BAMOM19's SparkPeople Blog BAMOM19's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Dare to be.... When something seems difficult, dare to do it anyway....if you don't try, how will you know if you can? I feel like I've come out of the darkness now, and I'm finally seeing the light, once again. Life had beaten me down. I never dreamed such a devastating loss could happen in my life. I honestly couldn't think of living again. My heart is still shattered, but each day I'm finding a new normal. I have plenty of reasons to keep 4 children, by 2 son-in-laws, my 4 grandchildren, and a... Sat, 9 Apr 2016 10:36:33 EST Hey can come back now! It's been FREEZING here! I am over all the cold weather! Had a good day 2 of the new workout today...incline chest press 3x12 55lb and 1 additional set of 8....DB bench press 3x12 50lb...1x 7,,,,DB Flye 3X12 30lb....1x10.....close grip bench press 3x12 65lb.....1x8.....Tricep pushdowns w/straight bar 3x15 60lb...1x8....seated one arm DB tricep extension 6x15 12.5lb....2x8....and 25 minutes on the bike plus 90 minutes umpiring softball.... <BR> <BR> I feel like I'm finally "all in" again. The... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 20:03:50 EST Time to change up the workout again Last week was the 4th and final week for the workout I was doing. So I had to find a new workout....this is 4 days of lifting with Wednesday off (cardio) Sat/Sun off (will work some cardio in). This workout uses different techniques to challenge the muscles in a new way. Drop sets and rest pause sets. Today was legs: squats 3x10 75lbs rest pause last set repping as many as you can, than racking weight for 20 seconds and repping as many as you can again....leg press 200 lbs 3x10 last set rest ... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 00:19:50 EST Braved the wind and cold to get to the gym this morning....even though I really wanted to stay bundled up in bed...then spent the day with family celebrating my youngest grandchild's 3rd softball games got cancelled due to the extreme winds....missed out on making some money, but happy to have the day with family!! Sun, 3 Apr 2016 20:05:17 EST Rest day Rest day, is least for most of my steps in today, went to watch the team my daughter coaches play in a HS tournament...spent all day outdoors, instead of on the couch....had a good time....tomorrow I have 4 games to umpire...hoping my knee handles it well.... Sat, 2 Apr 2016 21:52:22 EST Fabulous Friday!! Started the day off with 50 minutes of cardio! Then home to change and go umpire a game...had a very good game, even though it was raining for the first half of the of 12,350 steps today.....falling asleep now, so I'm calling it a night! Good night all....keep on sparking Fri, 1 Apr 2016 21:32:15 EST Thinking ahead Tomorrow I'm supposed (weather permitting) to have another 11:00 am game to umpire, and Friday is normally back/bi day. Fearing a time crunch since I can't get to the gym any earlier than 8:30, because I take the boys to school, I decided to switch the back/bi lift to today and then have only cardio tomorrow. I was able to do this because Wednesday's lift was legs so I was giving my body enough recovery time....It was an awesome workout....deadlifted 90lbs....seated row 85 pulldown ... Thu, 31 Mar 2016 21:28:16 EST Wonderful Wednesday! I'm so pumped because I was faced with some challenges today, and I made it all work, and kept on track! First challenge was another 11:00 game today, and Wednesday is Leg workout day at the gym. Normally, I would have either skipped the entire workout, or done no cardio, figuring I was getting enough umpiring my game....but today, I did my 20 minute cardio, and all my leg workout, but getting up early enough to get to the gym, workout, come home, change and get to the game on time. Then ther... Wed, 30 Mar 2016 19:00:29 EST Crazy Day!! Since its spring break and schools are not in session, softball games are sxheduled for 11 am which means getting to the gym early...started the day picking up the grand sons...then going to the gym...running home to change and get to my game 40 miles away...stopping on my way home to pick up DayQuil for my husband...walking in the door at 1:50, to find out I need to take my son to get my daughters car from the mechanic's and drop it off at the school (she's a teacher) than come home again to... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 22:06:23 EST Holidays.... A holiday shouldn't be an event that throws you off your plan...I actually do better on special days because I refuse to have to "start over" Pat Riley says, “There are only two options regarding commitment. You're either in or you're out. There's no such thing as life in-between.” Life in between....that's the dark hole we enter into when we have "good intentions" but don't plan for obstacles that can cause us to falter. Candy, for instance, I filled four easter baskets, and 246... