AUNT_BETH_64's SparkPeople Blog AUNT_BETH_64's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Two years later.... I began this week getting back on the horse, so to speak, with the Spark Plan. Today I decided to begin posting to this blog again. Imagine my dismay when I discovered my last post was made exactly two years ago today. I obviously DID NOT stick to the plan back then and am wondering if I will be able to lose the weight this go round. Only time will tell! I've had a good week so far. I see that in 2009 I had just made it through a 6 week stretch and managed NOT to gain any weight over the holi... Thu, 6 Jan 2011 13:56:29 EST Another step toward my goal I am pleased to report that I met my goal of not gaining any weight during the holiday season. In fact, I ended up losing two pounds. Around Christmas I wasn't sure that I would make it, but somehow managed to renew my resolve and make it through the month in a good place. I know, I know, a mere two pounds lost over six weeks isn't much to brag about, but for me this is he first time in my life that I didn't GAIN any weight during the holidays. <BR> <BR> Now my challenge is not to become co... Tue, 6 Jan 2009 19:17:31 EST New Day, New Month, New Year I'm not one that is inclined to set New Year's resolutions. With my personality type I find them too confining and that they tend to set me up for failure. I long ago realized that my resolutions tend to be too unrealistic. I think that I put too much pressure on myself to be successful and just end up setting myself up for failure. I finally came up with one I could keep. For several years now my resolution has been, "No more New Year's resolutions!" <BR> <BR> Seriously, I don't set New Ye... Thu, 1 Jan 2009 16:59:05 EST One holiday to go I weighed in last night and found that I have only gained one pound so far this month. The bulk of our family holiday happens prior to and including Christmas day. The foods we welcome the new year with are much more healthy--steamed cabbage and black-eyed peas. Now with Christmas behind me and only the New Year celebration to go I hope I can safely say that I have had a successful holiday season. Perhaps by next Monday I will have even re-lost that extra pound that found it's way to my hips... Tue, 30 Dec 2008 12:15:55 EST Mr Bingle <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The Christmas season has me waxing nostalgic for family members no longer with us, for home, for childhood. I use to gain 5-10 pounds between Thanksgiving and New Year's Day. If I close my eyes I can imagine my Mom in the kitchen and smell all of the wonderful aromas of the special holiday dishes she was so well known for--her special fruitcake, the cornbread stuffing, fudge and divinity--she spent days and days prepa... Mon, 22 Dec 2008 15:31:17 EST A Better Day I was on the verge of a mini-meltdown yesterday. I'm not really sure why. Today is a much better day. <BR> <BR> I know I shouldn't weigh in more than once a week, but I weighed again today just to see if the one pound that I thought I had lost was really gone. I was encouraged to learn that it is still gone. <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> I am grateful for the progress. I am grateful that I am in a better mental place today. I am grateful that this is a short work week. Tue, 25 Nov 2008 10:54:45 EST Another Monday Here it is another Monday. I've lost another pound, so why do I feel so down? I'm making progress--that's a good thing, right? Why am I so hard on myself? Simply "good" is never "good enough." <BR> <BR> STOP IT BETH!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> I am determined to be grateful for all things. I will not let these feelings draw my attention from my goals. <BR> <BR> I am grateful that I lost another pound. <BR> I am grateful that I'm feeling down, because this feeling causes be to draw closer to Christ. <... Mon, 24 Nov 2008 11:49:31 EST Snow Flurries Today brought the first signs of winter with snow flurries falling briefly this afternoon. The seasons are so clearly defined--falling leaves signal the arrival of fall, blooming flowers bring the promise of spring, chirping crickets sound the approach of summer. Do you think that God also leaves "clues" to alert us to His promises coming to fruition in our lives? I use to believe that was the case. I WANT to believe, but then again why do I need signs? Recently I've struggled to deal with a... Tue, 18 Nov 2008 20:45:10 EST Developing Consistency Well, I somehow skipped logging in to Spark yesterday. It COMPLETELY slipped my mind. It is yet another example of my need to