BAKE0150's SparkPeople Blog BAKE0150's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Looking Good is the Best Revenge Went out last night with a friend- first time I've gone out in a loooong time. I felt so young and free again. Felt so good to get all dressed up and dance :) She posted pictures of our night, and I was shocked at how different I look. Mentally and physically I see myself, and inwardly feel like an overweight blob. But these pictures do not represent how I feel! I actually look good! And really thin! I need to stop being so hard on myself and accept that I am in the peak of my beauty and fitn... Sat, 10 May 2014 18:11:55 EST Another heartbreak, another weightloss Ok, me and Anthony finally broke up after 5 months and it was long-overdue, but of course I'm still so sad to have lost him. Our relationship was based on lust and boredom, so I knew it had to come to an end. Now I'm excited for what's to come- I know there is someone perfect out there just for me! <BR> To help me get through the break up I've just kept myself as busy as possible- picking up extra shifts galore. As a result I've dropped down to 140 pounds- I haven't weighed that since colleg... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 23:39:53 EST 27! Oh my goodness, I can't believe I've been blogging about my journey since the age of 25. I remember how much I dreaded turning 25, but I couldn't be happier about turning 27 last week! :) <BR> I"m in the best shape of my life- finally down to my goal weight of 145 pounds and I love how I feel and look in my clothes. I've been in a new relationship since November and I'm really happy with him - he makes me feel good about myself and makes me laugh all the time. <BR> I'm working two jobs and ... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 13:10:04 EST The Aftermath After completing my 9 week bike trek across North America, I've returned to Edmonton and I"m doing well! I've unfortunately gained 10 pounds since before the tour, but have maintained the weight since September without going up. I've moved into a house with 5 other girls and joined a World Health gym, but lately I've been slacking. I started waitressing during the day at the Olive Garden and am so tired after my shifts. Spring is coming up again and it's time to get back on track! <img src="... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 09:52:49 EST Sea to Sea I'm currently biking across North America to raise money for poverty! I'm on week 9 of 9 - the tour ends this Saturday. I started off at 145 and am probably about 155 by now. I was hoping to maintain my weight- but we are constantly being fed delicious food and because I'm burning so many calories I'm starving all the time. I'm really worried the weight will continue to come on after the tour is over. <img src=""> Wed, 21 Aug 2013 22:25:47 EST Choosing to be Happy I reached my goal weight and I'm looking my best. I bumped into Curtis a week ago and was excited for him to see how good I was looking. I've lost almost 15 pounds since our break up and I was hoping he would see how good I look and am doing and want me back. But no follow up contact :( <BR> It made me realize weight does not bring happiness. I thought if only I reached my goal weight, my life would get better and I'd be happier. But let me tell you I'm still sad and heartbroken. And I'm not... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 08:36:01 EST Bikini Ready! Next week I'll be heading to Florida for my mom's 50th birthday. A month ago I weighed 161 pounds, today I went on the weigh scale and I had to blink at the number - 152 pounds! Wow that feels so good! All my hard work is paying off. I haven't even had to be too strict- I still allow myself a cookie here and there, and last night I had a beer with dinner. And a glass of wine most evenings. I'll be turning 26 next week as well, and I'm not dreading it like I was to turn 25. Thu, 28 Feb 2013 09:24:00 EST First 5 pounds... It feels so good to have lost five pounds. Already my clothes feel better and I'm feeling more confident. I've been working out every day for an hour, and it's been great to keep my mind occupied. No word from Curtis, but I'm really hoping if I give him some space he'll figure out what he wants and come back to me. I miss him so much!! Thu, 21 Feb 2013 12:13:19 EST Heartbreak and Weightloss So Curtis broke up with me, leaving me heartbroken, devestated and depressed. He said he got "cold feet" and doesn't think he's ready to be in a serious relationship yet. It hurts so much, and I'm struggling to stay strong. Luckily I'm back in Ontario with my friends and family and they have been a huge support. Because of the depression I haven't had much of an appetite and easily lost 5 pounds. Plus I've been at the gym daily, it's my only escape right now and keeping me strong. <BR> I sig... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 12:59:58 EST Back to Fat A lot has been going on again. Holland didn't work out, so I ended up moving back to Ontario after 4 months. Curtis and I are struggling in our relationship so decided to take a step back and just take things slow. I'm in a slump, lost my confidence. I don't have a job, living back with my parents, and back to 160 pounds. I worked so hard to lose 10 pounds this summer, and now all 10 pounds have come back. Since coming home I've been at the gym pretty much daily so I'm hoping to see results s... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 16:00:25 EST Summer Clothes I tried on my summer clothes last night and they were TIGHT. Oh no :( Curtis is coming in a month- I"m becoming desperate, but at the same time I feel stuck in this daily struggle. Wed, 7 Nov 2012 14:06:20 EST So Difficult Self control is so hard and food is so good. I just polished off a big plate of leftovers for lunch, a peanut butter and jam sandwich, two cookies,two pudding cups and a box of raisins. ANd I'm still here thinking I could really go for some more sweets. Chocolate- definitely chocolate. Why is it so hard!? Thu, 1 Nov 2012 08:56:56 EST End of the week... So this past week definitely wasn't perfect. My portion sizes continue to be oversized- but I'm filling my plate with a lot of fruit and protein, and whole wheat bread. Plus I've been running 7-10km's every day and biking a lot. I get into a running zone, and have accepted it as part of my daily routine, which is good. I wish I could have more self control of food though- especially sweets!! Fri, 19 Oct 2012 08:16:54 EST Week 1 Day 1 I am trying the Tame your Sweet Tooth Challenge. Today marks my one month anniversary in Holland- I have splurged enough in the good stuff and it's time to get back on track. Curtis comes here in two months and I want to look and feel my best for him. So far so good today, I had cereal and an apple for breakfast- and no coffee. Three hours later I had a slice of bread and peanut butter plus grapes on the side. I splurged and had two bites of peanut brittle. Now I'm about to go for a long run ... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 05:15:28 EST I'm Baaack! And in the Netherlands! Wow so much has been going on for me. In August I met the love of my life. I've been single for two years, but when I met Curtis it was love at first sight. We knew right away we were meant to be. The only problem is I was already scheduled to move to the Netherlands for one year to work as an au pair. Curtis has been 110% supportive and we're stronger then ever. I'm excited to move back to Canada next year and finally settle down. <BR> Things were going really well in Canada eating and exer... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 15:24:06 EST Broke my plateau! In January I was at my highest weight in 5 years - 160 pounds. That's when I decided to start Spark. Over time I was able to lose ten pounds, and fit into my clothes with ease. However, my goal has been 145. I can't believe how hard it's been to lose the last five pounds! Some days I work out twice, because I"m so deteremined. Suddenly this morning, I seemed to have broken my plateau- I weighed 149. Wow what a great feeling! Sat, 21 Jul 2012 15:14:26 EST 10 km's in my undies So on Saturday I successfully completed the underwear affair- running 10km's in my underwear. It was not easy- it was hot, my thighs were rubbing together and burning in pain, and it seemed to take forever. But I completed it in 55 minutes - four minutes faster then my last race! I was so proud of myself for completing such a challenge! Tue, 19 Jun 2012 22:38:27 EST The Underwear Affair! So this Saturday I am running 10 kilometers in my underwear to raise money for for prostate cancer research! I am very nervous- about being so exposed in public. But I figure now is the best and probably last time in my life I will be brave and confident enough to run in my undies :) I've raised 275$ so far!! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>te/Donation2?idb=1779816301&df_id=1443<BR>&FR_ID=1231&PROXY_ID=1847578&PROXY_TYP<BR>E=20&1443.donation=form1&JServSessionI<BR>d... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 23:40:32 EST Quarter-Life Crisis So on Monday I turned 25- and it was terrible. It's the first birthday I had that I felt old and unsatisfied with my life. I thought by 25 I would have my dream career, be married, maybe have a baby. Instead I"m single, living in a temporary city, unsure what I want to do career wise, and in debt! I hibernated and ate a bag of popcorn and double stuffed oreos. I ignored my birthday messages and cell phone. <BR> Today I'm beating myself up. 25 isn't old! I still have so much going for me and ... Wed, 7 Mar 2012 12:29:32 EST Peer Pressure It's odd to think of peer pressure at age 24- but it's definitely still a struggle of mine. My younger sister actually "tempts me" the most- but it's her way of showing she cares. We do a lot for each other- and she shows her appreciation with baking and cooking delicious treats. None of them healthy. When we spend time together it's usually over drinks and greasy appetizers. She's always been naturally slim and has NO interest in healthy eating or exercising whatsoever. Last night we hung ou... Wed, 8 Feb 2012 12:01:19 EST Alcohol Sabatoge Ugh. I can't even track my nutrition yesterday. First off because I ate SO much I can't remember half of it. Second because I don't want to know what the "damage" is I did in just one night. I had an overall good day then went to my sister's at night. We were just lounging in our pajamas and watching a movie when some buddies said they'd stop by and visit. <BR> They brought over cases of beer and cigarettes. My sister was making us all chocolate mint vodka shots. I lost track of how much I d... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 15:51:46 EST Back on Track! Wow I've been feeling so good lately! A good friend of mine from college moved to Edmonton and we've been spending a lot of time together- it's so refreshing to have a true friend around who I can be completely open and honest with. Plus we've been motivating each other with fitness tips and encouragement. She recommends the Jillian Michaels 30 minute toning video- I'm going to buy it this week. I'm excited for the upcoming changes in my body and energy! :) Sat, 28 Jan 2012 15:02:40 EST Losing Motivation I'm in very bad shape right now- I went to a bootcamp yesterday and can hardly move today. Every muscle in my body aches. On top of that I have a terrible chest cold, it hurts to cough and swallow. I went out for lunch today at Ricky's All Day Grill- came back to calculate the calories- 1,000! Just in lunch alone! Boo. Fresh start tomorrow. Fri, 20 Jan 2012 22:44:30 EST Blue Monday Worked this morning 8-4pm. Came home- it's currently minus 32, so I have no desire to leave my toasty apartment again. But at the same time I have a desire to munch on chocolate and peanuts I have stored in my cupboard. <BR> This weekend I went out partying, but hardly drank- I volunteered to be DD. I got invited to go to a buffet dinner, but turned it down. I"m not going to the gym today, I'll work out extra hard tomorrow. Mon, 16 Jan 2012 18:36:35 EST NoBody's Perfect I just completed the quiz on self-image. My results; You need to work on your body image. No matter what weight I've been at I still feel like I need to lose more pounds and tone up. Why do we live in such a model obsessed society? When i'm at the gym it's only the "perfect bodies" that stand out to me and I envy to look like them. But in reality, if I actually open my eyes, I realize there are no perfect bodies. And reading the blogs on this website makes me realize I'm not the only one stru... Fri, 13 Jan 2012 14:30:40 EST First Pound Lost Weighed myself this morning and definitely lost a pound. Doesn't seem like a lot- but if you think about it that's equivalent to a whole block of butter! Plus it's the first time in a LONG I've weighed myself and have been DOWN in weight. I moved to Edmonton in August 2010, and since then have been gradually putting on more weight. It's definitely a good feeling to see my sacrifices this week are paying off :) Thu, 12 Jan 2012 12:23:02 EST Temptations All Around I'm doing really good right now- went to the gym the past two days and am eating very healthy. But temptations all around are getting stronger. At work there are cookies in the kitchen, this weekend is a birthday party involving drinking and eating out, I'm sore from working out and want a break today. Yesterday was stressful at work and I had a smoke. Gotta stay motivated! Wed, 11 Jan 2012 11:24:00 EST Blob New Year New Lifestyle <BR> <BR> Since moving out West I have somehow lost my motivation and passion to live a healthy lifestyle. Living in the city makes it easy to eat out often and socialize- involving a lot of unhealthy food and drinks. I turn to food when I'm with friends, bored, stressed, lonely, happy, hungry, not hungry... But not anymore! 2012 is the year for me! Tue, 10 Jan 2012 18:29:25 EST