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 19:29:40 EST Knowing your back completely... Easter has been a great day for me....I've come to realize, I'M BAAACCCKKK! I got up this morning and did my cardio at the gym...spin class...then I came home and got ready for the my grandkids Egg Hunt...putting out bunny paw prints, and up and vacuuming the house....and then spent an amazing afternoon with my family...the fact that I got up immediately and went to the gym, knowing I had a bunch of stuff to do when I got back, tells me I have found my way all the way back to... Sun, 27 Mar 2016 22:32:21 EST The Great Outdoors! Had a fabulous workout this morning...10 minute bike warmup, then 85 Lb Deadlifts, 80b lat pulldown, 85 lb seated cable row, 90b DB shoulder shrugs, 40 lb bicep curls.....came home and spent the entire day outdoors with the was awesome....13,203 steps! <BR> <BR> My grnadsons asked to spend last night and tonight at our house, it's always so much fun to have them here. The 6 year old told me at Christmas, that he loved my hugs the best, because I was fluffy...this morning when he ... Fri, 25 Mar 2016 21:51:54 EST Learning "There are things we don't want to happen, but have to accept. Things we don't want to know, but have to learn. And people we can't live without, but have to let go." Jennifer Jareu <BR> <BR> I have learned that sometimes the thing you think you can't handle, happens, and though you're devastated, you do handle it...maybe not as well as you like, but you have no choice but to handle it...I know that I am and never will be again, the same person I was 21 months ago. But I'm picking up the pie... Thu, 24 Mar 2016 11:11:00 EST Little Blip Somedays, your time is not your I had to rearrange my schedule to help my daughter drop her car off for service and take my granddaughter to school...and then lend her my car....a few months ago, I would have just skipped my workout..."it's only cardio" used to be the way I'd justify skipping a day in the gym...but today I hustled around taking her to drop her car at the service center then taking her back home and then going to the my 50 minute cardio in and felt prett... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 15:53:14 EST Family Sunday Had all four of my grandkids last night until 10:30....two slept over, two went home....started the morning with pancake breakfast for the boys, then all four kiddos dyed easter eggs....then we had Birthday cake to celebrate my dad's (their Great Grand Dad) 85th birthday.....gym day tomorrow.... Sun, 20 Mar 2016 19:38:16 EST Fabulous Friday!! Back/Bi day is my favorite day....deadlifts, lat pulldowns, seated cable rows, shoulder shrugs, barbell bicep curls, incline bicep curls, Ezbar preacher curls...4 sets heavy/low rep, 2 sets lighter/high reps....threw in 20 minutes on the bike even though I knew I was umpiring this afternoon...I'll reach my 10,000 steps today as well... <BR> <BR> "One workout at a time, one day at a time, one meal at a time..." Chalene Johnson <BR> <BR> This mindset, is what is needed to stay focused and mak... Fri, 18 Mar 2016 19:07:51 EST 10 week streak... of at least 225 exercise minutes per week....I'm really proud of this streak! Best of all, I've been going hard, not just going through the motions, as I had been for a while. I look forward to my time in the gym each day. I've definitly had to make some adjustments to make sure I got my workouts in, but knowing I can and will do whatever it takes to get to my goal.... Thu, 17 Mar 2016 21:51:55 EST Big Test today.... So, today I have a softball game to umpire, and I'm on the bases....all last year I was unable to do the bases because of my knee, which was exacerbated by my weight gain. I'm hoping, that losing the 22 lbs will make it easier for me to get around...and I'm excited that I'll add to my steps for the day <em>334</em> I had an awesome workout this morning, it's leg day, possibly my least favorite day, but I squatted 75 lbs with perfect form...previously I was unable to squat deep enough, but ... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 13:43:29 EST Rocking the cardio! Like many people, I'm not a big fan of cardio....I love lifting weights, but not so much with cardio. Since I started back in January, I've been focused on at least 30 minutes cardio a day....Initially, I eased into it by doing a circuit workout that had 5 minutes of cardio after each set. Breaking it into smaller increments, made it seem more doable....little by little I worked my way up to no less than 30 minutes every day. Now the lifting program I'm doing requires 3 days of 45 minutes of ... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 19:27:52 EST All In! "There are only two options regarding commitment: You're either in or you're out. There's no such thing as life in-between.” - Pat Riley. <BR> <BR> Back at it today....had an awesome 1 hour 35 minute workout this morning, and food was spot on, as well! Monday is a long workout because I do 30 minutes of cardio, then strength train Chest, shoulders, and triceps. This program incorporates both lifting heavy for 4 sets of 4 and light for 2 sets of 12. It's an awesome, muscle challenging program... Mon, 14 Mar 2016 16:52:12 EST Taking a rest day Lazy day today....first day off in about 3 weeks....funny thing about not working out today is that I've been very hungry. I figure it's boredom, and/or too much time to think about food. I had my two grandsons all weekend, they left at noon today. We had a great time, but it does drain my. They are my late son's boys, ages 5 & 6. They remind me so much of their daddy and I try so hard to keep my son's memories alive for them. They were 3 & 4 when he passed away almost 21 months ago. The youn... Sun, 13 Mar 2016 19:28:08 EST And softball begins Lost another 1.5 lbs and Started the day with a HIIT workout on the stationary bike/elliptical and recovery on the recumbent bike. Than today I had my first umpire assignment so my step total is 14,945... keep on rolling! Thu, 10 Mar 2016 23:20:03 EST Great weather to get outdoors! Another beautiful day here in Jersey! We hit the upper 70's for the 2nd day in a row!! Another great day was leg day, and it's heavy lifting for 4 sets of 4 and then reduce weight for 2 x 12....started with squats, which I'm able to do with excellent form now, then it was leg press, leg extensions, leg curls, calf raises, and abs....good workout...I also did 20 minutes on the recumbent bike before lifting.... <BR> <BR> Food was on track today, and I've been very consistent with s... