BARDT01's SparkPeople Blog BARDT01's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Good Grief I am disgusted by what I see my body has become when I look in the mirror so why is it so hard for me to find the motivation to change my bad habits? Had to try items on at Kohls yesterday and could not stand what was looking back at me from the mirror. Who is that woman, where did she come from and why oh why won't she go away. Thu, 21 Jan 2016 09:29:22 EST New trouble Have struggling with pain in my arms for over 3 years now and finally got a diagnosis that most likely is the cause. Now the trouble, if they are correct am most likely looking at surgery to correct the problem. Wed, 6 Jan 2016 11:26:40 EST I know, I know I should not be surprised and yet I am. Have been walking daily and SURPRISE, the scale is going in a downward fashion. I so dislike exercise that doing it in a regular fashion is a struggle for me. I am hopeful that at least for now seeing the scale move in the right direction for a change will help keep moving. Mon, 4 Jan 2016 10:17:14 EST End to a beginning Today ends a pretty crappie year for me. Weight got way out of hand, had a terrible issue to deal with regarding my teenager (still dealing with), and my husband and I do not see to be in sync with anything anymore. Tomorrow brings a new beginning. I will get my weight under control once an for all. I will do whatever it takes to get my son on track. I will figure out how to re-connect with my husband. I can do none of this without God's help, so I will also improve my relationship with ... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 10:32:20 EST Back on track Boy has my weight gotten out of control. Finally feel in the right mental place to get going and get it right this time. Let the weight loss begin. Sun, 27 Dec 2015 18:17:06 EST 2013 Well another year has begun with me heavier and unhealthier than I had hoped. Am trying to no avail to make changes to my lifestyle but they seem to make no difference on the scale. Am not willing to throw in the towel yet but some days sure make me want to. Wed, 2 Jan 2013 11:26:16 EST Too much time left I have to much time left in the day and not enough calories (food) left. Am struggling with staying out of the kitchen. I have this ridiculous desire to eat even though I am not hungry. I wish it were bedtime already!!!!!! Wed, 12 Dec 2012 14:37:03 EST Blustery Day Snowy, sleety and all around gloomy kind of day here. Gives me no motivation to do anything but sit around with a warm blanket. Sun, 9 Dec 2012 16:21:27 EST Going to McDonalds My children have asked t o go to McDonalds for lunch. We rarely go out to eat so I have decided to take them. I have already logged what I plan to get for myself in an effort to keep myself on track. I am getting oatmeal and a nonfat latte. Sat, 8 Dec 2012 13:35:13 EST Caved to the Crave I fought it for a while last night but wound up caving in around 10:00 to the tortilla chips. Their wonderful salty crunchy selves won out. Still having trouble overcoming late night snacking but know that I will prevail eventually. Fri, 7 Dec 2012 08:39:24 EST Still hanging in there I know it is only a few days since I returned to SP but am glad I have not found an excuse to cheat already. Am struggling today with wanting to eat everything in sight but have managed so far to eat only what I have logged for myself for the day. Thu, 6 Dec 2012 13:35:54 EST Round and round....... Not only am I round again but I am giving this another go round. Plan on starting small and not expecting so much so fast. Wish I could lose it as fast as I seem to gain it but, oh well. Am getting dvd's from the library so I don't get bored and so I can figure out what I like doing before spending any money on them. Joined a challenge so will see how it goes. Wed, 5 Dec 2012 14:13:25 EST called the doc Well went dairy and wheat free for all of march, lost weight for 3 weeks then all came back week 4. I feel better but can't get weight under control. Finally called my doc and made appt. to get some lab work done and make sure that it is not a medical reason causing all my symptoms. I re-introduced wheat and feel good but when I had some milk, boy was that the wrong thing to do! Thu, 2 Apr 2009 15:51:27 EST Another day another this to deal with Well discovered that I have a dairy intolerance and most probably a wheat intolerance. Am having to go wheat and dairy free for one month. Will reintroduce wheat in and see what happens. I found out the hard way that milk is definitely a no no. The only bright side is that I lost 2 pounds in 8 days (after steadily gaining for a few months no matter what I tried). So will have to see how my life goes. A wheat free diet is really hard for me but am determined to stick this out. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 17:10:45 EST Another Day in the Life Well life just keeps getting harder. My husband is out of work and can't find employment. I have even been trying to find part time work in the evening to no avail. On top of our "no income" situation, now our van has died. With a family of 5 my husbands truck just doesn't cut it. In order to buy something that is reliable that will hold all of us we will have to almost deplete our ever dwindling savings. Thank goodness we don't have a mortgage to pay or I don't know what we would do. ... Mon, 9 Feb 2009 09:00:09 EST Frustration Frustration is the name of the game lately. I joined the bootcamp at the beginning of January and have been doing very well. I do 45 minutes of cardio everyday along with the bootcamp videos and have virtually nothing to show for it. My weight has barely changed and my clothes fit virtually the same. I can sit on my bum every night instead of exercising and see the same kind of results in a given month. Everyone says to stick with it that my wieght will all of the sudden drop but I am ha... Fri, 30 Jan 2009 14:01:54 EST Today's weigh in I usually weigh myself on fridays, so today after doing the bootcamp since sunday I was excited to see if I was going to lose. I did, I lost 2# and am happy that all the exercise is paying off. My mood has been better this week too. Hope to see even more changes in the weeks ahead. Fri, 9 Jan 2009 09:26:49 EST Keepin' on Well am continuing on my journey and am doing well today. I have set a goal for friday and hope to meet it (am doing well). Have done everyday of the New you bootcamp so far and am feeling great. The sore muscles don't even bother me that much. In addition to the 10 minute clip I am doing a Lotte Berk Muscle eats Fat video every day. Hope that I see some positive changes both pysically and mentally by the and of my first month of steady exercise. <BR> Bianca Wed, 7 Jan 2009 19:12:45 EST Doing better today Well I decided to join the New You Bootcamp, and while the exercise is not proving to be a problem dowloading them is a pain (I have dial-up). It takes 2 hours to dowload a 10 minute clip. But, I will perservere and complete this challenge. I had my hubby take photos of me on day 1, I look terrible in my work out gear. I have a long way to go but won't stop til I get there. God bless to all who read this. Bianca Sun, 4 Jan 2009 19:34:27 EST Not doing to well I have not been doing well lately, My attitude is in the tank, between my husband and my 3 boys I feel down and angry most of the time. I haven't weighed myself for a few weeks. I don't think I have gained much if at all as my pants still fit the same. I can't figure out how to get motivated to take better care of myself. Right now I just don't seem to care. Wed, 31 Dec 2008 11:38:48 EST Eating out Today I went out to lunch with some girlfriends of mine. I was nervous as this was my first foray into a restaurant since joining SP. I was happy with my order and that I left about half of the most fattening foods on my plate. I am a little nervous about Thanksgiving in 2 days, but I know if I stay focused I can push thru and come out all the better for it. <em>4</em> Tue, 25 Nov 2008 17:50:21 EST day 1 Today I begin my weight loss journey. In the past I have been temporarily successful in losing weight, but after the birth of my third son I have not been able to get the weight off. My doctor says that my being in my 40's now and being perimenopausal aren't helping me. I am determined to be successful and get back into the shape I know a can be in. May God speed my journey. Fri, 21 Nov 2008 15:11:20 EST