AUTCODJADCAL's SparkPeople Blog AUTCODJADCAL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Can I do it? Okay, so I was going strong, lost 20 pounds back in April. Continued to work like crazy, fell off the sparkpeople website radar, and all of a sudden lost myself in the black hole of crappy food, no gym, and just shear laziness. To make matters worse, I took a personal vacation to CT the end of August for a week and low and behold I lost ALL motivation. Now, I sit around on the couch, after eating a large, delicious Arby's shredded chicken sandwich, compelete with fries and that mouth watering... Mon, 7 Dec 2009 00:49:09 EST Defeated? Okay, so the last couple of days haven't been to good at all. I guess it started when I went to El Paso. I got into the idea of just grabbing whatever to eat. Although the 2 days I was there I think I ate maybe 4 times. But things ae not any better. <BR> <BR> I feel like giving up, and it's not because I wasn't seeing results, I am. But I just can't find the time to take care of me. I haven't been to the gym in well over a week because I was out of town and then I was sick. I would love to ... Tue, 7 Apr 2009 11:24:48 EST Blah I am not having too good of a time right now. It is really getting hard to stay away from temptation and stick to only the things that are good for me. I have failed miserably in the last 3 days. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I actually do not have anything to eat at work again today, and am dreading having to make the decision to NOT eat something bad and eat a salad from Subway. It is so hard. <BR> <BR> I think a big thing is that I am so tired. I have not been sleeping well, maybe getting 4 ho... Sat, 28 Mar 2009 10:05:52 EST Healthier before? Okay, so when I first started working out, I had very little problems. My breathing was labored but I would recover quickly. My heartrate nnever really got too high. All of a sudden, I can't even complete a program on the treadmill without feeling exhausted, winded, and my heartrate feels out of control. I sometimes can't even get a deep breath in. So wash I healthier before I started working out? <BR> <BR> I will keep on working out, but no doubt will have to tone it down a bit, AND I will... Mon, 23 Mar 2009 21:34:48 EST What is a girl to do? It is definitely difficult times right now. I have been working like crazy. 13 hours on Friday, 13 hours on Saturday, and although I had gotten Sunday off because someone forgot to relieve me and I had to work part of a graveyard, I had to go into work on Sunday from 7-11. I am back at work this morning and am so exhausted. But, I am viewing this as me proving myself in the way that if my boss needs something she knows she can depend on me. My place of work is very very competitive, so I hope... Mon, 23 Mar 2009 10:06:35 EST I'm being screamed at Okay so yesterday I worked out really hard at the gym. 25 minutes on the treadmill and 20 minutes on the circuit. And my inner thighs and legs are screaming at me today. I am so sore, BUT I still went to the gym and did 20 minutes on the treadmill. Only burned 155 calories today opposed to 540+ yesterday, but it is still something. Besides I have a nasty little migraine on the left side of my head since last night. And it really started to pound when I got into about 12 minutes on the treadmi... Tue, 17 Feb 2009 13:18:00 EST Trials and Tribulations Okay, so yesterday definitely was not a good day for me. Whether it be on the home front, at work, eating, or exercising. I was a complete emotional wreck yesterday at the house, thought for sure that my husband was planting seeds in my head for a divorce and the fact that he was seeing and ex-stripper/bank coworker of his. I did not do everything at my job yesterday that I should have I slacked completely and did the bare minimum to keep my officers safe and provide a service to the communit... Mon, 16 Feb 2009 18:38:31 EST Not going to make it Okay, so I wanted to lose 10 lbs by 2/21...NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. Instead of losing consistantly like my best friend, I continue to fluctuate between 223 and 225. I don't know what I am doing wrong. She's lost like 10 lbs or more, I have done nothing. Her pants are falling off of her...mine sit about the same. What to do? <BR> <BR> I really don't know I am at a complete loss. I exercise...although not consistently, I eat well...again not consistently...HMM starting to see a trend...CONSISTENCY... Thu, 12 Feb 2009 17:28:44 EST Having a hard time Okay, so a couple of weeks ago I was as happy as could be. Nothing really bothered me and I was going to work because I actually wanted to and I was happy coming home to see my children, well all of that has changed. Lately I don't want to go to work because I want to, I go because I have to. Now don't get me wrong, I have a fantastic job, but I just don't want to go. I stress about coming home to the kids because my 9 month old has decided that I am no good for him and all he wants is his da... Tue, 10 Feb 2009 14:34:08 EST My blog Sat, 24 Jan 2009 07:51:18 EST I found strength and faith through a one pound miracle <link> </link> <em>264</em> Sat, 24 Jan 2009 04:31:32 EST