BANSHEERAT's SparkPeople Blog BANSHEERAT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 17. Absence This year started off well, but bad news over Yule and bad luck during the last few weeks have sent me a bit funny' I've been having great days where I'll be exercising and watching what I eat, and then bad days where I've been binging. <BR> <BR> This is stopping immediatly. It's time to administer mone tough SELF-love, this time. I've gained 4lbs. That's not staying. I'm not going to let my depression spiral with binging episodes; it only adds to my depressive mood. I'm going to be pro-acti... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 00:48:18 EST Happy 2013! A Happy & Splendid New Year to you all! <BR> <BR> 2012 was a very hard year for me and my family; the hardest that I can recall, but I'm not looking to dwell on it, and instead I'm welcoming in the new year with optimism and excitement & renewed hope. <BR> <BR> Besides a bunch of personal arty goals that I am hoping to achieve, I am determined to reach my goal weight this year. <BR> <BR> I weighed myself yesterday and I hit the 162lb/11 stone 5lb mark; I've officially lost 2 stone (28lbs) ... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 09:39:42 EST A Quick Yule Update I've been a little too busy this Yule season to be able to be online too much, but I just wanted to weigh-in and update. I've lost 3lbs since my last blog entry; 2 last week and another at this morning's weigh-in. I'm now at 164. I'm 10lbs away from being 11 stone (154lbs) and that's wonderful! It's my birthday at the end of January, so that's my goal; to be at 154 on the 31st. <BR> <BR> I'm currently trying to navigate the whole Christmas Dinner shennanigans! Luckily, I'm making it all myse... Sun, 23 Dec 2012 05:50:09 EST Tough Love I got a well needed kick up the arse after my last entry, from a really lovely individual here at Spark People and I'm feeling so much better and full of love because they reached out and gave me that prod. I'm looking at myself and laughing a little bit at my slump. I'm not feeling 100 percent, but I'm feeling as though I can totally dig myself out of this. I've come too far to just give up and eat myself into a coma. (I did go and have those seconds last night-and immediatly regretted it. I... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 14:50:32 EST The Winter Blues Continue... and I'm scared that I'm going to ruin what I've achieved so far! <BR> <BR> I'm being really inconsistent from day to day; I'll have days where I'll exercise and I'll eat well, but they're sprinkled intermittently with lazy grump days where I can't get motivated enough or I'm too cold to move and exercise, and I'll just eat. Yesterday, I was too sad and cold to budge and make myself some decent food, so instead, I sat with a half full tub of vegan cream cheese and some crackers and eat the l... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 15:03:45 EST 12. Winter Blues I think Day Light Savings Time has really make me wonky. I've been struggling. I kept up my intentions for a few days after my last post, but I've just been so tired and not had any time to exercise and I completely threw any semblance of nutrition tracking out of the window. So much so that I decided not to weigh myself on Sunday because I knew that it probably wouldn't be good news. (I needed comfort from the cold so I bought vegan junk food from the wholefoods shop and then a massive slab ... Wed, 5 Dec 2012 01:47:21 EST 11. Been a Little Ill This Week... I've been flu-y and achey and full of snot so I've not been working out or tracking my food. I've literally been going to work and then coming home and sleeping. Health comes before everything else. I'm feeling a lot better now, thankfully. <BR> <BR> I almost didn't weigh myself because of the illness thing, but my boyfriend suggested that I should, just to see where I was, and I've somehow managed to loose 3lbs. I'm wondering whether I've not been eating well enough because of being ill, an... Sun, 25 Nov 2012 04:05:06 EST 10. Weigh-In & Measurements Day and Key Lifestyle Changes Despite being ill for a couple of days (I'm pretty run down from stress and a few other little niggley things, so not getting as much exercise in as I had planned) I've lost another 2lbs! I've also taken my measurements for the first time since I started out on Spark People and I've lost 2 inches to my waist, 2.5inch to my hips, 1.5inch to my thighs and 0.5inch to my upper arms! It was really nice seeing those reductions on top of the numbers on the scale, it really helped to reiterate the ch... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 06:14:09 EST 9. A Scrambled Update. I've weighed myself a day early this week; it's been a tough and shambly one. My Jump Start didn't exactly jump-start. I did it for a couple of days, but I've been feeling really sad and stressed, so I sort of gave up a little. Luckily I've still been faaaiiirly active with work, so I've not completely vegged out, but...yeah, not exactly focused. I've been eating healthily, and I ate out for the first time last night since I started this change (it was such a great treat!) and navigated that ... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 03:31:01 EST 8. Third Weigh-In... And I've lost another 3lbs! 11lbs alltogether and I'm so so thrilled! Initially, I was pretty surprised as although my eating habits have been pretty awesome, my exercise hasn't. I only managed 1 exercise session last week due to really finding it difficult to find the time and I was absolutely exhausted. Crazily much that i was falling asleep pretty much as soon as I had had my dinner after getting home. <BR> <BR> In hindsight, however, I was working 10 days in a row in a job where... Sun, 28 Oct 2012 14:36:13 EST 7. Just Some Little Thoughts It was weigh-in day on Sunday. I lost another 3lbs, and I'm pretty proud of myself. 8lbs in total, now. I just need to keep up my momentum and my motivation. <BR> <BR> I'm not exercising every day this week, however. I'm working 10 days in a row and I'm currently on day 7. 3 days left. I'm pretty exhausted and I'm finding it very difficult to exercise as much as I'd like to, but I'm consoling myself in the fact that my job is pretty active and I'm on my feet for the majority of my day, so I'... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 15:06:55 EST 6. Week Two almost done! Tomorrow is my second weigh-in day and the start of my third week. I'm feeling a little nervous about tomorrow after last weeks 5lb weight loss and I'm a little scared that it was a fluke and that I'm not going to have lost anything this week even though I have exceeded my calorie burn once again. I've exercised everyday bar one, (one of my fast break goals is to exercise for a minimum of 10 minutes each day) because I was having a really bad day emotioanlly and I just needed to look after my... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 15:23:22 EST 5. First Struggle Day? I'm feeling as though today is going to be a struggle. I'm wanting nothing more that to order a huge comforting takeaway or some cake and sit in bed with my partner and watch movies. Thankfully, I've cleared out my cupboards/fridge of any junky snack food and all of my food for the week was prepared yesterday so I don't really have the means to eat what I'd really like to. I'm trying to figure out why I want to eat it. <BR> <BR> I think it's mostly just my body missing it, rather than an a... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 06:01:57 EST 4. First Weigh in! I did my first weigh in this moring and I've lost 5lbs! I'm really surprised after yesterdays wonkiness, but I think it's just showing me that just because you have a slip up, it doesn't mean you should stop and give up! And I have worked hard this week. <BR> <BR> I'm going to spend today planning my meals for the week, doing some prepatory cooking and doing one of my exercise videos before treating myself to a luxurious Lush bath and doing some art. Yay! Sun, 14 Oct 2012 05:08:59 EST 3. First Week Almost Down Tomorrow is the start of my second week. I've done mostly really well during my first. I've been keeping up woth my exercise and I've been on target with my calorie and nutrional intake. <BR> <BR> I went out for a few drinks last night to celebrate a friends birthday. If it wasn't her birthday I would probably have given it a miss,as I don't really want anything to jeapordise my new beginnings, but I wanted to celebrate with her, so I had a few drinks and did some dancing and I had a great t... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 13:53:30 EST 2. A Good Start... I've just finished a pretty heavy (well, for me at least) workout and I'm exhausted but pleased! One of my Fast Break goals is to exercise for at least 10minutes a day. I woke up pretty achey yesterday morning after my yoga and belly dancing so I just did a quick bike ride in the evening, because I didn't want to over do it and injure myself. But I'm keeping on top of it all and have planned out what I'm intending to do each day for the next few days. <BR> <BR> Wednesday: 20 minute cycle <BR... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 15:44:05 EST 1. Beginnings I've joined SparkPeople in the hopes of overhauling my lifestyle. <BR> <BR> I've been unhappy with my weight for a lot longer than I thought, really. I've been struggling with it for many years and have quite a few times managed to loose quite a bit of my weight, however this was mainly through disordered eating, and as soon as I let my emotions or depression rule, I was putting it all back on again and then a little bit more. <BR> <BR> I'm currently at 187lbs and my goal weight is 140, ho... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 11:38:59 EST