BAREFOOTN's SparkPeople Blog

My Ninety Day Bust

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 20:31:40 EST

Ok, a few days ago, I thought I would start a ninety day challenge to stay on track, etc. Well, it went bust. It took me a while to figure out what was wrong....I am dealing with depression. I didn't really know what was going on until today when the feeling got so pronounced that I could name what was interfering with my state of mind.

Right now, I have a lot on my plate. My granddaughter is ill and we don't know the prognosis. My son in law might have the same thing only adult ...

My New Day 1

Sun, 9 Jun 2013 09:24:04 EST

I am on my own 90 day challenge. There are no final goals, just want to see how far I can travel in 90 days.

Weight loss has always been difficult as I like to eat. Not only like it, but it serves so many purposes. It fights all the negative emotions, it keeps me from boredom, it helps me procrastinate. I think you get the picture.

Recently, I have had some medical issues with my stomach and meds. My diabetic meds and anything for this arthritis tears my stomach up so ...

My Trip to the Doctor

Thu, 30 May 2013 17:34:43 EST

I went to the doctor today and was amazed at what I have discovered. For years, at least 20, I have had hip pain. Recently, I was involved in a car accident and the pain escalated greatly so I thought I had to be injured. I went to the med center and the doctor came in to relate that I have severe arthritis in one hip. He told me a person usually gets it on both sides of the body, however, not me. Just one side and he said it was so severe they couldn't read the xray. He sent me for a pretty ...

My Slip Up or The Eating Monster is Still There

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 09:34:21 EST

Friday, I felt bad. Sitting in the parking lot of the local grocery store doubled over in pain was not how I was to spend the last little bit of my day. I still had five stops left on my schedule and couldn't move. The pain was so great, chills took over my body. No, it wasn't a virus. My stomach was once again protesting the meds prescribed. About every three to four weeks, I have an episode and have to come off my meds for a few days to get my stomach straight.

My hubby, a phone...

My Secret Reason to Lose Weight

Sun, 7 Apr 2013 09:49:31 EST

Ok, I am ready to be called shallow. Almost kiddy pool shallow. Maybe that is too deep.

Let me start at the beginning. I have always done things for the bigger reason. I have fought for the underdog and causes. I have always tried to see the bigger picture. My reasons for losing weight are varied from wanting to be healthier to wanting to be in shape to help my hubby as his disability worsens. All my goals center around others whether it is my hubby or my children or my grandchild...

Finally!!!!

Sat, 30 Mar 2013 08:57:23 EST

I have been in funk over not losing weight. It is nice to have that number even though the mind tells you all is well. I know it is not the main thing in weight loss, but I guess years of conditioning is hard to throw aside.

I know what everyone is going say. I have a little confession. I have the worst stomach of any one I know. My diabetic meds tear it up. Then I top those with the NSAIDS for the arthritis and the stomach pain commences. Yes, I am on stomach meds, Tums, and Myla...

Bye bye scale...lol

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 16:11:53 EST

Ok, I have been frustrated by the lack of movement with the scales and I took a tip from Spark to blog about ways I have noticed non scale differences.

(1) My clothes are looser
(2) People are starting to realize the weight loss
(3) I have more energy and my jobs seem easier
(4) Good food choices are easier
(5) I had someone flirt with me.

I bet there are more if I took the time to remember them. This is just to start.

Fighting the Urge to Stress Eat

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 14:55:09 EST

I really dread some days. This is one of them. I have to roll out of bed kicking and screaming every inch of the way. This is the day I get to collect money from the newspaper delivery route. I get to hear why I can't pay, why I shouldn't pay and I won't pay excuses for the first part of the day. By the time the morning is over, I want to scream "SHOOT ME". This also entails going to just starting business accounts and ironing out problems such as I don't like this rack, the paper is not sel...

Need a buddy!!!

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 23:31:11 EST

I would love to have a diet buddy or buddies. At this time in my life, it is critical for me to lose this weight. My insurance will be running out in June 2014. I need to be off meds as I can't afford them without insurance. Also, I like feeling better as I lose the weight.

My work schedule is a little demanding, however, I manage to come on SparkPeople a couple of times every day. My food choices aren't always the best. I zap a lot of food and once a week, I might buy a Happy Me...

For the Best

Sat, 23 Feb 2013 08:33:32 EST

For a long time, I was angry about losing my little ebay store as a result of someone else's actions. These past months, I have been doing physical labor I thought I could never do. The first week of job 1, I wanted to sit in the middle of the road and cry. I thought, no, I knew that first week was going to kill me. I would come home and collapse in the bed and sleep until the next day. The second week wasn't much better, I just thought I was going to die. By the end of the third week, I knew...

