (and... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 20:32:13 EST Day 294: Week 3, the torture chamber http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4013145 Today marked my third entry into my neighbor's gym, or as I like to call it: "The Torture Chamber." <BR> <BR> First, let me say, you might be wondering why if I call it the torture chamber I keep going back? Well, that's an easy one. First, it is free. She has given my son and I Saturdays in February free as a long-overdue (her words) welcome to the neighborhood. We moved here 1.5 years ago. But secondly, and really much more importantly, because I like to find ways to do things I couldn't ... Sat, 12 Feb 2011 23:55:43 EST