develop more consistency in my life. To be honest--it really reflects a need for discipline! I need to be more self-disciplined in regard to eating and exercise, but even more so in my prayer life and time studying God's word. <BR> <BR> I truly love God with all my heart and all my being--you would think that alone would result in my always wanting to be in His prese... Fri, 14 Nov 2008 11:26:19 EST I'm Back This is my first time back on the Spark site in over a year. I am not sure why I dropped off. I guess I just got discouraged. The good news is that today i learned that my current weight is about 4 lbs less than it was the last time that I recorded it on Spark. That news was very encouraging. I still have so far to go, but it is good to know that I didn't lose ground during my time off of the program. (To GOD be the glory!) <BR> <BR> I plan to slowly ease back in to the program by once again... Wed, 12 Nov 2008 14:12:40 EST 07/07/07 On and off throughout the day I have heard news reports about the high volume of lottery tickets sold today, betting in Las Vegas and other casinos, weddings taking place, induced labor so children will be born today...the list goes on and on....all because people believe 7 is a lucky number and triple sevens has the power to bring unprecedented luck. What a difference it would make in this world if that much belief and action turned people to Christ. Talk about hitting the jackpot! Life in C... Sat, 7 Jul 2007 21:47:54 EST Refreshing I haven't been able to log into Spark for a couple of weeks. It is so refreshing to finally be back and find that all of my friends have been doing well. This Web site is such a blessings. It is amazing how so many types of support--physical, spiritual, emotional can all be found in one place. I am thankful that someone was inspired to build and make it free to the world. I pray that the blessing be returned 100 fold. Sat, 7 Jul 2007 11:18:58 EST When it rains it pours As I prepared to leave for work this morning water began pouring down from my bathroom ceiling. It was raining outside, but I think the shower drain from the condo unit above mine has sprung a leak. <BR> <BR> I've had a lot on my mind: <BR> <BR> My Uncle Wayne has not been feeling well for a couple of weeks. He is in the hospital now, yesterday they just discovered he has a blood clot in his lung. <BR> <BR> My brother-in-law Billy was diagnosed with skin cancer last week. It is not termin... Thu, 14 Jun 2007 14:59:28 EST Perspective God is so good. I had a much better day today. (No memory lapses--not even the tiniest of words.) I had a lot of work projects that had stacked up on my desk. I got in a little early and dove right in. I came up for air about 3 pm wondering if the day was ever going to end. Ha Ha God kept me busy and my mind occupied all day. I am so thankful to have the Holy Spirit to reassure and comfort me. God certainly knows how to put everything into perspective when you let go and let Him be in complet... Tue, 5 Jun 2007 21:42:01 EST Memory Lapse Before I write about my memory lapse I have a praise report. Today I went for my six-month check-up with my Endocrinologist. She was very complimentary over my weight loss and the fact that my Diabetes is under control. PRAISE GOD! She said that most people tend to begin to gain a little weight once the blood glucose levels are in check so that makes the fact that I have continued to lose even better. If I continue to lose over the next six months she may even begin to take me off some of the... Mon, 4 Jun 2007 16:30:45 EST Lessons Learned? Hi Kim- <BR> <BR> Thank you for the note on my blog. It has been over a year since I finally made the connection between my weight issues and the cravings deep in my soul. You would think that having this realization would have resulted in having my weight under control by now. The problem is--I am human. I can walk in this revelation for a while then before you know it I've allowed the cares of life to distract me. What I want to figure out now is how to walk in this revelation and knowl... Sat, 19 May 2007 11:09:41 EST The quest for Spiritual Balance I just shared part of this on a team message board. I need to search my heart a little more so I am going to use this blog entry to continue exploring what is on my heart . <BR> <BR> A while back I finally began to realize my weight issues have resulted from trying to satisfy my spiritual longings by turning to food. I realize that this is not the reason other people struggle with weight--but I have to admit that my spiritual needs are at the core of why I overeat. It really boils down to