Renewed Confidence

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 12:56:57 EST

I have never been one to have a lot of confidence, but I sure had more as a teen than as I got older. The older I got, the worse it or rather my confidence level got. When I first came to sparkpeople many, many moons ago, I was up to 304. I didn't wear anything with any shape and didn't take care of myself. Today, I am at 231 if I read the scale correctly Sunday. Today, I look at myself and there is a change. I will let someone take my picture and even get my hubby to take pics of me to send ...

Have you been neglectful???

Thu, 7 Feb 2013 14:43:43 EST

When I would see that question, I would always assume it was about housework, the kids, the marriage or a ton of other things I should have been doing or could be doing. Now, I think it is about me. Or rather taking care of me.

When I was young, I used to fight with my hair, arrange my clothes and take time to take care of me. When marriage came along, I put someone else before myself. Then the kids. There were then two more people that came before myself. And then the weight!!! W...

Hit First Goal

Sun, 3 Feb 2013 09:05:43 EST

This morning, half asleep, I weighed myself and have hit my first goal. Now I only have 100 pounds to lose before my high school weight. Ear piercing was on schedule for the reward, however, I found my holes are still intact. Now to figure out a good reward for this goal. Maybe a cool hat. I love hats, but haven't treated myself in years. I recently saw a cute fedora in an Avon catalog that was screaming my name....lol.

My next major goal is to hit 204 which will mean I have lost ...

WHAT??? Has anyone else experienced this one???

Tue, 29 Jan 2013 17:31:19 EST

This is off the topic of weight loss directly. I just had the weirdest experience recently and wanted to share with everyone. My husband is what I consider a nice looking man. He has a tummy, but is now losing it. He likes to joke and is very outgoing. Unfortunately, he is a bit naive. He doesn't realize you can't joke around with women without someone getting the wrong idea. One woman has. This is the woman where we take our cars to be serviced. She gives him discounts, offers to show him th...

One More Pound!!!

Sun, 27 Jan 2013 09:39:15 EST

I am so excited!!! I have one more pound to lose to hit my goal...not goal weight, but goal. I will have hit the mark where I will only have 100 pounds to lose. Having started at 304 forever ago with many start overs and falling off the diet thing and gaining and losing, I feel such a feeling of accomplishment. Next Sunday, I will be getting my ears repierced if all goes all this week with a one pound loss!!!

Looking back at my eating, I think a lot of times I felt out of control o...

Check the Labels

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 02:44:52 EST

Last night I had a pleasant surprise!!! I posted my food and thought, gee, I ate more than I had thought. Then I started looking at the labels and noticed a couple of foods I had eaten have changed their portion sizes recently. There was a difference of about 60-70 calories from foods listed by others and new packaging....YAY for me.

I guess companies are feeling the financial pinch or want people to be healthier so many are using less fats, small size portions, and less sugars. T...

Timed

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 16:28:27 EST

Today, I decided to carry a time with me and see how much walking I do on my jobs. Well, I thought I did more on the first one and I thought I did less on the second one.

Today is my short day and I found I walked 50 minutes between the two plus spent about 20 minutes in the warehouse lifting and carrying boxes. I would say this is a fairly good workout.

Also, I decided today when I came in super tired and super disoriented that I had better start testing my sugars eve...

When Others Don't Support

Fri, 18 Jan 2013 10:53:00 EST

I think the hardest thing is when other don't support. They don't buy you a cake or ice cream, but they voice how they don't think you will ever lose the weight. I had that happen recently. A person I have known for years told me that as long as we have known each other I have been dieting and I am still big. Basically, I was told I was never going to lose the weight was the message of the things said to me. Maybe I won't. Does that matter in a relationship of friends? I mean, she doesn't say...

Four More Pounds

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 22:52:37 EST

I am excited!!! In another four pounds, I will have hit a goal that I never thought I would see....I will have only 100 pounds to lose before I am the same weight I was in high school. I know that whole only 100 pounds sounds funny, but since I started at around 304 being my highest weight, I feel a success. I know I have a long way to go, but it feels obtainable for the first time in ages. So in a couple of weeks or by the first of the month, I will probably be at that point and then will be...