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 17:52:13 EST ON A ROLL!! Wowser! Today I knocked it out of the park!! Tuesday, is cardio day, so no lifting, but I did two 30 HIIT workouts-one on the stationary bike, and one on the treadmill....also finished it up with 25 on the recumbent bike (it helps ending on recumbent, with loosening up my knee). Then it was home to clean winter off of my car....washed, waxed and cleaned the inside of the car....feels great to have accomplished all of that in one day! <BR> <BR> I was even running at 5.0 on the treadmill (5.0... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 17:25:06 EST Awesome day! Lost another pound...19.9 to date....Started a new workout's a lifting program designed to get was chest, shoulders and triceps. It's a 3 day lift/3 day 45 minute cardio program designed to lean you out. The lift is challenging as you do 3-4 sets of 4 reps at you max lifting weight, then immediately follow that with 2 sets of 12 reps after dropping the weight 10 felt awesome challenging myself at max weights...Always fun to change things in over 11,... Mon, 7 Mar 2016 21:23:01 EST Going with the flow I've had a very difficult past few days, family drama with my husband/sister...I refused to let any of it derail my focused efforts! In fact, the gym was my sanctuary, the place I can go to get away from everyone and all the baggage they bring....I've had another great week with exercise and food....starting to fit back into a lot of clothes that I haven't had on for a while...that's always a mood booster....I've been using my fitbit app for tracking everything...really wish SP would import t... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 19:37:19 EST Making my way back to the light <img src=""> 10 years and 3 months after embarking on this journey, I'm recovering from a major setback. After losing my oldest son, almost 21 months ago, I've been in a very dark place. My emotions overwhelmingly had me drowning in a sea of guilt and set-hatred and consequently I regained over 60lb. On Jan. 1, 2016 (my 10th year anniversary of the start of this journey) I got my self refocused on my healthy lifest... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 06:54:13 EST 7 months 7 Months without my son, as of yesterday, seems so surreal. I have my grandsons all weekend, so they've kept me busy, taking care of them, but the pain is still deep and unending. I was scrolling through the pictures on my computer, wishing I had more photos of him, when I came across a video of the boys at the zoo, that he had taken and sent me. Hearing his voice promting the boys to "say Hi, Gab" made my heart ache beyond words. Brooks was such a kind and wonderful man. He loved his family ... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 06:47:53 EST Finding a routine They say it takes two weeks to establish a new habit. I have to say, I find myself back in that routine of working out and counting calories. I'm trying to be consistent with my food log, and checking in on FB. It's harder on the days when I have my grandsons. Like now, for instance, my alarm just went off because I have to leave in 15 minutes to go get them off their buses. <BR> <BR> I'm not saying, I'm back to that place where exercise was my passion and sole purpose, but I'm getting up a... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 10:57:34 EST Been a little busy I've had my grandsons for the past 4 days, so not much time to get on SP. I'm still on track with my workouts, and pretty consistent with my food....although we did have a birthday cake for my grandson on Sunday, and I had a few tablespoons of the icing....ugh...shouldn't have....Sunday was a difficult but worthwhile day. My son-in-law has been planning a Memorial Golf Tournament in my son's name, to benefit my grandsons. It's a labor of love for him and it touches my heart deeply to see him ... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 13:19:08 EST Good and bad... Today was a day of many emotions. My grandson, turned 4 today, a milestone his father never got to see. Looking at pictures of my son holding his newborn son only 4 years ago, makes me think that I could never have imagined he wouldn't be here to see his boys grow up and become men themselves. Though it was only 4 short years, it seems like an eternity now. He loved his sons so much, and they miss him unbelievably badly. Looking through pictures I found one of him lying on the floor with the ... