AWELLS189's SparkPeople Blog AWELLS189's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Oh hey "New Me"... I missed ya there So over the past year I have been a roller coaster not only with my weight, but also my emotions too. As anyone can tell you those two come hand in hand... Last year, I was so proud of myself for hitting the 60 lb. mark and actually hitting 160 for the first time since middle school. As time went on, I did notice the pants getting tighter and tighter yet I did nothing. I was finding excuse after excuse after excuse. I was too tired to go to the gym. It was so much easier to go out and g... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 15:30:41 EST New Start soooo Here's A Blog to Get to Know Me: A-Z A - Available or Married: Engaged as of December 28th! Not that I'd say I was available before of course. <BR> <BR> B - Book: The Count of Monte Cristo, hand's down. <BR> <BR> C - Cake or Pie? Pie - who doesn't love the fruit (especially if it's fresh) <BR> <BR> D - Drink of Choice: Teas (Mint or ESPECIALLY Chai) <BR> <BR> E - Essential Item: My iPhone. What did we ever do before smartphones? <BR> <BR> F - Favorite Color: This actually changes periodically... was blue, then green, bu... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 11:15:20 EST Just a few thoughts from the week - I am less than 10 pounds away from a healthy BMI (9 lbs to be exact - 158)! I can begin to see the end in sight, which is crazy to me since I just started the change of lifestyle in January. I love seeing that progress, especially now that my goal weight is only 17 lbs away. I can almost taste it. <BR> <BR> - I cooked a healthy dinner and now I feel like an adult... WOW. What amazes me even more is I now like to cook. I went from swearing up and down I'd never be domestic, but who knew... Thu, 17 May 2012 23:34:44 EST 1 year & 50 Pounds Down - Goodbye Frank. Let me begin with this... you may be wondering - who the hell is Frank?! Frank is the small child that I just lost in body weight since my all time high 1 year ago. I apologize for the long blog, but this is my reflection on the past year: <BR> <BR> This morning last year, I woke up a completely different person. As I awoke to my college boyfriend in my dorm for the last time, I was filled with excitement at the thought of my college graduation. That would be the last time I woke up in a... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 09:20:13 EST Trying to Find the Spark - Will Need All the Help I Can Get I hate to say it, but no secrets for me because secrets turn into shame.... I had another, what I'll call, "episode." It happened a couple weeks ago, where I went on a complete carb binge and lost control. The binge itself was better this time (that's not to say it wasn't horribly out of control, just better) but the problem this time was I didn't exercise at all. What I've come to accept that a healthy lifestyle isn't just diet OR exercise - it's both. That being said, I felt like crap a... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 16:27:05 EST Things That Have Helped Me So Far - Being open minded to experimenting with new things (food, different exercises, etc.) <BR> - Being consistent and moving every single day. That doesn't necessarily mean the gym 7 days a week anymore, but at least up and moving. <BR> - Keeping a food journal because it keeps me more accountable. <BR> - Writing in my blog... it gives me an outlet so I don't overwhelm my friends and family with my progress, and it's a chance to interact with people that have similar goals. <BR> - Sneaking frui... Sat, 14 Apr 2012 00:47:48 EST Random Thoughts and Random Experiments So today marks the third month that I've been working with my trainer and doing weight training in addition to my cardio. To give you an idea of my progress (which is unreal) - I've dropped over 30 lbs, 4 inches from my chest, 5 inches from my waste, and 6 inches from my hips.... all estimated at the moment. Because of this, I decided it was time for a reward. While at Marshall's I found a Michael Kors purse that originally was $364 which was now selling for $200. I decided that it was ab... Thu, 12 Apr 2012 23:07:29 EST Taste the Rainbow (No, Not Skittles) So today I had a revelation. Before I decided to turn my diet upside down and eat right, I was eating BLAND. The majority of foods I ate were white or beige, and I had no problem with that. I'd eat the occasional lettuce here and there, but even that was iceberg so it was pretty close to white as far as veggies go. I look at my meals today, and wow has it changed. It's more interesting to look at (and in all honesty, tastes better too). There was bright, vibrant greens and oranges and r... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 20:46:12 EST So I lost a battle... doesn't mean the war is over. Last night was not pretty - I've done it before, but losing control is very scary. In the past I've been known, in a moment of stress, to trigger a terrible binge eating episode. In all honesty, I understand what I'm doing in the moment, but it's like someone else takes control and I can't stop. I keep going back to the cabinet and before I know it I've indulged in 3000 calories of straight carbs (and yes, I wish that was an exaggeration). <BR> <BR> Last night it happened to me for the f... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 23:11:21 EST What a week... Ups and downs can't keep me away from my goal. Well, I've been meaning to write this since last week (just ask the bf) but just when I was on Cloud 9 reality brought me back and challenged me for sure. Let's start with the good: <BR> <BR> Last week was the final week of my Biggest Loser Competition at the gym. I knew I had some stiff competition and 10 weeks in I was beginning to get worried. When I say I went hard last week - well, that's just a plain understatement. Did I mention 1st place got $720 cash!? I have to say... it was w... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 23:46:06 EST Back to the Good Ole South Fried Chicken. Pot Likker. Sweet Potato Casserole (and I don't mean the good for you kind. I mean the kind loaded with brown sugar and sweet like a dessert). - These are all things that are synonymous with eating southern soul food and living in Atlanta. Just take a look at this restaurant Mary Mac's Tea Room and you'll get what I'm saying... YUMMY! ( <link> </link> ) <BR> <BR> A few weeks ago I found out I'd be returning to Atlanta for a week long business trip. Th... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 22:36:06 EST Ready, Set, Jump... Some Background on my Journey I decided 47 days ago that I was no longer happy. Well, in all honesty I realized I wasn't happy back in July, but it was January 9th I decided to take my life into my own hands. Having just graduated college in May, I moved over 1000 miles away from my friends and family for a new job and (what I didn't realize at the time) a whole new life. <BR> <BR> My first love and I decided to end our year long relationship and at the same time I realized that maybe I had chosen the wrong career ... Sat, 25 Feb 2012 10:35:44 EST