In This Together

Tue, 15 Jan 2013 17:17:03 EST

After a friend of ours became ill this week with something potentially very serious, hubby and I decided we wanted to take better care of ourselves. Our friend has something not related to care, just one of those luck or unluck of the draw things. We don't want to intentionally shorten our time here as we do depend on each other. He has his limitations and I have mine. Today, we started dieting together. Due to his inactivity level, we are able to eat the same amount of calories so this is so...

Ate Today

Thu, 10 Jan 2013 22:07:40 EST

I fell off the diet wagon today. I was so tired and had to get up after about three hours sleep. Just not getting enough rest these days. I ended up snacking and not following my schedule or diet. Tomorrow or rather the rest of today (this was earlier) I will get back on track. Have a great day everyone.

Setting Myself Up

Tue, 8 Jan 2013 00:49:09 EST

After seven days, I thought I would see a decrease in weight. My two real jobs are physical and I have really cut back in the eating department. I was disappointed this morning to see the scale where it was when I started. Not exactly, weighing me a little more.

Then, I had to sit back and think a bit. Why would I weigh this morning? I already knew my sugars were up a little bit due to eating rice last night. Also, my morning is midnight, not over night most nights of the week. N...

Does Anyone Else Freeze??

Sat, 5 Jan 2013 21:06:07 EST

I have a tendency to get very cold when I cut my calories. Unfortunately, New Years and resolutions hit at the coldest time of the year around here. Right now, I am wearing fleece jammies, sleeping under a comforter, a blanket and flannel sheets to keep warm. Does anyone have this experience? I am off to bed again and to cut the heater in our room up to HOT. It is already 75 and I am still cold!!!

The Secret to My Three Day Sucess

Sat, 5 Jan 2013 10:15:59 EST

I found the secret....I worked a tremendously long day. I went to work at midnight and got home around 5:30 am, cooked breakfast for hubby and I. Had a hard time sleeping, but still got up at 10:00 and back to work. I didn't get home until after 7:00 as I had to go to the store after work. Cooked dinner. The secret...too exhausted to eat much!!! Went to bed and didn't eat again until 5:30 this morning.

My second day

Thu, 3 Jan 2013 16:46:58 EST

Today went well except for the three Klondike Bars. No, I did put them in the tracker. No, I didn't go over calories or carbs, but I did bust the whole fat thing to pieces. Tomorrow promises to be a better day. They really need to make a sub for chocolate. I have daily cravings. I used to drink carb countdown to get the chocolate. Going to find something else that will take away the cravings other than an IV drip. Would that IV have tranqs or chocolate...lol.

Off and Running = good start

Wed, 2 Jan 2013 10:28:28 EST

I peeled myself out of bed and put diet first. I grabbed some left over black eyed peas for breakfast. Then I heated a burrito for lunch. Both will be accompanied by a light yogurt. Then I tracked my food. I am going to try to make time every day to track as this is the only way I am going to be honest about what I am eating. It is too easy to forget or want to forget when I don't enter it.

I guess I had better go as I have to go to job #1 this morning. I burn a lot of calories lo...

New Year, Let's Give It Another Go

Wed, 2 Jan 2013 00:19:38 EST

I am starting out my new year with another try at losing weight. I feel more directed as if I don't lose weight, I won't have insurance in 18 months. Nothing like an incentive...lol.

This is a short blog as I am getting ready for work. Ahhh, work, I do work a lot these days. It is a minimum of 55 hours a week and can hit over 80. Some of it is physical and I am still adjusting. My hubby used to help me a little, but now since his condition is worse, I am on my own so I am still adj...

My Sixty One day self challenge

Wed, 24 Oct 2012 10:17:56 EST

This morning I was feeling a bit down. I have lost weight, but still don't feel that great physically. I have been eating a lot of the wrong things. These days, I have been working a lot of hours. I started with a job and I swore it was going to kill me...but no, it made me stronger. Then I took on another route and for a month thought that was going to kill me. I am already a seller on ebay so this added up to a lot of hours. Now, I am delivering papers to businesses. I can't throw a newspap...

NEW SHOES!!!!

Sun, 22 Jul 2012 13:32:03 EST

My name Barefootn came about as I have a difficult foot to fit into a shoe. Back in the day, I went to Thom McCann' and they had a saying, "A Shoe to Fit Every Foot Guaranteed." Well, they lost that bet and changed their sign to say almost every foot. I actually grew to hate shoes and going barefoot seemed the answer. Either that or a pair of ill fitting shoes.

Fast forward a few years and I have hip and knee problems. Not fun since my job has me on my feet a lot each day I work....