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 20:58:52 EST Cold and blah day here Today is an active recovery lifting...normally I would go to the gym and do some cardio, but I have my grandsons to get on and off the bus...time is at a premium...I'm planning on trying a SP video this evening after they go home....going to the gym does lift my mood some, so I know I need to get the endorphins going another way. Yesterday I accomplished a few things around the house...shoveling snow and vacuuming and cleaning my bedroom. I'll do some cleaning up around the downstair... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 10:22:47 EST Staying the course... Currently working out at the gym on a 4 x a week program, today was upper body circuit? <BR> Bench press 3x15 65lb; lat pulldown 3x15 75lb; DB Incline press 3x15 50lbs; seated row 3x15 75lbs; military press 3x12 45 lbs; barbell bicep curls 3x15 35lbs; tricep pulldowns 3x15 55lbs...after each circuit, today's program had 6 minutes of cardio-I did mine on the spin I think I felt a little more into the program and both yesterday and today my effort and interest were much higher... ... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 21:50:42 EST Working on it Just returned from the gym with my daughter. I had a very good workout, but it wasn't easy to get through. It's as if I'm only going through the motions. I'm doing what I know I have to do, but there's no burning desire like before when I first started. I know I need to get fit again, but I'm really having difficulty pushing myself. I feel pleased with mysef for the workout I put in, though. Today was lower body circuit...barbell squats 15 reps-70 lbs; 45 second planks; hip thrusts 15 reps; l... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 14:37:17 EST And so it goes.... The new year is suppossed to be a time of new beginnings and resolutions; a new start, with fresh beginnings. How can that be when a piece of my heart was ripped out the day my son was taken from this earth? There's no way to piece together my shattered heart and the memories of our lives together are the only things I have to hold onto him....that's just not the same. There is no celebration of a new year when I'm still reeling from the loss of my precious child and all the future promise h... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 23:31:01 EST Goodbye 2014 I am beginning my 9th year of this journey. I have had ups and downs along the way. I lost 145 lbs from 2006 to 2007 and I've kept 90+ lbs of that off. Unfortunately, after the most difficult year of my life, I find myself over 200lbs again. Something I swore would never happen to me ever again! While there is no excuse for this having happened, my life has been turned upside down and I'm stuggling every day just to find a reason to get up! On June 17, 2014, the most unimaginable tragedy occu... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 10:11:14 EST Hard to understand I have met many people at the gym over my past 7 years as a member. It's nice to have a chat with other women and discuss what works, or doesn't work for us. I had a very disturbing conversation with a woman who spends hours in the gym everyday, working hard from cardio to weights, and she's in pretty good shape, possibly 5-10 pounds over what a chart would say her ideal weight was, but most women would love to be her size and shape. During our conversation she dropped this tidbit on me: I'm ... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 21:18:50 EST Thinking out loud I'm reflecting on the past 37 years of my marriage, as we begin year 38, and realize that life has so many twists and turns. I may not be exactly where I thought I would be at this point in my life, but I'm happy, none the less, and would do it all over again. As I've stated before, there is only one regret in my life experience, and that is not getting fit and active so much earlier. However, I no longer continue to dwell on that and accept that I'm there now and it's something of which I'm ... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 09:13:08 EST Keeping it fresh I love my time in the gym pumping iron...I am often finding reasons to skip cardio so this week even though spin class is something I've been doing it for 8 years now, I have found that I can motivate myself, and so my own thing when the class instructor is not doing so. So instead of skipping the class on days when I know I don't care for the instructor, I just put on my own music and do what it drives me to do. I really enjoyed each class this week because of this mindset. Additionally, I t... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 23:08:57 EST small victory I usually take the weekend off, but since I made a resolution to up the cardio, I planned to take spin class this morning. When I got up at 7:00 it was raining, so I rolled back over to go back to sleep until 8:00. Well, I slept through 8:00 but woke up at 8:20, started a mini-debate with myself, go, don't go.....after about 5 minutes I finally said, just get up and go! So, I got up, hurriedly did my hair, brushed teeth, washed face and got dressed and out the door (with an energy bar for bre... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 14:08:15 EST feeling satisfied Cardio has been an issue for the past few my weight lifting, but cardio since field hockey has ended, is the thing I like least...additionally, on Mon/Tues/Wed my grandsons are here and the 9:00 spin class time is inconvenient....but I have made a concerted effort to get my cardio time. I did the treadmill on Monday for 30, the stepmill on Tuesday for 30, Wednesday was an off day, Thursday 55 minutes of spin, today 60 minutes of spin....additionally, I've been killing it with th... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 13:41:50 EST New Milestone! As I was leaving the gym yesterday (where I proudly went after shoveling my car out from Snowstorm Hercules) I realized that my Get Healthy Anniversary had passed on 1/1/14....8, eight, EIGHT years ago I weighed 300 lbs!!!!! There have been some blips since then, and I am no longer 149 lbs, but I'm still eating healthy and working out. I'm comfortable in my own skin, though not satisfied with where I am....I refused to let the weather interrupt my progress....I can honestly say that this life... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 09:41:52 EST Softball season Week one is complete. Things went well, though I only had 3 games this week. Kept up with all my workouts, except Saturday (10:00 game-need to arrive 30 min before-and 40 minute drive). I had planned to go after the game, but it was freezing (it snowed during) and when I got home I just wanted to get warm. I'm not thrilled with myself over that, but I have to look at the other positives I can take away from the week. For instance, ditching the energy drinks/bars and replacing them with health... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 11:10:35 EST WhooHoo! It was so great to be back on the softball field yesterday...and even better that I had no physical pain when I woke up this morning. Typically,mthe day after a game would be very painful for me, with knee and even some pain in my Achilles losing 10% of the weight I was carrying around has had an obvious positive impact...hoping that my game scheduled for tomorrow doesn't get cancelled because of today's rain. Tue, 12 Mar 2013 15:09:31 EST Been under the weather But still on track! I caught a nasty upper respiratory virus from my babies...feeling pretty crummy since Friday. Happy to say I didn't let this interrupt my progress or derail me! I did all my strength training sessions, as scheduled, cardio wasn't as intense,because it's hard to breathe, but I moved....evenSunday when I really was at my worst I went out for walk not really pushing it, but I moved, so I'm happy with that! I'm still #streakintospring-ing and I think that's great under the cir... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 20:47:51 EST Crappy mental state of mind Today was a trying day, and I found myself having a pity party....I don't often do that, but I have my problems, just like everyone else. While in the midst of this self-induced crisis, I found out how destructive this type of behavior could be....this happened while making my salad for lunch. I caught myself starting to loosen my self control and stopped midstream. I thought immediately of the effort I put forth in spin class this morning and snapped out of the mental funk. I realized that h... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 22:27:16 EST New week same streak Still going strong now for 18 weeks! I'm getting close to my next SP trophy so I've been on here a lot recently. Some of the info is so good I wish more people would take the time to read it and put it into practice. I recently saw a post by a SP member on FB under the #streakintospring challenge. She was lamenting her lack of motivation and excusing it away for various reasons and said she wants to try and do better...we all know that verbage, and the lame excuses - been in that place before... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 13:38:49 EST Another day, another thing to be proud of Typically, Sunday is an off day for exercise. But SP had a #streakintospring challenge of doing at least 10 minutes of exercise everyday in March which I accepted, so I decided to do just that, 10 minutes....which turned into two miles and 45 minutes of power walking! It was 40 degrees and windy....but it felt good anyway! <BR> <BR> I knew I would end up doing more than10 minutes, but, still, I promised myself I only had to do's always satisfying to push yourself and do more than you... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 16:56:50 EST Myth "Toning" workouts = lifting lighter weights for high reps are best for women looking for muscle definition. <BR> <BR> Truth: forget about it! You need to lift heavier to see results! Studies prove that lifting lighter weights ( less than 70% of maximum effort) for 12 reps or more is simply going to produce muscular endurance without much muscle growth, meaning you'll be able to lift for a higher number of reps but won't see any physical difference. Looking toned means more developed muscles ... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 14:47:39 EST Small triumph.. I'm not really jazzed about Saturday workouts...but the current workout I'm doing has me lifting 5 days w/Thursday an off up I get when the alarm goes off, the lift is bi/tri's supersets so I get finished in short time...I'm already up, and it seems a waste of time to leave after lifting, so, spin class it is! 55 grueling minutes later and I've gotten a great Saturday workout finished! <BR> <BR> Happy Saturday! Sat, 2 Mar 2013 12:21:52 EST