BARB5970's SparkPeople Blog BARB5970's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community An Unexpected Spark I haven't written a blog in a long time, but I thought it was time to share what has happened along my journey. I started with SparkPeople, like most of us, with the goal of losing weight and becoming healthy. Well, unfortunately, I haven't completely achieved that goal yet. I have become healthier, eating a lot less junk, a very good thing, but the weight is very slow coming off. <BR> <BR> However, I discovered there is a lot more to this "spark" thing than I originally thought. Last... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 11:25:25 EST Conquering the Metal Monster When I first started with SparkPeople my goal was to lose weight, keep it off and live a healthy lifestyle. What I've realized is, in order to reach those goals I first have to break the diet mentality. I starting "dieting" at age 11. Yup, I've battled my weight for almost 39 years. It's no wonder those old tapes are running though my head and old habits are so hard to break. <BR> <BR> Thinking about all the diet plans I've tried over the years, one thing has been a common factor... the... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 11:30:03 EST Reaching Out... I recently realized my 1st Spark anniversary is next month. I have not lost a great amount of weight, only 7 lbs. I certainly would have liked to have lost a whole lot more but what I have not lost in weight, I have gained in knowledge about myself and tremendous insights to the reasons behind my weight issues. That being said, I find myself envious of others who have achieved their goal weight in the amount for time I've spent struggling. <BR> <BR> Honestly, I do know that using the ... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 11:26:35 EST Something I just learned this very moment.. Good Morning all. As I log onto my computer, like I do every morning, I begin to check my emails. Little by little the feeling of wanting something to eat starts to nag at me. I try to ignore it. After a bit more time passes the feeling grows, I really want a snack, I'm thinking. Still trying to ignore it, but now I'm thinking, am I hungry. NO! Then stop thinking about food.... I view some Spark People blogs, trying to stay motivated, but the snacks in the pantry are calling my name an... Tue, 19 Jun 2012 10:04:00 EST Managed to Regroup, YAY! So the day started out fine with a light multi-grain english muffin, 2 tbsp of natural peanut butter and 1/2 fruit salad with coffee. Somewhere along the way things started to get totally out of control. My hormones were in a rage yelling for carbs. <BR> <BR> I can't believe I'm going to admit this began with a Kashi Dark Chocolate cookie, a banana, cheese and crackers (more crackers than cheese), then popcorn and finally a bowl of ice cream. OMG, I can't believe I could down so... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 19:51:31 EST A Perplexing Thought... Every morning I wake up, shower, do my hair and apply my makeup. So far, no big news...but I got to thinking. Why do I have this routine everyday, and then my thoughts went deeper. I go to the dentist to make sure my teeth are healthy. I go to the nail salon for a manicure and pedicure. I apply moisturizer every night before bed to keep my skin from drying up and peeling off. I tweeze, shave and wax all the unwanted hair off my face and body, and it occurred to me .... this is a lot of... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 10:56:55 EST Changes are Happening... Little by little I see my old habits dying and new healthy habits are emerging. Today was a beautiful day here in New York. No real plans for this Memorial Day I decided to enjoy the glorious sunshine and play in the garden. Headed outside about 11 AM and got lost in my weeding, pruning and planting flowers. For me gardening is like therapy. I just love it and it's good exercise too. Before I know it, it's 1:30 PM and I'm hungry. Oh, but my project isn't finished yet and in the past ... Mon, 28 May 2012 19:22:15 EST Not My Proudest Moment... I haven't written a blog in quite awhile but something happened the other day that I feel is blog worthy. You see, I found myself alone sitting on the couch with a spoon and a half gallon of ice cream. For some reason, unknown to me, I made the choice to have ice cream instead of a proper meal. As I sat stuffing ice cream in my mouth I suddenly realized my 16 year old son was coming down stairs. I immediately bolted for the kitchen to hide the evidence of what I was doing. Afterall I ca... Sun, 27 May 2012 22:28:15 EST Depressed... Here it is April 1st, 5 months since I joined SP. I've made so many changes, small changes, but healthy ones, and yet I've had no weight loss at all. I checked my calender where I jot down my weigh-ins and I'm exactly the same as it was on January 1st. I suppose I should be happy that I haven't gained weight, but I certainly had hoped I would have lost at least a few pounds. I understand change takes time, but I'm frustrated because I've traded veggies for my mac & cheese, cut my portions... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 11:04:44 EST In such a Funk.... Ok so we're not suppose to rely solely on the scale to feel good or bad about ourselves, and I know the scale is not the only determining factor in how I'm doing overall...BUT... for me, the purpose of following a "healthy" eating plan is to drop these unwanted pounds. I've been slow to get started, and that's ok. I'm moving slowing forward, or so I thought. As I've mentioned before, tracking my food is a great challenge. Well, I started with just tracking breakfast, and added lunch...yay... Tue, 31 Jan 2012 09:08:11 EST An Amazing Thing Happened Last night about 9:45 PM, while watching a program I had recorded, I suddenly got the feeling I wanted something to eat (as I often do, when watching TV).... then it happen... I realized I'm not really hungry, but I still wanted "a little something". I got up, went to the pantry, looked around, nope nothing in there seemed to be what I really wanted. So off to the fridge, standing there a few minutes and nope nothing in there I really want either. Went back to the couch but couldn't shake ... Sat, 14 Jan 2012 11:14:51 EST Obsessed with Numbers Numbers, Numbers, Numbers,... I'm obsessed with numbers. The number on the scale, the numbers on the measuring tape, the number of my pant size, the number of calories, fat grams, protein grams, sodium ... etc, etc. You get the idea. I let the numbers determine my feelings. If the numbers are good, I'm in a good mood, and if the numbers don't say what I want them to, I end up angry, upset set and stressed. The truth is the numbers that seem to dictate my life, are a direct result of the c... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 13:05:53 EST A Gift to Myself Today is exactly one month since I started with SP. It has taken me this long to begin to create my sparkpage. I haven't lost much weight since I began but I'm learning a lot about myself along the way. I've decided not to jump in all at once and try to do it all perfectly because that has never worked for me in the past. I'm taking baby steps and learning not to beat myself up if I don't get it right the first time. My gift to myself today, was to actually get in my exercise. I've bee... Sun, 25 Dec 2011 13:37:19 EST