Heat and Diabetes

Thu, 19 Jul 2012 05:49:28 EST

It has been a hot summer this year. Many days, the heat index has pushed over 100. I thought I was prepared and, yet, there is always something new to learn. My job is partially outdoors. Enough where I have had to rethink my whole diabetic strategy.

I noticed I was really sweating. Not just southern glistening, but sweat running down my face, off my nose and clothes soaking wet sweating after just a few minutes out side. I would look around and this wasn't happening to anyone el...

Job Getting Easier

Sun, 1 Jul 2012 19:13:53 EST

When I first started this job, I thought I wouldn't make it. It is a rather physical job compared to selling books on the internet. I have to load up my car and then I get in and out of my car up to 14 times a day, load up a cart and then go into stores and fill the racks. The first couple of weeks were hard. Then one day, it wasn't bad. It was about a month in. Another route come open and now I am doing two. I was just getting used to doing two when it started getting hot. Another thing to ...

My Insurance Experience!!!

Thu, 31 May 2012 08:15:11 EST

I have a lot of time off as this is only a part time job. The first couple of weeks, I didn't have the energy to do much else as I am not used to walking and lifting. I have a bad hip so there is also a pain factor. Tylenol is a miracle drug. Now, for my insurance story. It is amazing how things happen....lol

I went to the doctor as when he did my A1C, my numbers were higher so he put me on another med based on my horrible stomach problems. Well, this med had a generic component i...

Will It Happen??

Sun, 27 May 2012 13:20:23 EST

The other day a friend told me I would get used to my job. It isn't happening yet. I am exhausted. I would like to say it is the meds or something else other than my being out of shape. I have walking and lifting to do on this job. I worked Friday and am still tired. I keep wondering when my body will adjust.

WOO HOO!!!

Mon, 21 May 2012 19:10:30 EST

This last couple of weeks has been very busy. I am finally coming to terms with the new med I am taking and accepting there are going to be problems. I guess I just thought there weren't ever supposed to be any side effects. Gas X and Tums are great!!!

I have lost five pounds and that is exciting. My scale at home wasn't reflecting the loss, but the doctor's scale did. I knew my pants were fitting differently, however, I was so caught up on the numbers on the home scale, I didn't r...

I Quit Bootcamp

Tue, 8 May 2012 21:10:07 EST

The second day and I realized there was so much I couldn't do. Maybe in the future. Right now, I am going to concentrate on getting back to the Y and doing my weight routine and swimming.

Bootcamp????

Mon, 30 Apr 2012 21:58:03 EST

Yeah, I did it. I signed up for the Bootcamp. I was dreading the first workout, but I found it not too difficult. Of course, I can't do jumping jacks at this time, but there was an alternative - half body ones. I could do those. Some of the moves had me going as I am not coordinated at all. It is kind of scary to think what I was doing and I am sure it didn't look like anything Nicole was doing. She is very graceful. Whatever, I was moving. Actually moving and it wasn't too long where I would...

It is heading in the right direction

Fri, 27 Apr 2012 09:23:21 EST

We are adjusting when I take my med to see if this is going to help with the tummy problems. At least the gas has subsided, but now there is pain. It is a little frustrating, however, I have to take responsibility since I gained all this weight with the result of having diabetes. My goal by next summer is to come off all the meds and live without these side effects. I think I go back to the doctor again in the next couple of weeks to see how things are going. I think I will lose weight on thi...

New med

Wed, 25 Apr 2012 06:34:28 EST

I like the new med the doctor gave me, however, there are a few kinks. I am not sleeping like I should. Last night I went to bed and fell asleep late....after 12:00. I was back up at 4:30. I have a history of insomnia so is it the med or me???? The other kink which I should look at as a blessing is loss of appetite. I have to force myself to eat in the morning and at lunch. If I don't eat, while not feeling hungry at dinner time, all it takes is one bite and I keep eating all evening. In oth...

The Importance of Journaling Any Time

Wed, 25 Apr 2012 06:24:34 EST

There are times when I can sit down with pencil and paper and pour out all kinds of thoughts. Other times I can't think of a word to say. I have found recently it is all about practice. I don't have enough practice in the field of journaling. I don't have anything clever to say or any great wisdom to impart. Instead I have found it is journaling process that is the help.

Here I can talk about my challenges to my weight loss and meds, etc. I found another journal online to vent oth...

Good Tummy News!!!

Sat, 7 Apr 2012 09:26:07 EST

It was a matter of taking the meds at two different times. Before I could take the stomach med with the diabetic med and it worked well. Now, due to the change in meds, I have two meds with different rates of breaking down. I talked to the doctors office and now take the stomach med 30 minutes prior to taking the diabetic med!!! It worked!!! My numbers are slowly coming down with this new med. Of course, now that I am feeling better, I hope to get some exercise in this next week and lose som...