m... Sat, 19 May 2007 02:13:39 EST God is good, ALL the time! I had gained a couple of pounds back, work has been a extra challenge lately, but you know what? I KNOW God is in control, so I just have to keep reminding myself to press in even closer beneath the shadow of His wing and He will shelter me as the storm passes. <BR> <BR> As of yesterday the few pounds I had allowed to sneak back on are gone again. As of Monday I will have a new Division Director. I think I am beginning to see the SONlight peek out between the storm clouds. <BR> <BR> YES! G... Fri, 4 May 2007 15:12:41 EST When all hope is lost..... I posted this on one of my team message boards this morning. I decided to copy it into my blog too: <BR> <BR> When I woke up this morning I was thinking about how the followers of Jesus must have felt on this day 2,000 years ago. How their faith must have been rocked! For three years they had been listening to this man, following his teachings, believing he was their Savior, only to have witnessed his arrest and crucifixion. They loved Jesus, on top of their grief at his death, how confused ... Sat, 7 Apr 2007 14:02:40 EST Why is it? I gained 4 lbs this week. <BR> <BR> Why is it that as soon as I begin to feel proud that I am losing weight---I gain? Why is it that I don't continue to push through and continue to do what I know I should be doing? Why is it that I am weak when it comes to food? Why is it that I sabotage myself? <BR> <BR> This time it will be different! I recognize the hazard area and I resolve to redouble my efforts so I will continue progressing toward the healthy and fit person I was meant to be. Tue, 3 Apr 2007 22:32:10 EST 10% I am so excited! I have lost 20 lbs since the first week of January. and 44 lbs from what I was at my highest weight! I didn't really make a "New Year Resolution" to get back on track --my weight has gone up and down so much over the past yea so January just seemed to be a good time to begin keeping an accurate record of what I'm doing on a weekly basis. It must have been the motivation I needed because I've been losing steadily since then. It's a good time to reflect. I've now lost 10% of m... Wed, 21 Mar 2007 11:58:15 EST 4 Month Check up Monday I have a doctor appointment. It is the 4-month follow-up check-up after the surgery. It still seems surreal to say that "I had cancer." God has blessed me so much! Not only is the cancer now gone with a very small chance that it will ever return, but my overall well-being has improved. I didn't realize how physically low I had allowed myself to get until I started coming out of it.. As I get stronger and healthier it is easier to begin to get the weight off. I know that continuing to... Sun, 11 Mar 2007 12:47:05 EST Small Steps As of today I am -14 lbs for the year and -38 overall. I can't tell a big difference in my clothes yet. My tops are looser. The important thing is that I am feeling better. Can my steps really be lighter? It is beginning to feel that way. Tue, 27 Feb 2007 20:11:09 EST Motivation As of last Tuesday I've lost 8 lbs so far this year. That is a decent start, so why am I lacking motivations and feeling discouraged today? Mon, 19 Feb 2007 14:50:15 EST Bored I've had a good week. I've practiced healthy eating and portion control. I've increased my walking. I feel better and have lost weight. Now I'm facing the weekend--I'm bored and lazy. I'm fighting the urge to graze. What is it about the weekend? I've worked hard all week and feel I deserve to relax a bit--but why the urge to eat? If I could figure this out it might be the key to complete weight loss success. Sat, 10 Feb 2007 14:07:10 EST Making Progress I've had a few better days while the blood glucose level is still high it seems to slowly be coming down. Being physically active in addition to making good food choices seem to be making a difference over time. My greatest challenge is consistency. Wed, 31 Jan 2007 10:17:55 EST Diabetes I had a particularly bad day yesterday. While my Blood Glucose is still a bit high this morning (163) it is much better than it was when it hit an all time high for me yesterday (303) then remained in the 200's all day. I am praying that the much improved reading today is an indicator that I have turned a corner and am now moving toward getting the diabetes under control. <BR> <BR> I think we (humans) take for granted just how much complexity God put into creating the human body. We are inde... Thu, 25 Jan 2007 10:15:02 EST On the right path I'm feeling good this week. I am upbeat and feel like I am on the verge of making some progress toward my goals. It has taken a while, but