New Med - part two

Thu, 5 Apr 2012 12:37:16 EST

After the first day, the new med is doing good. I feel horrible the first day, but I think it was all related to my already torn-up stomach. Let's say, I can't take this one without taking in food and my stomach med at the same time. It does have one good side effect...I have no appetite, but I am eating to keep my stomach from self destructing.

Off to take a nap. All this tummy upset is leaving me worn out...lol

New Med

Wed, 4 Apr 2012 10:29:09 EST

I hate having to take a new med!!! I don't like change anyway, but with meds I am a total freak. First, I worry about whether I will have an allergic reaction to it. Second, I usually wake up with anxiety. Third, I worry about everything I am feeling and wondering if the med is causing it....lol.

This fear or hesitation has been born from the allergic reactions I have had with several antibiotics. Nothing like watching and feeling the room spin around for hours on end.

Faith Enough????

Mon, 2 Apr 2012 09:45:52 EST

In recent months, I have been questioned about my faith. I have even questioned my faith. Is it good enough? Is it the right brand? If it is, why can't I feel accepted? Will my God love me or is He too questioning what I bring to the table? See, I am what is referred to as a jack mormon. It is a long and boring story as to how I got here, so I won't go into any of the details.

I don't wear my faith on my sleeve. I probably can't quote half a dozen scriptures or references. I don...

Journaling

Fri, 30 Mar 2012 07:54:52 EST

Recently, I read how important journaling is to a weight loss program. It is hard for me to commit to an everyday journaling project as I have little time to myself. It isn't that someone is looking over my shoulder, but I feel journaling is a private matter. Just the writing in the journal is private, to me.

I guess I need to get over this little hangup as I am willing to do whatever I need to do to get on a program and have long term success. This is my first week and I still ha...

Keeping busy

Wed, 7 Mar 2012 16:11:24 EST

Today, I got hungry, but concentrated staying busy between meals. This morning, I ate and then went back to bed....lol. Our new kitty keeps waking us up about five times a night. After lunch, I did the grocery shopping for the next month. It was great to find some really good buy so I could put somethings back. It is now after dinner so I will find something to do to keep me busy until snack...lol. Right now I am marking my day with meals...lol.

Timed Tummy

Tue, 6 Mar 2012 14:48:30 EST

I don't know if anyone else has this problem or I am just an oddity. When I started a healthy eating plan, I decided on four meals a day at regular intervals. It worked, then one day I overslept and ate my breakfast late. When I did that, I starved all day and ended up overeating. Now, I am finding if I just skip that meal and eat at the next scheduled time, this doesn't happen. Of course, this doesn't make sense.

Another day one!!!

Mon, 5 Mar 2012 08:51:36 EST

I feel like a yo yo, however, I think this time I will be here for a while. Some of life's stressers are done with. Hubby finally got approved for disability. We have a better income, however, I need to find some work. We have agreed that I would take a month off from worry and then take it from there. I am still selling a few books here and there.

Life is good, but busy today. I am going for a haircut. Then I am going to see my friend's daughter at her job to congratulate her on ...

Starting again

Thu, 23 Feb 2012 07:06:19 EST

I lost my babysitting job. Is that bad? You can judge. Approximately six months ago, I started taking care of a little girl that was basically out of control. Six months later she is still out of control. I told the parents this past Friday I needed to have her listen to me or I couldn't take care of her. They gave me the weekend to think about whether I wanted to take care of her or not. I called them and their cell phones were off. They never answered their home phone. They never returned t...

Acceptance

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 11:16:24 EST

One of the things I have had to come to terms with is accepting myself the way I am and working on improvement slowly. I am not a patient person. I was looking into why I feel the need to eat and found out several things about myself. Am I going to change these things overnight or even at all. After all, fifty-two years of conditioning might be a little hard to change so I have decided on working on accepting myself.

Hole to Whole - Day 16 Privacy and other things

Mon, 16 Jan 2012 18:57:41 EST

Today, I got a letter explaining about the loss of privacy on the internet. Sure enough, when I put my id in google, everything associated with spark came up. The worse is when I put in my name. I had written someone about an article I read and some of the things I wrote were used in a report. I never expected that one. I am not sure how I feel about all these things, but will be more careful in the future.

Today has been good. I got up at a decent time this morning and did my sc...