I think I had to get myself in the right mental state of mind before the changes began to be a part of my daily life. Mon, 22 Jan 2007 20:38:20 EST Catching Up There is just so much to do on the Spark site that I find it a challenge to be faithful to updating my blog. <BR> <BR> Since the first of the year I've been wearing a pedometer and counting steps. It was a shock to do it the first day and find out just how little I had been walking on a daily basis. I know my job is sedentary, but had no idea I was walking so little over the course of the day (less than 2,000 steps). I set 5,000 steps a day as my first goal. I have only exceeded that once... Thu, 18 Jan 2007 13:15:21 EST Week 1 It has been a good week. I have increased my exercise and made healthy food choices. I won't weight in again until Tuesday but I think I've lost a few pounds. What a great way to begin a new year! Fri, 5 Jan 2007 16:33:11 EST New Year Fresh Start It has been a long time since I've posted to my blog. I had surgery in early November then stayed off of Spark most of the time I was home recovering. I went back to work last week and am trying to get back into my regular routine. <BR> <BR> Although I wasn't on Spark have been able to lose a little weight. I am now hoping the momentum will carry me into the new year. <BR> <BR> I'm glad 2006 will soon be behind me. It has been a rough year. I am so blessed that my health issues are now ... Fri, 29 Dec 2006 18:14:06 EST Checking In I am still trying. I'm not getting positive results, but I won't give up. The good news is that over the past few months several health issues have been revealed. Over the next few months these should be resolved then I should be able to move forward and finally see my efforts pay off. Sat, 14 Oct 2006 15:12:41 EST Why am I not losing weight? Does anybody understand the Basal Metabolic Rate? (Basically it is how you determine the number of calories you need to consume to maintain weight vs. what you should consume to lose weight.) <BR> <BR> If I understand it I should be losing weight. My BMR is about 3500 calories. Spark gave me a goal of between 1910 and 2260 calories a day. I have pretty faithfully stayed between 1250 and 1800 calories consumed per day since I joined Spark, but I'm not losing weight. I do have issues with ede... Fri, 18 Aug 2006 16:22:15 EST Catching Up I realized today that I have been neglecting my journal. There is just SO MUCH to do on SPARK! To catch up I think I will copy and paste some of the messages I have posted in various discussions areas into my journal. This will give me an on-going record of my progress. <BR> Fri, 18 Aug 2006 16:21:16 EST Beth’s top ten reasons to lose 100+ pounds 1. To become the woman God created me to be. <BR> 2. So I can improve my health. <BR> 3. So I can fit comfortably in an airplane seat and not have to ask the stewardess for a seatbelt extender. <BR> 4. So I can walk all day exploring and site-seeing without having to stop and rest along the way. Then not be exhausted at the end of the day. <BR> 5. I want to be able to walk and talk without losing my breath. <BR> 6. To sit comfortably in theatre seats, restaurant booths etc. <BR> 7. So I can s... Sat, 27 May 2006 11:59:00 EST First Triggers As I do the mental and physical work that I need to do to become fit and healthy, I also know that this is not something that I can bring into balance overnight. It has taken me 44 years to get to my body into such a state of disrepair--it will take a lot of time and effort to reverse the neglect. <BR> <BR> As for the emotional roots--while I come across as outgoing, confident and vivacious--I know the truth--the physical layers on my body are insulation to protect my tender self from hurts... Fri, 26 May 2006 00:13:45 EST Goals for this month My goals for May and hopefully beyond. (I've been working on these since I joind Sparks, but just figured out how to post them on My Sparks Page) <BR> <BR> 1. I'm working on increasing my vegetable and fruit intake. This is improving, but I'm not quite up to the recommended quantities yet. I know I can master that over the next four weeks. <BR> <BR> 2. I joined a Curves gym in December but stopped going toward the end of January due to some minor surgery. I've continued to pay my monthly me... Fri, 26 May 2006 00:07:45 EST Commitment I am overweight and far too inactive. This has been a life long struggle. It isn't that I don't KNOW what to do, my problem is a lack of commitment. I thought it might help me to make this public committment to making the necessary changes to become fit and healthy. Fri, 26 May 2006 00:05:40 EST